venting

[hearty ibex]

but this?

[young grotto]

fr

[hearty ibex]

nah bullying be needed here

[azure jetty]

this person needs to learn to respect their mom

[hearty ibex]

lemme go give my mom a kiss

[mild compass]

real

[young grotto]

I'd aree with but in this case ppl need to tell him the straiht truth

[mild compass]

kid needs to be parented by desis on discord

[boreal leaf]

they need belt

and chappal

[mild compass]

and hanger

[boreal leaf]

real

[mild compass]

and broom

[young grotto]

I trie that ansd the woman gav my the dirtiest loo

[boreal leaf]

and hands

[mild compass]

she got shy

[tropic hound]

also a shift in the coal mines

[young grotto]

fist
cable knife

[mild compass]

need to be sent into north korea

[compact pawn]

As for what this person wrote they are obviously stressed or annoyed and yall please don't act as if u never take out ur frustration on your parents this may not be true for all but it is for many people so there literally no need to troll

[mild compass]

for intensive labor

[azure jetty]

dont let me catch you lacking on these streets or u goin straight to the hydraulic press

[tropic hound]

taking your frustration out on your parents is not normal

[young grotto]

nah African parents just dont lie affetion and love

[tropic hound]

this says more about you than anyone else

[young grotto]

they dont even say I love u

[azure jetty]

dawg

[mild compass]

you look like u got issues to fix

[azure jetty]

carrying books isnt the parent’s job

[compact pawn]

Getting annoyed by them iss

[hearty ibex]

LMAO

my mom said

"kya masla hai tumhe"

[mild compass]

annoyed over what? something not their fault?

[tropic hound]

this valorant player is having a hissy fit because they have to carry books to school

[azure jetty]

😭😭😭

[compact pawn]

Lmao don't we all

[tropic hound]

don't come at me with the frustrated bs

[hearty ibex]

mommy i just wanted to give you a kiss 😭

[azure jetty]

my parents isnt one of them

[young grotto]

why should youtake ur frustation out on your parents?

[hearty ibex]

yeah that may be normal but coming here writing all of that

AND NOT REALIZING

[mild compass]

exactly

[hearty ibex]

THAT UR IN THE WRONG

is wild

[young grotto]

obv you would gwt annoye but lashing out at them?
nahhh

[boreal leaf]

i prefer hugs

[mild compass]

W son Allahuma barek

[tropic hound]

this guy thought he was cooking but the stove was off

[hearty ibex]

yeah exactly

[compact pawn]

All I said is they don't deserve this level of trolling yall are soo sensitive

[boreal leaf]

[azure jetty]

imagine your parents doing everything for you, raising you, sacrificing just for you to have a problem with it

[tropic hound]

everyone deserves a little bit of hate sent their way

[hearty ibex]

look they needa be trolled so they dont do this again

[mild compass]

says the guy who said this was 'bullying'

[hearty ibex]

i hope they realize theyre in the wrong cus of this

[mild compass]

real

[serene pulsar]

bro what is happening

[mild compass]

real

[tropic hound]

if only I knew this person's ethnicity then I could be racist, but I don't so I have to resort to universal hating unfortunately

[young grotto]

they should realise their mistake

[gentle oxide]

how is this chat more active than chat-lounge? 😭

[compact pawn]

It wasss

[hearty ibex]

universal hating works too 😻

[young grotto]

HORIIII HIIIII HRUU?

[hearty ibex]

if u gonna be racist hate em all

[serene pulsar]

I'm confused wbu

[hearty ibex]

even ur own race

🙏🙏

[boreal leaf]

eren yeager solution

[tropic hound]

Sometimes u gotta get specific tho

[hearty ibex]

in cases like these yeah

[tropic hound]

For maximum effect

[mild compass]

this is gang desi parenting

[hearty ibex]

reall

[hearty ibex]

most damage dealt

[azure jetty]

this person prolly got off discord expecting a lot of love n support

lol

skill issue

[young grotto]

im alright
some dude lashed out at their mom or smth and they were met with hate by us

[compact pawn]

Vents are for love and support but nvm

[mild compass]

hori we are parenting

[hearty ibex]

justified hate*

[azure jetty]

this one isnt

[hearty ibex]

this case does not deserve love and support

[azure jetty]

u really mad at ur mom for trying her best?

[young grotto]

yes ofc ofc

[compact pawn]

I am desi too sooo plss don't teach me bout desi parents

[gentle oxide]

they shoulda told that to her face

[compact pawn]

Ppl all m saying is leave them alonee

[hearty ibex]

alr

i think we've said enough

[azure jetty]

how else that person gonna learn

[tropic hound]

That's an incredibly stupid way to go about life

You can't always support someone's bullshit just because they're sad. If someone's being an ungrateful little shit you need to tell them that straight

[hearty ibex]

back to chat lounge 🙏🙏

[compact pawn]

Yall pointed it out so don't go ahead and depress them moree sheeshhh

[hearty ibex]

THIS IS SO TRUEEE

[azure jetty]

we are

[young grotto]

fne

[azure jetty]

teaching

[hearty ibex]

alr alr this is enough

[tropic hound]

They deserve to be depressed now mf thinks having to carry books is the saddest thing in the world

[mild compass]

honey we cant say babushona thats an amazing job u did for getting mad at the woman who RAISED U

for something silly as fuck

[hearty ibex]

🙏

[young grotto]

sometimes the way to help depression is by telling them hard truth not by sugar coating everything

[gentle oxide]

would u give love or support to someone venting about doing some illegal shit?

[azure jetty]

carrying books is enough to make a person depressed

[young grotto]

fr fr

[hearty ibex]

EXACTLY

[tropic hound]

If someone's on some wack shit you gotta do sth about it not lift them even more

[hearty ibex]

if theyre in the wrong u gotta tell that to them straight

[compact pawn]

Atleast u could talk them lmaoo wtff

[gentle oxide]

i mean edna got a point tho yall came at their throats 😭

[young grotto]

discord isnt some therapy home

[compact pawn]

You indeed dooo

[hearty ibex]

ok i think this much hate is enough

[azure jetty]

that

person

is

[hearty ibex]

BACK TO CHAT LOUNGE PLEASE

[hearty ibex]

shh

[gentle oxide]

dont matter dont justify some bs and make them feel good about it

[young grotto]

true they kinda did overdo it

[boreal leaf]

nuh uh

[azure jetty]

ungrateful

[compact pawn]

But yall are bullying and not telling u guyz are picking on the personn

[tropic hound]

hello I understand you may be frustrated but I think committing arson at a church during sunday service is not a very nice thing to do :(, it's okay tho, I hope you feel better soon!

[young grotto]

trust me some ppl wont listen to reason

[hearty ibex]

yuh huh

[mild compass]

the person cussed two to three times for a reason like that u think the person was chill

we gon give them the energy back

[compact pawn]

I thought cussing was normal but k

[young grotto]

so u prefer the person to go out in the world thinking what they did was fair?

