venting

[haughty ibex]

Idk whr he is now

Don’t wanna kno either

[dusk thorn]

GOOD

[haughty ibex]

Am happy he’s out of my life

[dusk thorn]

GOOD!!!!!

POP OFF QUEEN

👏👏👏

[haughty ibex]

Actually he gave me the chance to get closer with my best friend

Without whom idk whr I’d be rn

[dusk thorn]

At least you gained something out of that

❤❤❤❤

[haughty ibex]

Yeppp☺️☺️

[dusk thorn]

Breaking up with my ex helped me as well :)

I got an amazing person by my side instead

One of my closest friends

[haughty ibex]

Yeah ud rather be single than in a toxic ship

[dusk thorn]

His name is Sky and he has all my respect

[haughty ibex]

Yayyyyyyy

[dusk thorn]

Genuinely do not know what I would do if he didnt help me

Actually

Wanna know something?

[haughty ibex]

Sure

[dusk thorn]

Sky used to be my ex's middle school best friend

[haughty ibex]

Ooooooo

Now that’s drama 😂😂

[dusk thorn]

Sky is a genius and graduated like 3 years earlier or something and moved away and stuff

[haughty ibex]

Woah

This is like a rom com

[dusk thorn]

I met Sky and he was so. Different than my ex? And I was so weirded our because my ex always says that they're best friends

[naive skiff]

^

[dusk thorn]

Ikr

Me and Sky became really good friends

And one day

[haughty ibex]

Well your ex isn’t exactly a person of authority and integrity now is he

[dusk thorn]

I opened up to Sky about how my ex was bothering me

Yep lmaoooooo

Shots fired

[naive skiff]

Damn

[dusk thorn]

So sky was like bruh I literally hate that guy

And said that he purposely distanced himself from him

And that when sky met me

[haughty ibex]

Lolllll

[dusk thorn]

He practically spat out his drink

Because he had no idea how my ex could "get someone like me"

So i was like damn

[haughty ibex]

Hey you’re awesome girl

[dusk thorn]

So I told sky everything that bothered me

And sky helped me break up with him

[haughty ibex]

Your ex hit wayyyy outside his league and he missed

LESGOOO SKYYYY

[dusk thorn]

HAHAHAHAHAHA

BURN

Yeah Sky really helped me

He was there for me the whole time

And he even left my ex's server in support

[haughty ibex]

Ayyyyy

[dusk thorn]

Because when I told him what my ex did to me he went NOPE

[haughty ibex]

The mans a keeper huh

[dusk thorn]

Definitely

God bless him

He deserves the world honestly

[haughty ibex]

Hope yall stay together!

He sounds rlly rlly good for u

[dusk thorn]

Yeah me and him have been so busy lately but we're planning to do a gaming session sometime soon

He's in uni rn

[haughty ibex]

That’s great!

[dusk thorn]

He just finished is associates in physics

[haughty ibex]

Nothing better than gaming

Woah

[dusk thorn]

Now he's doing mechatronics

[haughty ibex]

Damn u went n got urself a genius girl

[dusk thorn]

Yeah he's a genius

HAHAHA WE ARENT DATING

But yeah he is super duper smart

[haughty ibex]

Hehe a level up frm your previous one if I may say so

[haughty ibex]

Yet....

[dusk thorn]

HAHAHAHA

TRUEEE

Tbh I wouldn't date Sky

He's more like an older brother to me

||i have my eye on someone else||

[haughty ibex]

That’s what they all say

[haughty ibex]

Oooooo

[dusk thorn]

The only thing is the religious perspective that's different

[mild compass]

nahhh you really did mans like that

[haughty ibex]

Ahh

[dusk thorn]

Like me and him have two very different perspectives

HAHAHAHA

Honestly Sky deserves someone a lot more uhhhh

Free than me I suppose?

[haughty ibex]

No no

Nope

Don’t u go thr

[dusk thorn]

No no not that it's a bad thing 0w0

I'm just conservative

[haughty ibex]

The minute u lose confidence in urself is the minute he gets away frm u

[dusk thorn]

No drinking, drugs, et veteran

*et cetera

[open cape]

Sorry I went to do something, back

[haughty ibex]

Yah well that’s me too

[dusk thorn]

Hi haf

No worries

[haughty ibex]

But that’s not conservative

[mild compass]

as you should 💯

[haughty ibex]

That’s just your choice

And it’s a good one

Albeit not very popular

[dusk thorn]

It's considered conservative compared to him and I wouldnt give it up for the world

He totally respects it

Like

He even asked about my religion and how fasting works and he loved it

[haughty ibex]

That’s great!

[dusk thorn]

He's super respectful towards Islam

[open cape]

I read what u guys said and I'm glad both of you aren't around those type of people anymore

[dusk thorn]

And he even tried fasting to see how it would feel

[haughty ibex]

I mean see he doesn’t have to agree with everything u do or say

[dusk thorn]

Oh yeah of course

[haughty ibex]

But as long as he respects it

That’s all that matters right

As long as he is considerate of your side of the story

[dusk thorn]

Oh yeah of course

[haughty ibex]

That’s the important part

[dusk thorn]

He's super duper nice

Oh

Want more drama?

