Oh okay yeah that's why I was confused
#venting
cosmic ginkgo
vivid coral
if you think your grade has a chance of improving you should send it for a remark! Best of luck! 👍
sly trellis
Guys I'm kinda depresso now, so I told my mum about my ESL score (which was 87 btw) and she got so pissed about it and started shouting at me
I didn't think the score was too bad but my mum made it seem a lot worse than I initially thought
Now I'm just questioning my ability to do first lang and lit this year
She said that unis only look at the letter grade and there is a large difference between a and a* (even tho I was only 3 marks off)
muted pond
A and A* result in the same GPA for US
4.0
Send for re evaluation if you think you did well enough that your grade could increase
I don't know how ESL works but I'm assuming it's more subjective, which means your score is more likely to change than in something like say a physics mcq paper where the answers are objective
And I won't deny that if you took ESL that by default makes it difficult for you to do LangLit
And imho it's okay if you didn't get an A* in ESL, supposedly that's more difficult than getting an A* in FLE as in my batch nobody got A* for ESL while people did for FLE
cosmic ginkgo
But keep one thing in mind, when you send it for a remark, it's not actually marked by another examiner, it is re evaluated to see if that mark is fine. And unless there's a huge mistake, it probably won't change with sth like ESL
sly trellis
Oh uh ESL is compulsory for everyone actually since my country’s native language is not english
So would it make a huge difference when I apply for uni?
Will they like look at it?
And no I don't think will resit or anything like that
Thank youuu
muted pond
@sly trellis Yeah there's no point in resitting unless you did absolutely horrible, which you didn't. I was talking about re evaluation or re marking.
And I think they would look more at your LangLit thing first
Which you are going to do now, right?
sly trellis
I think I wouldn't send it to be remarked either, I mean yeah I think I'll be focusing on now rather than what happened with ESL
muted pond
I guess you could give TOEFL or IELTS
sly trellis
The results kinda made me realize I didn't prepare enough
muted pond
Same
tbh a lower than expected result in IGCSE may set you up for a better result in say, IB
sly trellis
I spent a week and a half revising for it
muted pond
If your mindset is right, ofc
muted pond
No need to thank but you're welcome i guess lol
sly trellis
I just kinda needed my confidence back after that
muted pond
The thought process I used to not get anxious at all for results was that I basically had my results when I gave my exams, 3 months ago
Why should what happened 3 months ago affect you now? If anything it should only have affected you then...
which is why it didn't really hit me much when I got my results
Don't let the results affect your confidence negatively
sly trellis
True, but for me it was more of my mum berating me that made me lose confidence in myself
Much thank you
sly trellis
I wasn't confident enough to talk about it with my friends since they got such good scoressss
It's k
ya knoww typical asian parent here
muted pond
Don't compare with others, compare with yourself, where you were, where you started, and how much you've improved
If you really improved in a subject over the course of the two years it'll really give you a great deal of motivation
empty trout
yes he is
mild compass
Indeed he is
muted pond
As an example, 3 years ago I was at my lowest in math, could barely manage an A or a B, I still decided to push myself, go for the most difficult available option cause I had the passion, the dedication and the need (for my career) and took math extended + math add. Got A* in ext, decent, but then I did what I had aspired to do, made the thought I began with a reality; getting an A* in Add Math, improving from a score of 28/80 to 76/80 over a year and I did that, with nothing other than my own sheer will and dedication. Math is the easiest subject to improve in. All you need is practice. Nothing else, Nothing less, Nothing more.
Regardless, keep in mind that everything on that sheet of paper, good or bad has resulted from your own blood and sweat and all those sleepless nights and arduous working hours. In the end, it doesn't matter what you got as much as what you did to get it. Don't look at what you didn't get but rather be happy that you persevered through. It doesn't matter if it was little effort or a lot. You still worked, and you worked hard.
Oops sorry about the long paragraphs once i get writing i just keep going
@empty trout
empty trout
;-;
lapis quartz
@muted pond Thanks for the motivation, needed that for maths
muted pond
And guys it's no gift or skill to motivate people; everyone can do it, YOU can do it yourself, and you can do it for yourself. All it takes is a push in the right direction and the desire to adopt the right thinking. You can make tasks that are nightmarishly difficult possible as long as you eliminate thoughts of 'giving up', which is always possible.
HOWEVER, this doesn't mean you go chasing after the impossible. Even though I'm the kind of person to say 'Nothing is impossible', certain things are not meant to be and I've encountered such things myself, although this percentage of things is very miniscule. You needn't worry about those.
vivid coral
Adi is a great boi
tropic knoll
the first 2 letters of impossible it'self means
I'M Possible
muted pond
Yes so if something is impossible it's literally shouting at you that it's possible "I'm Possible"
use logics and common sense to motivate yourself ez
👍
coarse raven
if this random click can get you over 5k google views, anything can 😂 never give up
mild compass
👍
tropic knoll
empty trout
What's wrong? 😦
chrome oasis
you okay @coarse raven?
empty trout
He's asleep 😦
mild compass
No matter wht the problem is
we r here for u @coarse raven
coarse raven
thanks mate, im fine now tho @mild compass wasnt serious but thanks anyways
mild compass
np .. any problem comes in ur way .. here to help
midnight crest
I'm getting better with my friends' support
But sometimes I wish I wasn't in Alevels y'know
At least, not this early
Not even sure if I actually want to study the degree I've chosen
Going into Alevels wasn't my choice and it definitely caused me more grief than I would like
But whenever I try to confide with my family they'd always be like "if u think Alevels is hard, wait till you get into uni, get a job"
chrome oasis
if it was your choice, what would you have chosen?
midnight crest
Admittedly, Hotel Management or Animation
But most likely, I'd rather go into the may intake rather than Jan intake
So I could have a half year break after my Sec school exams before going back into education
I finished my exams in mid December last year and started Alevels on the second day of January
I suppose it's burnout?
