#Help

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sly rover
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Progress isn’t just when it goes good! Part of progress is failing again. So we can learn more ways to better ourselves

zealous harness
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But it's too late

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I've already started to cut

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I'm hopeless and I'm sorry

sly rover
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It’s never too late

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Have you considered seeking professional help?

zealous harness
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Well i have a therapist but i barely meet with him

sly rover
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That’s a good start! What about being inpatient at a hospital to get you out of crisis situations?

zealous harness
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It's just he has conflicting schedules with the after school things i do

sly rover
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Yeah I get that. It can be difficult to set time aside

zealous harness
sly rover
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Ik buddy. I was scared too but it was the best thing I could have done. Nothing worth doing is easy

zealous harness
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I know that they are only able to help but still I'm scared

sly rover
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It’s ok to be scared

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I’m scared often times too

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But there are great resources available to help with that? The hotline and hospital are 2 great ones.

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What are you scared will happen?

zealous harness
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I'm scared the hotline might trace a call to my house and then tell my parents which would make everything worse and i know this is irrational but still

sly rover
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That has a right to scare you

zealous harness
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I've heard so many things when hotlines find where you live

sly rover
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How would things be worse?

zealous harness
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My parents would either support me or be disappointed with me and i don't want to take that chance again

sly rover
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You’ve done nothing to disappoint them buddy

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Ik it’s hard to see that

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But it’s the truth

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Sometimes those chances are worth taking right?

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Especially at times like this. It’s far better than the alternatives

zealous harness
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I'll be honest i trust the alternatives Alot more

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Then someone on a line

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Because i might know the person on the line

sly rover
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The alternatives are horrible.

zealous harness
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I mean the alternatives

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To me

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Aren't bad

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But aren't good

sly rover
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I really think telling your parents would help

zealous harness
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They cause more harm than they are worth, the alternatives do cause harm more than they need

sly rover
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Exactly

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That’s the ultimate disappointment

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Not you struggling

zealous harness
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But I'm just scared of what might happen

sly rover
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That’s valid bro

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I was too

zealous harness
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Even though it might go good

sly rover
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But how much worse could it get?

zealous harness
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I'm still terrified

zealous harness
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I just dont know anymore

sly rover
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Well considering you want to commit a horrible action tonight

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I’d say anything is worth a shot right?

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Worst comes to worst we are right back where we started. And we have proven to ourselves we are able to get through with the help of others

zealous harness
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Yeah, but right now I know it sounds weird but it feels like my mind is fighting a battle but my worst fear is happening in my mind

sly rover
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I understand

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But this is how strength is made

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Making the hard decisions with our best interest in mind

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Despite the lies our mind tells us. Persevering and going through with them

zealous harness
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That fear is i don't commit and i try to not do this and i take counter measures so i don't have something to harm myself with

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The fear is what i don't want happening

sly rover
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How about you tell your mom or dad how you are feeling?

zealous harness
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I don't know, i I know I've said I'm scared but i am

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I know they care

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But it's hard to reach out

sly rover
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Ok there you go bud

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You know they care

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Always remember that

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Especially when fighting with your mind

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I’m here for you and right by your side

zealous harness
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I've realized they try to be amazing but they don't have to try

sly rover
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Ik you can tell them

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I believe in you

zealous harness
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I don't know tho

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I'm scared

sly rover
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You don’t have to know

zealous harness
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I know they would listen

sly rover
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Do you trust me?

zealous harness
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I trust you

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I just don't know about reaching out

sly rover
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Well trust that I know it’s super important to tell your parents

zealous harness
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I'm sorry i don't think i can

sly rover
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I wish I could be there with you and help you tell them

zealous harness
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I'm not brave

sly rover
zealous harness
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I'm not anything more than a wimp

sly rover
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Stop the self negativity

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Believe in yourself

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The more you tell yourself that the further you get

zealous harness
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I haven't told them im sorry I'm too scared

sly rover
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It’s ok

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You don’t have to apologize to me evwr

zealous harness
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I want to but everything tells me to not

sly rover
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But I’m telling you to

zealous harness
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Yeah that's true but my mind says no and i feel terrified

sly rover
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How do we conquer fears?

zealous harness
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I guess we take risks for some fears or just ease into them

sly rover
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We take the risk

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And fight against it

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And then one of your biggest fears right now. Turns into your greatest ally

zealous harness
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I'm gonna try to ask them for more help tomorrow but for right now i think i should sleep

sly rover
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I’m proud of you

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That’s a huge step

zealous harness
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And if it's that time for you, you might need to sleep

sly rover
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Your safety is more important to me than my sleep

zealous harness
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I might get more help soon when i see my therapist again

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I see him in about 3ish days

sly rover
zealous harness
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Uhhhh maybe not tonight but I'll tell him about the suicidal thoughts i have

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I'll ease into it I'm still scared

sly rover
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Fight the fear

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Ik you can

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And I believe in you

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But you gotta be completely honest with your therapist

zealous harness
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I know but I'm scared and this is out of my comfort zone but i just have to face it

sly rover
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That’s how you improve. Half truths will only be a disservice to you

sly rover
zealous harness
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It's just gonna take time

sly rover
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And you will have the best sense of relief you’ve ever felt

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And I’ll be super proud of you

zealous harness
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Thanks

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Thanks for everything

sly rover
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Always 💜

zealous harness
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Good night

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I hope you sleep well

sly rover
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You too bud

zealous harness
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I'll message you so you don't have to worry

sly rover
zealous harness
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In The morning

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:slughug:

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Bruh

sly rover
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@zealous harness

fast gazelle
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provided he actually went to school

zealous harness
sly rover