i finally get it

[tropic flicker]

It would be unfair to your friends and family. You would cause more grief to your mother. This shouldn't be justified at all.

[covert mica]

i understand that but this is all but a world ive created and i can just take myself out of it, it won’t matter, nothing will
plus im in the process of writing a very lengthy note that can explain my viewpoints on things! i don’t want to sound selfish and maybe im messed up for being so happy about this idk
i don’t want to cause grief to anybody that’s the thing and if i continue living then i surely will, it’s better just to not stay alive anymore i think

i don’t even know why i made this post im sorry☹️☹️

[tropic flicker]

You shouldn't do this.

Your mother would be broken.

[covert mica]

i used to say that for others, mostly because i didn’t understand, but now i do
i don’t want her to be broken but she already thinks im a failure, it would bring even more shame to her if i continued on living plus ill still be here for a few months at the very least maybe

i probably sound selfish but the ‘self’ won’t matter once it’s over

im not sure if you understand how genuinely happy this makes me i have no idea why

[tropic flicker]

You can fix this you know. And I don't think you are a failure to her.

[covert mica]

i appreciate you trying to help i can definitely understand this sounds like an attention seeking post so ill delete it but will look in to this more