[hearty ibex]

ok bas

[compact pawn]

The person was not right all I SAID IS YALL CAN BE MORE NICE AND KEEP YOUR POINT

[tropic hound]

No

I refuse

[compact pawn]

But whatever ig

[tropic hound]

I hope u stub your toe today

[compact pawn]

U guyz need more love in ur lifee

[fleet steppe]

auntie edna

when did you get to A2

[young grotto]

NICE doesnt always work dear

[compact pawn]

I hope u have a GOOD DAYY

[azure jetty]

maybe that person should be more nice to their parents

[tropic hound]

Thanks

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to iamaminion_060307

[fleet steppe]

auntie edna

[compact pawn]

This year

[fleet steppe]

i need a suit

[mild compass]

says alot

[compact pawn]

They will you don't know them what are u yapping about plss shut upp

[young grotto]

growing up with African parents means growing up with as kittle affection as possible

[mild compass]

guys lets end here

[fleet steppe]

ngolo ngolo

kante

[mild compass]

have a good day everyone

[compact pawn]

We don't belong to the same place or community so I would appreciate u being kinda non judgmental thnx

[mild compass]

love you all <3 OP please be nicer to your mom she is trying her best

[young grotto]

fr

[fleet steppe]

https://tenor.com/view/vegeta-dragon-ball-super-dragon-ball-ssb-super-saiyan-gif-15075101

[gentle oxide]

Maestro Kimpembe

[fleet steppe]

gbye

[tropic hound]

auntie edna I will get incredibly racist very soon

[hearty ibex]

love u more cutie

[young grotto]

lmaoo 💀

[mild compass]

cussing is not normal last time i checked in any place or community but oke!!

[azure jetty]

dawg

[tropic hound]

OP please be afflicted with uncontrollable diarrhoea very soon*

[compact pawn]

ONCE AGAIN WE ALL ARE NOT FROM THE SAME BACKGROUND OKAYY all of us have had different experiences so be more respectful and open geezz

[mild compass]

crazy translation

[fleet steppe]

auntie edna go abck to making suits

youre wasting youre time here

[young grotto]

If youre around friend groups and everyong is fine with cussing then its fine

[mild compass]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/emojis/697995591921172532.gif?@everyone

[compact pawn]

I don't give a shit do whatever suits u

[azure jetty]

doesnt matter what background ur from, ur mom still tries her best everyday

[tropic hound]

Auntie edna you are yapping uncontrollably

[young grotto]

alright

¯_(ツ)_/¯

[gentle oxide]

Tbh Mr.Incredible solos vegeta

[hearty ibex]

come on how are you all still going at this 😭

[azure jetty]

because

i

[hearty ibex]

real??

[azure jetty]

hate people

who

[serene pulsar]

Oooo I see

[tropic hound]

I didn't know there was a background that said being an ungrateful lil shit was socially acceptable

[azure jetty]

dont understand the value of their mom

[serene pulsar]

Okayy

[tropic hound]

because auntie edna is being cringe

[hearty ibex]

these kinda people dont deserve even a fraction of ur time

[compact pawn]

Ik all mom's doo love to all mom's out there they don't deserve no hate no one doess

[hearty ibex]

let em be

[young grotto]

yes yes
now this person is saying what we did was wrong

[gentle oxide]

not all moms.

[young grotto]

fr fr fr

[mild compass]

https://tenor.com/view/yummy-funny-fries-poop-gif-13826567

now leave

[hearty ibex]

true but MOST moms

[mild compass]

shoo

[gentle oxide]

what in God's green earth..

[young grotto]

those arent moms their just birth givers there is adifference

[fleet steppe]

shutup

[azure jetty]

earth aint green anymore 😭

[fleet steppe]

stupid

[compact pawn]

I just just said be nice yall the hell

[fleet steppe]

stupidass playboy carti

[tropic hound]

If ur mom is going out of her way to do the shit you should be doing yourself then I'm p sure she deserves more than u being a professional yapper

[fleet steppe]

fan

[gentle oxide]

if u have a child ur regarded as a parent so

[fleet steppe]

who ever types next is gay

[serene pulsar]

damn

[gentle oxide]

Mr.Incredible is the symbolism of omni-potence

he negs vegeta

[young grotto]

no a parent cares and loves
those are giver the baker and an oven

[young grotto]

mhmm

[compact pawn]

Lmao frrr(ToT)

[gentle oxide]

react with nerd if mr incredible solos

[azure jetty]

😭💀

[azure jetty]

carti

just

better

tbh

[fleet steppe]

ass

[azure jetty]

literally the best

[gentle oxide]

I done did the impossible 🗣️ 🚒 🔥

[fleet steppe]

yall have time welp i gotta go

[compact pawn]

Be around more nice ppl yall clearly need therapy if u gonna keep arguing about not being nicee

[azure jetty]

im going barnacles

[fleet steppe]

okay auntie edna

[tropic hound]

why do you keep adding extra letters to your words

[young grotto]

we agreed to drop it

[tropic hound]

have you considered adding extra braincells to your arguments instead

[azure jetty]

no

[young grotto]

I do that
whats wron with it?

[tropic hound]

clearly u don't because you just forgot a letter here

[compact pawn]

My argument was fair

[young grotto]

i do

[tropic hound]

If u actually added extra letters it would cancel out your forgotten letter

[azure jetty]

https://tenor.com/view/yapping-yapping-level-today-catastrophic-yapanese-gif-13513208407930173397

[young grotto]

😭

[young grotto]

and your argumnt ended
pls leave venting
I do not want this to escalate again

[compact pawn]

Okayy

[gentle oxide]

yy

[young grotto]

ty kind soul

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to iamaminion_060307

[compact pawn]

I hope it wasn't sarcasm (ToT)

[young grotto]

no?

[compact pawn]

Okayy ty

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to im_heretoo

[young grotto]

nws

[mild compass]

okay hi i wanted to address all the comments yall made
after ive calmed down i apologized to my mom, we're good now
i was just really, really mad and emotional, mainly because she started yelling at me and it somehow transferred over to the books
i've been super exhausted because of my sickness the past few days and i went to discord to blow some of the steam off - without insulting my mother further
your comments were a reality check, thank you
i will try my bets to not let my emotions overcome me that easily
im aware that im spoiled but today was already a little much so i was really overwhelmed, which isnt that much of an excuse but its better than nothing
once again, thanks for addressing the issue

[torn yarrow]

dam, what a day in zn vent

[mild compass]

agreed

[torn yarrow]

😂

[mild compass]

it was quite a reality check which in all honesty i really needed so im good with it

[torn yarrow]

ye dw, we all need one every once in a while

[tropic hound]

good job now remember all this I don't wanna have this convo again

[mild compass]

yeah, dw
i really just needed to let some steam off and didnt know where else

[torn yarrow]

dam, ok mom 👀

[boreal leaf]

Dang

[mild compass]

dang what
yall expext me to dip after i got pinged like 10 times?

[hearty ibex]

AWW

we love this

im very glad you made up with her

[mild compass]

without apologizing or saying thank you?

[hearty ibex]

this is great news

[hearty ibex]

self awareness is key

🙏🙏

[mild compass]

i was an emotional bitch but imo everyone can be that once in a while?

