venting

[silver wasp]

Theres no reason for you to be ignored

[solar marsh]

Idk

Im always the last choice of everyone in my life

Never the first

I cant trust a single person anymore cux of how badly everyone i know have broken my trust

[silver wasp]

@mild compass 😭🤡

[silver wasp]

Hmm

[solar marsh]

I do think that i deserve love and attention too but what can i do when no one is willing to pay attention to me or give a shit to enough to care

[mild compass]

LMAO idk if you speak that much in vcs or not but it'll be fun talking to you in vc someday fr

[silver wasp]

You dont need to have trust in someone so much ykkkk

You can trust them to a very safe level with all your boundaries

And be so safe where even if they DO try to hurt you

It doesnt affect you

You let them into your personal bubble thats why you end up feeling as if your trust was broken or as if people are just not it

[silver wasp]

You do wallah

Who doesnt

But you gotta get it from the right people too who genuinely mean it

If people around you arent like that

Dont treat them like it either

Reach out to people who are actually willing

Like Im here okay you need love care whatever just ask me cause Im here 😭

Ask people around the server talk to people more meet new people get to know them

Dont limit yourself to certain people only

[silver wasp]

IDK EITHER ask eminem and geagle if I talk alot in vc or not 😭

Cause I cant tell

I would be fun talking to youu too I swear

[solar marsh]

Idk how to be likeable tho

[mild compass]

FRRR LOOKING FORWARD ONE DAY FR

[mild compass]

Lmfaooo

[silver wasp]

Be politeee be nice to the people around you

If someone gives you respect

Give it to them

Appreciate them

[solar marsh]

One of my classmates(a schl friend) who came with me to my current school got here and instantly clicked with other students and would even forget abt my existence even when im sitting next to them

[silver wasp]

Just be you honestly try to be the best version of you

If your gonna sit there and not give a frik you really cant expect anyone to do anything for you ykwim

You dont have to force yourself to be likeable everyone has their calm state ykkkk

Its hard to explain

Its just there

Just be you literally

[solar marsh]

I tried talking to my current classmates but i cant seem to carry a conversation

[silver wasp]

It sounds cringe but its true

[mild compass]

Damn now I know where to find you 😭

[silver wasp]

And thats okayyy that shouldnt be a let down or anything yk

You can work on that

Sometimes its not just you other people dont even bother to try to conversate

[solar marsh]

Being me is boring. I'm a boring person honestly and i really cant say something to keep the convo going for the life of me

[silver wasp]

Girl tbh this server is for you

Take advantage of this chanel and chat-lounge

[silver wasp]

Here?? Anywhere and everywhere? 😭

[silver wasp]

You think that way thats why you feel that wayyyyyyyyyyyyy

[mild compass]

Nah like on dc ig you use this channel like alot

[silver wasp]

If you really think your that boring and people seem that bored of you

Why dont you do something about it?

Why dont you try to gain attributes that wouldnt classify you under boring

Why dont you make yourself likable in your eyes so your more confident with feeling likable for othersss

[solar marsh]

I dont know how to do that

[silver wasp]

Haha kinda kinda

[silver wasp]

What makes a person not boring in your eyes?

What makes someone exciting and attractive to you?

[solar marsh]

I cant just wake up one day and be like OH IM GONNA BE LIKEABLE TO EVERYONE FROM NOW ON

[silver wasp]

What makes you wanna talk to someone and become friends with them

Consider those things

And think of what you do and dont have

And how you can improve what you DO have

[silver wasp]

Wallah you cant

You might not even be able to achieve that within the next idk 10 years

Who knows

Its going to take time

So much practice

So much patience

Probably even alot of frustrating moments

But your not getting anywhere until you start trying and makig progress somewhat

Focus on the little things you can improve

[solar marsh]

You're talking way too fast for me to even comprehend what you're saying

[silver wasp]

Then move ahead to adding more things

to who you are

Im so sorry

Take your time

Im right here

😭

[mild compass]

Never related more 💔

[solar marsh]

Idk someone who i can relate to ig

[mild compass]

https://tenor.com/view/i-cannot-contain-the-silliness-alpha-wolf-alpha-male-werewolf-max-mayfield-arataki-itto-gif-27435843

[solar marsh]

Fr

This feels pointless

[mild compass]

But yk what it's ok to be second to smn , maybe I'll be the first to my future husband or smth , but I'm quite satisfied with my friends rn , even if they don't like me the most

[solar marsh]

I doubt that I'll even get married

[mild compass]

Don't be too pessimistic Abt that

U never know ur future

But yk friends ain't all that huge necessity in life as u think

There are more important stuff

In life

[solar marsh]

Ig so

I'll never stop feeling unwanted matter what i do in life or how my future turns out to be

Why am i even here.. i should be doing my homework

[mild compass]

And as you grow up more more ur also going to realize that even ur closest friend won't be that close to u in the future , bc friends change from time to time and that's how it's supposed to be

[solar marsh]

I dont have close friends or any friends at all so i wouldn't know 🧐🤷‍♀️

[mild compass]

So just focus on having good times with ur current friends without ruining that with useless overthinking

[mild compass]

Then u should definitely socialize more and get to know new pple

[solar marsh]

How can i have good times with friends when i dont have friends 😭

[mild compass]

You'll for sure find pple ur compatible and comfortable with

[mild compass]

Mb , THEN FIRST STEP MAKE FRIENDS BESTIE

[solar marsh]

