venting

[flint geyser]

having adhd is so ass bc executie dysfunction rlly does ruin ur entire life. for 3 hours i will tell myself 'get up u need to get shit done' but i literally cannot make myself get up ?? my brain is a scam and now i have like 12475834386980 things due tomorrow that i havent even started

this is a frustrated vent more than anything i just wish i was capable of Doing The Thing but my body doesnt cooperate with anything i tell it to do

its okay!!! i appreciate it

sometimes u really do gotta talk to urself and tell urself to get shit done i will do that and hopefully finish all my work today for once

yeah it really is i came on here after doing some revision and i really need to get off it at 5

thank u :))

[lavish swan]

i've learnt to live with it sadly, its just a way of life for me

if i came out wrong by saying that, i apologize

[north karma]

Its not whether u came out wrong with it or not

It jus doesnt apply here

[gleaming sable]

the thing is theyre not even selfish

like everytime my brother leaves back to uni they give him all the good clothes and then state that ive never worn them

even though i literally saw them hiding the clothes

and what pisses me off even more is that they KNOW my brother has a shit ton of clothes

i literally only have a hoodie

he has like 6 hoodies back at his uni

AND THEYRE GIVING HIM THE LAST HOODIE

and they dont even give me money to buy my clothes

i literally have to beg them for months on end and sacrifice like so much shit so they buy me a pair of jeans and some sneakers

theyre just dickheads

[flint geyser]

my dad is literally abusive and he thinks this is how normal parents behave

bruh

he has this annoying af habit of coming in and eating from whatever my sister or i are eating even if theres no more left

so sometimes we just end up going hungry

my mom made my sister something just now bc shes sick and my dad came in and just ate like half of it

my sisters tiny. my dad is huge. she cant even stand up to him. she asked him to stop but he thinks we need to stop being so sensitive

i told him he should just go get his own food for once and in response he twisted my arm behind my back and told me hed love to get me married off at 18 so he can be rid of me

and now hes just randomly gaslighting my sister by saying she never talks to him and that hes not wanted in this household

does he rlly think normal parents r supposed to behave like this or

bruhh now shes crying i swear he makes me so mad

i want to go to uni next year and get out of this household but im also terrified by the prospect of leaving my little sister with both my parents

[flint geyser]

i swear this man just never thinks about the consequences of his actions??

he ate almost all of the popcorn my mom gave me. the last time i ate was lunch 8 hours ago

and im not allowed to eat anything else until dinner which is in another 2 hours

like he straiht up doesnt care?

thanks 👍

[north karma]

Bro are u good

[flint geyser]

why would i be joking

that would be a very specific joke

yeah i wasnt kidding my dad sucks sometimes

he has an aversion to hurting my sister bc shes so small so he takes it out on me instead sometimes

[flint geyser]

hence this

idk theres nothing i can do im just mad he keeps doing this adn refuses to acknowledge that its not how youre supposed to treat other people

[pliant sparrow]

yea i read whole thing

[flint geyser]

well im pretty hungry and my arm hurts but im fine otherwise

you get used to it

[eager ore]

I’m so sorry, this genuinely hurts me so much. This is obviously not normal and I’m going to assume he’s not going to change his ways. Have u talked to your mum?

[flint geyser]

it's complicated because my mom is also abusive in different ways and my parents fight a lot already

[eager ore]

Man that sucks so much, You’re going to have to train your sister for this and be very close to each other

[real junco]

wow wtf

[flint geyser]

my dad has anger issues and gets super violent. the last big fight they had was the worst and they didn't talk for about 3 weeks, my dad smashed his phone, and i spent way too long hiding in the bathroom

[flint geyser]

that is what stresses me out the most i really dont want her to get hurt

[eager ore]

😞, parents fights are the worst. The stress on our mental health is never acknowledged.

[flint geyser]

exactly :(

ive gotten used to it but my sister's literally 12 and it always makes her cry

[eager ore]

Is there another family member you can talk to?

[flint geyser]

not at all, im not close to anyone in my family really and my parents finding out would make it worse, most likely

[eager ore]

I’m sorry to say, but you’re going to have to take it for her, she’s young, it will affect her mentally more than you. This hurts to say but you’re going to have to live to get used to it. Defending yourself may make it worse. ignore him let him vent his anger but be in a totally different place mentally.

[flint geyser]

i think my best bet is to just reduce contact as i become more financially independent but i know thats something that will take a long time and might not even be entirely possible. ill see but i graduate and move out next year so at least theres that

[flint geyser]

i know and i really try to do that but i am so worried about what happens after i go to uni

she has another 5 years before she graduates and idk how im going to protect her then

[eager ore]

Well I was going to suggest spending a lot of time outside; with friends or pick up a lot of hobbies, maybe by the time you graduate, covid won’t be a big ass problem

[eager ore]

There’s not much you can do being in another country, being in touch and talking with her is the best.

[real junco]

what

[flint geyser]

this does not even make sense as a sentence

[flint geyser]

unfortunately i am not allowed to go out

rarely*

in the two years ive been in this country ive seen my friends 4 times in total

[real junco]

I'm sorry I suck at giving advice

[flint geyser]

i think moving out is going to be a big change given how controlling my parents can be

[real junco]

but I really hope things get better for you

[eager ore]

There’s a limit to what one can tolerate and shit like this from your own parents, I don’t think anyone can

[flint geyser]

youre all good! i genuinely just needed to be mad about it

[eager ore]

This is a stretch but boarding school for your sister?

[flint geyser]

i am already doing that

[real junco]

removing the indulgence part doesn't really make it any better JC7

[flint geyser]

no idea. i have zero control over any of the decisions my parents make

JC7 if you dont have any contributions to make you dont have to say anything

[real junco]

bruh

wtf

[flint geyser]

like you can just listen or just leave that is fine

[real junco]

you really think it's that easy

[north karma]

Mya i dont really know what to do in ur case sadly but hope everything goes well

Ive jus been used to my toleration

[flint geyser]

i am already tolerating it wtf else am i supposed to do lol

[flint geyser]

thanks ❤️

[north karma]

Not much except get out but thats my case idrk for u so dont take anything i say seriously

[eager ore]

You’re doing all you can. Stay strong. ❤️

[real junco]

I was right about you being really brave

[flint geyser]

that does not apply when ur parents are literally abusing you. please just stop talking if you cant sympathise with the situation

[flint geyser]

ur good i cant really go anywhere but next year ill be moving out so its just a wait until then

[flint geyser]

thank you it means a lot

[flint geyser]

🥺

[real junco]

JC7 wtf

[flint geyser]

jc7 you are kinda testing the limits of insensitivity rn

its alright, im okay as of now

[mild pasture]

i think you need to change ur mindset about the fact that parents can abuse u bc they're ur parents. they have absolute no right to do that.

[eager ore]

You shouldn’t be arguing with , someone going through a rough time…

[real junco]

Get ready for a really stupid message guys

there it is

[flint geyser]

it doesnt happen super often, my parents are really good to me at other times and there are things i am super grateful for but then on the flipside theres all this hell so my relationship and my feelings towards my parents is really complicated lol. im always feeling guilty for hating them sometimes bc who else is paying my college tuition and feeding me and all - logically i know it doesnt give them rights to abuse my sister and i but i still feel bad about it

[mild pasture]

they use they/them pronouns + didn't read ur text

[real junco]

yeah I understand that but he should stop talking because it'll make things worse

[flint geyser]

1. my pronouns are they/them.
2. please try to make sense when you type. it makes things a lot easier for us to read
3. this is not a meme channel
4. that is not an answer. if you dont understand what being literally despised by the people that created you feels like, dont try to argue about what people who go through that should do.

yeah but there are still limits - you dont misgender people and you dont make light of situations of abuse

[real junco]

Trust me he doesnt understand

[flint geyser]

then wtf is he doing here

well, anyway

thank u guys for all the support it means a lot 🥺 this stuff doesnt happen too often and isnt as bad as it might sound sometimes but im just gonna hold out and hope for the best + be grateful for what my parents do give me bc what else can i do lol. just needed to be angry abt the way my sister has to deal with this shit and how im always the brunt of violence. thank u for listening <33