[hearty ibex]

you did a good job by apologising

[tropic hound]

No

No excuses you should be ashamed of who you are

Now delete valorant

[torn yarrow]

[mild compass]

i already am but okay thanks

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to actuallyrixzz

[tropic hound]

Good

First step to becoming a better person is self awareness

[mild compass]

i know

[tropic hound]

Just like I'm very self aware of my racist past

Now I only look forward to my racist future

[torn yarrow]

past?

[mild compass]

but honestly looking back coming to this vent was the right decision imo
criticism helped

[young grotto]

thats nice to hear
i hope u get better soon

[mild compass]

thanks
have been ill for 2 weeks so i hope it gets better soon

[granite zodiac]

constructive criticism

[mild compass]

yup

[hearty ibex]

hopefully you will

[hearty ibex]

aww

glad ur taking this so well

hope you get well soon

[mild compass]

whenever i need a reality check im coming here LMAO

[hearty ibex]

LMAO

we'll be here for u trust

[mild compass]

ill take your word for that

[boreal leaf]

Nah it was unexpected

[mild compass]

ah
idk it's kinda a thing of good conscience no?
i may get emotional at times but at least i'll stand up for it because it's a fact afterall
it just proves yall right that i dont even have a moral compass or something iykwim

[boreal leaf]

Yeah sure

Get well soon

[mild compass]

glad u took the criticism

https://cdn.discordapp.com/emojis/722191171908010044.gif?size=64

[upbeat jolt]

Read this as constructive racism

[tepid dome]

thats because all of you think of is racism

[upbeat jolt]

All you think of*

and no

Sometimes I think if you're 18 or not

😔🙏

[tepid dome]

honest mistake

let it be

[tepid dome]

sometimes i think if youre a pedo or not

the answer is always yes

[upbeat jolt]

Yes

I am

How did you know

😱

🥺

[tepid dome]

lucky guess

[upbeat jolt]

Nah

[upbeat jolt]

It takes one to know one

🗣️💯🔥

[tepid dome]

agreed!

[upbeat jolt]

dang, we have a lot in common 😔

[tepid dome]

we do 😻

[upbeat jolt]

🤦🏿‍♀️

[tepid dome]

😢

[mild compass]

😨

[tepid dome]

my real reaction

[granite zodiac]

im something of a racist myself

[glossy quartz]

https://tenor.com/view/max-verstappen-f1-formule-1-gif-15087359750872636720

[tender vale]

i want to vent

about my rights

as an elpun

😔

[mild compass]

yes child

[quaint hound]

water

[plucky trellis]

Air

[tender vale]

Earth

[languid musk]

real

[trim canopy]

earth is flat and the sun rotates around the earth

PREACH

[tropic hound]

it's classic attention seeking behaviour just go on with your days

[hearty ibex]

real

[plucky trellis]

Real

[uncut remnant]

where's that fat panda at?

I'll kill him

[tender vale]

[plucky trellis]

💀

[dreamy void]

I leave discord for couple of days and this happens, nah i be leaving more often

[low zodiac]

What happened here 😭

[plucky trellis]

Carry on with your day pookie

Nothing to worry about

[low zodiac]

ok i tried scrolling up to see wot happened but gave up

i dont care that much i realised

[pearl trench]

Same 😭

[rose fog]

Hey guyssss

[pearl trench]

Hii how are you doing

[rose fog]

Good hbu

Am lost here fr

Idk why I joined

[pearl trench]

Awww is there anything particular that you are lost about

[pearl trench]

Im good as wellll

Please let me know if you need help Id be more than glad to :))

[mild compass]

you need a therapist role for real

[pearl trench]

Awh imagine they actually had one lol

We have a wellbeing officer though to an extent they kinda do that

But its literally an internship lol

[rose fog]

Thanks I really need help for my IGCSE Edexcel history A Nd I HV test tmmr

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to angell71

[mild compass]

wouldve given if i was owner in a heartbeat fr🙏

[pearl trench]

Since you're knew and haven't gotten subject roles yet I really think you should get those

!!roleguide

[grizzled mango]

Hey there! Can you not see any subject channels? Do you want to see more subject channels? Are you new to the server and confused as to why all you can see is chat-lounge and a few bot channels? Are you looking for your subject/helper roles? Head over to #🖍️│roles-guide to learn more about how to get your roles!

[pearl trench]

You can check out the roleguide on how or simply go to id:customize id:browse

You can select the #ig-history channel and ask any questions over there by sending in the question and running the command /ask until someone replies to you or check the pinned messages for resources people have already sent

#🙋│help-guide

You can see how the command works here if you get stuck

Also for general questions you can ask in #chat-lounge everyone just chills there and you can ping me if you have any more questions

[rose fog]

Thnxxx

[lofty hinge]

tell me your deepest and darkest secrets

i promise i wont tell anyone😏

[coral nova]

omg zubair

[magic wedge]

FUDGING BUTTERCREAM ASSCREAMY BEACHY SOLID FISHY CREPES GAH

[magic wedge]

Angell and fia used to be the therapist duo last year 😹

[tender vale]

Which mf keeps making venting above chat lounge

[green venture]

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[lofty hinge]

guys make it 50

[dreamy void]

"I almost killed someone when i was 7 don't tell anyone"
-Someone somewhere

[mild compass]

i am your mom

[plucky trellis]

Dang

[upbeat jolt]

Thanks@lofty hinge

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to ramenguy5771

[tacit granite]

water;

[boreal leaf]

Bro thinks hes him

[mild compass]

lmao fr

[pseudo nexus]

i feel like i cant get anything done whats so ever

i keep getting told i have potential and i need to work hard yet i struggle to see this so called "potential"

i wish someone could just help me see the evidence that im making progress cuz i cannot tell if anything im doing is right or wrong

if i cant answer a simple question on what i want to eat then how tf am i expected to figure out if im learning anything, progressing and identify where im flopping

its not that i know nothing its just i have no clue if what ive learnt is enough to make up for a satisfactory review

and when i actually try to ask like i wanna know where im headed, im showing that im making an effort in giving a shit. i feel so ignored and like everyone slammed a fucking door in my face or it feels like im ringing the doorbell but no ones fucking opening the door

worst part is im supposed to be inspired to keep going yet im feeling insecure, guilty, pathetic and worthless that the people in the boat im stuck in managed to get out and keep swimming. i feel like people found their way out the maze meanwhile everytime i believe i find the right path, im always met with a goddamn dead end.

and its not that idc. i identified i have many struggles, many weaknesses but its hard to fill all the gaps cuz they r very good at playing hide and seek with me. i feel like im still seeking for the knowledge gaps, how im gon navigate im an exhausted and overwhelmed seeker
im literally malfunctioning i just want a break but i know i have to keep working. i just wanna know what the fuck im doing why cant i find the answer

im lacking guidance as u can see. im failing to understand why getting help is not a straight forward thing in my case. i dont need to be reminded how lucky i am, try live with my brain for a week and u will see what i mean by feeling lost and feeling trapped, feeling held back

unless ur more efficient at working with my funky messy confusing cluttered up brain than i am then i guess im the problem arent i

i feel so broken that i havent found the right method. i havent figured out the right method, i fucking wish schools looking more into things like these. my brain is clearly wired differently and im having trouble understanding what it wants

and yes phone can be distraction for me
but it helped me be more aware that there is something definitely wrong with me. i had only me to realise im different from others. teachers made me out to be stupid, lazy, careless

[brazen robin]

Who’s gonna carry the boats

[pseudo nexus]

what

[brazen robin]

Seek the help of God

[pseudo nexus]

that shit dont work man
god told me im on my own ☠☠

gods not gon save me
i have to save me but i literally dont fucking know how

praying has never helped me unless im having the intense shits that leave me passing out 😍

[brazen robin]

I dont completely understand what’s going on with u. You cant get shit done??

