#I am really scared rn

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fast pumice
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These emotions sucks and I hate how vulnerable am rn . I hate being this way but I need someone to talk too so bad too and it's just making me feel more miserable. I feel so jealous of people who have friends they could go too or family to talk too. I wish I had someone I can rely on. I really hate how my life was like up until now. I hate how quickly I had to be mature and I hate everything I went through.

fervent zodiac
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i’m so sorry, i understand. these kind of emotions can be really overwhelming when you don’t know what triggers them, would you like to talk in dms about more?

fast pumice
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Should I really though?

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It's all my fault that it came to be like this

fervent zodiac
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it’s not your fault i promise.

fast pumice
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it is

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It seems so like that

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And everyone blamed me for that too

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Everyone in real life that is have a notion and this image of me that I am "perfect" and that I don't have anything to worry about. And even if I cry and say I am not okay , they would say I am being dramatic or if I am mentally sick or smth

fervent zodiac
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i know it may seem like it but its not, they are just trying to make you feel bad. its okay to be vulnerable and have feelings, you shouldn’t feel ashamed about that, you can talk to us about anything. we are hear to help and listen,

fast pumice
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It sucks out here

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I am scared..

fervent zodiac
fervent zodiac
fast pumice
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Many things

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To disappointing my parents especially my mom , to face others and actually of myself

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I have a history of ||self harming|| and am so sick of this feeling to do smth and I am trying so hard to not think bad stuffs but I just can't ignore it that much

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And also that's why am here saying random stuffs idk if it's even venting or just me being frustrated on how weak I am

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I am just trynna distract myself to not do things I may regret

fervent zodiac
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i’m so sorry lovely, i hear you. i’m here to listen to whatever it is you’re struggling with

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that’s good, what are you distracting yourself with?

fast pumice
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phone

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here

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typing

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I am not in a good position

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I will probably be okay later on or maybe not idkk

fervent zodiac
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that’s okay, i would suggest maybe going for a walk to get some air or listening to some music?

fast pumice
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I am probably saying gibberish rn

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It's late

fervent zodiac
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your not i promise

fast pumice
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Midnight

fervent zodiac
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oh

fast pumice
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I woke up from a nightmare

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So can't sleep

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Now

fervent zodiac
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i’m so sorry

fast pumice
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Evie btw I am probably saying more gibberish but ty for being here rn

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Even if I am being weird rn 😭

fervent zodiac
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you didn’t deserve anything you went through. you aren’t saying any gibberish i understand, of course im going to be here to listen anytime : )

fast pumice
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😭

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It's just loneliness

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And I am just feeling bad

fervent zodiac
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i get you, feeling lonely is a terrible feeling and it can cause overwhelming thoughts and things like that, how come you feel bad? did anything trigger it?

fast pumice
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I was supposed to be used to this all but every now and than I slip up and feel sad and it sucks. It's not even like I wasn't lonely to begin with. I was always lonely , so idk why am not used to it yet

fast pumice
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It's been a year or so

fervent zodiac
fast pumice
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I didn't had this much frequent emotional breakdowns before

fervent zodiac
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you shouldn’t have to feel used to it

fast pumice
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But everything started slipping up after shit happened

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You know

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Evie

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If you had a bf and they ||harassed|| your bff and blackmailed them , will you choose his side or your bff's?

fervent zodiac
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yes i get that, if your comfortable could you tell me what happened? you don’t have to of course

fervent zodiac
fast pumice
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I grew up in a place where I wasn't supposed to act like a "kid" at all. Family issues we can say. I didn't opened up much either , I always had to pretend to be okay just so my mom wouldn't be sad. I had 2 bffs ever since I was a child , I met them when we were just 3. It was cause of my mom as all of our moms were bffs too. We were friends for so long so I didn't wanted to acknowledge that people can change and that the people I grew up with changed too

fervent zodiac
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i’ll be right back, i have to quickly do something. say whatever you need i’ll be just a minute : )

fast pumice
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My ex bff , imma call her N , ever since we reached middle school, she broke my trust a lot, using my pics to catfish people to the point some guys came to find me and told me about it , luckily they were nice and seemed to understand my situation and didn't pressed the situation too much. I was really sad when it happened and I talked it out with N but she ended up crying a lot saying she was sorry and stuffs , I started losing trust in her from that time too but I didn't wanted to end things . I forgave her that time

fervent zodiac
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i get how you feel, family issues suck. some friendships can too, people change a lot

fervent zodiac
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it’s good that they understood your situation, it’s nice when someone relates

indigo sierraBOT
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Smilingシ#8671 has been warned

Reason: Bad word usage

fast pumice
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Well it was a bad word

fervent zodiac
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oh

fast pumice
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I can't explain it

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Without that word either

fervent zodiac
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that’s okay don’t worry i get what you mean

fast pumice
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Can I call?

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Insteas

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I think imma close this post now too

fervent zodiac
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i cant call right now unfortunately, would you like to explain more in dms?