Already tried that and im just not likeable to anyone. And i dont know HOW to be likeable

[mild compass]

Who said ur not likeable

[solar marsh]

I would really appreciate a tutorial if anyone has any 😭

[solar marsh]

I socialize on a daily basis and still don't have friends 🫤

[mild compass]

Mmmm

[mild compass]

Well socializing by saying hello and how have u been doing today won't get u no friends

Maybe try taking the first step

Take smns number and text them

Then slowly u'll have a relationship

But make sure u chose a good person in first place

[solar marsh]

Hmmmm

[mild compass]

Try bringing out common interests in ur conversations

[solar marsh]

May as well risk getting my number leaked

[mild compass]

LOL WHAT

[solar marsh]

You're like the opposite of my mom @mild compass

[mild compass]

friends are overrated

[mild compass]

How convenient for my name

[mild compass]

Why would that happen , who the heck will leak ur number

Unless ur socializing on discord or smth

[mild compass]

i cant take being catless anymore

[safe kernel]

um

[quaint hound]

heels

[kindred stone]

Toes

[quaint hound]

how many have you eaten already

https://tenor.com/view/laughing-christian-bale-patrick-bateman-american-psycho-laugh-gif-18161317

[plush depot]

There's this one friend i have, she's a very close friend of mine, i enjoy every second with her but, there's something odd with her, she disappears when i take my pills, I don't know why, maybe she's allergic to them.

[simple coyote]

I smell schizophrenia 👀

[olive wadi]

is she in the room with us rn?

[hazy dagger]

https://tenor.com/view/frog-hat-gif-24889203

[neon verge]

she hot?

[mild compass]

i relate but he disappears when i read ayatul kursi :/

[torn yarrow]

🇮🇲 (closest thing i found to a red flag)

[green venture]

Sniped!

.

Message by ahmed.omar#0

[zealous sphinx]

i will eat u alive who tf is pinging me

[unreal warren]

@zealous sphinx

[torn yarrow]

im getting ping too, wth

[hazy dagger]

she hot?

[zealous sphinx]

wot

[zealous sphinx]

Ig someone is trolling

[torn yarrow]

lifeless weirdos.

[zealous sphinx]

fr man I hope both sides of their pillows are hot

[mild compass]

we're supposed to be doing a business plan presentation, which is due next week, and no one is participating. I've been making the document all by myself. istg if they don't help me, I will break into their house and choke them in their sleep.

I GAVE HIM ONE THING TO DO. ONE THING. AND HE SENDS ME THIS

I hate my team it's so disgraceful I wnat to cry

it's actually funny atp

[mild compass]

AND THE REST ARE DOING NOTHING AT ALL. I AM NOT EVEN JOKINH (except this one girl, she helped in making the logo amd she's doing market research rn)

BUT STILL

[quaint hound]

i thought clock tower, in makkah

thats a clean $15 billion tho

[mild compass]

LOL no no there's this ugly looking clock tower where I live

[quaint hound]

https://tenor.com/view/trash-christian-bale-patrick-bateman-american-psycho-go-away-gif-18161325

[quaint hound]

where you at aslan

[mild compass]

deepest jungles of Africa (I'm not joking)💀

[quaint hound]

well its getting late

humans get more dangerous than animals if you're alone and its night (assuming youre actually in a jungle in africa)

[mild compass]

I don’t have much trouble with that since I’m the one that brings the danger (joking ofc) 🙂

[clever zinc]

yoh

[torn yarrow]

u ARE evil..

[zealous sphinx]

Ikr lmao

[green venture]

Sniped!

Life is not fine

Message by abyslite#0

[torn yarrow]

mhm..

[hazy dagger]

it never was

[zealous sphinx]

WHO TF PINGED ME

AGAIN

[zealous sphinx]

did you check em??

[torn yarrow]

check wot?

[zealous sphinx]

who pinged

[torn yarrow]

BRO. SAME 😭

[zealous sphinx]

WHY??? WHOO??? WHY ONLY US

[torn yarrow]

gahhh

idekk

[zealous sphinx]

theyre obsessed w us

bet

[torn yarrow]

💅

[zealous sphinx]

FOUND HIM

BRO ISTG I WILL EAT HIM ALIVE

[quaint hound]

W

[torn yarrow]

this bish

[zealous sphinx]

i think you reacted to wrong msg

[green venture]

Sniped!

Life is unfair

Message by notpixel.#0

[torn yarrow]

frfr

[quaint hound]

its the right one

[zealous sphinx]

💀

[quaint hound]

something id be slightly interested in

[zealous sphinx]

wanna join

?

[quaint hound]

its on me in the first place

you tell if you wna join

or you could be the food

[zealous sphinx]

nah i caught him so its on me

[quaint hound]

on you

[quaint hound]

i can buy both of you

[zealous sphinx]

bro 😭

[quaint hound]

idc

as long as you talk trash

you're to be bought and used

in any way i desire

[zealous sphinx]

bro think he is the superior

[quaint hound]

thinks*

[kindred stone]

I did it once

And now im wanted dead

[kindred stone]

Ayyo??