chrome oasis
that's totally understandable, man. why didn't you take the gap?
midnight crest
I was planning to get a part time job during my break and apply for the may intake
My family forced me to go into Jan intake
Or else I'm "wasting time"
And since my siblings went straight into Jan intake and did well, of course "I'd do well as well" since I'm supposedly the "smartest"
The only reason why I'm not faring well is because I'm not trying hard enough
chrome oasis
trying hard enough in your studies?
oblique trench
I can totally relate to that :/
Wanted to join january intake which is a 2 years course, parents made me join a one year instead and I cant even keep up with anything anymore lol
midnight crest
I'm doing better in both chem and math since I found appreciation with them
But physics, I just can't appreciate it and I'm failing badly in that
Mood shin-ah
Especially with how rushed everything is and how ill-prepared we were at the start
Can't help but feel a bit miserable ig
I'm doing better now thanks to my friends
But sometimes I just slip back into this mindset
oblique trench
Aww, I hope you will get over it and have easier time to digest everything!
midnight crest
I still have a month left to get my bearings together and ace my exams
I'm p sure I can do it
chrome oasis
that's the spirit man, yes, yes you can do it
midnight crest
Lol thanks
oblique trench
\o/
I am planning to defer and do my a2 next may instead of this oct tbh
Need to ask parents first :T
midnight crest
And besides if I do well it's my ticket to freedom from suffocation in my parents' house
Not that they're bad people or anything. They're great
oblique trench
High expectation?
chrome oasis
but that mindset? it happens. yes you're gonna have off days where, like you said, you're going to feel miserable. but you know the best thing about mindsets? you can grow out of it. you can work thru it, and you will. you have a month left, you are going to get ur shit together and ace them, and we're all here for u if u ever need help, okay?
midnight crest
Since I've apparently proven i was a bright child
Don't know what happened there lol
chrome oasis
lmao same honestly like high expectations can really suffocate huh
midnight crest
Running on my last overworked braincell
chrome oasis
mood lmao
midnight crest
It's okay, cat cafes are a thing
oblique trench
If only I have the money to even buy plain water there
midnight crest
If I do well in my AS exams I'm treating myself to a day at the cat cafe
chrome oasis
and then everyone just expects u to be "perfect" alll the time and if u dont do as well as they expected you to do well it's hellish
hell yea
cat cafes are great
midnight crest
And you know???? Cats are ||fucking|| adorable
oblique trench
That does sounds like an amazing reward
midnight crest
Thanks though you two
chrome oasis
they aree !!
midnight crest
For listening haha
dusty vortex
i got a cat
chrome oasis
of course man, anytime
midnight crest
A cast????
dusty vortex
cat
midnight crest
Did I break smt???
chrome oasis
we're here for u and if u ever wanna vent dms are always open 
oblique trench
Lololol
midnight crest
Oh oop lmao
chrome oasis
omg omg send pics of cat !!
dusty vortex
lemme find
oblique trench
OHH CAN I SEND MINE TOO
midnight crest
Uhhhhh where lol
chrome oasis
YES U CAN
midnight crest
Original content???
chrome oasis
in #chat-lounge
well unless u are the cat i dont think it qualifies for original content 😂
midnight crest
U rite
chrome oasis
when am i ever wrong
muted pond
When you're not right obviously
oblique trench
Hmm, how do I convince my parents to let me take A2 next may instead of doing it all together with AS this nov :/
kinda briefly talked to mom earlier and she looks like she hates that idea haha
Mainly because I have to pay for another semester and it is better to finish quickly
But really, we only had 3 months learning A2 syllabus and I am not prepared at all haha
And having to juggle with AS kinda stress me out ;-;
and the fear of not getting the results I desired.. especially after the mock exam, I realized how unprepared I am for A2 xd
I talked to the counsellor and my teachers though, all of them support my idea to do A2 next year, more time to prepare myself after all
Instead of repeating which is a hassle and depressing haha
cosmic ginkgo
Could it be possible for your counselor to talk to your parents?
oblique trench
Nah, did suggest that they talk to my counsellor and teacher but they're like, too busy to see them or even call them? 😛
Tbh, it's mostly due to the fees and how ''ohh that person can complete A level in 8 months but you cant?"
cosmic ginkgo
@haughty ibex what's up sis? Everything alright?
cosmic ginkgo
Aw sis, hope you get even better
keen kestrel
Stay strong pal
haughty ibex
Its tough
haughty ibex
Ya but this is my best friend
He n i hv been fighting a lot
Im always sure that our friendship will last
But he just...gives up on us so easily
It hurts
Anyways nvm that bye thx everyone
pallid ember
wat
chrome oasis
@haughty ibex hey man, how're you doing?
chrome oasis
hey that's great !! rlly glad to hear that
haughty ibex
😊
midnight crest
Can I do a small rant
empty trout
@midnight crest Yes of course
midnight crest
Someone in another discord told me that victims of bullying should 'grow a spine and fight back' and dismissed my experience of being bullied lmao
oblique glen
How do you guys have the ability to concentrate on studying. I got my AS results, lower than expected, so i decided to uninstall all my games to focus on studying for A2. But after like 2-3 weeks, right now when i study or do past papers, i always just procrastinate and just starting reading novels online, and then do a bit of studying.
