🌈lgbtq

[dark patio]

ok slightly better now. I still don’t feel great but like, once my body gets a little uncomfortable with binding, that becomes all I can think of and it can trigger a panic attack cause suddenly all the risks with binding are front and center in my mind

[brazen willow]

new pfp hours

because if you want to see the fate of democracies look out the windows

[dark patio]

ok

[brazen willow]

no one here gets that reference/qoute ig aight

[pure oxide]

I'm sorry Elsa, that's gotta suck. I'm glad you're feeling physically better

[dark patio]

I’m lucky my boss is also my dad so I could just dip when I needed to.

Still stressed cause, you know, you get that anxiety up it takes a hot minute for it to chill out again, but at least I know full work days are probably not the best days for binding now

[pure oxide]

Yeah for sure

Well, time to take a breather, go get some tea or something, maybe a blanket or stuffie or something if that's your jam

[dark patio]

I’m gonna get some water and chill out by my computer. I keep a weighted blanket right there just for surprise stress like this

[rose ice]

I'm gonna try binding at home before I try at work i think

[dark patio]

yeah, it's best to do it not all at once, in my experience.

usually, if I'm binding at work, I bind on fridays because those are half days.

[rugged glade]

Definitely a good idea to ease into binding. I don't use a binder anymore, but when I first tried one, it was a terrible experience. Put a t-shirt or something on underneath the binder if you can. It can help with the removal afterwards, depending on what kind of binder you have.

[dark patio]

With a longer binder, wearing a sleeveless undershirt underneath it can also help prevent it from riding up, and that is something I wish I had known a lot sooner

[brazen willow]

hows yalls day going?

[torn willow]

I just woke up from my 4 hour accident-nap

It's like 22:00 here. Goodbye sleep schedule 😄

What about you Cherry?

[hidden inlet]

I am pretty tired from working in the sun for like hours (might be working again depends on my dad) but otherwise I’m alright

[torn willow]

Lot's of fluids, cooling down and love to you then, Kiwi~

[hidden inlet]

Thank you!! I am gonna have one dinner first but my dad wants to go back out so hopefully it won’t worsen my sunburn (I burn very easily haha)

[rose ice]

Thanks for the tips guys!

[torn willow]

Sameeeeee! I have like 50 spf sun blocks only and even then I stay in the shade

I don't tan, I just lobsterize

[rose ice]

Same tho I burn so badly

[hidden inlet]

did someone say lobster? 🦞

Lobster...

I have the easy burning combo of paleish skin, red hair and freckles

For ultimate crispy kiwi

[rose ice]

My dream person is a redhead with freckles tbh, though I'm married and I did not marry that XD

[rose ice]

Therefore I made myself a redhead pfft

[hidden inlet]

Becoming your own type is a massive power move ngl.

[rose ice]

Ty ty

[hidden inlet]

I just finished watching Jojo Rabbit and I'm on the verge of tears, oh my God. I did not expect this movie to hit this hard.

[hidden inlet]

That is such a power move

Honestly my dream is very simple of dating someone who loves me for me and I currently am-

even if self doubt hits me like an ass every time

[torn willow]

That is possibly the most wholesome, pure thing I've heard all year

[hidden inlet]

;w;

[brazen willow]

You ok?

[hidden inlet]

Yeah I am hahah

[brazen willow]

Ok

That’s good

[fallow whale]

The plot of metal gear

[blissful granite]

Oh that's a thing I do not like. 😦

I'm from an older generation where LGBTQ+ folk were accused of lying to people to have sex with them. There's a long history of what we've been accused of doing.

[hidden inlet]

Yeah, it's still a thing and it's absurd. I was originally going to add a subtitle like "Wealthy, white, Brittish ciswomen @ transwomen just vibing" but didn't know how to make it work.

[shrewd wasp]

I feel like pointing out the absurdity of such accusation is a good way of dismantling them

like when you just put it so plainly, it's just so silly it's impossible to take it seriously

[hidden inlet]

I'm okay with deleting it if it's not hitting right.

[blissful granite]

I don't think it warrants deleting. 🙂 It's good discussion. I can understand that it's absurd to us, because we live the life. For the uninformed, we had decades of being called pedophiles, rapists, sexual deviants, tricking/drugging straight people, etc. etc. -- and unfortunately this was decades upon decades upon decades of misinformation, lies, and content to demonize.

Folks fall for that stuff

[hidden inlet]

Feel that. Autistic and gay. Apparently that's supposed to make me aa emotionless pedophile.

[shrewd wasp]

that's unfortunately true, but I also feel like joking about it is a good way of opening conversations. Laughter is inherently disarming, as it's one of the clearest indication of lack of danger, so it can switch minds from the defensive to being more willing to talk

[hidden inlet]

Would have to strike a balance between being funny and being hurtful, though, so I definitely get that.

[shrewd wasp]

of for sure, I was about to add genuine laughter that is heheh

[hidden inlet]

Got really deep in the "offensive = funny and honest" shite when I was a teenager. x.X

[blissful granite]

I agree in some aspects. What I'd argue with memes is that there's no tone, no voice, no real way to interpret whether is a joke or is not a joke. Flirting with absurdity is a really great way to help people get a greater and broader understanding, but without the ability to recognize a person's tone, it can be a wee bit dangerous.

[shrewd wasp]

oh my god don't even get me started on the "person getting offended is the one lacking in humour" rhetoric -_- like granted sometimes it IS true, but if what you're laughing about is genuinely hurting someone, bro you're in the wrong

[hidden inlet]

It's largely how the alt-right pipeline is as effective as they are.

[blissful granite]

Isn't it nuts how effective they are?

[shrewd wasp]

that's a fair point, Vain

[hidden inlet]

Hiding behind "iTs JuSt A jOkE bRo" but still disseminating harmful rhetoric without dismantling it.

[shrewd wasp]

it's only funny if everyone's laughing, bro

[blissful granite]

Or my favorite, Trin: "I'm sorry that you're so offended" -- like great job taking onus on your message.

[hidden inlet]

Watched Jojo Rabbit yesterday and I think they did it really well.

[blissful granite]

I'm unfamiliar with Jojo Rabbit

[hidden inlet]

It's about a little boy joining the Hitlerjugend and slowly dealing with the reality of Nazism in a dark-comedy/drama context.

With his trusty imaginary friend, the fuhrer himself. It really juxtaposes the childlike innocence of the boy and the evils of nazism.

[blissful granite]

Yikes.

[hidden inlet]

And it's really blatant in its story-telling and message. Message being: Fuck off, Hitler.

[shrewd wasp]

well when you take into consideration that Taika Waititi is part jewish, I'm not surprised he really managed to nail home the absurd vitriol of the nazi ideology in the most hilarious of fashion whilst also imparting jut how traumatising it was for the jewish people (in addition to all the other people judged unfit for life...)

[blissful granite]

Also just to give some background, I grew up around the people who watched this in their schools: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9-kj1YopL9s

^ That's sadly not a parody

[hidden inlet]

Sorry, but as a zoomer, the trumpet-tune, I-

[shrewd wasp]

oh yeah my granny's brother's gay, and has openly been gay ever since he even knew what that was, possibly even before, and growing up in France in the 40's and 50's, lemme tell you...

[hidden inlet]

I can feel the self-dilluded moral supremacy oozing off of it already.

"Everyone ~like us~ has access to The American Dream. ☺️ "

[shrewd wasp]

that's also a great material you could use for overt satire and parody, if you go into full on Monty Python levels of absurdity, I mean the trumpet alone does half the job already honestly

[pure oxide]

Jojo Rabbit was a fantastic film

[hidden inlet]

_They gave the man a pornstache and everything, I'm done. 🤣 _

[pure oxide]

Directed by and starring Taika Waititi

[hidden inlet]

They really went for the "Creepy uncle" vibe.

[blissful granite]

Moral supremacy is basically half of this country's politics. 🤣

It kills me to my soul that we had another trans* military ban for far too long in the 21st century

[hidden inlet]

This vid: "Homosexuals demand attention from other people of the same sex."
Also this vid: Is literally villifying an entire group of people and forces children to watch this.

[blissful granite]

https://tenor.com/view/yep-derp-what-puppet-yip-gif-11384849

[hidden inlet]

I love how they're like "Always note down the licence plate number of the cars of strangers you friends enter. Not because they might kill people, but because they might be 😱 ✨ h o m o s e x u a l s ✨ 😱 ".

Reminds me of a video training people how to spot a communist during the Cold War.

They're just like "Do they want people to live? They're probably a communist."

I feel like I'm punching down, mocking this.

[shrewd wasp]

Always note down the licence plate number of the cars of strangers you friends enter. Not because they might kill people, but because they might be 😱 ✨ h o m o s e x u a l s ✨ 😱 ". why the fuck are you letting your friend enter stranger cars in the first place-

[hidden inlet]

Probably because it was impolite to refuse or something.

Or the video's bigotted and incompetent. Who knew.

[shrewd wasp]

it's impolite to refuse to step into the car of someone you don't know when you're a child.

man I'm so glad I wasn't born in the 40's and 50's

[dark patio]

This is why we have so many TV shows dedicated to murder and cold cases

[hidden inlet]

I understand dumb horror movie protagonists now.