[haughty ibex]

Lol later I need to do Sm physics now 😂😂

[dusk thorn]

I also accidentally took away my ex's best friend of at least 5 years-

[open cape]

XD

[dusk thorn]

Damn

[haughty ibex]

If u have an audience here tho go on I’ll cm bak n read

[dusk thorn]

See you later then ;;)

HAHAHAHA

[haughty ibex]

Cyaaa

[dusk thorn]

Byeeee good luck 0w0

[haughty ibex]

Tenkuuu

[open cape]

Byeee Mikasa good luck with physics

[tepid delta]

honestly

Do y'all get the feeling that you wasted the years

cause i sure do

[open cape]

I do

[spark sonnet]

yeah

soz for not replying haf in the gallery

reading in english rnahdfjg

[open cape]

No no dw about it take your time ♥

[tepid delta]

I just feel like I absolutely choked it

Didn't make much friends

didn't experience much

was pretty much Kazuma before he got isekai'd

[open cape]

Hey well thinking about the past doesn't get us anywhere

[tepid delta]

Fair,but being stuck at home with a family that don't love you

you start to pine for stuff

[open cape]

So instead of thinking the fact that we've wasted years let's just start making the best out of this year and try to not waste any more time

[open cape]

Aww hugs* I'm sorry

[tepid delta]

it's alright,i'm used to it now

[tepid delta]

I wish i can,but honestly i'm not good with people

[open cape]

Hey it's okay I'm not either

[tepid delta]

aye...wish I was better though

[open cape]

U can get better with people if u want to

[tepid delta]

True that.

[open cape]

♥ Dw

[tepid delta]

Ay,thanks for that

[open cape]

Np :3

[tepid delta]

:3

[naive skiff]

less people get the reference

I've wasted 2 years of my life

and im experiencing the after math of it rn

but you know

[spark sonnet]

yeah i get what you mean

its honestly not your fault

[naive skiff]

you shouldn't just give up

^

[spark sonnet]

pandemic hit us like a train and we just

sat there

it was hard

like

ngl i had a very good quarantine bc im well off

and i left the house on my bike if my mother was toxic

so i cant complain

[naive skiff]

My neighbourhood isnt nice so i couldn't have much fun

[spark sonnet]

:(

im sorry about that

mine is emoty

empty

well

nit empty

[naive skiff]

lucky

mine is filled with crackheads

[spark sonnet]

but they were cowards and didnt really figure out theyre allowed to go for walks

like they just thought AHH COVID IS IN THE AIR

so

weeks went by and the roads were empty

so i just

cycled in the middle of the road

and went down hills

[naive skiff]

mine thought covid was a fan fiction created government

[spark sonnet]

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

my quarantine wss probably the besy

best

i spent my days in the garden and on the road

i painted and baked a lot

but

yeah

besides

[naive skiff]

lucky

besides my 2 childhood besties

[spark sonnet]

@tepid delta the so-called "waste" was not your fault sweetheart

[naive skiff]

i dont think i was able to have much fun with my class friends

[spark sonnet]

we had no control over what happened

[naive skiff]

^^^

[spark sonnet]

and you have a life ahead of you

no use to mourn what was not our doing

[naive skiff]

screw the past think bout the future

[spark sonnet]

shame ://

yeah

i played so much w my online friends

[naive skiff]

and live the present

[spark sonnet]

we had a minecraft realm and stuff

we went on mining parties and shit

and played TF2

we kept eachother company

[naive skiff]

day before my bestie and I were talking bout how pandameic ruined everything

[haughty ibex]

Y’all’s r still here?

[naive skiff]

we played mc a lot

ig heh

[haughty ibex]

Oke

[naive skiff]

im too lonely doe

so i stay here

[haughty ibex]

Oof self roast

[naive skiff]

im good at that :D

[spark sonnet]

we vibin

[spark sonnet]

</3

[haughty ibex]

Yeet

[spark sonnet]

how was physics?

[haughty ibex]

Still dng

Lol I have a 4 hr physics jam session gng on

[spark sonnet]

rifp

[haughty ibex]

Exams in 2 weeks

[spark sonnet]

BRUH

nice tho

good luck<33333

you're gonna do awesome!!!

[rough holly]

same :(

[haughty ibex]

So I’m kinda binge studying

Gg

[rough holly]

same

[naive skiff]

binge studying

i wanna do that

[haughty ibex]

Thank youuu

[rough holly]

good luck we gonna need it

[naive skiff]

i cant do it anymore

[haughty ibex]

Good luckkk

[naive skiff]

gl mika

[rough holly]

oh no waffles talk

[naive skiff]

what

[rough holly]

i mean you wanna tal

k

you siad you cant do it anymore

[naive skiff]

ah okay

its just related to how i screwed up 2 years

and now i cant do most of the stuff i could back then

and i do appreciate how people give small pep talks like you can do it

and all

but it doesnt really help

if im honest

those 2 years were really crucial

[rough holly]

ohhh well no point dewling in the past is there now - i mean unless you can create a time machine

[naive skiff]

and i let myself waste em

[rough holly]

ik what you mean

[naive skiff]

cuz of some people

i mean even if i were friendless

[rough holly]

im your friend :)

[naive skiff]

i would've been wayyyy better than i am now

youre my friend now

not then

T^T

[rough holly]

:(

family is forver, friends are tempory

[spark sonnet]

i mean honestly what happened?

like unless youre uncomfortable

[rough holly]

god i swear i cant spell for the life of me

[spark sonnet]

what happened in those 2 years that was so bad?

did you like

not study properly for school or

[naive skiff]

i have ranted it before in this channel

[rough holly]

doesnt matter

[naive skiff]

my typos have been getting worse by the day

its just that

[rough holly]

dont hold it in - makes it a lot worse

[naive skiff]

i stuck out with the wrong people

i dont know if they're wrong

but they weren't great for me

kinda influenced the wrong way by them

[final robin]

[rough holly]

ik that feeling - i had friends who study like at all and that like went on - now i have friends who make me feel better bout myself

[final robin]

ooh pain gang

lesgo

[rough holly]

join lol

[naive skiff]

yes pain gang

[final robin]

yes

done

[naive skiff]

yeah its hard to recuperate what i've lost

niceuu

welcome

[rough holly]

love you waffle

[final robin]

thanls

[rough holly]