Mainly just reading
midnight crest
I have a timer thingy on my phone that blocks all social media and distractions
Or you can ask someone to keep your distractions from you
oblique glen
yeah that would help
but i would start day dreaming
how do you have the motivation to study
because i know good grades decide your uni
but at the same time i dont mind
muted pond
Scroll up maybe what i wrote will help you
oblique glen
It's not that i cannot do it, it's just after a while i just think, why go through all the trouble, it's not like i'll fail, i can just go for an easier course.
midnight crest
Hmm you can change the mindset to why not go through all the trouble
midnight crest
Why don't you wanna do your best and see what you're capable of
oblique glen
it's like a cycle
midnight crest
Try thinking more to "how can I make this worth it"
oblique glen
I honestly have no idea
I just randomly have a motivation
and just lose it
again and again
I know short term benefits of watching tv, relaxing is tempting
and that in the long run, it's better to study hard
but i think it's because after a while, you can't see a gain in terms of your marks
for example improving from D to A is noticable
but improving from A to A* is something that takes a longer time to build up and see the results put in by said effort
idk
It feels like no matter how many past papers I do, my marks is kept constant around a certain mark
midnight crest
Hmm well it's AS
AS is already half the battle
If you do well in AS all you need to worry about is A2
Rather than stacking it all at once it's like building a tower with Lego????
cosmic ginkgo
Same.. I relate to you @oblique glen
mild compass
have anyone felt like it takes ur everything to reach a point of life u wanna be in ?
like its draining u bit by bit everyday
but ur trying to hang on
how to motivate urself then
when ur surrounded by some ppl who just keep breaking u
some ppl who u cant share ur pains too
and a few
who just are there in ur life but they dont give a damn or use ur misery against u
wise flower
I relate
Dont worry. Ur not alone.
But in times like these. All you have to do is hold on and say to urself. I'mma be big one day . And prove all these mofos wrong.
mild compass
Yesss @wise flower ... Hope I'm capable enough
wise flower
@mild compass I hope I am too. And I know you are♥️ just think! I'mma prove those fuckers wrong and u'll do it
mild compass
@wise flower yes we both will no doubt ♥️
keen kestrel
How to deal with sleep problems 😩
oblique trench
you dont uwu
In all honesty though, the last time I wasn't able to sleep to sleep correctly, I just forced myself to sleep right after 10pm 😛
Like, literally 2 hours of laying down doing nothing in that exact position.
That kinda helped me, fell asleep afterwards and walaa
chrome oasis
is there something in particular that's preventing you from falling asleep?
midnight crest
Wow
Apparently we have classes during our actual AS exams
That's tooooootally not panic inducing at all
steady grove
More than half of the class just got bad results in IGCSE
Some people will retake and some will continue their igcse
And some will just take AS level
But some of us are already struggling in AS level
midnight crest
Exactly
And nope the teachers all warned us against skipping because we're covering A2 and we'd be screwed if we skip
steady grove
Rip
unreal oak
You wanna talk about what's on your mind?
haughty ibex
We had our farewell svheduled fr yesterday
It was supposed to start at 12pm
The rain got rlly bad tho
So at 11.59am
the school cancelled it
unreal oak
Ah shit that fucking sucks
unreal oak
I coudn't attend mine
haughty ibex
Dressed up n excited
unreal oak
I relate
haughty ibex
Oh thats horrible
N plus
A lot of my 'friends'dnt wanna talk 2 me
Asking me or korthi?
unreal oak
@haughty ibex ooft why what happened?
haughty ibex
Well jus they stop replying to texts
While they continue to reply to my best friends texts
N it jus makes u lose confidence in urself
unreal oak
Fuck that's nasty
haughty ibex
No matter how much u promise urself u wnt let it bother u
N worst part is
Ppl jus assume im smart n everything must b sorted fr me
N while i cn ignore it during the day time
It just creeps up on me at night n is the most awful feeling ever
Being alone
unreal oak
Yes that is also a variety i've experienced
muted pond
No
unreal oak
Not at all
haughty ibex
Okay
muted pond
You need to let out your emotions
unreal oak
It took me years to accept that, but once I did it made my life much more bearable
empty trout
Crying means you've been very strong for all these years sweetie
haughty ibex
Thanks
muted pond
Weakness is relative
unreal oak
The people with the strongest exterior often have the most pain and tears inside
It's a fact of life
haughty ibex
Yea
N i dont think anyone has seen my pain on the ouyside
I keep it hidden
Wake up wid a smile everyday
Go thru the day as best i cn
but wen night comes
like u said wen youre in bed
It jus hits u all of a sudden
unreal oak
Yeahh
muted pond
can relate
haughty ibex
But i jus get more negativity my way
unreal oak
ooft
haughty ibex
Sux
unreal oak
@haughty ibex But at least you have that one best friend
unreal oak
Yeahh I relate to that feeling
haughty ibex
Yea
unreal oak
But only if you let it out somewhere you'll be at peace
haughty ibex
Cn u also relate to feeling needy cuz u need someone more than they need u?
haughty ibex
Yea thats also a lot what im feeling rn
unreal oak
Yeahh it sucks
muted pond
You could scroll up to something like that said by someone else i guess
unreal oak
Anytime sis @haughty ibex
muted pond
I did nothing lmao but welcome nonetheless
lapis anchor
@unreal oak I agree with that deeply :^)
The strongest are often the ones who became strong to not be weak
chrome oasis
hey @haughty ibex that's wonderful to hear; glad to know ur doing better ❤
vivid coral
dat's the spirit
muted pond
Don't forget, strength is relative
wise flower
Ever feel left out? Even when you have put your heart and soul into things? You put in so much hard work to realize you just..weren't good enough
mild compass
@wise flower I feel u there … no matter how much u try … some times all tht hard work just doesnt show the results u want
but tht doesn't mean u weren't good enough … times such as rn maybe testing u to see if u will give up or not
to see if ur a fighter or not
cuz things comes to those who keep on fighting for it through all ups and downs in life
its hard to see others moving on well in their lives
and u just not able to take another step in life
but u will be able to move a thousand steps more than them after u past through this tough time
keep working hard … cuz in the end the fruit of ur hard work is so damn sweet … it will make others burn !!
and hungry
lets burn those ppl together … wha du ya say ?
mild compass
@wise flower Tht's the spirit !!!
mild compass
Have you read this anywhere?...
