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spring mountain
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yeahh thankss. i feel better now but its just that yk throughout 9th and 10th grade, i feel like ive focused too much on completing my work instead of studying. like for example, the work wouldnt evn be graded and id still spend so much time on it. and im just now realizing its all useless bc i used to be the type of person like oh my notes need to look neat, if it doesnt then id have to tear the page out. and overall i just rlly regret completely relying on my teachers only. i felt like i was only doing assignments but i never rlly "learnt" them yk, or in tht case, i never bothered to review everything ive learnt, so idk wt i was thinking that id rmb what i learnt from the past year. i just really wished someone wouldve told me to continually revise. i mean all that is too late now. sigh

azure gorge
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keeping neat work is good dont ever doubt that

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but at the sacrifice of studies ig not

spring mountain
azure gorge
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but just remember you dont need to go to college or be a genius to live a good life, that isnt the definition.. you just do what youre passionate about nd youll live a good life i promise you... hmu if you ever need anything tho @spring mountain and i hope you have a great result and a good life...

spring mountain
azure gorge
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:)

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well this was wholesome, thank you

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needed this

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stress from exams lmao

mild compass
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its easy to forget

tepid delta
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So...i'm gonna go on a bit of a rant

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i...absolutely hate myself

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i just feel so worthless

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a person without an identity

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And I keep trying to find it

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And all I find is just emptiness

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I just wished I could be normal,be happy

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Hang out,party

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fall in love

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just...never seemed to happen

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just been alone all this time and it sucks

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pretty much have lost hope

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and honestly

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giving up seems sweet now

kindred stone
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Question

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What will you do after giving up?

tepid delta
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idk chief

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i am not certain on what goes on in the afterlife

tawdry star
# tepid delta So...i'm gonna go on a bit of a rant

Feelings are temporary is what I'd say. This is something that almost everyone has tbh, You set an expectation and it doesn't turn out that way. Movies really ruin life sometimes. Life is always messy. But that's the way it is. Embrace is it what I'd say. But on a more serious note, try consulting a psych if you have been feeling dreadful for a longer period. Again, I hope I'm not being ignorant in my statements, if I was I'm sorry I didn't mean to. All the best mate, I'm rooting for ya

kindred stone
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Thing is you shouldn’t demote yourself like that

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I just get a little annoyed when people want to quit

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Take a rest man don’t quit

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My exams are finished so ping me I’ll be there

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You need to create that passion for everything again

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Like pugs said it’s a temp. Feeling

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I’m not the best person to hear your rants out to but again like pugs said if you can try consulting a psych

kindred stone
keen kestrel
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How do you make decisions when you’re confused?

tawdry star
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Talk to your friends and mentors

remote pumice
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anyone here..?

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I kinda need someone to talk to..

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in dms.. I don't feel like saying it here..

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i feel suicidal..

keen kestrel
mild compass
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my dms are always open for anyone

rough holly
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same :)

keen kestrel
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we all here to support u mate, just dm anyone of us

remote pumice
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i'll just say it here

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1st of all, I'm sorry if I didn't accept your req @rough holly

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2nd

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my family has been toxic since i was 5

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they would abuse me

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and last night

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they said stuff like

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i won't pass my igcse

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i'm a loser

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i'm a slut

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etc tec

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and i just heard one of my friends

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closest friends

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died

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and i felt like giving up

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@mild compass @keen kestrel @rough holly

mild compass
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oh love

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first of all I want you to know that you don’t deserve what you’re going through at all. I’m sorry you had to hear such cruel words. It’s tough, but you have to prove you’re tougher. you won’t pass your igcse’s? no one determines that but you. you WILL pass them and you WILL get the highest score, if you aim for it and you willing to put the effort in it. You’re not a loser. You know that you’re not, and that’s why you will certainly not give up. I’m sorry for your loss, but hey cheer up it’s srsly not the end of the world. Get up and clear your mind. Have the mindset of a winner. Replace your fear with courage and hope. Dont let the negativity affect you in any way. When something bad happens you either let it define you, destroy you or strengthen you. yup you know which choice to go for. I really hope things work out for you just fine. I’ll keep you in my thoughts🥺You got this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and we are all cheering for you! And WE support you and you will pass your exams like they’re nothing,, stay strong for a little more🥺I love youuu, you matter and you’re so valid!!🤍

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@remote pumice cheer up angel !!

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we'll be by your side alwayssssssssss

remote pumice
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the thing is

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i have a negative mind

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and they dk i've been depressed

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since i was 5

mild compass
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you need to change that

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because you have control of it

remote pumice
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when i tried bringing up to them

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they said

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"OH IT'S YOUR PAST LIFE!"

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they go religous

mild compass
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they are literally so toxic what the fuck

remote pumice
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and they took me to a therapist a month ago

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and the therapist said

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i have depression and adhd

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they said

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"NANA, IT'S THE PC"

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"SHE WANTS ATTENTION"

mild compass
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wow

remote pumice
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since then

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i don't open up

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abuot anything

mild compass
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I honestly don't know what to say

remote pumice
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they dk that i got bullied

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they dk i tried killing myself over 100 times

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they dk anything

mild compass
mild compass
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it's sickening

mild compass
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why did u get bullied?

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what for?

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bullies always have 0 reasons to bully

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literally

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jobless pieces of shit

remote pumice
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yk

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when i try to get help

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like

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as in tell someone

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about it

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all they do is

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change person

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like, they go nice af

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soo

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i refuse

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to get any help

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my friends know

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i've told them

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i told my boyfriend too

remote pumice
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my boyfriend..

