venting

[regal current]

everything els

idk

[raw ermine]

i feel u

[dusk thorn]

@regal current I know I'm a stranger but I hope you're okay man

[regal current]

LOL

[dusk thorn]

[wicked turret]

Guys...this is supposed to a place for venting out your emotions, right?

[unreal oak]

yep

[woven lark]

Yes

[hardy halo]

I'm going to skin the two people who stole my delivery alive

[cold perch]

you gotta think it through

what will you do with the skin

[dusk thorn]

I'm going to skin the two people who stole my delivery alive
@hardy halo do you have security cameras?

How did you know it was 2-

[hardy halo]

I saw them

anyways, at least the thing was returned by them

but the reason they gave was hilariously bad

[amber otter]

why is AS such a big jump from GCSE HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

[naive skiff]

If it was food try ordering something that they wont eat

why is AS such a big jump from GCSE HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
@amber otter thats how it works

[solemn forge]

why is AS such a big jump from GCSE HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
@amber otter i felt that

[craggy stag]

My school takes eng test which for some reason is soo hard like I cant even find the ans on google and my old school did not teach me shit in eng and now I just loose marks and feel so badd

[amber otter]

I took igcse english as a first language but it had no oral or listening exam, so when i came to the uk they told me its fucking useless and i need to take ielts for any undergrad uni course wtffcftewvkavsns

[solemn forge]

i--

[cosmic ginkgo]

I took igcse english as a first language but it had no oral or listening exam, so when i came to the uk they told me its fucking useless and i need take ielts for any undergrad uni course wtffcftewvkavsns
@amber otter breathe, trust me IELTS isn't hard, it's pretty much the same as IGCSE English, just do a couple of practice tests, take the test and get it over with, you're better off spending your energy worrying on other more important things

I know it's frustrating, but all paperwork is like that, so just write it off as admin being annoying

[dusk thorn]

anyways, at least the thing was returned by them
@hardy halo oh thats good I'm glad

[amber otter]

@amber otter breathe, trust me IELTS isn't hard, it's pretty much the same as IGCSE English, just do a couple of practice tests, take the test and get it over with, you're better off spending your energy worrying on other more important things
@cosmic ginkgo hm okayy

y'know this channel has helped me so much

like I'm not even bullshitting or anything

ppl on this server are AMAZINGGGG :)))) thanks forr caring about usss

[cosmic ginkgo]

we're so glad

[exotic elm]

why is there so MUCH WRITING in these English papersssss

[naive skiff]

cuz its english

they expect you to write a lot

in such a small time

[exotic elm]

It suckss

[naive skiff]

yep

[dusk thorn]

My mum is getting mad at elvis for no reason ._.

Like bruh he's literally a baby bird?

She just loves to get mad at everyone and everything and then wonders why she gets physical ailments from stressing herself out and getting mad for no reason

[tawdry star]

^^^ every brown mom tbh

Happens

You just have to live with it, everyone's got a both good and bad sides, family's family at the end of the day ||or just work hard and gtfo tbh whichever keeps you content||

[dusk thorn]

I get you're trying to be helpful but

My mum isn't the best personn

Person

And I don't want to feel forced that I need to like her because she's my mother

I honestly do want to get out but I might study in the country ._.

[tawdry star]

Go for it

Being stuck with people you don't like is never pleasant, especially if they are horrible humans

[dusk thorn]

Yeah, it's just that over here the BA is super strong

And I have a lot of connections

And it would help me a LOT in the short and long run

So idk what to do - study in England or study here

[tawdry star]

Move someplace within the country for the BA as a middle ground option?

[dusk thorn]

I kind of wanna

But idk how easy that would be

I guess I could save money but I think renting here is hard

However

One uni I wanna go to is like 2 hours away or something

So I can get a dorm there

[raw ermine]

So I can get a dorm there
@dusk thorn yh good point
but ig it's good to find a way of earing before that, even if it's a small one? idk how but yh idk

My mum is getting mad at elvis for no reason ._.
@dusk thorn 😦

I honestly do want to get out but I might study in the country ._.
@dusk thorn well consider all the options pick the best one
tbh ig it's always better to move out wether u love ur family or not, u cant stay in the same place and be dependent of people for too long

[dusk thorn]

I'm probably going to study here because of the fire ass BA

[raw ermine]

well u gotta try

if u rlly want to get out, u gotta do what u gotta do

[naive skiff]

What i say when i get the

"Nobody likes you"

[dusk thorn]

Give them the stink eye

I mean

Was it online or irl

[naive skiff]

Online

I think it was a joke

But its too repetitive

[dusk thorn]

Idk hit them with the "isn't funny when you say it for the 50th time"

And if they give you any shit just block them man

The internet is great

[naive skiff]

But theyre irl friends

They need someone to help in carrying

And i ignored them and am eating cake

[dusk thorn]

Good good

[tawdry star]

That's tricky tbh, usually just having a word with the person and explaining why helps, or you could say eh stfu, never give a comeback to it, it amps things up

[raw ermine]

"Nobody likes you"
@naive skiff ✨ignore✨ becoz that's all just ✨bullshit✨

I think it was a joke
@naive skiff wether it was a joke or not no one should say that to anyone

[naive skiff]

Eh

[dusk thorn]

👁👁

[green hamlet]

okay...so like ive premocks tmrw and idk what am i gonna do 🙂

i am failing bye bye

[dusk thorn]

@green hamlet you should just try your best tbh, do you have notes that you can flip through or something?

Not worth stressing out

[proven cosmos]

okay...so like ive premocks tmrw and idk what am i gonna do 🙂
@green hamlet i dont even get this, didnt understand anything in online classes ugh

[naive skiff]

Game

[real vector]

okay...so like ive premocks tmrw and idk what am i gonna do 🙂
@green hamlet omggg same 😭😭 I still have to study like, the entire chem syllabus

[grave jolt]

why am I doing this to my self.... this pippin physics exam. I’m gonna explode soon

[cold perch]

FUCK

that is all

[keen kestrel]

I'm gonna fial

fail

Chemistry

and A levels

but it's ok

I'm not sad

totally not

look

🙂

[cold perch]

u r sad but i love u

[keen kestrel]

[dusk thorn]

@grave jolt you're gonna be fine :(((❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️ ❤️

@keen kestrel why do you say that? :( I'm sure you're gonna do great, try your best and take care

[grave jolt]

I’ve never like gotten less than an A before

I studied/revised/tested for a whole week for this exam But I still feel so not ready

[keen kestrel]

@keen kestrel why do you say that? :( I'm sure you're gonna do great, try your best and take care
@dusk thorn

[keen kestrel]

Everyone here is an imposter

[raw ermine]

some exams are useless why are we taking all that

all the info is on google

in my opinion, exams (most, at least) are useless

but I hope everyone does well!