Being normal is like being a chameleon. You adapt to what is deemed normal in different environments. What sets a chameleon apart are those who don’t restrict themselves to what is deemed normal and if someone points it out or, treats you differently because you don’t “fit in”, they’re jealous of your courage. Uniqueness and individuality is very important towards your character, and it shouldn’t be pushed down. There’s always someone in the crowd that will notice your uniqueness, and often you find better relationships with people by being yourself, then to force yourself to be “normal” or, figuratively use a file to sand off your “quirkiness” for the purpose of fitting in. Normal is a pretty relative term so, normal means different things for different people: Brushing your teeth in the shower? Normal for some. Not normal for me. if you don't remember it was by my dear friend @lapis anchor .
lapis anchor
Didn't I- Say that?
sand haven
F
calm turtle
i recommend nietzsche if you feel like youre gonna fail your exams
solemn jackal
F
muted pond
F
keen kestrel
F
lavish geode
@lapis anchor u gay so its irrelevant
muted pond
Ok
vivid coral
F
mild compass
well...ehh
wise flower
hey guys. check these guys out...
They talk about about relateable issues.. Maybe it might help to know you're not the only one 😉
lavish geode
you're*
tight egret
Everything is been going wrong in my life the past two weeks
I feel like screaming
And even studies it’s just the beginning but Ian not getting a hold of it
I feel like I’ll be failing this year
Just had to let that out
tight egret
Today has been one of the worst days of my life
I just want to disappear
I feel like everything is going down hill
Life is not good rn
And I f**king hate school it’s torture
When Iam there my social anxiety is at its highest
solemn jackal
Woah
midnight crest
Can I just say pure math 3 is such a pain in the ass that I want to just crawl into a ditch and cease to exist
Everyone is talking about exams and wow just existing in class makes me tired af
chrome oasis
@tight egret how are you feeling now?
tight egret
i got to skip school today so iam feelin better
chrome oasis
@midnight crest that's honestly so relatable. but trust me, it gets better with time. yeah sometimes it gets to a point where you feel like you're the only one who doesn't get the concept and it's a sucky feeling, i know.
but you know what? you can do it. yes it'll take time, and yes you will want to give up at certain moments, but you will make it through. we're all here to help, and you can always try extra classes with ur teacher.
but you're going to improve for sure, with practise. you can do it
@tight egret d'you wanna vent it out?
mild compass
I just hate life cuz its filled with ppl trying to take advantages of me
and doing bio all day everyday is a big pain and i cant even have a lonely time to cry out and let all these emotions out cuz it breaking me more and more
had to let it out sorry
chrome oasis
nah its okay let it out, bottled emotions are not good for your health b 💞
take breaks between your studying please, or you're gonna end up burdening yourself. no matter how important studies are, you also need to set aside time for taking care of yourself. you can't study effectively if you're sleep deprived / not in a mentally good place. so please take the time to relax. take the time to do something you love and good luck for your bio. you're gonna ace it love
and if you feel the need to cry, please do. crying is so healthy for you, let your emotions out and you'll feel so much better after a good cry sesh 💕
take care b 💫
mild compass
thank u @chrome oasis ❣ … hope I had a lonely place to let my tears out but i'll be fighting harder everyday every moment … just hope things were easy on me
but not gonna give up now after all the hard work !
And thank u too @mild compass for asking 😁
chrome oasis
stay strong, you're gonna get through this okay? you're gonna get thru this with amazing grades, and you're gonna see the fruits of your hard work soon enough. and heck yeah !! that's the spirit don't give up b 💓💓
vivid coral
#chat-of-wholesomeness 😩
midnight crest
This is depressing
tight egret
today was a kinda gd day ....... but i feel like tomorrow isnt gonna be so gd idk i have a really bad feelin
sorry if this is too much i noticed that i kinda making this channel like a diary
i just noticed i feel better when i type it
i mean my feelings out
empty trout
Sweetie, this channel is for you to let out all of your bottled up feelings
So it is totally alright
Use this channel to your fullest!
And yes, letting out your feelings is better than keeping it all in
Also why do you think tomorrow isn't going to be a good day?
Is it because today seemed to be good for you?
tight egret
idk there is this feelin i get and 90 percent of the i think this way (my day isnt gonna be gd etc ) it actually turns out to be really bad
tight egret
i tried sometimes
not gonna lie it did work sometime
but there are other times where i just end up not being able to sleep at night
because iam worried about what is going to happen
or how bad it is
and i end up going to school really tired and ......
empty trout
Ah I see
tight egret
idk i just feel really unlucky
empty trout
You do know
That relying on luck
Or even thinking that it's all luck isn't really gonna make any difference
In the end, it all starts from you
If you're willing to brighten up and look forward to days coming up with a jolly smile
It'll feel good
Sometimes, thinking all negative makes everything difficult
That's where you should try to add up some positivity
And balance it out :D
tight egret
iam trying
empty trout
I'm usually the one to think about all the negative consequences
But out of all those negativity, there's always a positive side to it
And yes, of course I know you're trying sis
But let your heart do its thinggg
Let your heart bring out the inner sunshine hidden in youu
tight egret
ill try my bestt
coarse raven
hey maria
you know there are days in life
where you feel broke asf
there are days when you have a legit reason not to live anymore
and there are days aswell when you feel that youre a chosen one, you appreciate life
this is life
ups and downs
well we cant just consider these setbacks as our deadline
its all your mental state which will decide upon your future
you cant make hectic decisions
you can alternatively relax and plan on what to do next
you know sometimes you feel you shouldnt exist anymore
you must vanish
these thoughts
must vanish infact
remember theres always a time on the calander waiting for you, that day when you will say, i made it
there are people who love to see you in life, wont matter if its you being a succesful person or an unsucessful person
dont let these things decide your lifeline
tight egret
i try my best to think that way but the anxiety in me became severe and turned in sadness
everyone seem to have a normal life while iam here worrying about the tiniest things
but thank u @coarse raven @empty trout i dont wanna put more burden on you guyss
thanx for the chat
empty trout
Sis
Hey
That's only natural
It's alright to worry about the tiniest things in life
Hah even I do that
And it isn't a burdeennnnnn
You're always welcomed to talk here
tight egret
thank u you are the sweetest
empty trout
We all need a bit of support every now and then
So iss otay uwu
Awww nuu you're the sweetheart here
Habe hugs 
tight egret
🤗 🤗
tight egret
today i got embarrassed in front of the entire class
i couldnt answer a question ..... might sound silly
but its gonna be really hard for me to go to school after the weekend
ughhh i wanna disappear
she kept asking a bunch of really easy question
but i couldnt answer i was way too nervous
idk whats happening to me i mean i noticed my anxtiety getting bad past two years
but this year it is way too different its controlling me
iam getiing way too worried
chrome oasis
hey hey Maria it's okay. we're all human after all, and it's normal to mess up okay?
