Inktober Day #9

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I had so much fun reading that

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How was the exam

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I quite literally just woke up a few seconds ago

The exam…hmm

Let me think

I didn’t take it in the end

https://tenor.com/view/kawaii-gif-22571722

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Well.

💀

Do you plan on takin it at a later date n properly preparing or are you just gonna leave your original score be?

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Yea, plan on doing it again

But later

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https://tenor.com/view/kakashi-thumbs-up-naruto-gif-15792601

This gif shouldn’t be funny to me but it is

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That gif being funny to you is funny

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https://magma.com/d/gazsqhw1xf

Gonna magma for a bit. I’ll probably still be down if you decide to drop in later so lmk

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I will

Im getting fod rn

Food*

So itll be a min or two

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👍

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I just thought this was really funny, apparently hunter z hunter manga is continuing now since togashi is in better health

I went to check out his twitter and saw this

I also find it crazy how america only starting funding education for math and science after the USRR launched the first satellite

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Competitive spirit

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Ima start drawing now

Ill do some more expression studies

I feel like I was one and done with that

And need to go more in-depth

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have fun

We can do an expression themed magma session later to reinforce what you learn if you’d like

Reenforce? Reinforce?

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Yea

That sounds cool

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Feel like I relearned some important stuff I forgot watching Arron bliaze

I also found the general direction I should go in to improve my face drawings

Though I do wanna draw more like david finch, watching arron bliaze has helped as well

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U remember how I told u I got a nephew

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Mm nah I don’t think i remember

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I told u awhile ago

He is 8months or sum now

Time flew by quick, cuz I though he was like two months or sum

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real

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Anyway, the main point was,

My mum sometimes asks idk, my brothers lover, cuz idk the correct term to call her

To cook

And im not trying to uhh defame her or anything, but I wish my mom would just cook all the time

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😭

I just imagine scraping the black off some burnt toast like wtf am i abt to consume

Give her some time tho. She might be chef-ing it up fr in a few months

Or years…

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Ima be long go by then fortunately

Other than that though, i dont really know her at all

As you might remember, I don’t talk to a large number of,people

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Yeh haha

N that relationship specifically can be a bit weird cuz like are you supposed to know them? Irdk. Like they are around ig but not close enough to where you would feel any obligation

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Exactly

I dont

Actually feel any obligation to get to know her tho

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And in reality you’re not obligated either so

Eh..

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Thats good then, cuz all I could tell you is her name

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And her cooking ability

I do have a good impression of her tho, cuz she bought me some peach rings

I never thought I could be bribed, but here we are

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She made a good offer I understand

I don’t remember my sister’s new husband’s name if I’m bein real. But I definitely remember my nieces’ names they were walking when i saw em last week

It’s so weird how fast babies go from being able to do nothing to walkin around n whatnot

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Oh, thats fire, it feels like I was struggling to carry my nephew just yesterday cuz he was wiggling around so much, and now he be walking and screaming

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I actually don’t dislike kids like I used to

Ig i never disliked babies though tbf. I still don’t like 7-13 yr olds though

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Me personally, I don’t think anyone actually dislikes kids, just what they expect kids to be

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Well yea, around 10 is when they become

Snot nosed brats

And not cute babies

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Exactlyyyy. Not cute anymore but not sensible enough to actually talk to about anything i care about

And too many of them are disrespectful asf💀

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Most of them never learned in the real world, you need a filter

This brings back a memory, I remember when I was really young and I was like answering everything my teacher asked, and accidentally exposed I wasn’t supposed to be going on a field trip or sum

Thats why kids learn to lie fast

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I used to accidentally “lie” a lot cuz like

My audio processing is a bit slow so someone would ask me sumn and i very quickly realized they thought i wasn’t listening when I took my time to answer

So i had started immediately nodding or shaking my head💀 I was in kindergarten and I had gotten a shot the day before. My teacher asked if I cried, and I nodded even though I didn’t and I didn’t correct myself cuz then that would definitely look like a lie

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Yeeea, like when someone asks me sum while im eating and I casually take a bite of my food or a sip of my drink before answering

I usually do that cuz im thinking abt the answer, but

Sometimes pll think im ignoring them

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Food is good cuz it means I have an excuse to take a bit. Ngl i be starin at ppl while chewing, nodding, and holding my finger up as a little inside joke with myself

The food is already paste in my mouth atp but it’s funny (only to me) if I prolong the awkward moment

Bonus points if you hit one of these like you’re analyzing the food🤔

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I feel like I never feel awkward cuz like

Idk actually, I just never do, embarrassed or sum tho, def sometimes

Like when I was moving the table and when I was picking it up, I slipped a bit, and it looked like I was mad weak

In my head, I was like, “Nah yo, this shi aint funny”

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I was considered “weird” by my classmates in elementary because i would just say random bs only i and my best friend thought was funny and let the awkward silence marinate

I think my sense of awkwardness and shame didn’t exist back then which made me not care about others’ criticism

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In middle school, I was actually the popular kid for sorta the same reason, one thing I would do was at lunch, I would tell these crazy ah stories

Like a witch with a chainsaw or sum

And everyone would be laughing and I felt really good abt it

But ultimately my fate was not to be the popular kid, only the lone wolf

So I stopped talking a lot and faded in the background

Cuz tbh, I didn’t really want popularity

It was also hard, coming up with jokes during school hours when talking to people etc

Always acting cool and stuff, it really wasn’t me

It was just an act that made me feel pretty good for a time

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It’s cool to be capable of idk how to word it

Making a crowd have a good time ig? But yeah i think being real, even to one’s own detriment, is just better

That’s my bias talking a bit for sure though. I don’t have the ability to intentionally be entertaining (ppl laugh at my deadpan jokes tho so thas neat) so I cannot compare from actual experience

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This is just what I type to make the “you are typing” stuff show u so people know im still in the convo

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😭you do not have to do that

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I been doing that since I been on discord

I usually just select everything and delete once I actually have sum else to say

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I thought you were editing your actual thoughts or something

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Sometimes I am

Just not all the time

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The “no no please” at the end is killing me bruh

I’m abt to go draw in magma tho. I did not succeed earlier

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I picked this meme up a long long long time ago

And I finally had the chance to use it ealier in a server with a lot of pll older than me

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And yea, ill hop in as well

I wanna test out the bits and tips I learned today

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Aight lemme get the link

https://magma.com/d/mnzwe2e29_

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I went to sleep in like the middle of the day

Which is unusual for me, not because I went to sleep in the middle of the day, but because I was out for a long ah time

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Sleep schedule destroying type sleep?