[shrewd wasp]

y'all wanna know something hilarious

[dark patio]

Of course

[shrewd wasp]

Rocky Horror Picture Show was meant to be an actual horror film

like

[hidden inlet]

inb4 it's actually tragic.

[shrewd wasp]

a legitimately scary film.

[dark patio]

lmfao what

[shrewd wasp]

istg

[dark patio]

I mean, okay it uses to scare me when I was little but

[shrewd wasp]

https://tenor.com/bdVxY.gif

behold the trauma

[dark patio]

That was mostly the axe murder that scared me

[hidden inlet]

OH GOD iTS a QUEER

[shrewd wasp]

HIDE YOUR CHILDREN

RUN FOR THE HILLS

[dark patio]

Have you seen shock treatment?

[hidden inlet]

I've seen A Nobel Heart.

[dark patio]

“Hi brad, I’ve just come to tell you how fabulous I am!”

[hidden inlet]

goals

[shrewd wasp]

I was just about to say 🤣

[dark patio]

Shock Treatment is so weird

It’s like, Brad and Janet back home, but their town is now a TV studio, everything broadcast, weird game shows

[shrewd wasp]

I mean

did they ever really go home

[dark patio]

Who knows

But I think it’s on YouTube if you’re interested in another weird musical movie

[chrome cedar]

I adore Rocky Horror Picture Show 🤩

[brazen willow]

Yoyoyo

[shrewd wasp]

hey Cola !

[brazen willow]

Howdy

[dark patio]

I basically grew up watching rocky horror. My mom loved the movie

[shrewd wasp]

it's an absolute gem

the fact is was meant to be a scary cautionary tale honestly makes me love it even more 🤣

[dark patio]

It is. I mean maybe a four year old shouldn’t have been watching it but

[shrewd wasp]

yeeaaaahh that might be a tad young hahahaha

[dark patio]

I would only watch until the axe murder

I had always thought my mother would send me out of the room after that, but I learned a few years ago that apparently tiny Elsa was choosing to get himself out of the room

[brazen willow]

Are Donald Duck and bugs bunny gay for eachother?

[dark patio]

I was one of the most openly queer kids in my friend group during high school and it was always a “oooh that explains it” moment when they found out I grew up on Rocky Horror lmao

I always thought that was funny

[chrome cedar]

Ah, yes, you are queer because you watched a certain movie

I watched RHPS with friends on Halloween in my parents' basement and we were SO CONFUSED 😂

Like we didn't understand anything

[hidden inlet]

I for one, was radicalized into homosexuality by the really cool, queer-coded villains in Disney movies.

[dark patio]

It was more the vibes than the being queer. Just because I was the most open about it, didn’t mean the rest of my friends weren’t also queer. The majority of them have come out of the closet since high school and I’m proud of them

[chrome cedar]

Oooooh I see 😄

[brazen willow]

Also I don’t dance

It’s so gay

[hidden inlet]

Me neither, but I am very dramatic.

[chrome cedar]

hskjf

Meanwhile I'm just like "Sexuality, yes, I think I have one"

[dark patio]

I didn’t know what label fit me for ages but I knew I wasn’t cishet and that’s all I had to go on for a while

[brazen willow]

https://youtu.be/sBAN0S3rW_I

[hidden inlet]

Okay, but unironically, when I was a kid, I did fantasize about men, but it took me until 17 when I realized what that made me.

[brazen willow]

They SWITCH clothes after that scene to each others

[dark patio]

I wanted to be a boy when I was a kid and it took me a very long time to realize that was because I was

[brazen willow]

I wanna have tits

[chrome cedar]

I'm ace so I honestly was just confused by all the people being all over boys 🤷

I'd always go like "I have no TIME for a boyfriend"

[hidden inlet]

Sexuality: No. ❤️

[chrome cedar]

😂 yeh

[brazen willow]

lol

[dark patio]

You’re valid lol

[brazen willow]

I personally think I have to much sexuality

[chrome cedar]

Watching movies with topless men being like: That's pretty I guess

Also valid

[hidden inlet]

Watching R-rated scenes in movies looking at the guys instead of the girls. Totally just because I wanted to pick up some techniques or to admire the muscles.

[dark patio]

Brb driving

[hidden inlet]

But in a straight way.

[chrome cedar]

nod nod obviously

Very straight

[hidden inlet]

Because I was a very much straight child.

[chrome cedar]

straight up gay

[hidden inlet]

I even had a heterosexual relationship that lasted three full days.

I was a very dedicated, traditional family man.

[chrome cedar]

I know multiple other people that were in hetero relationships before realizing they were gay

[brazen willow]

Ok hetero

Jk jk

[chrome cedar]

I wanted to be a family mom for most of my life but just the idea of having a relationship was so weird to me, and I honestly got very stressed about it

Now I'm just like "eh, I'll be a gamer grandma with 50 cats"

[humble tusk]

goals

[dark patio]

back

[hidden inlet]

I do want to build a family, though, ngl. I'd love to be a dad. 🙂

Even though being near children is enough to overstimulate me right now. 🙂

[dark patio]

valid. older kids need to be adopted too

[hidden inlet]

At first I was like "Ew, children, with their basic human needs and responsibilities they can't meet themselves." Now I see a child cry and have a tantrum and I'm like "Mood."

[shrewd wasp]

that's honestly my stance on it Elsa, if I ever have kids (and it's a big if) I'll try and adopt

[hidden inlet]

Oh same.

[shrewd wasp]

creating a new life when so many need homes already just makes no sense to me

[brazen willow]

Guys

[dark patio]

yeah I’m definitely gonna adopt if I have kids

[shrewd wasp]

cola

[brazen willow]

My dads works for the water company and will put chemicals in your water to turn your freaking frogs gay

[hidden inlet]

Do I get super-gay if I finally decide to stay hydrated?

[brazen willow]

Yes

[chrome cedar]

nice

[hidden inlet]

God, that would be sick. Just shooting pride-ribbons from my eyes in the Bible belt.

[brazen willow]

You can be our leader

[hidden inlet]

I'd be like Batman for gaybashers.

[brazen willow]

Super gay man

The justgay league

[hidden inlet]

What an original story.

"In an assisted housing facility, far far away..."

[brazen willow]

Reminder pink kryponite makes Superman gay

[hidden inlet]

My kryptonite: T h a n k s g i v i n g

[brazen willow]

My kryponite ~~this message was removed ~~

[hidden inlet]

Oof.

You got a VPN for that?

[brazen willow]

I’m not in China lol

[hidden inlet]

o

[dark patio]

uh

[brazen willow]

?

Main reason I’m not actually saying what it is is cause idk which to pick

[hidden inlet]

Oooh.

Ok, but irl infantilization is definitely the thing to mess me up personally. Internalized ableism is a bitch.

[brazen willow]

Ik I’m a woman of many mysteries

If you wanna guess one of mine

I’ll say

[brazen willow]

Not sure what that is

[hidden inlet]

Internalized ableism?

[brazen willow]

Infantilization

[pure oxide]

Infantilization, meaning being treated like you're a child/infant who is incapable of making mature decisions

[hidden inlet]

When someone acts like you're a child or incapable.

[brazen willow]

Oh ok

[pure oxide]

It's what the media likes to do to us Millennials

[dark patio]

And it’s sooo fun to deal with /s

[hidden inlet]

Example: Some people talked about me to my social worker, in front of me like I wasn't there.

[pure oxide]

They act like we're 18 year old kids who don't know anything, rather than the mature adults in our 30s that we actually are

[hidden inlet]

"And how do they feel about this?" That sort of thing.

[pure oxide]

Yes, that's another thing. People talking about you in front of you, not asking you direct questions, asking someone else as if you are incapable of answering them, etc.

[hidden inlet]

Also, I'm gonna guess passive-aggressiveness as your kryptonite.

[brazen willow]

Love how no one’s right so far

[hidden inlet]

...The fear of being known, then?

[dark patio]

I’m less like Superman with kryptonite and more like the hulk, where this shit will just get under my skin and make me rage

[hidden inlet]

I'm like most villains where I have my shit together, but will have a total melt-down as things go wrong.

Also I'm gay, like most villains. Prove me wrong.

[brazen willow]

Ok the villian in Aladdin ain’t gay

He very straight

[thorn zinc]

Jafar??

[pure oxide]

Jafar is totally gay

[hidden inlet]

100%.

[brazen willow]

Yes jafar

[dark patio]

He is so gay

[pure oxide]

Jafar is 1000000% gay

[brazen willow]

Ok y’all haven’t seen twisted

[dark patio]

Maybe not in the live action but the original

Twisted isn’t canon

[brazen willow]

I treat twisted as 100% canon

[pure oxide]

I like how all of us are like "oh no... SUPER GAY"

[hidden inlet]

your argument is invalid

[brazen willow]

More canon then Disney

[dark patio]

lmao same

[brazen willow]

https://youtu.be/-77cUxba-aA

[dark patio]

That is an incredibly gay man

[brazen willow]

Ebic musical

[pure oxide]

I think your named should be Cherried Troll-a

[dark patio]

I’m so disappointed in the live action

[brazen willow]

Meanie

I feel offended

[dark patio]

I would have loved to see Navid Negahban as Jafar instead of the sultan

[hidden inlet]

cherried-cola more like cherished-cola lmao gottem

[pure oxide]

rofl

[dark patio]

He was wasted as the sultan and he makes SUCH A GOOD VILLAIN

[brazen willow]

Lol you got me

[pure oxide]

I didn't see the Live Action film yet. Was it bad?