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he cheated on me for 3 whole months

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none of us want to break up

mild compass
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you know what just keep on ranting Ill listen

remote pumice
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i forgave him

mild compass
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let it all out

remote pumice
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i got 40exes

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always either

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used

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or cheated on

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so yeah

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i got pregnant thrice

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due to rape

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smh..

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they people who did it

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are dead now

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so there's that

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that's all

mild compass
remote pumice
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i've given up on things that make me happy, my fam ruined it

remote pumice
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  1. he saved me from suicde on june 18 2019
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so he's special

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to me

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he knows when my mood is off

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or smth

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i can go offline for days

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without telling him

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he'll know it right away

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talking to him is like

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my diary

mild compass
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but the bond and trust... do you still trust him? what if he does it again?

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as long as he actually completely changed

remote pumice
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i trust him

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plus i have his acc

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soo..

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he said this yesterday

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mild compass
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wait what

remote pumice
mild compass
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what did he mean by dont want to hurt you anymore

remote pumice
remote pumice
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i told him 2days ago

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i felt weird

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like i was having moodswings

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and shit

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and he thinks when i sleep

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i think about what he did

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i've forgotten and got over it

mild compass
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oh he thinks you have flashbacks and all

remote pumice
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ye

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i only have flashbacks when somethig bad happens

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or when something reminds me

mild compass
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I mean maybe you should have a longer talk and honestly telling him how you feel

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what happened next

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does he still text you

remote pumice
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ye

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i told him how i feel

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and stuff

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he said he's okay with it

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and still loves me

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he's awake rn

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just ignoring my calls and msgs

mild compass
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he's probably lost and overthinking,, because he assumed u havent forgetten and dwells on his regrets

remote pumice
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or he's studying

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i saw his status earlier

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"I wish I never did shit"

mild compass
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yeah

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he will keep on thinking about it

remote pumice
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and his family knows me

mild compass
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hes really feeling the guilt

remote pumice
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soo..

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if we break up

mild compass
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oh

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you guys seem rlly close

remote pumice
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we're either going to have to tell the truth

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or lie about it

remote pumice
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i've told him everything

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his family knows me

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i've met em

mild compass
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how is his family?

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are they nice to you

remote pumice
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yuh

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speaking of his family

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asked his mom this

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mild compass
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THATS SO CUTE

remote pumice
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and i asked his dad

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the same thing

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he said

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"sure why not"

mild compass
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they seem so sweet omg

remote pumice
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tehy are

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they*

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when we vc

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like when we play

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his mom or dad

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comes into his room

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and asks

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"is it linn?"

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if he says yes

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they say

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"HI DEARRR, em i meant, AARON'S FUTURE WIFE-"

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"DON'T FORGET THE CONDOMS WHEN YOU TOO YK"

mild compass
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oh damn

remote pumice
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so yeah

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we're close

mild compass
remote pumice
mild compass
remote pumice
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i told him i forgave him

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because he admit it

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the only thing

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that i don't forgive

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is my friends

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they knew

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for 5 months

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and didn't tell me

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like

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bruh

mild compass
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and you're still in touch with them???????????????

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wtf

remote pumice
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i trusted them

remote pumice
mild compass
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okay thats good

remote pumice
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if they join a vc i'm in

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i just say

mild compass
remote pumice
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"let's move to another one"

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"or wanna go to dms?"

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i'm not

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i hatethem

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1 of em became toxic

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on me

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idc

mild compass
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babe they all are toxic if they didnt say shit to you

remote pumice
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no like as in

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they would death threat me

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good thing i didn't tell anyone my weakness

mild compass
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whatttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt

remote pumice
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ye

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xD

mild compass
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keep on doing it

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it works

remote pumice
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they spammed me yesterday

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i muted the convo wheeze

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when i looked at what they said

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they said things like

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"linn come back

mild compass
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if I were u I'd just block

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I wouldnt even look at the messages

remote pumice
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i did block

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but we're in mutal servers

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adn stuff

mild compass
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mhm mhm I see

remote pumice
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them tryna spam me be like

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mild compass
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well someone's desperate 🥴

remote pumice
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i told them

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"the more you ping me"

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"the less chance you're gon get my answer"

mild compass
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OOF

remote pumice
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even if they don't ping me

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i don't answer

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them

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in conclusion

mild compass
remote pumice
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i love my boyfriend even if he cheated on me

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and i hate my friends

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and i wanna sleep

mild compass
mild compass
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what time is it there?

remote pumice
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he gets flashbacks

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so i don't talk about it much

remote pumice
mild compass
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did u sleep at all or-

remote pumice
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no

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3 days no sleep

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less goo

mild compass
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zombie gang

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we shouldnt be proud of it

remote pumice
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i'm used to not sleeping

mild compass
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you. need. to. sleep. right. now.

remote pumice
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so it's alr

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i got tution at 2pm..

mild compass
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thats not a good thing at allllllllllllllll :(((((((((((

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okay than

remote pumice
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;-;

mild compass
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attend it

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and sleep

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at least take a nap

remote pumice
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my next mock exam is in uh

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10th of march

mild compass
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and?