and listen. people are gonna forget about this in 2 days, 3 days tops
they're not gonna remember it bc they'll move on to the next thing okay?
Maria have you ever considered a therapist?
tight egret
nope
chrome oasis
hnng maybe you should, when you're legal man
tight egret
i dont talk to my parents about stuff like this
like for them to help me and get me to a therapist
plus i dont want people to look down on me
or act different around me
mild compass
look, never, ever think of how people are going to think when it comes to you and your health yeah?
its for your betterment sis.
therapy really does help m8 you should consider it. infact everyone should.
chrome oasis
^^ exactly !! therapy is for your own good, for your own mental health. people are gonna be people but what matters is that you get better
midnight crest
I'm high-key worried I won't do well in my AS
dim falcon
What are ur subs?
chrome oasis
hey @midnight crest believe in yourself man !! ur gonna do amazing, okay? half the path to success is made of confidence, and positive thinking. 💕💕 but is there anything in particular thats making you think that way?
chrome oasis
okay are there specific topics in chem p1 that you're not comfortable enough w? @midnight crest? and same honestly my physics is trash on fire :(( but hey it's okay !! practise is key
chrome oasis
oh dang okay we can work thru them together !! send in any doubts u have in the channel man and we'll do our best to answer
also chemguide is an amazing resource
when is your exam for chem P1?
chrome oasis
okay b you got a whole month left you can do this
get classified past papers for paper 1 organic
lemme see if i can find a source
@midnight crest https://www.gceguide.com/topical-past-papers/
midnight crest
Thank
chrome oasis
ur welcome !! and please if you have any questions send them in yeah
ur gonna do great
dim falcon
there's always a chance to retake
midnight crest
True
midnight crest
But the money
mild compass
Siiisss
midnight crest
Oop yeah NVM I thought I could delude myself but the mental breakdown train ain't stopping
Sorry
mild compass
If you think you're going to fuck up
Then look at where you're fucking up and work on it
There's tonnnsss of good good shit on the specific channels for your subjects
Like realllllllllly good shit
There's this website that has solutions to most of the physics past papers, it's probably pinned
Ksjsjshs sh uwu
midnight crest
More like I'm on big exam anxiety rn
mild compass
Good shit like notes and all that yk yk
midnight crest
With my family's high expectations
mild compass
Don't give up fam
empty trout
Ah high expectations
mild compass
we've all been there fam
Trrruust me
But this is for YOU,
YOUR mental health comes first above literally everything.
For once just say fuck it and do you fam
Just breathe m8
You'll do great
WE BELIEVE IN YOU
midnight crest
Alevels wasn't my choice tbh
Probably why I'm struggling with it
But yeah lemme blow off the steam first and calm down
dim falcon
Alvls isnt that hard tbh
it just that we juat advanced a step
we graduated from our school days
and sometimes its alot for many
even me
i had such bad mismanagement in my as
tho i didnt let myself get down cus of that
i legit only prepared for almost nothing on my eco
for my eco*
and somehow i was able to score an a in that comp
tho ik sciences is way harder
if u keep telling urself that u will fuck it up then u will
dim falcon
but if u try to somehow motivate yourself or atleast try to gain some false confidence u will succeed
it happens man
it happened with me aswell
midnight crest
Before now I was pretty okay
dim falcon
i had a panic attack in my maths p1 exam
was only able to attempt 55 marks worth of paper
out of 75
got a c in maths
lowkey sad
honestly if u think u cant do the things u think u cant
then u wont be able to
tho convincing urself also takes alot of time and effor
effort
just
take some deep breaths
calm yourself
gain ur composure
then check how much of the syllabus you have covered
how much more u need to cover
set a target for ur past paper practise aswell
and see how many days are left in ur exams
then plan accordingly
i hope this helps man
chrome oasis
how are you feeling how @midnight crest?
midnight crest
I mean I'm not thinking about that anymore but my siblings are giving me a smackdown on how useless and mentally weak I am
Fun
wise flower
well give em a beating then
midnight crest
Not that they'll listen
Whatever I say they'll have it worse
Can't complain or I'm ungrateful and whining
wise flower
that..or as long as you know that that bullshit is unessaccary
and is all bogus
dont worry abt it
chrome oasis
^^ that is so not true man. you are not useless nor are you mentally weak. that's complete horseshit mate. ignore them, and show off w your amazing grades that you're gonna get instead
midnight crest
I just want some time to figure out what I want to do but it feels like I don't even have the time to breathe
wise flower
then do something
put ur phone aside
and myabe some musuc?
music
just lie down adn think
take a breath
chrome oasis
@midnight crest do you want a playlist to help? idk if it'll work for you but it helped me when i needed a breather
dunno if i sent this here before but https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1b5BdO5YzxRzg8MhRNjVVa?si=tPMGxYOnQrGaf22KHHC4sw here u go
it's pretty chill and maybe it'll help?
midnight crest
Thanks
chrome oasis
hnng i hope you feel better b !! you have more than a month left for chem, and you can fosure improve w practise !! good luck okay
midnight crest
So like
I'm a clown for not realizing sooner that my uni app deadlines are really tight
And I was low-key panicking so I told my dad
Lmao
Well I don't have to worry about anything
He was explaining everything to me while belittling me lmao
"I've been through this twice I know this leave everything to me" while going "you're an entire circus for being worried about it"
So....yay???
chrome oasis
@midnight crest 5 days in between results day and application deadlines right?
midnight crest
Uhuh
chrome oasis
okay listen. you're going to make it, yeah? as for your dad - ignore the belittling comments - it's normal to be stressed about it bc of the small gap 💕 what matters is that you get the help you need from him yeah?
