venting

[wintry rampart]

yeah

overthinking at its worst

but he's already in this stage.

[dusk thorn]

I know

You aren't alone

I did that with my brother

It worked in my favour actually, but your situation idk

May i ask the age difference between you and your brother? Of course if you don't want to that's okay

Either way

I understand your suffering and how annoyed you are

You have every right to be angry at your mother as well

But i do want to suggest a different approach

[mild compass]

Sorry to interrupt your guys discussion but I wanted to drop a one line rant

Everyday is so boring and too repetitive

Nothing to do

Ok that makes it 2 lines lol

[wintry rampart]

9 years

[dusk thorn]

No worries man, I feel you :/ not really much we can do but there's some stuff to make the day a little better. Me and my online friends hang out in voice chat and watch stuff together, I personally do some research of my own interest, just to try make it a lil more bearable

[dusk thorn]

Maybe you should try approaching him in a more

Friendly manner

Like

Less of "I'm your superior and you need to listen to me"

[wintry rampart]

there’s a lot of things to do out there...

[dusk thorn]

And try make him feel that you're not against him

You're not trying to be his enemy et cetera

Sammy (my brother) got a lot better when i convinced him with my actions that i am not his enemy

Changing your tone of voice and demeanor works wonders with time

Make sense?

[mild compass]

Man I feel you

[dusk thorn]

As draining as it can be these days i do agree witb welpo - there are things to do

Lots to read and learn

[wintry rampart]

yup.

[mild compass]

i don't have the mental energy to do much tbh

[dusk thorn]

@wintry rampart i really hope i gave some useful advice, and i hope i haven't come off as condescending either

[wintry rampart]

i guess that i have received a lot of help.

thanks, @dusk thorn

[dusk thorn]

I do understand your frustration, just try the more positive approach. I'll be more than happy to help if you get in a sticky situation and you're not sure on how to act

It's the least i could do, really

Please feel free to message me about the situation in the future

[dusk thorn]

Yeah there's that too,,, don't force yourself to churn out energy

[wintry rampart]

it indeed gave me very big help, as well as life advice

[dusk thorn]

Just try not to put yourself into a vortex of self pity either

[wintry rampart]

don’t overwork yourself. take a break.

[mild compass]

it's just hard to have any energy to do anything given my situation atm

[dusk thorn]

Yems i agree

Yeah i read your message here

I understand your situation

My mum is a nutjob and cussing is a sport for her

Cusses me out at minor things major things you name it

[mild compass]

pfft my dad yells at me over accidentally spilling tea

[dusk thorn]

Try your very best to block out the pressure from your parenrs - being a doctor is YOUR dream. Not theirs

Your dad needs therapy xoxoxo

[open cape]

I feel u...

[mild compass]

my dad has major anger issues i cant totally hate him but i really want to get away from him

[open cape]

My dad is like that as well yells over like everything doesn't matter how small it is.

[open cape]

Same..

[dusk thorn]

I feel you guys

Honestly

Book it whenever you can

Soonest chance you get

Just leave

[mild compass]

he wont let me though :/

i could leave this year but apparently going to a uni i want isnt my choice either

its always gonna be his choice

[mild compass]

Not when the government has put all restrictions back again and are the same as like 10 months ago, 2 people allowed in cars etc.
Because of a sudden surge in cases , went from like 20 or so to straight up 500

[dusk thorn]

Question

Do you have a uni counsellor by any chance

That could sway his opinion towards your uni of choice?

[mild compass]

no :/

[dusk thorn]

Damn

Hmm

[mild compass]

my dad agreed to my choice at first

[wintry rampart]

what I meant is at home...

[mild compass]

but my nosy fucking aunt had to 'get more options'

that would require me to stay here longer

[dusk thorn]

Damn this bitch wants to be slapped

[mild compass]

What can I do at home?@wintry rampart

[dusk thorn]

Hm

[mild compass]

like i've stressed to my friend this place will literally kill me </3

[dusk thorn]

Yeah i noticed you really hate it there

[wintry rampart]

Read books, help in housework or binge Netflix and chill

discover new hobbies too

[dusk thorn]

Is there any sort of middle ground? @mild compass

Sorry not to cut in on the other convi

[mild compass]

tbh not really my aunt wants to talk to me this evening

[dusk thorn]

But maybe try convincing your dad with a prestigious uni so you can ahem ahem become a GOOD doctor ahem get LOTS of money ahem ahem

And then run far away to said uni

[mild compass]

I WISH OMG

[dusk thorn]

Zoinks scoob

Is your aunt not the greatest?

[mild compass]

she's good but she needs to stop butting in

it's none of her business

it's my life not theirs

[dusk thorn]

Try sway her to your advantage

Yeah definirely

[mild compass]

if I go somewhere where they force me to go it'll lead to MY unhappiness not theirs

[dusk thorn]

Shes being nosy af

But try your best to like

Get her to work FOR you

Not against you

[mild compass]

Only thing I discovered is just some older classic games to play
Don't really watch any shows Because idk i find them all meh
I am probably the second laziest person I know so helping in the house idk

What hobbies do I find
@Welpo#9367

[dusk thorn]

Prove that the unis you want are some hot girl shit

[mild compass]

yeah and if i get good scores for my tests next week maybe my dad will listen to my needs

Bruh

[dusk thorn]

@mild compass i am gonna be super frank with you - you gotta pull yourself together and not be lazy

I aint tryna be harsh

[mild compass]

I try to

[dusk thorn]

Saying this for your own good

[mild compass]

But i fail Every time

good grades are the secret to my abusive dad's heart

[dusk thorn]

Why though? What's stopping you?

[dusk thorn]

Then squash that heart with good grades

[mild compass]

I don't know
Myself

[open cape]

Yeah good grades convince easily to Ur needs

[mild compass]

bet

[dusk thorn]

Destroy those exams boo

[mild compass]

hell yea

[dusk thorn]

Seriously i am rooting for you

[open cape]

Yess

[dusk thorn]

Crush him and your aunt with good grades and get the life you want

[open cape]

I hope you convince your dad and let's you go to the uni u want to go to zoia

[mild compass]

unrelated but he finally let me cut my hair and I'm gonna get it done with curtain bangs tomorrow <3

[dusk thorn]

CURTAIN BANGS OMGMGMGGMMG

YOURE GONNA LOOK SO CUTE UWU

[mild compass]

OMG THANKS

[dusk thorn]

GL 💕💕💕💕

[mild compass]

I CANT WAIT NSNSNS

[dusk thorn]

I lowkey want bangs but i have curly hair

F

I sort of have curtain bangs actually

[mild compass]

my hair is just |

[dusk thorn]

LUCKY

I mean i love my curly hair but you just cant do half the shit with it

[mild compass]

BRO IDK HOW PEOPLE WITH THICK HAIR SURVIVE

[open cape]

Ooo that's great

[dusk thorn]

I have super thick hair

[mild compass]

its so heavy it gives me a headache

[open cape]

My mom won't even let me cut my hair short - _-

[dusk thorn]

It is. Tiring.

[dusk thorn]

I say do it anyway lol

[open cape]

Sameee

[dusk thorn]

Or stick gum in your hair

What are they gonna do about it

[open cape]

Lmaoo

[mild compass]

MY MUM WLD JUST

[dusk thorn]

Stick your hair back on.?

