venting

[wintry rampart]

idk

[lime gyro]

u are still a human

[wintry rampart]

my mother expects me to be stronger, no emotion, no crying

no anything

except for bitterness and pride

yes, i'm self centered

[lime gyro]

did she tell u that?

[wintry rampart]

cause that's what she expects me to be

[wintry rampart]

yes

"men don't cry, josh"

[lime gyro]

men do cry

[wintry rampart]

not even smile

that's why i frown

all the time

[lime gyro]

U can't feel better if u don't cry

that's why it is always inside u

[wintry rampart]

cause the way i see it, i'n told that i can only feel "manly" emotions like anger and arrogance

not joy and sadness

that's how i act in front of my family

[lime gyro]

that's totally not true

[wintry rampart]

as much as i wanna say sorry to my auntie

i can't

cause i know that i can't be forgived

[lime gyro]

those are all just thiughts

had anything been proven?

[wintry rampart]

she just scolded me again

although i know that she forgives me

cause she knows the situation that i'm in

[lime gyro]

and also what you are saying isn't at all the definition of a man

[wintry rampart]

if i killed myself, would my mom be happy?

[lime gyro]

Obviously not

and if she will

[wintry rampart]

cause every time i'm with her, she feels that i've ruined trips

[lime gyro]

that isn't a reason

[wintry rampart]

she keeps saying to me, "if you never joined this trip, we would have been happier"

and that's how it cemented to my mind

i know that self harm isn't the solution

i wanted to be exorcised of my demons

cause i know that something negative's taking me

i don't know what's causing me to be such a bad brother

[lime gyro]

how old are u?

[wintry rampart]

22

[lime gyro]

You are still young

[wintry rampart]

i'm not young anymore

i'm fucking older

and still i disrespext everyonep

cause of all the pent up resentment i got on myself

[lime gyro]

why don't u forget abt all those bad thoughts and just keep on working

[wintry rampart]

my family doesn't understand how resentfuk i am

inm close to either going on alcoholism ar the age of 22

or dying peacefully next year

[lime gyro]

man

[wintry rampart]

so that i won't be a fucking bursen to my damily

[lime gyro]

definition of man is self control

maturity

it isn't anger and arrogance

may I ask u something

[wintry rampart]

i don't know id i really hate my brother

or if i'm too resentful to befin with

despite him being mentally challenged, at the age od 13, i still can't leadn to undersrand him

cause all i can feel is hatred to myself

[lime gyro]

u have to calm down first

the more you are calmer the clearer your head will be

[wintry rampart]

this is the first time that i cried after months

it's as if it was the only way to let all my resentment to myself out

for being an arrogant, ungrateful shit

[lime gyro]

yes it is

u can't keep it in urself

it is okay to cry

it is okay to fall down

[wintry rampart]

does everyone who feels resentful to themselves deserve a chance to redeem themselves?

even if others think that you're acting iut for approval

[lime gyro]

what's important is that u stand up

[wintry rampart]

or will they be stuck?

[lime gyro]

yes

everyone has a chance until the day they die

[wintry rampart]

with the resebtment consuming you

[lime gyro]

can I ask u the question? :)

[wintry rampart]

go ahead

[lime gyro]

what do u think is the definition of a man?

[wintry rampart]

mature

[lime gyro]

on Ur own prospective

[wintry rampart]

kind

caring

understandable

[lime gyro]

yes

[wintry rampart]

yet my definition gets twisted

[lime gyro]

because u keep thinking a lot Ur mind is not focused on the real definition

[wintry rampart]

by the people around me

[lime gyro]

is a man allowed to cry?

[wintry rampart]

yes

[lime gyro]

they are all just humans

they might be bad they might be good

not all parents are good

[wintry rampart]

is this what my mom wants me to be?

strict, militaristic attitude?

rather than kind, considerate and caring?

cause i'm stuck with this selfish, strict attitude

[lime gyro]

if that's what she wants then she is wrong

[wintry rampart]

and find my brother below me

when we are really equal

even if he doesn't know how things work

[lime gyro]

yk

your brother is better than anyone

he is mentally challenged

yet he still is with us

imagine a race and someone is running with a broken leg

and still keeps up

[wintry rampart]

he is not a pain in the ass to my mom

yet i am

[lime gyro]

any mother who thinks her children is a pain

isn't a good mother

[wintry rampart]

but what about one who thinks of one child as a pain and the other who isn't?

[lime gyro]

still a bad mother

cuz she should love her children equally

[wintry rampart]

so i guess my mother's a huge piece of shit after all

cause i know that i didn't mean to call my brother stupid for simply asking if there was an internet connection

but idk what's causing me to axt like this

for idk, 3 years

even 6

[lime gyro]

u have to forget abt it

your mum was just a young girl before

and she is still a human

[wintry rampart]

it's the end of the year and i feel the same thing that i gave her

[lime gyro]

she can be wrong and be bad

[wintry rampart]

ruined

[lime gyro]

you are grown enough to start focusing on urself

forget abt the past

and make ur future brighter

ik it isn't easy to forget

but through time you will

[wintry rampart]

i can't forget about the past

cause it will follow me no matter what

and i was never taught to forget the past

to forget that i'm a terrible brother and member of my family

instead, i felt that i was encouraged by my mother to keep the past with me and idk, filter out the negative and positives

and it's too late to learn how to forget

[lime gyro]

it isn't late

[wintry rampart]

i am but a demon of myself

[lime gyro]

nope u arent

with time u will forget

making new memories kicks the old ones

[wintry rampart]

but it gets too late eventually

[lime gyro]

no really

first u are still young and also it is always never late

[wintry rampart]

my family sees me as the black sheep

a problem causer

it can't be changed

i was at one point ready to kill myself so that my family would be free from worries

now i'm hated by my entite family

just for one negative response

[lime gyro]

there are billions of other people than ur family

if they see u a black sheep

there are others who see u a white sheep

and a crystal white sheep

[wintry rampart]

nope

not true

novody talks to me in my family

so i feel like i'm the black sheep

cause i was an asshole the most

[wintry rampart]

i was almost ready to abandon my family just to avoid even longer years of emotional abuse

[lime gyro]

do that

[wintry rampart]

but i can't

[lime gyro]