[real junco]

@pliant sparrow some people like me suck at giving advice which is why I'm not talking too much and you should do the same

[flint geyser]

i can and will warn you for insensitivity

[real junco]

Finally

[eager ore]

Really hope your situation gets better. Good luck with it. Ik you and your sister can get through it

[flint geyser]

thank you

your english is perfect, and that is so shitty :// i am sorry your dad thinks that kinda stuff is a joke or funny at all. i hope youre able to get through that and that he changes his ways someday ❤️ thank you for the kind words it means a lot 🥺

[mild pasture]

thank you so much! i hope the same for you ^-^ just stay strong, inshaAllah it'll pass 💗

[eager ore]

This is just a thought of mine, my dad has his antics as well. Usually takes it out on my grandmother😞, she’s old and her brain isn’t what it’s once as (she can be annoying, you could say)and he tells her to die or I’ll die because of you. Whilst this is quite disturbing, I can sympathise a lot with my dad because of what he has been through. Own sister and friends have screwed him over for money. Do you guys think that they’re stressed too much and vent it out on us or they can’t handle it as well? You guys have a more extreme case and I’m not saying that their actions are justified but I guess they are venting it on us which is not healthy for either side

[flint geyser]

extreme or not, none of this is okay :( dont belittle what you go through just because you think someone else has it worse because no one deserves any of this, extreme or not. honestly i dont know the thought process behind this. my dad steals our food and is violent sometimes because he thinks its funny but his fights with my mom are definitely both of them venting their frustrations with each other. regardless i think its shitty and inexcusable of them bc they have the capacity to talk it out, seek therapy, whatever it is, so abuse should never be an option, let alone a resort

and i hope your grandmother is okay and lives long and well 😦

[eager ore]

I hope so too, she has her problems but has always been there for me, I try not to get frustrated with her but it’s really hard and I hate myself for it

[flint geyser]

thats okay, the important part is that you acknowledge that and are trying to work on it

and its finally dinner time god bless 🙏

[wicked turret]

That happens alot in my family as well. Unfortunately, I haven't found a solution and end up in a loop.

All I have done so far is mediating. Its not okay to lash out at the others, especially your own mother. Elders are clingy and sometimes annoying but keep in mind that they are lonely and their mental is slowly declining as they are fighting hard to stay with their loved ones more longer. So yes I would find my own stress reliving methods like exercise which I had.

I had to ditch my online sections frequently because my mum and grandmother would frequently fight over trivial things (it gets physical sometimes). Then my mum would lash out at others including me.

It's good that you understand ur dad despite that. They are your family members and it's better to balance things out in my opinion, rather sticking to one side. Try to minimise the interactions between them if possible ofc.

Sorry for sending it late

[flint geyser]

bruh what is wrong with my dad lately 😭

hes never like this but hes really pissing me off lately

[eager ore]

I’m in my room all day studying so that’s not a problem. I don’t really last out like that. Maybe raise my voice a bit.

[wicked turret]

Understandable

[mild pasture]

my dad has paid my sisters fees for a level and igcses, but now it's my turn, he keeps on saying we have no money. i'm scared what if i won't be able to do my exams. i told my sister about this and she said not to do igcses. she said they're a waste of time. quite ironic that shes telling me this.

[eager ore]

Damn that ain’t fair at all

Is it the exam fees?

Because if you put the work in, you can manage it all on your own, tons of free resources online. There are many yt videoed to help you out and tbs u can get online

All u would have to do is pay for exams

[eager ore]

They are definitely not a waste of time, that’s quite fucked up from your sister if she means it how I think she is

[mild pasture]

yes the exam fees

[mild pasture]

i'm not that worried about resources rn

now i feel like a burden on my dad :(

[eager ore]

You’re not

Fuck that

Don’t think of it like that

First of all education isn’t a burden

You need to sort this out ASAP, may need to delay ur exams to another session if it’s affordable then

[mild pasture]

i'm giving my exams in 2022

[mild pasture]

inshaAllah i'll get to do them

[eager ore]

Yea man I hope you do

[fleet lotus]

I hope everything goes well

You deserve a quality education

Your sister's wrong in saying that

You're definitely not being a burden

Good luck, and I hope your exams go well

[flint geyser]

your parents chose to have kids. you are their responsibility, not a burden.

[eager ore]

^^^

[flint geyser]

i thought i finally had irl friends that liked me but i guess not they accidentally sent screenshots of them talking shit abt me in a gc w/o me in it

maybe it wasn't an accident! who knows

every time people are like yeah we like you!! and then they don't

what did i do to be so dislikeable i don't even know. am i actually that annoying

[real junco]

even the guy who bought that book for you?

[flint geyser]

yeah

[real junco]

damn he looked like a nice person

[flint geyser]

i mean i thought he was considering i was dating him

am

am i

i don't know if they know i saw because they immediately deleted it

so that's fun

idc im going to bed this is tomorrow's problem

[olive wadi]

bro im so sorry it happaned to you , but i wanna say this not everyone is always what they seem , the moment you leave your house trust absolutely no one , fully. i dont wanna sound discouraging or emo but thats simply the truth , everyone is out there for their own benefit and will easily shit talk or just be agaisnt you its how life is , ppl are scummy for the most part , but i believe they are good towards the right ppl , it just means you and them arent meant for each other , i have known some ppl from my school for 12+ years who STILL till this day betray and talk shit behind my back but i play them like puppets , i have been bullied and used for so many years i have mastered at handling these ppl

at the end i believe you must find ppl that you enjoy being with and just embrace the time with them , they are likely temporary but eventually you do come across the permanent real solid people , life is unexpected and mysterious , just know that its not about you its just how ppl are

[flint geyser]

yeah lol this is the third time so its kinda more disappointed but not surprised

i don't trust anyone really so it's fine it's more kinda like. again? why

what's frustrating is like...... if you don't like me just tell me and ill leave you alone forever ?? don't need to lie to my face

[flint geyser]

idk i don't have any permanence in my life and to me everyone is temporary which is fine i think i understand myself best and that's fine for me

[olive wadi]

look i have no freakin idea , i have been in the same school for 12 years and i seen every single bad thing possible done to me , every form of bullying , abuse , betrayal so i expect absolutely anything from anyone , but i also have hope for every new person i meet , if they turn out good and appreciate me yay a good friend found , if they wanna talk smack and backstab i simply remove them , cus at the end without that hope i wont survive

[flint geyser]

just kinda disappointed bc i did think i found genuine people for once but like guess not

[olive wadi]

you have no reason to trust me but as a person who experienced them for so many years

i know legit ppl exist

[flint geyser]

they probably do

[olive wadi]

its so hard to find them im simply lucky but u will find them

[flint geyser]

and good for them

[olive wadi]

u just need to hold onto ur hope

[flint geyser]

but i honestly don't care anymore lol

im also kind of disappointed in myself bc i let myself make friends after like 3-4 ish years of not trusting anyone at all and this is what i ended up with

[olive wadi]

just know i was talking to a friend who send screenshots of my irl friends talking shit about me in their little discord server

its hilarious to me

[flint geyser]

i really do make the worst decisions in life

[olive wadi]

heres the thing tho

how will you make the right decisions without making bad ones first

you learn from mistakes to make the right call

and also you can never know what the true colors and intentions of ppl are

so ur not to blame , no one is

[flint geyser]

it's been 17 years and i have like 1 friend

[olive wadi]

u just keep having to try again and again

its been 18 years and i dont have that many ppl i call true friends

and thats fine

[flint geyser]

tbh i don't have the time nor the trust to keep trying i think im done with friendship for the next few years

[olive wadi]

these irl ppl who talk shit behind my back also alwaysa invite me to parties or meetups cus im fun to be around and thats what i look forward to

i ignore their shit who cares

its your choice

just know

u shouldnt throw away all your hope

bec

this will lead to another bigger mistake

one day maybe you will ignore and dismiss the right ppl

simply bec of the mistakes of ppl of your past

[flint geyser]

and that's fine

[olive wadi]

i have seen a person do that to me , and believe me they spent months regretting and finding a way back to fix it , dont do that

[flint geyser]

idk im kinda tired of it now so it's easier to just not

which is fine

[olive wadi]

sure bro its ur life all upto u

im just saying for future reference

[flint geyser]

but like :// again :/// cmon

[olive wadi]

when/if you feel ready again

yeah it sucks doesnt it

i asked that question to myself so many times

it shocks me how bad ppl can be

[flint geyser]

yeah like

[olive wadi]

im no saint but im not ill intentioned either

[flint geyser]

idk why people can't be upfront

[olive wadi]

amen 🙏

i always talk to ppls face straight away

if i have problem with the

i hate keeping it and letting it brew

[flint geyser]

you don't gotta lie to my face about liking me

[olive wadi]

you know its fine to occasionaly to rant about someone with a friend when ur frustrated or annoyed

but man stiraght up shit talking for fun

ew

[olive wadi]

i genuinly cant do this

i dontd get how others do it??