[mild compass]

TRY TO REMOVE THE GUM

[open cape]

Omg sameeee

[dusk thorn]

Make it nasty and STICKY

[mild compass]

my mum wld cuss at me in sindhi 😭

she'd be like

[dusk thorn]

AGAHSJDJ

[mild compass]

HOW DID U GET GUM IN UR HAIR

[open cape]

LOL

[mild compass]

KAMINA

KESE KYA ??

[dusk thorn]

💀💀💀

[mild compass]

😭

[dusk thorn]

Tbh yolo im numb to what my parents do half the time now

[open cape]

I mean I cut my hair mid last year to like a little longer then my shoulders

[dusk thorn]

Like yeah bitch swear at me bc thats gonna make my hair grow back

[mild compass]

if only my parents didnt control my life decisions

i wish i didnt have desi parents

[open cape]

But now it's like halfway down my back again

[open cape]

I feel ya

[mild compass]

why cldnt i just be a princess in the 1800s sneaking out to see her forbidden lover

[open cape]

XD

That example tho

[mild compass]

but nooo i had to be a 21st century woman

i wish i was

[open cape]

Well everyone wishes so many things but sadly they can't happen

So rather try and be positive about everything u have

Just look at the brighter sides and the happy moments

Tbh I cannot wait for tmr..

[mild compass]

i get panicked and have mental breakdowns when i dont do my usual shit so

it's hard 4 me to be positive with change i didnt accept or want

[open cape]

I get it...

Same for me...

But I try to do it

And specially with the break up lately I'm literally coping with it like that keeping myself busy not thinking abt it..

[dusk thorn]

I feel like all i say makes me sound so rebellious and makes my parents sound lenient but they are NOOOOT

[mild compass]

i watch my comfort movie everyday to limit my breakdowns

[dusk thorn]

Anyway

[mild compass]

IM AFRAID OF MY PARENTS BRO

LIKE

IM SO FUCKING AFRAID OF THEM LMAO

MY DAD WOULD LITERALLY SLAP ME

[dusk thorn]

Oh yeah tell me about it

[open cape]

Same... -.

[dusk thorn]

Tbh as long as i stay in my lane they dont do anything really, not that i havent had my fair share of trauma from them

Plus yanno

Police is there

[mild compass]

my dad takes out his anger on us :/

and abuse is normal here-

[dusk thorn]

I can ruin their lives with one phone call

[mild compass]

so police wouldnt do jack shit abt it

[dusk thorn]

Same but to an extent the law is still there

At least where i live

[mild compass]

not here though

nigeria sucks for children

LIKE

ITS SO NORMAL

[dusk thorn]

I graduate this year so im gtfoing

[mild compass]

PEOPLE DOMT KNOW ITS ABUSE

[dusk thorn]

Yeahh

It's absolute shit :/

[mild compass]

like i didnt know it was verbal abuse till last year

and im 16 this year

[dusk thorn]

Oh gosh

God bless you

I found out pretty early but i was still surprised at the time

One day this awful generation of parents will die out

[mild compass]

hopefully

and i hope he agrees to me doing my foundation in ukraine

bc honestly i cant take one more year of staying here

i just read the entire history of z notes now i'm in awe

[open cape]

I hope he does ♥ I'm sure ull convince him

[mild compass]

thank you

[open cape]

Np ♥ I'm now bored asf and have no ideas what to draw..

[mild compass]

do you watch anime?

[unreal oak]

been there done that

gotten a lot of slaps back in the day

[open cape]

Tbh not really

[mild compass]

hm i was gonna say draw an anime character

[open cape]

I've tried a couple times tho lol with someone

[unreal oak]

ofc it helps that im twice their size now, and hitting me hurts them more than it does me

[open cape]

The thing is I'm doing this prompt thing

[mild compass]

sobs my dad is literally huge

[open cape]

And the prompt is first sight and I don't draw people or characters.

[mild compass]

oh

[open cape]

I'm more into

Nature, animals art type

[mild compass]

ah makes sense from your pfp

[open cape]

Yuppp

[dusk thorn]

how do i tell my dad that the led lightbulbs he put in this room are fugly

They're white

[open cape]

lol

[unreal oak]

saves power tho

[dusk thorn]

Nono i like leds

But these knes

Ones

Are PURE WHITE

AND I HATE THEM

[open cape]

rip

[wooden elm]

aren't most lightbulbs white?

wait is mine white?

ye

[wooden elm]

black lightbulbs ftw

oh wait thats just off

honestly i wish there was a bulb that absorbe dlight during the day

[unreal oak]

bruh why

natural light is nice

[wooden elm]

not when u wake up and you feel like ur in heaven

all u see is white

and burned eyes

[unreal oak]

cant relate, live in the UK

[wooden elm]

also would be pretty cool for pictures, you could specifically add/remove exposure in areas, instead of fucking around post edit

[wooden elm]

adfjadjf; lkasdlf;j

rains pretty cool

[unreal oak]

a day like that is so rare that when it happens im more grateful than annoyed

[wooden elm]

imagine missing every solar eclips that has existed

bri ish people don't imagine

F in the chat for @unreal oak

all cloudy

[unreal oak]

bro today is one of the best days in the past couple weeks

like its actually bright outside god bless

[wooden elm]

if u look outside, can u see the sun

if yes then it is bright

[unreal oak]

yes

it comes and goes, but yes

[rough holly]

wait its 8 degrees there

lucky

[unreal oak]

8 degrees in Jan is comfy ngl

it was -2 a few days ago

[rough holly]

cold weather is the best

27 over here

[wooden elm]

sad its 15 here

[unreal oak]

honestly cold weather with masks is annoying

[wooden elm]

don't stalk me pls

[unreal oak]

the fog on glasses freezes over

[wooden elm]

imagine wearing glasses

[unreal oak]

so there's this layer of frost and you cant see shit

[wooden elm]

just get contacts or wahtever people wear

[rough holly]

no glasses, masks and cold weather is the worst

[unreal oak]

but the mask did keep me a bit warmer

[rough holly]

i hate contacts

[unreal oak]

this time last year when i had to take the bus to college

my jaw would freeze off

[rough holly]

yo i had to walk to school at 6am

in england

at least you got a bus

[unreal oak]

its not door to door

walk 10 mins, bus 20 min

and then another 10-15 min walk

[rough holly]

bruh my school was about 2.5 miles

[wooden elm]

i wish i could go to school in a train

[unreal oak]

same distance for me

[wooden elm]

sounds a lot of fun

2.5m in km?

[rough holly]

no miles

[unreal oak]

he wanted conversion

[rough holly]

oh

whoopsies

[unreal oak]

but when you live anywhere in europe you get used to walking

pre covid i'd walk 5 kilometers a day easy all together

[rough holly]

walking in the snow is the best

[wooden elm]

oh 4km hmm

not bad

[rough holly]

nice i use to cycle like 8 miles

stupid covid

[cosmic ginkgo]

yoki is that parent saying back in the day...

[wooden elm]

ye i used to run to school about 8km

[rough holly]

but but but

hahah

[wooden elm]

she is a parent?

[rough holly]

bruh no

[unreal oak]

all fun and games until you walk into class smelling like a pig

[wooden elm]

no its cold u have a hard time sweating

also do pigs smell bad?

[rough holly]

bro idk

[cosmic ginkgo]

#chat-lounge ?