What is blud yappin

[zealous sphinx]

utter shit dat doesnt make any sense

[quaint hound]

hala

[placid folio]

wth

[placid folio]

wth x 2

[placid folio]

honestly
hes not acting himself

[quaint hound]

its venting channel

[quaint hound]

um

who owns u for now

[placid folio]

dude im not for sale
forget it

u ok btw

[quaint hound]

dw i dont buy things on sale

ill pay full price

[placid folio]

nice nice

ok

ur sick arent u

[quaint hound]

perfect as always hmdllah

[placid folio]

oh thts nice mashallah

[quaint hound]

not really, its js that its venting channel so it should be it

[placid folio]

then why u acting up all of a sudden

u a good guy
dont change

[kindred stone]

Bro wants to buy women

[placid folio]

wth

[quaint hound]

playing around is fun isnt it

nothing to change

its a fair joke to joke ab buying sm1... even the sahaba did this

[quaint hound]

excuse me, but not this, please

[kindred stone]

You just said it

[placid folio]

i love my religion

[quaint hound]

ight wait gimme a min ill type a joke

[placid folio]

but the prophet married 4 and id never want my dad or future husband to do tht

[quaint hound]

its real, not made up wtv

[placid folio]

so yeah u cant always say stuff

ur typing looooooong

[zealous sphinx]

wtf

[quaint hound]

one of the sahaba once had an argument or was joking with another sahaba, and so he went to a group of other companions standing smwhere, and offered them to buy a slave of his, and he gave them an attractive price which they couldn't let slide... but he said his slave has one problem, they said go ahead let us know what it is. then the sahaba said his only problem is that when you'll go to get him after paying me the amount, he will say "im not a slave! im not a slave!"... they said thats not an issue its fine.

the next day or later that day (i dont want to mess up coz this is an authentic event so im texting wtv i remember) the so called slave went to the prophet SAW and told him ab what happened. the prophet SAW laughed at this and then he got the transaction undone too

[quaint hound]

yep

[kindred stone]

I forgot his name

It was something with n

Nuayman

[quaint hound]

brother these are the companions of the prophet SAW

have some respect this isnt a joke

[placid folio]

yay ur back

normal again

mashallah

[quaint hound]

bro theres a dif bw joking ab companions

and just joking with others

[placid folio]

ik ik

good night

and yes imma recite Ayatul Kursi

[kindred stone]

I meant the name of the sahabi

[quaint hound]

did yk i was going to say that?!

[kindred stone]

His name was Nuayman Ra

[placid folio]

well its you
dw thts whts best bout u❤️

[quaint hound]

bruh only u and Allah know ur intention but wtv js take care like we arent supposed to do this grave sin so yeah thats all my point is

[quaint hound]

oo i dint know i js heard this qissa from some shiekh here

[kindred stone]

?

Ah nvm

[quaint hound]

lol

[kindred stone]

Nah i was mentioning the name of the sahabi who used to joke around

He had another one where he sold someone's camel

[quaint hound]

but the way u just texted "n"

[kindred stone]

Another one where he made a blind old man beat Umar ra

[quaint hound]

idk ab this one

id say wtv u hear

always

always

always

verify it!

ask for the source

and if sm1 refuses to let you know

or hesitates

be aware

and keep distance and do not take anything from him until u get the source and yk its true

ive been to masaajid in pakistan when i go there in my vacations sometimes

i swear messed up people bro

i simply asked an imaam why i cant pray in the first row (i was a kid)

he ignored me literally, frowned and walked right by me

vs

if u ask anyone here, any sheikh, even if the shiekh is giving friday's khutba

i swear he will give you an answer, or other people will compensate, and if ur trash talking, ull get treated right by others too

by here i mean ksa for now

[quaint hound]

mmm maybe ive heard smth like this

[kindred stone]

Dw ive checked it out

[hollow oyster]

Dont choose CS as a major

[unreal shadow]

i agree

choose CE

[zealous sphinx]

what the, why

[unkempt ingot]

@unreal warren I received my 100 rep and it looks like i received a price

[kindred stone]

Idk man we can wear programming socks and have a linix fedora

[unreal warren]

It's 250 now

[unkempt ingot]

Okay

[mild compass]

i cannot stand IT anymore

every time i see my IT textbook, my happy hormones disappear like they never existed at first place
during the lectures, i stare at my teacher, who looks absolutely done with life and think, it must’ve been IT
it’s not like.. i wanted to take this subject, those filthy demons forced me to do so

may my lord bestow a miracle upon me that can make me cope IT

every thursdays, i go to school with a dull expression as i’m about to have double IT lessons

dont get me wrong, i love technology
but why tf do i have to know the base of a damn hard disk drive

will that cure my 17 years worth of trauma and depression?

[mild compass]

arent you 9

[mild compass]

wish i was 9, that way i wouldnt be doing as level information technology

[silver wasp]

Im so sorry you feel that wayyy, Im not telling you not to because its completely valid and you were forced into it which doesnt make it any better

But try to accept that you know you're in it and you have to adapt to it and make the best out of it because that'll only make it easier instead of thinking about how much it might frustrate you or how you can't stand it try to focus on how you can make it easier and likable in your eyes

Try to talk to people you know are good at the subject or have bettter management with it and get advice, try asking on the server and maybe try getting a tutor if thats possiblee

And dont be afraid to rant about how you feel after every class because thats completely fine you have all right and we're all here to listen and it might just make you feel better better fr

[zealous sphinx]

But it depends, right?

[silver wasp]

Everytime you look at your textbook try to smile over it try to make it more appealing to yourselfff

[safe kernel]

@untold brook

[quaint hound]

inhale water

or

grow up

[unkempt ingot]

I can't take this anymore. So much of intrusive thoughts are in my mind

[deep sluice]

This is making me cringe for some reason

[silver wasp]

Guys

Im sad

[safe kernel]

I’m still confused why you didn’t leave the server

[silver wasp]

😭

I did but I came back

But its not like I left with the intention of never coming back

[safe kernel]

Why

[silver wasp]

I just wanted to take a break

I was gonna come back anyways to help new IG students

And stuff

[safe kernel]

Anyways why are you sad?