[flint geyser]

i might be a bitch but if you don't like me i literally will leave you alone forever

[olive wadi]

fr

just say it man

[flint geyser]

none of them like me at all and are talking about how they wish I wasn't part of the friendgroup.... ok then ask me to leave??

kick me out

stop pretending

[olive wadi]

https://tenor.com/view/kekw-kek-bttv-twitch-emote-gif-15123134

im laughing at their stupidity

its like keeping a plant

but saying "i wish i could throw it out"

well u can??

why keep someone you collectively dislike

[flint geyser]

literally just kick me out idec at this point

[olive wadi]

then say ugh i wish they were gone

thats just so funny how dumb can ppl be

[flint geyser]

if u cut me off what can i even do

nothing

then just do it??

[olive wadi]

bro its not that hard yk

recently i did that with my friends

there was a guy who kept causing drama for everyone

so we told him we dont wanna be friends anymore

and made a server withtout him

simple

like its crazy

who knew you could tell ppl the truth and end things on a good note

crazy right

[flint geyser]

honestly just

yeah no i don't have the time nor energy for this

[olive wadi]

prime example to all those idiots

[flint geyser]

tomorrow i will just

get dumped

leave the chat

the end

[olive wadi]

do it bro

u will feel much better

[flint geyser]

this is beyond my effort

[olive wadi]

you will move on and forget a few days or sometime later

its what i have done

[flint geyser]

ehh, i don't think so, but

[olive wadi]

not right away

but a little time passes

then yes

[flint geyser]

yeah i always do but it still sucks

[olive wadi]

at the end only you will look after yourself

it will suck

[flint geyser]

yeah pretty much

[olive wadi]

thats how life is

i had to cut out the most precious person to me

[flint geyser]

who else is looking out for you except yourself lol

[olive wadi]

bec of a toxic relationship

yep

exactly

i admire your strength 💪

[flint geyser]

my best friend was racist

no one else likes me

life is good /s

[flint geyser]

thanks lol after 10 years of people hating your guts you end up with no choice

[olive wadi]

if its any consolation or matters at all , i like you and respect you , ur strong bec u look after urself and know whats good / bad for you

thats not something many ppl have

[olive wadi]

glad to see im not alone

maybe one day i can share my story so you know me better but for now u should rlly rest its late

been a long day for ya

[flint geyser]

yeah lol

probably

[olive wadi]

rest well

[flint geyser]

gn and thanks for listening

[olive wadi]

anytime , dont even mention it

[flint geyser]

it b like that

[olive wadi]

oh no im just struggling to find a happy/heart emote

i miss my nitro

[lament cloud]

Goddamn

Sorry that you have to deal with such a shitty teacher

[wicked turret]

Today, me and my family survived the car crash. And this is my 6th time brushing with death

[flint geyser]

that's awful, im glad you all are safe, praying it stays that way

[slender mango]

See one thing whether ur teacher is partial, rude or unfair to u, don't cuss or swear or disrespect about her, yes I understand it sucks when teachers don't listen to us or unjust to us, but do what u can, attend the classes, even though uk the stuff thought in the class before still do listen to prevent any issues with the teacher, that too this tutor who is teaching u won't be a permanent person in ur life after u graduate to higher classes or university this teacher won't be with u, so don't disrespect her, do what u have to do to prevent urself from any issues with her,respect her and just maintain a good amount of respect between u and her, u cussing about her or swearing about her isn't gonna solve ur problem, yes u opening up about her with anger makes u feel better but the issues u r facing with her won't be solved by cussing about her or swearing her, I m not speaking in favor of her, I m just saying to have a good amount of respect and open up your feelings/anger in an appropriate way.

[flint geyser]

how is this inappropriate

[slender mango]

I mean would u like someone calling u with swear words, you can express ur anger at someone without cussing them

[flint geyser]

if ive done something wrong then by all means

[slender mango]

Here the tutor yes was unfair to ken, I accept that she didn't treat him ryt, but it's his teacher, someone elder to him, would you disrespect your teachers in anger

[flint geyser]

yes

being older doesn't earn you immediate respect

[final robin]

I shouldn't interfere but I felt it's the right thing to do rn. Mohamed's point is that, the teacher has provided knowledge and all to Ken and that's why Ken shouldn't be cussing at her.

[flint geyser]

that's fair but this teacher is actively sabotaging his learning. she purposely changed lessons to catch him out and that affects his education

her job is to help him learn

no matter what she's done in the past, this isn;t okay in any circumstance

[mild compass]

I mean what is the teacher gonna gain by purposely "sabotaging" ken

its not like she has a personal agenda to fill lol

could be just a bad coincidence that had nothing to do with Ken's presence or absence

especially if this is just a one time thing

[forest pivot]

Never in your life every fucking belive a single word a person says, you never know how many lies they are hiding behind every single letter

Im done

[mild compass]

Hey man @forest pivot u ok ?

Wats wrong ?

[forest pivot]

First theyll make you belive that are all good human and then lie in front of you, not even try to hide it

Never ever fucking trust anyone

[mild compass]

Also guys @mild compass was prolly frustrated that’s y he said those things @slender mango I see ur point but he’s still a lil hurt man by wat his teacher did that’s y he reacted like that anger gets the better of anyone tbh

[forest pivot]

Theres only 2 people you can trust on this eart

your family

[mild compass]

Ahh…

Well that’s straight up toxic

[slender mango]

I just said to open up in a better way, ok let's leave this issue aside

[slender mango]

Why man what happened

[mild compass]

@forest pivot there will be toxic ppl like those bro

[forest pivot]

Something personal but yea

Just saying

[mild compass]

Well ig the person was two faced prolly judging by wat u said ?

[forest pivot]

unless they are your family

dont ever trust a single word out of their mouth

Alr Im calm now

[mild compass]

Hey man it’s ok there r ppl out there who r genuine

[forest pivot]

True

[mild compass]

Don’t stress out too much ur not worth the pain

I dunno wat really happened but yeh there will be ppl who don’t want u to move on

[forest pivot]

Im in no pain at all

They just fucked up real bad this time

[mild compass]

But there r more who r glad that u exist

Ahh ic…

[forest pivot]

I just wanted to let it out once

[mild compass]

Hmm

Aight then

Take care ✌️

[forest pivot]

have a goodday

[mild compass]

Ahh night lol it’s already 1

[flint geyser]

some of the rules in this house are so stupid

like

we're not allowed to eat after dinner?? but dinner is at 6:30

7 at most if i have a meeting or something

i had dinner at 6:30 and im going to bed at 12:30 and im so goddamn hungry but apparently eating after sunset is bad for you or something

idk some of my mom's logics make no sense but what choice do i have

man im just hungry which is fine im more angry about her defending her dumbass reasoning than actually having to be hungry

[spark sonnet]

my mum tried to do that to me so that i "didnt gain more weight" FUCK OFFFFF

I EAT WHEN IM HUNGY

[north karma]

Imagine listening to that rule and not going for a cheeky snack at 1am

[wicked turret]

I just sleep early at around 8 and wake up at 4-5 am for snacks

[real junco]

NOOO

2 weeks left till the exams and now I'm sick

I feel like I'm gonna faint but I can't sleep

because I dont have enough time

Why couldn't this happen before

[flint geyser]

my mom sleeps light and her bedroom is right opposite the kitchen. i did that once and she was not happy to say the least

[north karma]

Stash them away

[flint geyser]

she will find them ??

my mom goes through this house inside out everyday and there's no privacy ever

[north karma]

Mfs cant even hide snacks nowadays

The millenials would be ashamed of us

THE MILLENNIALs MYA

[flint geyser]

issok my parents are already ashamed of me so its fine

[eager ore]

I’m back living with my grandparents and I’m really homesick. I can’t study for shit, it’s weird, I’m procrastinating but for different reasons. Idk how to explain it

[spark sonnet]

its a new environment, dont blame yourself!