[rough holly]

pigs are haram

[unreal oak]

its a figure of speech

also yes #chat-lounge

[rough holly]

oh sowwue mushu

[unreal oak]

pigs are fine, eating them isnt

[spring mountain]

i was talking with a friend and she was telling me how she decided to take a levels over ib bc literally everyone said a levels was easier and that ib always has double the amount of work, and i always hear ib students complain more. and im not even done with my igces and grade 10 but im worried tbh. i cant even manage my time well for igcses, let alone for ib. my mom knows ib is hard but she thinks that bc my brother is able to do it, i shld be able to do it too. sigh. idk if i can do it.

[rough holly]

honestly i can’t do it anymore. It’s just a repeated cycle. get up study and sleep and sometimes i just don’t sleep i stay up all night to not be tired in the morning. The stress of stupid exams the uncertainty it’s just fucked me up

[lament cloud]

Lol same here

Whole of 2020 was horrible for my day schedule

[rough holly]

haha twinsies

the only way i can deal with my stress is to go kickbox or cry

[spark sonnet]

from what i heard ib is way more like, research based and essays and stuff?

its really good for critical thinking and improving your language and stuff

it can be a decent workload though

it wont hurt to try but dont feel forced to either

[naive skiff]

Wow turtle same

Ib and a levels give the same end results

Marks for uni

Ib gives you certain certificates due to projects and researchs which may help you in your application

Like deuce said research based

[granite inlet]

y'all i have absolutely no idea what anything is

I been leading up to GCSE exams (Not IGCSE) and then we moved country while i was still dumb brain, so while studying for an exam program i have no idea how to study for as its in another language, i recognized gcse and remembered that I did in fact study for that specific exam before

so A level, 9-1 grading and everything ANYTHING I simply do not know. do I go YT that?

[raw ermine]

man, if u had a choice between igcse and ib, u should go for what u think u can do. In the end it should be ur choice
I dont know if ib or igcse is harder but ib is getting more internationally accepted I think. However it depends where u want to study
Im sure even if u do ib ull be able to handle it, but mental health comes first so just talk to ur parents if they're convinced ib is better
again, it all goes back to the university u want to study in if they prefer ib or igcse

[wintry rampart]

well, my brother’s at it again. no wonder why I’m always perceived as the “bully” by my mother when he really is the bully

he literally had his own “flag ceremony” everyday to piss me off

and i kept telling him to “go play your ps3 instead of being too patriotic” and he resisted, which caused enough attention to get my mom out of her bed and threaten to institutionalize me

every day, i want to give justice. revenge. for all the things I have done to him (help him with his grades), he treats me like dirt

he barely acknowledges my contribution to his grades and still annoys me, which makes my mother mad every single time

I plan on secretly manipulating his grades

by misleading him when he needs help, as well as secretly telling his teachers that he is cheating in his tests

that way, I’ll believe that this relationship is “balanced”

if they tell me “treat people the way you want to be treated”, this is sometimes a lie.

what would happen when someone treats you like dirt even if you did something good for him, as well as respecting him

if that little shitter treats me like dirt, i’ll go on a more covert approach to do it to him

that’s what “an eye for an eye” is for, right?

[spring mountain]

@ everyone who replied to my message: yeah i see, thankss

[untold spear]

why is that there is just a week before exams and im just here like

🛌🏽

[rough holly]

I HATE FRICKING MATHS - I DONT CARE ABOUT THE AREA OF A TRIANGLE OR THE HYPOTENSTUYUSE OR HWOWVER YOU SPELL IT

k im good just had to say that

[naive skiff]

But but that's funnnnnn

[rough holly]

ikik buts it’s stupid

i like suckatoea

but it’s so annoying

[raw ermine]

mood

[wooden elm]

i can see waffles cringe

[wooden elm]

u can suck my toe 😄

that should make it worse for him

ay

[rough holly]

bruh

him ?!?!!?

that makes it wayyy worse

[open cape]

lol

[violet lantern]

@wintry rampart justice is the law, revenge is trespassing the limits set by the law

for personal vengeance

if you're stuck in a dysfunctional family, i'm sorry for you. get intervention from sensible people who can stop the unfairness, or escape. revenge is not justified

[raw ermine]

Y DO I KEEP SPILLINHG MY COFFEE IN THE MIDDLE OF CLASS DAMNIT

thank you for listening to my motivational Ted Talk

[naive skiff]

buy the anti spill cup

[raw ermine]

ye good idea

[wise sun]

Venting or something idk i don't play Among us

[rough holly]

among us is dead

[wise sun]

I wish i was among us

[finite flower]

i wish i was gta 6

[rough holly]

i wish i was dead

[wise sun]

Proceeds to return back to egg and sperm

[spark sonnet]

now this is funny

[wise sun]

I did a funny lauf now

[pallid kayak]

Tjrhhrhrbrhrvehevrje rje

https://tenor.com/view/nick-young-question-marks-what-excuse-me-huh-gif-4486363

[wooden elm]

someone star this and it goes to teh board

[rough holly]

it is lmao

[mild compass]

Hello, I have a serious problem.

Idk If I should really start taking notes considering Im going to write Feb March 2022. Note Making isnt my type of thing. I prefer doing Most of my learning+Understanding in class and Reading The Textbook a few times + Critical thinking etc I get very good marks. Rn I have my Finals and Im not sure what to do. Help Please

[raw ermine]

@mild compass Ig a lot of people would tell you to write notes
however, everyone has their own way of learning and u should just do what you feel will let you study better and easier, especially if u do get good marks
Although writing down does help ur memory, so u can just write down things that you struggle at or you find tough because is does help things stick
otherwise, notes or no notes, you should decide what's best for you

[mild compass]

@raw ermine Thank You!

[spark sonnet]

hello, writing notes is not a necessity my dear! for example for some subjects i don't write notes, i solve questions - especially the basic ones - and sharpen my skills with those. no need to worry

[amber otter]

how did ppl in the middle ages managed to survive the plague?

like with only a limited understanding of science?

jeez thats kinda amazing

surviving is both dumb and meaningful

it's dumb cuz we're mortals that aren't going to amount to anything in the scale of the universe

yet meaningful cuz the possibility of life is just so small

like jesus how did a rock in space ended up in the Goldilocks' zone, with the moon aligned precisely so that eclipses can occur and stuff

with magnetic fields only possible with the tilt (i believe) that had deflected like a giant solar burst millions of years ago r sth

[spring mountain]

u guys turns out i learnt a chapter which is not coming in the exam. smh. i dont feel like doing anything anymore.

[rough holly]

ig this kind of goes here

[inner plinth]

So I am having May/June exams and my school is quite late in maths, we still have 2 whole units and after a month and 15 days we will be having our mocks, I have no idea what to do

[raw ermine]

damn
well, I think u rlly shouldnt depend on the teacher

[inner plinth]

Yea I am doing that, thing is, you guys have any good y'k good channels or websites

?

[raw ermine]

did u go to #roles ?

[inner plinth]

I just entered-

[raw ermine]

yh
react to the the subjects to take (with their emojis)

[inner plinth]

Yep now?

[raw ermine]

yh now the subject's channels will pop up

just checked the pinned messages ull find a lot of useful stuff there

oooo u have igcse too?

[inner plinth]

Yea

You too?

[raw ermine]

yup
which grade are you?

[inner plinth]

Grade 10

[spark sonnet]

you should feel like a chad for doing extra, keep your chin up queen

[raw ermine]

ah
im grade 9 lol
oh well, as i said ull find everything useful in the pinned messages of the channels u entered

[spark sonnet]

yep

there's a website too @inner plinth

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[spark sonnet]

oh whoops

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[hidden fox]

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[spark sonnet]

where you go

website has notes and stuff as well as cards and a resource bank

the resource bank contains videos, pdfs, et cetera

[inner plinth]

Oh alright then, thanks! I really hope I dont fail my math exam ;-;

[spark sonnet]

about topics in each chapter

[inner plinth]

I will check it out

[spark sonnet]

you won't, keep your head up

ping me if you need help

[inner plinth]

Alright, thanks for the help!