[proven cosmos]

all the info is on google
@raw ermine lmao ye

neuralink sooon

[solid kite]

we got the portions for pre mocks like 2 weeks before the actual pre mocks, we had monthlys going on and it took like some of our time for pre mock. to add to the pressure, they gave self study topics for economics and too many assignments 😐 and despite all this, i feel like I've been very less productive and too procrastinative these days fam it's soooo frustrating

pls tell me a way to somehow stop procrastinating 😐

[raw ermine]

pls tell me a way to somehow stop procrastinating 😐
@solid kite I need answers too...

[raw ermine]

@wooden elm good luck and well I hope things get better
But yh Microsoft to do and the working under pressure part is actually quite true, and stupidly I never though of it, so thank you

and to all procrastinators out there, at least write down what you have to do coz I sometimes end up procrastinating so much I forget the things I have to do in the first place : D

[unreal oak]

send me invites to some of these servers pls

ive been trying to find decent ones for a bit now

[woven lark]

Woah did discord update

[finite flower]

ye

[rustic rivet]

hi everyone

so

im crying about math

its so overwhelming

[candid field]

tensed for my prelims :/

[raw ermine]

math sucks, I feel u........
altho, one thing u can always do is take a break no matter how much work u have
Mental health is as important as anything

[candid field]

I hate exams man

[raw ermine]

School sucks

[candid field]

yea

[raw ermine]

and well if u have trouble solving things u can ask for help

[candid field]

the site helped me a alllooootttt during the exam sessions

short and precise notes

[rustic rivet]

its like theres an endless amount of chapters and i already struggle in math so much its like im buried under a mountain

[raw ermine]

Im still in 9th grade and Im already stressed I rlly dont wanna know how bad it will be later on...

[candid field]

it is real bad

[raw ermine]

if there is anyone who can help u?

[candid field]

chem got me to quit :/

[rustic rivet]

@raw ermine i had to give a retest for 9th grade math, i feel you, it sucks later

[candid field]

@rustic rivet what part in math

[raw ermine]

oh that sucks

[rustic rivet]

i struggle with algebra like 11/10 times

[candid field]

I can hellp

[rustic rivet]

the rest is do-able with extensive practice i suppose

[raw ermine]

chemistry and bio are getting on my nerves....

[candid field]

not really bio

chem and phy is the things dude

[rustic rivet]

science subjects are SIGH

i take commerce subjects so i dont have first person experience but i know plenty of struggling students

[candid field]

damn commerce

[raw ermine]

Algebra just needs understanding, if u dont understand it u wont understand anything
maybe u can find online tutors to help
but damn the struggle is real

[candid field]

I am a scince student

[raw ermine]

bio has SO much to memorize

[candid field]

it is ez

I like bio and that might be the reason

[raw ermine]

Im good with logical stuff like math and phy
but bio made me break down a couple of times
so did every subject but bio i-

[rustic rivet]

ive had public panic attacks and almost passed out in my exam halls due to math so its pretty much traumatic for me, idk how im gonna deal with this, my exam is on tuesday and im struggling

[raw ermine]

yh ig, if u like smt u can always roll with it

[candid field]

@rustic rivet u could take core math if your school gives that option to u

core is super ez

u can score full

[rustic rivet]

yeah i got core

cuz i obv cant do math

but its still overwhelming to me

[candid field]

ah isee

[rustic rivet]

math in general is my breaking point

[candid field]

get a tutor

[candid field]

it used to for me too

but now I love math

[raw ermine]

damn....
well I guess step by step, and someone who understands to help
school sucks it cant come back to ppl who ACTUALLY need help
but there are many online courses and if u take it slow from the beginning, it might be easier

[rustic rivet]

i would but i dont have the money

[candid field]

U can bunk scholl if u want

and start homeschooling

[raw ermine]

coz seeing the entire thing is pretty overwhelming

[raw ermine]

good idea

[candid field]

I do homeschooling

[rustic rivet]

i have a single parent and thats like a plus point stress because the whole future depends on my education and how im going to do

[candid field]

and it is fun

ye I rec u to do home school

[raw ermine]

well then homeschool is a better option

it's cheaper

and better

u learn at ur own pace

[candid field]

cuz then u can spend time with your parents in between sessions

and u even have a privtae tutor

[raw ermine]

yh and start and repeat whatever u dont understand as many times as possible

[candid field]

the main plus point of it

[raw ermine]

yh

the amount of stress school can cause because it wants to rush things is so unhealthy

[rustic rivet]

you can always re-do igcse's right?

[candid field]

ye

[raw ermine]

if that stress is gone, ull even start studying faster coz ur brain will feel relieved

[candid field]

u just need to pay the enrollment fees

and it is like minimum

[raw ermine]

yh but it costs money and time

[candid field]

not really

cuz the price is minimum and u get more time to study

[rustic rivet]

enrollment fees as in the igcse per subject cost thingy?

[raw ermine]

oh ok my bad

[candid field]

no each sub has a diff enrollment fee

[rustic rivet]

okay

alright

[candid field]

u can even take a gap year if u don't feel like studying

[raw ermine]

hope things get better for u tho
if u hate math, finish igcse then find a major that doesnt need it in university

[candid field]

he can't run away from math

he chose commerce

commerce is just math

[raw ermine]

oh commerce....

well then
it's not that hard if u understand
sometimes, the problem is from the teachers

[candid field]

I agree abt the teacher part

the only reason I wuit school

[raw ermine]

yh, a bunch of times the teachers is the jerk

[candid field]

and started homeschoool

[raw ermine]

yh I stuggled in chm for a while coz my teacher hated me for some reason...

[candid field]

haha

[raw ermine]

I just plane out said idk once after he asked me a question ._.

some teachers suck

[rustic rivet]

i dont even need math i hate this shit

[rustic rivet]

@wooden elm same!!! teachers these days are useless

[wintry rampart]

I remember studying in a junior high school where the teachers go way too slow on the syllabus (non-igcse, preferably what I call "Philippine public school education that was last used in 2015), which often led to the teachers just calling it quits once the year ends, with half (selected topics) the book covered

anyways, yes, here's another league rant gone positive; it obviously is the generic "brainlet" tryhard teammates who just wanna kill each other for clout rather than push the bloody towers.

i'll remind most league of legends player here that league of legends is a team-based game where people work together to cripple the enemy towers and nexus, not straight on aiming for a 100/2/35 k/da ratio