Ur health is the most important thing to you

[wintry rampart]

cause running away ain't the solution

[lime gyro]

no one will benefit or be affected by it

[wintry rampart]

so i got no choice but to go on a path of change

regardless if my parents reject me

i'll still be able to change my mindset

[lime gyro]

some problems have to be left and that's it's solution

[wintry rampart]

i can't accept that my family hates me cause i'm an asshole

and i can't leave my past cause i'm still finding ways to learn from my mistakes

so i'm at 0

for now, it meant apologizing to my auntie (i did, but hopefully, she would forgive me), and my brother

[lime gyro]

nope

they hate you cuz they are assholes

it is the opposite

problem isn't in u

it is in them

[wintry rampart]

false

i am the asshole

they aren't

[lime gyro]

no

you have to listen

I can't seek help if u don't listen and just keep doing what u think

[wintry rampart]

is calling your younger brother stupid just cause he can't connect the internet an "asshole" behavior?

[lime gyro]

No

I called my brother stupid a lot

and my elder siblings too

I was mean to my younger and my elder

but now I'm more mature

ik what should be done and how to treat them

I'm starting to be a man that has self control

[wintry rampart]

did your parents and relatives get angry at you for calling your siblings stupid?

[lime gyro]

yes

I once was kicked out of the house for that

[wintry rampart]

and instead of whining, you learnt from your mistakes

[lime gyro]

yes

I started being better with them

now when I grew up

I knew that what I've done was wrong

I won't let that stop me

it just pushes me to be a better person

and compensate them of the shit I've done

[wintry rampart]

compared to last year, where i was a literal phone addict in foreign trips, i tried to use my phone less

and still they scold me for trying to change

cause i feel that they meant 0 phone, completely

[lime gyro]

just don't care abt them

[wintry rampart]

why?

i don't consider my fanily to be a bunch of assholes

[lime gyro]

but they are

you are trying to be a better u

and they are stopping u

anyone who does that is considered an asshole

[wintry rampart]

that's what i was thinking, my family's a bunch of onstacles from my well being

putting in societal norms over self love

as a model to behave

[lime gyro]

yes shit like telling a princess to be elegant and stuff when she wants to have adventures and do what she wants

[wintry rampart]

"no nose picking or nail biting or using the phone"

when i keep telling them "nobody will care@

[lime gyro]

you have your own mind to decide

[wintry rampart]

and they treat it as disrespect

just cause chinese families expect their kids to be socially desirable

[lime gyro]

if somebody doesn't love you the way you are then they are fake

because they love the fake you

[wintry rampart]

when in reality, you fake under their eyes

and when they turn back, you become your true self

[lime gyro]

yes

it is all just fake

[wintry rampart]

and i'm tired of playing fake

[lime gyro]

just become your better self

someone u want to be

[wintry rampart]

just to act desirable in front of my family

[lime gyro]

someone who I will be proud of in the future

[wintry rampart]

of course, i understand that my auntie didn't be mean to be so angry

but that's a small matter

[lime gyro]

yes

exactly

nothing is big as how people react

some people are over dramatic

[wintry rampart]

but will she still proceed to hste me for tresting my brother like shit?

or eventually make my entire famiky hste me?

gotta admit, i even had thoughts of beating my brother up

for "putting me in trouble@

[lime gyro]

if u care a lot abt what she thinks abt you, then when u start treating your brother better she shouldn't hate you anymore

but if she still does then she is being way over dramatic💀

[lime gyro]

I've done that before he puts me in trouble and I beat him but now I'm just mature even if he put me in trouble

what are my parents going to do

if they don't believe me then idc

Ur gonna ground me? 💀

like shit isn't even scary anymore

but what's more important is not to hurt anyone

[wintry rampart]

exactly

[lime gyro]

see buddy

U can do it

it is all a challenge with urself

you are trying to be better than the old you

no one is allowed to judge you cuz no one was in Ur place

[wintry rampart]

well, their loss if they still think i haven't "changed"

especially if my mom's definition of change is "completely new, dissociative identity that is a 85% copy of her prideful personality"

[lime gyro]

dude she wants a perfect human like no one is perfect

[wintry rampart]

cause i know that my mother's too prideful and prolly wants me and my brother to be the same person as her in the futute

despite mentalities changing

where arrogance is more sinful than simply caring for others, even if you don't know them

[lime gyro]

well in my opinion being her in the future you will ruin Ur life cuz she ain't better than a normal human at all

[wintry rampart]

exactly

and that's what i'm trying to change in myself

avoid pride

and instead learn humility, empathy and consideration

cause i actually despise the idea of pride and prideful animals who killed millions cause of their ego

[lime gyro]

yes exactly

just be yourself

[wintry rampart]

of course, i had to learn how to filter out the advice my mom gives me

and will for sure ignore her desires for me to be prideful

[wintry rampart]

and perfection's just a hoax

[lime gyro]

yes nothing called as perfection

[quaint hound]

ra _ _

[tidal holly]

yo

[lime gyro]

sup

[fleet steppe]

whenever i sit to study, i get worried that i have not finished some chapters and i have paper 5 left as well as some revision left

how do i remove this type of anxiety and be cool while studying

[lime gyro]

Just do and don't overthink it

change that anxiety into motivation to start now and finish it fast

during my A levels everynight before bed I used to get that type of anxiety cuz i wasn't studying well, but then I took a decision to be serious abt it and just start working a lot, I used to stay up late nights studying and eventually my anxiety left me cuz i was confident

[unkempt ingot]

cant get rid of intrusive thoughts

all those thoughts i hate especially comes up

[languid musk]

ignore them

[unkempt ingot]

I Cant seriously

it is hurting my brian

brain*

[fleet steppe]

thanks

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to just_moxdy#0

[lime gyro]

You are welcome bro 🤍

[wintry rampart]

after looking back from december 31, my brother could have prevented me from getting scolded if he used his head properly

he was asked if he had wifi

of course, he doesn't want to check cause he feared that he could get scolded by my mother if she caught him using his phone

thus my reason to call him stupid felt a bit reasonable cause he's so reliant on others

that he couldn't think when asked

[quaint hound]

To call ur brother stupid is always valid

This is also how we show love to our brothers

[quaint hound]