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Almost

I think ill probably go to sleep around a few hrs later than usual

So not too bad

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Ah

Idk how people don’t ruin their entire sleep schedule when they nap for more than an hour..I certainly do

I took a like…3(?) hour nap today smh

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I wanna do a special drawing for today

Since it’s Halloween and all

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If ur down for magma ill do it digitally

If not

Ill do it on paper

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I’m down

Gimme a min tho i need to grab food

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Also while deleting some of my ohotos, since it surpassed 10 gb, I found a tooon of leftover art I did not study

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Goldmine perhaps

https://magma.com/d/dtnu7b7sdk

Why did magma choose to make the whole canvas a thumbnail this time i was trying to abuse the fact that it hides it now

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It kicked me, and literally put me on the no internet screen

I remember getting like a super high score

With this thing

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Ima switch over to traditional

Ik I was the one to ask for magma, but I guess plans can’t keep up with the times

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🫡

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https://youtube.com/shorts/XeGDW4CHJ0w?si=OhzLf6kYDHtUA7KG

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https://youtube.com/shorts/cR7h5cWRdDY?si=IfQL6FBAG_-p6P5R

Ima go draw now

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https://youtube.com/shorts/wYNDu1WUcLw?si=BaKbF0Rztrh4UIcJ

Boondocks racist jokes were funny asf, especially uncle ruckus

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The Boondocks in general is one of the few shows that consistently made me laugh

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I say a peak a lot, but unironically, it was actually peak

I need to rewatch it tbh, I never finished it

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Same

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I don’t think its on netflix

Ill prob have to pirate it from somewhere like usual

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I watched it via piracy

Lmao

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I did some scribbling today

I call it scribbling mostly because it was very quick and experimental

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The eye looks cool

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At first I was just using a few pens,

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Yea, I think if I would have stayed just using some pens and maybe some pencil for shadows it would have turned out looking way better

But I legit used like fifty different things

Also

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And that’s the part of the process where somebody would look over your shoulder to see how skilled you are

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Fr, aint no one going to wait for you to fix it, they gon be like, lol, then walk away

That’s literally why I always have other prepared drawings that im just a step away from finishing

So whenever, if im ever somewhere, I can jus whip it out and act like im good

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w tactic

I’m kinda procrastinating cuz I’m bored and dk what i wanna do

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Its kinda late, I was thinking of doing a workout and taking a bath, then going to sleep

But we can do magma

If u want, all I would need is like 20-30min from now

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Sure

Well actually

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https://tenor.com/view/nerd-well-actually-as-a-matter-of-fact-gif-27665011

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Nah idk if I’ll even be up. I’m bored enough to wanna do something but tired enough where i could sleep to skip time

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All I could think about

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I get that, i would have probably fell asleep while drawing anyway

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Lol I’ll go watch Pikmin gameplay or sumn

Edit my to do list n head to sleep

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Is that a ripoff pokemon?

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https://tenor.com/view/pikmin-olimar-spin-gif-18336043577185636087

That comment made me wanna harm myself and others

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Idk what this is, but have fun with whatever it is

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https://tenor.com/view/ace-attorney-trilogy-hd-miles-edgeworth-peace-out-goodbye-chat-gif-22525790

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https://tenor.com/view/inugami-korone-hololive-erased-korone-deleted-gif-17850604

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After today, ill probably be off discord for 2-7 days

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Productivity days?

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I thought about it, at first I thought of just like, locking up all my devices and just doing schoolwork and drawing

But then i was like “how I gon get my references”

So now

Basically im jus ganna lock in and super focus

Ill still be on discord tho

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👍

I’m gonna be moving and job hunting so I’ll probably be on much less

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Hope it goes well for you

Getting a job aint easy if your dad counsins friends brother isnt the owner of a business

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Yehhh

Runnin out of options here lol. But I’ve already been on discord less lately

It’s not hittin the same for my boredom

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70% of me on discord is just talking to you

And sending u memes

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https://youtube.com/shorts/JJCoNL3JkcM?si=FswRr5MWyEfIamFF

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One meme a day keeps you happy all day

Hope ur moving is going well

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I’m packing most of my room up today. Yesterday was spent trying to apply for food stamps, apply for Medicaid, and find remote jobs

The move itself should be Thursday or Friday in an ideal scenario but might be shifted all the way to next week if some bs goes down (which is always very possible)

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Smart choice is to always get every penny u can

Im a fully functioning person and I still want disability

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But yea, thats 🔥, ima take a guess and say everything is ganna work out fone

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Hopefully yeah

somewhere i applied to finally got back to me and I’m gonna have to tell then I can’t do it

Real disappointed ngl

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Dam

Seems like it’s grind time again

https://tenor.com/view/edit-gif-24437932

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I randomly just saw this

Those lines are clean asf, idk how I did that

Those there

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Because like

This was when I wuz

Just starting to learn anatomy, which means I basically didn’t draw much at all at this point

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https://youtube.com/shorts/ji12e55tP9w?si=fVgP_JrN9wFqNQ5t

Also, your daily dose of memes

It took me awhile to find, but it’s definitely gold

If that dose wasn’t enough, ill overdose you

https://youtube.com/shorts/pNvOqlaRxtA?si=h4aXIBW--ThfAH7y

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Tony be killin me

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It’s even more funny when u know mike tyson actually talked like that

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https://youtube.com/shorts/1VJKuFeQDGc?si=knpopYXcs4bLaDDU

Daily dose of memes

It came a little late

Ill try to find sum to overdose you on as well

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The day is basically over with, so it wont be a daily dose of memes if I try to overdose you now

So ill save this one for tomorrow

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Something to wake up for

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https://youtube.com/shorts/xiaobRT7kGc?si=6eMCIvOw26ZprXST

Daily dose of memes for today

Once again, I was preoccupied all day, tomorrow I can finish all the work im behind on tho, which isn’t a lot

I made sure not to every get too far behind again, but it does happen sumtimes

Jus cuz im lazy

I also haven’t drawn in two days, but tmmrw ill start trying to draw from imagination

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Moving on Monday

So I idk how much I’ll be drawing Monday or Tuesday or even Wednesday since settling takes a while

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Yeea

Especially just getting used to the new place

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Mhm mhm

One seemingly mundane thing I hope for is that the house’s neutral smell is not weird

…and that the toilet isn’t small. Awkward experience

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Lol, yea, it would be horrible if it didn’t smell right

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You ever been somewhere so old or funky it felt like the air got thicker when you walked in?

