Thinking of killing myself.

[kindred hill]

Tonight might be my last night on earth. So much bad shit. There's a knife downstairs and it's just so tempting. I just want to die.

[eternal wing]

Please don't do this.

[inner zenith]

hey, please dont do this to yourself, its not worth it.

[kindred hill]

Why wouldn't it be worth it? I'm about to lose the very last thing I care about.

[eternal wing]

What is that thing?

[inner zenith]

How come?

[kindred hill]

My boyfriend. He told me he's going to bed but I highly doubt it. I can't even make sure he's okay, considering we're in different countries.

[inner zenith]

Have you tried messaging him?

[kindred hill]

What do you mean?

I told him to stay safe, that's about all I can do.

I wish I was next to him right now.

[eternal wing]

Listen, I know long distance can be hard, but you have to commit to it, otherwise it's gonna end.

[inner zenith]

I totally understand where you are coming from, just try and keep a positive mind, even in tough times. Sometimes you just need to hope and think for the best. Try listening to music or doing something that will distract your mind.

[kindred hill]

I'm trying to.

I just don't know how to help him.

[eternal wing]

What's wrong with him?

[kindred hill]

I believe he might have an inferiority complex, like me, and was on the verge of hurting himself.

[eternal wing]

So a lot of insecurity?

[kindred hill]

Yea.

[eternal wing]

Insecurity can be hard to deal with. But it's not impossible to fix.

[eternal wing]

Are you okay? @kindred hill

[eternal wing]

Yelling isn’t going to help.

[kindred hill]

Hm?

[kindred hill]

Meh, not great.

[eternal wing]

Is anything on your mind?

[kindred hill]

I'm just very demotivated to do anything. Kinda numb and tired after my meltdown yesterday.

[eternal wing]

What hobbies do you have? Either I forgot to ask you or I forgot your answer.

[kindred hill]

I like singing, theatre and art

But I don't even feel like doing that

[frozen oar]

ive not read any of the convo here

but please dont

[frozen oar]

look

i have a breakdown every day

nearly

youre not alone

[low sky]

Calm down.

[kindred hill]

Meh.

Thanks for trying, I appreciate it.

[eternal wing]

What was the last thing you drew?

[kindred hill]

This, I believe.

[eternal wing]

That’s a good start. Probably better than I could do.

[eternal wing]

You shouldn't give up on this @kindred hill

[waxen flame]

Woah I really like that! Looks great so far

[kindred hill]

I'm gonna continue it soon, I gotta finish a few projects first.

[waxen flame]

Looking forward to it 😊

[wet light]

If you end your life, you will certainly lose a lot of things that matter to you and what makes you, you. You will loose that personal trademark, you will loose your opportunity to reach long and unknown goals, you will loose everything you achieved, you will loose people and they will loose you too. You don't want that, do you?