[eager ore]

With exams soon I feel like I’m just wasting my time

[spark sonnet]

give urself time to adjust

i'd know because i recently moved

i live with my sister now and im always on edge bc everything is different here

[eager ore]

Oh I hope everything’s good with you. Thing is I have been here for 2 years but travelled to my parents for 6 months. It doesn’t feel new but idk how to explain this feeling

[eager ore]

Hopefully things become better

[spark sonnet]

thank u babe everything is ok! my sister was harsh on me at first but we're ok now, it's only been a few days. 6 months is a long time, no wonder you feel so out of place

what helps me is eating my go-to comfort food, its something familiar

or watching an old show

[eager ore]

The food here is so different and something I can’t get used to, for example, I didn’t have a cup of tea for around 2 years. I almost don’t feel at home here for a number of reasons but I don’t want to talk about it. I played a lot of video games because i was in a different world but that affected me academically and I’ve stopped. It’s really hard to just get lost and not face any feelings anymore

I’m constantly thinking about exams, being homesick and uni. I guess I’ll need to power through this, atleast till im done with O/N exams then take a step back and relax. Then get back on a grind

[spark sonnet]

do you not like it there?

[eager ore]

I just feel really restricted. I can’t do much here.

[spark sonnet]

ah, are your grandparents strict or?

[eager ore]

My grandfather just doesn’t like me for some reason, so I avoid him as much as possible.

[spark sonnet]

oh thats awful

i wont push you since you said you didnt wanna talk about it

can you ask your parent/s for any recipes?

it might make you feel better making food from back home

[eager ore]

I don’t have the liberty to go and cook something.

I got used to it before, just gonna have to do it again

[spark sonnet]

well shit

sorry man. wish i could help

[eager ore]

Thank you anyway, It’s fine. Just talking has been better. I hope everything goes well with you and you have a good time

[spark sonnet]

you too man, i hope you adjust a little more sooner or later and gl with your exams

[flint geyser]

i have moved around a LOT and i have been in this country for 2 years now and let me tell you

i cried like

yesterday

bc i missed my old school

thats totally normal honestly feeling homesick doesnt have to go away

and its normal to want / miss things you had in the past whether it was 6 months or 60 years ago

[eager ore]

I’m sorry to hear that, I hope you adjust well to your new school and make new friends. Im not going to fight it, just let it handle itself for a while.

[flint geyser]

also i think a lot of people equate moving on with not feeling homesick anymore which i really dont think is true. you can move on from someone / something and still miss them / it, or parts of them / it. not moving on would be maybe constantly thinking about going back, indirectly sabotaging where you are now, and refusing to adapt. you can adapt to a new place, make a conscious effort to do well, and still miss people or places from the past. that is normal and doesnt mean you havent moved on it means you have emotions and feelings and connections and memories

[flint geyser]

all good! i have friends here, my schools okay, honestly theres a lot im upset about but theres nothing i can do about it so its fine! theres things i dont miss and im glad i got away from but sometimes i do miss a lot of the opportunities i couldve had and the stuff i couldve done which sucks but. again theres nothing i can do about it, which is what is important to recognise. doesnt mean i cant be sad about it sometimes

and yeah you dont have to fight it. its normal to experience, it might come in waves, you never know. it will get better with time but dont beat yourself up over it

[mild compass]

Hey @eager ore u could also try doing something which u used to do in ur parents house fr example I moved last year to the house I’m currently living in n i really don’t like it here but yeh I take a cricket bat n throw a ball against a wall n play cricket shots on my own imagining my old house cuz I used to do that there when I got bored makes me feel a lot better at least fr a while

So ig maybe u liked doing something in ur parents n u can try doing it here as well might make u feel better hopefully

[eager ore]

Thought I’d update you guys, I’m feeling a lot better. I was super tired and feeling out of place. Ive slept for most of the day and it’s also taken a while for my body to adjust to new conditions. So been sort of sick as well. Right now I’m doing well. Thank you guys!

[flint geyser]

glad to hear it hope you gws!!

[spark sonnet]

absolute king shit good job

eat good

[eager ore]

Thanks, gonna use it to my advantage and lose weight but in a healthy way

[flint geyser]

@jolly river one of my earlier coping mechanisms was writing on my skin

[mild compass]

Ahh yeh

[flint geyser]

make sure you use something safe and not like sharpie or something but it can provide you with similar sensations and be distracting for a bit

[mild compass]

I used to draw tattoos

[real junco]

who's that

oh nvm

[mild compass]

Someone’s asking fr mental health advice

[real junco]

yeah just saw chat lounge

[flint geyser]

atm what i do a lot is play the piano bc its something i enjoy a lot and is really good for me personally so i dont know if you play an instrument, do art, or anything creative that you enjoy but doing that can be really beneficial

[mild compass]

@jolly river I don’t really get those thoughts but yeh when I do feel down I take my bike n go fr a ride in a quiet road

Makes me feel better

[jolly river]

I can't distract myself... Have been trying to do that...

[flint geyser]

if youre looking for extreme / minorly destructive coping mechanisms then basically you want something that provides a strong sensation, so put an ice cube in your mouth or flick a fabric elastic against your fingers

[flint geyser]

what do you generally try to do

if youre comfortable elaborating

and what do you like to do, if anything

[jolly river]

music, going out for a walk, coding, designing, reading etc

the things which used to excite me no more excites me...

[flint geyser]

yeah thats familiar

[jolly river]

I hate ppl around me

[flint geyser]

honestly for a while playing an instrument felt like chore to me but i took a break from it for a couple fo months and coming back to it was really hard and frustrating since i was out of practice but it felt so much more enjoyable

maybe take a break from certain activities and try something new / something you've been wanting to try

[jolly river]

oh what u play?

[flint geyser]

the piano

[jolly river]

interesting

[mild compass]

Do u feel frustrated at times ?

[jolly river]

I said I don't wanna do anything...

[jolly river]

all the time

[flint geyser]

honestly ||suicidal|| ideation can really kill your motivation and any other emotion

[flint geyser]

so what do you want to do

as in

sleep

dissolve

disappear

cry

whatever it is

[mild compass]

Well maybe u could try getting a punching bag ?

U can take out all ur frustration out on it

[jolly river]

yes yes sleep, disappear and cry

[mild compass]

Works fr me

[jolly river]

u got me here

[jolly river]

i think i need to give it a try...

[flint geyser]

okay

[mild compass]

N yeh if u feel lonely u can even give it a hug

[flint geyser]

how much sleep do you normally get

[mild compass]

N cry on it that thing won’t judge u too

[jolly river]

more then before 8-9 hrs

[flint geyser]

is it enough

do you still feel tired otherwise

[jolly river]

yeh ppl are so judgemental

[jolly river]

yeah I feel so lazy and tired

[mild compass]

Well another thing try yoga

I don’t really do that but I do stretch n breathe makes me feel calmer

[jolly river]

Guys thanks for ur help I need to go and get a bath my body temp is getting warmer...