Lol cute

I'm the eldest and I have 2 younger brothers, 2 yrs and 9 yrs younger

I and my younger brother have had these cute memorable issues for more than a decade now and it's all ending now because we're growing up and we just genuinely can't fight and blame each other on all those things and we miss those nice times so bad

Also, idk w age you and your brother are but I will tell you that your parents are getting old and that you guys actually have to take the load of your parents some time soon, and the more you delay this coz of these dumb things, it would be harder on u and ur brother... ur parents too

So like try to have a better relationship with your brother

Actually sit and talk to him

Tho he gon make fun of u ik

But srsly

Coz honestly doesn't matter how many friends u have or for how long u know them for

No one actually cares ab u except ur family

I'm not saying ur friends are not nice or sincere, but think about it, is it genuinely possible for you to sacrifice your time, money, entertainment e.t.c for sm1 else when it's smth serious? Hope u get wim

[wintry rampart]

well, actually, our gap's 9 years

[quaint hound]

woahh

[wintry rampart]

although his mind's quite problematic

[quaint hound]

go kiss that lil creature 😭

[wintry rampart]

especially involving overreliance

[wintry rampart]

i'll be determined to help him become more independent

if my mom does the micromanaging, i'll operate behind her back and help him genuinely

through words of encouragement and whatever techniques can be done to encourage him to become more independent

[quaint hound]

yep do but dont forget everyone has their own life and their own times of learning things, so relax and dw... no one would live the same life as u and learn the same lessons as u did

[quaint hound]

either way

go kiss him

kids need this

i dint get this from my father when i was a kid

he was young too lol, he js learned 5 yrs ago

im not saying my father dint kiss me when i was young, i mean he dint know he had to "show" his love too

[wintry rampart]

i was able to show love by giving him gifts

i bought a bunch of diecast cars at hk, but felt sorry for him so i gave him one

[languid musk]

that's probably why he's do dependant on otrrs

others*

he knows there's many people older than him who can take responsibility

since humans, from birth, just don't wanna do difficult work

[wintry rampart]

then how can i encourage him to begin doing the more difficult work?

[languid musk]

I'd say just try to let him do shit himself, help him in any small thingd

[wintry rampart]

i'll consider that

but first i gotta convince my mother to stop micromanaging him

all from his tutoring

to being told that he'd sleep

[quaint hound]

Tuff

[torn yarrow]

aight firstly, dont take advice from online bishes,
but imo, u shouldnt text him? cause like he did something wrong and he deserved the beration he got from ur frnd

all's up to u

[uncut remnant]

You can't just kick a family member out of your life like a random friend tbh

People change and so did he - there are few things you cannot control. I'll assume the two of you are of the same age - which is quite unusual for someone to hold a grudge of that caliber. He clearly didn't understand his fault - reading someone else's personal diary is unheard of and a guy his age should understand that. Try explaining your POV and get his as well - chances are you might find a resolution.
If it doesn't work - it is what it is.

[placid folio]

wow ik how tht feels
me and Abdul used to be soo close as kids
like we were pranksters
we would fight to death
we would be each others support
play partner
basically best friends
cuz he was my only family abroad
but everything changed once he left the country
i went on vacation last year
and it was so awkward having said that he liked me a lot

but last year we hardly spoke for 5 mins
and he still proved he cares bout me like you know serving dinner to me only from what 20 ppl in a party
and yeah its sad
but its soo hard to reconnect
but thats life
and not just me hes not even close to my brother now

u dont need advice
u should apologize
thats you doing ur part
and even after that if you're ignored
just let it be and give your cousin the space

accept life basically
not all relationships grow

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VxUoZi9LrDY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ndyjXL7Y2q8

[minor comet]

ik lol but i was desperate

@placid folio @uncut remnant @torn yarrow thank you so much
ill think about it, i already apologized twice and he still hasnt made a move so i guess thats it

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to studentig#0, entrylevelstudent23#0, bh.4219#0

[minor comet]

ill just move on, its not worth the energy

[placid folio]

yeah acceptance

good job

[placid folio]

it is worth the energy
but now u just know u have to stop
so accept tht
remember family is always worth it
so if he comes around in the future
you be nice

[minor comet]

i will i will thank you

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to studentig#0

[minor comet]

also btw where did you get thunderbird from

[placid folio]

sure

[placid folio]

i call him my older brother
but yeah a good friend suggested it

is it nice

[minor comet]

ah ok yea its cool

[placid folio]

thanks

[minor comet]

i thought you got it from a book thats why i asked

[placid folio]

wait wht book

im not really a reader
but i cant lie i enjoy it

and u must love reading

[minor comet]

its the crescent city series by sarah j maas (that famous tiktok book)

[placid folio]

ahh

ive not heard of it

[minor comet]

i do lol

[minor comet]

ah ok guess not that famous then

[placid folio]

no i

its prolly cuz i dont use tiktok

[minor comet]

ah then yea prolly

[placid folio]

what does tempest mean

[minor comet]

it means storm

[placid folio]

oh

thts cool

[minor comet]

i wanted to sound cool

[placid folio]

u do

[minor comet]

lol glad you think so

[placid folio]

anyways nice meeting

[minor comet]

i thought it sounded corny

yepp you too

thanks again

[placid folio]

corny or not
who cares
as long as u like it

i hope we cross paths again in the future

bye
take care

[minor comet]

me too

[minor comet]

you too take care

toodles

[placid folio]

see this sounded corny
i wanted to sound like wht ud typically read lol

[minor comet]

LOL i was gonna say lmao

dw i appreciate the corniness

[placid folio]

thanks

bye
my peeps all offline

[minor comet]

maybe theyre asleep?

bye

[placid folio]

idk

[torn yarrow]

dam its ok i can understand how tempting it can be, but u can out-tempt the temptation, cause u are the tempest

[languid musk]

tempest HoO????

[torn yarrow]

🤫

theyre never gonna know

[lime gyro]

😭

[torn yarrow]

DID U NOT HEAR ME SAY 🤫 ?!?!?!

