#i’m relapsing:/
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sh and ed mostly
||self harm and eating disorder|| mb
Oh sorry you are struggling with that. Why do you feel you are engaged in that? Trauma?
so much trauma, i’ve been addicted for a while now
Well firstly, you need to understand that it’s not your fault you were victimized, it doesn’t speak to who you are
Secondly, you should know that we all have demons and tendencies that developed for various reasons, you’re not broken. Love yourself, and work logically to create a system around you
A system that can weed out the root cause, and help avoid it.
Have you considered professional help?
There’s a stigma but it can do wonders
my therapist doesn’t help, and my parents are threatening to send me to another state to a mental hospital so i can’t talk to them anymore
well i feel a little love from someone as of today… but besides that i’ve felt unloved since i lost them all
somebody online, i have nobody irl
Are you in a small town or big city?
small
Okay makes sense, do you have negative or positive thoughts generally?
pretty negative usually
Are you in school? Level?
high school, year two(turning 17)
Okay so no friends at school?
not anymore
one ||killed|| herself after her father ||died||, the other did the same after she left. i doubt it
Oh sorry to hear that, did you start sh after that?
yeah
How long has it been?
months
Okay, as a grown adult, I promise you life has ups and downs, the ups are great and worth waiting for
There’s a million people out there, billions, you will make new friends
Are you worried you can’t make new friends? Do people like you or not?
well idk if i want new people, i feel they should jus stay away from me
i feel i’ll just bring everyone down with me
Before your friends left, were you generally a happy person?
yes, they made me the best i could be
Okay, how long have you had the ed, only after they left too?
i’ve had it for a couple years now, the problem is that she would help me so much with it, she would take care of me, now i can’t
Do you have an issue keeping calories inside you or too much calories?
too less
Okay I’ve known someone with this