Can’t have that

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Yeeea, I remember this book, a physcial book I got, I don’t usually get them

But this one was like, it had like musk stuck to it, like it just developed that smell

I guess cuz it was old

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Them yellow pages

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I feel like I need to relearn basically everything

Like, its like, I have the knowledge, but I haven’t put enough reps in to force it into my memory

So I forgot it, but I still kinda know it, just nit great

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What are you gonna start with

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Heads

All these r the wrong proportions, and I also did reverse perspective

Making the things farther away bigger

I always do that if im not laying attention

But its cuz im tryna follow david finch

And the guys vids go fast asf

Im also drawing small for now, ill go bigger once I get a lot of reps in

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I will never stop reiterating that i think you should draw bigger for current reps but it’s your drawin journey lmao

Heads are so complicated. Why do you think i default to torsos and not heads when doodling

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I just can’t break the thought in my mind that if I mess up a big drawing, then it would be very wasteful

Even if ik thats not really the case

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Maybe drawing large bounding boxes and trying to force yourself to fill those boxes could help? Like you can fit three large boxes on a page so if one looks wonky, or even all three, it still feels like you used the space efficiently

Idk what would help that mindset other than literally just forcing yourself out of it

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I did sum similar in a recent drawing

Idk if I showed u

That one

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Been sending yt shorts for the past few days so maybe maybe not lol

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Eyy @green horizon, you just advanced to level 80!

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Let me find it rq

I did a wipe of my photots, 11gb down to 8

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Sheesh

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This is it, tbh it was literally open to that page already, I was looking for another one I thought looked cool tho

Still cant find it

But, i basically draw two lines

One top and one bottom

To depict where I wanted it to go

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I actually think that size is ideal for stuff like portraits or anatomy studies where you’re doin full blow exploration of form n allat

But yeah all of your stuff doesn’t even have to be that big

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Yea

Im gradually working on it

But I also said that a few years back

So who knows how fast gradually is

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Here it is

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These were taken at two different times, and I also added a bit of purple to the left

The thing I think is really cool about this is the water drop

Or tear drop

I also smudged the eyelashes as well, but I didn’t take a pic of that

Chatgpt also made me this amazing piece of calligraphy

You will never guess what it means

Unless you know kanji, then it’s game over

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Nope dunno my kanji

Add stylization and it’s over

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It means

Well, let me translate it to Japanese first

Dai Kami Ō

Or

Great God King

It was Chatgpt’s suggestion, and I liked it, I though I might sign my stuff with that

The kanji

All I need to do is memorize how to draw those kanji

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It seems like a long while

But

I think ima go by a month by month style, month for head, month for arms, month for feet etc

I really think with that amount of time and focus put into it, without worrying about other stuff, I can really hammer it down

I was about to say hammer it down good, but that just sounded weird

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Damn thas a lotta time for each

2025 will hopefully be a year for art breakthroughs

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Fr, i wanna do a minimum of 1k each, each month

I should be able to

Well, 33 each day?

Or 33.3

Idk about that

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33.3 whats

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Of each thing Im doing every month, so like for heads

33 head drawings a day

For a month

Or

33.3

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Idk about 33.3, I can def do around 10 though

Especially if I wake up in the morning and get to drawing instantly, I spent around seven or eight hours reading yesterday, so doing that for art shouldn’t be too hard

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We’ll see we’ll see

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It’s actually funny how this happened, cuz I don’t usually hit these numbers anymore

It’s usually only around 4 or 5, maybe 6 now

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A whole work shift

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But yesterday, I thought the webnovel I was reading only got updated twice like usual

But they actually translated the whole thing, which was hundreds of chapters

So I jus kept clicking next, thinking it would stop at some point

it did not stop

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Ion have any crazy goals art wise or life wise for next year

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Me either tbh

Actually

I wanna do 1k pushups in a day in 2025

Thats prob the only thing

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Doable from the little ik abt exercise

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Wait, I feel like I worded that deceptively

1k a day, as in I wanna do 1k in a day fug

You get what I mean, not everyday

I definitely cant do that everyday, I dont think many people can

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Ion even know how effective doin allat would be for whatever goal someone wanted to achieve lol

Definitely not necessary

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I jus wanna do it cuz it’s a cool achievement

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1. Get a job (🗿)
2. Start learning how to drive
3. Develop at least one story/character
4. Start animating
5. Maybeeee open commissions

^2025 goal

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U can def do all that in 2025

Oh yea, I heard Trump is president now

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Yeah

Or well will be in January

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Maybe jobs will become easier to get since he deporting all them motherfuggers

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🗿💀

Doubt

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Many many of the same ppl who voted for him but im not gettin anymore political than that

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I don’t really care abt politics tbh, it’s just I saw a lot of funny vids on yt making fun of kamala

And abt how her ads were saying men get no bitches, so they should vote for her to get laid

That was funny asf

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Ngl ion even know what her policies were or anything. I don’t pay attention to politics much until stuff actually starts goin down

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Its not like I could change anything even if I did care

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I heard the results, consumed a lot of content about it over the next two ish days to be informed, then went on about my life

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Yea, staying informed is def important, but tbh, if I can make enough money, politics wont affect me anymore, at least not to a big extent

Thats my basically life goal

Make so money money I can live in it

Or I shouldn’t even say its my goal

Its like, I want it to achieve all my goals, but without it I cant

So it is basically my goal by extension

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This is actually one of the biggest factors people vote on. Am I financially better off under this person or not? That and vibes. What they don’t realize is that they’re not abt to have more money in their pockets even w the election result

You still payin 3.50 for a bag of chips nigga

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In the end, you got to depend on yo self in the end

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Shiiiid I don’t have any income to begin with

I think imma just

Bite the bullet and get a wfh job unfortunately

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Waffle job?

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Work from home

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Oh

I knew that

Anyway….what kind of work from home job?

Like amazon support?

Or just in general?