I hope everything goes the way you want it too, good luck fam 💞
sullen pumice
Breathe, you will get through uni apps even though theyre stressful af
still raft
run
summer solar
Locked room 😩
muted pond
@summer solar steal the belt and whip him before he whips you
wise flower
@muted pond please dont joke about this .. i could be a sincere problem and a sensitive subject for people.
muted pond
sorry
slim oar
Yall i hate my life math is getting harder and Im like really trying my best
Writing this in it by itself makes me feel slightly better
empty trout
I'm really glad you feel a bit better but hey I know someone who can change your mind
@muted pond c'mere man of the day
Also whatever you do
muted pond
wat
empty trout
Never give up
muted pond
^
always tell yourself "Math is easy, Life is hard"
maybe the second half isn't required but as long as you believe the first half you should get through. Keep practicing all the concepts you find difficult and the ones you find easy in your free time till you're truly satisfied you've mastered it and won't make mistakes. Math is the easiest subject to improve in, and anybody can. @slim oar
muted pond
Yeah go ahead
sand haven
F
slim oar
Here??
muted pond
First you should take your roles #roles and then find the appropriate subject channel @slim oar
slim oar
O
summer solar
@muted pond its all good mate I took the whipping and now I'm straight, I think all gay people should be whipped!
so you know we have a cure now
muted pond
tight egret
@summer solar are you ok though
summer solar
lmao maria I'm trolling
@tight egret
dont take it for real
I'm not gay
I support hitler
tight egret
dude my dumb ass belived you
tropic knoll
Thanos warn @summer solar Hey no trolling in #venting, the place is ment to for helping and not to joke around. Watch yourself!
last estuaryBOT
⚠ Warned mrseriousm#3920
sand haven
Indeed
slim hinge
I have anxiety and I don't know how to pass my exams.
I failed this year in all subs except English.
summer solar
muted pond
That's great to hear!
sullen pumice
congrats!
tropic knoll
@tight egret the same was for me yesterday, it was good (bc a guy was absent in my class which was like i got freedom... hope he is absent today to)
tight egret
ok iam a fucking failure
only when i thought my days r gonna get better
i am gonna lose it one day
like i put in so much work into everything but there is no gd coming back to me
hazy hornet
^
naive skiff
I agree here with name For some darn reason most of my friends are against me and hate me and I've thought of every possibility that they may hate me for and I haven't figured it out.Nonetheless, just keep calm, think of happy stuff and chill :D
naive skiff
idrk I haven't spoken to them much and I was absent for 2 days and suddenly this happened
suddenly I'm being hated
chrome oasis
talk to them, @naive skiff, maybe it was a miscommunication yknow? instead of jumping to assumptions have an open and honest talk with them
naive skiff
I would if they wanted to talk
all they say is you don't deserve this or that
and I don't want to jump to assumptions
vivid coral
@naive skiff ask them up front why they are against you or why they hate you
it works... some people will hate you because they're envious, others will hate for reasons that are not rational because emotion overpowers any rational thinking. even when you try your best to maybe put a smile on their face or try to make them laugh, they still despise you and for a reason unknown.
naive skiff
can't holidays just started
ik that
and I already have them
well i cant talk personally
but online and play with then
them*
Thing is all these holidays are prep holidays for my mocks
and before that one of my friend invited all of us to a bbq
and then suddenly one of them causes an burst of hateful commenta like I shouldn't come because I dont deserve it and all
just a 'side' option
keen kestrel
How do u deal with being hated and unloved?
vivid coral
u don't have to deal with that @keen kestrel because i am here for u
naive skiff
See
tight egret
I'm tired of going to school everyday getting ready for life outside of it. My grades are dropping and i'm losing motivation to do anything anymore, and I don't even know what the point of it all is. I can barely put up with high school and once it's over I'll have to jump into college just to get a job, which I don't even know what it will be, to be able to live my life. I honestly don't see the point of doing any of that when life is always gonna be simple and boring, and all i do is try to live up to the expectations of others and keep them happy but I don't think i'm even keeping myself happy at this point. I don't even look forward to anything anymore.
someone wrote this and it is 100 percent the way i feel
he literally described my life
i cant seem to relax not even in my sleep
people sleep to recharge because they are tired i do too but these past two weeks i sleep and wake up even more tired than the day before
hazy hornet
Hey, it's okay. Motivation comes and goes. It won't always be there and that's natural. As long as you keep doing your best, that's more than anyone can ask for. If people aren't happy with you putting 100% of your effort into your schoolwork or anything else, then the person that should change is them, not you. Take life one step at a time. As long as you do that, you'll be okay!
subtle pilot
@tight egret it's okay to feel this way
you just have to keep going
don't give up on yourself
you would know what exactly happened that is making you feel this way
I can understand you state of mind rn
your*
bc I've been through this phase myself
and the only person to help me through this was myself
so,i'd just tell you to take care of yourself
practice self-love
ik it's hard
but then again, life is never easy
take some time for yourself
do whatever makes you happy
and talk to us
talking is important
get these emotions out
we care for you
and even though i don't know you personally, know that i care for you
you are loved
tight egret
@hazy hornet & @subtle pilot thank you guys so much
i honestly am lucky i found people i can talk to
cause i can never open up to someone face to face
subtle pilot
i feel you
are you a girl?