[cold quiver]

i never actually thought of studying abroad although i really like the idea of it but i kinda neglected the idea because the first reason is im actually got scared of flying ever since planes started crashing (It started when i heard about MH370) and also because its also quite expensive. its gonna be as my parents are worried abit of thier finances i honestly hate my parents having financial issues, (reason why i envy people who are richer than me spending alot of money) so I also want them to not spend much money when i start working abroad im just afraid of telling them if i ever have a thought about studying abroad

[chilly solar]

bro really brought up MH370 😭

still hurts dawg

[cold quiver]

real

[chilly solar]

msian ?

[uncut remnant]

Worry about getting good results for IGCSE and A level. Try earning a scholarship for your undergrad, if you fail to do so then do it in grad and in grad school there's a high chance to earn full scholarships.

[slate sky]

MH370 was about 10 years ago too 💀

[placid folio]

dude if ur scared of death
ur stupid
bcs death can come at anytime
even when ur reading a text u might not get to read the whole thing u might croak
who knows
anyways i travel a lot and other than common turbulences its not tht scary

@cold quiver Study well be patient and grateful
and its great u dont wanna upset ur parents
but theyll always want what best for u
and inshallah ull get a scholarship
or who know luck and fortune might be in ur favour in the future inshallah
ull live a life better than those of whom u envied

[unkempt ingot]

I am a really religious person i love god so much and i respect god

but my intrusive thoughts are complete opposite

someone help pls

[uncut remnant]

I've been where you were so If you want to talk to someone I'm offering to volunteer. It's up to you though.

[turbid thunder]

one of my friends blocked me but she was part of my friend group and i have school tomorrow

i feel so worried that shes going to make my friends hate me

and that shes gonna tell people how "horrible" i am

[median timber]

Nahh ignore bro

[turbid thunder]

but like

shes part of my friend group

and they dont know that we arent friends

and i feel so guilty for not saying anything

[median timber]

Bro it's alr..ig she won't bother much on it..just greet her with a chocolate tmrw

[turbid thunder]

i wanted to talk to her about what we're going to do about not talking while still in a friend group

she blocked me

so im gonna be responsible

and try to see what works for both of us

cuz it was her decision to unfriend me

[median timber]

Damnn girls are hard to understand

[turbid thunder]

fr

like cmon

be the bigger person for once

[median timber]

I feel sad bro... Girls are stupid fr

They don't get the point at all

[turbid thunder]

bro the thing she got mad abt

another girl just told me what was wrong

and i learnt from that

but she went into my dms

then was like

yeah youre blocked buddy 😂

[median timber]

Damn that's insane..which actually make no sense

Girls these days are crazy

[turbid thunder]

i always try to learn to see what makes people upset cause i hate making people mad at me

but she just doesnt care

her loss i guess

she cant beg me for chem help anymore

[turbid thunder]

you know what was funny too

i think she liked me

she did a full 180

[median timber]

Damnn

[median timber]

Bro just go to schl and ask sry again and see wat happens

[turbid thunder]

i dont need her forgiveness

if she doesnt wanna be friends idc

i just dont want it to ruin our friend group

cuz i also had a dnd game with her

[cosmic ginkgo]

How does it not make sense if he literally admitted he fucked up

[unkempt ingot]

yo please do

dms?

[unkempt ingot]

Dont care about it

Like dude even i got this one dude (not gonna tell from school or discord) but i feel sometimes im ignored or there is no point talking)

If I ever talk to someone they'd have a value but im talking to everybody rn. I need to stop wasting my time, talking to someone bringing up random conversations, when they're not interested in and only talk to someone who preferably has something important to talk to.

[median timber]

Broski come on..girls are dumb

[cosmic ginkgo]

..wow amazing how mature

[median timber]

Tbh they are and I'm done fr with them..girls are hard to handle so smtimes just things flow and accept them or ignore

[cosmic ginkgo]

Not every interaction with the opposite gender has to be romantic lmao

[median timber]

Indeed

[hushed citrus]

fk my school

fk my school

fk it

PIECE OF BS

[median timber]

Lets burn it down

[hushed citrus]

sure

[median timber]

Do the honours of bringing the matches pls?

[hushed citrus]

why matches brother

we gonna bring a fking flamethrower

https://tenor.com/view/stranger-things-fire-flame-gif-14920648

[median timber]

I wld love that

Lessgoo

[hushed citrus]

yeaa babyy

or we could just do this

https://tenor.com/view/joker-gif-9793208

[median timber]

Sure broski I will gladly support u

[hushed citrus]

thanks

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to athenaa_2107#0

[placid folio]

actually seek help from god
and always for his mercy and forgiveness
remind yourself of the punishment and reward of your deed
im unsure of your religion so no details

[placid folio]

nah she did it for fun
to feel noticed or missed
lol happens in our friend grouo and we spoke abt it to make sure things good

hopefully

[worldly palm]

can you really count your intrusive thoughts as yourself

[languid musk]

can I ask what happened between you two, if it's that important to her, if you don't mind me asking

[hushed citrus]

Yes. All of us got some weird intrusive thoughts dw ur not alone

[granite zodiac]

womp womp

[slate sky]

Man, I am extremely scared about my results, mainly cause of the move I saw on the login portal

It used to be this earlier

Now, it’s this

It’s weird how Economics and physics switched

It’s giving me anxiety of something bad happening

[lime gyro]

wha? 😭

dw man

switching places doesn't mean anything

[slate sky]

I mean idk , I never saw it happening before in IG and AS

[lime gyro]

nahh issok have faith

[granite zodiac]

😭

thats crazy

[slate sky]

Let’s just see what happens a couple of days later

I am worried if they made either of them “No result” or smth 💀😭

[chilly solar]

💀

bro positions dont mean shit

but goodluck tho

[slate sky]

Yeah ik, but also idk. I am not in my normal state rn.

[slate sky]

Thanks

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to _5dsk_#0

[slate sky]

Hopefully, I got all A’s

[chilly solar]

understandable , when is results day ?

[chilly solar]

hopefully dude 🙏

[slate sky]

10 Jan

[chilly solar]

i hope the gts dont screw you over like how they did w us in m/j 😭

[slate sky]

Yeah m/j thresholds were high

[chilly solar]

ye

[slate sky]

This time, some v3 papers were leaked too

And cie is giving free marks

So thresholds are likely gonna get screwed (but idk if it’s in a good or a bad way)

[chilly solar]

wtaf

[slate sky]

Yeah about 19 marks of physics p4 was leaked

In China

So they are giving everyone free 19 marks

For maths, S1, M1 and P1 were leaked too

[chilly solar]

💀

[chilly solar]

everyone in the world for each variant ?