[raw ermine]

good luck with exam!

[inner plinth]

You too :D

[spark sonnet]

no worries man

[spring mountain]

thanks

[spark sonnet]

no worries hun, just the truth

stay strong!! cant wait to see you ace your shit @spring mountain

[mild compass]

lolol my dad is making me stay in nigeria and i want to jump off a cliff. i hate it here

[mild compass]

For science stuff go to

Free science lessons

https://youtube.com/c/Freesciencelessons

[mild compass]

You live in nigeria?

[open cape]

aw...hes not letting u go..?

[mild compass]

tea

[mild compass]

nope

[mild compass]

wat

i meant yea oops

Oh lol

i feel better after sleeping

[open cape]

oh..;-;

[mild compass]

:(

[raw ermine]

I spilled my coffee again : (

[rough holly]

oh no

sad life

[raw ermine]

ye y do I always spill it : (

[rough holly]

me who doesnt like coffee

[raw ermine]

https://tenor.com/view/-gif-3784246

[rough holly]

ahah

[keen kestrel]

leave server

[raw ermine]

6w9 is overstressed (u can tell from the pfp)

[rough holly]

ayo

nah it would be dead without me

[spark sonnet]

bruh what is his problem????

[mild compass]

idk but he wont even agree to change my school

[raw ermine]

damn

[mild compass]

ikr

[keen kestrel]

I thought Nigeria was a nice place

[rough holly]

it is shes is reffering to her dad/school

[raw ermine]

that's just sad, can I ask y he is so persistent on that tho?

[mild compass]

Nigeria isn't nice he just wants me to do a levels and i'm fine with that but i wish he'd let me switch schools or something

[rough holly]

what other options are there - if you do not take alevels

[spark sonnet]

im sure you can try reason, suggest its a better education?

[mild compass]

i want to do a levels i'm not bothered abt that it's the school and he wont listen-

[spark sonnet]

jeez

at all?

is your mum in the picture?

[mild compass]

my mum always listens to my dad

love struck

[open cape]

feel u

[mild compass]

i'll manage it's ok

[open cape]

hugss* i hope u feel better ❤️

[mild compass]

thank you bro

[barren venture]

i saw

this channel

and now

here i go

wth is wrong with cie like for ffs cant they just anounce early if there are igs happening or not like aaaaaaaaahhhhhhh i have my mocks from 21st and these guys sayin they announce on 22nd like kill meeeeee

[kindred stone]

Yakki arbab

Just tell them take exams

They will listen arbab

[rough holly]

theyll listen to a desi mother

[barren venture]

bruh i want exams my maths pre mock was like bad and i need A in math for AS so i just want them to say this one thing wil there be or not

[kindred stone]

I need to change my sense of time

Some help

[spark sonnet]

?

[kindred stone]

Nvm

[mild compass]

consistency keeps me calm (movies, what I eat etc) considering my mental health rn and the food I normally eat isn't there and I'm panicking

[spark sonnet]

hey i hope you're okay :( can you go out to buy something? or can you make smth else that you like?

[mild compass]

I'll be okay thank you though :)

[spark sonnet]

take care <3333

toast and butter always makes me feel good owo

[mild compass]

you're adorable ty

[untold spear]

how to study while dealing with tough personal problems

[raw ermine]

stable ur mental health then study

[untold spear]

no time

[spark sonnet]

try watching something comforting (like an old movie from your childhood that you're familiar with) and try your best to put aside what's going on. some good constant music can help

[violet lantern]

@untold spear https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kotWv4MCxNI

[tawdry star]

😂 😂 😂

[untold spear]

wat

[untold spear]

ill try that

[untold spear]

and thanks that cheered me up a bit

ty all

[wintry rampart]

"In Soviet Russia, Ostrich chases cyclist"

[mild compass]

a guy in our class is getting a gaming pc and a ps5
and he got a iphone 11 pro for his birthday
reminder im in grade 9
all of that stuff together is 16,000 qr
and a good gaming pc here is 7000 if you build it urself or 12,000 if prebuilt
so yeah
16,000 qr is like $5000

hes a really lazy guy so bet hes building it himself

so lets say 10K + 5K (for the iphone) + 4K (for the ps5 which is the price here )
19K
$5200

[barren venture]

Damn

[mild compass]

I saw a qatari 10 or 11 yo in the hospital today with a iphone 11

but the guy in our class

hes pakistani-indian

which makes it worse

[craggy stag]

I mean its his parent's wish

[mild compass]

just spoilt

¯_(ツ)_/¯

[kindred stone]

Agreed

[keen kestrel]

Me knowing imma get a C or D in my Jan bio exam

Results in 18 days lmao

[rough holly]

shut up

you can’t do anything about it now

[tawdry star]

^

[rough holly]

i kind of sounded rude but all you can do is learn from what happened. Absolutely no point is worrying about something you can’t change

[tawdry star]

Thiss 💯

[kindred stone]

Yeah

I stand by it as well

[keen kestrel]

nice i just got bullied

[rough holly]

ayo how

mf i’m trying to help 🙄

[kindred stone]

Urbeirbrrne8ebejee7eue

I wanna vent everywhere

On how oc doesn't feel like school

Forced to take a board against my will due to corona

Didn't register most of the topics in a long term memory or at least grasp it like i do

No social interactions (physically) to just forget bout stuff

And now going to 12th grade like this means death

[violet lantern]

I usually don't like sharing my problems here but hell am i having one heck of a rough day

not in a school anymore, been studying with fraud tutors for a year and changed half a dozen of them, some of which who don't even know the A level specification

the last man i was studying with seemed like he had narcissistic personality disorder. been a trouble for half a year but we had to keep up with him because we couldn't find anyone better

man threw my books today and threw a damn narcissistic rage tantrum when my mother was bringing up one of my queries

thinking that his "teacher prowess" was being brought into question

i have no father so i am the man of the house

had to get him out

he was yelling at me and my mother

he has taken the fee in advance, equivalent of about $63 is with him for the remaining classes

it's been hell trying to get someone involved to get it back

says he'll return it tomorrow but gave no time when he left fighting

finish your A levels in good schools guys.

there are child protection policies there, qualified and decent teachers

[mild compass]

@violet lantern hey, I have an online tution here in India, where they actually teach great, and I have increased from an F to an A, in IGCSEs, and its been wonderful, we even have a huge community of us students where there are various opndays, events and all.. if you're interested, you can ping me 🙂

[woven lark]

@violet lantern I'm so sorry to hear that :(
Its so hard to find decent people these days

Everything revolves around money

[rough holly]

@violet lantern I’m so sorrry I have many notes and good websites if you need anything to help@

[violet lantern]

i've slept only two hours today

but i can't feel it because my flight and flight response is still on going

mother was super stressed because our money for the home already ran out, we're already on loans, and this guy was scamming us off more

get this message in the morning after 22 hours of no response. this guy said he would return us our money

we ask our male neighbor

he chickens out when trying to call him, soothes that man's narcissistic ego so he agrees to return the money

that man arrives at our apartment gates in his car and starts spamming calls on my mother

my mother was agreeing with our neighbors submissive strategy, she makes terrible decisions on her own in these situations and i have to wing it and fix the mess ups at the last moment

she was making me hurry and being condescending to me, i told her to stay away from that man, i'll receive the money on my own

i go down and don't find him standing at the gates

he was in a car which i was unable to verify till my mother came down and told me from the side that it's him, that he's arguing with her over where i am to receive the cash; that why i am i not coming on the road to receive the money.