[mild compass]

Also yeh once u take out all ur frustration on a punching bag ull feel a lil tired at that time try breathing exercises n stretch

Ull feel a lot better I hope

Aight gl

[flint geyser]

alr hope stuff gets better

[mild compass]

Yeh same

[flint geyser]

yeah thats also familiar. idk how much schoolwork and stuff you have atm but i would say, for as long as possible, just relax more - sleep in, let yourself cry [thats genuinely really important. crying can help you feel better], drink water, dont do anything. do minimal work. do things you like. go outside. whatever it is. you will come back to your hobbies with a lot more enthusiasm

[silent leaf]

there is a venting channel nice

I'd probably live here

lmao

[flint geyser]

today has been

so long

and my sensory overload is killing me rn my mom is vacuuming and i want to cry

i wanna sleep so bad lmao but i literally cant

[silent leaf]

I am literally so stressed

and my house doesnt help either

like there is so much to do

and so little time

[flint geyser]

well, you might as well get something done rather than nothing at all by stressing over the things you have to do

[silent leaf]

yeah true

[thick viper]

gosh i cannot study idek whyy, and im writing my FINAL IGCSE ict practical

i swear i cant study

idek why

[kindred ridge]

either ur not motivated so try taking a break first

also try eating fruits for breakfast everyday coz it helped me a lot

[thick viper]

really

ill try that

thank you!

[dusk thorn]

That's bad if it's fruit alone

You need a carbohydrate or something dense in energy like lipids or protein

Fruit on the side is amazing though

[kindred ridge]

well I'm allergic to gluten

[kindred ridge]

depends how r u gonna use it tho

it's great for exercising but not for running the mind when seated

[dusk thorn]

Not really. You need a carb in the morning regardless of your physical activity.

If you live off fruit for a few days expect to wither away

[olive wadi]

for all my recent success and improvements , personality growth , consistency , i can still feel such lows its crazy , i had to remove someone very very special to me bec it was just becoming toxic between us , and even tho i dont rlly think about them or see them , mere mention of their name is enough to make me really sad , idk if this weakness or just called being emotional but damnnn it amazes me how someone could be this important to me , that even after agreeing with myself that i need to end our friendship i still get sad and emotional when i hear their name , how long will i keep asking my friends to not mention them and how long till i stop getting sad when i hear their name somehow somewhere , what a pain in the ass tbh

i shud also say this isnt some ex gf ex crush or something like that , cus this person and i had a much deeper bond , like an actual family actual bro-sis thing , if it was an ex gf situation that wouldnt be like this , i have moved on from my ex's before but this is a first time and i like to think its gonna be good over time cus i have been moving on slowly by time , but damnnnn it hurts when it comes up still , just much less than before.

[flint geyser]

its neither weakness nor being super emotional [not that either o the two are inherently bad] but loss of a loved one often hurts and thats normal

you can recognise that you needed to remove them while also missing them, those two things can coexist

[olive wadi]

Idk i just dont understand why i would feel this sad after the fact that removing them gave me a lot of peace and time for myself , literally no headaches or problems and yet this happens

maybe i should learn to go easier on myself , i sometimes cant tell whats normal whats not

[flint geyser]

thats also normal

ik it seems counterintuitive but even if they were bad for you, the change in pace and lack of familiarity means its normal to miss them

[olive wadi]

yeah ur right , im just telling myself like they were bad for u in the long run u had to end it or else u would be unhappy most of the time so why get sad now yk

honestly i just blame it in my perfectionism , always fast to criticize myself

[flint geyser]

which is super fair but that doesnt mean u cant dislike the change

[olive wadi]

for the most part i like it , it rlly was the best decision and life has become much better this wau

way

i just wish it was possible to be like this but WITH them not without u know

but not everything can be perfect

[flint geyser]

yep i get you

itll take time ofc

[flint geyser]

everyday my dad hates me more bc i am just increasingly a bigger disappointment and yk what i dont even blame him but sometimes it rlly hurts to see the way he looks at me

[lethal sand]

NOO no nooo Queen!!! . You're not a disappointment love.Your so special .Life doesn't always go the way we want it but that doesn't mean your a failure. It must hurt bad to get such treatment from a parent but if he doesn't see your worth it's okay you'll meet people who will. Hopefully he might come around one day . I just want you to see how special and amazing you are and block out everything else .

I wish I could just give you a big hug . 🥺🥺

[lethal sand]

My Dad loves my sister more than me ,hurts so bad .I study hard try and get straight As to make him proud but all he cares about is my sister. She gets away with sooo much and worst of all it's just the three of us .(My mom abandoned me when I was 3 ,hers is an alcoholic and doesn't live with us )so I cook everyday and do the chores and my sister refuses to help with anything and he lets her get away with it but I'm wayyy younger than her. He's an alcoholic and has so many mood swings. It takes a toll on my mental health sometimes but I try and keep my head up

[flint geyser]

that's really awful. i hope you're able to get out of that household and away from those people as soon as possible, hoping for the best for you <33

[flint geyser]

this genuinely means a lot. idk how to convey that rn but it really does and i really appreciate it more than i can express. thank you so so much 🥺

[olive wadi]

Yo! I have no clue why he hurts u like that but if its any consolation , ik it prolly doesnt mean much but i disagree with you , i think u contribute a lot and do many things but bec of ur surrounding and wrong ppl being around u , it devalues ur work and urself , so idk about you but it means lots to me that a person who barely knows me still responds almost all the time to whatever problems i have to say here and i rlly appreciate that , no one rlly does that bec they dont have to , but u still do. So know that i rlly appreciate you , i’ll just try to show it more :) hope u are feelin better!

[olive wadi]

Damnnnn i can only respect to this level of mental and physical strength , Rlly i thank you for being such a good example of how very strong ppl exist. I have seen ppl better off than you just give up but here you are making it sound like nothin , mad respect pls keep it up 💪

P.S ; this could be just me but i also love making my friends and family especially parents proud , but if someone is not going to acknowledge my hard work and achievements then i dont need to prove anything or worry about their opinion , and as much as it hurts when its ur dad , eventually i hope it wont even bother u bec its what you think of yourself that matters most imo.

[eager ore]

I need some help convincing my mum about a gap year

I’ve approached her and told her my case but she’s adamant on me not taking one. She has even implied that my mental health doesn’t matter. Im writing my AS exams rn and have A2 mocks in a month. I genuinely don’t know if I will pass. Since I’m writing AS rn I’m going to be busy till end of October leaving me with >15 days to study A2, oh and also learning 9093 AS English from scratch.

I want to give my A2 in may/June rather than feb March cause I don’t have time. But giving it in may June means taking a gap year because I miss out on deadlines.

The workload is immense and I’m barely getting through 20% of what Ill have to do. To add to all this I need to do each an A2 level of German by may or June

So pretty much I’m hoping that me barely passing or failing in my mocks will convince her

[flint geyser]

this does mean a lot, and i really appreciate it. tysm for responding and saying this it means a lottt <33

[olive wadi]

very happy to hear that 🙏

[mild compass]

Hello! Don't stress out too much about it pls, it'll be okay. Plus if your parents don't agree with it, just make the circumstances so they would have to. Like I just didn't apply for any of the entry tests and basically missed out on all applications so I could take a gap year. But yeah, do what makes you comfortable! Give exams when you feel good enough to do so, the world isn't going to go anywhere, you matter more yeee!(◍•ᴗ•◍)❤

[eager ore]

Hey thank you so much. I really needed it. Even if I had a levels in place I don’t think with the time I have rn I can learn sufficient German so anyways I would have to take one

That’s how I’m going to approach it but my mum is seriously underestimating learning a new language

Hopefully all goes well, at this moment I’ll move on with a levels as if I was taking a gap year

[kindred ridge]

I wonder if anyone here even likes school so much

It's hell for me

[forest pivot]

No

[flint geyser]

mixed feelings on that one

[forest pivot]

Bruh so, my school didnt send a bus to my house, 1 hour 15 mins away from the campus so i have to give exams online, and my teacher is like, if you have the will you shouldve found a way, BRUH TF YOU WANT ME TO TAKE MY DAD EVERYDAY FOR 6 HOURS OF HIS WORK SO HE CAN DROP AND PICK ME UP FOR 20 FUCKING DAYS??