[boreal leaf]

I think bro is still stuck in his 14 year old phase

[pseudo nexus]

broski im not tryna do the r/im14andthisisdeep

im genuinely struggling and crying for help

if u concluded this as me having my joker moment then u completely missed the point of what i was trying to say

im demotivated
i feel drained and im failing to realise im progressing cuz i was made to believe id never make it in life and ive just internalised it
i just wanna heal

im not enjoying this miserable look on life. i literally wanna fucking heal

i feel like my brain is disabling me from doinf what i want

i dont wanna be an edgelord
i just wish someone reminded me im gon get better
i dont feel validated
im losing my sense of belonging and i just want someone to guide me

[pseudo nexus]

im finding it hard to be productive
i believe im not doing enough
my "best" isnt enough

i get told to try harder but thats so vague wtf

god is not gon help me i just need someone to give me advice on how i can get myself out of this rut
i think im getting out of it then i find myself back in square one i just wanna be okay for once

at 14 i was suicidal. im not suicidal..

[torn yarrow]

@pearl trench

[pseudo nexus]

i didnt address these problems for such a long time cuz i had been encouraged to just bottle it up and act like i have it together but im suffering

its so hard to study and retain info

[torn yarrow]

maybe its cause u dont want to?

like what if u dont have the right motivation

[pseudo nexus]

yes but nows not the time right time cuz i literally have exams and i just wanna do my best for once

i wanna be SATISFIED with what i have

when i try to have optimism, smth has to find a way and shit all over my dreams and ambition

[torn yarrow]

but usually u cant study because you dont wanna study, ur doing it for someone else, so try to remind urself of the reasons and goals and aims u have to study

[pseudo nexus]

can u give an example?

[torn yarrow]

e.g ur parents

if ur doing it for them, there is a limit to whatever u can do

but if ur doing smt for urself, ur the only one setting the limits

[pseudo nexus]

so do i need to stop seeing it as like a chore and more like a journey to keep moving to

[torn yarrow]

YES EXACTLY

see? u said it, not me

[pseudo nexus]

well i hope it didnt come off as me not knowing i might have an idea but i wanna make sure i actually have a clue what im saying

i guess i just lack that confidence

my self esteem is lower than the titanic 💀

[torn yarrow]

nah its completely fine

[torn yarrow]

dw, you'll build it up, especially with the right people arnd u

[pseudo nexus]

sorry i meant pretending to not know*

Ppl think im doing this on purpose but i genuinely feel lost

[torn yarrow]

dude its chill, dw

[pseudo nexus]

and i think im broken cuz i havent found effective methods that work for me

i wonder if its the fact im not maintaining a positive mindset

thats why it looks like nothings working

cuz my faith in myself comes and goes

📈📉📈📉📈📉📈

[quaint hound]

water

oooo bisma

[torn yarrow]

oh hi, wsg

[pseudo nexus]

i do have the right ppl arnd me but its hard to ask what i want from them

[quaint hound]

nthn much exams in a while

[torn yarrow]

its not about them telling u what to do, its about getting inspired with their work ethic, positivity etc

[torn yarrow]

oh dam, goodluck, same here

[quaint hound]

cool

[pseudo nexus]

well for some reason i felt more insecure seeing my friends who r at their lowest actually get back up

thats literally supposed to encourage me

why am i jealous

[boreal leaf]

Mb

[pseudo nexus]

this is what happens when u have a dad who compares u to everyone in rhe world 💀💀

u lose sense of who u r and now ur stuck not feeling good enough

[torn yarrow]

it happens, u feel discouraged with ur own progress sometimes

its gonna be slow, but worth it in the end

[pseudo nexus]

my goal is to prove my dad wrong when he tried to convince me people are gon do better than me and im gon be on my own

is that a weird approach

[torn yarrow]

😂 😂 lol, many asian kids here to relate with

[pseudo nexus]

can that be a goal

[torn yarrow]

ok thas it, thas the seed of the problem
ur motivation isnt being successful for urslf, its proving ur dad wrong

negative goals = negative process

[pseudo nexus]

thank u for ur feedback

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[torn yarrow]

just tried my best, gws ✌️

[pseudo nexus]

ill try to not prioritise that next time

can u give suggestions on a good example of a healthy goal then?

genuinely asking

[torn yarrow]

hmm, what r u passionate about? any career choice? a subject?

[pseudo nexus]

i still havebt figured it out actually but i get complimented for my creativity and way of writing

i get told im meant for creative fields
if that came off vague lemme know a better way of wording it

[compact pawn]

Don't go with what you are told just because you are good at something doesn't mean it makes u happy go with something you are happy to do

[pseudo nexus]

actually i like being told im creative

i like that im celebrated for my writing style but idk why its not encouraging me to keep going god im a mess

it makes me happy that im able to have such creative writing

but im still tryna figure out the creative aspect

[torn yarrow]

do u enjoy writing?

well first u should nurture ur interests
u like writing? join online servers where thas all that people talk about
u like maths? watch videos related to the more complex maths than what u usually do
u like debating? so many platforms to get further into it

[pseudo nexus]

yes but idk why im losing passion in it

same for drawing

i just took a long break but its rlly concerning how long that break is

smth is definitely wrong

[compact pawn]

You are probly burned out ig

[torn yarrow]

ye that makes the most sense

[torn yarrow]

ur giving AS in may.june?

[pseudo nexus]

seems like ive been burned out for a long time then

do u guys have any advice on how to slowly lift urself out of burnout

[pseudo nexus]

i dont properly know
i need to get myself together cuz how am i gon sit for a exam if im just floating around

[torn yarrow]

but AS right?

[torn yarrow]

hmm, usually get into some hobby, binge an old movie, smt like that, eat food that u like, eating healthy helps too ngl

[pseudo nexus]

probably
but like the school fees is hella expensive and we r financially struggling

i feel like im being relied on to not fuck up

[torn yarrow]

oh dam, the pressure must be hard ot deal with along with a burnout

[pseudo nexus]

thats probably whats holding me back

i wont let myself accept when i dont do my best cuz i think the worlds over yes i have a bad case of pessimism

[torn yarrow]

oh dam..