i go

i take the cash

he makes me pull down my mask and made me proclaim that i have received 10,000

while he was recording

he drives off

my mom being mentally ill as she is, going yaay, "at least he didn't record me as i am a woman, it would have been bad. he recorded the kid."

i had a long talk with her on this

she apologizes for the nth time

promising never to do it again

[kindred stone]

That's really sad man

Really sorry to hear that

Try getting rest first man

You cant think without a proper sleep

[rough holly]

i’m so sorry this is happening

yeah i agree with waffles

[kindred stone]

Id you want i can try helping you out after my exams are over

If*

[raw ermine]

oh my God, im so sorry all that is happening to you and ur mom

it's heartbreaking, and I pray that things get better for u

[spring mountain]

heyy guys

[raw ermine]

hi blob : )

[tepid delta]

Ug

Uh

So this feels weird

[woven lark]

oh gosh

[rough holly]

hi blob?

[woven lark]

thats wow. im so sorry @violet lantern . If theres anything i can do at all pls hmu

[rough holly]

We are all here to help you . With absolutely anything

I have many notes i can send to you

[woven lark]

I havent been in a situation anything near to as yours, but i know when i need to do some stuff, and its quite overwhelming, i take a deep breath, play some music, and jot everything down on a list.

try to keep my mind off other the tough stuff, and focus at the task at hand by doing one thing at a time. then once thats done, you can start thinking about the next, and next and so on.

[wintry rampart]

man my isp's a piece of narcissistic crap

[woven lark]

isp.. internet service provider pops ip into mind but i dont think its that

[wintry rampart]

disconnected during a league game and all of a sudden, i couldn't stop myself from raging, blaming why they spend more time getting their names mentioned by celebrities rather than investing their earnings on ways to improve their services (e.g. buying communications towers and performing regular server maintenance)

this made my mom belittle me more, telling me that my "opinions are truly useless" and rambles on why i would suffer as a person who prefers to listen other than talk

she keeps rambling on why she ignores me, even when i try talking to her about things other than academics (such as games and the internet)

yet, i act as an enraged activist, spamming complaints on said ISP's Facebook page and yet, these muppets forget about my existence and thousands of others' angry complaints about why their internet is as broken as a child's toy

i feel like I would want to come in their head office, with a bag filled with screenshots of thousands of complaints made on social media and dump it on the complaint handling department, and leave.

hope that company gets shut down by the Philippine government, as the president, Duterte warned them already to improve their connections, yet, no improvements at all came.

if you're asking, the company i'm ranting about is Globe "My name got mentioned by Blackpink" Telecommunications.

[wintry rampart]

typical corporate activity. negligent people unless you quote "money" in your complaints against them

[woven lark]

ah damn I was right

Well, I could only say the same about my ISP too

SO trash

[wintry rampart]

yet, they never listen, even when the government straight up threatens to shut down said company

[wintry rampart]

Globe Telecommunications prefers partnering with global celebrities to advertise their broken bitcoin-esque payment system that's as invulnerable as a poorly developed mobile game

what i mean by "invulnerable as a poorly developed mobile game" is the equivalent of letting scammers roam the platform and get people's money

[woven lark]

wow, change ISP dude

[rough holly]

dentists eww

[woven lark]

omg yes

i go there often cause of "condition"

[haughty ibex]

@violet lantern what subjects do u take? We all can help you and I’m so sorry for what you’re going through

[violet lantern]

my left arm went numb after i sent those messages yesterday and i got a sudden burst of weakness with shaky limbs, flashes when i move my eyes to look around. i had to force myself to lie down for a few hours.

i had eaten less than 500 calories the day before. no dinner because of all the havoc in the home, my mother was making phone calls to some powerful people she knows so security/law could be involved, yet all in vain.

i've had various illnesses, nutritional deficiencies and weight loss for the last 1.5 years, last time something like this happened was in august. usually peaks up in times of stress.

this is why i couldn't respond to any of the kind messages i received

[haughty ibex]

No worries m8

Im just glad youre okay

[shut moon]

Goddamn man

[haughty ibex]

And if you need any sort of help theres a whole community here just waiting to support you

[shut moon]

I'm in

[haughty ibex]

All you gotta do is say the word

[shut moon]

Yup

[haughty ibex]

I read through your texts and honestly i cant imagine what you mustve been through i got literal goosebumps reading it

But i like to believe everyone has a certain amount of good and bad in their lives, yours just happened to pile on at one time...but that means that better timss are just around thr corned

Im sure things will sort out for you and your family even tho it may be in the way you least expect it to be

[shut moon]

Just get as much sleep as you can man

[unreal oak]

shit what did the dude do

the automod banned him for pinging too many people

[shut moon]

Wtf

[unreal oak]

what did he send

the automod went on him

[shut moon]

He was just venting

[unreal oak]

one sec lemme check the logs

[shut moon]

He didn't even cuss or anything

[shut moon]

Yeah

[unreal oak]

checked it out, it gets a pass

ive unbanned him

[shut moon]

Nice thanks

Someone should ping him to tell him he's unbanned ig

[unreal oak]

ive DMed him

[shut moon]

Nice

[haughty ibex]

@violet lantern

[violet lantern]

just wanted to say thank you in the message that got removed, unfortunately not allowed to ping everyone. i don't think that calling out the wrongdoing falls short of actually intervening.

it's easy to fall into the trap of thinking that this is normal or that we deserve it, that guy tried to throw shade at us till the last moment saying that he gave a discount on his fee this entire time. my mother always tried to appease him so he wouldn't act up so much.

revisiting these reassuring words really means a lot

he tried to act like he's this big professor, his bubble was popped after we contacted my previous chemistry teacher while i was still in school. he's a gem of a human being and is giving me his recorded lectures for free so that i can still make it. he says he will take action on this incident.

this guy was a physics teacher, fortunately my previous chemistry teacher has a brother teaching physics in the same school, they are agreeing to help me out in the remaining half of A2 physics

[lament cloud]

thats great

hope these guys help you achieve the knowledge you truly deserve

[violet lantern]

yep thank you

[shut moon]

Ah that's great

[rough holly]

that’s really good!

[woven lark]

great to hear buddy, keep on going!

[crystal prawn]

My dad said the F-word to me for the first time and I’m traumatised and I think if he says it again I will get PTSD

[raw ermine]

That's messed up....he's that mad? ;-;

and uhhh

I ditched all my friends since 7th grade and blocked them for the 87287937 time but i dont want to unblock them this time idk y but I feel weird now

help ._.

[spark sonnet]

go with your gut

do what makes you comfortable

do not accommodate to anybody but yourself and those who actually deserve it

[mild compass]

So what is this channel for?

I am generally confused

[rough holly]

venting

[mild compass]

What is venting kekw

I only know the venting in among us 🤣

[finite flower]

You matter

[rough holly]

we are so helpful i swear

[mild compass]

...

I know I matter but what I talk about here 🤣

just personal stuffs?

Or like what

[finite flower]

Thanos df venting

[last estuary]

venting: 1. [Blowing off] steam; done when really angry or stressed.