WHeres her brain

[flint geyser]

i have no appetite lately and i actually dont know why which is weird bc normally i eat a LOT but i am barely able to finish any of my meals

i almost never feel hungry unless i havent eaten in like

6-7 hours minimum

my mom thinks im trying to lose weight to impress a guy or something but like... literally no

im just worried shes goin to take that too seriously and start investigating people in my life or something like !!!! its not to impress anyone!!!!!!!!!!! im just not fuckin hungry

[eager ore]

I can’t really offer any advice but I’m gonna assume talking to her about privacy isn’t going to work. I can hear you out if you want that

[kindred ridge]

I tried to sympathise

basically it's like when parents rummage through your personal belongings to find stuff

that kind of parents investigating into your stuff

[flint geyser]

it isnt really lol but i can only hope

and i appreciate you <33

[flint geyser]

yeah mine do that a lot it really sucks bc there are things i cant trust them with

[kindred ridge]

wow they do seem to be kinda too worried, but there's no need to worry coz they will eventually stop

[flint geyser]

i doubt that really

[kindred ridge]

how about trying to calmly tell them it's alright

I guess parents who are always too overprotective and worrisome can be a pain in the ####

[flint geyser]

my parents do not understand the concept of logic

[hybrid kiln]

same

we have so many exams

[mild compass]

It’s prolly just fr a while I went through that too I uhh… usually eat 9 dosas fr dinner🙄 but in between I couldn’t even go through 5 but it became ok tho

So everything will be alright dw just a phase ig

[flint geyser]

dude i cant even finish my cereal in the morning my mom thinks i need a doctor

[flint geyser]

i hope so bc i feel ok just really not hungry at all

[mild compass]

Ohh not necessary but have u been stressing a lot lately ?

[flint geyser]

ya but tbf i am stressed all the time

[mild compass]

Hmm that might be the case

[mild compass]

U might feel better if u spend some time alone I usually ride to a very quiet road near my area n just take a walk there thinking bout stuff

Kinda helps

[flint geyser]

thats a good idea tbh but i am never alone

like im either at school or at home

[mild compass]

Ugh yeh I feel u

But yeh things will get better dw

🙂

[flint geyser]

:))

i just hate it bc i feel really sick if i eat anywhere close to my normal amount

like i had a regular dinner but now i feel ://

[cosmic ginkgo]

Does exercise make it any better?

[flint geyser]

i have not worked out in so long so i would presume not

[mild compass]

Oh yeh it does I always feel like hogging down food after workouts

[flint geyser]

i mean i climb like 30 flights minimum everyday

if that counts

[cosmic ginkgo]

Probably😂

Or maybe you can eat less carbs and more fruits/ veggies?

Like maybe it's the type of diet that isn't sitting right with you

[flint geyser]

hmm maybe

it isnt any different to what ive been having for like 5 years now

i had a salad for lunch and cereal for breakfast and i havent been hungry for anything else all day

[flint geyser]

sometimes i really wonder if my parents are like

okay

MAN im living in this channel lately but

so my mom thinks im 'dieting' to impress some guy

and my dad yelled at me for HAVING bangs bc he thinks im being fashionable instead of focusing on study

mf its my hair????

it exists????

and today i put a hairband on for school and my dad got mad AGAIN for focusing on fashion instead of work and my mom asked AGAIN who im trying to impress

its a fuckin. hairband

things just keep happening today good lord tell me why my old crush texted me after 2 years of not talking to me

i am so tired

[mild compass]

Sounds rough

Well my mom thinks somethings up even if I spray deodorant so yeh I can relate

[flint geyser]

its so stupid

like im doing the bare minimum

[mild compass]

Ik dude

Well I don’t really know wat to say wish I could help…

[flint geyser]

its all good im just letting off steam tbh

[mild compass]

We’ll just don’t let it get to u

It’s not wrong to ignore ppl at times 🙂

[flint geyser]

yk what ur so right actually im just

dont have the energy for her today actually

[mild compass]

It’s ok we all have our day offs

Things will get better tho dw this won’t last long :))

I assire u

Bruh… 🤦‍♂️

[flint geyser]

😭

[flint geyser]

ty <33

i appreciate it

[mild compass]

Nvm I won’t edit it lol let it stay 🙄

[flint geyser]

just tired af lol and i want the day to end

[mild compass]

Ikr if there was a match ig would’ve been better for both of us 😔

[mild compass]

N this I dunno sounds a lil off to me

[flint geyser]

LOL FR

[mild compass]

I mean y would they ignore u fr 2 years n text back…

[flint geyser]

she didnt text back she texted me first

we've had like a couple of 1-2 sentence interactions in between like once or twice but its been forever

idk what she wants

[mild compass]

Ahh well

[flint geyser]

yeah i will find out tomorrow lol

[mild compass]

Gl with that then :))

[flint geyser]

thanksss

[kindred ridge]

Also it’s hard to make friends if everyone does something you’re not fond of

[rain bridge]

nah i don't

[kindred ridge]

makes me wonder

those who want to be the student president actually don't care about the school, only about having that role to be placed in their CV?

[cosmic ginkgo]

I hope it doesn't make you feel bad or anything, but I used to enjoy school

[kindred ridge]

I guess I wasn't the only one to dislike it

[cosmic ginkgo]

I was definitely in the minority dw

[rain bridge]

i feel like to some extent they would care about the school but ofc that depends on the type of person they are and what their intentions are of having the role if that makes sense??

[kindred ridge]

maybe ur right

I always had the idea they're the ones like **"Oh school is very fun! I hope everyone sure lovess studying don't they?" **

[eager ore]

I think it really depends on the school you go to

My previous one made me really like school.

[rain bridge]

lmao that strikes me as more of the stereotype of academic prefects in my school

[rain bridge]

hmm true

also probably upbringing as well ig

[hidden roost]

i've faced the same issue every time i put perfume and dress up a bit nice. it's always about boiz for them. I can't even dress without first thinking about how my mom's going to react/think.

[lament cloud]

I always loved going to school, especially in highschool, coz it would be an escape from my family for me

socialising with my friends or even just attending classes with my friends always helped me get through the day

thats why i hated online classes so much

[wet ingot]

Honestly online classes suck

Staying at home, listening to your parents scream every hour and then not being able to interact with your friends is just unbearable

[mild compass]

As much as you might hate school bro you can't say stuff like this

Deleting cause no TW

[kindred ridge]

fair enough

[flint geyser]

same literally i cant wear anything without my parents making it about either boys or fashion

even if its like

lotion or something

maybe i just have dryass skin????

[hidden roost]

OH occasionally I use fragrance lotion but na-uh, my mom gets a damn whiff outta me when i pass by her and then she'll be like why what occasion like bruh

[flint geyser]

literally

its like they never think about their own kids happiness like............ sometimes i do things. for myself. what a concept

[hidden roost]

iss hard.

don't think they'll ever understand

[flint geyser]

yeah

[hidden roost]

also reminds me of that one time when i first made a guy friend 4 years ago

dude had a gf

but i don't know when how when and WHY my mom assumed that i'm jealous of the gf because I liked the dude

it was outrageous!

i was so shocked at her theory

like is this going to happen every time i have a guy friend?

it's been 4 years and i have no friends rn lmao

[flint geyser]

parents are a different species

[hidden roost]

completely

you can't even smile at your phone

"you're smiling because it's a guy, isn't it O.O?"

having a bf or not having one, i'll get my ass whooped either way

[flint geyser]

im not even meant to be on my phone

[hidden roost]

oh why?

[flint geyser]

just generally

i am supposed to study

i cant imagie studying 24/7 i would fully lose it

[hidden roost]

my parents sorta calmed down and allowed me to have social media when i started my A levels

[flint geyser]

my mom let me have an instagram on the condition i never use it

i have been hiding my socials from them since i was 14

[hidden roost]

i started when i was 10 or 11. i was a really messed up kid

[flint geyser]

i always have been 🙏

i think my parents being so restrictive made me more rebellious than i would have been without

[hidden roost]

i have a fb account especially connected with all the family and I barely use it.