:)))

[final robin]

cant sprl'

[rough holly]

hi lumbar puncture

[final robin]

spell

hi

[naive skiff]

dies

[rough holly]

ahahaha

hi rawr

[final robin]

hi

[naive skiff]

also also

i joined this server during the same time

[rough holly]

im gonna call you lumbar puncture now - if alr

[final robin]

nicre

[rough holly]

and

[final robin]

sure

[naive skiff]

idk just wanted to say that

[rough holly]

oh okay

[naive skiff]

i did get help somedays

[rough holly]

i gptta get to online lessons :( i hope you feel better soon

[naive skiff]

but now i regret hanging out with em

gl

[rough holly]

yeah same

[naive skiff]

ima just vibe ig

[rough holly]

we can vibe toegther listening to songd :)

my lessos are not as important

[naive skiff]

vibing to silence is nice too

[spark sonnet]

shit happens

like

im not tryna wave it off

but like

[rough holly]

thats true v true

[spark sonnet]

in the end its your choice whether to let those 2 years control you

[naive skiff]

well i dont care bout it much but

the impact it has left on me

[spark sonnet]

oh of course

[naive skiff]

its hard recovering

[spark sonnet]

it can really affect you

but you will recover eventually

i promise

you just need to try and have good friends and support around you

it will happen with time

broken bones don't heal in a week right?

we keep them in casts

and in those strappy arm things

we check up with the doctor

and after its broken we have to work on the muscles

et cetera

it is a process

with steps and a lot of tim

time*

you might be in the diagnosis or cast phase right now

you'll be okay waffles

keep your head up

and drink milk for bone

[rough holly]

ohh you need calcium for strength

[spark sonnet]

hurrdurr

[rough holly]

at least i remebered smth from bio

[tepid delta]

Y'all got lucky

Parents didn't let me house on covid

but i did get a considerable spending amount for meh PS

[rough holly]

okay we get it you want a ps5 lmao

my parents force me to go lmao so i go to the mangroves

[tepid delta]

for the 4

but man it sucks

[rough holly]

😶

[tepid delta]

Hindsight

I feel that contributed to my terrible results

i just regret it all

i bought and played too much

And I guess since it felt like an escape

i played more and more

...damn

[dusk thorn]

Me playing darkest dungeon after my theory exams lmao

I left MCQ to the last minute

[tepid delta]

I just feel i made a series of massive mistakes

[spark sonnet]

been there T_T

you learn

its alright

[tepid delta]

aye.

[rough holly]

how are we supposed to take mocks online - like most people will cheat and raise the grade boundaries even higher and it means that the people who actually worked hard are going to be the people who o as well

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

like the people with intregity are going to fail and the ones without are going to pass with flying colours and make the other people fail

you cannot do mocks online without cheatong ( some people not me)

okay im good now had to get it all out

[unreal oak]

I'm fairly confident that CIE is smart enough to realize that and adjust it accordingly

[rough holly]

edexcel lmao

[tepid delta]

i feel the actual grade boundaries would be lower

since even if you cheat,you're not really learning

my advice would be to take mocks at face value

[rough holly]

yeah but if more people do better due to cheartong then the grade boundaires will go higher

i would never cheat - no poiny

point

its the other people in y schoool

they would cheat defo

thats the main reason im worried

anyways there is actually nothing i can do about it so no point

all ik is that most people in the school have said that they are gonna refuse doing them

[unreal oak]

Cheating is impossible to avoid in exams - heck ||I've even cheated in in person mocks back in the day||

Just that online makes it much easier

[rough holly]

ig thats true

also damnnn you ||cheated||

[unreal oak]

Mostly in the MCQs tbh

Good old fashioned hand signals and using the calculator screen

[rough holly]

haha damn

[tepid delta]

Damn.

||I've also cheated in my mocks as well,if there's a will there will always be a way||

[rough holly]

has everybody cheated then

||my mother cheated as well ||

[naive skiff]

I showed the entire paper during one test i think cuz the person never stopped bothering me

[rough holly]

haha

[naive skiff]

And then hand signlas during mcqs

They'd ask me for answers and I'm like idk man

[tepid delta]

I was chatting with a dude about answers in the middle of the test

[naive skiff]

But bout mocks

[tepid delta]

there were bats in my school and all the kids were screaming

and the electricity cut out

[naive skiff]

People in my class literally copied each other or something during a midterm this year

[tepid delta]

so as the teachers stepped out,we just chatted

snek 100

[naive skiff]

Wow so has everyone cheated once at least

[keen kestrel]

Me and the bois once cheated in an official igcse exam

[naive skiff]

Damn

[rough holly]

wth

[tepid delta]

damn

[rough holly]

then there me whos never cheated in any exam

[rough holly]

imma tell unless

[naive skiff]

In the ict igcse i made a mistake and i accidentally deleted the file cuz i thought it was done

[tepid delta]

join the dark side

[naive skiff]

I found out i made the graph wrong

[keen kestrel]

Unless 💀

I’m getting blackmailed

[rough holly]

yk what it is :)

[naive skiff]

So i got extra time from teacher somehow and remade the whole paper with the same indentation and graph

[tepid delta]

Nice.