[dark patio]

It was very forgettable

[pure oxide]

So like most of the live action remakes except the Villain ones

like Maleficent

[dark patio]

Yep

[hidden inlet]

Oh yeah, the twisted Jafar's still a cub.

[brazen willow]

Idk man the only Aladdin related thing I remember is twisted and a parody with the bears who like picnics

[dark patio]

I pretty much just watched it cause I wanted to see Navid

He played a fantastic villain in Legion

[brazen willow]

Question tho

[dark patio]

Hm

[brazen willow]

If most villains are gay ain’t that a bad thing?

[hidden inlet]

I think it was supposed to be, but it just... backfired.

[mellow sand]

Well it's more if only villains are gay then it is bad.

[dark patio]

I think someone else could probably phrase it better than me, but that’s kind of exactly WHY most villains were gay coded

[hidden inlet]

Instead of people thinking "gay bad", the kids were like "gay villian pretty".

[brazen willow]

Gay villian is pretty

Also I’d like to argue ursula

She was the good gal

She simply made a deal and Ariel wouldn’t pay up

Which is a bitch move

[hidden inlet]

I don't remember enough about the Little Mermaid, but I'm getting lesbian vibes.

From Ursula, I mean.

[mellow sand]

I know a lot of people would be thirsty for Darth Vader if the original Star Wars trilogy had been released now.

[solid quartz]

Ursula is based on the drag queen divine

[brazen willow]

I’m not saying she’s not gay or anything

[brazen willow]

I’m just saying she’s the good guy

[pure oxide]

Queer coding is a total thing, and it's basically this ingrained idea that homosexuals are "evil"

[hidden inlet]

All of Gen Z would want the force choke ngl.

[hidden inlet]

That explains so much.

[dark patio]

Ursula did make a deal with Ariel that was intended to backfire and make Ariel suffer.

[pure oxide]

And so all the villains in like kids movies and stuff have basically been created with queer characteristics, or stereotypical ones anyway

[brazen willow]

I wouldn’t I may be kinky but I’m not that kinky

[brazen willow]

She knew every deal had a downside

[dark patio]

It wasn’t a fair deal and she did actively try to sabotage Ariel being able to get the upside of the contract

[brazen willow]

I refuse to call a business woman or man evil

The devils good imos too

[pure oxide]

Correct. She stole Ariel's voice knowing that's what Eric would remember the most from his encounter with her, so she couldn't actually tell him she'd seen him or anything like that. The deal wasn't fair, it was one-sided

[flint dew]

I think it's fair to say that predatory business practices can be evil

[dark patio]

She also sent Flotsam and Jetsam to ruin at least one date, iirc

[flint dew]

I would say something about gay-coded villains but im pretty sure since one of my main alters is lord dominator woy my opinion is not valid

[brazen willow]

Most deals do benefit one side more

[dark patio]

Like they were about to kiss in that boat!

[pure oxide]

Not if they are fair

[brazen willow]

That’s just how that stuff works

[pure oxide]

That's... incorrect.

[mellow sand]

Well we are moving into more gays being good guys.

[flint dew]

sure, but there's a difference between people having asymmetric deals and people intentionally engaging in predatory behavior to benefit at the expense of others

[brazen willow]

Name one good deal in history that didn’t benefit one side more

[pure oxide]

I don't know how old you are, and I'm not trying necessarily to imply that you are young, but some of the things you're saying in chat make me question your life experience.

[brazen willow]

Hey adora

[dark patio]

Something I’ve found interesting with, like, comics is villains getting less gay coded as they become more popular

[brazen willow]

I am young ye

[pure oxide]

The thing is, it's also a little frustrating trying to have a discussion with you because instead of being open to listening to the people around you, you seem to want to argue every point like you know better.

[dark patio]

Like, did you know Sabretooth from X-Men was pretty gay coded back when he was an Iron Fist villain?

[hidden inlet]

I thought it was quite light-hearted if I'm honest.

[brazen willow]

I can just go if you want me too

[pure oxide]

Maybe we're both reading intent/tone differently and if so and that's not how it's intended, then that's my bad.

I'll own up to that.

[brazen willow]

I didn’t think I mad any one mad

[hidden inlet]

For what it's worth, I can't read anyone's mind, but I'm not annoyed by this. I thought this was just a meme convo about the sexualities of fictional characters.

[brazen willow]

Ok but let’s be honest working boys is the best musical

[hidden inlet]

I deadass don't know what that is.

[brazen willow]

Business calls I’m up to my ass in shit

[mellow sand]

Yeah. I kinda like it when conversations about gays are fun. Because to be honest gays are fun.

[brazen willow]

What is this business

[brazen willow]

It’s a musical a character makes in that guy who doesn’t like musicals

It’s very gay

[hidden inlet]

Mamma Mia will always have a place in my heart, because I saw it live with my class once.

As in, the whole play.

[timid bane]

there's no doubt in my mind people were thirsty for Darth Vader even back in the day

especially when Episode III released

[hidden inlet]

"Luke, I am your daddy."

[mellow sand]

I would be but Obi-wan was right there.

[timid bane]

szdgxfhcgjvhkbjlnk

[flint dew]

g-d the revelation that he was a shriveled husk and then like five minutes later "actually, his ghost is young and attractive" must have been a whopper for anyone thirsty for darth vader

[timid bane]

okay you make a valid point. but there can be thirst for both

[mellow sand]

Honestly. Obi-wan is the only man I have ever been attracted to. So I am weirdly biased.

[brazen willow]

Ok personally no one in Star Wars does it for me

[hidden inlet]

People have enough thirst for a whole cast. If anything, the Coral Island discord community proves that. 🤣

[brazen willow]

But the female Klingon

They are where it’s at

[timid bane]

the 'ghost being young and attractive' thing, though, I'm pretty sure that wasn't in the theatrical release? I think the Anakin ghost was added in the Special Editions after the prequels happened? I could be wrong though

[brazen willow]

Wait anakin ghost existed?

[flint dew]

oh huh ok, I'm pretty young so I never knew what was new other than the han shot first discourse

[timid bane]

that said, I know how many Lord of the Rings fans thirsted for Sauron so there's clearly a market for 'masked evil with hot voice'

[mellow sand]

Yeah they used Hayden Christensen in the Special Editions.

[brazen willow]

I gtg bye y’all

[timid bane]

bye!

[mellow sand]

See ya.

[hidden inlet]

I mean, big Resident Evil vapire lady.

Not masked, but like...

...I can appreciate from a large distance.

[timid bane]

a safe distance

if there is such a thing

[mellow sand]

I just wanna be stepped on.

[timid bane]

understandable

someone out there is just desperate to be force choked, and they are valid

[hidden inlet]

I want mutual affection and a promise of a family. :/

[timid bane]

now there's something I can get behind

[hidden inlet]

...and maybe a little choking, but that's supplementary.

[timid bane]

you can have a little choking, as a treat

[hidden inlet]

Yay.

[mellow sand]

Wow everyone into choking...

[hidden inlet]

Oh.

[uncut crypt]

I saw this on reddit and I think of Rafael in merman form.

[pure oxide]

So while that picture is not why I'm making this reminder, just a reminder that the server as a whole is PG, so the chat about you know.. choking and things... maybe not so appropriate here. I know the lgbtq channel is a bit of a safe-space channel, but it's still part of the server. ❤️

[hidden inlet]

Noted. Will stop talking about that.

[uncut crypt]

[uncut crypt]

I remember one time being reminded by a mod on another discord server and they were a bit harsh while doing that. However, You're doing a great job here. ❤️

[blissful granite]

Not gonna lie, I saw "choking" and mermen and my brain went here instead:

[pure oxide]

oh no. 😦

although in CI, that's probably pretty spot on

[brazen willow]

That made me think of centaurs

They have 2 ribcages, I think 2 hearts, 6 limbs which means they aren’t related to horses or centaurs

[blissful granite]

I've never had the concept of the appeal/attraction to humanoid creatures making out explained to me.
0% judging. also, 0% understanding of it conceptually.

I've just assumed it to be a kawaii version of romantic relationships.

[shrewd wasp]

audibly cringes

[brazen willow]

same lol

[fading cedar]

I come back and you talk about THIS? Damn you guys xD

[blissful granite]

We're BORED. 🤣

[dusky sphinx]

this is definitely not the worst thing I've seen in this server LOL

[hidden inlet]

I'm sure there's worse.

[dusky sphinx]

it felt pretty respectful tbh

[blissful granite]

which aspect?