[tough slate]

im about to have 5 tests in a day

pray that i dont die k pls thx

[broken heart]

i will pray for you my man

[raw ermine]

imma vent..
so for some reason I feel like Im suffocating
I keep putting pressure on myself and projects for no reason even if I dont understand the lesson or we dont need to do this, along with school homeworks and projects . I have a headache from all what we do and I cant seem to get anything inside my head to stay even though I used to be great at memorizing. Im trying to focus but I C A N T, I dont get distracted but I dont get things even when I try
Heck I dont even procrastinating anymore but I still dont have time
My anxiety and depression are rising up again after I worked so hard to shut them down, my best friend is too.
im starting to get my anger out on my little brothers who dont deserve it.
Im overstressing over how Im going to get a scholarship if I cant get my grades higher, but what can I do more during online?
im starting to get scared of such weird stuff like I get panic attacks because Im scared an earthquake will happen, even though t never did here????

wow that was long

ok thanks

[rustic rivet]

@raw ermine listen junior! this is a part of you growing up, dont take it as a burden or "oh i need to do this or this will happen to me" honestly man when you get done with all of this school stuff, they're gonna be looking at your grades and saying "you didnt do this assignment 3 years ago" type of stuff yknow? just let some things be, let your teachers know you need more time to catch up on things and if possible, email your school counsellor and let them know that you need help dealing with your problems as its all getting overwhelming. I used to think of all this as a burden but right now at the moment im actually ENJOYING it despite the stress, when you look back at this phase in your life, you're going to miss it. So, dont make your memories be harsh on you, alright? There's more in life than doing assignments and being sad about school work, for your anxiety, whenever you seem to have an issue and overthink about something just tell yourself "No, im going to deal with what im thinking about at ( ) to ( ) time" and trust me, once you give yourself a time to deal with all your problems and not think of them the rest of the day, you realize a lot of these things arent as hard as your brain is making them out to be. Take care of yourself and enjoy as you study bud, no need to scorf it down your throat 🙂

[raw ermine]

...wow
that's actually the most insightful thing I've read in idk......
I actually never thought of it that way : 0
Thanks
a lot

[rustic rivet]

yw 😉

laughs in experience from being a volunteering therapist

[dusk thorn]

@wooden elm try studying for 30 mins with 10 min break intervals

My brain does this almost naturally

And it makes me most productive

To a point where I don't even notice if it's half an hour or not

Worst comes to worst you need to chuck your physical distractions out the window

Like your phone

[gleaming sable]

or you could try getting used to the 2 hour study sessions with 30m breaks

[fresh nexus]

i usually take a 10 min break when i start wandering off/getting stuff wrong

[rare scroll]

Does anyone here have an abusive parent and knows how to draw boundaries with one?

Because if you do, pls let me know lmao

Like an abusive parent who triggers your PTSD and makes you want to kill him or her or escape somehow

[raw ermine]

I cant say i have but have u tried talking to them? like a heart-to-heart talk

[rare scroll]

Some people aren't meant for that

Its not both the parent. Its just my dad.

And I actually dont talk to him

Dont prefer to

Because that is how I could live well

[raw ermine]

ur mom? did she talk to him?

[rare scroll]

But when he starts talking to me, it triggers my PTSD and I get anxiety attacks and have a hard time

No. My mom has a trauma bond with my dad.

I have tried telling her how i hate him

Or more clearly

Express

That i dont like him

But because she has a trauma bond with him, she gets all defensive no matter what

And asks me stop

to stop*

Because he's my dad

So i fucked that and i dont talk about it to her

And i avoid talking to my dad because everything that happened to me all these years due to him, makes me want to scream at him

But i cannot do that

I dont want to

Scream

So I dont know how to draw boundaries with him

And make it clear to him to stay away from me

Because he plays family whenever he wants to

And expects us to do the same

Well atleast i cant

Play fucking family with him whenever he is in the right mind

When he never acted like a dad in my life

And then treats me like garbage all the other times

Like wtf is it

[raw ermine]

it doesn't matter if he's ur dad if he is abusive he doesnt have the right to be a parent
u don't have to take a heart to heart talk, and I assume u cant go and tell him directly?
any other family member can do it fo u? like a cousin or something

[rare scroll]

No. No one else can do it for me. It would get way way worse

I dont want anyone else to do it for me

[raw ermine]

if he is abusive I doubt he'll care what u do and wont care if u try to show it, u'll have to tell him to know

[rare scroll]

I just dont know how to start where to start

Its like

Everything piled up for 20years

Or less ofc

And i did nothing but tolerate

[raw ermine]

can I ask how old are you?

[rare scroll]

20

[raw ermine]

then ur in charge of ur own self and if ur that desprate then u dont need him, if he cant see that his loss. ur pretty strong for tolerating it for so long no offense but he shouldn't be a dad

[rare scroll]

Yes he fucking shouldn't be. I have been looking for a way to earn but got nowhere with it. Why because he fucking made me feel awful about how he was feeding me and told such more shit

And now I live an awful life

Knowing

I have to live off of his money

But there's nothing i can do

But just fucking endure it until i grow up some more?

[raw ermine]

it's his responsability
he cant be making judgments because of it

[finite flower]

yoo what

damn

sry for disturbing this convo

my bad

[rare scroll]

I cried so fucking bad yesterday because I have been trying this whole year to just feel fucking fine but he doesnt let me. I have tried for months to talk to this one person i know i could ask for help but its so bad that i just keep postponing it because i cannot start talking abt it

I even lost friends

And everything just gets worse

And my brother's studying abroad while i am here having to deal with my issue, my mom's issues and he doesn't take a share of it

I feel fucking burdened

[rare scroll]

Ya

[rare scroll]

You aren't.

[raw ermine]

ig the main thing u have to do is start, it can help a lot
no one can blame u for feeling that way it's literally traumatic and if u lost friends they never were ur friends

[rare scroll]

That's what I am talking about. I have no idea where or how to start.

What do i start lmao

The only thing that i feel like screaming to him is

I dont see him as my dad

[raw ermine]

ur brother cant help u? like if it's that bad u can find a way to earn and just leave him
or at least, it might be easier to deal with it if u find a therapist.

[rare scroll]

And i hate him

[rare scroll]

I dont have a good idk close relationship with him either. I mean he's good and nice to me but like yeah no we aren't close enough to talk about these and i am sure he has nothing to offer to help me out.

Its hard hard and i mean very hard here in my country to find a way to earn, especially because i am just 20

And on top of that, a girl

[raw ermine]

then well ig the best thing to do is talk to him
not on a deeper level just a way to tell him to just stay away from u. Even if it's hard to start
he doesnt deserve empathy tbh

[rare scroll]

Ya he doesn't. Anyways thankyouu for being here and talking. Really really appreciate it. 💗

[raw ermine]

anytime, and i rlly hope things get better

ur one strong girl : )

[rare scroll]

Thankyou so so much. Hoping I can slowly learn to stand up for myself against him.

[wicked turret]

Its abit too sudden to bring this up but

Short to the point my grandfather is not doing so well

He has fallen to coma atm with a condition called hyperglycemic hypermolar state

And he isn't improving

Doctors said that he has 1 or 2 days to live

Maybe less so

.