[hidden roost]

it's for almost every kid

[flint geyser]

i use my spam insta a lot

and discord

occassionally whatsapp but only for the people im not close enough to have on my insta lol

[hidden roost]

lmao. i think i posted few months ago. the longest i went was 6 months

imma make a twitter acc when i get a new phone

[flint geyser]

god i will never understand people who are like omg go vegetarian or its animal abuse

like fuck you how do you think indigenous people survive

[hidden roost]

ikr

[flint geyser]

i agree that the current state of livestock farming is shit on every level but its litereally possible to hunt ethically and sustainably so why arent we advocating for taht instead

also i am literally vegetarian 🙏

[hidden roost]

oooo i can't imagine what's that like for me

[flint geyser]

it really isnt that difficult

idk ive always been

not really

my parents are very against eating meat

religious and ethical beliefs

i dont believe in projecting those onto your kids i think i should be allowed to if i want

though i dont want lol i have no inclination to meat but i should at least have the option

[hidden roost]

definitely

[flint geyser]

hinduism

that is my religion yes

[mild compass]

ye

beef

[flint geyser]

beef

though some sects say all meat its kinda a grey line

[mild compass]

true true

[eager ore]

Yea it’s not outright banned. I think over the years, the perception has been that it should not be consumed at all costs. There’s no clear rule stated. There’s beliefs that eating meat will cause X or y.

Also there have been animal sacrifices back in the day so it’s contradicting

[flint geyser]

yeah a lot of stuff in hinduism is like

guidelines rather than rules

and contradictory

[eager ore]

Yes there’s no commandments or laws

Which is really nice, you’re not told how to live life rather given insights

Also the amount of sub religons or whatever you call it has their own views and doesn’t apply to everyone

[flint geyser]

yeah its

a lot

[flint geyser]

genuinely so frustrated by everything lately perhaps this explains the lack of appetite

adhd is so stupid i cannot decipher any social cues at all is this guy just being nice or is he flirting with me we'll never know

things are constantly happening and i do not want to be part of them

[mild compass]

Ahh sounds rough

Things will get better that’s all I can say ig if I knew how to help I would…

But yeh :))

[flint geyser]

its okay i kinda just vent here to get it out of my head lol

ty for always responding to my infodumps i appreciate it :))

[mild compass]

No probs :))

[plush depot]

okay waaow imma just scroll up and read everythin🤠

[olive wadi]

fam i be studying 6hrs approx give or take everyday for all 3 subjects combined , so like on average 2hrs effeciently on each and yet my dad goes "oh i think ur gaming too much , i came home at 7 and i seen you play since then until now till midnight , so like 5hrs thats too much" like bro i studied during the day cant i play games during night with my mates , Yes i can be doing extra work like studying some english for IELTS maybe for uni but man why cant i just have some fun with my mates why do parents need to come in here and ruin my mood , now all the games i played today is ruined for me bec i feel so fuckin guilty for playing when its my only source of entertainment like what else can i do , ion wanna study whoooole day long who they think i am

rlly i applaud my parents for their open mindedness and all that but this is just stupid , i used to not play any games for a while cus i lacked friends on them so i would watch netflix or twitch at night whole time and no one would say anything like why arent u studying or ur watching too much , but the moment i open a game and play for few hrs its automatically bad like watafak

[mild compass]

…

[mild compass]

Maybe u could explain to ur dad that ur just playing a game instead of watching a show or something ?

It’s ok man tbh parents really just care about us it’s just that at times they don’t realise that they’re hurting us when they say things like that n yeh at times it’s not wrong to ignore ppl 🙂

Try not to take it too seriously ik will be a lil difficult but ull eventually get through it

[lament cloud]

same case for me

not very much in the case of SM but like for movies and tv shows

[olive wadi]

yeah u are right my mum said the same , i'll explain to him later , i think its just miscommunication , i havent been updating him as much as i should i guess , i just dont like it when ppl shove expectations on my face without telling me before or like asking me to do things when its late , like if you think i should be doing more work studying more etc, tell me beforehand and i will make a schedule accordingly thats all i want , i just got frustrated ig i didnt expect that from him

should be all good now

just wanted to vent here ty phenom 🙏

[mild compass]

It’s ok man we all lose our cool at times just don’t let it get to u

[mild compass]

:))

[dusk thorn]

so about my whole living situation. I'm currently sharing my sister's studio apartment until the lease ends

We're comfortable in terms of money so it isn't a financial issue

Just a contract

I don't really have any personal space here, I have nowhere to put my bits and bobs of items, and my sister is awfully condescending and nagging sometimes

Plus I miss my pet. A lot

I just wish I had my own space

[eager ore]

Damn really sorry you’re going through that. Wish I could help, your advice helped me so uno reverse

[hidden roost]

waiting for good days to come

[flint geyser]

they will, and i hope you can hold out long enough to see them

[hidden roost]

i hope so too. it's so so hard

[spark sonnet]

HAHAHAHA

thanks king

sorry for not seeing this before

ill be ok =)

i might go visit my aunty sometime soon for tea or something

[spark sonnet]

me n u queen. itll be ok eventually

take care ❤️

[wicked turret]

I lost motivation to study and draw

Idk why

[spark sonnet]

i guess burnout

[wicked turret]

Wait how do I deal with that?

I just realise that even gaming is a chore for me

[spark sonnet]

honestly, i wish i knew

burnout is something people suffer from a lot

i feel like the best remedy is to vibe, dont bother doing something if you dont want to

i find that sometimes doing something youve long not done helps

or just lying down and listening to a podcast

[wicked turret]

I tried doing that

Just got way too anxious

[spark sonnet]

have you tried speaking on the phone with a friend

i find that sometimes a long phonecall about fuck all with a friend helps

or just spending time with someone else to stimulate you

[eager ore]

I had a burnout today. 2 days before an exam. Usually I would take the day off and hang out with friends and shit

But today I got this motivation after solving a paper and doing well.

Idk if this helps you but I hope you get through it quick

[kindred ridge]

I shared a lot of stories regarding about academic struggles to my friend. I didn't even know she was smart so this whole time there was no point of actually sharing my bad experiences; it made me look like an idiot

[north karma]

I mean if she thinks ur an idiot thats her problem

Cuz most of us out here are working our asses to get the grades we want

[wicked turret]

they are abroad...havent talked anyone for a month

just texting

[spark sonnet]

discord calls or calls on wifi ?

its hard to believe but after a month of not speaking to anyone you kinda go wild

happened to me recently as well

[spark sonnet]

her being smart doesnt invalidate your struggles in academics! it has nothing to do with it. youre not an idiot at all

youre simply having trouble with academics, thats it

she isnt, and thats ok

[wicked turret]

I tried before but most of the time they would be

1. In a party
2. Busy with uni work

[spark sonnet]

wow

is there not a single person you can arrange a time and date for a call with?

[wicked turret]

I will see if I can manage this week

Since I have 1 week of holidays for religious reasons

I should be able to host the meeting

And if it doesn't work

I'm going to a bar

[merry yarrow]

dont click on it

[dull pulsar]

ok i need advice, my friend's grandfather passed recently, who she was close to. shes kind of a stoic person, does not express her emotions and does not respond usually to texts etc so i dont really know how shes holding up but i cant help but worry, since her parents arent around much either. im torn between visiting/calling her to hopefully distract her or possibly comfort her, and leaving her alone, in case she feels inconvenienced (plus i think i personally would like to be left alone in such a situation) what do i do?????

[hard ravine]

Just tell her if you need anything, I'll be around even if she doesn't reply she'll at least look at the texts probably

[forest pivot]

You could add like, if you want we could meet sometime today or later aswell

[dull pulsar]

thanks !

[eager ore]

I’m tired of this life, I’m so alone and I hate it a lot. No friends No relationships. After Igcse most of them didn’t continue with A levels and there’s very few ppl in my class who are just not people I fw. No one to talk to except for a few ppl but they got their own lives.

I just want to get that off my mind

[tepid delta]

just stay calm there chief

I understand that kind of pain

And just know that we're here for yiu

As a community

[eager ore]

Hey thanks for replying. I want to change this but covid really limiting everything and I just don’t know how

[tepid delta]

Man,FUCK covid.

Shits ruining everything

Don't get me wrong I love having more time on my PS5

But it's ruined almost every other aspect of my life

[eager ore]

Oh you got the PS5 damn

It’s never in stock and not like my parents would get me it

Damn I just had a big ass realisation

I was on the PS4 24/7 playing with friends and now that I don’t have it I’m feeling like this.