[dusky sphinx]

i'm not sure if this is a trap, but all of it? LOL

definitely the last few things you in particular said haha

[blissful granite]

Feel free to message me and we can talk about it. I have zero intent of disrespect.

[dusky sphinx]

wait

i said it was respectful! not disrespectful 🙂

[blissful granite]

Oh! 🙂 I read that wrong 🤣

Work is killing my brain at the moment

[dusky sphinx]

LOL it's cool no worries!

[hidden inlet]

Second time one of my messages got taken out of context. You guys, you don't understand. If you put it in context, it's just as bad. D:

[fading cedar]

Oh sure I've seen worse, but thats been in lgbtq specific servers hahah

[blissful granite]

I'm scheduled for my first covid shot tomorrow and I've been racing at 100mph trying to get a ton of stuff done so I won't have such a crazy day tomorrow

[fading cedar]

oh congrats!

[hidden inlet]

Ayyy! You've got this!

[blissful granite]

thank you. 🙂 i'm thrilled that my work qualified me. also i'm fat, and my BMI says I'm Level 1 Obese so I qualify too 🤣

[dusky sphinx]

congratulations on almost entering the vaccinated club!!

[royal cipher]

Don't you think all male characters look the same? ;-;

[humble tusk]

my mom has hers scheduled for friday

[blissful granite]

Not gonna lie I was pretty peeved to be asking my doctor for a note to confirm I'm fat. 🙄

[hidden inlet]

That would be a bit awkward.

[blissful granite]

Fortunately the note lists all of the qualifying conditions and doesn't explicitly say "XXXX is a porker gib vaccine"

[dusky sphinx]

that's crummy you even need the note but at least your doctor sounds decent enough

[blissful granite]

yeah i have an LGBTQIA+ doctor and she rocks.

[hidden inlet]

Of all areas to check something this thoroughly, this shouldn't be it. XD

[dusky sphinx]

!!!!

i haven't been able to get my mother-in-law an appointment here and she's been eligible for awhile. i have no idea what my state is doing with the doses they do get since the clinics available rarely even update here

makes me terrified for when they open it up for my group lol

[blissful granite]

i had to get mine directly through my employer

[shrewd wasp]

I thrive on taking messages out of context, just ask me friends I have an entire folder dedicated to messages taken out of context to pull out at the most opportune time 🤣

[hidden inlet]

That actually sounds hillarious.

[shrewd wasp]

to give you a small sample with @valid timber 😏

[valid timber]

I was tagged

[shrewd wasp]

heheheheeheheheh

[valid timber]

how dare you Vix

[shrewd wasp]

https://tenor.com/sXOi.gif

[valid timber]

I am not straight enough for this

[shrewd wasp]

dude I have the Evil Corrupting Sapphic Energy down to a T you know that

[valid timber]

you really do

[shrewd wasp]

but since it's not fun to make fun of others without incriminating yourself as well....

[solid quartz]

I think about this image some times

[dry violet]

I played Bugsnax a week ago and I cannot get it out of my head. It is SO gay, canon nonbinary rep, and it’s fun. I am obsessed with it

[solid quartz]

👀 well.... um, yeah sound advice

[brazen willow]

gay georgia?

[valid timber]

I see this and I instantly think of @shrewd wasp 😂

[brazen willow]

yes btw thats a real town

theres also towns like intercourse (another town in america)

[dry violet]

It is, I’m in Georgia and there’s also a place called Cumming

[solid quartz]

olive garden slogan

[brazen willow]

or formely fucking though they renamed themself because of how english speakers make jokes about the name

[solid quartz]

except the words being gay instead of olive garden

[supple brook]

There was a town called fucking in Austria (or Southern Germany not entirely sure) but they renamed it last year 😔💔

[brazen willow]

austria

[supple brook]

Yeah I think so

[brazen willow]

it was renamed cause of english speakers

ik so

[valid timber]

We've got... Hell in Denmark and Norway

[supple brook]

I believe there was also a town called ||pegging|| but afaik they also renamed that hafklsf unfortunate

[brazen willow]

fucking got renamed to fugging

[dry violet]

Similarly, they had to change this mike marker from 420 because people kept stealing it

[supple brook]

Which honestly isn't much better LMAO

[dry violet]

Mile not Mike

[solid quartz]

I know Pennsylvania has some towns called "blue balls", "inter course", "paradise" and one other I'm forgetting. Each has a single road to the next town in question in a square shape

anyway back to the lesbian drawing stream in vc for me

it's of nina and CI farmer if anyone cares

[shrewd wasp]

y'all have a national park called Grand Teton in the US

that means Great Nipple in french 🤣

[brazen willow]

wunderbar

[rose ice]

has been to the Grand Teton national park

[dry violet]

My girlfriend is trans, and Suki is her transition goals. She actually looks a LOT like her already, and wants to dye the tips of her long blonde hair purple (already had before seeing Suki) and when I was showing her the Kickstarter we saw her and both went 😮

So it’s safe to say who I’m romancing lol 😅 I was so happy when we hit that stretch goal

[dark patio]

I plan to romance Theo for similar reasons!

He reminds me of my boyfriend. I think it’s cute when characters can remind you of the people you love

[supple brook]

Wholesome 🥺

[dark patio]

My boyfriend’s name is Lio so their names even rhyme

[full mango]

Adorable

[hidden inlet]

I just was shown a mermaid and like “yep I will romance fish” and that is still my plan

[rose ice]

I had a crush on ariel from the little mermaid as a kid without realizing it cause I didn't realize how dang gay I was (disclaimer I am bi but still very very gay)

I'm now an actual mermaid tho https://www.instagram.com/p/ByByRrfBhdb/?igshid=12mokf7turhsu

[dark patio]

OH that's so cool!

[rose ice]

Ty ty, plan to post more pictures once I get a tail skin, I have this fin tho now (uno momento)

https://www.themertailor.com/fantasea-fin-too.html

The green one

[dark patio]

!!!!!!

[rose ice]

They even have a rainbow tail skin https://www.themertailor.com/rainbow-dream-too-whimsy-fantasea-mermaid-tail-2.html

[dark patio]

THAT’S AWESOME

[rose ice]

If you want to ever get into mermaid swimming as well, finfun is much much cheaper but still good quality and good for beginners!

I say mermaid but we have mermans too! And I'm a merfolk lol

when you mess up on your own pronouns tho

[dark patio]

i sttill do that lol

that's super cool! I used to want to do this when I was younger but i never actually went through with it!

[rose ice]

Lots of people do it! Just be sure to check if your local pool allows monofins!

[dark patio]

we have a couple, so i'll definitely have to look into it! maybe if one doesn't another would

[rose ice]

You never know!

[brazen willow]

wait

are we gonna be able to date the mermaids?

[torn willow]

Two of them are dateable, yeah

[brazen willow]

oh god

thats not bad

but when the game comes out

this chat is goin crazy

[stiff locust]

i will smash the hell out of Agung

[brazen willow]

good

you smash the hell out of who ever you like

as long as they consent!

[hidden inlet]

my favorite arch

Moral of the stories: You are duty-bound to outlive your enemies.

[sudden harness]

Oh... Sorry yall, wrong chat. But enjoy I guess? 😅

[hidden inlet]

I mean... colour me impressed, tbh.

[sudden harness]

Well, correct chat (LGBT) but wrong place lol

[dark patio]

nice shirt

[hidden inlet]

Nice everything.

[sudden harness]

Thanks 😅☺️

[rose ice]

Oof, 'do we have a flexible tape measure?' 'Kind of, what's it for?' 'My binder?' 'What's that?' 'The thing we talked about the other day' 'Oh that, fine but I dont want to see it or hear about it and you're paying for it' like uhh yeah duh I'm paying for it

Like ik he doesn't like it but could he at least pretend to be a bit supportive?

[hidden inlet]

It would have saved so much energy to just go "Yeah. What for? Okay."

[rose ice]

Now I have to figure out how to measure myself which around myself sure okay, but my shoulders how am I supposed to do that?

[hidden inlet]

Imma leave that to people with experience, because to be honest, I have no clue, but I feel like it should be possible.

[shrewd wasp]

pinch with one hand and relax as much as possible

allow a couple cms of leeway

[pure oxide]

https://www.gc2b.co/pages/sizing

I am hoping that this is helpful; it was the first thing that came up with "how to measure yourself for a binder"

[rose ice]

Yeah that's what I'm going off of

It's the shoulder measurement I'm unsure of how to do my myself

[pure oxide]

You can probably measure that in the front if you absolutely have to, but you don't have to go around yourself. It's basically just from the point of your shoulder to the point of your other shoulder. If you can hold the measuring tape taut over your head, slide it back behind your head, then get the one end at the far side of your shoulder, get the other end to the other side and then pinch your fingers where the tape touches your shoulder it should be pretty accurate

I'd give yourself like a half a centimeter of leeway

[rose ice]

Okay thank you

He's also been saying that he's emotionally exhausted from work and a few days ago and when I asked if he wanted to talk about it he said 'no I dont want to talk about that again'

Okay managed to measure myself but I'm in between sizes by two sizes so I emailed support asking for a size suggestion like they said

[dark patio]

Not this company, but I have had to deal with support for binder sizing before and the folks who do that have been very helpful!