[silver wasp]

Omg I usually never talk about anything bc idk I dont feel like it but todayy I actually wanna say something

Wellllll

[safe kernel]

balls

[silver wasp]

You see I have this person in my life who Im really really close to like and we've been close for idk the past 4-5 years we've been so close to the point where yk we talk everyday we tell each other everything we're there for each other we've never had arguments or miscommunications or anything and shes my literal best friend and talking to her was something that basically became a part of my daily routine or whatever I'd see her in school everyday too but then she moved schools to do a different course and stuff from meee

[safe kernel]

Omg I ain’t reading all that

[safe kernel]

Well

[silver wasp]

And idk it just makes me so sad how we barely talk now and when I say barely I mean it because goddamn its the bare minimum and I try not to overthink it but walllah its sad

And I mean

[safe kernel]

I’ve moved 7 times

So

[silver wasp]

Its not like its on purpose or anything

[safe kernel]

I’m used to losing friends, making new friends

[silver wasp]

Its because yk we've gotten so so busy in our lives but idk how to like not feel upset about it at the same time like yeah inshallah in the future hopefully we're closer again and things are better

[placid folio]

guys idk how its possible
i mean i scored 90% yesterday
and todays test was ok...not the best
but my mum got a call from my teacher
and i dont think i did well
the worst part is my parents werent mad theyre just super confused and concerned bout me now
man i cant stop tearing

[silver wasp]

But right now its just saddddd

[safe kernel]

Huh

Why cry

[silver wasp]

If I feel a sense of missing something I knowww its her and I still talk to her or whatever but its just not it

[placid folio]

cuz did i do tht bad

[silver wasp]

And the thing is we didnt even expect this to be this bad

But whatever

[placid folio]

like he called my mom and complained

[safe kernel]

Just call her

Ez

That’s what I do with long distance friends once in a while

Just to keep each other updated

[placid folio]

cuz im usually smart and stuff

[silver wasp]

I am tooo Ive moved alot and its not like Ive lost this friend or anything I think the strongest thing about our friendship is going through a million time zones going through a million stages yet still being so close

[silver wasp]

I cant

My parents are strict with calling and stuff 😭

[placid folio]

samee

[silver wasp]

If I could we'd call everyday and talk about things whilst doing our tasks

[safe kernel]

How old are you

[silver wasp]

But I straight up cant

[safe kernel]

Wth

[silver wasp]

16

[safe kernel]

BRuh

[placid folio]

wow ur young

[silver wasp]

😭

[safe kernel]

Wait till your parents get to know you’re on discord

[placid folio]

not necessary for ur age

[safe kernel]

And check chat lounge

🤭

[silver wasp]

They found out a long time ago about discord

[placid folio]

my only phobia fr fr

[silver wasp]

And banned me from it

But here I am

🤡

And they dont know

[placid folio]

wth then leave

[silver wasp]

They think I havent touched this app since like 6 years ago

[placid folio]

obey ur parents

[silver wasp]

No bc I have no other way of contacting some people plus

[placid folio]

yd u use it at 10

[silver wasp]

Im employed now 🤡

[silver wasp]

Games

[placid folio]

oh ok

did they approve of gaming tho

[safe kernel]

Imagine betraying your parents

[silver wasp]

Mhm

[placid folio]

ikr

[silver wasp]

I dont mean it like that ofc

[placid folio]

just listen to them

things work best when u do

[silver wasp]

damn you guys want me to feel guilty like that 😭

[safe kernel]

Do they know you’re an ambassador

[silver wasp]

Its the biggest guilt in me

[placid folio]

when it comes to parents and religion then yeah

[silver wasp]

Im not

Okay khalas Im never saying anything here anymore 🤡💀

[placid folio]

good

[silver wasp]

The only way I actually tried to solve my guilt is that I literally dont use discord now

[safe kernel]

What is khalas

[silver wasp]

I stopped for a while

[placid folio]

finish

over

done

[silver wasp]

I do now but only for the purpose of the internship or whatever

But yeah

[placid folio]

smthng like tht

[safe kernel]

Go to the gym

[placid folio]

its arabic

[silver wasp]

I do already

[safe kernel]

I thought you were an ambassador

[silver wasp]

No

[placid folio]

i htought u were a girl

wth

[silver wasp]

I think your talking about fia

I am wth

💀

[placid folio]

sorry mb mb

[safe kernel]

WHERES FIA

[silver wasp]

Idk

[safe kernel]

Sad

[olive wadi]

So im just solving past papers and grinding right , but for some reason i just doubt myself whenever i answer a question thats either too easy or too long , like even if my answer is 100% correct or mostly correct i just doubt it outta no where? im not stressed nor do i lack practice , im constantly getting in the reps and all other aspects of my life is just great but for some odd reason i have started to always doubt myself , like i'd solve a 5 marker question on maths and at the end id go like "oh no this is wrong" and i'd scratch it out then only to find out it was exactly or mostly right , idk why this is a thing but hopefully mentioning this stupid feeling here and letting it out will help , cus otherwise i am confident in myself and in my ability to solve things i know about

[solar marsh]

Bro's getting anxiety from math

[shell breach]