[slate sky]

Yep

But for v3

[chilly solar]

fucking helll

[slate sky]

Not other variants

[chilly solar]

thats unheard of

you did what variant for phy ?

[slate sky]

https://www.cambridgeinternational.org/exam-administration/cambridge-exams-officers-guide/phase-4-before-the-exam/nov23-syllabus-and-component-overview/

[slate sky]

3

All my papers are v3

[green venture]

victorsushimhen#0's reputation

Global reputation: 3 rep

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[placid folio]

omg the anxiety

gl gl

[placid folio]

no big deal mine and my bros were like tht too
our subjects were in completely different orders
yet we did exam togetehr

so dw

[slate sky]

I mean I saw the order change

the subject order on website in my login is not fixed for me. Ik different people have different order but the same person having different orders/changing order of the subject is weird

[placid folio]

i dont think itll change ur results

dw

the oreder changed once

but does it keep changing

[pastel night]

dO nOT LoOk aT iT

We die

Go to the nearest bridge

Cliff

Whatever

[pastel night]

😭

[pastel night]

Man 😔

[languid musk]

💀

[restive berry]

Anyone doing AS CAIE Physics this Summer whos getting A-A*?

Also what does "Component 6" mean in the grade thresholds ? Arent there only 5 exam papers?

for example :

Can anyone clear this ?

Mandem. Explain it.

[real junco]

This is not venting.

[languid musk]

#a2-general #as-general

[languid musk]

fr

[placid folio]

Ughhhjjj

I'm so disappointed at myself

With I studied so jard

Hard

But I just flopped it in my p2 Chemistry

I was always 2nd ranked
God forbid me from losing it😭

[restive berry]

Getting the answer allows me to vent.

[quaint hound]

Nice one

[warm oxide]

How do I deal with haters? 😭

[wintry rampart]

what in the hell?

[spice geyser]

Don’t give them attention 😎😎

[warm oxide]

Ig I cud do that

[spice geyser]

People only focus on others when they don’t have any life or just bitter

[warm oxide]

Fr

[pseudo nexus]

fr. one teenager used to pick on me when i was hella small

and i find out the lack of hygiene she displayed at the bathroom

u have no ROOM to talk.

[languid musk]

they project their own insecurities

because they're powerless in fixing them

[slate sky]

Yeah it’s cause some of the questions were leaked and so everyone is getting free marks cause of that

[wintry rampart]

in china?

jesus christ

[clever zinc]

freakign out

freakign out about tommorow

i feel sick

im gonna yack

[hearty finch]

i wanna cry

[hot perch]

Cry

Crying is good

[hearty finch]

i can’t

i’m in class

[hot perch]

Oh 😭

u can do this

Power through the class

[oak sonnet]

y'all i need serious academic comeback tips

[fair ingot]

Same but level 175 in fortnite its worth it🔥🔥🔥🔥

[earnest dirge]

sometimes

[paper cloud]

all I think about

[pseudo nexus]

is you

[paper cloud]

late nights in

[pseudo nexus]

the middle of june

[paper cloud]

heat waves keep

[pseudo nexus]

#lyric-spam

[unkempt ingot]

been fakin' me out

[flint flint]

can't make you happier now

[unkempt ingot]

Sometimes, all I think about is you

[unkempt ingot]

I think this is the song my friend did be singing to his girlfriend 😂

@flint flint

[flint flint]

Lmao

[compact pawn]

I just had the most demonic evil beasty and horrendous cousins come over those little demons insulted the shit out of me and apparently it was funny for everyone they even made me their punching bag like wtf just coz I am old does it mean I can't get hurt and after all that I just stopped them from hitting me coz it was hurting and those little morons start crying and I got scolded by literally 😭😭everyone in the family

[fleet steppe]

so sad man

[languid musk]

little cousins are literally devils

[untold brook]

Shouldve dropkicked them

[compact pawn]

I regret not doing that now coz no matter what I do I am always gonna be the bad one😭😭

[granite zodiac]

welcome to life

[mild compass]

my goodness especially when it comes to being with yuor extended family there's always attention-competition and like they favour others than you and always give you the side eye

its sooooo annoying

and they blame you for something you didnt even do let alone prolly didnt even know that it happened

which later causes family drama

that was my little rant go back to revising byeee lol

[compact pawn]

TRUE truee

[mild compass]

All of a sudden I feel like I might fail and disappoint everyone including myself

[placid folio]

ull get over it

trust me just got pass that awful phase

[alpine jungle]

Same 🫂

[cold quiver]

I keep envying people who are more privileged than me with them eating out at fancy restaurants and going om holidays to expensive places yet i dont do any of that so i feel afraid that i may not fit in

[pseudo nexus]

tbh u dont have to conform to those standards. those ppl may not be having fun in actuality, its just for show

its usually ab aesthetic, we dont know if those people posting/mentioning it, enjoyed it in reality or not

thats why when i go to events, i forget to post ab it cuz thats how much fun i had. (i forgot i even had my phone in my bag)

im not discouraging you from going to fancy places btw. im just reminding u it is not a need, nor a must in everyday life. u can even have a great time at places not associated with "lavish" and "fanciness"

[neon verge]

damn

very true

[neon crane]

try to fit in then

[cold quiver]

How im not that rich like them

[neon crane]

then you dont have to worry bout going to expensive places on ur holidays

[dapper crown]

Listen here dude.
Don't waste your energy envying the rich, instead, use your current state of living as motivation to get to a better place. Work hard in your youth. Grind. Take a pledge that you're gonna be the first millionaire in your family. Make your family proud. Wake up everyday with an incentive and WORK. You're young, and you've got time -- YOU can make it happen.

I promise you'll feel at bliss when it'll be YOU taking your loved ones on trips to the Bahamas, paying for luxury hotels, and flying first class. Hard work beats talent! @thin hound

[dapper crown]

Don't allow failure to taint the vision you hold about your future. There is no fixed path to success.
Yes, you'll feel disappointed, and sad, and mad, and pitiful, but you'll get over it and move on, just like everybody else does. Hurdles are a part of life, and life is far from perfect. But in life you've got choices, and it's your choice how you want to play the game.