[pseudo nexus]

yes my friends keep reminding themself that their parents spend so much for them and they should study so its affordable and its worth paying this much

somehow it works for them

but when i try to do it
it actually brings me down???

i guess thats just not my way of motivating myself by being so critical like that

[torn yarrow]

ye i do that too, tbh

[torn yarrow]

hmm, well everyone has adifferent setting

u cant adjust urself to others' and expect it to work 💯

[pseudo nexus]

maybe im misinterpreting it
idk

[torn yarrow]

hmm

could be

well atp all i can say is try to take a break from work, read a book, try to calm urself

[quaint hound]

thats called

doing water

[torn yarrow]

woah~

[quaint hound]

yep i do that a lot

well this time its not really smth sexual its js my terminology of having nerves and calming ur life down

[compact pawn]

Start from the very beginning idk like it helps me if I am burned out like if u draw draw something easy like start doodling or if u write but u are not able to rn read something might helpp

[quaint hound]

https://tenor.com/view/david-goggins-lifting-they-dont-know-me-workout-gym-gif-17664862

stay hard

[compact pawn]

Go on a walk like give yourself some me time and like just think don't do anything else go look at some pretty flowers and like green stuff or play with cats or dogs or any pet will lift up ur mood for suree

[torn yarrow]

(imagine he has a fish)

[compact pawn]

Just stare at itt idk lol

[torn yarrow]

bruh

[compact pawn]

Lmao I mean like admire the texture or the color or how creepy it's eyes are

[pseudo nexus]

i got birds
i be yappin to em sometimes

and yeah going on walks actually rlly clear up my head esp when i dont have any classes
i like just walking around outside

since i stay at home most of the time i pace around the home when i want a break from studying

[compact pawn]

Wow u got birds so cool a

[compact pawn]

Yesss walking is literally healing ✨️

[fallow oriole]

thank you

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to angell71

[fallow oriole]

[quaint hound]

yall talk a lot

have a water and speak to air

thats called venting

[plucky trellis]

Real

[lofty hinge]

i want water

😔

[brazen robin]

air

[mild compass]

https://tenor.com/view/super-idol-social-credits-zmcmtianyiming-tian-yiming-douyin-gif-23524798

[dreamy void]

My friend, when a machine gun gets overheated in a video game, do you continue shooting?

No, otherwise it'd explode on you

Take some time off, and refresh your self then go ahead

But for god's sake, not on social media

Cuz social media will fuck you up

[dreamy void]

Someone is missing the lulu market XD

[upbeat jolt]

Guys

I'm depress

period

[tepid dome]

cute!

[brazen robin]

lol get good

[upbeat jolt]

Real

[spice geyser]

2021 ptsd flashbacks

[amber tide]

A2 STUDENT COREE

[thin swift]

riyal

[zealous sphinx]

how to stop procrastination 😔 im so depressed because of that

[tender vale]

^^

same here

[pseudo nexus]

no im gon drop the gun

[pseudo nexus]

if only i could find the answer

[plucky trellis]

Real😔

[zealous sphinx]

I will inform you if I found it

[pseudo nexus]

omg lola what does reputed mean

[vocal dagger]

Any Algerians here or north Africa s

[plucky trellis]

Ppl thanked me 300 Times

[pseudo nexus]

ohhhh

thank u :3

[plucky trellis]

Thank u :3

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to brownieclownie

[brazen robin]

Yes riyad mahrez

[dreamy void]

Egyptian here

[vocal dagger]

Add me as a friend i

[sonic iris]

U cant just start trying hard with no end goal or motivation to start of , first step is for u to find a cue , so what is a cue? , cue triggers ur brain to initiate and start a certain behaivour , its a small bit of info that predicts a reward , for instance , wanting to get good marks for the feeling of satisfaction or losing weight to look better and become healthier , the 2nd step is craving, these are motivational forces behind what u want to do like starting a habit , or studying etc , that is because without some level of motivation or desire , u have absolutely no reason to act , which is why u are currently doing nothing out of the things u have to do , what u crave is not the studying or the habit itself , for example , u dont crave smoking , you crave the feeling of relief it provides , youu dont want to turn on the tv , u want to be entertained , every craving is linked to a desire to change ur internal state ; cues are meaningless until they are interpreted . the thoughts , feeling and emotions of the 'observer' are what transforms cue into a craving , the 3rd step step is response , a response occures depending on how motivated u are and how much friction is associated with the behaivour , if a particular action requires more physical or mental effort u are willing to expend , then u wont do it , your response also depends on ur ability , it sounds simple but you only achieve what u want to do if ur capable of doing it , which you can not 100% be sure of until u give it time and start on it while giving it ur all , finally response delivers a reward , rewards are the end goal of what u did and wanted to do , the cue is about noticing the reward , the craving is about wanting the reward , the response is abotu obtaining the reward , u want rewards as they serve 2 purposes : 1) to satisfy u , 2 ) to teach you , rewards teach which actions are worth remebering to act on in ur future

[plucky trellis]

Wow

[mild compass]

wow

[plucky trellis]

Where's your star 😨

[mild compass]

i asked for reset

[plucky trellis]

That's brave

[mild compass]

😭

[plucky trellis]

From 0?

[green venture]

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[plucky trellis]

Aww😭😭

[zealous sphinx]

Thank you so much dude for taking out time and write this big paragraph for me! Now comes my problem, I do have a goal and I know what I will be gifting myself in the end. I made studying my only goal right now and my motivation is my marks but they're also my ego for instance, I mostly get good marks A* and all but when I do I get OVER CONFIDENT and I procrastinate. Another reason for my procrastination is simple laziness no matter what I do I can never get rid of laziness even if I reward myself. Another problem with me is that I just can't focus which eventually leads to procrastination and trust me it's not the “normal” distraction, even if I'm sitting in an white empty room with nothing but my books and pen I would start playing with them even if I stay away from my gadgets. Now, the thing is even if I have a GOAL and MOTIVATION and a REWARD, and if I'm still procrastinating like crazy, what's the solution? What do I do that can get me rid of this cycle? I tried doing everything I could but it just won't work, not even a small progress or I'd rather say it's getting worse everyday.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to amro_ysl

[sonic iris]

addressin procrastination often involves a multifaceted approach. one strategy is to break tasks into smaller, more manageable steps, which can reduce overwhelm and make progress feel more attainable. Setting specific, achievable goals along the way can also help maintain momentum and provide a sense of accomplishment.
try identify underlying factors contributing to procrastination, such as fears, anxieties, or perfectionism... developing strategies to address these underlying issues, whether through self-reflection or seeking professional support, can be transformative.
andd establish a structured routine and experimenting with different productivity techniques
also try building up self discipline , no matter how satisfied u are by ur progress u must work on maintaining it , for instance , u ace ur math exam , u fufilled ur goal , u feel satisfied , u feel more confident , in some cases , way too confident . this is a probelm it causes u to be arrogant and work way less than before and as a result procastinate and do way worse in exams , this is where self discipline comes in , u got a 99/100 in an exam, u continue with the practice u used to do , practice fundamentals no matter how easy they are or how easy they may seem , the more practice u do , the 'luckier' u get in exams , does not matter if u have holidays once u build up ur self discipline , u cant risk loosing it, build up habits , improve day by day even if it meant improving by 1% , ignore those feels , those thoughts , "ill do it later" , "i have time" , " ill do it after i do that" , why not do it now? your limiting urself , ur building a barrier infront of u , you r closing the doors for self improvement , u HAVE to learn to ignore those thoughts.
remember, overcoming procrastination is a process that takes time and effort. be patient with yourself and celebrate even small victories . id recommend u implement some strategies from resources such as the book "atomic habit" by james clear

heres the book https://ia804500.us.archive.org/8/items/atomic-habits-pdfdrive/Atomic habits ( PDFDrive ).pdf

[mild compass]

wow

[uncut remnant]

you guys have a Level in Africa?