Never related to this more lol

[hollow oyster]

You'll see why

[quaint hound]

im young

[zealous sphinx]

i mean i can change it but like tell me

[mild compass]

@quaint hound
arub please dont mind but i had a question regarding the day of judgement (and im asking this here because the chat lounge is too chaotic)
so when dajjal appears, will it already be the day of judgment?
or does it happen after isa a.s kills him?
(I just want to know the chronological event if its stated in the quran)
i did do some research but im confused about the time stamps
thought i'd ask you since you're very knowledgable msa

[placid folio]

Deceitful Messiah'), otherwise referred to simply as the Dajjal, is an evil figure in Islamic eschatology who will pretend to be the promised Messiah and later claim to be God, appearing before the Day of Judgment according to the Islamic eschatological narrative

dajjal appears b4 the day of judgement

[mild compass]

he's the final sign am I correct?

[placid folio]

yeah one of the final signs

[mild compass]

wait and is it true that all Muslims would be dead?

[placid folio]

u mean on the day of judgement

cuz the prophet himself is muslim

[mild compass]

not quite sure but I had heard from somewhere

[placid folio]

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Judgement_Day_in_Islam

[mild compass]

I don't exactly remember what it said

[placid folio]

check this out

[placid folio]

so u planning on enetering islam or just research

its a beautiful religion

[mild compass]

I'm Muslim since birth alhamdulillah I'm just researching in depth about islam

[mild compass]

Indeed it is

[placid folio]

ooops so sorry

pls forget whti asked

[mild compass]

nothing to be sorry about haha

[placid folio]

ok

so we cool

[mild compass]

absolutely

[placid folio]

anyways imma go sleep now

byee

[mild compass]

byee~ thanks for the article btw

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to studentig#0

[kindred stone]

His arrival is one of major signs of the day of judgement

[mild compass]

I think you mean major*

because its the final sign I think

followed by the appearance of isa a.s

[kindred stone]

yea sorry

corrected

[quaint hound]

I've read the previous chat, read this instead https://islamqa.info/en/answers/43840/signs-of-the-judgement-day-in-order
What studentig said is correct, but never go to Wikipedia to gain Islamic knowledge. The views are mixed and liberal as they aren't written by someone authorized...

Go for https://islamqa.info/en/ instead, this is an authentic website for Islamic questions and answers (mainly). It is supervised by a Syrian scholar Sheikh Saalih al Munajjid (you can look him up) and all of the questions are answered under the light of Quran and Ahadith (authentic ahadith of course)

@mild compass @placid folio

[mild compass]

tysm for your advice 💗 i was a bit unserious there but it’s definitely getting tough
i’ll try my best loviee

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to annggeell#0

[mild compass]

I complain too much.

[zealous sphinx]

Complain less

[sweet tapir]

islamqa is one of the best islamic websites for good information i've seen so far

[languid musk]

all the true believers will be killed in the fog I believe

[mild compass]

I'm trying.

[quaint hound]

of course it is

[mild compass]

Oh?

[placid folio]

ok thnxs will check this out

[zealous sphinx]

Why do u complain? Tho?

[mild compass]

Validation, mostly, it's become a bit of a habit. To fit in, everyone bonds over complaining about exams and school.

[zealous sphinx]

validation about what

[mild compass]

About my emotions (being told they are allowed), my intelligence (if I complain about exams people say "dw you're smart"), that people care (they respond kindly).

[zealous sphinx]

Wait so where's the problem here?

[mild compass]

It's that I complain because I want people to make me feel worth something, but I complain too much.

It's a bit like an addiction ig. It started off small, but the minor bits aren't making me feel the way it used to so I always need more.

[zealous sphinx]

I mean I get it that seeking validation and connection through complaining and it's understandable but its important to find a balance and you can try to talk to people other way (iykwim) and dw you're smart frfr

[mild compass]

I don't really know how to communicate with people properly which is probably why I just complain.

[zealous sphinx]

Well then how are u communicating with me properly?

[mild compass]

I'm communicating about my problems. Complaining, perhaps.

[zealous sphinx]

Well then you can maybe try to surround yourself with people who accepts it

[mild compass]

Hm... thanks.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to notpixel.#0

[zealous sphinx]

I kinda suck at this but sure 💪

[quaint hound]

Sick

[languid musk]

sick

[placid folio]

trauma

[unreal shadow]

a touch of 'tism

[languid musk]

😭

[placid folio]

i didnt get it
but hello how are you brother

[unreal shadow]

im good

[placid folio]

oh thts nice to hear

its been long

anyways @unreal shadow imma leave now
byeeee

[zealous sphinx]

💀

[placid folio]

wht was tht supposed to mean

[quaint hound]

immense

[quaint hound]

wild

[languid musk]

ft

fr

[quaint hound]

lol i dint change my pfp in months now... ur discord dint load well ig.. the first one is my main pfp, second is server pfp for at least a month now

[plush atlas]

[languid musk]

whatt

wuld

wild

[mild compass]

...