Studying for a level has become pointless for me. I dont wish to study nor practice anymore at this point.

I am not dropping but I wont be catching up properly either at this rate

Any good way to cope with this?

I cant sleep properly nor play games.

I admit that I have tried my best at taking care of him yet I am not prepared for inevitable.

He is the reason why I have gotten far in term of education.

[hardy halo]

the thing is

who exactly are you studying for?

for yourself, or for your grandfather?

if you're studying for him, was his intention the wish of you eventually becoming a strong person through studying?

I would bet on it that is his wish

[raw ermine]

Things are always going to be tough in situations like this, but u have to know that well, life keeps moving and things like that will eventually happen, weather it is now or in college or later in life
and time heals, ull feel this way but it wont last, time heals
as @hardy halo said, ur grandfather wouldn't have wanted u to step back because of this and instead wanted u to keep going

u can take a break, ik it's hard to study at this point. Maybe u can even take a gap year until things get better

if he's reason u came this far, it's because he wanted u to succeed. Dont let him down
trust me u'll feel better eventually

[wicked turret]

both

and yes I am aware of the fact that the world will revolve on its own as usual.

people die everyday. but one of the significant ppl in my life that i truly care for is preparing to depart

and i do not wish to take a gap year and put my family in tight financial position

but thank you truly @hardy halo @raw ermine

I will try

[wintry rampart]

bruh i can't stop procrastinating

i got around 4 graded exercises in programming that are due next week

and i am nearly done with one of my graded exercises but i'm too lazy to debug it

[midnight crest]

I'm so mad

My dad is making uni applications so unnecessarily stressful for me

And gets mad if I even say something that goes against his way

Fucking excuse me that I'm not enthusiastic about the whole process when you forced me down this path

[midnight crest]

Parents don't care if I'm happy with it at all they just want to use me like a fucking trophy to show off

[raw ermine]

ur going to have to sooner or later, might as well do it now
procrastination sucks man

[raw ermine]

well in the end if u get to good uni, whether he "shows off" or not ur the one who will leave and get a good career

[raw ermine]

it sucks, but cant u talk to him? tell him u dont like the uni or the stress or anything
although, uni is full stress anyway..

[midnight crest]

He's micromanaging my uni applications thats what I'm stressed sbout

[mild compass]

Feeling so pissed off today

My dad doesn't give enough time to cook to my mum wants her to do some other work

Always

Then now he feels bad that he doesnt do anything and just sits on his phone while she does all the work

Idk how to tell him that

They he comes getting angry at me that appreciate what u have. So I appreciate it but he doesnt be fare to her

He is like if u cross my path I will cross urs

Idk what he is expecting from me

[raw ermine]

well that's not a great dad.....but you know, if he won't do it for u you have to keep trying and do it by urself
even if it's tough and stressful, it will do a lot more good in the future. You don't have to care if he's showing off and as long as you're managing you can do great without your dad

[raw ermine]

That's unfortunately how he was raised and it's usually a problem in culture
he can be under stress too, and doesn't realise ur mom is struggling more becoz that's he saw his father act

it's a problem of mind set and you can't easily change that

[mild compass]

I know so he threatens me now

He feels bad when he knows he doing something wrong

[raw ermine]

did u try talking to him? not in an impulsive way just trying to tell him what u think

[mild compass]

I cant he just flips at me

[raw ermine]

well that's probably making it harder for him to accept or understand anyone else...

does your mom ask him for help?

[mild compass]

No she will do everything he asks

[raw ermine]

instead of trying to talk to him or convince him, idk how you can do this but did u try to show him how much under pressure she is? Tho if he feels guilty I suppose he already knows?...

[mild compass]

He probably knows and doesn't care

[raw ermine]

did u try to convince ur mom to talk to him instead?

[mild compass]

Yeah she says she cant

[raw ermine]

if u cant convince ur mom, u wont be able to convince ur dad.... if this has been going on for while there isnt much she can do, maybe she tried telling him and things went wrong
Ig u can help her instead, until ur dad realises and changes his mind....

[mild compass]

They both think all is good so I cant do anything

[molten oak]

Idek I’m sorry if this sounds weird, but like I really really want to go to uni and all my waking hours all I do is surf the net for jobs so that I can finance my uni. But at this point it feels almost impossible that I’m going to get to uni because it’s just so freaking expensive everywhere and there’s no good scholarships that I can find. I’m losing it.

[last valve]

@molten oak Where are you from?

[molten oak]

Pakistan

[wintry rampart]

bruh... my programming prof's giving too much fucking deadlines

and his "machine project", when split is impossible unless i advance study too much.

my class is currently at strings and he shoves right in input/output redirection using fucking text files

and i'm still stuck, having difficulties with a fucking project

at something that we never learnt

i don't even fucking know how to scan a certain part of a text file and change the fucking format of i don't know what fucking value

[rustic rivet]

isnt there sumn in germany where if you learn german they offer u free education?

[molten oak]

Yes! Except learning German and getting the certificate and stuff is not that easy here

All the free ones in Germany either need me to know enough german to understand a whole undergrad course and like how do I become that fluent in 6 months

[covert dirge]

You could apply for a Studienkolleg

it’s like a prepatory year for German

most unis have that I think

but you do need to have some prior knowledge of German, although not a lot perhaps like A1

[hazy rivet]

Lol

VEanTING

[molten oak]

Yeah I have no knowledge of German like at all, my native language is like so far from German

[glass rain]

Are u from pk ?

[wintry rampart]

regarding my programming situation, i guess that i must take a break.

at least it's due on the 9th.

so imma begin on sunday

[molten oak]

Yeah, Why?

[woven lark]

What language?

[wintry rampart]

c

[glass rain]

Yeah, Why?
@molten oak I’m from here too

[real junco]

Wtf is this

I'm never gonna get an A

And then my parents will kill me

And I got 7 A* 2 A in IGCSE so everyone thinks I'm gonna get As in a levels too

I suck at all the tests we had in class

I dont know which universities or course to apply to cuz I dont even know what I like

I never study because I'm too busy procrastinating

And none of the same study tips everywhere like "turn off all the distractions" "stop procrastinating and you will magically start working" help

And I had to take bio chem physics math which are supposed to be the hardest because again, I dont know what I like

[mild compass]

I feel ya...

[inland flax]

I take physics, chem and maths and oh god, how physics had changed

in O levels, I used to get marks in physics without too much work, literally I wa one of the worst at studiesat some point and still got an A or B, but in A levels it is a whole new level

[mild compass]

😥

I'm already struggling in igcse physics....

[keen kestrel]

How would I deal with burnout

I have exams in Jan, but I don’t have the motivation to grind this month

Any suggestions?

