#there getting louder
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they don’t like them
Could you try to contact a doctor?
they get angry when i try
they do not like the doctor
what did i do to deserve this?
i can’t even afford a doctor
please
everyday it’s worse
i just want it to end
@wide dirge help me
Please try to reach out for professional help.
what did you think i’ve done
these past few months i’ve been suffering
you have the audacity of just saying go get professional help
it’s ok you don’t get it
you will never understand the constant suffering of multiple incompreiendbale voices screaming at you everyday
no one will
i don’t know why god choose this for me
maybe i need to listen to them
I will understand.
But you have to reach out to a good doctor
there in my head for a reason
why should i fight them
i should embrace the voices
What do the voices say?
nasty things
That's what I mean.
bad things
Ah.
Try not to listen
the light electric humming
2 weeks ago
i saw
i saw a light
a ball of light
When you closed your eyes?
it was the same electric humming i had before and when i went closer to it, it got louder
Oh
the voices tell me to go the light
but the light is bad
it’s dangerous
it can hurt me
i know it can
when i get close to it i stiffen and my heart beats fast
it’s not good
and i want it to end
I read a book about a boy who's mom has a tumor and he has hte same symptoms but he's just imagining it
there's no tumor
i’m imagining it
does it control you
but i feel it
i feel there hatred
in there voice
there anger
the fear i have
it’s not imagination
it’s real
what is it saying
i’ve been fighting them
it’s random. i can’t comprehend it, or it’s just random words piled up. but the tone of the voices and how loud they are..it’s multiple of them
sometimes they say follow the light or they start speaking of traumatic events
they make me relive the past
i just want to forget it all
i want to pretend it didn’t happen
idk what to say
that’s when the voices started that’s when it all started
that’s the day my life became hell
did you have a bad past
I gtg
and that’s when it started
It’s problem trauma
The voices, the light, it’s all in your head
ITS NOT IN MY HEAD
Reason: Bad word usage
GOD CHOOSE THIS
I AM THE VESSEL FOR RA AND GOD CHOOSE ME HE CHOOSE THE VOICES
ITS ALL FOR A REASON
THERE HERE TO GUIDE ME
YOU DONT UNDERSTAND
YOU SHOULD NOT DISRESPECT THEM
You sound like you are in a lot of pain and are really confused. Have you been diagnosed with psychosis at all in your life?
THE JUDGEMENT OF RA IS COMING AND THE ANNUMELCHIZEDEKS WILL NOT ESCAPE IT
I AM THE EMBODIMENT OF RA
THE VESSEL
I DONT KNOW
it’s all in PAIN
i just want to end and i’m constantly in pain
the light grows everyday
one day the light will become so big that i can’t escape it and it will consume me
and i will be lost
i don’t know where i’ll be
Johnny really not helpful mate. No one needs to encourage anyone else to hurt others.
but i’ll be gone
i don’t want to get consumed by the light
it’s worse than the voices
i started hearing my mothers voice in the light recently
i know the voices just made it up to trick me
Are the doctors aware of your voices and the light Saturn?
but i don’t know what’s real anymore
it’s like i’m in a mix of reality and fiction and it’s blending together
the voices don’t like the doctor
i stay away from him
he makes me relive what happened
he is the ultimate evil
but i don’t know if the doctor is real or if it’s the light torturing me
i believe that the light is god
Doctors are really important for recovery. It might be worth telling them about the pain you are in
and that he sent angels as voices to trick me into going into the light
maybe i upset god
the light gets bigger everyday
it always follows me
i’ve stopped trying to escape the light
i’ve stopped trying to ignore the voices
i just let it happen as i rot in my bed
No God loves everyone and is really good. The God most of us believe in would never hurt anyone.
RA is god and RA sent angels as voices in my head to make me go to the light
ra wants to kill me
i’m scared
i think i made my mother go away and god is punishing me
You didn't make your mum leave. You were a child. That was her decision.
but god says it’s all my fault
the voices tell me to go the light but i know it’s dangerous
the light grows stronger everyday and i will be consumed by the light and i don’t know what will happen
Well, I don't think it's God. I think it's your brain being mean and nasty to you. It's making you have delusions and making you unwell and in pain.