G1 baat kr de boss

I have literally lost my mind now

ong

[cunning geode]

bro i feel like i wasted so much of my life studying and missing out on friends and shit bcs i was too focused on getting into uk med. i studied so hard every single day, i got branded as a nerd, i got all As for my AS levels and an A* in a level maths, but i fucked up my ucat and now everything is a waste. i remember hearing stories about people being studious but still not getting into med but i never thought that would be me. i feel like such a failure bcs my only motivation to study was from me wanting to be more successful than any of my other friends who go out and have fun. its just so mf embarrassing to be in the same spot and get into the same unis as my friends who didnt put as much effort into school. uk med was my dream but its over now tbh i just hate myself rn bcs everything i worked hard for was for nothing

and i knowim being unreasonable bcs there is so many other options for med like graduate entry or pursuing med in my own country or other countries but it just hurts my heart to think about bcs i was just so dead set on getting into the uk for med i thought it was almost a guarantee that i woud get in

my whole life ive been branded as the smart kid who is gna become a doctor and now i just feel like a failure. i can already hear people shit talking me saying "she wasnt smart enough" like my biggest fear is literally people thinking im not smart

idk does this make sense

like the only reason i fucked up my ucat was cuz i went to the wrong test center and was crying hysterically when i showed up 2 hours late so i was j not in the best conditions to take the test

im thinking of reapplying and taking a gap year just to get into uk med and i know i sound crazy and im overreacting like its not worth it but my brain just canot accept the fact that i was not smart enough to get in

im not even applying for med anymore cuz my ucat score was so bad i just hate myself sm rn yas slay ok thanks thats all

[safe kernel]

taking a gap year is okay

lots of people take gap year for a their own reason and you can too. no one’s gonna criticise you.

if you truly think that taking a gap year will benefit you a whole lot and you’ll be able to show who you truly are, then do it

[cosmic ginkgo]

Hey take a deep breath, you are smart and you are a great person regardless of where you go to uni

Those A*s you got on a level do mean something and they are things you should / can be proud of

I know it feels like your entire life has turned itself over but take this as an opportunity to start seeing your self worth as more than the goal because you are a whole person and everything else you do defines you just as much

[cosmic ginkgo]

You not doing the ucat well clearly has nothing to do with your ability in this case btw! You were not in the right headspace to write it and that doesn't make you stupid one bit

[cosmic ginkgo]

It's gonna take time but the best thing you can do for yourself is to love yourself rn. What other people say doesn't define you. Also not all smart kids have to become doctors, if they think you're not smart because you're not a doctor, they're severely wrong and you gain absolutely nothing explaining yourself to them neither do they need an explanation from you

[cosmic ginkgo]

Also that ^^ if you feel like you need it that's absolutely fine and nobody at uni gives a shit how old you are. I had people in my year who were 3-4 years older and that never stopped them

[cosmic ginkgo]

It does make sense, it's something a lot of us have felt, you're not alone but I do hope you dont let yourself feel like that in the future

[cosmic ginkgo]

Also the UK has shitty caps on the number of med students they take every year. I believe they only take 7,500 students nationwide - both home and international which is really not a lot especially because there will be a HUGE preference to home students so even if you didn't get in under normal circumstances, it wouldn't have been because you weren't smart, it would've just come down to luck at some point

[cosmic ginkgo]

Your work and your effort will absolutely pay off and mean that you have an easier time at uni. It's not the end goal that defines your skills, it's the journey. That's why when you apply for jobs, they care less about the roles you previously had and more about what you learnt at those roles which will only happen if you push yourself and do a good job which you 100% did

It means that you'll be a better doctor in the future ❤️

My DMs are open if you need to rant more or scream or cry about it as well ❤️

[kindred stone]

Take one

Trust me

I took 6 montbs off

And i was refreshed for uni

I agree that it was annoying going to uni after a break

But for my mental health

It was really helpful

[mild compass]

this is the first time

i see someone fr vent

in venting

[torn yarrow]

us 💀

[mild compass]

bro wasn’t my IT vent serious 🙄

[mild compass]

absolutely not

[mild compass]

https://tenor.com/view/kermit-haise-kaneki-sasaki-ken-gif-22865790

[quaint hound]

the hair are sus

[undone kite]

I need to vent about pakistan

[languid musk]

fr

[languid musk]

we all do

[torn yarrow]

😔

[undone kite]

Yes

[quaint hound]

would be too bad, better let slide hhh

[solar marsh]

Im

Happy

I'm feeling happy

After a long time of not feeling it

[languid musk]

lmao ok

[quaint hound]

Hmdllah

I want to get sad

And cry

I'm missing it

[placid folio]

wow mashallah im so happy for you
dont make stupid statements lol

[placid folio]

mashallah good for you
i hope it stays that way

whoever used my device left a disgusting search history

i have 2 suspects and it better be neither

gosh

[languid musk]

😭

[quaint hound]

Y u exist in the venting channel 😡 LOLL

[mild compass]

I don't want to.

[mild compass]

I don't want to get out of bed 💔

I don't want to get out of my neighbour's basement 💔

[solar marsh]

I don't want to pause my work on starting world domination 💔

[plush atlas]

I don't want to stop princess carrying people off the bridge 💔

[quaint hound]

i want to get high on water

[languid musk]

🗣️

[placid folio]

wth im happy you have no reason to sad
sheesh calm down bro
i dont know what u took out from wht i said
but u definitely misunderstood

[quaint hound]

uh yeah ive added "LOLL" there js to show its a joke haha, i dint misunderstand anything lol

[torn yarrow]

lol schl lab problems, my parallel user always makes the wallpaper hitler 😔 and a folder called "meri jaan hitler"

[languid musk]

💀💀

[languid musk]

yeah lmao

it may be better to use /s cuz sometimes people don't get it on the first go

[placid folio]

oh ok thats great ❤️

[placid folio]

i dont think u got me

[placid folio]

but ur lab partner cray cray
lol

[torn yarrow]

word.