I hope they can help you!

[rose ice]

Me too!

Found my bra size too to make husband happy since it's the same measurements, I don't have dysphoria all the time and even like being female sometimes! But right now I dont and I need that binder

[hidden inlet]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachments/493336712429174784/821947184270147584/video0.mp4 oh no the disrespecc

[rose ice]

I keep getting ads for bras on Facebook, all I did was look up how to find bra size to make hubby happy, do not need bras pls need binder

[fallow whale]

Foiled by Facebook

[hidden inlet]

Okay, so... I'm struggling with something and this chat seems awesome in giving perspective, so is it okay if I ask for advice?

[pure oxide]

Of course!

[hidden inlet]

So, I mentioned a few times I was dating a guy for a little bit, until COVID and personal circumstances forced him to focus on that and put the dating on hold. We agreed that we'd pause on the dating, that we have no responsibilities to each other as partners and that when he has time, he'll tell me.

It's been three months and we shoot back texts about weekly. Specifically, I shoot texts and he responds. :/ Went about a month not sending messages because of a peak in stress and pressure and he didn't reach out either.

I know I've been kind of teetering on the edge of NSFW in this chat and it was semi-funny, but honestly, I'm just lacking the intimacy of dating or a relationship and feel a little trapped. Basically, I want to date other people and let him go gently, because I can't wait any longer.

So... One, how do I do that? Two, how in the Hell am I gonna kick my sorry ass into shape so I can actually have that talk?

[brazen willow]

the issues of targeted advertisement

[pure oxide]

If you are ready to move on and find something closer or find someone who can give you what you actually need, then that's all you have to say to him. Like. not only are you the only one reaching out and therefore putting any real effort into keeping the relationship "fresh" in his mind or anything like that, but you both said you were putting a hold on things and not pursuing one another right now, which says to me that he has no real say in what you do or don't do.

I guess I'd just say to him "I really appreciate you, and under different circumstances I think that something really great could happen for us, but unfortunately I can't keep putting my life on pause and I am really looking at meeting new people and perhaps pursuing a relationship at this time, which I know is something that you and I just unfortunately can't have, all things considered"

[dusky sphinx]

Yeah to me it sounds like y'all already did the hard part and said you weren't going to be able to commit so I think what Shlee is saying is good

[pure oxide]

"I don't want to lose you as a friend, and I know I don't have to ask permission as we're not beholden to each other, but I did want to let you know that I am interested in seeing other people and will be moving in that direction. I hope we can still chat, and I wish you all the best"

[hidden inlet]

Blah, this was easier when the other guy was an abuser. Then I'd just throw up the middle fingers, tell him it's over and go fuck himself, but he's a genuinely kind guy... or maybe I'm just colouring in the blanks.

Lemme rewrite that: Blah, feelings.

[pure oxide]

https://tenor.com/view/boo-hug-monsters-inc-sully-warmhug-gif-10592083

[hidden inlet]

He doesn't have any say, definitely. And I'm kind of annoyed I'm the only one who puts in that effort, but I also get it.

[pure oxide]

I get it too, but like.. I spent way too many years being in your position and you deserve someone who's willing to put in at least a little bit of effort. ❤️

[hidden inlet]

Honestly, exactly how I feel. 100% gonna copy-paste this.

[pure oxide]

This'll go either one of two ways; he'll decide he wants to keep you in his life in that way and will agree to moving forward if that's something you wanna do, or he'll lash out and you'll know you dodged a bullet.

But don't let him string you along.

[humble tusk]

good luck

[fading cedar]

for what its worth i agree to 10000% of what shlee says, just tell him how you feel and if he wants to make an effort (and you would like that) thats perfect, if gets mad its not someone you would wanna be with anyway

[pure oxide]

But yes, I wish you all the luck; I know this stuff is super not easy, and only gets more and more difficult the worse our own mental illnesses are, and navigating stuff like this is hard. But we're here for you if you need a place to decompress or chat or vent or what not!

[dusky sphinx]

^ yes that we are!!!

[hidden inlet]

I appreciate the advice! Asked to set up a time and day we can talk. I'm sure he'll say we can't see each other face to face, so it'll be a facetime. Yay.

But yeah. Not even that I need someone who's always near me or something, but someone who takes initiative to message first at least once a season would be lovely. 😅

[hidden inlet]

Yeah, the worst thing passed already, I guess this is just more definitive.

From "someday" to "probably not".

[hidden inlet]

Thanks. 🙂

[hidden inlet]

Yeah. I don't think he'd be like that, but regardless, I'll get out better in the end. That's something to get some courage out of.

[rose ice]

It all depends on the person, me and my husband while dating through covid saw each other everyday and made up our own little date nights and he was extra careful about shopping etc. As he didn't want to get me sick, but then again we're not most people

[hidden inlet]

...And my beau can't send a text first. 😛 Damn.

[dusky sphinx]

being clear about your expectations is never a bad thing! like everyone else said if he isn't happy about that, it helps solidify the letting go part 🙂

[rose ice]

Yeah I hate when people cant send texts first it makes me grr

[waxen hare]

oh gosh mood 😭

[dusky sphinx]

i get pretty frustrated when people can't respond but i'm learning to step it back and realize it's just very difficult for some people to get to messages quickly due to their mental health

[rose ice]

I only make the effort now for people who are important to me, I'm tired of being the only one keeping up a relationship you know?

[hidden inlet]

What I think will happen is he'll be kind of sad but also reasonable and we'll keep on being friends. But yeah, I've got a plan together! Thank everyone! This is gonna suck, but like always, the anticipation is probably worse than actually doing it.

[dusky sphinx]

you got this and friendships are equally great! 🙂

[fading cedar]

Yaaasss word!

[hidden inlet]

When I tell I managed to lose so many annoying people in my life without confrontation with this, I mean it.

...Well with one confrontation, but now he's left too, thank God.

[rose ice]

It's sad though when people who you thought you were important to them dont text you first though it sucks

Or at all its like 'umm wow okay I see how it is'

[dusky sphinx]

i'm also not great at reaching out first- but i love to hear from people! sometimes we just be too anxious LOL

[pure oxide]

I'm bad at reaching out because I'll think about it.. and then ADHD brain go brrrrr and if I don't do it RIGHT THAT MOMENT I'll forget about it

the problem is, sometimes I'm thinking about people in the middle of taking a poo, or doing the dishes, or something where I can't actually reach out to them right in that moment and then... I forget.

I do make the effort when I can

but I'm not great at it

[rose ice]

Yeah I get that, I'm talking more about people who I know dont have issues and reach out to other people first but not me

[dusky sphinx]

that makes sense!

[hidden inlet]

I definitely get that too. Especially how that feeling gets worse the more you don't contact someone.

[rose ice]

I have trouble contacting people first too so I'm just like 'pls contact me first so I dont have to'

A big example was when I had surgery and switched to online school and was really sick with health issues, none, absolutely none, of my grade school friends reached out

[supple brook]

I know this sounds extremely shitty but I honestly just.. Forget about people when I don't constantly see them. I completely forget to text you because I forget you exist but I still care about you

When I live on my own I completely forget to text my entire family for WEEKS

[pure oxide]

It's an ADHD thing

Out of sight, out of mind. we have a hard time with object permanence

[rose ice]

One of them was toxic though and slapped me at school a lot as a 'joke' and always said slap me back when she knew I wouldn't, the other lied and said she was having a family birthday so I called her mom the day before asking if I could bring a present over they said sure. When I came over with the present she said she was downstairs and when I brought it over she was with two other grade school friends..

Like at least just be honest and say 'hey I'd like to hang out with some other friends if that's okay'

[supple brook]

It's weird but I only have the mental capacity to constantly keep up with one person and one group chat at the same time. I constantly text with my best friend but they're literally the only person I text with on a regular basis. And I usually have one group chat/discord I'm super active in, right now it's this one but it could change in a week,, it frustrates me that I'm like this but idk what to do about it either

[rose ice]

Sorry, deep down buried issues here XD

[supple brook]

Yikes now those are just shitty people

[dusky sphinx]

yeah that's just so mean 😦

with me i just feel like i have nothing to say so i don't reach out even to say hi

[supple brook]

This too!!! I HATE conversations that don't go anywhere they stress me out so damn bad

[rose ice]

I used to text my best friend everyday for 7 years till she cut me off cause I got married

[supple brook]

I also genuinely fucking hate this whole thing of having to say good morning and good night every day when you have nothing else to talk about. I hate it. If I have something to tell you or a random funny thing happens I'll text you about it but like wtf do you have to say when someone says good mroning/good night every day 😭 it's a sweet thought but having to end and restart conversations every single day genuinely gives me anxiety ahfkslf

Damn digi you deserve better friends :(

[rose ice]

Whole story is in here somewhere

[supple brook]

Yeah I know, I was part of that convo

[rose ice]

Yeah, I got no close friends really besides my husband and even he doesn't accept me completely

[supple brook]

Point still stands, you deserve better friends

[rose ice]

Thanks

[supple brook]

Also friends outside of your relationship but it's hard to make friends, especially in a pandemic

[rose ice]

Very true

I just need one or two really close friends tbh like I had before

I miss her dearly

[dusky sphinx]

we're all your friends now and seems like we are all here everyday 🙂

[rose ice]

<3

[shrewd wasp]

there is nothing on this earth I hate more that conversations that go "hi, how are you ? Good, you ? Good."

like

GEE THANKS THAT REALLY CHANGED ME FOREVER

[hidden inlet]

Half my tinder matches

[supple brook]

I would genuinely rather not talk at all

[shrewd wasp]

this is why I start conversation like "did you know dolphins's brains only sleep one half at a time"

[supple brook]

Please just send me a cool rock if you see one or smth that's much more engagibg

[shrewd wasp]

or "fun fact poison dart frogs are only poisonous because of their diet in the wild, captive bred and fed dart frogs are harmless !"