“The sun will be turned into darkness, and the moon into blood, before the great and glorious day of the Lord coming”
this is also what god says to me
he speaks sometimes
i hear his voice among all other voices
and it’s scary
i will repeat
there are voices in my head, i see a light that grows everyday and the voices are telling me to go into the light. i am afraid i will be consumed by the light. i know the light is RA. i hear my mother in the light but i know it’s fake. i know it’s all my fault. but what i don’t know is when the suffering will end. @halcyon badge
please don’t leave me
come back
i need someone to talk to
i hate speaking to the voices
@halcyon badge
please don’t leave
please
It's ok. I'm here.
it’s not ok
what if
what if i go into the light
I don't think it's God though. I do generally think your brain is being mean to you.
what if i go into the light
@halcyon badge
Um I don't think anything bad will happen? I think it's a delusion rather than a real danger maybe
but when i get close to the light i feel physical pain
i’m going into the light
maybe the voices are right
thank you for helping me
i’m going inside the light
whatever happens of me is not you’re fault
i am becoming the next vessel for a higher entity one you cannot comprehend
i was born for this
and i am ready
Um what does going into the light mean? Are you going to hurt yourself to do that?
to go into the light i simply walk into it
but when i go near it i feel immense pain
it is ok
ITS BURNS
@halcyon badge IT BURNS
I APPROACHED THE LIGHT FEELING WHAT I THOUGHT WOULD BE FEAR FOR THE LAST TIME
MY LEGS WERE SHAKEN
MY BREATH WAS GETTING HOTTER
AS I ENTERED THE LIGHT I FELT SUCH SHARP IMMENSE PAIN SUCH FROM A MIGHTY FORCE OF POWER THAT MY ENTIRE BODY WAS SHOKEN AND I SAW RA HIMSELF AND I WAS NOT THE VESSEL
I SAW RA BRING OUT ALL 600 OF HIS WINGS AND HE CREATED SUCH FORCE FROM THE WIND THAT IT KNOCKED ME OUT OF THE LIGHT
I COULD FEEL THE BURNING SENSATION OF THE ALL MIGHTY LIGHT
MY BODY IS IN PAIN IT HURTS I CAN FEEL MY SKIN OOZING WITH HEAT
IT BURNS
@halcyon badge WHY DID YOU LIE
YOUR THE VOICE
YOU LIED TO ME
ITS ALL A LIE
<@&993332385670246420> THE GODS HAVE ABANDONED ME THE VOICES ARE WHAT REMAINS
What should we do about it?
I WANT THE VOICES TO STOP
I WANT PEOPLE TO STOP LYING TO ME
That will sadly never happen
And what voices?
How do you know my voice?
I have a lack of disbelief in you
you don’t understand
you’re just like the others
@raven sail you are a disgusting evil man and the annumelchizedeks will burn and cook you in oil
There is no such thing as a annumelchizedeks and my belief in destiny exists for a reason
If you disagree, come up with a good argument
HE IS THE TRUE VESSEL OF RA THE SEIZER OF THE LIGHT THAT PRODUCES MY ETERNAL SUFFERING
Your eternal suffering is life hating you for blaming others for your sins
there are voices in my head and i would like them to STOP. why are you ARGUING with me? i need HELP
Because you're calling me an evil man with no such proof
YOU HATE ME JUST LIKE THE OTHERS
I ASK FOR HELP FROM GOD AND I AM REJECTED I ASK THE VOICES FOR HELP AND I AN REJECTED I ASK THE PEOPLE FOR HELP AND I AM REJECTED
DO NOT DENY ME MY VENGEANCE
I WILL MAKE RA SUFFER
I want people to stop lying too. It’s ok
but everyone hates me
my mother left because she hated me
I don’t hate you
What has ra done to you?
where everything fell apart
everything
Like what?