For my IT exam

[naive skiff]

This was the official igcse ict practicals

[tepid delta]

We were supposed to use Office 2016

But they gave us 2007

[naive skiff]

Gg

[tepid delta]

So obviously

Half the stuff we were supposed to do didn't work

So the teachers carried us in that exam

i mean we learnt newer formulas

And they didn't work

[naive skiff]

F

[rough holly]

our tecaher had the physics formulas up

it was stupid

[tepid delta]

damn

[rough holly]

and very funny

only relised fter the test had finished

[tepid delta]

i would be crying with laughter

[rough holly]

it was very hard not to laugh

also my ols science teacher set his beard on fire

[naive skiff]

Damn

[tepid delta]

Damn

[rough holly]

damn

[tepid delta]

but yeah,when there's a will there's a way

[rough holly]

true dat

[rough holly]

This is great website that has some info on Stress and Prepping for Exams https://headspace.org.au/young-people/how-to-reduce-stress-and-prepare-for-exams/ Make sure you scroll to near the bottom where you can click on “get started” and do a little interactive thing on Stress and managing stress.

The best thing you can do is ensure you have a good routine including good nutrition, regular meals (B+L+D), some movement everyday and sunshine - every single day. Make sure you have some social time a couple of times a week as well. As you mentioned sleep in your previous email, here is another website and interactive thing from headspace Australia about sleep https://headspace.org.au/young-people/sleeping-well-for-a-healthy-headspace/

This is a good one for calming https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FJJazKtH_9I

These provide some good information about, and tips for, changing your thoughts and worries, which is driving your stress at the moment

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3ThUrVXz9j0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ENiYtTuJgrU&feature=youtu.be

:) these may help with exam stress

[spark sonnet]

im gonna yeet myself out the window

fucked up my chemistry exam xoxo

[rough holly]

https://tenor.com/view/hug-virtual-hug-hug-sent-gif-5026057

[raw ermine]

ouch

well, u can do great next time!!

[rough holly]

dw about it - can you go anything about it nopwso no point

[spark sonnet]

man this shit is horrid

thansk guys

[rough holly]

:)

[spark sonnet]

i just hate online school

[naive skiff]

same

[raw ermine]

school in general

[spark sonnet]

i find it really hard to focus and have energy

[naive skiff]

at least im going to physical from 1st

[raw ermine]

school in general

[spark sonnet]

youre so lucky

[rough holly]

BRO I GOTTA DO MY MOCKS ON GOOGLE DOCS

[naive skiff]

im not

[spark sonnet]

inshallah it proceeds that way

[naive skiff]

im outta shape

[raw ermine]

im in class rn

[raw ermine]

....damn

[naive skiff]

first im too tired to do anything

i need my vitamins

[rough holly]

sun

ez

[spark sonnet]

im just

exhausted

[rough holly]

its alr i know how u fell

feel

[raw ermine]

my eyesight is worse

[rough holly]

i think most people kno w

[spark sonnet]

im probably going to go and scream into a canvas

[rough holly]

scream tf out

[raw ermine]

well, if that makes u feel better

[rough holly]

noone is gonna stop u

[finite flower]

after two weeks of online exam exhausted is an understatement

[spark sonnet]

yeah im going to slap paint on a canvas and bawl

[rough holly]

hi duckey

[finite flower]

im so glad its done

[spark sonnet]

ughhh

[raw ermine]

I started again two days ago and it's exhausting

[spark sonnet]

youre so right

im sorry for being so negative guys

im just

[naive skiff]

anyone wanna scream together

[spark sonnet]

so

fucking tired

me

please

[naive skiff]

ima buy a ticket to some mountain

[rough holly]

take a nap

[spark sonnet]

i just want to rest

[naive skiff]

same

[rough holly]

give me so i can yeet off it

[naive skiff]

dw ill catch you

[spark sonnet]

god i hate this so much

[rough holly]

no pls donti

[naive skiff]

||then yeet you off||

[raw ermine]

it's fine, it's tough so u gotta rant it out sometimes : )

[spark sonnet]

yeah

true that

[rough holly]

ic

thats better any way

[naive skiff]

eh being negative once in a while is fine

[spark sonnet]

i might go bake or something to make myself feel better

[rough holly]

anyways deuce its alr

[spark sonnet]

i just feel bad

[rough holly]

:))

[spark sonnet]

i dont wanna influence anyone and like

[raw ermine]

I want to go to the beach

[spark sonnet]

make them feel tired?

if that makes sense

sigh

[naive skiff]

yeah get you

[finite flower]

ooh make macaroons

[spark sonnet]

thank you wafflies

[naive skiff]

i want macaroons

[spark sonnet]

maybe owooo

[rough holly]

i want macoroons

give me

[spark sonnet]

i was thinking of making some comfort food that im used to

[naive skiff]

np deuce

[raw ermine]

im on the next flight to hawaii

[spark sonnet]

i can make red velvet cookie sandwiches

[raw ermine]

PIZZA

[spark sonnet]

and pizza

[naive skiff]

im living alone from next year

i odnt know how i feel bout it

[spark sonnet]

oh wow really?

why?

[rough holly]

i can make samosa

oh too late ig

[spark sonnet]

also brb i need to dip for a while

[rough holly]

yeah i gotta do to business

[raw ermine]

Waffles, u excited or mad bout that

[naive skiff]

cuz i'll be in an area in not familiar with

[rough holly]

someone help me

[naive skiff]

excited and kinda anxious

[cosmic ginkgo]

It'll all be okay

[naive skiff]

new area and im alone

[cosmic ginkgo]

Finish off with the anxiety now so you can be excited then

[naive skiff]

my brother'll join me next year or so

i mean i can live alone but

[raw ermine]

well ig anything new is gonna be scary kinda but ull get the hang of it

[cosmic ginkgo]

You won't be alone, you'll live with other people, flatmates/ people near you

[naive skiff]

and im a loner mostly

[cosmic ginkgo]

Or in uni halls so you'll have lots of people there

[naive skiff]

but i need someone to have fun with

be the crazy me

[cosmic ginkgo]

You will find someone

Trust me I was just as scared

[raw ermine]

wait Mushu u live alone?