It's your choice whether or not you want to let the failures define who you are.

It's your choice if you want to pick yourself up and keep going.

It's your choice. It's your life. And you've got the rest of your life to figure things out, so don't worry about failure, worry about being too scared to fail.

But I'm guessing since you wrote "might fail" that means you've still got time. Don't waste it and hopefully all will work out in the end. <33 @mild compass

[pseudo nexus]

wow u said it way better than me lmaoooo

[dapper crown]

HEHEHE THANKS :DD
Your point still stands though xx

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to brownieclownie#0

[neon verge]

recalled this poem

[lime gyro]

Marcelline is helping Jake out

[placid folio]

maybe not now but if you work for it or get lucky youll have more luxury than them
or....maybe not in this world but in the hereafter
whatever ur destined with.....but just be grateful u could be doing a whole lot worse

[thin swift]

I CANT STAYY CONSISTENT MANN.

[unkempt ingot]

dont procastinate

[compact pawn]

Real 😭 but use the 5 second rule might help

[thin swift]

Ye. It does work but like i study a lot one day and the next day i am so lazy

[pseudo nexus]

real

[compact pawn]

Maybe go easy on urself like set simple goals first and try to complete them every dayy

[dapper crown]

[dapper crown]

Shit takes time bro.
You can't expect yourself to become the next Einstein in the matter of a few hours. Just like how you can't train your body to gain a 6-pack overnight.

Mastering something takes time, but more importantly, it takes a great amount of effort and discipline to get there. Doesn't matter how many hours you've studied, if you ain't consistent with it, it ain't worth shit.

Right now, it sounds to me as if success is a choice for you, not a necessity. Perception makes a big impact. I'd start with working on that.
Cheers

[robust magnet]

i knew i wasnt the only one

[solar kettle]

I swear our bio tr is so biased i'm so annoyed by her

like- in p6 i did a much more detailed drawing like it said in the question and another girl did not follow the instructions and she gave her more marks than me

i got so annoyed

and she seriously thinks bio is the only subject we study

and gives us 9 past papers a week as hw

like- i have other subjects too

[compact pawn]

Teachers can be annoying at times I went through something similar and the best you can actually do is be the best in that subject that literally shuts them up and don't let ppl like her bring you down coz the people who do not appreciate anything you do are just not worth your time

[solar kettle]

true

[dapper crown]

Bob gave some good advice.
If you think it's a serious issue and she singles you out on multiple occasions, then I'd talk to somebody with more authority like a parent or the principal. But did she give the other girl more marks overall or just in the diagram question? Was there something missing in your answer that led you to receiving less marks?

And as for the overload of homework, definitely talk with her or raise a concern. I'm sure if you requested more time for finishing the biology homework (due to the demand of other subjects), she'd understand. If she doesn't or becomes fussy about it, definitely talk with somebody and settle on an agreement about the homework issue.

Also don't be afraid about bringing these issues to a head-teacher or somebody of similar value in the school. You have every right to express your views, and plus, them seeing you take initiative would add towards a bonus to your overall profile :)

Good luck x

[quaint hound]

drink water and move on life is too short to vent and argue :)

[dapper crown]

Lmao then what's the point of having a venting channel in the first place

[quaint hound]

for people who dont drink water

im jk bruh ppl do need to vent sometimes im js messing around

[dapper crown]

Pfft lol

[solar kettle]

No i'm sure it's correct

and sometimes in those investigation questions even if the student covers 7 points she still gives less marks not only me

happenend to my classmates too

[dapper crown]

Okay well, you should still ask her why you didn't get more marks?

Teachers can't just mark according to how they like it, it's supposed to follow a serious markscheme

Especially in Cambridge like IGCSE

[solar kettle]

EXACTLY

my tr just doesnt understand

it might be an issue now but anyway my may june i'll be giving this year wont be checked by her

[dapper crown]

Talk with the principal or a head teacher about it. I mean, she's getting paid through your parents' wages, she might as well just do her job properly.

[solar kettle]

Yeah yeah i will

[dapper crown]

Yes but you shouldn't take your chances. If your marks aren't higher and it's bothering you, chances are you'll get the same marks in your final exam. Just some advice

[solar kettle]

ofc i wont take chances

bcz it happened with someone ik too and they said how the examiner who checked her paper didnt cut marks the way her tr did

but anyway forget it

i was just venting uk

[dapper crown]

What sucks about it is that it's possible, and I don't blame you

But yeah having a bad teacher can spoil your mood

It happens

[dapper crown]

Yeah <3 Hope you have better teachers in the future

[solar kettle]

ikr

[unkempt ingot]

Guys I am just getting so much of intrusive thoughts I never wish

please

[pseudo nexus]

im so sorry dude

they suck

but just know that this is a universal experience and u cant exactly control them

its only bad if u acted on them but intrusive thoughts are unwanted for a reason

if anyone tries to be a lil bitch ab u having them. they r idiots fr

[pseudo nexus]

cuz most of us get it, its not a rare thing
just think of them as dumb unwanted thoughts

thoughts mean nothing (depending on the thought), they only do if you add meaning to it and take it seriously but most of the time they are irrelevant dumb lil activities ur brain gets up to for no reason at all

[unkempt ingot]

those thoughts are stupid shit which i never want to happen

[unkempt ingot]

So what do i do when i get shit thoughts like that. I really can't take them

[pseudo nexus]

i cant think of any solution man im so sorry

theres no cure to intrusive thoughts sadly

i guess u just have to find ways to take ur mind off it

and see them as useless

thats what i do. they still creep on me but i think ill live lmao

[unkempt ingot]

Lmfaoo

should i just agree to it and say idc about the thoughts

when it tries to strikke me

[compact pawn]

Yup this will help but what like I do in most cases is not thinking to stop them the more you think about stopping them the more u think about them it's stupid ik but still .The most effective thing is as soon as it crosses your mind let it be.. start doing something else focus onto something else that might help

[pseudo nexus]

this is exactly what i meant

[pseudo nexus]

yes this
ur on the right track

u cant beg them to f off but u can just be like, "ok fine u can exist in my brain." its like when u do nothing ab someone bullying u that they get bored of being a lil jacka**