[cosmic ginkgo]

Allow yourself a break it's alright, but make sure you keep the end goal in mind

Think of life in steps with the big goals

And ik group study has a bad reputation but sometimes that relaxed state is okay, so call a couple of friends and set some goals you all want to achieve by the end

Work for a while, ask each other for help, discuss problems, rant to each other

[naive skiff]

Is it fine to always be kind to anyone?

I mean its now that I'm experiencing the faults of always being kind

It's getting frustrating

But I hate it when I don't speak properly or burst out which I don't do much

But I've been taking more work than i can handle and being 'used' I guess

Then there's also the fact that when you're too kind it can backlash

[sour shadow]

Be as blunt as you can be when you meet others for the first time, don’t talk a lot so when you talk people would actually listen you. There’s no mandatory being kind, as long as they are respectful and supporting you, those are the people that you have to keep up as they are the ones who would be there for you, and always keep a small friend group, as quality>quantity exists in situation as this. And also there are moments where you’re getting used to do extra work but trust me, you WILL be burnt out at the end, keep a schedule and relax, trust the process.

[naive skiff]

Thanks @sour shadow

[hazy rivet]

HEEJAw

Heehaw

[unreal oak]

makes sense, but i think a good bit of nuance is the difference b/w kind and not being an asshole

there's no need to people please defo

but i personally believe not being an asshole/basic courtesy is a good baseline to start with

from which things can either get better or worse depending on the person

[dusk thorn]

This is late but it's alright to be kind for sure. Don't exhaust your energy on being a nice person to people who don't really deserve it, but I'm with the move of being nice to everyone you meet.

[naive skiff]

Nothing's too late thanks

[dusk thorn]

You're welcome hun

Also I just wanna say that a lot of the time I just make morbid jokes about my mental stuff, I really don't want anyone to take it seriously and I'll try my best not to say them since it can be uncomfortable

I apologise again if anyone was miffed earlier

[midnight crest]

I could be going to another uni that already accepted me in February next year but I have to forfeit that offer for this one uni

I guess make the most out of this involuntary gap year

[dusk thorn]

That sounds like a mess

Which one is better tho?

[keen kestrel]

https://tenor.com/view/dh9511dh-head-banging-on-the-wall-gif-13355825

😌

[dusk thorn]

@keen kestrel are you okay? :(

[keen kestrel]

yea dw lol

[dusk thorn]

https://tenor.com/view/hug-virtual-hug-hug-sent-gif-5026057

[tawdry star]

Awwwh

[rough holly]

same bro same :(

[midnight crest]

parents want me to wait for this uni's response as it's my first choice

[dusk thorn]

Do you have a backup option in case?

[midnight crest]

I do but the timing is off so I have to reject all my offers for this one uni's response

And I'm not guaranteed that I'll get in

[dusk thorn]

@midnight crest that sounds like a really stressful situation, I'm sorry you're going through that rn

Safest option is to keep all the others open

Rather than narrowing it down to one option

[dusk thorn]

10 mins into chem lesson and my friends are being uhh

What's the English word for it

A cross between a pessimist and a whiney baby

They're bitching about the stupidest stuff like bruh I'm pissed too but my chem teacher ain't speaking Sanskrit

Get a grip

[keen kestrel]

Ayo just don’t give a shit lol

[dusk thorn]

It's hard when your friends are blaming you somehow

Like

The teacher was talking about polarimetry or something like that

So I was like oh that sounds familiar is it about the whole rotation business

She was like yeah

My friends spam the group chat "OMG WHY ARE YOU TALKING LIKE WE TOOK IT"

...we offhandedly mentioned it last year... you can just ask if you're confused...

And then she was asking why things are a certain colour

So I was like yeah things absorb some light waves and reflect others

My friends again

"WE DIDNT TAKE THAT WHY ARE YOU ANSWERING HER"

...its just extra info

[keen kestrel]

don't let people get to you lol

people are stupid sometimes

[dusk thorn]

They are hhh they're being really pissy

Thank you 👉👈💖

[keen kestrel]

tell them stfu or 6w9 gonna spank you

[dusk thorn]

Ok daddy

[finite flower]

i just finished the A2 chem syllabus and i never heard of that term

ig it has smthing to do with polarity

[keen kestrel]

optical isomerism man

[finite flower]

oh

like dextro and leavo shit?

[keen kestrel]

yes

[finite flower]

oh

[keen kestrel]

that shit

[finite flower]

nice

[dusk thorn]

Idk my teacher just said it

I think I spelled it wrong

Nope it's correct

It's the thing with optically active stuff

Rotation of light or something

[keen kestrel]

the detector

[dusk thorn]

Plane of light or idk what

[finite flower]

yeah ik

[keen kestrel]

plane of plane polarized light 💀

[dusk thorn]

YEAH

THAT

👉👈 I have monke brain

[keen kestrel]

we all monkies 👉 👈

[dusk thorn]

be my monke:flushed:

[keen kestrel]

We can do oonga boonga 😳 👉 👈

[dusk thorn]

I have so much work to do and it's so piled up bc our teachers just speed through material

I feel like this rn

I don't even wanna start but I know I have to

[wooden elm]

Having a difficult time prioritizing what to do first

and my routine is garbage, mostly because I like to sit for long hours on one thing instead of switching things up every hour, kind of ruins the flow of things

im getting back to 3h blocks on one thing, but that just makes it worse since i postpone another

and by doing that I unconsciously procrastinate on the shit I hate, while doing what I like

this is a big imrpovement from not being productive at all, but this is quite an issue I have barely done any work in class x, but done a lot in class y ( i don't want to get into them specifically for now)

even though it hsould be easy to guess

Initially I purposefully tried to cut off things before I passed the time I alloted, but I realised that I end up doing things efficiently after 45 minutes or so

[raw ermine]

@wooden elm well, honestly, to stop procrastinating, the initiative has to come from you actually wanting to do that thing and realizing how important it is. But I was and kind of still am a procrastinator so Ill give u what I did to help me stop
1- do a schedule and stick it somewhere u can see it all the time (although I guess you probably did this already).

2- Leave enough time for the things you like doing. For example, if you think you will spend 2h playing video games or doing a subject you enjoy, leave that much time for it in ur schedule (for a start). Slowly, keep reducing the time, even by just three minutes a day. It's all psychological. If your brain is convinced you're still doing the things you like even with an organized schedule, you can stop procrastinating

3- If you seriously try that and it doesnt work, and you still procrastinate while doing them, then put these thing u like at the end of the day. Keep the same time for them tho, it's just so ur brain is more relaxed if there's nothing to do after that

4- dont keep a lot of time for subjects you hate, even if there is a lot to do in them. You dont like a subject, keep a short time for it and tell yourself ull focus in it during that time ONLY, then dont think of the subject again until the next day (again it's all psychological : )

5- Always keep a time limit for the subject, and never exceed the time limit even if u literally didnt do anything. Example, you gave yourself 45min for subject x coz u have an assignment. By the end of the 45min you just did two sentences. Dont keep going or say you have to finish it. Just stop and go do the next thing you have to do. If you allow urself to exceed the time you put for urself, you aint gonna take the schedule seriously. It will take time and A LOT of effort but hey, ur future depends on it : D

wow that's long

idk if this is gonna help u, but it did to me

good luck anyway tho!