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ur mind needs to rest to function properly

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so just a little nap

remote pumice
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n e i n

mild compass
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a rest would help

remote pumice
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i got 2 tution a day now T^T

mild compass
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y e s

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sighhhhhhh

remote pumice
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meaning

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2pm to 4pm is one

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and 6pm to 8pm is one

mild compass
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btw what mock you have in three days?

remote pumice
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wait

mild compass
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oh shit physics

remote pumice
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i'm bad in maths

mild compass
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have you covered any material? have you been studying?

remote pumice
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so physics is shit

remote pumice
mild compass
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how u feelin about it

remote pumice
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physics

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kkinda stressed out

mild compass
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as long as you understand what you're required to, and focus on what youre exactly bad at in calculations,, you will do good

mild compass
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sooo attend those goddamn tuitions and revise physics

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manage your time

remote pumice
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the tr didn't finish the book

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and she's saying

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we have to study everything

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in the book

mild compass
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bro tell me about it thats the case w me in business

mild compass
remote pumice
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is it bad that

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i only took 5

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subjects?

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some are like it's good

mild compass
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mine would count as 5 without the 2 languages ones

remote pumice
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the others are saying it's bad

mild compass
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its not bad

remote pumice
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hmm

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alr

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imma study now

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ttyl

mild compass
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see yaaaaa

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TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF

remote pumice
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and ty for letting me vent uwu

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you too

mild compass
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and sleep for god's sake

mild compass
remote pumice
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later xD

mild compass
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<3<3

remote pumice
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<3

mild compass
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isnt exactly venting, but just sharing my feeling about something...

keen kestrel
mild compass
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I live in India, and like my bf lives in New Jersey and I'm trying so much to make this work, and the only thing he is doing is dirty texting, or sometimes not texting for days on.. I love, I really do.. but without communication and such a long distance, it makes it so hard to say that.. We have had many breaks due to this, and we've started again, hoping to keep the fire alive.. this time, it seems to be going fine, but yk always a nagging feeling that it wont work out, that 5 or 6 months down the line, it wouldnt be the same.. I cant seem to shake that feeling off

blazing inlet
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Watch 5cm per second. It's an anime but it might help youKawaiiPepe.

kindred stone
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._.

remote pumice
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hellow

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i would like to say

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i'm sitll hurt

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and

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sad

mild compass
mild compass
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how is that gonna help

kindred stone
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stress relieve i suppose

mild compass
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its quite sad tho

mild compass
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how the hell yall get boyfriends

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ok nvm i got a boyfriend in 1st grade but damn

mild compass
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everything is fine for me

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except for physics

mild compass
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forgive me father for i have sinned

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i ran a background check on someone

rough holly
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oh daymnnn

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no way

mild compass
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I CHECKEC STATE RECORDS

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AND

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i may or may not have found his mom

rough holly
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omg ZOIA

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why are you talking someone lmao

mild compass
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ok see

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paranoia

dull pulsar
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Yall y r my grades plateauing. y cant i get above 64/80 in sci subjects? i dont think i dont know the syll content 🤔 is it a curse?😔 am i just dumb? guess😔 we'll never find out😔

unreal oak
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where exactly are those marks being lost?

spark sonnet
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hey, i need a collective opinion

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my housekeeper's sister just died and of course i told her to please not work or do anything today and just take some time for herself

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but besides that and me sitting with her and hugging her i dont really know what to do

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i was thinking of making her some tea or making her something sweet

tawdry star
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But I think it's best she goes home

spark sonnet
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yeah its hard to do that,,

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flights with covid and all

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i'm going to see to it asap

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not that i have any control over it since my mum is the employer in the end

tawdry star
tawdry star
spark sonnet
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yeah and

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you know how mum is a little

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shes heartless imo

tawdry star
tawdry star
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:/

spark sonnet
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yeah no you're right, you're not being picky at all

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ur looking out for me and i appreciate it

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i just feel so bad

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i cant imagine losing my sister

tawdry star
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Mhmmm

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Yeah it's tragic but there's so little you can do about it

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So yeah head back to the grind

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Take a break if you don't feel it

spark sonnet
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yeah

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im in math rn tho

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i should go focus

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uuuuugh

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my brain is so

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blargh

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thank you for listening pugs

tawdry star
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And Abbass as well

tawdry star
azure gorge
# mild compass I live in India, and like my bf lives in New Jersey and I'm trying so much to ma...

long distance is tough ngl but if it gets to a point where it feels like its affecting stuff around you then just think to yourself if its worth it. the pain the trauma and the stress. and its not like if you take a break or something you cant revisit having a relationship again, i mean once you can live out life, get a job and then be together wouldnt that be simpler? again.. im not saying break up or anything im just saying that dont let it affect stuff aorund you and dont feel the need to stay together or anything it shouldnt be a compulsion and i get it, its really hard to get that affection that you would have if he was here and its not like the dogs barking at 3 or the honking sounds here make it easier so jusst try to be stress free and the feelign youre talking bout is your gut listen to it..

azure gorge
amber otter
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fkin hell living in a dorm is shitty af. My roommate is a childish asshole whose double-standards make me wanna punch his stupid face. I can't focus on my work after school cuz my room is literally right next to the common room and ppl just come here and waste their life on stupid fkin games all night (basically shouting and screaming like monkeys when they win). I know I won't be able to change rooms cuz I know my resident tutor just won't let me and plus it's already close to the end of this school year. Like dear LORD these ppl don't understand the word "mindfulness" whatsoever. They piss and shit and just leave it there like fking hell most of these ppl are alrdy 16-17. I know I sound like an assshole myself for calling these people assholes but I JUST can't STAND IT ANYMORE..

unreal oak
amber otter
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it's quite a small town and plus we have covid tests twice a week

unreal oak
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fair enough

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are you allowed to have headphones on you?

amber otter
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yea i use them all the time