[mild compass]

yes north african countries like egypt do have a levels!

[uncut remnant]

wow the more you know

[plucky trellis]

wow

[sly shuttle]

what happened to ur reps? @mild compass

[mild compass]

i asked for reset

[sly shuttle]

woah

why though

[mild compass]

i didnt deserve it lol 😭🙏🏻

[sly shuttle]

lmfao

w juri

[mild compass]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/emojis/874648195282653286.gif?v=1

[zealous sphinx]

Thanks once again for typing all that! Now, I do have archivable goals, and they do make sense, and yeah, I do have that sense of accomplishment, but the thing is that I can't just chase those goals. I thought it was perhaps because my goals weren't "strong" enough, but when I saw other people having the same or, I'd say, similar goals as me, I was certain that it was just me lacking discipline. I tried everything I could to achieve that, but unfortunately, I couldn't. You told me to try finding out why I can't get something I'm trying to get and what is stopping me, and after thinking for a while, I came up with: I am just afraid. Afraid of what? Failure! There are numerous reasons for that; one of them is my parents, who just want me to get an A*, which puts fear in me. Another reason is that I am simply scared to lose or scared of not being able to achieve something I have chased for so long.The 'luckier' is something that highly motivated me and was really helpful to me! I will try my best to build discipline and do something that I have to prioritize. Yk, what is my problem? When I'm not studying, I waste time, and when I study, I think utter shit and overthink the most useless things ever, and I also just worry about my future. What do I do? This is another major reason to procrastinate, because I don't like thinking and stressing about my past or future, and that only happens when I study, so I stop studying and do something else (might not make sense, but yeah, thats how I am). I wouldn't really call this procrastination, but again, it is an issue with me! And I'm aware that I can't get rid of procrastination in just a few days; it will happen eventually, but the problem is that I never see the results. Lastly, sure, I will read that book. Thanks for the advice.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to amro_ysl

[hearty ibex]

this is so me

[restive bridge]

fr

[bleak raptor]

wow so many big paras now my eyes are procrastinating to read em lol

[mild compass]

i messed up the lines while reading

[torn yarrow]

😂 😂 procrastination ultra pro max

[bleak raptor]

lmao

[pearl trench]

Aw mashallah

[tepid dome]

damn

i forget you write philosophical paragraphs sometimes

[mild compass]

thats a bunch of yap

[tepid dome]

even so, it looks cool

[wintry rampart]

as much as i have no choice but to visit the dead grandmother on my dad's side, i do not want to

cause i may end up questioning my desperate father's "efforts"

it is 5 in the morning at japan, i wake up and see a message from him "josh, do me a favor and greet your brother happy birthday"

i initially obliged but soon understood something

he was never this desperate

and instead told him to be patient

this is so fucking stupid

[upbeat jolt]

Are you

The Weeknd loving kelpo?@wintry rampart

[wintry rampart]

yup

[upbeat jolt]

Why are you still

Like this

I thought you changed

[wintry rampart]

the resentment i had for my father was new

the others, i'm slowly improving

[upbeat jolt]

Damn your family sucks

[wintry rampart]

especially on my mom's side

he used to be caring and considerate

now he's a ghost who rarely visits me and my brother

and i feel something's off with him

yes he's caring for his parents

but why can't he dedicate even 30 minutes to visit me?

[upbeat jolt]

idk man maybe you're a guy and he expects you to like man up and be busy wit your own life

You're what

23?

[wintry rampart]

22

[upbeat jolt]

yeah 22

That's a pretty mature age

[wintry rampart]

yes, i'm busy with my life, but i guess i should pay him visits more often

[upbeat jolt]

It's fine for a toddler or a little girl to want daddy's attention but my guy you're 22.

[wintry rampart]

although i can't let my growing pity against him consume me

[upbeat jolt]

Yeah

He's old

He can't go out of his way

To just visit you

[wintry rampart]

i dee

[upbeat jolt]

he's got things to do

[wintry rampart]

so that's my mistake

[upbeat jolt]

yeah

[wintry rampart]

yup

[upbeat jolt]

Also either way you should be grateful your father is in your life

and he's caring as you say

[wintry rampart]

but i feel that he still treats me like a baby

[upbeat jolt]

My dad doesn't know me

Last time he saw me, I was 2

Or 1

And it's been over 17 years

[wintry rampart]

"josh, take care of your brother and moyher for me" every damn week

[wintry rampart]

shit

[upbeat jolt]

I have half siblings from different women

And I don't know any of them

I'm basically ostracized

[upbeat jolt]

Yeah cus you're the oldest

I have to take care of mom and my sister

I'm the oldest

[wintry rampart]

and i should be knowing that it's my responsibility

[upbeat jolt]

My dad doesn't give a shit

[wintry rampart]

and he always reminds me as if i forget

[upbeat jolt]

Because it is

You need to realize that you're a dude

no matter what you see on YouTube

Men are designed to take on responsibility

And take care of others

We only need a father figure until like

16

After that you're on your own

you need momma until age 8 or 9 and after that you take on after your dad or whatever father figure that's present in your life

[wintry rampart]

indeed

[upbeat jolt]

Life is different in society as a man and only men can show you the way

Not fucking Andrew Tate btw or any other influencer

[wintry rampart]

and i am here, at home, as a father figure to my brother

[upbeat jolt]

They're just trying to make a buck off of you

[upbeat jolt]

Good

Be a good role model

[wintry rampart]

indeed

but i question why my father sometimes hides the truth from me

it took me my grandma on my mom's side to know that he never had a stroke

[upbeat jolt]

A) he'll let you know in due time
B) he doesn't want everyone worrying unnecessarily
C) both

[wintry rampart]

but experienced side effects by accidentally taking his mother's meds

[upbeat jolt]

Damn

[wintry rampart]

my mom and grandma tells me b

[upbeat jolt]

It's B

I thought it was some family secret

Then A

But for this case, a B

[wintry rampart]

it wasn't a family secret

[upbeat jolt]

No I thought it was some family secret like, "we practice witchcraft son"

[wintry rampart]

hahahaha

[upbeat jolt]

anyhow

How's uni

Or did you already graduate

[wintry rampart]

great

[wintry rampart]

1 year

till gead

[upbeat jolt]

Damnn

Time flies

[wintry rampart]

but realized that i can't put too much org work in my plate

[upbeat jolt]

True

You gotta learn what works for you,

[wintry rampart]

indeed

so i'll minimize the amount of committees next term

[upbeat jolt]

Yeah

Do that

What's your major btw

(I forgot)

[wintry rampart]

marketing

[upbeat jolt]

Ohh

Pretty cool

What do they teach you @wintry rampart

[wintry rampart]

mostly how to create good marketing plans

[fleet steppe]

bro

join gym

its gonna change you

[restive bridge]

gym is not a universal solution to all of life's problems 😭

it'll help if you have body image problems, MAYBE

but for mental health issues caused by other factors, i don't think lifting is going to help