My PS4 controller stopped working early this year. I guess it was a good thing cause I was really addicted

[tepid delta]

my condolences

[tepid delta]

Which country are you in

Cause mine now has pretty frequent restocks

Which is pain cause I got mine in first restock,which took FOREVER

[tepid delta]

Why not?

ps5 is a touch more expensive yeah

[eager ore]

Expensive and well they think I’ll spend most of the time on it and not study

Which would have been true a year ago but I’m a changed man

[eager ore]

India

[tepid delta]

Firstly AYYYYYY

Yeah 50K is a tough pill to swallow lol

[tepid delta]

I see man

Worth a shot I guess

[eager ore]

They dont want to buy me a new controller for the ps4, so i got the message

[spark sonnet]

hey king i hope you're feeling better by now

i get what you mean

for most of my middle-highschool life i was alone irl, the people in my class were awful

it gets better eventually

people online are a blessing too

[eager ore]

Yea I am doing better. Thanks for checking up. Idk but I just have days like that out of nowhere.

[eager ore]

On god, if it weren’t for znotes, I don’t know what I’d be doing.

[spark sonnet]

i get that

im glad youre doing better

[spark sonnet]

lmao igwym. no judgement man. there are some fun people here

[real junco]

thanks 😏

[spark sonnet]

shut yo bitch ass up

[tepid delta]

not pg

am disappointed in you deuce

say sorry to ramen

[spark sonnet]

naw he dont deserve it

@real junco fuck you noodle bastard

[real junco]

your mom

[muted urchin]

ayo

😭 😭 😭

[tepid delta]

ayo

why are we even alive

this is a legit question

we like to think we're empathetic

but all we are,we're just apathetic

what is the point to life

[eager ore]

What’s going on g?

What has happened to question life

[tepid delta]

i dunno

i'm just sitting here wondering

world's going to utter shit

what the fuck did we do to deserve this

just cause some old dudes can't keep shit in check

we have to suffer

[mild compass]

That's what they said when they were our age

And that's what the generation after us is gonna say when we're in power and old

It's a giant ass fucking loop

Things are better than how they used to be before but we're just too stupid to be grateful

[mild compass]

We aren't suffering

[tepid delta]

idk man

[mild compass]

If you tell a some commoner from the 1800's about our suffering, he's gonna smack the shit out of u

Because we don't kmow jack shit about suffering

[tepid delta]

with pollution and global warming

our world is fucked as it is

[mild compass]

Yea but it's always been fucked

[real junco]

Can I just say

FUCK MECHANICS

[mild compass]

You're hot and lovely babe @real junco

[tepid delta]

FUCK MECHANICS

[mild compass]

Fuck mechanics fr

Based 1+1, Mechanics cringe

[tepid delta]

wait you're writing mechanics on fri?

[real junco]

FUCKING MECHANICS WILL RUIN MY WHOLE MATH GRADE

[mild compass]

Nah I'm 22 winter

[tepid delta]

Isn't mechanics like as level math

As level physics

[mild compass]

2022 winter

[real junco]

yes

[real junco]

Did you give the exam for it

[mild compass]

Mechanics is like fucking math fucked physics in the bum and physics bore a child

[real junco]

For mechanics

[tepid delta]

Nope

Our school wack

Made us write Stats in AS

Mech in A2

[real junco]

have you started past papers for it

[tepid delta]

no

i have to deal with a2 math and physics 3 days after mech

And tbh

they freak me out more than mech ever could

[real junco]

Look at the past papers

It looks easy but it's actually horrible

especially the latest papers

[tepid delta]

I got through AS Phys fine

i'll make it

probably

[real junco]

Oh AS physics doesn't really help in mechanics lol

I found it so much easier

[tepid delta]

Fuck

Why does so many exams have to be close together

Cause A2 math is a shitshow

[eager ore]

That’s the dumbest thing ive heard respectfully. Life has vastly changed and with that come different problems.

[mild compass]

Still, our suffering isn't exactly suffering

You're not being starved of food

Or dying of malnutrition

Most of our suffering is psychological

Climate change and global warming and all that is irreversible at this point

Reversible maybe but really no country is interested

Also that's not really suffering for us

[eager ore]

Well we’ve become advanced and though that still happens I don’t think it’s fair to be content with your situation because it was worse before

[eager ore]

That’s a huge fucking problem

[mild compass]

It is

And suffering is subjective and depends on diff individuals

But I find people cringe who have no real mental problems but love to jump on the depression bandwagon

[eager ore]

That’s true, depression is a sensitive but very strong word that gets thrown around but you never know what anyone is going through so it’s very hard to confront this

[mild compass]

Hard to find out who's really depressed because of aforementioned attention seeking individuals who've completely killed the entire meaning of depression

[tulip grotto]

👀 👀 *** i dont watch anime to be depressed ***

[mild compass]

😩

[alpine hatch]

I've been laughing at this for 5 whole minutes LMAOOO

[mild compass]

😂 😂

[jaunty creek]

New uni student here

I study from 6am(sometimes 5am) to 10:40pm non stop but my progress has been excruciatingly slow

I am behind in almost all my assignments and tutorials. Any tips on how I can increase my work efficiency

I also need to practice a ton after lectures to remember them but 80% of my time is doing assignments and the rest is lectures

[lethal sand]

Study smart not hard,if you study non stop you will most likely burn out and won't benefit as much from the studying. I think try studying for 30 to 40 minutes and take five or ten minute breaks in between you'll retain information better

[real junco]

bruh I'm not in uni but I dont think you're supposed to study from 6 am to 11 pm

[last estuary]

Above time (06:00 PKT) in your local time · Oct 27, 2021, 1:00 AM

[north karma]

Ignoring the fact that it sounds fake why tf are u studying 6am to 11pm

U dont need that many hours

[jaunty creek]

My classes start at 8/9 am which is 5am in my country. Yes I'm doing online classes

[north karma]

No breaks after?

[weary peak]

true

[jaunty creek]

Why are you so interested in my schedule lmao. I sometimes sleep for two hours at 5pm when I start feeling the headache lol

[north karma]

Sigh

[tepid delta]

Man this session has been ass

I just wanna fuckin pass

[mild compass]

So I can finally touch some fuckin grass

[tepid delta]

Man

I just wanna pass

I'm praying to pass

[tepid delta]

Man I'm done

I just sat down and cried

I hate this

I hate life

Seriously I wish I can commit alt+f4

[tepid delta]

I'm just seeing people post super smart stuff and I'm like

wait that was what you needed to do?

[eager ore]

You’re gonna get through this. Exam anxieties are hard to deal with but accept the fact nothing can be changed. Video games are great to forget about life but don’t use it to bottle up those feelings

[tepid delta]

man seriously

just screw those people

just let me pass man

[eager ore]

I avoid exam discussion, I hate it. I don’t want to know how I’ve done, right after an exam

[lament cloud]

Yep

Because usually if I find out if I made a mistake(s)

I hate myself after it

[stuck mango]

I never check if I made any mistake after the exam

[mild compass]

Because the time runs out

[stuck mango]

No like after the exam

[mild compass]

Yea

Also it's a pain to go through each question and read my answer and then ponder whether it's correct or not

[cold geode]

true

[mild compass]

having year 8 to 10's quarters online which is primarily IGCSE syllabus learning phases, then the school abruptly opening in october and the board announcing our midterms on the entire IGCSE syllabus only ten days before the exams

i'm going to fuck up so badly

and i'm so exhausted of hearing every teacher talk about how we're obliged to get good results as the first batch in two years to be giving public exams, like?? y'all acting like covid was a vacation for us and not this mentally draining plague in a suffocating household

sorry, anyways

[mild compass]

and that igcse results even matter for university applications

worst year of my education especially with my parents rejecting IB boarding when it's the only thing i ever talked about

[eternal axle]

I feel for you man. Teachers are literally demanding that we have great results by all this talk. They literally have no idea what they are saying, I ain't obliged to do shit. Tbh I have learnt to ignore there blabber about all of this now, because at this point they can't do shit to us. I'm out of my school in like 3-4 months. The best we can do is hold on for now

[eternal axle]

same, only for me its going for almost an year. Every 10-15 days this or that exam pops up

[wicked turret]

igcse is not the end for you tho. You still have A level or Foundation before uni. Getting a good degree and securing the job is all it matters.

I am sorry to hear the messed up system you are dealing with

[eternal axle]

please try to keep it together

[split olive]

Hi