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but I can still hear their stupid laughs

unreal oak
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pick up some proper noise cancelling ones if you can afford them

amber otter
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like jesus christ these ppl are going to uni in 1 or 2 years like fucking hell

unreal oak
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its life changing ngl

amber otter
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hm yea maybe

unreal oak
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or if you can't afford that just get some earplugs

amber otter
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I've tried that

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it doesnt work

unreal oak
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how fucking loud are these kids-

amber otter
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they gather from around 7-10 most of the nights and I can literally hear them thru the mtfking walls

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the resident tutor can only kick them out at 10 cuz it's 'bedtime'

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which sounds childish but thank GOD it exists

unreal oak
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the only solution i can think of then are proper ANC headphones

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they are expensive yes

amber otter
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well I still have an annoying ass roommate to deal with...

unreal oak
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but as a uni student, ik peeps for whom its essential

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b/w flat parties and being able to hear your roommate have sex with his girl

amber otter
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hm ok maybe i'll consider investing in one thanks for the advice

amber otter
unreal oak
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fr the latter is a massive problem

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so many traumatized first years

amber otter
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jesus christ fr??XD

unreal oak
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yeah its like a massive apartment with a common area and a few rooms

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and the walls b/w these rooms are fairly thin

amber otter
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the roommate part is the most annoying tbh

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like he sleeps with the LIGHTS ON

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like WTF

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and when I tell him to shut it it turns into one long argument

unreal oak
amber otter
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exactly

unreal oak
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cant he at least get a nightlight

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those are better than the lights on

amber otter
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he turns on his desk lamp but it's still bright af

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I have to use eyeshades

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he's just so childish

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like he thinks that he can get WHATEVER he wants

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I'm an AS student and i'm supposed to be focused on my studies

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instead im forced to argue over small things

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like opening the window

spark sonnet
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bruh your roommate is a piece of shit

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wtf is his problem

amber otter
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i fking know right

spark sonnet
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i'd beat his ass if i didnt have morals lmao

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like no fucking cap

amber otter
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like bruv

spark sonnet
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cant you like, write up a complaint?

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theres no way u cant request a transfer of sorts

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what a piece of shit omfg

amber otter
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it's nearly the end of the year like i said

spark sonnet
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how much longer left?

amber otter
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so they might not take it srsly

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until june

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shit thats kinda long

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but eh

spark sonnet
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yeahhhhh...

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i think you should put in a complaint

amber otter
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i mean when i excercise

spark sonnet
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and include everything that bastard does

amber otter
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i open the window

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to let some air in

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he says "IT"S TOO COLD!!!"

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and then we excercises

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HE OPENS the window

spark sonnet
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bruh

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too cold my ass

amber otter
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LIKE BRUV DOUBLE STANDARDS OMFG

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im not even capping he's fuckin childish af

spark sonnet
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you need to file some sorta complaint about his hygiene and him disrupting ur peace

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trust me i believe you hun

amber otter
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tfXD

spark sonnet
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file a complaint and get his ass

amber otter
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eh maybe

spark sonnet
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either that

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or suffer

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choice is yours

amber otter
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it's only 3 more months tho...

spark sonnet
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3 months is a lot.

amber otter
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and if I were to file a complaint i would need to get the boarding director involved and all that shit

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i also signed up for the epq and that shit is stressing me out enough so...

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my solution for now is just go to one of my friend's room and chill there

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like we were friends once

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and i swear to god i was prepared to help him in anyway

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like u know friends pay for ur stuff then u pay back

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not really considering the exact amount cuz u know thats how friendship works

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but he wants every penny back

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i mean i get it

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im not tryna steal ur money

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but just say it in a nice way ffs

mild compass
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well, my dad said he doesnt love me, thats it thats my rant

mild compass
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wtf

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how did he just say that?

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casually?

jolly jacinth
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i left my bio, maths and stats mock exam papers blank.......

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i swear i cant fucking function anymore

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it is terrible to live with depression, brain fog, anxiety, chronic stress

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and to be trapped at home during a pandemic

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like nothingggg helps

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cant frickin study when i get brain fog so often

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and my a level exams start on 4th may

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coursework grades are already shit so transcript will not be very preety

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idk which top university will want me then

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fuck

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i just want to be able to function cognitively so atleast one thing can go well in my life... my grades

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but nooooooo not even that gets to happen

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cheers to being mentally ill

whole pike
#

i just read some of these and to the person reading this im so sorry you have to go through that, you deserve so much better
please take some time out for your mental health and remember that we're all in this together
you're not alone, and you're loved
ik it seems impossible but things will get better <3

mild compass
#

Mad for what?

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I skipped a few classes

mild compass
#

sigh

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dont say that

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i am acc a pretty weird guy but its not hard to love some one

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eh

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i'd rather die at this point

mild compass
#

would you like to meet a counsellor or something

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they could help you

gleaming sable
#

wat is this channel for

mild compass
lavish geode
#

libtard 🙄

proven pond
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hope you find a cure

jolly jacinth
vivid smelt
crimson zodiac
#

counselors?? how dare you suggest your mental health is not perfect??

regal raven
#

@mild compass

it probably came out spontaneously and hes likely regretting it but trying to find a way to say hes sorry without losing his status as a "father figure" or a role model perhaps

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he was likely just angry that you were skipping classes, which if you think about it is quite fair ALTHOUGH saying he doesnt love you is definitely uncalled for

#

the best thing to do is to go and apologise to him and perhaps he will open up

proven pond
#

slide phone number so i can give a call and help

clear breach
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I am procrastinating a 10 minute video, that too on 2x speed for the past 3 hours

regal raven
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ill fix it for you

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change CPSR to 74

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problem solved

whole pike
hybrid tide
#

thanks waterloo for not specifying anywhere on your fucking requirements that EGP doesn't meet the english requirements...

unknown.png
#

way to make me waste 200 CAD on your application

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god I am furious...

mild compass
#

where else have you applied to?