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Either data entry of yeah somethin like amazon support

But my skills over the phone are terrible so something like the latter would drain my soul

Especially if mfs start cussin at me n I can’t defend myself if i wanna keep my job. I don’t enough dignity to spare for that bs

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I used to play with a guy who worked in support, he told me a lot of funny stories abt old people and people who wer just angry that he hung up on

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Lmao

I would prefer a job where I don’t have to talk. I tend to stutter and stumble over my words even when I’m the customer

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I don’t even speak much at all, so I wouldn’t even know how I would handle that, though

I think I would do decent

Have I ever told you about that time

It was a long time ago

You see, I don’t remember where I was going, or where I was coming from

But I was in the backseat of a car, I don’t remember if it was black or red, or any other color, but black and red are coming to my mind

And so

I was sticking my head out the window, and I think you can already see how this is going

But, in the end, I was almost choked to death by the window going up

Story end

This is also unironically how I would talk when I was playing with with pll and I was in a party

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💀

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David finch video, then my recall on it like 20min after

I really think I got a lot from the video, the thing is though, my skulls are az

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Sinixdesign has a video on skulls that I like. You did good on giving the eye sockets and nose depth

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Looking back at the david finch video heads,

I instantly see some of my misaktes

Mistakes*

Ill check out sinix too, since u reminded me of him

All his videos have been immensely helpful whenever I watched them

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What im trying to do everyday is

Watch a good video or maybe open up one of the many sto—illegally borrowed pdf books, study from it, then wait a bit, then try to recall everything and draw it without looking back at it

Then

Draw sum for fun incorporating all that I learned for that day

I think if I repeat this for the whole month, ill retain much more than I did before

And get a lot better

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That’s actually doable and a good way to approach thigns

Slowly inputting and daily reenforcement 👍

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This is what I did for today, I tried to do sum from imagination at first, but like

Thats still undoable

I don’t really like the second face tbh

I used this as reference for it, its mermuen or however u spell it from hxh

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I was on this for like 30 min, I literally almost went insane

Five minutes on ChatGPT later, I figured out all of them were actually correct, but according to whoever the fug strunk is, the third one just sounds better

The key point here is that they gave me no heads up about this

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I can see how the first two feel a bit clunky, but to say that the first one is straight up incorrect is just

Not true?

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The first one was my first choice

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That’s what I probably would have chosen too. Not because it sounds more correct than the third one, but because when I’m thinking of dependent clauses, I’m expecting whoever made the test to want emphasis on the fact that it’s a dependent clause

Which a comma does

Also who tf is strunk lol

[vale meadow]

It was jus sum that made me really mad at the time, and yea, that’s literally what im saying

They told me nothing abt that motherfugger

[green horizon]

[vale meadow]

https://youtube.com/shorts/YCcdi6Z82z4?si=goIqd6DF86Xxu2r4

Daily dose of memes

I been falling off with the time

But thats cuz i been catching up with work, after to tonight ill be ahead in everything

Presumably

Ill try to do a quick workout, then go start my drawing routine

[vale meadow]

Daily dose of memes

https://youtube.com/shorts/1EdtEdgAsBo?si=d7i_M5cZ7UEJdUkA

Thats not a meme this time

Felt like this was a “get to drawing” type video

So dats what ill do now

[vale meadow]

So I was tryna recreate this pose but viewed from a different angle

I just realized I was making the leg the same way

Thats all, back to drawing for me

[green horizon]

@vale meadow how have your drawing sessions been goin?

[vale meadow]

Just woke up

I haven’t really been drawing much at all

Im basically waiting for the weekend

So I can have some peace of mind to draw

[green horizon]

Ah thas understandable

[vale meadow]

The daily memes

Will come again tomorrow

Today and yesterday I was jus tired

For no reason really

[green horizon]

Lookin forward to it

[vale meadow]

I also lied

I been consistently hitting 7-8hr reading days and that makes me tired asf

[green horizon]

💀💀

[vale meadow]

It’s really because I can procrastinate while reading

It start’s literally right after I start working

I finish a bit, then im like, “im tired, why don’t I read sum”

Then it literally does not end cuz I do not want to go back to working

And the story being interesting is also sum

[green horizon]

Mannn you need somethin else to serve as your break reward. Especially if you’re getting behind on assignments n stuff. The fact that you can catch up isn’t the point

[vale meadow]

No, it’s literally because im all caught up

I start procrastinating harder when I catch up

For some reason I cannot break this cycle

Procrastinate, get behind, lock in, work harder, catch up

Rinse repeat

I think it’s because me knowing I’m behind motivates me a lot more

[green horizon]

You gotta develop better habits once you’re already caught up. I definitely understand the compulsion to only reallyyy grind once it’s out of necessity because you’re behind

But the cycle can’t be broken unless you sustain the caught up period long enough to develop habits for it

The peace of mind of being on top of everything is a tightrope basically

[vale meadow]

Yeaaa, this time I’ll stay ahead, since tomorrow is Friday, and im currently all caught up for today

Mostly

All I need to do is

Do everything friday, and work a bit over the weekend

Get ahead

Then try to behold up those habits like u said

Wrong correction

Build*

[green horizon]

👍

Try not to let that “im ahead so i can kick back” feeling creep up on you. Self paced learning is such a double edged sword hhh

[vale meadow]

https://tenor.com/view/jerry-angry-jerry-woodpecker-chair-gif-14254398

[vale meadow]

https://youtu.be/WmfRFk5wr8s?si=GK4xaBnCTWNEtKX9

Daily dose of memes

[green horizon]

Wow it looks like he really fw it tho

[vale meadow]

Fr

I wonder how he gon be when he grow up

[green horizon]

A dub watcher

[vale meadow]

I didn’t even notice

I was focusing more on how the baby looked high tbh

[green horizon]

I didn’t see subtitles but also couldn’t hear the tv so it could be the sub lol

But yeah he was entranced either way

[vale meadow]

Ill prepare an overdose later

Rn im doing pretty good on my work, i wanna get ahead in everything today tho

Probably by a day or so

[green horizon]

Heck yeah

[vale meadow]

After around a week or not really drawing

I feel liberated

[green horizon]

https://tenor.com/view/all-might-anime-smile-birght-smile-white-teeth-gif-12149673

Peace restored

[vale meadow]

https://youtube.com/shorts/-cDElPOrqSo?si=K9hwWKUgtzod7xTA

Expectation v reality

The song really got me thinking it was about to be sum fire, but it jus looks lik sum I would make

[vale meadow]

My first attempt at making a character with zero reference in awhile

[vale meadow]

https://youtube.com/shorts/ntjuc_pNODA?si=3DBEbabEWz_APVIM

Daily meme

Idk why I find this so funny

https://youtube.com/shorts/DJyGWdUYZAU?si=JJ1D_ikPPBUiRksQ

This is the overdose for today

https://youtube.com/shorts/n8Uze5jegdY?si=f12Nx42p92TF3eLR

Alr last one

Im literally dead now

This channel is so funny

[vale meadow]

Has your movement into your new abode been successful?