[compact pawn]

Ikr no other way to get rid of themm

[unkempt ingot]

Alright

I was freaking disturbed

[unkempt ingot]

FR

[compact pawn]

Itz alright dw too much bout it

[unkempt ingot]

Like those thoughts are smth i never want to happen

[pseudo nexus]

yeah so u dont have to feel guilty ab whether ur disgusting esp when ur ashamed of those thoughts

ur safe dont worry

[unkempt ingot]

So i just be like in real life im a good man

idc about those thoughts

[pseudo nexus]

yes u r

[pseudo nexus]

right

[unkempt ingot]

Alright thanks broski

hope that helps me

[pseudo nexus]

no problem

it will

it might not cure it

[unkempt ingot]

Just gonna agree and dont give a shit about any of the thoughts

[pseudo nexus]

but u just get thru it better

[unkempt ingot]

as long as it reduces it and i can focus on studies

thats fine

[pseudo nexus]

its like we cant cure mental illness, we gotta live with it but we will find a way to manage life while living with it

[unkempt ingot]

True

[quaint hound]

water

[fleet steppe]

breathe air

[fair ingot]

H2o*

[quaint hound]

nah

water

is it

[neon crane]

[unkempt ingot]

I am not really sure the cause of this. Whenever someone steps my pen, I feel like it has bad energy, I feel like throwing it away.

[languid musk]

what

[unkempt ingot]

Yeah fr

[neon crane]

ppl randomly step on your pens?

[unkempt ingot]

By accident

[neon crane]

how do you feel the bad energy

thats crazy

[unkempt ingot]

Ikr

Just feel like dont use this pen

ur marks will drop

[neon crane]

you should see a doctor or something

[unkempt ingot]

throw this pen and get another one

[neon crane]

hell prescirbe u some ppills

[unkempt ingot]

What

[neon crane]

💀

[unkempt ingot]

for what

[unkempt ingot]

Or else ur marks will drop or smth

what do you think

[neon crane]

idk the doc will tell u

[neon crane]

so if someone steps on ur pen ur marks drop?

[unkempt ingot]

I'm not going to doctor lmao, if i tell this to my parents I'd get a nice slap

[unkempt ingot]

yeah

its my stupid brain

[neon crane]

yea it is your stupid brain

adderall helps

[neon crane]

lmao

[unkempt ingot]

i need to make my stupid brain --> smart brain

[neon crane]

ayyy good luck with that

[unkempt ingot]

I think like im getting all this because im getting less than 4 hours of sleep

[unkempt ingot]

I think its because of my sleeping issues

[neon crane]

yea forsure

get sleep buddy

[unkempt ingot]

I'm going to sleep early from tomorrow!

[neon crane]

🔥

[mild compass]

i kinda hate myself rn
im applying for a cybersecurity internship at multiple companies and out of the three two rejected me and one straight up ghosted me
meanwhile my peers only had to try once
and i am wondering what they have what i dont

so yeah kinda feeling like shit

[reef ore]

you okay?

[fleet steppe]

youre an ig kid

thers no way

ppl will be hiring you for such a big job at a young age

so dw

[mild compass]

not really

[reef ore]

u wanna talk about it?

[mild compass]

yeah well i'm not just an ig kid
i am also a high achooler in one of the most prestigious schools in my country and i'm doing an apprenticeship but apparently average is better than me

[mild compass]

idk what can be said abz it other than the fact that i'm loosing my sanity bec all i do is study study study and i'm still not enough

[reef ore]

well sometimes its not about you

maybe its about him

the person who is recruiting the interns

[reef ore]

thats nice

its not about you

dont worry

im sure you will do fine in the future

[mild compass]

ig

[mild compass]

i hope

[reef ore]

u will

[sly shuttle]

@rapid plaza was here yall

[olive wadi]

!@user.id Your messages have been blocked for spam!

[sly shuttle]

lol

[rapid plaza]

No evidence

[sly shuttle]

i have ss of ur Verstappen spam

[rapid plaza]

https://cdn.discordapp.com/emojis/1125524496930050068.webp?size=48&name=depression&quality=lossless

[languid musk]

i have your verstappen spam

[wintry rampart]

oh boy. my family will prolly be babysitting a bunch of crazy relatives from america for 12 days

and about half of them are seniors

so that means i'll prolly be mocked when they know my organizational committments

i've agreed to attend only one dinner with my family and them cause i can't let boomer talk detract me from my studies

and will act cold and apathetic when they're around, through distancing myself

[languid musk]

don't let it get to your head

[wintry rampart]

or if they know what i'm really up to

ie, being seen as a fidgeting, stubborn shit

[wintry rampart]

i was just exaggerating, although tbh, i have a strong distaste towards seniors

especially if they're nosy

that's why i refused to see them

cause i'll prolly be subject to comparison

[chilly solar]

https://tenor.com/view/it-aint-that-deep-what-over-thinking-looks-like-cry-help-funny-gif-15932130

[wintry rampart]

exactly

although i find their presence as a likely obstacle towards me studies

cause they'll prolly tempt me to go with them even more

[quaint hound]

more than half the class at the beginning of a 7 marks AL math question

[plucky shoal]

hey

[fleet steppe]

venting channel

[plucky shoal]

okay yeah so A level economics is genuinely killing me

[fleet steppe]

science liya h can’t relate

[neon crane]

😭

[unkempt ingot]

Life is honestly so damn freaked up, my life especially

Sometimes I just wish i had my friends beautiful life

Everything I suffered through, i legit cant take this man

Like all those intrusive thoughts all the time is just making me tired and I sleep very late all the time

[worn gyro]

there is always someone who has it worse

complaining about the problem wont fix it

good friends are key to dealing with hard times

[unkempt ingot]

FIne

but still

[kindred stone]

He's right

Life is too short to fill it with complaints

[severe valley]

is it really that bad? (i take ig eco)

your answer may or may not decide whether i take eco further or not

[wintry rampart]

sometimes, i wonder why i get rejected by a specific student org

i've been making a name for myself at the student org scene at my uni

getting in committees

yet for one specific org that i show high interest in, i get rejected cause i suddenly change my thoughts during the interview, leading to rejection.