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I don't think any Canadian university accepts the general english paper...

hybrid tide
#

well then...

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glad I didn't apply anywhere else

untold spear
#

got mocks in a week

#

didnt study at all

#

like at all

#

only thing i want are sum mushrooms

gleaming sable
#

I was in the same situation

#

however I managed to revise everything for every subject

#

the best thing was just structuring my days

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into blocks of studying

tepid delta
#

I am so very screwed

#

Got boards in 40 ish days

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And I'm dead

whole pike
#

@gleaming sable could you share the schedule/methods that you use? cause i just keep on failing all my subjects no matter how hard i try

gleaming sable
#

@whole pike All there is it’s that you need to make a list of everything you still don’t know. For every subject just make a list of every topic you’re not comfortable

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Then why I did was I installed any.do which is a daily planner. I then set myself a goal of 1 topic a day for each subject (3 subjects)

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Just having like 2 hour blocks of just studying . After those 2 hours I take a 30 min or 1 hour break depending on how tired I am

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And after like 2/3 weeks I just studied everything I didn’t know and just started grinding past papers

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If you study 6/8 hours a day constantly for a month or 2 then you’ll probably get good grades

whole pike
#

omg tyssm i'll try that out

spark sonnet
#

my exams are in a lil under 2 months

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shits fine

spark sonnet
#

split your time up for the subjects and prioritise the hard stuff

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you'll be fine

urban solstice
#

cuz shit aint fine my dude

spark sonnet
#

ok yeah maybe noT ALL THE TIME--

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but as in

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shits fine if you sit down n work

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you know>

urban solstice
#

yeah not read manga

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like some people here...

spark sonnet
#

...

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woooow

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WOOOOOOOW

#

THE DISPRESPECT

urban solstice
spark sonnet
#

THE ABSOLUTE GALL

urban solstice
#

I be wasting my days then say something like that

spark sonnet
#

i know i m being sarcastic

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kids these days aint got MANNERS

urban solstice
#

like u...

spark sonnet
#

RESPECT YOUR ELDERS

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tbh ive finalyl stopped reading manga for the time being

urban solstice
#

ur younger than me

spark sonnet
#

huh

urban solstice
#

(prolly)

spark sonnet
#

how old are you squirt

urban solstice
#

46

spark sonnet
#

eat my ass im 82

urban solstice
#

oh wait typo

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460

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forgot the zero

spark sonnet
urban solstice
#

so yeah

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i am older

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RESPECT ME bish

spark sonnet
#

bite me

urban solstice
spark sonnet
#

THIS WASN'T SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN

urban solstice
proven pond
#

brr

tepid delta
#

I'm honestly so dead

#

I don't even know anything in maths,physics or chemistry

untold spear
#

the whole As syllabus in a week?

spark sonnet
#

if you've been studying before/generally paying attention, yeah

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do some past papers for each subject

untold spear
#

eh well that didnt happen

mild compass
#

Wtf

hybrid kiln
#

cool

tepid delta
#

Yep

#

So I got AS and A chem

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And A Physics and Math

#

Combined with how well onlinr school was

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This will be fun

dusk thorn
#

@tepid delta idk what to say besides good luck man, you aren't alone at least

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Just wanna vent my feelings into the abyss here

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I feel gross as fuck because i cant work out

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Not that being fat or gaining weight is a bad thing but i have that negative mentality against myself drilled into my head and i feel like shit

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Despite how much i joke about food and how hungry i am, i dont think i have ever exceeded 20g of refined sugar a day or more than 1180 kCal

gleaming sable
#

tbh i was in the same position as u deuce last year

dusk thorn
#

And my ED is getting fired the hell up these days since im not allowed to do physical activity until my back gets better

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Gang gang lol

gleaming sable
#

is it hard for you to run?

dusk thorn
#

Uhhh

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I dont really run

gleaming sable
#

or jog

dusk thorn
#

That too, dont have the geogeaphical means for it lol

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And i cant do that anyway

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Back strain lol

gleaming sable
#

ouch

dusk thorn
#

Yeah i havent worked out since Friday

gleaming sable
#

wht happened to ur back

dusk thorn
#

I strained it due to high intensity/risk exercise

gleaming sable
#

oh

dusk thorn
#

Lots of variants of leg raises did that to me

gleaming sable
#

leg day hits hard 😔

dusk thorn
#

Hahaha its core actually

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You lay down on the floor and lift your legs up straight

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And there are harder variants of it

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It strained my lower back

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Ive been suffering since friday lmao

gleaming sable
#

core exercises are the hardest for me, theyre just a pain

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leg day is easy cuz u just do legs

dusk thorn
#

I'm pretty good at core

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Yeah true

gleaming sable
#

and only ur legs are tired

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but for core

dusk thorn
#

Legs are fun

gleaming sable
#

holy jesus ur exhausted afger

dusk thorn
#

Core needs your mind and body

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Yeahhh

gleaming sable
#

its like a worse version of cardio

dusk thorn
#

My entire body gets toned easy except my torso rip

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Like within one month of some light bicep curls and pushups etc i had some buff arms and my calves are popping