[green horizon]

Yeah! Fully settled in atp. I have some clothes and a couple things I can’t unpack since I don’t have a dresser anymore, but everything is still organized n situated

[vale meadow]

Dam, rip dresser

They took a real one

[vale meadow]

You wanna hop in magma later?

Feel like it would be good to get sum digital art in, just in case I get rusty

Going from shading a circle not not be able to shade a circle is not sum I want to happen

[green horizon]

Yeah I’m down for magma

Bit later though. Tryna shake this nap off

[green horizon]

@vale meadow u down for magma rn?

I’m gonna formulate an improvement plan soon. Gonna make a google doc probablyyyy after our session. I need money. So im gonna be using magma to improve and gain consistency

[vale meadow]

Yea

Im only an hour late to reply

[vale meadow]

U probably pinged me while I was in the shower, so I didn’t see

i also got like wrist pain now

Dont know if its carpel tunnel or sum, but im wearing a wrist guard I think its called rn

Definitely affected my ability to draw to a big extent, it’s still possible tho

Idk how its ganna play out digitally tho, i dun think it would matter much, since all im doing is slidin my finger over the screen anyway

I just thought up a fire bar

“Remember kids drugs are bad, don’t you use them like my abusive dad, or I’m going to have to shoot your az”

The beat in my head makes this sound so much more fire

[green horizon]

I kid you not

Same

[vale meadow]

Rip

[vale meadow]

Guess u got to go through it once, part of the business

[green horizon]

I think it’s how your wrist bends when you’re drawing on a flat surface

Gonna try putting my stuff on a slight incline for a while

[vale meadow]

Yea, I do like think how I grip my oencil also has abig effect,

Like I used to hold my pencil dirfferent

I forgot what it was called, like

Like that, but I had it more in my hand

As opposed to my current grip, I don’t move my wrists much, but it happens sometimes without me noticing since it’s like the nature if how I grip my oencil

I really think the problem is that I be skeepin on my wrists as pillows sometimes tho

They can’t hold the weight of my big brain

[green horizon]

Realll

Wrist brace, proper incline, maybe ergonomic pencil grips

My mom has arthritis in her hands. I have observed that simply making your pencils/pen/etc as absurdly fat as possible helps

We gotta take care of ourselves man. We in this art sh for the long run

[vale meadow]

Me at seventy to my grandkid, “you should have seen when I was healthy enough to hold a pencil boy, oh the good old days”

[green horizon]

Finna ride to sonic w my mom

We can do magma once i get back if you’re still down

[vale meadow]

Gettin a big mac?

[vale meadow]

I prob will, emapshizisis on prob

[vale meadow]

Sleep is about to capture me

https://tenor.com/view/once-upona-time-regina-drama-queen-dramatic-go-on-without-me-gif-6010891

[vale meadow]

Woke up at 4am

Idk y tho

Even if I went to sleep at around 11

Dosent make much sense for me to wqke up now

[vale meadow]

If u want today

I jus woke up again from a great nap

So we can hop on magma anytime

[green horizon]

Down rn. I dread face practice but ig thats what I’ll allot time to today

https://magma.com/d/iEuupDclRu

[vale meadow]

Lol

Alr, i jus got sum noodles as well

So it’s a good time

[vale meadow]

I used to watch anime and find nothing wrong with this

But now, like, I really feel like they could have made here design better

The kid, though I know nothing abt design, I do know she feels lackluster

[vale meadow]

U wanna hop bac in magma in a bit?

[vale meadow]

This is

This is

Sad

Kyna v Yuz

0-6

For BCX 2024

Idk what kyna was on, but he needed to get off it

I almost cried watching that

[green horizon]

Idk what any of that is

https://tenor.com/view/persona-futaba-sakura-gif-18286525

O brawlhalla tourney

Also drawing made me frustrated today so imma call it a day onnat right there

[vale meadow]

Yea, it’s basically brawlhalla world championship

But they call it sum fancy words

No one believes me when I say in the past I could have been at least top 30

Now, I probably wouldn’t even beat last place lol

I was actually that guy in the past tho

[green horizon]

Idk how big the competitive brawlhalla scene is so maybe lol

[vale meadow]

It’s pretty big, I don’t exactly know either tho

Since im not in the pro circle

I don’t even follow d game anymore

[vale meadow]

Its funny when the words get cut off and I read them in a weird way

In my head it went maga z-eye-ne

And then I was like, nah, let me look at that again

[vale meadow]

https://youtube.com/shorts/fN83RmtduFs?si=EEi6FJaeYJyye7kY

I don’t think it’s cheating per-se

But

The highest form of art in my opinion, drawing from imagination, cannot really be achieved by doing that

It would be interesting to hear ur opinion on it tho

[green horizon]

Not cheating at all. Still takes skill to do and understanding of other aspects of art. For example, he still needed understanding of line weight in order to make that eye look appealing. In the same sense, it’s why a beginner can trace something from a master n have it not look good

I think this method is good for more graphic stuff and album covers n such, but for the kind of illustrators we wanna be, this is could become a crutch. I mean, you can’t do every single pose imaginable, especially super dynamic ones. Being able to actually break down, understand, and construct form (be it through lines or paint strokes what have you) is still imperative

However, I’m not of the opinion that drawing from imagination is the pinnacle of art skill

[vale meadow]

I definitely think that drawing from imagination, no reference etc is the pinnacle, but I also uhh idk verify other ways

[green horizon]

Possibly because my actual mind’s eye is damn near blind. I don’t have aphantasia but I cannot close my eyes and imagine things pretty much at all

[vale meadow]

Idk what word to use there

[vale meadow]

Same

Idk what anapthsiatia is tho

[green horizon]

That’s the complete lack of ability to imagine

[vale meadow]

Oh, that sounds like

Like terrible

[green horizon]

I’m like 85% of the way there

But while i can’t see images in my head almost at all, my other senses can describe those images pretty well

[vale meadow]

I can barely imagine a few lines in my head, like if I were to try explain it, sorta like everything is black and I can kinda just sense the few lines, basically I can move boxes in my head, but that’s about the limit

But as far as like imagining goes, I can imagine entire worlds in my head, no images or anything like that

[green horizon]

If you were to try to imagine a red star rn with your eyes closed, what would you see

[vale meadow]

But, er, kinda hard to explain

[vale meadow]

I was jus abt to say

I literally cant image the color

I didn’t even know

But I dont think I can imagine color

[green horizon]

I’m gonna be honest

I see 1.

