i feel like i would be happier if my grandma was gone

[spiral stump]

i have to share a room with her, she wakes up insanely easily so i can’t sneak out of the house, i can’t be on my phone at night or she flips out, she’s always tryna get me in shit, she always “smells something” when i quit smoking n switched to vaping (nobody else smells anything ever and quitting weed was purely out of respect for my uncle letting me live with him, she found razors i took apart trying to get the blade and i said i was just trying to clean them, and she said “don’t think we’re stupid”, if she wasn’t here i’d have so much more freedom, so much less anxiety, and a room 😭😭but whenever i think ab wanting her gone i feel guilty understandabley

[spiral stump]

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[arctic fractal]

Wishing for someone to be gone is not wise especially your grandparents. Even though she sounds strict to you but i guess there are reasons behind this. From your profile has stated that you are 15-17 years old and you smoke and vape too. You know it's illegal for someone at your age to do that right? OP I'm sorry but i think what your grandma doing is not entirely wrong. Perhaps you should listen to your grandmother more so things might be better. Maybe you could also ask for her permission to go out rather than sneaking out, it wouldn't hurt to ask right? Do you think she do this because she hate you? I doubt that. She probably care about you.

[white sundial]

Man you wishing your family death..... are you sure you want to live like that

[spiral stump]

ain wishing death on her, i don’t want her dead, she js pulls the same shit as my mom and it drives me insane so ion wanna live wit her

[white sundial]

I mean it’s your grandmother

She wants you to get better

[spiral stump]

as for this, i get my first message sounded hella bratty, but i got kicked out of my mom’s house, my mom was insanely shitty, she accused me of stealing 1000$ from her, i asked her for a razor once, she said no n bought herself a 500$ laptop the same day, n she always plays victim

also, as for my grandmother, i was tryna sleep wit my phone next to me, n she started feeling around my chest for my phone n woke me up so i got pissed n she said “hit me”, i have no history of hitting any family members or anything, i doubt that comes from concern

i ain yell i was just not whispering

[white sundial]

What’s razor? And also it’s her money she can do whatever she want with also how did you got kicked out

[spiral stump]

it’s not her money

[white sundial]

If your grandmother gone you have no where to go

[spiral stump]

she lives wit my uncle n i live wit my uncle

[white sundial]

Oh

[spiral stump]

yeah

he pays for everything but she acts entitled to it

[white sundial]

Damn y’all been going through some, you good?

[spiral stump]

shi i got a girl n ion wanna leave her otherwise i’d be dead atm 😭😭

[white sundial]

Look

How about start slow

First is

Stop vaping

[spiral stump]

i quit smoking out of respect

if i quit vaping imma be 10x more anxious, 10x more suicidal

[white sundial]

Great

[spiral stump]

n i have a therapist i’m not talking outta my ass

[white sundial]

Bro if you got therapist you gotta tell everything you got or you will stick into your problem

[spiral stump]

if it was my uncle doing that shit that’s fair but she ain doing nothing for me

[spiral stump]

i tried

last session the entire time i was about to cry

i usually write a list of shit i wanna tell her

n i ain even get through half cause i didn’t wanna break out crying

[white sundial]

it’s okay to cry

[spiral stump]

i can’t let myself even if i try

[white sundial]

That’s human man

[spiral stump]

i promise i’m not js a spoiled brat

another thing my grandma does is search my pockets even tho she never finds anything

[white sundial]

I mean I would ask her what you doing

[spiral stump]

only reason she pisses me off that much is cause she pull the same shit as my mom

n my mom kicked me out n accused me of stealing 1000$ from her

[spiral stump]

when she always complained ab money

[white sundial]

Damn

Did you steal money before?

[spiral stump]

not from her 🤣

other than like bus change once

[white sundial]

I mean is she know about that?

[spiral stump]

bus change? i told her after

n it was cause she wasn’t home@for@me to ask n my bus was about to come

[white sundial]

Oh

I don’t know how to deal with this accuse thing

[spiral stump]

yeah it’s over n done with my uncle don’t believe her

my uncle’s a great dude, if my grandma wasn’t here i’d be doing sm better, that’s the point of my first post

not that i want her dead, it’s that she’s ruining a good thing for me tryna get me kicked outta here too

when she first found out i was smoking she tried to make my mom kick me out right then n there

[white sundial]

I think smoke is cause that happen

[spiral stump]

yes but she tried to make me homeless before

she tryna do it again

n she sayin she smells weed, not a vape

vapes don’t smell anything like weed, esp not “triple berry ice”

[white sundial]

Damn

[spiral stump]

if i had like a tobacco one or sum MAYBE i’d understand

bht

no one else smells shit

[white sundial]

Then just don’t worry and keep do the right thing

So you don’t get in trouble