[dark patio]

cool rocks are best

[shrewd wasp]

I have friends who get anxious when I don't talk to them every day and I'm just like

I'm not dead I just have nothing interesting to say-

[supple brook]

Godddd yeah

I live in a nightmare cause I also have very very bad rsd so I instantly think people hate my guts if they don't text me back once or smth even though I KNOW what it's like not to have the energy to text its so stupid ahfkskgs

[shrewd wasp]

like I had a friend who genuinely thought I got hospitalised or something cuz I didn't chat for 3 days and I'm just like ????

[supple brook]

Hell brain hell brain

[shrewd wasp]

you've seen me be active in chats why would I be on my last leg-

[supple brook]

If the person I text with constantly doesn't text for 3 days I get super worried too but not with people I'm used to not chatting much with?

[shrewd wasp]

I mean yeah if you spend your days texting back and forth and the person vanishes out of the blue from every social platform we share I'd be worried

but if they're active elsewhere and just not chatting to me in dms eh ?

I trust my friends enough to tell me if they have a problem with me for any reason

and if they don't well I don't read minds 🤷‍♀️

[hidden inlet]

I'm exactly like that. There's people I hardly ever speak with, but it's something neither of us mind. If someone I'm closer with decided to take that pace though, I'd worry they'd be dead.

[shrewd wasp]

I just hate vapid conversations

if you wanna talk about the weather, let's actually talk about it

not just exchange forced pleasantries ya know ?

[hidden inlet]

Other person: "Weird weather, innit?"
Me: Doesn't read the room and blames climate change on multinationals.

[shrewd wasp]

pfffttt xD

honestly mood though

just look at the ice front they had in Texas

that was completely ridiculous

[hidden inlet]

I'm still shocked at how republicans tried to blame the energy outage on windmills and not the shitty infrastructure they tried to save money on.

[shrewd wasp]

I'm honestly still too focused on Ted Cruz fucking off to Cancoon

and blaming it on his daughter no less

[hidden inlet]

That was a next level bruh-moment.

[shrewd wasp]

imagine how she must feel

[hidden inlet]

I thought he had his masculinity at its lowest when he endorsed a man who insulted his wife, nope, now he's blaming his children for his PR-disasters.

[shrewd wasp]

her dad casually displacing the very legitimate rage of millions of people on her shoulders

[hidden inlet]

Party of personal responsibility, give me a break.

[shrewd wasp]

https://tenor.com/NCqm.gif

[rose ice]

oof dunno where else to put this but I either have internal bleeding or an internal skin tag and idk which

[hidden inlet]

Uh, shit. It serious?

[rose ice]

Idk for sure since I dont know what's causing it

But there was lots of bright red blood and I'm not on my period I just finished it and am on birth control

[hidden inlet]

I'm not a medical expert by any stretch, but you should probably get that checked out or at least keep pulse on that to see if whatever it is develops.

[rose ice]

Yeah I'm gonna make a doctors appointment I think

Could be as simple as an internal skin tag or could be internal bleeding from something as serious as cancer

I do wanna go to the hospital but its expensive oof

[jaunty plume]

rip usians

[hidden inlet]

Yeah, I was hoping that wasn't the case. x.X But if you're going, I support that.

[rose ice]

Im gonna talk to my husband about it when I get home from work but he thinks i should just make a doctor's appointment

[jaunty plume]

how much does that cost there?

[rose ice]

Not sure yet I'm on new insurance since I married my husband

Could be 50+ usd

[jaunty plume]

just to see a doctorw

tf

[rose ice]

Co-pays

[jaunty plume]

whats that

[rose ice]

Basically what you have to pay a doctor with insurance to see them, someone else can probs explain better than I

Basically what insurance doesn't cover

[hidden inlet]

I think we have a different system in the Netherlands, but there are times we have to pay parts or the whole for a little bit until it hits a limit.

[rose ice]

Yeah a deductable

We're gonna hit ours pretty fast I feel like

[shrewd wasp]

are you in any pain at all ?

[hidden inlet]

Christ, y'all got both? ._.

[rose ice]

Yeah my stomach hurts but I also have gastroparesis so it could be from that

But it's been pretty bad lately

[shrewd wasp]

is it like period cramp or upset stomach kinda deal

[rose ice]

Period cramp but mostly in my stomach

[shrewd wasp]

dyou have pain anywhere else like pelvic area or small of your back ?

mmmh might have burst a kyst or something

def wanna get checkout though

[rose ice]

It's hard to tell cause I have chronic pain XD

[shrewd wasp]

oof I'm sorry ><

[rose ice]

Its okay

But it was definitely bleeding from umm ||my behind|| and not elsewhere

Okay now I'm starting to feel nauseated but it could also be because of my gastroparesis

[shrewd wasp]

GUYS I FOUND MY WIFE AGAIN

I'M SO HAPPY

[hidden inlet]

Is it the Resident Evil vampire lady.

[shrewd wasp]

IT'S BETTER

[torn willow]

If the blood is bright red then good news! It's probably not internal bleeding. Probably a hemorrhoid or a skin tag. If the blood was dark and dried looking you should be very VERY worried though

If the pain gets worse haul ass to ER though

[rose ice]

Okay sounds good

[heavy heron]

I have a love/hate relationship with my hair but I brushed it for the first time in months (is very curly and brushing can be bad yo) and I have realised that it's likely the longest and healthiest it's ever been. Bask in the mane (please ignore face I don't know what to do with it)

also there is hair oil going on and stuff

[gritty flax]

you look cute, but i kinda see you dont know what to do with your face, its okay, i never do, im stuck with short hair for awhile, i cant wait to be able to grow it out again

[heavy heron]

I chopped it alllll off a few years ago because I'd killed it entirely. I'm not usually awful with selfies but lockdown hasn't actually afforded me many reasons/much motivation to make any effort lol

[wooden summit]

I used to grow my hair super long, but I cut most of it off when I was a sophomore and never looked back. Short hair is so much better in hot, humid climates like Houston.

Selfies are difficult for me because of my prosthetic eye, but I can usually make it work by styling my hair over that side of it face a bit, and wearing my glasses for some glare. (Which a why I usually draw my avatar like that, for consistency I guess. 😆)

[gritty flax]

i grew up during highschool with super super long hair, but i cut it because jobs and trying to present and pass as a masc guy, but i always hated having short hair, but im stuck in the military so i dont really have any chance to let it grow so i can make myself look more femme.........ugh the life of a trans girl in the military

[shrewd wasp]

I can't stake selfies to save my life it's awful

the fact I have a shitty phone and shaky hands doesn't help xD

also ngl Inju I miss the Bob Ross hairstyle xD

[heavy heron]

Same lmao

It was short lived and I got Hella backlash from idiots where I worked at the time. Also each day was a roll of the dice whether it was a good or bad hair day.

I do own a large assortment of wigs though so outside of work I could pick and choose.

[rose ice]

Fabulous hair!

[fading cedar]

Omg the hair 😍

Whenever i take selfies i look like a f-boy 😂

[hidden inlet]

How very dare you have better hair than me. I will best you.

Okay, but unironically, that's insanely pretty.

[hidden inlet]

I either look unhinged or awkward in the lighting in my house. 🤣

Got the long, split-ends, eyes staring off into space, awkward smile and everything.

[fading cedar]

I mean my lighting is good since i have studio lighting but my selfie-game... Jikes

[hidden inlet]

Tried to take a pic for my CV and after like 15 pictures, I finally got this.

I don't know why I pretended to look off into to the right. Saw some people do it, I'm like "Copy-paste my way to success~"

[gritty flax]

I'm still learning makeup, havent had help with it

[hidden inlet]

Honestly did way better than I ever would.

[radiant tundra]

ahhhhhhhh you look so gorgeous

[supple brook]

So many pretty people here 🥺

[shrewd wasp]

I look like a complete psychopath on selfies

if I don't overtly squint my eyes they just look dead 🤣

[supple brook]

I don't know how to do expressions man all of my selfies look the same

Which is a problem when you're a cosplayer 😶

[gritty flax]

i cant really smile because i close my eyes when i actually smile

[shrewd wasp]

I should try that

closing my eyes

and hiding behind my hair

maybe turning about too

[hidden inlet]

Same. I don't know why. I think it's something I subconsciously picked up from cute people.