[wooden elm]

@raw ermine I mean I don't leave time anymore, removed every game client about a month or 2 ago

and the problem is that I don't keep a lot of time for the subjects I dislike, that is the problem I am trying to fix

And the second problem which you tried to addess in the last bit is that I don't take it seriously which is why the initial problem occurs, but sticking to a schedule with smaller blocks makes it very unproductive if that makes sense, it is clear to see how much potion i finish in the first hour and second hour of continuous work.

you mind if I dm u

[dusk thorn]

@wooden elm hello, I'm sorry that I'm rather late and FHB said some really good advice as well.
You might be experiencing burnout, and even though this won't solve all your problems what really helps me is to take a walk, preferably somewhere I'm familiar with. Rhythmic and repetitive actions help our brain think properly, so whenever it gets too loud in my noggin, I go on a swing or for a walk

Also to be frank sometimes you just have to force yourself to do work. It takes a lot but you just have to get up and do stuff even if you hate it or if it's tedious. You'll feel a lot better getting it out of the way. Worst comes to worse, use negative reinforcement on yourself

[wooden elm]

Yeah ill think about applying what you both has said, thanks

[wooden elm]

what do you mean by negative reinforcement?

[dusk thorn]

Negative reinforcement is sort of like spray bottling yourself when you're not cooperating

Not literally ofc

Like sort of try to punish yourself when you're being a dick and not doing your work

Ofc don't beat yourself up

But take control and prohibit yourself from things like screen time or watching your fave show etc etc

It sounds weird

But it works

[raw ermine]

try to keep a small amount of time then slowly increase it
or dont work on that subject nonstop for a long time, like work on it, stop and study smt else u like, then go back to it in like a loop thing so ur not burdened with it mentally

[tawdry star]

A better technique would be to actively visualize in detail the ways in which you could stray away from your task

[naive skiff]

||And then spend hours day dreaming about it and forgetting your task||

Well I’m leaning on what deuce said it’s a burnout

[uneven burrow]

😂

[naive skiff]

Maybe try 1 or 2 days on finding what suits you right

Which is a short time to understand what is better

Negative reinforcements is not a good option

Just try doing everything at your own pace

Maybe like 1hr of x subject then swap to y

Also sleep properly if you can’t sleep lay down in bed and close your eyes

Sleep affects everything

And cut back on the caffeine

[mild compass]

😔

I want caffeine rn 👀

[mild compass]

who else literally cant function without coffee

[tawdry star]

I can, but only because coffee's in my blood😂

[uneven burrow]

L

[dusk thorn]

yems

Negative reinforcement is good tbh

Might not work for everyone

But it's basically just forcing yourself to do what you need to do

Positive reinforcement is an option too

Depends on what kind of person you are

I do a mix of positive and negative

[dusk thorn]

You should really cut it out of your life

[mild compass]

I can't keep my eyes open without it tho 🥺

[dusk thorn]

I was like you little man

You can't keep doing it

Ruins a lot of things

Your general health is at stake

[finite flower]

then maybe try fixing ur sleep schedule?

[mild compass]

Easier said than done homie

[finite flower]

thats why i said try

[rough holly]

why not try to decrease your coffee by a little bit each day?

it might help

[unreal oak]

Tbh taking it black isnt that bad

It's milk and sugar that really makes it bad

[rough holly]

if you cant do that then just try decreasing the milk and sugar by a little bit in a set amount of time

not that it matters but thats how i got out of y bubble tea addiiction):

:)

[mild compass]

Yeah ig I'll try that

[rough holly]

doesnt matter if it not possible as long as you tried

or trying every time you want coffee - have a piece of gum or a big glass of water

[dusk thorn]

I agree with this

When I quit caffeine I spent a big amount of time in a constant state of sleepiness and a headache

The withdrawal is insane

But better than ever now

[mild compass]

how long did it take you

[dusk thorn]

I honestly don't remember because it was a blur. I think the withdrawal lasted a week

It felt like a month to me

But yeah about a week and with lots of sleep

[mild compass]

oh ok

[dusk thorn]

You'll be fine

Listen don't get me wronf

Wrong

Coffee won't like

Murder you and your kids

[mild compass]

😂 😂

[dusk thorn]

But you can do without it and it'll be better for you in the long run

I speak from experience and research

If you like the taste, go for decaf

[mild compass]

i need it for staying awake so ig fixing my sleep should be the priority

[dusk thorn]

Definitely

How old are you or do you not want to share

[mild compass]

but its good to know it doesnt take long to get out the habit

[mild compass]

16

[dusk thorn]

Tiny man

[mild compass]

:/

[dusk thorn]

Go to bed early in a way that you have a 30-1 hour time frame to fall asleep

I'm messing with you

I'm just a year older than you

[mild compass]

ohhh 😂

[dusk thorn]

🤣🤣🤣🤣

Don't take anything I say personally

Just being funny poo

Anyway

Give yourself a good timeframe to fall asleep

[mild compass]

noted 😂

[dusk thorn]

Also force yourself to wake up early even if you didn't fall asleep well

You need to get your body into rhythm

And power through the day without da java

[mild compass]

Yeah true

[dusk thorn]

Oh and

Fun fact

I heard about this interesting thing

Not sure if it's true

But apparently there's "bear" and "lion" personalities in terms of sleep?

[mild compass]

Is this a Mario Judah reference

[dusk thorn]

The bear can sleep and wake up at any time and feel refreshed, and their energy stays constant throughout the day
The lion prefers waking up early and they're most productive during daylight hours
Not sure if it's true but maybe give it a look? Because personally I prefer waking up early, makes me feel way less sluggish

A what now son

[mild compass]

Nvm 😂😂

[mild compass]

But yeah I'll check that out

Thanks

[dusk thorn]

You're welcome

Feel free to message me if you need anything

[rough holly]

@mild compass - not really to do with coffee buttttt which show is your pfp from

[mild compass]

Darling in the franxx

I should prolly change it cuz this one trend is making the whole fanbase look like a bunch of incels

[rough holly]

ahhh i was gonna watch that - my friend suggested it to me

[mild compass]

you should if u get the chance

pretty good anime

[rough holly]

rn im watching assassination classroom gotta finish that first

[mild compass]

ah nice

[rough holly]

ahh your new one is kakegurui

idk how spell it whoops

that one is sooo good thoo

[mild compass]

yeah i think u got it right

[mild compass]

yeah i rlly liked it

[rough holly]

i loved it :)

do you have myanimelist?