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But its so hard to make the torso budge

gleaming sable
#

yh it depends on your goal

dusk thorn
#

So im a lil core focused hehe

#

I just work out to be fit really, but i do try to tone

#

Ive always been insecure about my stomach

#

The fat on my body is oddly distributed so

gleaming sable
#

oh bruh same

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its like

dusk thorn
#

Gang gang

gleaming sable
#

i have almost no fat in my arms

#

all of it is

#

at my ass

#

is so annoying 😔

dusk thorn
#

Bro at least its in your ass

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Mine just goes to my stomach

gleaming sable
#

thats fine thoighh

#

u just hide it

#

u dont look like a trex when you walk

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-_-

dusk thorn
#

Even when i was overweight, if you saw a picture of me from the chest up you'd think im perfectly healthy if not skinny

#

My arms are fine

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Neck

#

Legs

#

Everything

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Then yoh have this lil pouch on my stomach that never goes away

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The one time it went away was when i wasnt eating for 2 weeks and you and i both know you shouldnt starve

gleaming sable
#

u gotta

dusk thorn
#

Like that is NOT the right way to lose weight

gleaming sable
#

do abs exercises

#

frr

dusk thorn
#

I do T_T

gleaming sable
#

make ur abs pop OUT

dusk thorn
#

Haha ywag

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Yeah*

#

Thing os

#

Is

#

It was going well

#

Then i strained mt baxk

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I was on a roll

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Heres my log

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Those big dots are when i did really intense core

tepid delta
#

well better than me

gleaming sable
#

damn

tepid delta
#

got bodyshamed by parents

dusk thorn
#

So did i

#

Gang gang

gleaming sable
#

FR RAWR

tepid delta
#

so i joined a gym woohoo

gleaming sable
#

OH MY GOD

#

its so annoying though

tepid delta
#

I AGREE

gleaming sable
#

and when u look good

#

its like

dusk thorn
#

Body shaming from parents is the worst

gleaming sable
#

"thats how ur supposed to be every single day"

#

like thats just not true

dusk thorn
#

YEAH??

tepid delta
#

lmfao like please

gleaming sable
#

in exam season i wont look

dusk thorn
#

And like

tepid delta
#

i get so stressed

gleaming sable
#

as good

dusk thorn
#

When you do lose weight

tepid delta
#

i start stress eating

dusk thorn
#

"Omg youre so skinny"

#

"You need to eat more"

#

BRO WYM

tepid delta
#

"eat more"

#

"gotta put some weight"

dusk thorn
#

YOU FATSHAMED ME LAST MONTH

tepid delta
#

bruh what

gleaming sable
#

bro the worst thing

#

is when they try to control ur diet

dusk thorn
#

Yeah

gleaming sable
#

oh my god

dusk thorn
#

Thats why i eat seperstely now lol

#

Like fuck off

gleaming sable
#

fr wtf

dusk thorn
#

I put my portions on my own

#

And my mum can be so damn annoying

gleaming sable
#

i cant wait for uni

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🙏

dusk thorn
#

Same

#

Hurgh

#

I just hope i stop feeling icky soon

gleaming sable
#

u have 1 year left tho

dusk thorn
#

I can feel my ED bubbling up

gleaming sable
#

i have 2 -_-

dusk thorn
#

Yeah

#

True

gleaming sable
#

wait r u in y13 or 12

dusk thorn
#

Im gonna go try make lunch and not feel bad about it :/

tepid delta
#

whats for lunch

dusk thorn
#

Y12, i dont have y13

tepid delta
#

i'm alr hungry

#

dat egg biriyani was heaven tho

gleaming sable
#

oh

dusk thorn
gleaming sable
#

/so ur going to uni next year

#

?

dusk thorn
#

But we're out of the good toast bread :/

dusk thorn
gleaming sable
#

oh my god

dusk thorn
#

I'm graduating this year uwu

tepid delta
#

same

gleaming sable
#

where u going

dusk thorn
#

England

tepid delta
#

except i got no idea how exams are gonna go

gleaming sable
#

oo

#

nice

tepid delta
#

for the love of god cancel the exams here pls

dusk thorn
#

I dont wsnt mine cancelled hhhh

#

Scared of my exams messing up my predicteds

gleaming sable
#

bro fr

dusk thorn
#

And the evidence n stuff

tepid delta
#

do you and i live in the same place

gleaming sable
#

i swear

dusk thorn
#

I dont think so

gleaming sable
#

when my school got canceled i was so angry

dusk thorn
#

I live in Jordan

#

Same^

tepid delta
#

then don't worry about it

gleaming sable
#

theyll predict

#

like

dusk thorn
#

The knot in my back is killing me ugh

gleaming sable
#

what THEY thing youre gonna do

dusk thorn
#

Yeah

#

Thats ass

gleaming sable
#

not what ur actually gonna do

#

its like

dusk thorn
#

Its so unfair

tepid delta
#

thankfully my school allows me to carry my exams to november

gleaming sable
#

where do you think im gonna get higher, in a test i had 1 week to revise for

#

or a test i had 2 months

dusk thorn
#

Trueeeeee

#

Sigh

#

This sucks

tepid delta
#

i live in india

#

so for the love of god cancel here

#

cases be risin in the city

dusk thorn
#

Cases here wikd

#

Wild**

gleaming sable
#

thank lord its only my igs

#

if it were my alevels

#

i would die

mild compass
#

I'm here becuz i need some advise . So i have this school group and i was sending a message to my friend and accidentally send it to my class group !! it had .. things that are generally considered rude and since i send it and never checked the group the entire group of parents and head teachers so it but never said anything ... i saw it 4 hours later and it was too late .. What should i do now ?? i mean everyone would of course know it was a mistake .. but i feel really humiliated and I am always really polite to my teachers and stuff too !!! and now .... i don't know what to do . Can someone help ? i mean or give some advise regarding it ?

spark sonnet
mild compass
#

Thank you , but i am very closed off in real life , so i am a bit hesitant to do that though . I am a bit scared to go to school tomorrow too

spark sonnet
mild compass
#

of course

#

thank you !!!

spark sonnet
#

no problem :)

stoic sonnet
#

WHY DO I GET LOW MARKS NO MATTER HOW HARD I STUDY TWT

tepid delta
#

i understand your pain

wind moon
#

IGCSE was fine, it was great even. Then AS happened...