2. The condition when you're really gassy and fart constantly over a sustained amount of time. [Liken] to if your butt was an [air vent] and gas was constantly being blown out.
   *1. [Look out] for Steve. His face is red and he's venting.

3. Don't go in [John's] office right now. He's sitting there venting and [stinking] up the place.*
   (http://venting.urbanup.com/1362180) 9 more results

[kindred stone]

The second defo...

[spark sonnet]

lmao

[kindred stone]

@olive island here

[olive island]

Hey

[kindred stone]

Going to be honest not having lots of friends is a good thing for me,since they're less of a distraction during these exams times.I can't say anything about your parents so I'll leave it at that.If you fix a small timetable and practice past papers or so you'll get some confidence

sometimes solve them with your friends, I've done that and it helped me a lot, but that only depends on the types of friends you have

[olive island]

My paper is tomorrow

[kindred stone]

yea i read in caht lounge

so instead of sulking

study

try getting more and more familiar

[olive island]

I m. I m on a break for a few minutes

[kindred stone]

ah okay

[half apex]

which exam is tomorrow?

[olive island]

A2 Chem p4 and math p3

[half apex]

atbb hope you do well:)

[kindred stone]

Gl

don't sweat it

just study calmly and normally

more you stress or think a lot about it

more you're going to be a wreck

get some snacks

[olive island]

Thank you

[kindred stone]

they're amazing while you're studying

[olive island]

Yup thanks @kindred stone

[kindred stone]

Mhm Good luck for your papers

[olive island]

Thank youuuu

[wintry rampart]

that little troublemaker's up at it again.

he's made my mom yell at me and threaten to abandon me with the little shitter

i've managed to ignore him for hours a day, but there is actually a bigger cost, which is that of his tendencies to copy whatever i say (this is now how he makes fun of me) would be as frequent as at least once per ten minutes

i've also noticed that he would begin to develop attention seeking behaviors (grunting or growling as I tell him to stop) that would get me in more trouble and not him... i need to find a way to stop this from worsening... even if it costs my mental health (tolerance and rage)

imagine having a 10 year old sibling who is 100 times more attention seeking than an ordinary 10 year old, to a point where you are ready to beat him for not stopping with your 100,000 warnings given to him

[wintry rampart]

what i meant is that he is further trying his very best to make fun of me, often getting me into trouble. i probably need more advice in order to make sure that we do not get in trouble, while improving our relationship as brothers

there is no way i'm intending on "controlling" his life, I just want to help him become a better being

I'm already understanding that he just wants my attention, but it's too often to call it "attention seeking"

[spring mountain]

hi guys. so i have boards on april, which are basically exams that follow the same syllabus as igcse. my friends who have both the boards and igcse past papers told me that the paper 1 of boards is basically questions from old igcse past papers, but they said paper 2 is harder and its not from the igcse past papers. i have a month left for revision and idk wtf i was doing on dec jan feb. i was alrdy panicking from december but idk why i still didnt study effectively. online school has been tough for me, like actually really tough and not just boring. everyone has been telling me that i shldve studied at least 3 months before the exams, but now i have a month left. i dont know what to do anymore.

my sleep schedule is so fucked which is why im sick rn and feel like shit. my mental health has been shit lately but i cant waste anymore time.

idk why on the days that i did feel alright, i just honestly dont know what to fucking do anymore. i used to be able to study last minute and still pull it off but now that im sick idk what to do anymore

i rlly rlly had a lot of time and i blame a lot of this on myself.

i wld be in such a better position rn if i

omg pls. i just dont feel like existing for the time being

ive tried everything, took meds, got sleep, but now its too late bc my health has deteriorated.

[minor widget]

@spring mountain dude. health is first priority

fuck exams.. whats their point if u dont hv a good lifestyle?

look, i hv a similar issue going on, 5 hrs of sleep since a while now, just dont get stressed/panic. trust me

[shut moon]

Honestly it's better if you withdraw because you're sick, and then you'll have time to get better

[shut moon]

I sorta get it in the sense that online classes have been shit because it just gives the teachers more reason to further half-ass their teaching

[shut moon]

Exactly

Take care of your health first then you'll be able to figure it out

[mild compass]

Painkillers are good for pain

[mild compass]

dude, even if youve failed your igcses in may/june, you could retake them in oct/nov

until then, you'd focus more on studying rather than regret

dw, i got in the same situation too

i got demotivated to study during quarantine

and like

most universities dont usually care about ur igcses

they do for AS and AL

you can use ur experience to better ur time management for the more important stuff

[spring mountain]

hey. thanks for making me feel better guys. rn im more concerned with my boards, bc unfortunately, if i fail it, im not passing 10th grade and i cant imagine that happening. aft taking rest, im still so dizzy and i cant think straight, but at least im not throwing up everytime i eat anymore.

[spark sonnet]

@spring mountain you have an entire MONTH to study. you're gonna be okay! you can do this.

you seriously need to let yourself relax, okay?

2 days regeneration

[spring mountain]

i really want to, but rn im not feeling any better. idk wht to do anymore omg. i think i might have covid since im experiencing some of the symptoms, im not too sure though. i still have pending assignments that i have to complete and i feel like total shit. my head hurts like crazy, im tyring to do them rn but i rlly cant and idk what to fucking do anymore. i took medicine, got the most sleep that ive ever gotten this whole time, and im still notfeeling better. i know yall cant do anything, im just venting bc im so so tired. even when i talk to someone, they cant help in any way and im just disturbing them and everyones so busy and things arent going well rn. i rlly dont feel like existing rn, pls.

[mild compass]

well this goes to show why i only have 3 friends, so earlier today i noticed i was blocked by this guy, so basically me and my friends had cancelled him for being a pedo on a quiz website, but we all forgave each other and took down the callouts and bans, i became friends with said person till they referred to hinduism as a bad thing which I obviously got mad at, later on we discussed and apologized to eachother and were fine then he goes and blocks me, then talks ahit about me to my best friend jndjf LIKE WHAT he's the 20 year old who sent suggestive images to a gc of around 20 minors under 16 not me 😭

[mild compass]

anyway I panicked and deleted all my dms and am having a mental breakdown bc of school 👍

[wise sun]

Just stop giving af about the said person

If he wants to be a nonce then just report it to a teacher if you feel uncomfortable

[spark sonnet]

you sound really overwhelmed sweetheart, please do your best to wind down, okay? you need to get some rest and make sure you're eating good. a few missing assignments wont kill, try doing as many as you can but if you miss a couple dw about it. try asking for extensions if need be and say that you're ill or something, or you have been ill

[spark sonnet]

girl literally block him

aint nobody got time for that shit

like

[wise sun]

Facts

[spark sonnet]

imagine wasting your precious energy on some... guy?

these days i literally cannot give a single fuck, if you annoy me i will straight up block you both virtually and face to face

just don't bother zoia babe, not worth ur time

[mild compass]

THING IS IT'S GROUP DRAMA

[spark sonnet]

OK?

BLOCK THE WHOLE GROUP?

AINT NOBODY GOT TIME FOR THAT!!

[kindred stone]

Dont use social media easy

[spark sonnet]

lmao

[kindred stone]

Besides discord i have no media

[spark sonnet]

also hi waffles

[kindred stone]

Hello

[finite flower]

same

[mild compass]

i hve socials for no reason at all im not even on most except disc and ig

[tawdry star]

Delete the apps

You'll forget them

[mild compass]

i nvr use them 😭 im only on ig and disc

[tawdry star]

Okay then delete the accnts

[mild compass]

👁️ why

[wise sun]

So you don't use them

[mild compass]

i-

[rough holly]

zoia study you have ur exams this week

smh

[woven lark]

DELETE

[mild compass]

yoki...my exams were last week

theyre over

[rough holly]

oh

nvm hehe

only 1 week of exams ?!!?!