[mild compass]

nah

[rough holly]

sadness

[mild compass]

what does it do?

[rough holly]

it basically just tracks the anime that you have watched

[mild compass]

oh thats pretty cool

[rough holly]

this shows what it looks like

[mild compass]

ayo thats pretty cool

[rough holly]

yk anyone that wants to add feel free too :)

[mild compass]

guess ill make an account

[rough holly]

add me when you make ittt

if you want too

[mild compass]

aight will do

[wooden elm]

sugar in coffee tastes bad once you acquire a liking to the taste of coffee

@mild compass you changed it to ooh

so you are watching the not so mainstream shows huh

kakegurui lmao

wait wrong chat my bad

[mild compass]

kakegurui is kinda mainstream tbf

it blew up cuz of netflix

[naive skiff]

Anime not in venting plz

#manga-and-anime

[uneven burrow]

lol

[dusk thorn]

My sister just told me to watch it

[mild compass]

Your sister has immaculate taste

[dusk thorn]

She does ngl

She's a bit more weeby than I am

[mild compass]

No shame in being a bit weeby

https://youtu.be/Ot2A13J82-s

Unless ur like this guy which in that case you should just kill yourself

[dusk thorn]

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

[dusk thorn]

I've come here to scream about my ruined microscope slide

ABAIS 8SIZAJSJD EJXI9SENEIZH3IDUW72I49RUZNAJDKDMWJSSJW9SDNEMFKOXBWI3NDISNDLR

Thank you for coming to my tedtalk

live video of me rn

[mild compass]

You seem like you vibing ngl

[tawdry star]

Awwh

[keen kestrel]

#559409845300756496

[dusk thorn]

Suck your mum

Counts as vent

[rough holly]

haha

[dusk thorn]

I am NOT

jk I'm not as upset as I seem

[mild compass]

[dusk thorn]

@mild compass you good homie?

[mild compass]

I dunnoo :///

[dusk thorn]

Feel free to rant if you need it

What's up?

[mild compass]

uhhhhhhhhhhh

nuh,I'll just not..thanks :33

[dusk thorn]

You're welcome anyway uwu

[mild compass]

Uwu..lol

[stark marsh]

You’re free to rant all you want no one’s there to judge you

||unless some desi aunty joins the server||

[rough holly]

^^^^^^^^

[mild compass]

😂 😂 😂 😂 😂 😂

[spark sonnet]

ur depressed bc of that phone <3

[stark marsh]

wat

[mild compass]

OML XD

[spark sonnet]

brown joke

im mocking poc relatives and aunties and such

at least sparkles got it lmao

[stark marsh]

ohhhh

i get it now

[dim zodiac]

LMFAO

[rough holly]

i like how you repeated word for word what my parents said to me

[rough holly]

imma invite my aunt

she would judge you sm

[proven cosmos]

ur depressed bc of that phone <3
@spark sonnet i mean

kinda true?

dk about depressed but sad, sure

fd up my dopamine thats for sure

enjoying anything that isnt an instant dopamine release is so difficult now

imagination gone poopoo

paying attention at slow things like studying is ugh

[dusk thorn]

Tbh based

You're lowkey right

I'm just sort of lucky to have not gotten a phone addiction

But I dont agree with aunties and parents shaming their kids for their feelings

Like yes it actually might be their phone

Help them.properly

[proven cosmos]

yeah truee

kids these days have access to phones even earlier

[mild compass]

Fr bro I have like 2 year old cousins who know how to call and use YouTube and shit

It's actually mad

[dusk thorn]

I've been in this math session for an hour and 30 minutes

This is not pog

[uneven burrow]

sad ):::; hopefully youll get through it

[dusk thorn]

Bro i am literally dying

This guy just talks and talks and talks

I have an outing after this come on

[uneven burrow]

mhm noice

[uneven burrow]

RIP

[uneven burrow]

good luck, how long left. ||also what topic are you learning ||

[dusk thorn]

Vectors - lines in space

Pretty easy

Kind of a drag

[uneven burrow]

oooh

[uneven burrow]

[dusk thorn]

You're GCSE so you wouldnt recognise it but you might have taken vectors

[uneven burrow]

haha yeah,,,,

[finite flower]

vectors are ez

[dusk thorn]

Easier than it sounds, my teacher just makes it boring

Yeah

[uneven burrow]

im doing additional maths tho many as topics covered

[dusk thorn]

We doing this stuff

[uneven burrow]

lol

GOOOD LUCK

[dusk thorn]

With my teachers copyright all over this fuxkinf paper

@finite flower

[uneven burrow]

Lol

COPYRIGHT

😂

[finite flower]

lmao

[uneven burrow]

so big

[finite flower]

he seems to have a big ego

[uneven burrow]

indeed haha

is vector space in the syllabus or anything related to it?

my teacher said it was thought in a levels couldnt find it anywhere tho

in the syllabus when i looked it up

[dusk thorn]

FUCKING HUGE

This guy has an insanely big ego

He hates my guts for not worshipping him

[dusk thorn]

It should be

It wouldn't be a green paper if it wasn't

[uneven burrow]

SAD )::

[uneven burrow]

Lol

[dusk thorn]

Yeah he makes these papers

[uneven burrow]

ooh

good luck with them!! haha

[mild compass]

looks like a 5 year old did it lmao, one copyright is diagonal

[finite flower]

lol i saw that

[cold geode]

hello

[uneven burrow]

hello dude

[cold geode]

what is this server? physic?

[finite flower]

no

[cold geode]

cuz top said you matter

[finite flower]

You matter

[cold geode]

ye

ik

just asking

lol

[uneven burrow]

lol

yes you metter

@dusk thornBRUHHH

GUESS WHAT

HE COPIED IT FROM ONLINE HAHA

[mild compass]

send that man to jail tf

[uneven burrow]

bruhh please expose that dude lmfao

[uneven burrow]

i - did he tell u that lol

haha lol all i understand in that question is what i j and k and lambda represent RIPPPPP

a level = crazy

[stark marsh]

It doesnt look that hard in my perspective and idek why

[uneven burrow]

ooh

u doing a levels ?