or is that a fake nickname?:p
you're welcome
i like to help people in ways i can
tight egret
iam a girl
subtle pilot
it's obvious that you'll be feeling low for the next few days
but that's all in your head
the way you look at things will change everything
try to be positive
ik it's hard
but there's no harm in trying,right?
tight egret
i try but when i do i end up being more disappointed
so thats why i kinda stopped doing tht
subtle pilot
try finding out what is making you feel this way
only then will you be able to come up with a remedy
is it the atmosphere where you live?
betrayal?
or stuffs like that
tight egret
aha its school and everything that comes with it
subtle pilot
mind elaborating?
tight egret
and trying to make everyone happy
subtle pilot
im here to listen to you
so feel free to vent
i won't judge you
i'm not perfect either
none of us is
tight egret
its just iam the eldest in the family my parents always have high expectaions of me but i keep disappointing and that just breaks my heart
i feel like i dont do anything right and when ever we are in a gathering with friends or family
and everyone will be talking about their kids its seems like they have nthn
to say about me that makes them proud
tight egret
especially these past two years
i have not been doing any thing right
and i dont understand it i work really hard
i used to be this really smart social girl
subtle pilot
from what i understand, you are ''trying hard to make them happy''
tight egret
and now i have this sever social anxiety like i cant even make simple convos and i feel really stupid
subtle pilot
you aren't living for yourself
instead you are trying to please people who actually aren't appreciating your efforts
and that's not good
try doing something only bc you love/like to do it
ik they are your parents
tight egret
but even after putting alot of effort there is no gd result
thats why they dont see it
subtle pilot
and you feel like you owe them in a way
tight egret
yh exactly
subtle pilot
you shouldn't be feeling this way
i would say that they are the one who are being ignorant of your efforts
like just having them say 'ik you aren't doing good at school, but that doesn't matter. i appreciate your efforts'
'and ik you can do even better'
these things would make you feel a lil better about yourself
as your parents,they are failing to support you emotionally/mentally
i don't blame them tho
they have their own personal life
and maybe they're stressed out themselves?
try taking the first step maybe idk?
approach them
whatever it is
know that, in this journey of life
i am going to support you
tight egret
my mom is kinda ignorant right maybe a little more just a tiny bit but my dad is a really sweet person and for ex last may june he kept telling me ik u can do it ik but when results came i saw the disappointment in his eyes and he did say much he told me do better on your as and a levels
subtle pilot
even tho we might be living poles apart lol
tight egret
and that just made me cry for days
subtle pilot
can you maybe like dm me privately over here?
tight egret
i cried about my results but cried more about the money he spent for me to take these exams
subtle pilot
idk if this is possible
im new over here
i don't want you to share personal stuffs over here
tight egret
yup
subtle pilot
chatbox*
tight egret
i dm'ed
mild compass
heyehyheyheey hey im gonna go to sleep now
buti just wanted to say
that i believe in every one of yous and effort = results !
so make these last weeks count!
hazy hornet
^
muted pond
Hey guys, I wanted to ask what I should do to deal with the kind of loneliness where even if you have tons of people around you, you still feel 'lonely' or feel like you don't 'fit in' or are 'alienated' (even through you're not alienated really) cause there's nobody who truly understands and cares for you. (Or perhaps there's another underlying reason to it, I really don't know for sure) It's not depression, probably some sadness but I don't feel satisfied or truly happy at any moment of my life because of this, even after say a big achievement for example.
tropic knoll
@muted pond i feel the same... at school there are like a lot of guys in my grade... but i feel like i am not one of them...
muted pond
Yeah, but this 'effect' has only become pronounced very recently for me, post-rejection
unreal oak
@muted pond rejection in the romantic sense?
tropic knoll
yep, to me too after i changed my school
muted pond
Yes
tropic knoll
not the romantic part for me...
muted pond
Ok
unreal oak
@muted pond rejections are hard for any guy, especially if the girl meant a lot to him
muted pond
lololol 😅
unreal oak
But you need to rediscover the joy in what you do and your own life
muted pond
Hmm
unreal oak
Cos at the end of the day, all we have is ourselves
tropic knoll
luckily, i have some guys who were in the same school as with me before... they like go around with the other guys, mingle, making friends with them... but for me i only stick to these guys
muted pond
I've been trying for quite some time now, it's getting better luckily
muted pond
Hope so, thanks
unreal oak
Anytime man
haughty ibex
@muted pond
Hey
I can kinda relate to your softy’s
Story*
And what I’ve learnt is that every single day you need to push yourself cuz u r worth it, sure people don’t realise how awesome u r rn
But L8er when u find someone who rlly cares for u, it’ll be wroth the wait
Worth*
unreal oak
^^
haughty ibex
Sorry I know I’m a little late but hope that helped😊
muted pond
Yes it did, thank you @haughty ibex
And yes I have been pushing myself more than ever recently, it's been paying off, I just wish I felt it
haughty ibex
Np bro
You will
I have been on the other side
I’ve been the one doing the rejecting
And it hurt me badly
Just know
It gets better in the end
sand haven
Well I am fucked
muted pond
Ok 🤔
naive skiff
@muted pond Welp most of the things I wanted to say were said but I'll still go on
It's just one of the outcomes of a rejection so try not think much of it
Don't stress yourself over it
We're there for you so don't worry
Like Korthi mentioned rediscover yourself
Like Mikasa mentioned don't push yourself you're worth it and amazing
So just don't think much of it and chill
Idea:Make another one of that amazing video
hehe
hidden barn
suicidal thoughts are getting back the more the exam comes closer
fuck my exam is on 21st of october
chrome oasis
@hidden barn how are you feeling man?
sand haven
how to stop crying
my pet cat died
i cant stop
xrying
and thinking about it
my cat was killed by bastard stary dogs
haramis
I want to
how did oyu recover
I can't stop crying
I want to kill all those harami stray bastard dogs one by one with a shotgun in thier face
muted pond
Listen, I know it'll be difficult but imo rather than contemplating your loss continuously you should cherish the wonderful and precious memories you did have, and be happy, grateful to have had them. Respect your pet's memory with the same. Killing stray dogs for 'vengeance' isn't going to fix anything.
