Well

[latent gorge]

To start of with, why do the congratulations make you annoyed?

[delicate lark]

They just don't feel right, like either I don't deserve them or i didnt do enough for them (as per my bar), maybe cause i expected better than i got or smth?

[latent gorge]

Yeah makes sense

Idk if it has a name of a solution, but I defo fully relate

It's imo a symptom of perfectionism

[smoky drift]

Yeah got that too

[storm kindle]

Me as well

What seems like an achievement to others just seems normal to us

And it's annoying when ppl congratulate you for it

[open ether]

imposter syndrome

[full patrol]

thats kinda true

[delicate lark]

Does it happen to come with a solution bro

[latent gorge]

I wish it did bro

I still deal with it myself, just that now.im older I've learned to shove shit deep down inside

[delicate lark]

That's just sad

[latent gorge]

Tbf I'm not someone to look up to for healthy mental health 😂

I push thru life with a combination of thugging it out and substance abuse

Common advice is to keep telling yourself you're doing well and you're just overthinking

But doesn't work as well as I'd expect

[delicate lark]

Tried

Didn't work at all tbh

As you prolly know what jee mains is

I gave the paper and i got 99.7%ile, now that's great, but it almost broke me down in tears cause of how bad it seemed to me

Everyones like congrats, i've become the 'be like tanishq' kid for so many of my friends parents

but to myself? just not satisfied and its fucking up all my consistency and motivation

[latent gorge]

Were you hoping for 100?

Cos it's a percentile, it's based on how others do as well

And others getting a couple marks above you is sth beyond your control so you can't blame yourself for that

[delicate lark]

With my marks, I was hoping 99.99+

And yes what happened was entirely out of my control I know that but still

[smoky drift]

well, a way to deal with it is not to think or to just "tell yourself"

You have to BELIEVE it in yourself without thinking to yourself that you're lying

If you truly believe that you can do better, then be happy that you made 99% percent of the way

because remember, you made 0% of it originally

and just like every download,that last 1% is takes the longest

Try reflecting on how something that is easy now was the struggle of the century for you then

like fractions in math for me, now I do it blindfolded

and try to smile more even to yourself, and don't cry for a drop of milk, you carried a river worth of it

[storm kindle]

Wht rank you got

AIR

[delicate lark]

Haha good one, I think I need to remind myself more of how much I've come

[delicate lark]

😅the brain is like, if you carried a river whyd you let the drop go away but yes I get your point

[delicate lark]

Rank comes after second attempt, I'll know rank by like end of april

[storm kindle]

Ah

Wht marks you got

[delicate lark]

263

[storm kindle]

Out of

[delicate lark]

27th shift iyk what happened

[delicate lark]

300

[storm kindle]

27th rank?

[delicate lark]

Nvm ignore that

[halcyon crystal]

THAT IS FUCKING AMAZING DUDE WOAHHHH

99.7% tile in itself is INSANEEEEEE and that too in 27th shift?!?! THAT IS GOD LEVEL BHAI 😭🙏🏽

[delicate lark]

Thank Thank 😭😭

[halcyon crystal]

Nahhh bro you're an inspiration 😭😭😭

You're like 100000000000 times better than me 😭

[delicate lark]

Bro I had 263 marks

I was supposed to get 99.99 atleast 😭

[halcyon crystal]

Dude you'll get that in second attempt 😭😭

[delicate lark]

💀

[halcyon crystal]

You will broooo

Bhai you'll even get an IIT

[delicate lark]

Bro the chances are v v v slim

[halcyon crystal]

I'm so damn sure 💯

[delicate lark]

99.99 ke liye i need 285+ atleast ab

[delicate lark]

Thank you v much 😭

[upper topaz]

Gave +1 rep to coolguy.007

[delicate lark]

Working towards the goal

[halcyon crystal]

Nahhh dude 263 ain't no luck. Agar 263 aagaye hai then you will get 280 also ezzzzz

And plus a good NIT is secured now 🤠

[halcyon crystal]

Yess 🙏🏽

[delicate lark]

Everyone gonna kill me if i don't get an iit lol

[delicate lark]

touchwood yes thats the target

[halcyon crystal]

Damnn the pressure 😭 I can somewhat relate, but don't drown in those expectations. Me myself ain't gonna meet expectations from my friends and family so 😭

[delicate lark]

😭 Expecations suck

[halcyon crystal]

Trueee man 😭

Life becomes a hell worrying about it

[delicate lark]

ahaha

need some magic rn

[halcyon crystal]

Yesss 😭