[stark marsh]

Nope

[uneven burrow]

ohhh

oke

[cosmic ginkgo]

I,j,k are just X,y,z and lambda is a random variable for a parameter, it's more of a notation problem than a math problem you're seeing

[uneven burrow]

ooh i see

[dusk thorn]

I know

But he thinks its his work

Bc he put it together

[dusk thorn]

Ikr lol

Anyway

[uneven burrow]

lol

[dusk thorn]

I'm going to cut the conversation now

Bc I dont wanna flood the ventubf

[uneven burrow]

bai - bai -

[dusk thorn]

Venting

[uneven burrow]

oke

[dusk thorn]

Also go to #original-content I'm posting my fit there

[uneven burrow]

oki

[wintry rampart]

i honestly want to drop out of my it course and switch to a photography course

this programming shit's too insane.

insane difficult

with stupid ass projects that are far too difficult for my mind to handle

i've already worked on one for 3 hours straight and yet, nothing came.

[unreal oak]

what are you working on?

[wintry rampart]

this. my issue's specifically highlighted.

as of now, i literally do not know how to scan data from a given range of dates.

[unreal oak]

what language is this?

[wintry rampart]

c

[unreal oak]

lets move to the programming channel

[wintry rampart]

alright.

as of now, i am consulting with one of my classmates and he told me that he's gonna work for it.

that bloody machine project's due in 2 weeks.

[wintry rampart]

no wonder why that channel's unresponsive when i ask for help

even when i provide as much information as possible

i might as well upload my test file there.

i guess that this is another bad attempt to rid of procrastination.

we have a programming channel, and i am explaining everything i need to get that function working

coder role on extracurriculars (#roles)

or otherwise, CS Helper

[cosmic ginkgo]

its the coder role

[wintry rampart]

i believe that if i get this function to work, it would only leave me with the need to code a function that gets the minimum, maximum and average of the closing stock prices within the specified date range

and this is one big ass hurdle that i must jump before procrastination hits me hard

[spark sonnet]

writing a personal statement is ass

i have 12 days to write mine

h

[naive skiff]

Having continuous projects is really tiring

And the sudden rush in the completion of the portion before feb

[uneven burrow]

Rip,good luck guys

[indigo glade]

My bio teacher just denied me 2 marks although I wrote 10/7 points on a free response question

Even the ms doesnt require ATP mentioning why does he??

[spark sonnet]

report that mofo

[uneven burrow]

yeah

[spark sonnet]

fml i don't know if doing a dual honours of bio and psychology is a good idea anymore

[stark marsh]

Just wanna say my head hurts

From constant studying

Which is really screwing my brain up more

Not to mention online classes and the screen time

[spark sonnet]

why are you studying so much?

[stark marsh]

It happens when I'm just 20 mins in studying

An alternative i use is studying while eating so it doesnt hurt much

But this really affects how im memorising stuff

[spark sonnet]

that can't be pleasant, im sorry to hear

it's probably stress rather than constant studying

have you considered using intense blue light filters on your devices?

[cosmic ginkgo]

Try drinking a lot of water too, I got headaches the other day because I was dehydrated

And sleep, do your best to sleep 7-8h

[spark sonnet]

yems^

[stark marsh]

Yep im using it and its a habit

Soothing

[spark sonnet]

good good

try taking a walk between classes and get the blood moving

also

a healthy remedy to headaches is ginger

specifically ginger tea or ginger ale (you can make both at home)

[stark marsh]

Well i do have ginger tea often

Also @cosmic ginkgo that joke about blue light filter and uv glasses

Im actually doing that

[cosmic ginkgo]

My eyes hurt if I don't have my blue light filter on tbh

I'm too used to it now

But never got the glasses

[stark marsh]

Blue light filter glasses to be specific but

It kinda helps ig

I already have blf on my phone and I'm used to it

The normal one its like discord light mode

And i do try using on my pc but it discomforts my brothers

[keen kestrel]

I usually do gin or vodka

But it’s personal preference

[stark marsh]

I prefer juice

But since i shifted countries all i get is juice with soo many additives and sugar

[cosmic ginkgo]

If you're in India, the Tropicana minute maid was nice

[carmine sky]

I really want to improve on my attention span, it's so bad that I can only pay attention in class for 25 minutes max, what do I do to fix it

[spark sonnet]

try a repetitive action (kneading something like a stressball), also sometimes an earpiece with music playing can help

keeping yourself engaged in a "background activity" can help

jotting down quick notes as well can also help you stay engaged and absorb info faster

and forces you to pay attention in a sense

[stark marsh]

music works really well

[finite flower]

not for everyone

[woven lark]

It works with some ppl yeah

Sometimes you start singing. Not studying, sometimes you start studying, to the beat.

You should listen to background music to get started. I suggest some binaural beats. Or some peaceful guitar.

[spark sonnet]

yeah not for everyone

[woven lark]

With no lyrics

[spark sonnet]

yems

[woven lark]

Why are you the cooler one😔

Deuce is the coolest

[spark sonnet]

i am deuce

lmao

this is just my pc

here wai

t

[woven lark]

WHAT😭DEUCEEE

[dusk thorn]

Peekaboo

[woven lark]

damn

I like ur roles

segzy

[dusk thorn]

I know right

[spark sonnet]

it helps a lot of neurodivergents

not all

like

my personal experience is that often really loud music with a constant bpm is really good for math

for chemistry it's minecraft music or something a little less loud

and it changes

[woven lark]

that’s so trueeee

[spark sonnet]

constant stuff makes brain relacc

thats why neurodivergents stim

[spark sonnet]

AYYYYYYYYYYYYY

[woven lark]

i can listen to anything with maths

[spark sonnet]

for math i need something with a good beat

sexualiser by pertubator >>>

[woven lark]

imma check that out

[naive skiff]

Lyrics aren't great i agree

[woven lark]

hey waffles :)

[naive skiff]

Yo ray

[woven lark]

Was poppin

[tranquil moon]

the popcorn in the microwave

[woven lark]

I get that a lot

[tranquil moon]

wait rlly?

[woven lark]

Yeah, I ask ppl whats poppin

they say pop corn

[tranquil moon]

sad, i thought i was being original ;-;

😔

[woven lark]

haha

I cant think of anything else popping

[tranquil moon]

hmm

[woven lark]

OOOOH pimples

[tranquil moon]

i-

[woven lark]

;) big brain

[tranquil moon]

ah yes

oh wait what about bottles with corks

technically a pop right?

[finite flower]

pop goes the weasel

[woven lark]

Yesss

[woven lark]

Yesssss

[dusk thorn]

Man I'm mad

[uneven burrow]

yes? why? what happened

[dusk thorn]

Let's summarise it

Be me talking to my father about some good stuff (I'm getting a recommendation letter from the best teacher in the entire school)

And I go on to ask him how I look/if I lost weight etc

And he said some really sweet things and said I look gorgeous (I've been working really hard on myself)

My mother asked why I was so smiley

I told her about the recommendation and my personal body achievement

She

Did not congratulate me at all

And said I shouldn't eat as much sugar and I'd look better

[woven lark]

Omg

Man, leave her

I get that as well

You look great

[keen kestrel]

you're pretty the way you are

don't let people fuck with you