[woven lark]

wish it was me

[mild compass]

pos rant BRUH I FOUND THE THING I NEED MOST IN MY LIFE IT'S THIS https://www.swarovski.com/en-KR/p-5492687/Batman/ A 2 MILLION NAIRA CRYSTALLINE BATMAN FIGURE YGS HAVE NO IDEA HOW OBSESSED WITH BATMAN AND DC I AM I CANT BREATHE I CANT LIVE I NEED THIS SO BAD OR I'LL DIE

[tawdry star]

Damnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn

[rough holly]

my birthday is in like 8 months hint hint

[mild compass]

get me the batman fugure

its

only

2million

naira

hehheheheh

dc is my everything

anyway im up 4 getting marvel figures 2

but i have 2 much marvel merch and v little dc

[tawdry star]

Yes 😭

[mild compass]

I JUST WATCHED

wonder woman bloodlines

again

[tawdry star]

HEHE

Have you read new 52 WW?

[mild compass]

not yet

[lament cloud]

What's currency is the website showing it in

[tawdry star]

wdym?

[lament cloud]

What's currency has that symbol

[open cape]

Korean won

lol

[olive island]

Does anyone have Netflix/prime suggestions please

[tawdry star]

What are you interested in?

Let's take this to #movies-and-tv

[olive island]

Sorry didn’t know there was such a channel

I can’t find the channel

[tawdry star]

Head to #roles to pickup the role

You should be able to see it

I gave it to ya nvm

Head to #movies-and-tv

[olive island]

Got it thanks

[mild compass]

that currency was south korean won btw

[lament cloud]

Im soo happy

My exams are essentially done

Just 2 mcqs a week from now

[mild compass]

POS RANT idk wht to ask for my birthday anymore im dying help someone

[spark sonnet]

instrument

guitar

new device e.g. ipad+pencil, tablet, tablet-laptop

nintendo switch

hobby based like art supplies (oil paint, gouache, chalk, pastels, markers)

or a moleskine notebook

a new piece of furniture (armchair, coffee table, cute lamp)

[tawdry star]

Breathe 😂

[tawdry star]

Do you read comics?

[spark sonnet]

i am typing sir

[tawdry star]

You can still staph breathing ma'am

[spark sonnet]

finna make you stop breathing in a hot second boy

[mild compass]

OK SEE

[unreal oak]

i cant tell what that's supposed to mean

like genuinely

[mild compass]

THREE THING, wonder woman bracelet, rings that remind me of my best friend OR CRYSTALLINE BATMAN FIGURE

WHAT DO I DO

[tawdry star]

Is the later affordable? 😂

[mild compass]

yes

[tawdry star]

Jesus-

I can't pick bw WW and Batman

😭

[mild compass]

ME NEITHER

AND MY BEST FRIEND

[tawdry star]

YA

WW THEN

BRUCE WAYNE CAN REST FOR A BIT

[mild compass]

YRAH BRUCE WAYNE IS A RICH WHITE MAN WHO CAN LOWER CRIMA RATES

BY FIVING MONEY

wonder woman on the other hand

before i die i'm tryna fuck her baby

[spark sonnet]

it is a death threat

[tawdry star]

Bruv 😂

[tawdry star]

No he's not capable of that

[spark sonnet]

figure is more decorative, bracelet is smth that can be worn

so

[tawdry star]

^

[kindred stone]

Better yet

Calm down

[spark sonnet]

huh

[mild compass]

both r expensive as fuck

HMMM

[spark sonnet]

a gift is a gift ma'am

[mild compass]

wonder woman or batman

🤔

[tawdry star]

WW

[kindred stone]

Ik dc has au’s or so

Get a figurinewith their kid

[spark sonnet]

hungy

[tawdry star]

Au?

[tawdry star]

Bruh shutup no

[kindred stone]

Alternate universes

[tawdry star]

There are too many timelines

Yeah, which one is the question nao 😂

[kindred stone]

But that’s what I like

Au

[mild compass]

didnt

[tawdry star]

Yeah yeah ik, but like nah

[mild compass]

batman have a kid with catwoman in the bronze age

[tawdry star]

Yeapp

[kindred stone]

Yeah but that’s fine

[tawdry star]

Tali Al Ghul, Vicky Vale etc

[mild compass]

poison ivy do be kinda hot doe

lena luthor played by katie mcgrath is the best thing cw has done for me

[wise sun]

Fuck my school is so shit it makes me want to literally kms

Bruh they should make a phd course befor parents chose to have kids

[tawdry star]

:/

[spark sonnet]

agreed

[proven pond]

follow your dreams

[slow wharf]

i ...... i don’t know how to “dream”

how does that work

[proven pond]

do what ever you want to do
if you don't want to do anything then do that

[proven pond]

if you're like this person then brrr

[kindred stone]

What if you can't follow them

[slow wharf]

but ...... but what if my “dreams” turn out , to not be my actual dreams and i am not sure if i want to continue following them.

There are alot of what ifs

How do i get rid of those as well

[proven pond]

coward

just like me🥲

[spark sonnet]

life is not a brick, think of it as clay

clay can be shaped with water and tools

you can get more clay from people and places

or you stick with what you have

you bake your clay sculptures, and you can make more

nothing is permanent

[tawdry star]

"Be Water, My Friend.
Empty your mind.
Be formless, shapeless, like water.
You put water into a cup, it becomes the cup.
You put water into a bottle, it becomes the bottle.
You put it into a teapot, it becomes the teapot.
Now water can flow or it can crash.
Be water, my friend." - Bruce Lee

[spark sonnet]

pop off

[dull pulsar]

the yt addiction is real😔

[wise sun]

?

[slow wharf]

O H

These are really mind opening words

Thank you guys

[proven pond]

?

[wooden elm]

If I am right, what you mean is you don't want to spend time in something you think you may enjoy, but halfway through you realize it isn't what you want

If my assumption is correct, then I would suggest thinking about what you want to invest time in, and if your evaluation is not correct in the future, just hop off

like other people here said, a lot of skills are transferable, and if you don't enjoy something you can just hop off and start somethign else that you may enjoy, and chances are you might have a headstart already

For example I am a connoisseur of true oppai, but sometime in the future if i think that oppai is only a pale immitation of ass cheeks, both are made of flesh, and my expertise might help in that s well

[amber otter]

Wise words oppaiconnoisseur

[fossil dew]

I cannot focus on my studying anymore

My country has fallen back to military regime. People are doing CDM and protesting on streets. Police and soldiers are shooting everyone on sight.

Today, we have 23 deaths across the country including 4 ppl where I live.