[fleet steppe]

bro trust me ik it sounds crazy

but once you start

you mentally feel wayy better

lifting helps

[restive bridge]

bro trust me

ive had my fair share of mental issues

and i lift

it is not a catch-all solution 😔

wish it was tho that would be hard

[fleet steppe]

i induce pain to fight the pain

[fleet steppe]

hmm

[restive bridge]

academic stress cant be solved by lifting

trust me i know 😔

[fleet steppe]

i see

[mint bloom]

Real

[zealous sphinx]

use c ai ez duh

no more academic stress 😌

[steady basin]

What's thing

This

Am I allowed to use excessive gifs here cause its venting

[slim lake]

No

[mild compass]

https://tenor.com/view/cat-kitten-cat-crying-kitten-crying-05starrynight-gif-10141647709992578610

[steady basin]

Sad

[granite zodiac]

pet it rn

[balmy knoll]

thats it guys

i ran out of "it is what it is"

[languid musk]

fuck it we ball

[granite zodiac]

okay

[sonic iris]

😭

[molten kiln]

true

[wintry rampart]

i now can't control the amount of hatred that i have for my father

for simply snatching my time to attend an event concurring at the same time

his mom died last monday

and now mom wants me to visit her wake and see my dad cry?

for nothing?

i am not even close to his mother

so what's the fucking point of attending her wake?

[restive bridge]

this is your literal grandmother, show some respect for the dead, especially your dead family.

[wintry rampart]

i'll try

[restive bridge]

you don't need to care

[wintry rampart]

but one thing that will overwhelm me is the sudden development of hatred towards my dad

[restive bridge]

you just need to be a human being, attend it, and be supportive. no one's asking you for anything else

[wintry rampart]

if he wasn't there, that would be ikay

first, he abandoned the family cause he was greedy with money 9 years ago

then recently, he od'd on his mother's meds, making me think that he had a stroke

without telling the truth in front of my face directly

and didn't even visit me and my brother occassionaly until i had to break down in front of him

he was so deceptive

and i wouldn't wanna be as deceptive as him

cause that's not the right type of person to be

[restive bridge]

ive read your messages on this situation before

think i get why he wouldn't tell you he od'd on meds and would instead tell you he had a stroke

[wintry rampart]

he didn't directly tell me

[restive bridge]

what kind of father wants their children to think they're an addicted failure

[wintry rampart]

it took my grandmother to know the truth

[restive bridge]

shame and fear

make man do many things which confound the rest

[wintry rampart]

he left the house cause him and mom had beef over money and didn't want more chaos in the house

[restive bridge]

understandable

[wintry rampart]

he's not an addict and has never used drugs or alcohol

only just one small overdose on the wrong medications

[restive bridge]

hmm yeah

what did he tell you happened?

[wintry rampart]

nothing

[restive bridge]

think about it from his perspective

[wintry rampart]

it had to be my mom and grandmother on mom's side to tell me what happend

[restive bridge]

the kelpo-in-venting thing has been going on for a WHILE

there's a lot of added context iirc

[restive bridge]

interesting hmm

i see

[fleet steppe]

bro

kelpo guy youre 22

its about time you face real shit otherwise your children wont have a good father figure to look upon

[slim lake]

doesnt matter if thats ur father's mother. the father you dont seem to like. you and ur grandmother still have a relationship, shes still your blood relative. even if you werent close to her. people attend funeral to pay respects

[obtuse vector]

Respeto, pare

[fleet steppe]

bro thought he did something there

[wintry rampart]

welp, all the hatred turned to sadness

and ended up breaking down

is this what they want me to be?

a nervous breakdown

[mild compass]

https://tenor.com/view/cat-kitten-cat-crying-kitten-crying-05starrynight-gif-10141647709992578610

[wintry rampart]

this has been the first time in 10 bloody years for idk, experiencing a loss

a loss in family

i let my hatred take me and ended up breaking me when i was at the venue

i'm stuck at either the stage of grief after angwr or bargaining

now all this hatred is closed

gone

i can unferstand what is really happening on my dad's end

this is just pent up rage

for idk how long

why do i even have to learn how to hate?

[wintry rampart]

i finally get it after 10 years

all my thinking 2-4 hours ago was my pent up hatred

[wintry rampart]

you got an iceberg down there

[restive bridge]

fr

[wintry rampart]

now i feel much stronger given how i realized that my hatred was unreasonable

[coral plover]

I FUCKING HATE CAMBRIDGE!!!!!!!!

[hot perch]

Us

[bleak raptor]

its Scambridge for a reason

[mild compass]

i hate drawing 🙏🏻

[hot perch]

Us

[coral plover]

frr

[brazen robin]

real

shit was so hard I quit learning to draw

oh

are you talking about drawing in BIO?

that is ez

[swift ore]

it's time to cosplay as a person who has their shit together

[boreal leaf]

I like drawing tho...

But I quit

[hot perch]

Real

[lofty hinge]

i have this really bad habit

of talking ab myself whenever i'm in a convo

and the other side clearly seem uninterested

i wanna get rid of this habit but idk how

it sounds easy but sometimes it just slips out yk

[wintry rampart]

thou continue the iceberg.

now my mom whines at me for not being "normal"

ie, "say hi to your uncle even if you became a nervous breakdown"

so what? no disregard for one's emotional staye

and in fact, being "normal" is acting upon fear and not yourself

[granite zodiac]

why would you have a nervous breakdown greeting your uncle

[wintry rampart]

ahen i got in the wake, i suddenly broke down in tears

dad took me to another room

calmed me for a few minutes

went back out and sat next to an uncle

mom asks me to greet

i ignore

cause i'm trying to regain my senses

and fast forward, she gets mad at me, for not saying hi, even at a deteriorated mental state

part of my breakdown made me question why my mom wants me to suffer in this state

i know that it is disrespectful but i needed to calm myself and regain my sense

not change personalities, say hi then return to crying

@granite zodiac

she bloody says "why can't you act like everyone else around you?"

which is definitely the wrong thing ti say

[granite zodiac]

viewing everything in a pessimistic perspective will surely destroy your relationship with your mother, why not view it like this, maybe she wanted you to meet them so you could share a convo and divert your mind, maybe she was wanting the best for you which is exactly what a parent could possibly want for their OWN child, there could b alot of reasons for why she did what she did but you chose to look at the only negative one, your mother is not your enemy, she is the bestest friend you could ever ask for, if you look for flaws, you will find millions, be more optimistic, its her first time living life too, you should go easy on her, and i can relate to you, if i dont want to meet any guests over, i get really pissed off, but at the end of the day, mom just wants us to know people better, you cant jsut stay isolated in ur room all ur life, you have to make ur presence felt iykwim, you couldve like gone to wash ur face and told your mother give me 10 mins or so, thats my take, and ill be in class so dont expect fast replies, hope this helps

[wintry rampart]

maybe that was her intentions, but i guess i got too consumed in my emotions, to a point where i dissociated myself from human contact.

yes, she wants me to be the best person that i can be, but her generational trauma kicked in and painted these wishes into a very pessimistic manner, thus me being all pessimistic. i understand why i became the "embarrassment" in her family, despite my brother being more embarrassing than her. even my senior relatives on mom's side found him to be more problematic than i am. but back to the main topic.