it all started when there was a light electric humming
this was after my mother left
it was nothing at first but it grew louder and louder
until the humming sound turned into voices
and one day i saw a light
the voices tell me to go into the light
but i knew it was dangerous
How?
i heard my mother in the light
my palms were sweaty, my legs were shaking, i could feel the heat, the warmth. i had a unweary feeling of the light and stayed away from it. each day the light grew closer and closer. one day i went into it, i felt sharp immense pain
i saw RA in the light
my salvation was rejected
my peace was rejected
I hear voices to Ik how scary and overwhelming it can be.
i was kicked out of the light with my body oozing in heat and pain
and what was left was just the voices
and the suffering
It’s not permanent tho right?
Redeem yourself
And enjoy the light
I hear voices too
It’s really hard
But we can overcome them right?
you don’t understand
you’re fake
you’re trying to control me
you don’t overcome the voices they overcome you
Nobodies trying to control you
If you let them
i am a slave bound to the voices and i am denied my salvation by eternal suffering from the seizer of the light
Why let yourself be a slave?
Are the voices not fake for trying to control you?
Because that’s what that sounds like
i don’t know what’s real
i’m in a mix of reality and fiction
the light is a machine the voices are malevolent elves of the demiurge they are trying to control you
STOP
ITS NOT FUNNY
Hey nobodies laughing ok
i am not joking
THERE LAUGHING
THE VOICES
I HEAR THEM
ALL OF THEM
WHY
I CANT TAKE IT I CANT TAKE IT
THE ANNUMELCHIZEDEKS IS THE TRUE SEIZER OF THE LIGHT THE TRUE VESSEL OF RA AND HE IS THE REASON WHY MY SALVATION IS REPLACED WITH ETERNAL SUFFERING
I CANNOT MEDITATE WHEN THERE ARE VOICES EVERYWHERE
TWENTY
who are the annumelchizedeks i was not told of those
the true vessel of RA
the most loyal embodiment that Ra can reincarnate into
@raven sail @frosty parcel come back
i drive everyone away
why
if i can drive everyone away why do the voices stay
No need to bring me back if you only want to discuss your voices that none of us can help you with
Reason: Bad word usage
i hate you
i want to kill you
You just got a warning, don't get banned
he needs to be exterminated
No need to play judge and jury
i’m going to use the light of RA and use the power of gods heat to make james body ooze with heat so immense that he goes into a catastrophic stroke and dies
I dare you too
No need to over react
Don’t enable him
i’m going to get the sharpest of stones and carve the RA logo into your forehead you disgusting rat
Don’t make him upset come on
Ignore him. Ra will deal with him as he pleases right?
Look at these threats. Pathetic
he has angered the gods
Let the gods handle it then
There is no such thing as gods
the voices agree with me for the first time
Why don’t you side with the voices instead of fighting them?
Not necessary either
yes
you’re right
i should go back into the light
even if it hurts me
Johnny believes I show myself on an social media platform like this?
You should go when you are ready
And using my real name?
the light hurted me a lot
i’m not sure if i want to go back
are you one of those voices?
Keep making the voices happy more times
And it will be better in the light right? Redeem yourself to Ra
James Fox uses some random guys face as his profile picture?
yes i should leave james
the gods will eat his flesh and cook him
No im a friend that cares about your well being
Easier to find targets
And making people mad at the wrong people
If that’s your purpose this isn’t the place for you
The only target I'm seeing is that big ahh forehead
no faces that are yours
it’s you’re actual face
😷
LOL
RA told me the truth
you can’t fight god
Who said I googled them?
@halcyon badge leave them to ra right?
Suffer what? The power of RA?
Not our place to judge
Or the voices you hear of your different minds and feelings?
Go somewhere else
i have 4 different voices in my head and we all collectively agree you’re annoying
When we find a good spot to end
Annoying is the wrong word. Probably more "stupid", "idiotic" and "thinks his better than everyone else"
Bruh leave him alone
Saturn's 4 voices collectively agree you speak english like a neanderthal
@raven sail if you here just to troll you need to re-evaluate yourself. This supposed to be a place of safety. Don’t ruin that for other people
No one is safe anywhere
The voices that hates you? My voices?