[naive skiff]

time zones gunna screw up calls with parents

ima live at the otehr side of the planet

[raw ermine]

ull find a time

[cosmic ginkgo]

Uni halls but yeah

[naive skiff]

i can find time any time to call em but

i want a nice friend to be with

[raw ermine]

damn
i never want to live alone I have like 10 000 phobias

[tawdry star]

I spent an entire semester but talking to anyone

It takes time

[naive skiff]

the ones i have are in different countries and i can just talk to em online

[tawdry star]

But you always find your people

[cosmic ginkgo]

Pugs stop scaring the shit out of him

[naive skiff]

youre a masochist you spent time with physics

jk jk

[tawdry star]

:/

[raw ermine]

ull find one, at least till ur brother comes
ull click with a friend

[cosmic ginkgo]

You went out of your way to not talk to people

[tawdry star]

Okay yes that😂

[naive skiff]

im not scared ive spent an year alone

so i have experience

[cosmic ginkgo]

There we go

[naive skiff]

if i was scared

[cosmic ginkgo]

You'll have enough stuff to do as well

[raw ermine]

then hopefully it will be better!

[tawdry star]

Yeah

[naive skiff]

id bully parsec

[cosmic ginkgo]

You have more experience than I did coming in then

[naive skiff]

to feel better

[tawdry star]

See the thing is you often associate with people you do things with

And there's a club for everything in uni

[cosmic ginkgo]

Sadism on one side and masochism on the other

[naive skiff]

pugs in a nutshell

[cosmic ginkgo]

Unless you're in a pandemic and then uni send you emails saying we care about you

[tawdry star]

Aishu, complementarity 😂😂

[raw ermine]

yh go to places were u enjoy, like if u enjoy reading go to the library often or smt, ull find ppl who have the same interest

[tawdry star]

😂😂

[tawdry star]

Yeapp

[raw ermine]

😂

[cosmic ginkgo]

Oki time for me to yeet and wind down

[tawdry star]

Aishu do you geddit?😂😂

[raw ermine]

well unless u have social anxiety then just spend the year inside and spend ur time breathing instead

[cosmic ginkgo]

I'll see y'all in about 4h

[tawdry star]

Baiii all de bestttt

See yaaaa

[naive skiff]

gl mushu

[raw ermine]

byeee gl

[naive skiff]

chappal wil be thrown

[cosmic ginkgo]

If it is what I think it is then yes but idts

[cosmic ginkgo]

:fear:

[tawdry star]

Lol

[naive skiff]

anyway ty guys

[naive skiff]

i wont have my vitamin d T^T

like last year

[cosmic ginkgo]

You can go out for walks alone tho

[spark sonnet]

https://tenor.com/view/among-us-impostor-kms-over-gif-18557102

[rough holly]

ez

[raw ermine]

that just reminds u how lonely you are

[spark sonnet]

not rlly tho

walks alone are very therapeutic

monkey brain likes repetitive action

[raw ermine]

they're.....depressing
but yh ig that makes sense

monkey brains

[spark sonnet]

i wouldnt say depressing

walking and other repetitive actions such as being on a swing or driving is something really relaxing for the brain

having something constant to do helps ur brain organise its thoughts

thats why some people enjoy math actually

[raw ermine]

idk when I do it, I feel worse
but if it works for most ppl then oh well

[spark sonnet]

bc its just numbers numbers numbers numbers

[spark sonnet]

it depends on a lot of factors

like how you feel

what you're going througb

et cetera

but that's the outline of why it's good

[raw ermine]

do u like walking alone?

[spark sonnet]

often

[raw ermine]

hmm

well, thanks ig

[spark sonnet]

you are welcome

indeed

[raw ermine]

sometimes

[spark sonnet]

haha yes you are hilarious

have a trophy

or a medal?

4 medals?

you pick

[naive skiff]

Alone walking is nice wym

Breathing is fun

||reference||

But you get that personal space

And its rejuvenating

[spark sonnet]

i agree

fresh air make happy chemical go brrrr

[naive skiff]

Ez i have 2.1k

[rough holly]

whyyyy would u put that on venting

[keen kestrel]

To raise awareness

Suicide is not a joke

And everyone is gonna support u if you’re in pain/suffering

[rough holly]

okay fair that is very true

[raw ermine]

...that's just mean

wait I dont even get it

ik im dumb but like, can someone explain?

[keen kestrel]

people that wanna commit suicide

that's how u prevent them from jumping

u push them in unexpectedly

[raw ermine]

oh...that's so heartbreaking ._.

[spark sonnet]

you dont want them to jump

best to kick em back in

if there was a gentler way

they would do it

[keen kestrel]

it's they either die or get a scratch

so yeah

[crimson star]

i really miss my ex

[rough holly]

hey

may i ask why

[spark sonnet]

hey what's up? why do you miss them?

[crimson star]

man i dont know

its been quite some time since we broke it off but i guess i just miss him as a friend and as a person

he was always there for me when i was at my lowest and loved me when nobody else would

its just smth stupid tho so like

idrk

[rough holly]

i know what you mean

:) but its gonna be okay :))

[keen kestrel]

I'd say just try meeting new people

new friends to have your back

[rough holly]

^

[mild compass]

happens

[raw ermine]

some ppl are just not meant to be, you know
if u broke up, it's ok to feel like that sometimes but it was for the best. You can find someone new who'll love you more than ur ex ever could. You'll forget about him eventually but it takes time
I do suggest though that you at least try not to think about him, coz it will just make u feel worse ig. Ik it's not easy but try to focus on the future instead of him. idk why u broke up but it's not worth dwelling on

[midnight crest]

Hhhhh lately my health ain't it

I'd get a scan but we've been having covid cases and the med centers with the technology do covid tests so it's risky

