#Need to get my life back on track, but how...

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thorny brambleBOT
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Jamixiy#9966 has been warned

Reason: Bad word usage

cosmic lintel
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oh cmon

sick holly
cosmic lintel
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no i'll send it here

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let me rewrite

gusty basalt
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I can send it to u in dms

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So you can copy paste qnd correct it

cosmic lintel
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I'll summarize it concisely

  • Academic performance suffering
  • I've pushed my friends away and they don't like me anymore
  • Feel empty and lost in life
  • No motivation to study or really do anything productive
  • Used to be depressed and suicidal but not anymore because the audio of one shook me and I'm not anymore

So like, what do I do it all feels too much.

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I mean being empty is better than wanting to end it all right.

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And it's undiagnosed but I maybe have BPD.

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That's what my friend said I probably have.

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hello? anyone there?

chrome pelican
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BPD as in Borderline?

cosmic lintel
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yeah

chrome pelican
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I don’t want to speculate. Would you be able to see a professional for an evaluation?

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Lots of things overlap with each other. It’s difficult to say.

cosmic lintel
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its so freaking expensive though

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and id feel better if i do this without "professional help"

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i dont trust the meds

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my friend said that his meds made him even more suicidal

chrome pelican
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Well, you don’t typically take meds for a personality disorder

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Especially borderline

sick holly
cosmic lintel
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i dont feel happy or sad i just feel empty as hell

chrome pelican
sick holly
chrome pelican
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I can help you figure out whether BPD should be considered for how you’re feeling.

sick holly
cosmic lintel
chrome pelican
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How long have you been feeling empty for?

cosmic lintel
chrome pelican
cosmic lintel
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my brain rejects those memories

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ig

chrome pelican
cosmic lintel
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then again i forget what happiness feels like

cosmic lintel
chrome pelican
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I’m not a psychologist. I only speak from experience because I’ve been formally diagnosed with BPD for 10 years.

sick holly
chrome pelican
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I was declared “cured” this year.

sick holly
chrome pelican
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BPD is curable. I learned that from several psychiatrists in my inpatient treatment.

cosmic lintel
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my body rejects positivity but im trying to embrace it more

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i guess thats a step in the right direction

chrome pelican
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Do you want to know what I learned when I was depressed?

cosmic lintel
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yeah?

chrome pelican
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You don’t need to be positive to be happy

cosmic lintel
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that statement goes against ive learnt in my 15 years of living

chrome pelican
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Let me explain

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It’s about embracing all of our emotions. It’s perfectly okay to feel upset, tired, scared, lonely, angry, confident, joyful, free, brave, etc.

cosmic lintel
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but the emotions arent making me feel good so i dont want to feel it

chrome pelican
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They don’t, but it’s in all of us

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Happiness is accepting what we feel and being okay with it

sick holly
chrome pelican
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You read today that I cried a lot because I was harassed by a group of guys at a bar

cosmic lintel
chrome pelican
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I don’t feel good at all right now, but I’m okay with it because it’s just a reaction to a feeling.

cosmic lintel
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im confused

chrome pelican
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I’m smiling and helping you

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I could obsess over how upset I feel, but emotions cycle naturally

cosmic lintel
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i feel attacked af

sick holly
cosmic lintel
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but thats what ive been feeling since i was like 11 and now im kinda broken free out of it

sick holly
cosmic lintel
chrome pelican
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I didn’t realize I was hurting you. I’m sorry

sick holly
cosmic lintel
cosmic lintel
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i think thats being empty

sick holly
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did you asked to yourself why you feel that way?

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what's the reason

cosmic lintel
sick holly
cosmic lintel
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literally no clue

sick holly
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maybe it's something from childhood

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how was your Childhood

cosmic lintel
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this isnt helping