although on the long term, i feel extremely betrayed

"you can reapply next year" will be bullshit

unless the assholes who run that org are out

one dream shattered by some egotists

i have gone thru several stages of grief

but i end up stuck at anger

[unkempt ingot]

alright

[plucky shoal]

i cant speak for everyone but i understand concepts well its not that hard

i did economics in ig and i got an A

i did as level economics 2 times and my grades sucked

i have to continue with that grade for my a level, at this point im not sure if i can get even an A

the thresholds are super low and idk how they correct or what they expect in essays

i used to top in school with really good grades, the teacher who taught me had been teaching for a very long time and shes produced a lot of A*'s and A's

her correction was strict but after the syllabus change im not sure what my essays are lacking and where im going wrong

[plucky shoal]

i prepared only in the last one month for ig so i cant even complain

but for AS i prepared the entire year

[severe valley]

huh try asking the teacher then no?

they should help

[neon crane]

I just got out of a very abusive relationship. It was a year of verbal and emotional abuse until he snapped and put hands on me in front of my daughter. I've been so lost trying to get it together because mothers don't get a day off to break down. I was on my way to the police station when this came on my Amazon music suggestion list. I pulled over to listen to it. I wanted to hear it because I felt it on a molecular level. It was the first thing to make me smile and feel normal. Like maybe this bad patch is a bad patch and that's all. I didn't hurt or feel numb. It was feeling the sun for the first time. I kept playing it. I found the video on YouTube and I kept sending it to anyone who was sad and hurt or going through some dark shit. This is the first thing I've found that helps. I couldn't eat. I felt suffocated. And then along comes Watsky making me feel like I'm not alone. I can't say thank you enough. It's strange to think that I might not have had it in me to seek help if I didn't hear it. I might not have gone back to my mother. I might have gone back until he put me in the hospital. But I didn't. All because of some 3 minute and change long song promoting the love that you can find in the smallest things we take for granted. I know that big picture its just a song but when everything is dark and you get so desperate that you consider some real bad ideas this kind of art turns in to the difference between life and death. And I'm choosing life

[neon crane]

womp womp

[slim lake]

had me in the first line tbh

[neon crane]

😭

[languid musk]

💀

[quaint hound]

too much text here ouch

water

[dreamy void]

you've read all my linux posts??

[slim lake]

no

[dreamy void]

💪 i knew you were the real G

[unreal warren]

[dreamy void]

thanks for understanding and really putting yourself in my shoes

the despair and the pain and paralyzing agony that i have gone through

nah fk it ima sleep gn

lahore

[slim lake]

bruh im always there for u G 💪🏼

[slim lake]

i empathize with you truly 💔💔

[dreamy void]

i'm so glad that you never given me up

you never let me down

[slim lake]

FR 💯

can count on me 💪🏼💪🏼

[dreamy void]

you're never gonna run around and desert me

[slim lake]

from canada(bc) to canada(ontario)
dil dil lahore 🇧🇩🇵🇰

[dreamy void]

wha

[dreamy void]

is that DLC pack for the Japanese flag?

[slim lake]

WOH PURANA MEME HAI

EMACS JI

[dreamy void]

WHAT

I AM ALWAYS ON TREND

THIS CANNOT BE

[slim lake]

koi gal nhi hota hai

[dreamy void]

yai to boht moye moye darude sandstorm wala moment hogya hai

xD

[slim lake]

aab ye darude sandstorm kya hai 😭😭😭

[dreamy void]

wtf

u fr?

mf u 20 right?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y6120QOlsfU

most popular meme back in 2012

ELMO MOMENT

wide putin will be very angry

[slim lake]

💀💀💀💀

2012 mein 2012 movie dekh ke meine saab sell kardiya tha

wifi bhi

so 😔

moye moye

[dreamy void]

u skipped the roblox and minecraft phase 😭

heck even facebook pet society phase

[slim lake]

aab ye kya hai

r u ok

[dreamy void]

😭 😭 😭 😭 😭 😭

FACEBOOK GAMES NEHI KABHI KEHLA 😭

FANTAGE??

WOOZWORLD??

ANYTHING??

^^ these games were played by my sister back in 2012

she's 22 now

[slim lake]

FACEBOOK MEIN GAMES KON KHELTA HAI

2012 mein facebook toh tha he nhi mera

[dreamy void]

😭

[slim lake]

MUMMY ka bhi nahi tha

[dreamy void]

2012 mai apkay pas kya tha

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tv 💀

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i vivdly remember some kid going 'do you have what's app or facebook'

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YAAARR

yai to boht skibidi moment hogya hai

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😭😭

TUMHARE PAAS KYA THA

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SKYPE

FACEBOOK FOR GAMES

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wait aap toh qatar the ig advanced stuff fr

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waw

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oh

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aapka baachpan devices mein hi tha kya

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samsung monte s5620

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...

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and dell inspiron n5010

that's it

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i had nokia button phone for when i went to tuition class. mummy ko call karne ke liye

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WOW MASHALLAH

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WIFI GHAR MEIN 2016 MEIN LAGWAYA THA

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WTF

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FRRRR

we used mobile data before

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AINT NO WAY

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FRRRR

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KYAA

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HAA JI

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OOF

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😭😭😭

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mai to IPAD KID NIKLA

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legit bro

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i remember my dad also bought an xbox

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kuch toh sharam karo ipad kid

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😭

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😭😭😭

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koi nehi

apkay pas 'experience' hai

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never say this to ur kids

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fr

wait what kids

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aab yeh experience in other words is watching hindi serial. gopi bahu dekh rahi thi

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the one youll have with ur phupo ki beti

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i think i missed out on that

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smh

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<F

MF

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saach hi toh bola

yeh aap pakistani logo ki speciality hai 💀

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I DONT HAVE NO PHUPO KI BETI

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TOH PHIR

KHALA KI BETI

MAMO KI BETI

CHACHU KI BETI

variety options

with variety age range also 💀

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ALLAH MAAF KARE

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😭😭😭

ghar pe shaadi ki baat hoti hai kya

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no

never

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waw

💪🏼💪🏼

jiyo khush raho
kya pata
kal kisi se shaadi na hojaye

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do your parents talk about it?