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steady moon
talk about it to them not all promises last forever don’t hide it from them they would only attempt to help you, and i hope you get the help you need dont sh
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plucky hollow
talk about it to them not all promises last forever don’t hide it from them they...
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vast sun
It’s alright anon. Sometimes, things happen - you likely made that promise to a friend because they care about you enough and you trust them enough for you to be comfortable talking about this with them, and so even if you’ve “broken” their promise (albeit hopefully temporary, I hope you get the help you need on the path to recovery), you have not lost their trust. If they really care about you, which I am hoping they do, they will understand that you’re both hurting and healing, and only try to support you going forward. So reach out to your friend. Talk about what happened, and how they can better support you going forward - be transparent with the people that care about you, because they’re only here to help. That’s what real friends are for - don’t lose your trust and faith in a friend just because you’re under the impression that you may have betrayed theirs by doing something that is often out of your control.
Also, you’re not a failure. It’s okay. Things happen, things come up, and when you have a history of using SH as a coping mechanism, you may be tempted to do it again when under stress. Recovery’s not a straight line - every time you take the decision to quit, every duration of time you spend having quit, all of it is progress and is a display of your emotional growth and healing. I’m proud of you for staying clean for months. Don’t give up now; I hope you can find the strength within yourself and the people around you to quit altogether.
I hope it all ends up okay. As always, much love, anon.