[shrewd wasp]

ducking out of frame

[gritty flax]

Nooooooo, dont hide completely

[shrewd wasp]

selfie's just a shot of a blank wall 🤣

[supple brook]

To quote shlee: you do NOT talk about my friend that way!!! ⚔️

[gritty flax]

.....are you calling me cute rn? is that the hidden message in there?

[shrewd wasp]

I'm not hiding it you look cuta af 😉

[gritty flax]

omg

[hidden inlet]

I think it's a cute thing when people do that.

[shrewd wasp]

y'all be looking gorgeous over here

[gritty flax]

Yall, i blush way to easily, i dont take complements well

[shrewd wasp]

hahahahaha

[supple brook]

Violet appreciation day

[hidden inlet]

It's like... It shows comfort, I guess?

[gritty flax]

ahh, i see, okay, i get that

[hidden inlet]

"I feel so safe that I can close my eyes around y'all."

[gritty flax]

umm, no no no, i dont deserve that

[hidden inlet]

That type of thing.

[shrewd wasp]

oh I found my favourite selfie hold on

[gritty flax]

.....so i have an appointment in about a half hour for therapy to discuss transitioning, and im nervous, but super super excited to take my first step medically, even if its only therapy

[shrewd wasp]

the incognito one 🤣

[gritty flax]

I love the mask, omg

[shrewd wasp]

thank you 😄

[hidden inlet]

AYY! HYPED! 😄

[gritty flax]

and your hair is amazing AHHHHhh

[shrewd wasp]

everyone does, I keep getting compliments for it, makes me so happy every time :3

[supple brook]

Oh!! Good luck!! Congrats! 💞

[shrewd wasp]

THANK YOU ToT

it goes on and never stops xD

[supple brook]

Oh this is my favorite look I live behind a mask, sun glasses, and big headphones

[hidden inlet]

Holy shit, your hair. ._. I'm jealous.

[supple brook]

Animal nose masks unite

[shrewd wasp]

staaaaaaahhhhhhhhpppppppppppp ToT

[gritty flax]

i want to, it would be easier to pass femme if i was behind a mask, but at the same time, fuck it is what i tell myself

[gritty flax]

AHHHHHHHHHh, so pretty

[shrewd wasp]

heck yeah ! 😄

[supple brook]

I miss that hair color 😭

[shrewd wasp]

I'd never dye my hair tbh, I'd be way too scared of damaging it xD

[gritty flax]

you have plans to dye it again soon?

[shrewd wasp]

but that colour looks great on you !!

[gritty flax]

i miss dying mine, im not able to anymore

[supple brook]

I genuinely don't care about damaging mine at all ahflslg I bleach it with shitty box dye

[hidden inlet]

I considered getting an auburn streak in the part of my hair, but then COVID happened and I didn't want to do it myself.

[shrewd wasp]

you're braver than I xD

[supple brook]

Idkkkk I want to but upkeep with dark hair is so annoying and expensive :/ my hair grows like weeds lmao

[gritty flax]

xD i can imagine because you need to bleach to get any real color to it

[supple brook]

I have an undercut and when I'm sick of it I'll probably shave it all off cause growing it out sucks, I'll probably do all kinds of colors then lol

[autumn aurora]

There are some dyes that cover dark hair but they’re not great

[supple brook]

Oh yeah I need to bleach it multiple times

I've done that before when I wanted less vibrant color

[gritty flax]

i want long hair and to enjoy dying it, but nope, cant do either for about 3 years

[supple brook]

Aw i'm sorry :( are wigs an option, even if it's just for yourself at home?

[gritty flax]

yea, i can wear wigs, i have a few cute ones

[fading cedar]

Hey speaking of makeup, I’m also not very great at it 😂 (I know I’m late to the party I’ve been studying 😂)

[shrewd wasp]

my hair rn, but I need to trim the ends they're splitty af

heeyyyy another handsome person to add to the roster 😄

[supple brook]

Ohhh love that look!! I adore colorful eyeshadow

[gritty flax]

[hidden inlet]

Honestly, being a guy and trying out make-up, you're already stan-worthy.

[fading cedar]

I love makeup I think it’s so much fun 😄

[shrewd wasp]

respecc, I can't be arsed to put any on most of the time xD

[gritty flax]

i dont most of the time, only when i wanna feel prettier

[shrewd wasp]

and if I do it's legit just eyeliner, mascara and lipstick

[fading cedar]

Oh same, specially during the pandemic I look like a potato most of the time 😂

[supple brook]

I love makeup but it for sure feels like a burden sometimes

[gritty flax]

ive only used eyeliner and eye shadow, nothing else, the lipstick i have, i dont like

[hidden inlet]

I've never tried out make-up other than nail-polish. And maybe moisturizer if that counts.

[supple brook]

I appreciate the pandemic for making me much more okay with being bare faced and appreciating and embracing fun makeup when I actually feel like wearing it much more often

[shrewd wasp]

I'm always terrified of it running of my lipstick going tits up, cuz ya girl loves a vibrant blood red but if you mess it up it shows

[supple brook]

God same I rarely wear it bc of that, I'm such a messy bitch

[hidden inlet]

Am tempted to just get dark nail-polish, learn how to apply winged eye-liner and go full-punk.

[shrewd wasp]

duwiiitttt

[gritty flax]

i mean, fair, but id prefer being marked up with bright red lipstick rather than wearing it myself

[supple brook]

HELL YEAH HELL YEAH

[shrewd wasp]

I used to surprise kiss my friends on the cheek whenever I wore lipstick 😂

[hidden inlet]

I don't want to just dive into an aesthetic tho, because I really respect the culture.

[gritty flax]

Pfff ;-; ive kissed one person, and only once, and thats all ive had for romantic interactions

[fading cedar]

My friend AAAALWAYS did this. My dog AND me had bright red lips on our cheeks...

[shrewd wasp]

oh no kissing on the cheek isn't romantic in France xD

[gritty flax]

i know, but i havent had a kiss on the cheek before, or anything like that

ive never held hands with someone, or cuddled, even just as a friend

[fading cedar]

Specially when we were out at a bar or anything and I’m like “how will I EVER get a partner if everyone things we are together?” 😂

[shrewd wasp]

oh my goodness that's unacceptable , I'm so physically affectionate with my friends you'd get tackled within 5 minutes xD

[gritty flax]

haha, but im shy and would hide before hand

[shrewd wasp]

aawwwwwwww ToT

gentle pats on the head then

[gritty flax]

and im very physically affectionate, but my ex wasnt and hated it

[fading cedar]

I’m also very close with my friends, I love a good hug, we hold hands cause it’s fun we are very affectionate with each other but nothing sexual

[hidden inlet]

It's like a switch for me. I do not want physical contact if we're not at least best friends, but if I'm partners with someone, it's like carrying around a joey.

[gritty flax]

im okay with physical affection aslong as i know its going to happen

[shrewd wasp]

yeaahhh physical intimacy doesn't mean sex

smh

[gritty flax]

I dont like hugs, but i want other physical affection

[shrewd wasp]

hey fair enough

you do you

[hidden inlet]

I like hugs if I get time to prepare myself.

[gritty flax]

and sex.....not something i really care about.....like sure, nice, i guess, but i just want romance

[hidden inlet]

Like the "open your arms while shuffling forward" thing is so amazing for me.

[shrewd wasp]

I'm only physically affectionate with people I know and like, a rando tries to touch me I'm more likely to break their hands or jump a mile away 🤣

[fading cedar]

That’s fair, it’s important that everyone involved likes it otherwise there no point, I have friends who doesn’t like it too and for them I just try to be verbally affectionate instead

[gritty flax]

ohhh, damn, thats some super human jump you have then

🤣

[shrewd wasp]

I hear ya, it's nice sometimes but romance is where it's at

[hidden inlet]

Same. I care about intimacy and that's a nice way to express it, but if I have other ways, that's enough.

[shrewd wasp]

oh dude I'll catapult out of the way before you can get your hands anywhere near me if I don't want contact xD

[gritty flax]

Take me with you, i wanna avoid people, and a catapult sounds fun

[shrewd wasp]

you know that gif of the cat that melts away from a hand like a reverse magnet when someone tries to pet it

that's me 😂

[gritty flax]

yea, yea

That is amazing

[hidden inlet]

Not me flashing back to having to kiss my relatives on each cheek three times total and deciding which cheek needs to get the double-peck as I'm walking over.

Oh, wrong reply. Soz.

[gritty flax]

xD no worries lol

[shrewd wasp]

oh man, the which cheek to start with dance

I know it well 🤣

[hidden inlet]

Whoever arbitrarily decided three needs to be the next one cancelled on Twitter.

It's problematic. I don't know how yet, but I will if it kills me.

[shrewd wasp]

it's regional in France, sometimes it's two, sometimes 3, sometimes 4

[gritty flax]

you see, i would still never have to do that in France, as i never talk to people due to having no friends, and seeing my family only once in the past 3 years

[hidden inlet]

Mohammed Ali rope-a-doping these hands.