[quaint hound]

sometimes its fun to keep people hanging

[kindred stone]

In what way XD

[mild compass]

Stupiding. Yay.

[placid folio]

no it causes a lot of relationship problems and misunderstandings

[quaint hound]

Bro

I'm talking about random frogs to test this stuff on

Ofc not people who are close to me! I'd never do this oof

[quaint hound]

Like people at school

Could be students, teachers, hods etc

Like I don't make friends or get close to literally anyone except my parents and siblings for now tho I still don't share anything w them too

So idm w people think of me, as long as ur nice w everyone

U can test dif stuff on anyone u want

It's actually fun, like look at things from dif perspectives and others perspectives... ull realise people often appear to be very powerful in some sense whereas it's just how others look at them and they themselves are way weaker

[mild compass]

I don't want to go to school. It's not because of the learning or exams, I love the learning and slightly enjoy some of the exams, as long as it isn't geography or sport related. It's because I don't like people. I'm not mistreated at school, I just don't want to maintain friendships. I go to school to learn, not to play. Why is the play part so enforced?

[quaint hound]

W

[mild compass]

?

[quaint hound]

I agree w u

That's a W if yk w it means

[mild compass]

People are firstly, boring, secondly, troublesome, thirdly, pointless to maintain a friendship with.

[mild compass]

Ok.

[quaint hound]

Exactly

[mild compass]

Recess is the time I probably hate the most, it's too short to study in the library but so long to maintain a conversation. In classes, I'm expected to chat to those around me.

[quaint hound]

Js don't talk

[mild compass]

What has happened to school being a place of learning? 😭

[quaint hound]

U won't be expected to talk if u don't care w others think of u

[mild compass]

It's troublesome when people think of me in a negative light, especially due to the emphasis of group work in almost 1/3 of our assessments.

I hate group work.

[quaint hound]

Wtv

Get immune to pain brotha

[chilly solar]

good luck in uni 👍

[mild compass]

I'd hope in uni people are serious enough to actually bother and not just talk about Harry Styles or whatever his name is.

And that the assignments marks are based on the product, not the evaluation of members within a group structure.

[chilly solar]

i mean good luck if you hate group work , because you will get given assignments ( at least for engineering ) where you have to work with other people

even labs are partnered or groups of 3

[chilly solar]

its the latter xD

[mild compass]

Around 90% of our group work tasks marks are based on our individual reports of our groupwork.

[mild compass]

😭

[chilly solar]

you are in IG right?

[mild compass]

Partly.

[chilly solar]

group work there isnt comparable to uni group work

you'll have useless people in your team asw

so prepare for that

[mild compass]

My school has the main curriculum (at least 6 subjects) that are not IGCSE and allows us to pick up to 3 IGCSE subjects.

[torn yarrow]

[mild compass]

Lovely. Just wonderous.

My lowest marks this year are all group work tasks and 1 assessment which the teacher TAUGHT US THE WRONG THING.

I'm so done with people and friendships, tbh.

[torn yarrow]

i hate group work.

[chilly solar]

group work is nice with like minded + not completely useless people

if you dont have either then yeah it becomes a pain

[mild compass]

I'm actually fine with basically anything as long as the others either do work or do absolutely nothing and don't interfere.

[silver wasp]

Awwwww ofcourse haha I thought you were so highly serious 😭
Try your best for sure rather than not trying at allllll and ask me if you need anything

Good luck

❤️

[zealous sphinx]

Guys, im kinda worried about my cies that i just gave recently, even though i worked really hard and they went pretty good my negative thoughts wont end and i told about my exams to one of my friends i was expecting a positive reply from him but for some weird reason he just said that you will end up getting a B or C. Now after that im really anxious that i ACTUALLY might end up getting a B or C i told my friend that my exam went really good and i think i actually might get an A or an A* but he was like: "Well idk man why did you give your caies theres no sense you shouldve studied a bit more and then i wouldve said that you might better grades for now all i can expect is a B or less from you" and that guy didnt even give his exam yet anyway I got really sad after that and wasnt able to share it anyone so i ended up putting my small stupid thing here thinking that someone might help me

[solid kindle]

heyy dude , its normal to have those negative thoughts rn and dont listen to your friend who told you that you will get B and C's, like you are the one who worked the paper out, you are the only one who knows your ability and potential and no one can tell you otherwise ,

just dont listen to people like him who is putting negativity in others life but pulling you down for them to feel better

and what kind of a friend is he to tell you and i quote "you shouldve studied a bit more and then i wouldve said that you might better grades for now all i can expect is a B or less from you"

@zealous sphinx i can tell you that you did well in those exams despite not knowing you i can tell that you did great , and just think positive don't stress yourself too much about what he told you

you know some people are here just to pull us down and lower than them in order for them to feel better so don't worry about he said to you

[zealous sphinx]

idk man what if hes right 😭 what if i actually get a B or less idk why i even told him i even mentioned him that im having negative thoughts and that guy said this to me and i ended up getting more anxious but youre right i shouldnt overthink A LOT about my grades or that guy who doesnt even know how much i work, thank you fr ✨

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to aaliyha__40465#0

[solid kindle]

i am 100% sure you killed that paper dude

[zealous sphinx]

i always thought that he had a grudge against me

[solid kindle]

okay but you said yourself and i quote "my exam went really good and i think i actually might get an A or an A*" so why stress yourself on something negative that someone told to you when you know your potential and is confident enough to say and i quote "i actually might get an A or an A"