[crimson star]

ahh alright then :(( thanks a lot <3 i really appreciate it

[mild compass]

i wonder if i can vent here :0

[spark sonnet]

go ahead man of course

[spark sonnet]

hey i'm kinda late but i really hope you stay away from him, i understand how you feel and it must be hard to not get the love you used to have, but there are billions of others out there and you broke up for a reason yk? keep your head up queen <3

[torn rivet]

I just needed to let this out, I hope you guys don’t mind

my friends in the year above me got their igcse results back today (they wrote oct/nov) and they all did so well and I’m really proud of them for their achievements especially since we’ve been in this pandemic. i will be writing in Oct/nov this year and now since I’ve now seen so many of them pass exceptionally well, it’s given me so much anxiety. ever since the end of last year my grades went down so badly. my mum still expects me to be getting nine a* even though I’m struggling in school and mentally
i know that there’s still a lot of time until October but i just feel really worthless most of the time.

[rough holly]

a) the point of this channel is to event so no one minds. B) don’t listen to what others get but i understand how you feel

like i see exactly where u are coming from - my friends are doing a lot better than me at the moment - just don’t let it bother u

also it’s sounds as if you have asian parents - just explain that it should not matter what you get at igcse- mainly a level as you will drop the majority of those subjects

so ignore everything and everyone and do the best that you can do

the world doesn’t revolve around how other people are doing - focus on your self

and mental health is a lot more important than any exam

[torn rivet]

haha, we’re African but I guess the mindsets are similar

[rough holly]

ahhh haha yeah i see what u mean

but focus on yourself don’t let other people bother u

[torn rivet]

thank you for the help
I’ve even asked if I could drop business studies as a subject and it ended in them just shouting at me telling me that I’m lazy but I’m really just trying to protect my own mental health considering how bad last year was for me. I will just continue to try my best and if that isn’t enough for them then idk what will be lol

[rough holly]

omg i feel like some parents just do not understand how important mental health is

also if you neeed any help with any subjects just let me know :)

mental health is just the most important thing that you have to take care of grades are just numbers, in anyway I you can if you want to be forgotten after to eat eat apples and then you go to Uni and you only do one course

i swear my spelling

[torn rivet]

exactly!! I even have to go for weekly counselling at school because my mum doesn’t get me lmao

[mild compass]

omg i feel like venting here doesn't work for me :/

[rough holly]

i also go for weekly con selling cause of stress and anxiety

[rough holly]

you wanna dm me ?

[torn rivet]

yes I’ll make sure that I do haha

[rough holly]

:))) just dw about other people

[mild compass]

oh noo its fine

[rough holly]

My parents expect me to get or nine’s in the cc and I know for a fact that I’m not going to do that

[rough holly]

are u sure ? i’m always here if u wanna vent privately

[torn rivet]

same loool, their high expectations will disappoint themselves

[rough holly]

desi and african parents have so much in command i stg

at least you wouldn’t get the dreaded chappal

ugh scary

[torn rivet]

what’s the “chappal” if you don’t mind sharing 💀

[sudden barn]

A slipper with high velocity aimed at you

[rough holly]

oh no if you wanna be scred

[rough holly]

yes

mothers practice their throwing when we are not at home 💀💀💀

[sudden barn]

LUL

I can imagine that

[mild compass]

its alright <33

[torn rivet]

lmaaaoooo

[rough holly]

it’s horrible

you should be soooo glad

:)

Last thing don’t worry about what other people say

[sudden barn]

But by now

You should be immune

[rough holly]

still hurts 💀💀💀

[sudden barn]

The words do

[rough holly]

my parents have huge chappals

[rough holly]

facts

[mild compass]

i was just wondering but since you are african , does the food called fufu tastes good?

im so sorry that literally came out of no where from me 😭

[rough holly]

ohhh what’s fufu

[mild compass]

ahh im not sure Yokiko but i jjst heard its a famous food in africa

[torn rivet]

I’m not from Nigeria so I wouldn’t know lol
But in Zimbabwe (where I am from) we have something similar called sadza and i quite like it

[rough holly]

ohhh sounds delicious 😋

[mild compass]

ohhhhh im so sorry !!!

[torn rivet]

it’s fine dw 😅

[wooden elm]

@keen kestrel ur are not an intern anymore?

[spark sonnet]

you have a lot of time for O/N! cut yourself some slack :( whats your relationship like with your mother? is she understanding in the sense that you could tell her that school is a struggle with the pandemic and stuff?

[wooden elm]

@latent onyx you too?

[spark sonnet]

this is the vent channel homie

[wooden elm]

wrong chat

my bad

sorry

[spark sonnet]

its cool

[wooden elm]

go study

ur in class or break?

[spark sonnet]

i hope you're alright <3

[spark sonnet]

break

15 mins or so

[wooden elm]

alright do as you please

gl helping people

[spark sonnet]

thanks for the permission 0w0

[mild compass]

ohh yes i am :))

[spark sonnet]

take care :)

if you want someone to vent to be my guest

[mild compass]

awhh okayy !!

[keen kestrel]

no

why

[crimson star]

hii! this means a lot to me !! thanks a lot 🤍🤍 made me feel better

[spark sonnet]

you're welcome sweetheart, please stay strong and remember you're going to find better people

people who will love you deeper

<3

[crimson star]

thank youu :D <3

[spark sonnet]

least i could do sweetheart <3

[torn rivet]

well we are quite close and she can be really cool. but when it comes to school I feel like she just expects too much from me and we can never agree on things because she claims to know what’s best for me. and especially after everyone else’s results have come out she’s just been saying that if they can pass in a pandemic then so can I : ( but it’s been really hard for me

[spark sonnet]

maybe you should have a good sit down with her, and tell her that you will try your best but you're in need of some mental support because times are stressful. plus... why are you doing 9 subjects?