#

Feel your pain

spring mountain
#

i have this english teacher. shes passive aggressive and she likes to talk soo much. i wouldnt care but she likes to talk when we have a task. then once she stops talking, she asks us to read our work out loud and says how we wont get this much time duirng exams. LIKE OK FIRST OF ALL I DONT LIKE READING MY STUFF OUT LOUD BC ITS PUBLIC HUMILIATION IF SHE DOESNT LIKE IT. ALSO YEAH I GET WE HV LESS TIME IN EXAMS BUT IN EXAMS WE WONT HAVE SOMEONE CONTINOUSLY TALKING IN THE BACKGROUND DO WE? ITS SO ANNOYING, IM NOT V GOOD AT ENGLISH AND THIS JUST MAKES IT WORSE. I LOATHE ENGLISH CLASSES BECAUSE OF THIS. I FIND IT SO HARD TO FOCUS ON WRITING WHILE LISTENING TO SOMEONE IN THE BACKGROUND

stoic sonnet
#

AH THATS ALSO MY ENGLISH TEACHER

#

ITS LITERALLY THE WORST

#

READING OUT YOUR WRITINGS

#

EURGH

spring mountain
#

YEAH

spark sonnet
#

shes so fucking annoying

mild compass
#

wow

#

I'm lucky my English teacher is good?

#

lol

spark sonnet
#

mine is too

#

in fct all of mine were

mild compass
#

Same
Except 1 in grade 5 and 6
She used to get mad really fast at small things

brazen shell
#

anyone else frustrated at their exams being cancelled?

brazen shell
#

in bangladesh

#

like idk if its just my opinion but teacher assessed grades aren't that viable

spring mountain
#

U GUYSS PLS I LOST ALL MY PAST PAPERS. I CANT FIND THEMMMM OH MY GOD

#

I WILL KMS I CANT FIND IT ANYWHER

#

im so fucking done

mild compass
#

Wdym lost?

#

Like the PDF versions?

spring mountain
#

NO LIKE

#

U SEE IVE PRINTED LOADS OF THEM AND DONE THEM ALL

#

I DIDNT REALIZE THEY WERE GONE UNTIL TODAY

#

BECAUSE MY TEACHER ASKED ME TO UPLOAD ALL OF THEM

#

AND ALL THIS TIME IVE BEEN AT HOME SO THERES NO WAY ITS OUTSIDE OF HOME

#

IVE SEARCHED WHERE I SIT

#

ANDITS NOT THERE

#

AND ITS SUCHA HUGE STACK ITS LIKE IMPOSSIBLE TO MISPLACE YK

#

i know this sounds hard to believe but i think my mom must have kept it somewhere, either intentionally or unintentionally. because my mom has always hated how i dont keep my table neat all the time, and i've tried explaining her tha because i am not done yet, i dont like cleaning up first. so i only like cleaning things up once im done with everhything, which is why i ALWAYS do at the end of hte day. but my mom still insists on touching my stuff and trying to "help" me clean. its not that im being ungrateful but i dont like ppl touching my stuff.

rough holly
#

maybe you could ask her if she has your past papers?

#

then try to reiterate the fact that you will clean up after you have finished

spring mountain
#

i've gotten into fights before because i accused her of misplacing my stuff but she wouldnt accept it and got really mad at me. she said i was ungrateful for her helping me even though ive told her countless times to not touch my stuff

#

THIS IS NOT HTE FIRST TIME

#

and when i do find it, its always in places that i least expected

#

its really suspicious

rough holly
#

hmm i mean she can't get angry if you ask if she has seen them

spring mountain
#

like even if i misplaced it, i would realize

#

and everytime i ask her if shes seen my stuff, she gets pissed

#

and says this is because im messy

#

im not too sure but i have a feeling shes doing this purposely to make me change my ways

#

and istg this is my breaking point

rough holly
#

maybe just try asking, but ask her discreetly

#

just start alking about school, and slowly go to past papers

spring mountain
#

its not that im trying to put my blame onto others. BUT ITS A WHOLE STACK OF PAST PAPERS THERES NO WAY I CLDVE PLACED IT SOMEHWERE HIDDEN

#

IVE ALWAYS SAT ON THIS TABLE

rough holly
#

okay so try looking for them, in the least obvious places

#

you can check in places where your mum has hidden them before

spring mountain
#

NO BC I CANT DO THIS ANYMORE. LAST TIME THIS HAPPENED I HAD TO REDO ALL MY WORK UNTIL I FOUND IT UNDER HER WORK

#

AND SHE STARTED GETTING ANGRY AS IF SHE WAS THE ONE WHO HAD TO REDO SHIT

#

I DONT FUCKING UNDERSTAND. I ALWAYS CLEAN MY SHIT UP AFTER IM DONE. I DONT LIKE CLEANING UP EVERY FEW MINUTES BC IM NOT DONE WITH MY WORK.