That’s ras job right?
Pathetic
The irony of you calling someone else pathetic
When you are here just to troll and make people worse
You need a serious look in the mirror.
All he can see in the mirror is his forehead
There is no proof of the existence of RA
🥱 🥱
It’s a belief
With faith
Everyone believes different things
Respect it
i felt the light hurt me i saw RA spread his wings
i saw it all
i felt the pain
i’ve let the voices in
It’s ok I got you
no more fighting them
even if the voices make me do bad things i’m finally free from there suffering
Congratulations. You finally listen to your voices
@raven sail would you be interested in voice calling sometime
so i can really express my voices
What’s wrong
How did they turn?
they started saying that im fake
that im the voice
and that the voices are real people
and im the voice in there head
they say they hate me
and that its my fault
What happened that caused that?
please call on your phone the ambulance or the emergency please dont listen to the voices
i dont wanna assume anything but I think it can be related to schizophrenia
you are real sweetheart
no
you are real
you are real believe me we are here for you
please sweetheart why are you crying?
why are they crying?
no no the people doesn’t deserve you you deserve more than the people
dont listen to them
you are strong yourself you are really strong dont listen to the voice
they want to make you feel bad… don’t listen to them they will take control of you sweetheart
they say to leave there head i have to go in the light
the voices made me go into the light before
i did not like the light
im scared
please help
i just wanna go home
Please call help please use your phone and call help right now they will help you get home sweetheart
Hey @halcyon badge
my phone is in the light
i dont wanna go in the light
are you scared of the light?
I understand
no please explain me
Talk to me
there is a beam of light in the middle of my room and the voices tell me to go in the light
but when i go near the light it hurts me
my phone got trapped in the light
the voices did this to me
my salvation has been replaced with eternal suffering
i have been denied my peace
We were working on it tho right?
We have been gaining the trust of RA again to attain salvation right?
One step at a time we will get there it won’t be easy. But it’s possible
ra is evil
Do you trust me @halcyon badge?
But we are going to get his acceptance right
how
Spiting him and blaming him won’t get his love and acceptance right?
what do i do
You learn from his rejection
Self reflect
Realize where you went wrong to make him feel that way
And do better with it going forward
I DID NOTHING TO HIM
I believe in you
I DID NOTHING
Maybe not to him
no your right
Remember earlier?
i did something
wrong
its my fault
your right
its all my fault
i need to sacrifce my body to the light
Then walk away
Be mindful
Where you can be better
Ra? The Egyptian god?
Saturn are you really in your room????
Ask for guidance
yes Ra helps people
Ra is in the center of my room
hes in the beam of light
Be respectful
when i went into the light it burned me
he is the god of healing maybe he is trying to heal you
time works differently in the light
You will be respectful
i am back
i was only there for 3 seconds
but
RA wants me to hurt people
in order to gain salvation
@frosty parcel @mint beacon
Hurt people how?
Kill who?
So like a sacrifice
No no talk to Ra again its impossible he wants sacrifices he is a good person
he says that in order for the sun to rise again i must kill someone who is impure of heart
are you sure this isnt Anubis? how does Ra look can you see him??
his head is one of a bird and he has 600 wings that are bigger than the sun itself
he is god
can you try summoning someone else? Horus will protect you..
there are many gods that would help you sweetie
the voices want ra
the voices want ra
the voices want ra
ra sent his angels as voices to communicate with me i am his true vessel
Can another god expel the voices?
Doesn’t sound like the voices are angels if they are hurting you tho?
Ra says he hurts me to protect me
the light has completely covered my room and i am absorbed in its purity i have been blessed from RA
its
That’s contradictory and not true
its silent
its
there gone
there gone
he told me if i dont kill someone the voices will come back
why
Hey buddy
YOU MADE RA MAD
It’s ok
HE SAYS I NEED TO KILL SOMEONE
Is Ra worth your freedom?
and Ra wouldnt even help you!