[vale meadow]

Its like, if im trying to imagine a line, I don’t actually see the line

[green horizon]

Maybe if I sat down and reallyyyy concentrated for a couple minutes, I could see something else, but that’s not how I think imagination is supposed to function

[vale meadow]

It’s more like I feel the line, and keep that feeling there

[vale meadow]

Imagine the motherfuggers who can see six

[green horizon]

My brother is a 6

He says that when he starts an artwork, his goal is to basically take the image directly from his head and put it on the canvas

And that he thinks he wouldn’t even do art if his imagination was like mine

[vale meadow]

Yeeeeeeea, I remember mikeymegamega saying he did the same thing

[vale meadow]

It probably makes it way easier to doddle and stuff if your a higher number

Or just draw in general

[green horizon]

Probably easier to develop goals. I imagine it would be more frustrating if your skill was nowhere near your imagination though

[vale meadow]

Lol

“Why cant i draw this dam line, I can see it right there”

[green horizon]

Part of my own lack of direction is that I literally couldn’t see what my style goal is if I tried. But if I were to write down a short paragraph of a scene I wanted to convey, I feel like that would serve as my “imagination’s” reference point

[vale meadow]

My style goal is basically an amalgamation of the artists I find really cool

So basically, same as u

[green horizon]

We can magma later today if you’re down

I gotta have a major comeback from yesterday cuz that was wold

[vale meadow]

Yea, im down anytime today

Im actually drawing now

[green horizon]

bet

[vale meadow]

Nah, I don’t even feel bad

An add jus came on with like “there is always an empty bowl on the ground waiting to be filled.” An animal support ad or whatever

And I was like, my bowl waiting to be filled too

I love me some cute animals, but I got to get straight first

[vale meadow]

I’m really starting to get back into anime now

Especially since stuff like tower of god and overlord sacred kingdom are out

I also got a ton of old stuff I saved and never watched

Like sleepy princess in demon castle, ima binge that tonight

[vale meadow]

Still down for magma today

[green horizon]

Yeah. Watchin Arcane s2 rn

[vale meadow]

Not at this moment, I jus woke up

But like

Anytime after this moment

Got to get sum work done rn

[green horizon]

Yeah

[vale meadow]

And

Tbh idk why I went to sleep again

Cuz I skept at like 10 and woke up at around 4am

Then went back to sleep around 7 or 8, maybe 9

Probably cuz I stay in my bed too much

[green horizon]

Possibly. And it’s hard to make yourself wake all the way fr. Bro if it’s cold ASF n that eye crust still tryna keep yo eyes closed

Goin back to sleep seems like a good idea lol. Especially if you technically didn’t get a full 8h

[vale meadow]

I usually don’t sleep for 8hrs

I sleep for around 7 hrs normally

Sometimes 6

Then go to sleep again in the daytime

[green horizon]

Then collectively, what do the hours add up to?

You might be sleeping too much atp. Slipping into biphasic sleep by accident can make that happen

[vale meadow]

I dun think it’s too much tbh, probably no more than 10hrs

Probably

[green horizon]

That’s manageable yeah

Though i would still be a little peeved about 10h personally

[vale meadow]

I dun count the time I go to sleep in the day like I do at jight tho

So that number might be off

[vale meadow]

The most enjoyable part of sleep is when

I’m half awake and half sleep and don’t know what’s going on

That’s when I feel the best

It’s like getting high, but without drugs, I guess you can call it pure high

[green horizon]

Whaaaaat ts is AWFUL😭

Too tired to actually focus but too awake to immediately fall asleep? Terrible

I had a time period where I was sleeping for like 16 hours a day bro. And i would wake up amd still feel tired until i went back to sleep. It was horrible man

I was quite depressed but didn’t realize. Why stay awake when there is so little to look forward to

[vale meadow]

Dam, this was sum deep thinking

https://tenor.com/view/thinking-sbgi-fs-sponge-bob-square-pants-spongebob-squarepants-gif-8789006

Okay, let me stop

[green horizon]

Zombie ah lifestyle

💀

[vale meadow]

Tbh, i dun have much to look forward to either

But like

I never wanted much in the first place

My current lifestyle keeps me content, except for missing a clingy goth girl, im all good

Dosent mean I dun want more

Just means I am content with this as well

Kinda contradictory

But humans be humaning

[green horizon]

Yeah but that’s good. Content but not complacent

A lot of my personality flaws work to my benefit so on the outset, they don’t seem like flaws. One of them being my extreme insistence on constant progress. Great when things are going good. Terrible when progress slows to a halt

So in my mind, I’d basically stopped progressing allllll the way back when covid started. Thas a long ass time without a feeling of actual achievement

[vale meadow]

Lack of progress kills me, but progress dosent exactly make me feel better either

[green horizon]

Idk if it’s the progress itself. Maybe

Maybe the feeling of simply moving forward?

[vale meadow]

I mean, usually the thing that makes me happy is the competitive element

Not the progress itself

The “haha im better than u” and the “now let me help u cuz its fun”

[green horizon]

Lmao i suppose that’s where our mindsets diverge

but I do want to be better at drawing than others

https://tenor.com/view/death-note-mentalwards-s4nri0-gif-18770878

[vale meadow]

I have no illusions about being named the greatest, I just want people say I was one of the greats

I can’t wait when I can flex on sometime and say “I been drawing longer than you were alive”

Currently I can only say that to my nephew, then he would probably proceed to hit my legs for me to pick him up

[green horizon]

Bro hitting that decade of drawing is going to be so fire

Might ascend right then and there

[vale meadow]

I just know once I hit a decade, I gon be doing some things I aint know was possible rn

[green horizon]

🗣️🗣️💯

[vale meadow]

Oh yea

Fall break

No

Thanksgiving break

Is soon

Finally going to really have some space in my head to draw

[green horizon]

Hell yeah

Could be a chance to build up a streak that can be kept up even when school starts again

[vale meadow]

Definitely

I have a plan of drawing from imagination once everyday

So like, a character a day, nothing too fancy tho

Then go back and correct it with ref

After I finish

[green horizon]

Actually pretty solid. Manageable too

[green horizon]

@vale meadow magma?