#

I KNOW SHES VERY BUSY BUT THEN AGAIN WHY WOULD SHE BOTHER TO TOUCH MY STUFF THEN

#

I HAVE TUITION IN A FEW HOURS AND NOW WTF AM I SUPPOSED TO DO NOW THAT ALL MY PAST PAPERS ARE GONE

#

WHAT AM I SUPPOSED TO TELL MY TEACHER WHOS MAKING US UPLOAD ALL OUR PAST PAPERS

rough holly
#

hmmm i mean you should always try to re explain the reasons. Maybe she just doesn't undertsnad that, this is how you work and it works for you

spring mountain
#

YEA BUT LIKE NOW I THINK SHES HIDING IT ON PURPOSE AND SHE DOES IT IN SECRET

rough holly
#

okay try to explain to her that, this is how you work and after you have studied you will clean up

spring mountain
#

yeah but u see. if she did hide it, im very sure she wouldnt admit it

#

i know she'd make it seem like im the one who lost it becasue im messy or whatever

#

so it feels like a lost cause

#

if i ask her right now, she will get mad and say its because im messy

#

ok see im not very sure if shes the one behind all this. but its happening too many times, and its really really suspicious

#

yes i have lost things on my own before in school, but mind u, SCHOOL. im at home, i sit at one place, i always keep my things on this table only or i keep it in between books. ive searched it between books and its not there

rough holly
#

maybe you can say that these past papers are very important, and that you need it urgently for school

spring mountain
#

sigh. okay i will see

spring mountain
#

THIS IS SO EMBRASSING

#

BUT I NEVER LOST THEM IN THE FIRDT PLACE

#

ITS JUDT THAT MY TEACHER HASNT SENT THE RESTA

#

AND I ALRDY HV WHAT I NEEDIM

#

i

#

IM SO SORRY

#

MY MOM ALSOGOT MAD AT NE LMAO BUT ITS ALL GOOD

#

PLS FORGET WTV I SAID

#

THIS IS SO EMBARASSING I WAS CRYING TO MY DAD AND STUFF IT WAS SO DRAMATIC

rough holly
#

haha it's fine :)

#

its not embrassing , everyone has off days (:

spark sonnet
#

lmao throwback to when i thought i lost my earphones and had a whole meltdown and it was on my clothing hanger the entire time

mild compass
#

I lost so many things and have had meltdowns and panicked alot only to find them in places literally right infront of my eyes

#

lol

mild compass
#

hi ok so idk what im doing??? but here goes, im in my bed rn with the lights off ok. and with literally nothing to do im contemplating my decisions and how im literally going nowhere in life ugggghhhhh happysad I FEEL DEPRESSED but like not at the same time, im young dumb and broke LMAO I HAD TO. i feel so hopeless at times BlobCouncil . i sound so depressing but trust me im laughing my ass off as i write this cuz me thinking this is dumb, which it is no question. im almost 21 and im not done with my A levels cuz i dont carry any brain cells and this right here, whatever im doing rn is an example. and this corona shit is UGGGHHH even worse, home all day literally zero productivity. i eat 4 meals a day yummm im not complaining 👀 i eat a lot, im up all night watching youtube or playing fortnite ✌️beace hehe which is addicting VERY. I DONT KNOW idk idk idk i need help???????? pls send help

#

this is so funny

gleaming sable
#

oof

mild compass
#

hi

#

lol

keen kestrel
mild compass
mild compass
wintry rampart
#

my mother's a bloody boomer.

#

played with a defective charger that sparks often and wanted it plugged everywhere, ,which can further damage my charger and risk burning my house down

#

she wanted to test it if either the charger itself or socket used to plug the charger was the cause of it sparking

#

and now, she's forcing me to use my laptop in order to study when i can really use my cellphone

#

at this early time...

#

i'm ready to say "ok boomer" to her if she's willing to shape me in her way

#

using his laptop that comes with a defective charger that can be below the minimum voltage needed to power the laptop, especially when gaming intensively

#

now she'll buy a power cord that may not be compatible with the adapter and cause further damage

#

taking it to either a "generalized" electronics shop or an actual ASUS store

spark sonnet
#

u shouldnt blame yourself with the pandemic n stuff and cut yourself some slack but do try your best to do something. i think it's great you're eating good and enjoying yourself w/games and youtube. are you still doing A levels this year?

spark sonnet
wintry rampart
#

welp, never mind about my rant. at least i have an extension cord with a switch that may be its form of surge protection

#

and that i can use it without causing damage

#

and from what i’m seeing, the cord does not spark (visible or louder) whenever i plug it in the extension cord, meaning that my wall outlet’s broke af

kindred stone
#

Frickin screw this

#

They said we're having offline classes

#

I was happy

#

And they forced us to buy uniforms

#

And not 1 but 2 pairs

#

Which is really expensive

#

And then announced its online classes

mild compass
pine coyoteBOT
#

PAWAWEWWOGWAM WAW is AFK: AFK - 31 minutes ago

mild compass
kindred stone
#

@spark sonnet

pine coyoteBOT
#

PAWAWEWWOGWAM WAW is AFK: AFK - 32 minutes ago

kindred stone
#

I need the saw

#

Or come with me

spark sonnet
#

we in the same boat homie

spark sonnet
mild compass
spark sonnet
# mild compass yay us ✌️

jokes aside, i hope you're alright. i know im a stranger but if you wanna talk something out or just want a shoulder to cry on, my messages are open.

young vessel
#

Am I screwed now that I haven't even started my personal statement in mid-late march?

gleaming sable
#

better late than never

young vessel
#

my mocks r this week

#

no time to do it

olive vortex
#

What

#

Mocks start next week

#

Just going to memorize mark scheme

young vessel
#

huh? mine starts tomorrow

#

i live outside UK

olive vortex
#

Me too

#

School made mocks early though