I'm emotionally burnout to text even more

[mild compass]

I have a fucking divorce going on in my family, my parents are yelling at each other for money, my mums coming and begging me for my money that I fucking saved, and earned, its my true hard earned money, my mum has actually been stealing from my stash, and like my teachers are yelling at me cuz of studies, and Im creating music but noone is there to help me creatively, and also, losing all my tracks, cuz I forgot to save it.. and plus, everyones worried about my boards, ik ppl might say they should be worried, but that thing itself, worried for me, worried for my life, worried for my boards, i dont want ppl to be worried for me, that stresses me out and literally makes me do bad in my exams.. everyone wants to help me in some way, but what if I need help.. what if I want to sustain on my own.. nobody wants to hear that, they want to gimme so called help on a tray, but thats just not help, just sympathising my case and I hate it.. also, my psychologist thinks im delving into dark thoughts.. I am, and cuz of this hateful world.. I hate it.. I dont wanna live in such a harsh mind and place where everyone are woried for me and what ill do, cant they just let me figure it out? They being worried is the sole reason Im hiding stuff from them, my parents know shit happens in my life, and they will never know.. and they want to change that, but how do they do it? they invade my privacy, and rn I only have my laptop, which is literally my whole life, i cant live without it, cuz I have my university application essays, my internships, my school, and everything, especially my music.. and they want to take that also away, I hate them, my parents are cruel

[wooden elm]

There is a lot here

But about the stash part, you could maybe threaten to report it, that should get her to return

And if you are stressing over people worrying about you, just keep in mind that you are not responsible fo rit

Also I can see why you want to sustain on your own, you don't want to rely on your parents do you?

Good luck with that, I have the same issue and I haven't come up with any solution other than do so for a couple of years

I will try building some experience, and maybe potentially get a decent job right out of school, ill be 18 then so I can stay on my own I guess

Another thing, hiding stuff is not necessarily the best way to solve it, there might be cases where people can legitimately help you out with circumstances, you just have to be very careful with how you approach it and try to make clear that you do not want their pity (for a lack of a better word)

But yeah I wish you the best of luck

[mild compass]

Thank you.. that actually helps, I'll try keeping these in mind, but one more things irritating me is that my mum doesnt want me getting involved in internships, thinking that they're fake and they're scams, and itll in the end just be some creepy ass guy asking for sexual favours, like wtf, sorry, but PUMA HAD ASKED ME TO VISIT THEIR SHOWROOM AND FILL OUT A FORM AT THEIR OFFICE

and that doesnt qualify

[azure gorge]

i know shits going down and it feels like you cant escape or get a breath of fresh air and i understand this may be a lot to ask of you or maybe just sound insane or insensitive but dont purposely crash and burn or sabotage your own exams because eventually theyll be the only thing that can help you escape and get the breath of fresh air you want... again you may already know this and its of no use me telling you, but maybe you needed a reminder. im just a random person part of a 7 billion population so you probably dont care but eh shit gets better and its that hope that will help you carry on. it helped me atleast.

and it seems like accomplishment is the only thing that can scratch that itch youre yearning for

[azure gorge]

dont sacrifice what you have just cause your mum tells you not to. parents know whats best for their kids but they need to be in a stable position themselves and sometimes you know best for yourself. this is one of those times

[azure gorge]

i cant say i know how it is or give you advice all i can say is you can text me if you need me

i cant focus anymore and my terms are only a couple days away the art of focus is eluding me and i cant study. the devil is tempting me and i take him up on his offer. what do i do. what do you do when you need to study. my friends and i cant believe im saying this but they enjoy studying (no hate) i just dont understand how to study. i did well one review and now its my terms i cant do well

also is it weird that im more open with strangers then i am with actual people i know

[olive island]

Well that’s with most of us don’t worry

Even I m more open to star bangers because we don’t care who thinks what cause you’re never probably gonna meet them or talk much

U don’t hv the fear to b judged

But when u r around ppl u know u worry and second guess EVERY FUCKING THING

[azure gorge]

i swear

[spring mountain]

igcses got canceled here but my school is still trying to get permission from the govt to hold the other exam board, which is not igcse but is similar to igcse. im so stressed abt these exams because not only do i NOT have a choice in choosing the subjects, which means around 10-12 subjects, i just dont hve enough time left anymore. also, i have ib personal project due on 20th. so my midterms start on 15th march and my personal project is due on 20th. and these midterms are going to be used as predicted grades if my boards does not happen. i feel like kms bc i havent started studying, i literally dont know where to start, how to revise now that theres two weeks left, when i can do my personal project, and my sleep schedule is still shit, i still have missing assignments, i hvent touched my textbooks throughout quarantine, and i know now that at this point, i jsut have to accept my fate.

the only thing that ive done today is cry when i have to study

yall pls i swear im at my limit

[tepid kite]

Don't give up

If you are low on time the thing i'd do is go for topics you find difficult the most. That way you are able of at least answering every topic's question somewhat.

The worst thing is not trying at all. I'm rooting for ya

I would also recommend trying to wake up early. (around 7-8) as this is when people can be most productive than waking up late.

[spring mountain]

yeah, BUT idek anymore, its like idek what i know and dont know. everytime i study sumn i feel like no im spending t oo much time on this and i cant even study in peace, and i just keep on regretting over wasting my time and potential

like i really had everything, i had all the textbooks i needed, loads of resources available

and i just hate myself rn

[spring mountain]

yeah i alrdy do, since i have online school which is like super depressing for me

[tepid kite]

My advice for this is to go through a subject past paper, see which questions you find are difficult or have little knowledge of, and focus on those and that way you will know. (More past papers you do = The more of an idea you will get)

[spring mountain]

even when i wake up early i cant even be productive bc i can only fall asleep late

and im one who needs 8-10 hours to feel rested

im basically in a sleep debt rn

[tepid kite]

I'd recommend coffee. I don't like it but It's very useful when necessary. Also for some reason apples give me energy. idk why

[tepid kite]

Come on don't say that.

I get around 6-7 hours each day which is bad but the energy useally comes along with
-Splashing my face with water

-Doing mild exercises

• Drinking loads of water ( i'd highly recommend this one)

[spring mountain]

thanks for the recommendation but guess what, my body reacts badly to coffee. like rlly bad, i became sick bc of coffee thrice idek why

[spring mountain]

i try that too but my body is just rlly in a bad sleep debt. i srsly havent gotten 8-10 years, prolly this whole quarantine

[tepid kite]

Then i'd recommend apples, loads of water. As well as meditation. You feel stressed and i'd say meditation helps a lot with that

[spring mountain]

i rlly appreciate u trying to give me advice but i know for a fact, that im just hopeless rn

nothing is going my way rn

[tepid kite]

Yeah i get you, Quarantine really makes people fatigued mentally and physically. But you can do it. you can push through

[tepid kite]

It's 1000000% better to try than not to try.

[spring mountain]

yess i'll definitely try

[tepid kite]

I'm rooting for you pal

[spring mountain]

i just, i just dont know

[spring mountain]

thank youu

okay i should prolly stop crying over spilled milk now

[tepid kite]

that's the spirit. ✊

[azure gorge]

look im in the middle of my terms and i barely prepared. why? because of the constant exams i feel mentally exhausted so its very understandable. its like panicking over studying but not having the will to study. i would suggest making a timetable maybe? you can do your best to stick to it. im talking about allocating time for every single task in the day whether its having a bath or studying or sleeping. and yes you shouldnt cry about spilled milk. and please i beg you. dont kys. or even joke about it its a lot of negative energy. OH YEAH I JUST REMEMBERED... umm. i allocate 20 minutes in my day to feel sad/cry/hit shit and that helps because everything negative in your body is gone. it helps me idk bout you, so yeah.. anyways goodluck and dm me if you ever need anything ig

also @spring mountain im not talking about now before your exams but find something youre really passionate about, like REEEEEEEEally passionate about, it helps getting you through hard times such as terms or boards or perhaps even a low point in your life