[glossy shore]

my teacher doesnt support me

@foggy helm

[raw ermine]

@torn rivet im sure ull do great!
if u put enough work in it, whatever marks ull get will be worth it. I guess mothers always think that but no matter how much they think they know, the best for u is what u decide. Just try to have a heart-to-heart talk with her, and tell her how u feel, that it's tough. She has to support u and not add the pressure

[torn rivet]

When I was deciding what subjects to do in 2019 I really underestimated the content that comes with igcse.
at my school we get the option to do either 8 or 9 subjects. And my mum said I have to do nine so I chose business because the other option was physics/history and those subject seemed hard haha

[spark sonnet]

physics is probably the easiest one to get an A* in, just saying heehee

and

business is surprisingly a lot more common sense than you think

anywho, im sure you can do them. it's ok if you dont get A*s in one or two of them

[glossy shore]

@foggy helm look at him

[spark sonnet]

unless you're doing an equivalency of sort? depending on what system you have

[spark sonnet]

it's true lol

gcse physics is a joke ngl

[glossy shore]

really?

[spark sonnet]

yeah

[glossy shore]

xD

im in AS

[torn rivet]

Thank you for your kind words 🥺 I’ll try talk to her tonight, but normally because such serious conversations give me lots of anxiety so I just write a letter and leave it on her bed lol

[spark sonnet]

i did AS physics too

[glossy shore]

AS Physics is no joke

[spark sonnet]

AS physics is also easy-

yeah

[foggy helm]

Tomorrow I have a paper and my friend asked me whats workdone, I was like energy*mass

[spark sonnet]

true

[foggy helm]

wtf

[glossy shore]

bruhhhhhh

[glossy shore]

it is change in energy

[spark sonnet]

work is Fd innit

[glossy shore]

fd= change in energy

fd=moments

[spark sonnet]

fisik

[torn rivet]

Yeah, now that I’m looking at my friends who do the subject they seem to be doing much better than I am ;(((

[spark sonnet]

ayyo dont compare yourself!

trust me

[glossy shore]

hang on bruv

[glossy shore]

true

[spark sonnet]

it gets you nowhere

[glossy shore]

yep

[foggy helm]

Ayo come look at dis dude

[spark sonnet]

focus on yourself and your own achievements and weak points

[torn rivet]

yeah, I’ll just try to put my best foot forward for everything 😁

[spark sonnet]

do you need something

anyway

[foggy helm]

Yea I need Help 😦

[spark sonnet]

@torn rivet believing in yourself does a lot more than you think, spending your energy thinking about how everyone is doing better than you will exhaust you, and it will affect your studying drastically

you need to put your head in the game

practice

study

[glossy shore]

xD

[spark sonnet]

learn

and you will be FINE

trust me

and everybody is here to help

[glossy shore]

me too

[spark sonnet]

feel free to ask all your qs in subject channels

[spark sonnet]

whats the matter

[glossy shore]

i want life advice

where is that channel?

@foggy helm

[foggy helm]

Sem

I am helpless

[spark sonnet]

it's here too lol

[glossy shore]

@spark sonnet u can always support me on patreon tho ❤️

[spark sonnet]

send feet pics and i just might

B)

[glossy shore]

why are u geeey

[spark sonnet]

lmao its a joke

[rough holly]

i have a picture for that lmao

[spark sonnet]

everybody knows that

[spark sonnet]

LOL

[rough holly]

it’s a death note one lmao

[spark sonnet]

bro

BRO

DELETE THAT SHIT

RIGHT NOW

[glossy shore]

support me pls

[foggy helm]

my feet bro

wtf

[glossy shore]

patreon

[rough holly]

damn eww

[foggy helm]

why you making me feel bad 😦

[glossy shore]

?

no no

everyone is beautiful ❤️

[torn rivet]

words can’t even express how loved you guys make me feel 😭 especially these past two weeks, I’ve been feeling really low but I’m slowly getting better because of you guys
Whenever i try express myself to the people I live with, they just brush it off and it makes me feel like my life is pointless
But you guys make me feel so much better
Thank you 🥺

[glossy shore]

no issues

[rough holly]

:) i’m always here :)))

[tawdry star]

@foggy helm refrain from sending NSFW messages

[rough holly]

thank u pugs i love u i stg

[foggy helm]

Ewww who faps on dis sheet

I mean who faps on legs

Ugghhh

[glossy shore]

angreazi op

google op

[foggy helm]

og ❤️

[tawdry star]

zn6

[marsh dagger]

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[spark sonnet]

i understand what you mean, and i can't imagine how you must feel being dismissed and such. it's such an unpleasant feeling, and you deserve to be listened to. your life is not pointless so long as you give it the edge that you want.

please feel free to message here or me personally anytime when you want a reminder or given a sense of direction :)

[glossy shore]

can i?

hehe boiii

[rough holly]

^

[spark sonnet]

well

in the meantime

IM STUCK ON MY PERSONAL STATEMENT AGAIN

IM GOING SWALLOW A GRENADE AND PULL THE KEY WITH MY TONGUE

https://tenor.com/view/anger-rage-gif-5455153

[glossy shore]

why?

why are u sad?

tell me the issue

[rough holly]

hmm it’s impossible to do that - wanna talk about it tho :)

[glossy shore]

pls

[spark sonnet]

Qasim i sincerely hope you are not being sarcastic

[spark sonnet]

i'm good, i'm just exaggerating my rage for comedic purposes tbh

and exaggerating helps me get out what i feel

[rough holly]

okay if you are sure :)))