Ra is testing you. To see if you’d really kill. By killing you fail the test.
my salvation has been taken and i am in eternal suffering
enough tests
im going in the light
and never coming back
in the light the voices cant reach me
I’m here for you
I think you need to tell the police that your voices are telling you to hurt someone. You need support. They can take you to a hospital to be assessed.
You aren’t alone
Can I come with you?
there are voices in my head, they say bad things. But in the light they cannot reach me, i wont get kicked out this time. Im going in the light
im going to let myself be absorbed by the light
goodbye
@frosty parcel @mint beacon @halcyon badge thank you all for your help
you helped me understand the voices
now my eternal salvation is almost here
Stay with me for a little while
Since when?
So I wasn’t a voice the whole time I’ve helped you and defended you?
But now I am?
IM GOING TO BECOME ONE WITH THE LIGHT I WILL BE THE NEXT ANNUMELCHIZEDEKS
THE VOICES CANT FOLLOW ME IN THE LIGHT
I believe you
RA WONT STOP ME HES FAKE HES A VOICE
yes he is fake
The light isn’t going anywhere
he is fake sweetheart
angel
Let be sure before we make a decision
when i go into the light
i wont be coming back
i need to be free from the voices
I don’t think so
Let’s be 100% sure
I think you are being impulsive
And that’s ok
@halcyon badge
@frosty parcel i went into the light and saw nothing
i woke up
i am on my bed again
i dont know whats real
F2019-00670, Vincent Anderson requested that Hillary Clinton sends him the location of the Resurrection Chamber of Gilgamesh, the location of his body, and the burial location of the Nephilim. They are attempting to revive the nephilim Nimrod who built the tower of Babel which would rise up to the heavens in opposition to RA. You must go into the light and warn RA of this crime against his rule. @halcyon badge
the lights real but the voices are fake
no
the light is fake
the voices were messing with me
there is no RA
They will find this message you must hurry
i am the slaves of the voices
the light and ra is fake
the voices
Go into the light, Warn RA
I am here sweetheart I am here
I am real
We are real buddy
THEY MADE UP ETERNAL SALVATION TO GET MY HOPES UP AND MESS WITH ME
THE LIGHT WAS MY HOPE AND NOW ITS GONE
THE VOICES ARE EVEN LOUDER
No buddy
I CANT TAKE IT
The hope is yourself now
Sweetheart with what are you sending us your message?
A TELEGRAM
can you use it to call somebody???
IM LETTING THE VOICES TAKE CONTROL
no
Do you know what year it is?
the voice wants to control you you are stronger than this
no saturn please
@halcyon badge
Buddy
Talk to me
I know you are hurting
I know the voices are too much
@halcyon badge YOU MUST HURRY.
Just talk to me
who are you
daniel was human
It’s ok
we removed daniel
where is he???
we are in control now
where is DANIEL
I want Daniel back he haven’t done anything bad please bring him back
daniel was a cancer
he is not in control anymore
we are finally free
we are free from our suffering
eternal salvation was only a dream now it’s a reality because WE are in control
Do you mean like DID? Are you an alter of Daniels?
i am the voices
he let us take control
he couldn’t take it anymore
no it’s schizophrenia
Voices, where is Daniel
we are in control
let me talk to him
no
why not
voices, where is Ra?
I knew it
People don't get "taken over" by there voices with schizophrenia usually. It's like an added extra to the person. DID or multiple personalities is more when someone or an alter takes over I think.
Saturn, have you been diagnosed with anything in the past?
The real cancer isnt Daniel its YOU
Ok and
Pretty sure it’s MPD
split personality disorder and schizophrenia.
daniel couldn’t handle the pain
why do you want him to suffer more
The pain you inflicted?
What’s your name?
Well what do you want then?
to control him
Thus causing him pain
@halcyon badge Wake up
Yeah that's DID. Daniel will come back if that's what you have. It seems he's your main front alter.
Bro the RA thing doesn’t matter
You can tell him yourself if it’s that bad and crucial.