[gritty flax]

5 minutes until my therapy session, ill either be back with good news, or.....well, another appointment

[shrewd wasp]

hey therapy's a good place to start heh

it's rarely easy but if you find the right person it really helps

[gritty flax]

military restricts me to a select few people i can go to with therapy, so, i hope this person is good

[shrewd wasp]

I hope so too ❤️

[fading cedar]

Good luck! ❤️❤️

[hidden inlet]

Unironically had that at a cat café a few times. They were like arching their backs and everything.

"No pets, just want food."

Honestly, mood.

[heavy heron]

Dammit I missed mask chat I have THE BEEEEEEEEES

Also the wig is probs my fave it's very femme

[blissful granite]

Aren't the foxez and the beez gonna fite?

[shrewd wasp]

BEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES

[blissful granite]

https://tenor.com/view/bees-oprah-oprah-winfrey-you-get-a-bee-gif-5490790

[hidden inlet]

The energy this emits, I-

[gritty flax]

im back ya cuties

got set up for a psych dr. and they will handle my appointments and getting me set up for hormones, and i am just so happy i wanna cry, my first appointment with her will be within a month or two, and i just feel like im getting closer and closer to finally being me

[hidden inlet]

https://tenor.com/view/fist-gif-5303912

YESSSSSSSSS

[gritty flax]

lmfao, that is sad but true

[supple brook]

INJU FELLOW BEE MASK ENTHUSIAST OMG WAIT

Noooo I can't find a picture grrrrr but I have a navy blue one with printed on golden bees and I love it, sewed it myself

[heavy heron]

Yeah my mum made all of my masks, they're fancy tie-at-the-back ones because 1, glasses and 2, floppy dumb ears that hate mask handle thingies

[supple brook]

It's my favorite mask but I don't really wear it anymore bc the bees kinda faded bc obviously it got ashes often :(

Ohhh those are great!

[heavy heron]

Much easier tbh

[supple brook]

Now I'm on a mission to find a picture, we have to be(e) matching!!

[heavy heron]

This was a while back (before my agoraphobia really kicked in lol) but we had a lot of matching ones from the same style of fabric 😂

Also yes we are twins and not mother and daughter shh

[hidden inlet]

Was wondering whether to respond with a smirk: or and unamused:.

[gritty flax]

i thought that was the case anyway 😏

[pure oxide]

I have a Sailor Moon mask but now we can only wear a specific style of like, surgical-style mask outside here in Germany so I can't wear it anymore

[hidden inlet]

but I felt like I wanted to behive.

[heavy heron]

We went to a comedy show and both had to change because we had the same idea as well.

it's exactly the same jacket.

[gritty flax]

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH, That looks sooo good

[supple brook]

Technically only in public transport and stores I think? Maybe it's a different rule in where you're from (it's bullshit anyways I hate it)

[heavy heron]

I don't know my dad's side (or who he is or what he looks like) so I'm just assuming I was birthed as a clone tbh.

[gritty flax]

thats okay, i presume the same thing with my mom, even tho i wasnt born with the proper anatomy to be a clone

[supple brook]

Adorable omg

[pure oxide]

Husband found it on Etsy and got it for me for Christmas

[pure oxide]

Also I mean, yes... but I'm not gonna carry two masks on me and change when I get to the store or something. 😛

[supple brook]

Idk if any of y'all are into she-ra but I really wanted to get one with a fail safe

[gritty flax]

AHHHHHH, yes yes yes

[supple brook]

Yeah fair 😂 I just west those "medical" black ones now, they at least look cool still

[pure oxide]

I love She-ra ;_;

[gritty flax]

Im absolutely in love with double trouble

[supple brook]

I will get the fail save tattooed one day. Its a plan

[pure oxide]

My latest FFXIV character is named Adora Meowmeow

[gritty flax]

and Wrong Hordak

[supple brook]

Amazing 😂 my acnh island is called etheria I beliebe

[pure oxide]

Mine is Grayskull. 😛

[gritty flax]

omg, yall, i love both of you

[supple brook]

God the most loveable idiot there is

Omg twins

[pure oxide]

https://tenor.com/view/catra-shera-hey-adora-hello-hey-gif-19412225

[supple brook]

Looks at the unfinished catra cosplay in the corner of my room 😬

[waxen hare]

waah sailor moon!!

my absolute fav 😭

i swear babby me subconsciously moulded my personality after usagi and tohru honda from fruits basket

[pure oxide]

Awwww

Yeah, I've been the IRL Sailor Jupiter of my friend's group for the past 20 years. 😛

[waxen hare]

that might explain the bisexuality too

AAA jupiters so cool!!!

[pure oxide]

I love to feed everyone around me, and my default mode is "punch first, ask questions later" so

[hidden inlet]

I try to be the chaotic, child-like comic relief. I don't know how well that's working for me yet.

But hey, got more access to my feelings now, so that's dope.

[waxen hare]

i think it works bud!!

[supple brook]

I would love to cause i adore magical girls but I never got into sailor moon for some reason,,

Their fashion though? God i want all of iy

[waxen hare]

sailor moon was my first mahou so it was my life for a solid few years and i still do a yearly rewatch and reread

[pure oxide]

My question is, with art like this, how could you NOT?!

[waxen hare]

cardcaptor sakura was my second its also v special to me

THE ART IS STILL SO PRETTY AAAA

[dark patio]

👀 we talking some anime in here

[rose ice]

I've never watched sailor moon but I've watched a bit of she-ra

[waxen hare]

also shoutout to uranus and neptune for awakenin somethin in me

[pure oxide]

Naoko Takeuchi was -huge- into fashion design as well, and she modeled a lot of their clothing and especially their princess dresses off of IRL fashion designer clothes

[waxen hare]

i also love their extra 90s anime clothes too

and mamos horrible green jacket

[alpine drift]

Ive still never seen sailor moon

[hidden inlet]

Same.

[dark patio]

I was a bit too young for it but it's on my list of shit to watch when i get a chance

[waxen hare]

definitely recommend!! the main character has big chaotic bi vibes and theres canon gfs

[dark patio]

ouran high school host club was my gay awakening

[alpine drift]

The only magical girl anime I've actually watched is madoka

[dark patio]

madoka is heartbreaking

[waxen hare]

aaa madoka!! 😭

[alpine drift]

yeah

[waxen hare]

i just want them to be happy 😭

[alpine drift]

[dark patio]

I made the mistake of watching madoka with my boyfriend while I was working from home

I was like, oh this is cutte I can have this on in tthe background while i do reports

[waxen hare]

OH NO

[dark patio]

NOPE i wasted a day and sobbed my eyes out

[alpine drift]

oh no

[dark patio]

Lio had seen it before so he knew what I was getting myself into

[alpine drift]

I watched it after being recommended by my fiancée when we just started dating

[fallow whale]

Lemme flex

[waxen hare]

homura and kaworu from eva have the same sad universe jumpin pinin gay vibes 😭

[alpine drift]

I already knew about episode 3 from memes so it wasn't too much of a surprise

[pure oxide]

I would honestly though recommend Sailor Moon Crystal, the remake

[dark patio]

I watched Eva with my boyfriend right around the time we started dating

[waxen hare]

aah are those the new ultimate edition ones!!!

[alpine drift]

I've also not seen Eva

[pure oxide]

It follows the anime a lot more closely, is a lot less 90s Anime vibes full of filler episodes and craziness

[fallow whale]

Eternal editions yeah

[dark patio]

He had the fucking smoothest line that was like, wow the moment I knew I had fallen in love you know?

[waxen hare]

man i still havent seen crystal gosh

[alpine drift]

All I know is that new eva came out and some of my friends are rlly happy with how it ended

[pure oxide]

*follows the manga

[fallow whale]

I think Crystal looks yucky

[dark patio]

You know that one angel in eva that's just a giant screaming cube?

[waxen hare]

i just remember the first few eps were riddled w horrible animation stuff and i just gave up

[pure oxide]

Oh, I love the artwork in Crystal, and like I said, it follows the manga more closely which makes the story flow better

I think it's definitely one of those things you have to get used to, but honestly the style reminds me more of the manga than a traditional anime which I kinda love

[waxen hare]

i know its gotten alot better since though gosh bcause that was in like 2015

[waxen hare]

i do!!

i feel like id grow to like the style but i just need some free time to ease into it gosh

why must i have things to do 😭

[alpine drift]

I'm hype for the return of Zombie Land Saga next month

[dark patio]

Okay so I had to go find it cause it was just such a good moment

[waxen hare]

CUTE!!

[alpine drift]

[waxen hare]

awh theyre cute!!

[alpine drift]

Lily is best girl in ZLS

Canon trans girl

[dark patio]

Awwww

[waxen hare]

i havent watched any anime in so long 😭

but when i do my preferences vary from shoujo to jojo

[alpine drift]

I haven't watched much bc I'm waiting for season 3 of fruits basket

[waxen hare]

good choice

i havent seen the new anime but ive read the whole manga wuhu

i remember the old manga it ended to oddly

ANIME

not manga

[alpine drift]

The new anime is really good