[glossy shore]

no

[spark sonnet]

thanks anyway yoki

im just here to scream

[rough holly]

cream al you want

SCREAM

[glossy shore]

hi boi

I AM DED

pls

[raw ermine]

ok now I need to rant out

basically my best friend was there for me literally all the time. I got into this pretty deep depression for a few years and started pushing everyone away, when everyone left she never even hesitated and was so stubborn, always stuck around when I felt like dying or when I harmed myself. I could practically say she saved my life while she was going through things even worse
thing is I would get so mad were id throw these terrible tantrums and scream to her about everything that was going on, and she was able to help when I calmed down, I never say them intentionally Ig but she helped

now im getting better and im so grateful for her. But now she's the one who keeps sinking. Thing is she has so much more patience than me I can never get her to tell me what's happening so I can do smt for her. But it's not like I can even DO anything. SO many worse things happened to her and all I can do is sit and be like "it's ok", I feel so fkn useless. So much is becoz she has strict parents (her mom hates me btw, so I cant even see her to help her face-to-face) I cant do anything about that or literally anything else. Im just watching her get in and out of depression and it hurts so much but I CANT DO ANYTHING
it's so unfair to her she's so kind but she has so much going on that i cant even imagine to at least show her Im with her
like i feel so useless and guilty but my hands are tied..

[dusk thorn]

I'm sorry to hear, I can't imagine how you must feel in such a situation right now. I'm sure she would appreciate you reminding her that you love and care for her, send her nice things that will make her smile and feel appreciated by you - the little things matter. there is also free online therapy both in the form of applications and websites, I think one of them is called 7 cups of tea or something, I forgot. There's also an app called Calm I think too, and it's helped my friends with severe problems. You should tell her to look into those

You shouldn't feel guilty

We can barely help ourselves sometime

So imagine helping another person

It's tough

[crystal prawn]

So I can just say anything hear?

[naive skiff]

yessir

[crystal prawn]

Aight, I’m in year 10 and today online class sucked

My math teacher is the most unbearable teacher I have ever met and I already had her 1 year and now I have to take her for another 2 years because I just so happen to get her for my 2 year Igcse course

[spark sonnet]

ugh that sucks, i'm really sorry :/

u cant report her to the school admin?

like "ayyo this bitch cant teach for shit"

or?

[crystal prawn]

How? She is the head teacher for math

And apparently she has been teaching for 39 years

[spark sonnet]

you cant report her incompetency?

damn

[crystal prawn]

I dunno, anyway here is the story

[spark sonnet]

go on

[finite flower]

whats the problem with her?

[crystal prawn]

It was year 10 and I was glad I was not in her class for year 9

[spark sonnet]

^

[crystal prawn]

Cause here is the lesson in a nutshell:

Come to class, get complaints from her, talks (teaches syllabus) really confusingly and then give us all the work for home

And it’s always due tomorrow unless we get a really really rare exception

[finite flower]

sounds so much like my maths teacher in 10th

[crystal prawn]

Now that I’m in year 10 and doing for Igcse course I wanna past all the bullies and spbad teachers and want a fresh start

[finite flower]

what i did was try learn to understand the topic back at home

[naive skiff]

i thought maths teachers dont care bout hw

[finite flower]

oh no they do care

[naive skiff]

anyway self study is the best option

[crystal prawn]

I’m in my second term and yeh Igcse is really hard, but I’m starting to get a good plan and also getting a plan to improve my life

Bullies stopped and I was glad cause they were occasionally talking to me and yeh I felt that I didn’t have a grudge, she that problem was fixed

[spark sonnet]

^

[crystal prawn]

However because I did super well for the test, in the beginning of term 1 (because it was a checkpoint paper that I did most recently so I knew all the answers)

So I got go to the 10B (I was in 10J) classroom

[spark sonnet]

@crystal prawn you can go to the #roles and select IGCSE math - that way you get access to the channels about igcse math and you can ask all the questions you want about the subject

[crystal prawn]

I then realized it was my math teacher that I hated to be in her class, and since this was Igcse it was gonna be for 2 years

[spark sonnet]

and we would be more than happy to help

i see

[crystal prawn]

Thx

[spark sonnet]

sorry youre in such a situation, it sounds like butt

we'll do our best to help

[crystal prawn]

Yeh, we gotta keep going

[spark sonnet]

there are plenty of videos online that can help you as well

actually

in the IGCSE math channel, check the pints

pins

[crystal prawn]

Anyway it’s like before, I was maybe hoping she would change or atleast respect us a but more since we were now in year 10

[spark sonnet]

there are powerpoint presentations of IGCSE math topic that are decently explained

i see

[crystal prawn]

But that wasn’t the case, she was like last time but this time giving us more complaints and sometimes even badmouthing our generation and in we are too pampered

[spark sonnet]

too pampered my ass

"back in my day" man stfu

[crystal prawn]

And yeh the way she teaches was super confusing and rarely ever posted the info slides that she tought us lol

[naive skiff]

might i ask whats bout these classrooms

[spark sonnet]

im guessing they're sections

[crystal prawn]

What about them?

[spark sonnet]

it looks like 10J is the advanced?

or higher maths?

[crystal prawn]

Nah their just classes of random students was a good ratio of boys and girls

[naive skiff]

oh

[crystal prawn]

The specific subject is for Bm( Native country), Math and English

Those are the subjects with hierarchy

[spark sonnet]

right

[crystal prawn]

Anyway because I did so well on the test when I first started year 10 (Math checkpoint paper 2016 paper 2)

I did it well so I knew the answers, I would go to the “advance” class

[spark sonnet]

right

[crystal prawn]

I didn’t want this at all, last time there was no hierarchy

[spark sonnet]

oof...

can you request to go back?

[crystal prawn]

So I thought I would just do my best, and yeh continue from there hoping to get a good teacher

I tried to but fellow people said that it win’t be possible since the documents are already made