[vale meadow]

Yea

[green horizon]

https://magma.com/d/9o6ghr4uhy

I’ve been reading up on the embalming process a d watching videos on it so i can write my character Lawrence

[vale meadow]

Wut is embalingz.

Embaling*

?*

[green horizon]

That’s the process of prepping a body for burial. Draining all of the fluids, putting artificial ones back in so the person doesn’t look dead

Setting their features and applying makeup so the family can see their loved one

[vale meadow]

O

Oekekdkdfkfkkfkelalsd

My brain literally like

Went from nothing to short circuiting

For no reason

[green horizon]

Lol

Stuff is mad interesting though. I just rewatched a vid on how they stitch a mouth shut

[vale meadow]

Dang, I do love when people research stuff for their stories/characters tho

It adds a lot for of a real feeling to things and really gives the character more dimension

[green horizon]

Yeah! It’s also cool to learn abt other professions n conditions n whatnot

[vale meadow]

Ill hop in magma

In like five seconds

.

[vale meadow]

It really makes no sense to me

So im in a server that allows nsfw art, not like pron, or well that can prob go there as well, but its just like nsfw as in like bikini or sum like that

And this one mod that literally everyone hates

So wait

Let me go back a bit

This guy was drawing velma from scooby doo, clearly adult

And then this mod that everyone hates comes out of nowhere

“Uhh, guys, Velma is 15 years old, if you do this again I will report for child content”

Then they took a screenshot of of the first line and left out everything under it

That’s the reason no one likes the guy

[green horizon]

I’m reading this manga as research for my own writing cuz it has similar themes

[vale meadow]

Which manga?

[green horizon]

It’s called Wild Strawberry. Basically humans turn into plant monsters and it’s an and the government is like aw hell nah we gotta kill all of the ppl who show signs of blooming immediately

[vale meadow]

Lol

[green horizon]

Which makes sense ig but the method they use to do it is to burn ppl who are blooming. Which ok whatever.

Why are they strapping LIVING victims to tables and burning them alive though!??

[vale meadow]

I mean, I can see the government doing sum like that

Low possibility, but not no possibility type thing

[green horizon]

This dude is still fully conscious, cognizant, able to assess his situation and attempt to bargain

More human than he is plant atp. Why not put two in the back of his skull first before burning him or something😭

[vale meadow]

Waste of bullets is probably the reason they would give

[green horizon]

😭i would not fw that reasoning even if thas what they provided

[vale meadow]

“To best protect this country and its people, we must preserve all the supplies we can. Those things are not human anymore, they are monsters, monsters who will hunt and harm the people of this country”

I’m telling you they would give a speech like that

[green horizon]

Basically

But errr thas mostly a nitpick cuz

So far it’s kinda basic. Older brother has a sister who is a jinka (plant person) and will do anything to protect her. She is (seemingly) the only case of a jinka with the ability to control it and decides not to eat people (Nezuko style)

[vale meadow]

Hope he doesn’t go to the government saying he will help them find a cure cuz then his sis is done for

They aint no hashira

[green horizon]

Sooo speaking of which

They find her and pull up tryna light her up but it doesn’t work

And the brother’s dumb ass gets shot after threatening to kill one of the officer ppl by lighting him up. And he should definitely be dead but he survives

And second chapter one bombshell: he is also now a jinka

[vale meadow]

How is he jinga?

I mean

A jinka?

[green horizon]

So far their explanation is that jinka are basically like an illness. It spreads through the pollen other jinka produce and progression can only be slowed or prevented via a vaccine

[vale meadow]

Wait so,

How was he still human all this time if he been round his siter?

Sister*

[green horizon]

Sooo the siblings are orphans who live alone in a poor part of Tokyo. We see him tell her she needs her vaccine, so I guess he’s been somehow managing to afford at least a vaccine for her (?)

As for him, i have no idea if he is vaccinated. However, the sister’s jinka was awakened when they were little and were adopted by a family of jinkas posing as a human couple. They tried to attack the siblings and her jinka sprouted from her eye to protect them. So idk if she caught it from pollen or of jinka can also spontaneously activate in a life or death scenario or if she had if to begin with but it was lying dormant as a rare case

[vale meadow]

Wait

So jinka

Have some sentience of their own?

[green horizon]

Thas what I’m tryna figure out. How intelligent is a jinka? It’s goal obviously seems to be to obtain a human host to live off of. But it can have enough intelligence to masquerade as a human?

[vale meadow]

Have you ever watched parasite?

They sound kinda similar

[green horizon]

I saw a decent bit of it

I can see the similarities

[vale meadow]

That was one of the few anime I watched on regular tv

Idk if toonami or however u spell it still airs tho

[vale meadow]

What is like the objective again, what is the brother ganna do?

[green horizon]

His only objective is to protect his sister so they can find a real family one day

Which thas good for him but these two have no personality so far so i dont care about their goal. The sister character hardly speaks

Every single shounen older brother protag wants to protect their younger sibling. A familial bond is a strong motivation and needs no explanation. However, you still need to get the reader invested in their relationship because I’m not her mf sister so I don’t have a reason to be invested in her protection

[vale meadow]

When someone throws a twist on sum like this it makes it so much more interesting, like I recently started watching uhh something hides her feelings in russian

And spoiler

The childhood friend was actually just the mc’s sister, but they didn’t tell anyone, and the love interest for the mc thinks they are super close

Which isn’t wrong

It was just a really nice twist to the childhood friend v new love interest thing

[green horizon]

Yeah like thas actually something attention grabbing. There’s nothing wrong with using a trope and playing it straight, but if you don’t do it well, you run the risk of losing my interest quickly (as well as the interest of anyone else who has already seen plenty of anime/read plenty of manga and has been exposed to these tropes time n time again)