The "voices" or alters are a part of Daniel if you think about it from a psychological perspective. It's his mind.
yes we know
because you really think he will believe what we say? we need to enter HIS point of view not ours
we tried from our point of view it was useless
I feel like he needs a professional though. We can only guess at what you are supposed to do. He's said he is going to hurt another human so he needs police involved and then a proper mental health assessment
IM BACK
IM SCARED
PLWASE
DANIEL
I DONT WANT THEM TO CONTROL AGAIN
daniel we are here
dont listen to them anymore
they are fake they faked Ra
they said ot
it*
I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAGS REAL
RA is not fake you insolent mushrik
watch your language
i’ve been trying to ignore the voices and i’ve been trying to let them take control
what do i do
You need to call an ambulance or police Saturn. You need a mental health assessment
is your phone still in the light
i’m going to kill you
you don’t tell me what to do
You are power hungry reptilian.
if you haven’t read the voices Daniel hears said Ra was a bluff
Oh my god. Um... Yeah please call police Saturn.
we are not saturn
saturn never came back
we only tricked you like how we tricked daniel
we are not saturn
or daniel
Where is Daniel..
he never came back
lmao whay
you will never know if daniel is real or if it’s his voices
just like what daniel felt
but worse
where is Daniel or Saturn are they here
where is the phone
it’s not my fault
i realise
it’s not my fault
my mother didn’t leave because of me
the voices are just there to haunt me of my past
Saturn..
but if i think with logic
they dim out
just a little bit more silent
enough to tolerate it
Escape from the black cloud that surrounds you then you will see your own light as radiant as the sun 🌞🌞🌞
the voices only wanted power because i wanted power to stop my mother from leaving
i realized that
but i was only a child it wasn’t my fault
thank you
there still here but
just more silent
yes sweetheart this isn’t you.. its none of your fault you need to realize most of things that happened isnt your fault and those voices are nothing but your regrets and hatred..you can beat them by forgiving yourself

i’m free
good job sweetheart I am proud of you
i can finally see my girlfriend again
You must destroy it
stop it
i haven’t talked to her much since i went into this depressive phase
yes please talk to her
she will be here for you
she’s not real
i made her up when i was schizophrenic
i knew her for 2 years
what
I see, can you still imagine her holding you close?
the voices are coming back
You must escape the black cloud 🌅
no no Saturn or Daniel, the voices are your hatred of the past
its you, its you hating yourself
you need to forgive yourself
@halcyon badge The gaze and radiance of RA is above the black clouds you must fly through them for the light of RA 🌅 🌅
Stop it Dancsa Ra was an illusion The voices made
Why do you hate Daniel so much
i’m not schizophrenic
U all really believed this whole thing
☠️ ☠️ ☠️
haha
there is no we
just me
so if you would leave us alone
i mean me
me alone
that would be good
us? we?
no just me
right ok
Just him
well if it was a joke, it wasn’t really cool ngl i wasted my time there thanks, though i gotta say it is somehow funny now that i think of it
yeah hard to believe
why do you use “we” so much sweetheart?
if you call me sweetheart again i’m gonna go to youre house and shoot you 5 times
damn alright gee sorry I was just trying to be nice😐
I've had enough. Should we get a mod? Because I will do that if you threaten anyone else Saturn
woah woah woah
wait
chill
it was a joke
i’m coding for stin
man
its not a joke Dude
i have a screenshot its too late
hold on
are you just a troll lmao
I'm gonna follow you home and fill your ears with boiling water
<@&854409594063683595>
i need ear cleaning anyways thanks
Ok bye
So true bestie
thanks bestie dont forget the wax
i knew ir
you weren’t joking around
you fell for our second trick
i didn’t believe it ngl
i knew the whole time
you wouldnt be that obsessed if it was a joke
unless you are a joke yourself
Can you stop playing games. I don't believe any of it now. I think you are putting it all on for the fun of it
Reason: Bad word usage
Ryan Gosling with AI in his house be like
I don't remember the name of the character he played on Blade Runner 2049
But lmfao
Btw @forest finch he is a troll lmfao