after all these years of abuse, i thought that everything she said was only for her own gain.

and not for mine

so i ignored her words

and only follow what i only think

on relatives, i understand that i am making a fool out of myself, although it will be hard to detract from my emotions and obey her

and simply being respectful by saying hi

[granite zodiac]

im sorry for the abuse you went through, i know youve been venting here for quite some time now but i havent really been following nd so maybe what i say is biased judging only what you said rn, so i apologize for that

dont think of yourself as an embarrasment, everyone has their teen years right, everyone goes thru stuff, everyone deals with something, its not smth you use to label urself as a disappointment or embarrasment, put ut like this, you have us to talk to when ur feeling down and uneasy right? who does ur mother talk to when she feels down??, dosent she need someone too, she has emotions too, she feels too, and seeing you cry shatters her, try to appreciate her more and compliment her, give her hugs and stuff, build ur relationship back w her, back to the topic, it seems like your both just trauma dumping on ea h other, taking stress out on each other, noone could say hi after crying a river, agaun things couldve been handled differently and more maturely and optimistically, remember, the only ppl you can and ever eill trust, are your family, and they will always have your back, my father taught me that, and it is true, everyone will look for their own benefit but your mother makes sacrifices which you dont even know of, im sure you.know the pain and troubles of pregnancy let alone delivery, shes done alot for you, being more grateful to her will not only help your mental state, but your mother's as well

i think i deviated from what i was trying to say , but i hope this helps

the event that occured was like completely situational, theres a bigger problem that needs to b addressed and thats ur relationship w ur mother

none of what i said was said in a mean tone, i apologize if anything sounded as such

[wintry rampart]

indeed. i may consider going on family counselling to try to fix that relationship, although there will be unexpected outcomes that can possibly break my relationship apart.

[wintry rampart]

idk, mom has nobody to talk to but her friends, i guess. we indeed are lashing out on each other, but she never taught me what your father taught you. she may have understood that people can cry excessively due to their loved ones dying, but i do not know what's going on inside of her. she maybe didn't expect me to fully break down, as if i would have the emotional state of the terminator or smth cause "you're a bloody man. big men don't cry even when their loved ones die" and instead acted out of impulse.

she isn't even helping me with my mental state. she just criticizes and blames me for something baseless.

even my dad knew what to do when i broke down

he got me into the living quarters ofthe wake and calmed me down

so i understood that he was the much more trustworthy and genuinely caring parent despite the years of deceit and abandonment

thus all the hate i have towards him for now got erased.

[granite zodiac]

ill reply when i get the chance, im in class rn then would b at the hospital

so apologies for late replies

[wintry rampart]

ayt

that's understandable

[wintry rampart]

no wonder why this has been a weird turn of events

would have visited that wake last friday

but my family's driver got into an accident

and now i face what has happened yesterday

why do all the good times get intentionally taken over by worse, undesirable times?

[boreal leaf]

It's destiny my guy

[mild compass]

invest in a diary

[magic wedge]

Kandis na bhai, ney tissue

https://tenor.com/view/when-harry-met-sally-tissue-gif-10268918

[slim lake]

mush pls 😭

[magic wedge]

I’m being generous

Do u know

How expensive

Tissues are

[slim lake]

fr

[magic wedge]

These days

Smh

[slim lake]

smh

Fa facial tissue

[glossy quartz]

lmao

[mighty sluice]

Ass

[fleet steppe]

so mean

[slim lake]

💀

[mild compass]

this channel should get nuked

[pseudo nexus]

diaries dont help
not for everybody

some ppl need advice from another person and them being alone with nothing but their thoughts and book feels inadequate

[fleet steppe]

mean

[mighty sluice]

ass

[granite zodiac]

firstly apologies for the wait, i can barely find time for anything, anyways critize and blame are strong words for the situation you presented, unless theres smth else backing it up, those words shouldnt be used for someone who sacrificed their desires for you

[granite zodiac]

hes a man, you cant compare a man and a womens emotional state firstly, and secondly ur dad shouldnt b compared to ur mother in ur case, if he left for idk how long and is suddenly caring and stuff, that means nothing, unless ofc theres some reason behind him leaving and a valid one too, im super cooked i apologize for not elaborating, super tired these days, you can follow this up in dms if thats more comfortable, just know i prob wont be able to give prompt responses

[wintry rampart]

thassokay

[fleet steppe]

ASSS

[magic wedge]

@granite zodiac aapko peyse milne chahiye

[molten kiln]

fr

[molten kiln]

why bro

why not study properly

and then u will see that cambridge is easy bth

tbh*

[molten kiln]

fr apu

world made me a machine at this stuff

[mighty sluice]

HELL YEAH

[pseudo nexus]

vague

vague

[fleet steppe]

vagueta

[pseudo nexus]

real

[mild compass]

false

[pseudo nexus]

keywords: "not for everybody"

[pseudo nexus]

and "some ppl"

[mild compass]

false

[pseudo nexus]

ight think what u want buddy

[tender vale]

they messin with ya

[granite zodiac]

logon ki satisfaction hi buhut hai

[magic wedge]

Mujhe peyse de dena ✨

[molten kiln]

Tbh i was pretty much straight forward

Ig

[magic wedge]

bc procrastination is the key to the delulu version of peace and the sense of 20g of happiness we can convince our delulu soul we have achieved

[molten kiln]

sadly it hurts a lot more when thats been removed

believe me i did

and now i still am delulu

but idk

i lost my sense of humane ways

[magic wedge]

brother, youre too deep for an 8th grader, go take a nap, u still have 2 years till your official olevel exams

[molten kiln]

ahh no Apu i have a lot to do

i mean i am not the average 8th grader my school gives

sadly

[magic wedge]

youre too good to be true, but rn dont burn yourself out, you have your whole future left, ektu chill and enjoy, you wont have time for life after olevels

[molten kiln]

fr me have been chilling a lot for the past 3 days tbh Apu

[carmine fractal]

don't focus too much on standardised tests it's only 1 small part of your university applications

@molten kiln you should try for olympiads 😤

[molten kiln]

well that golden time was gone Apu since entring 8th grada

[molten kiln]

I did

once recently

[carmine fractal]

what subj

informatics?

[molten kiln]

have a noew one on 26th

[molten kiln]

maths

testing our iq

it was my first

i at got one medal 3rd place from Scholastica school

[carmine fractal]

is it one of those pyramid scheme olympiads or are they actually competitive

[molten kiln]

competitive

q/a was tricky

like for example

[carmine fractal]

how many test takers?

[molten kiln]

idk about the sequence things

[molten kiln]

about 100 from our school

[carmine fractal]

no like total

[molten kiln]

ranging from 7 to 9th

and for other schools

[magic wedge]

no bro golden times start now

[molten kiln]

hmm it must be arounf 400 maybe

[molten kiln]

true

[carmine fractal]

and how many gold medal awards given

[molten kiln]

but past is glden

[molten kiln]

idk bro i didn't keep count

but it was a lot

[carmine fractal]

damn

[molten kiln]

one guy from our school got 8 medals

dam

he's samrt hella smart fr

[carmine fractal]

bro this sounds like some pyramid scheme stuff 😭