But tbf i need to chill cuz it’s only chapter 2. I’m hoping it’s just a really cliché first chapter n things start getting more unique

[vale meadow]

Yea, if u didn’t know, which u probably didn’t, im in a writer, like webnovel writer server, and I was critiquing this guy who wanted to have the mc’s dad be killed by a pirate, then have this pirate become the pirate king then mc defeats him

I told them to really think if they wanted to do that

Cuz like, not to be mean, I told them it was a little basic

Fortunately I have some rep in that server because of my insane reading time

So they did think abt it

[green horizon]

Yeah i could see a lotta writers starting their first projects lean real heavy on stuff they like n are familiar with

So my instinct would be to ask how they plan to subvert or execute really well on those tropes to make their story stand out

[vale meadow]

Btw, I didn’t just tell them it was basic

It was like

Two paragraphs or so of critique

And the previous day I spent like almost two hours chatting with that same person to iron out their world background, or at least the basics of it

I may not be the best artist, but if your writing something,

https://tenor.com/view/hawkeye-im-the-man-gif-24641660

[green horizon]

Hel yeh

Hol up

When the brother was shot

The sister fully like…she’s like

[vale meadow]

Zombified?

[green horizon]

In him now?? Pause but fr she took over his heart

[vale meadow]

Or….plantified

[vale meadow]

Oh

Interesting

[green horizon]

So she’s completely within him now i guess

[vale meadow]

So is the brother like dead? Or r they ganna do sum like

He should have died, but he didn’t haha

Type thing?

[green horizon]

He shoulda died but she used her jinka to resuscitate his heart

Can he die anymore? 🧐 hol up i gotta figure this plot out

[vale meadow]

So like, I thought

Jinka and humans were two different entities, so did the sister doe or was the sister a jinka from the start?

[green horizon]

Well she was a jinka from the start. She sacrificed herself to save her bro, so she’s not around anymore. The brother is now a half human half jinka it seems. Actually his condition is almost a direct copy of Kaneki Ken.

[vale meadow]

Lol, now that I think abt it, it really is

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In a situation where both should have died, their organ was replaced/repaired by a nonhuman entity, giving them qualities of both humans and nonhuman entities

Ah- cmon this is a little on the nose

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Literally lol

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I swear I’m putting this down if he finds a secret society of jinkas who don’t eat people

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Now that I look at it, not the best for comparison, but ik I remember one wer he looks just like this

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Sigh let’s see what the next chapter brings

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Ima probably go

Actually I might go draw

Im lying, ima go find sum to read

I will draw later tho

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👍

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Felt like doing some morning gestures

These were on paper five minutes each

But it was actually more like three or four for each

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The on the left is really good

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The upper left?

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The full body with the draped fabric

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I knew I wouldn’t have enough time to fix the legs

So instead i just drew the fabric

To distract from that fact

Now ima go watch some gleen vippo gesture/figure drawing vids

Cuz he is absolutely goated when it comes to that

Then ill go watch some vids on drawing realistic faces

I know the structure, but it’s a bit hard to like

Put it on the face when im tryna copy from life

Then I wanna watch some kim jung videos today

I have a lot of them saved

And lastly, Ill do some free draw

Thats my entire list today

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Productive day planned

Sheesh

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I would probably only do one of those things on a regular school day

Luckily its break for me now

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Oh right i keep forgetting about thanksgiving break

My irl friends are on break now too

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Lol, u got irl friends

Couldn’t be me

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I thought this was a girl for a second

These uhh, fer, no, these femboys are getting too good at the fem part

I can already see in 2050

You won’t even be able to tell them apart

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https://tenor.com/view/anime-smoke-aesthetic-gif-23632610

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“When I was your age son, femboy wasn’t a gender”

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Do you think Roosevelt really had to drop the bombs on Nagasaki and Hiroshima?

I feel like

He dropped the bomb not because he had to, but because of one, a show of power, and two, he really just wanted the japanese people to pipe down

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I meannn

No😭

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I feel like, though the Japanese were really suicidal,

The bombs weren’t necessary to get them to stop fighting, they were basically already done for

I do get it tho, the war was like

Killing a ton of people

It may just be me but, I really think japan would have given into the pressure and surrendered anyway tho

These r like shower thoughts tho

I didn’t actually do any research or whatever

So I may be slightly wrong

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I’m not informed on any of this to have meaningful input

History was my least favorite subject

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I don’t really have a least favorite subject, I definitely wouldn’t say I love history tho

Geography was definitely my worst tho, even tho I somehow, somehow still got A’s in it

I never actually knew wtf was happening

Idk how I did that

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History, geography, what have you

Allat is solely memory based to pass

So unless you’re already into that stuff or your teacher is awesome, you still not gon give af

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That’s why I like english the most out of all the core subjects

It’s still a bit memory based, on thing like sentence structure and stuff, but it’s way more forgiving in that

And it actually works ur brain

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Did y’all have AR points when you were in real school?

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Yea

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Mannnn I remember in like kindergarten or 1st grade, my teacher made ts competitive

She brought this huge chocolate cupcake w whipped cream and chocolate shavings on top

And was loke whoever hets the most AR points by this date gets this

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Fr, I was like literally one of the only kids doing the AR stuff in my school tho

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We also got rewards for AR points, probably nothing significant tho since I can’t remember what it was

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There was only one girl who was even close to me, n when my teacher brought this to my attention, my dormant competitive side woke up🗣️

Needless to say, I ate that cupcake. It wasn’t even that delicious from what I remember. The victory itself was much much sweeter

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I think I told you before, but like from 5th grade down I was literally way beyond my peers

I believe I was already reading at a 12th grade reading level in 5th grade as well

I could have been a genius if someone cared to develop me then

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I wish I knew how they measured ts cuz it didn’t inflate my ego since I didn’t know

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But nah, I just swept through everything easy

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I remember my teacher bein like René you have a 13th grade reading level. I’m like what does that even mean

What makes the difference between 10th grade and college? Yknow?

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I don’t think I ever surpassed 12 grade reading level ever

Like, i really dont know if they just like, stop scoring

Or if they couldn’t give me a higher acore

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I think not having more to work towards..idk it makes it less cool lol

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Or, there is a small possibility I have been stuck there for more than a decade

Wait, that math does not add up

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Also i like to think this for myself buuuut

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I feel like, if I really just got down and studied fr