And don't perceive crying as weakness or anything similar. it's an efficient method to release your emotions rather than letting them bottle up over time which I can tell you from personal experience isn't a good idea at all.
muted pond
Hmm ok
mild compass
@lavish geode stfu
lavish geode
Sorry
clear breach
I don’t wanna sleep at night and don’t want to wake up in the morning
wintry rampart
i honestly do not know why i'm suffering in my entrance exam mocks...
especially at the math section
my previous school never taught me such stuff
topics like inequalities and logarithms were never taught to me until my as and a levels.
they said "school of the future" when in reality, that school's nothing.
the general maths section's mainly pure maths 1 and 2, whilst topics like radicals were never taught by my secondary levels.
their syllabus for maths is the exact same syllabus from 2010 or something
they even barely taught me stats until i left that crappy school.
at least my current school's helping me with the pure maths and stats topics.
i have thoughts of suing my previous school for letting me down, taking my physics, bio and chem textbooks away from me, as well as teaching the same syllabus for almost 5 years.
or maybe blackmailing them.
eton "international" school really deserves to be shut as they leave grade 10 students helpless after graduating.
and they take your textbooks away from you like reincarnation with nothing in your hands
international schools don't do that stuff
they made me feel like i did good, with straight 90s
but when i took my as levels, especially at maths, i fell
20s-50s being my initial scores
i feel like i have held a massive, irreversible grudge that further stresses me.
would it be the right thing to sue the school for such deviant behaviors?
pallid ember
@wintry rampart depends on if you have a good legal team and some good arguments
often the art of suing is quite expensive
plus, as long as they follow the education standards set by your country, they can do whatever they want
mild compass
there is no need to sue in this situation
your frustration is comprehendible but you are currently dealing with it in the most optimal way, and that is to improve upon your skills with your new school
wintry rampart
well, my entrance exam was actually easier than i thought. i ranted about my previous school just to burn all the stress off me prior to exam. and no, i won’t sue my previous school for forging grades.
midnight crest
Y'all I have big anxiety energy radiating off me in waves cus I'm using my AS for my college applications and if I don't do well I might have to wait an entire year to reapply
thick blaze
Where get support as exam is tomorrow
I need encouragement
Where find encouragement
Math as pure if someone wonders
@clear breach they call those nocturnal, dear
You maybe a deer
naive skiff
You have received encouragement
clear breach
@midnight crest what’s as
midnight crest
Alevels
midnight crest
Wow j wanna cry
I was already nervous as hell when I was sitting for the paper
And my calculator just so happened to die halfway through
And that made me just completely panic to the point of blanking for the rest of the exam god
I'll have to retake
oblique glen
I wanna cry for my exams. I memorise and understand what they're asking me for the syllabus. But yet when I do past papers, I always misinterpret the questions
Like the questions are more confusing than hard
You expect them to ask about how it works
But nope marking scheme is about why it works
So i lose marks
Maths is straight forwards, physics somewhat okay
But the other 2 sciences are like nah screw you.
I sometimes feel like cie grading style might be inaccurate
Idk my personal opinion
The fact that a human have to mark hundreds of papers
And he's gonna become a robot and Mark very closely to the marking scheme
So there might be times where you are technically correct but the marking scheme wants it in a different way
The examiner might or might not give marks
Idk
I just feel like human errors are possible
midnight crest
That's why for the sciences it's almost impossible to get perfect scores
While for math it's p easy and achievable
rocky light
sand haven
naive skiff
I agree people keep saying "man up" and don't even realise what's going on
tight egret
dont get this the wrong way .... iam not trying kill myself or anything its just a question
but why does someone become soo worthy and loved only after they commit suicide
like they cant feel that when they are gone
whyy do people have to live so lonely and sad unloved and not cared of
and then die or kill themselves to be noticed like tf is wrong with people
pallid ember
well its the nature of the human pysch@tight egret
we dont miss anything, till its truely gone
famous examples are like Alan Turing. We didn't care for him after he was discovered to be gay and after he committed suicide, people started to actually appreciate his geniuses and we wanted justice for him. We dont see the worth in human life, till its gone forever as we see it as expendable and all the same. Once someone commits suicide, we start to actually uncover and highlight the suicide victims life and start to appreciate the things they have done. All the memories they created, the bond they forged and the life they lived is all actually only shown once they move from our mortal plain.
here is a intresting article that actually highlights some very problematic ideas that our world currently faces.
buts its important to understand that sucicde affects everyone
it does not only occur to those who are lonely or unloved. sometimes its a certain trigger in people and some people dont truly show how hurt they are as hiding it from other allow a limitation of pain. People who are found out to have sucidial tendancies are helped as soon as its found out. Plus in our world, life has lost its value sadly. We no longer look at the individual people, rather the collective. Its a sad reaility of our world of growing mental illness and confinments. People are often overlooked and pressured to conform with society,that when they commit sucide for this reason, we acutally take a step back and understand why this occurs.
again im no psychologist, but this is my interpretations. In fact that one of the projects that we work on in New Zealand is to connect Young People and put away the boundaries that cause this epidemic. The internet and social media have played their own malicious parts but they are not the main causes. We need to understand that people, no matter the technological advancements, need that social interactions and in the world of automation, we may see less and less of that.
pallid ember
@haughty ibex lol thats average convo for me
naive skiff
I just wanna say damn that speech tho
tight egret
@pallid ember woah thats one hell of a speech but thank u
pallid ember
@tight egret lmao no problemo
I actually spoke at new Zealand parilament over the unjust circumstances that farmers have to live through and the support of a zero carbon bill, that's why I'm big on the speechs lol.
midnight crest
Jesus I might have to retake my entire AS exams again next year