[solid kindle]

its not "i always THOUGHT"

he has a grudge against you dude

[zealous sphinx]

wait what thats true :o i was afriad for no reason 😭 thank girl ✨ dont you think i should stop texting him

[solid kindle]

you should but now its your choice to decide whether you should stop texting him or not

[zealous sphinx]

true

[solid kindle]

no problem dude always here to help when i can

[zealous sphinx]

makes sense, anyway thank you for you kind words it somehow helped me

[solid kindle]

[grand ruin]

i really don't get it why my school wants to torture us. for conext, i did 6 igcse subjects this m/j session. my results were pretty great (1A*,4A,1B) and i am satisfied... however, my school is making us take igcse religious studies this o/n session and that is really making me mad. we are not given time needed to prepare for this exam. we are going to school and we won't go to school 1 day before the exam so we can "prepare" for it. i really don't want to mess this subject, but the situation is really hard for me because i am also preparing for 4 AS subjects in the moment and i can't manage everything. i don't know is this a practice in other schools or is it just mine, but i don't think i'm going to make it :/. i know that my professor predicted me A* and i don't want to disappoint her, but my exam is in 14 days and i don't think i will be able to prepare 2 religions and study everything during this time + school.

[mild compass]

Not doing my IGs yet, just internal school exams and I've really messed them up. I'm hoping to rank well this year but just- aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
With rankings, our school doesn't do scaling and next year I'll be basically doing the hardest subjects available so I have basically no chance to rank.
I'm so scared that I've majorly messed up, I know that I pretty much have already. Lowkey hoping that everyone else has messed up a lot more than me, especially this girl I hate but she's sooooooo smart.

[solid kindle]

so , i guess its only your school who is doing this because last year when i took part for the IGCSE i didn't have that situation here in my school as we are not forced to do any of the religious studies thing but why is it making you take part in the religious studies exams like it doesn't make sense since you've already took part in the m/j exam and got great result why is it making this?
you said and i quote " we are not given time needed to prepare for this exam" , so if i were you , i would concentrate more on my AS level subjects and then i would dedicate at least 1h or 1h30min everyday for the religious studies which according to me is enough as you will take part in the exams in 14days which give you 14hrs to 21hrs dedicated to religious studies which is constant as you will be doing it on a daily basis so it will be difficult to forget what you've learn so you will be able to memorise your notes well
during that 1h or 1h30min you can go back through your notes (if you have some) of search for more notes on the net or even here on Z and you can also practice some estimated questions based on past exam papers as according to my friends who did religious studies all the answers are mostly the same BUT the way the question is asked maybe different.
And dude , no need to stress too much about it , do whatever you can , do your best, i am sure that you will kill that religious study paper and you will also kill those AS Level papers
do your best dude and everyone will always have expectations from us but what others think is none of your business so just do your best and don't listen to people's expectations and opinion about you dude just do your best

[solid kindle]

heyy dude, its normal to feel like you messed up and i am sure that you didn't mess up that much besides if all the papers were hard then the correction will be light and normally (idk if its for your school too but mine its the case) when you need only 1 to 3 points to pass in a subject they will try to give you those points by looking if you were present in class,if you behave well, if you did all the homeworks and stuff like that
and if you see that you are good with that then their might be a chance for you to pass abut i am sure that you have passed your internal exams well dude but no need to be scared dude it will be alright dude dont worry about dude

[mild compass]

Thanks :D but it's not like that in my school.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to aaliyha__40465#0

[solid kindle]

ohh then try to no stress too much about it dude if you have exams left concentrate on those and try to score more points on those papers like forget about the papers you did before concentrate on the one you are going to take part

[mild compass]

Yeah, I'm trying. I just have absolutely no motivation for the ones I have left.

[solid kindle]

then try to motivate yourself just tell you that "i will be able to do i " "i will kill that paper i am capable of doint it and i will do it!!" "i will pass and i will be ranked"
just think positive mannn and go for it

[mild compass]

Whenever I'm positive, it leads to overconfidence and not studying (due to overconfidence) and failing.

[solid kindle]

then tell you that "i will do it but i need to study to get it "

[mild compass]

Ah, thanks.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to aaliyha__40465#0

[old lodge]

God damn it

I can't study

Just a few days before my 3xams

And now I have exams tomorrow dude I can't study someone 😭😭😭

What do you do when you just don't want to study but you have too

And this phase stays on me for days

[kindred stone]

m

e

i just sleep

like if i've studied

ik everything

ill catch up after a great sleep

short term memory ftw

[languid musk]

💪

[mild compass]

i did really reallly bad this time in maths 😭😭😭😭

[old lodge]

😭😭

[placid folio]

samee
can totally relate to you

[warm wigeon]

i neeed motivation for exam tmr

i don wanna studyy

procrastination is at its peakkk

[mild compass]

30 minutes until (internal school) bio exam, I'm going to fail!!

No studying, no knowledge, a bunch of past papers I haven't looked at...

[atomic jungle]

heyy does anyone know how realistic it is to get A/A*s in A levels if i start preparing from December and give them in May/June series. I have all three sciences and psychology

[neon verge]

if u attend classes, u can start later

[upbeat jolt]

It's very realistic if you are consistent with covering the syllabus, however it depends on the subject combination you're taking.

E.g. Chem bio and physics would take at least 3-4 months to cover effectively and that too with another 2-3 months of rigorous revision and past paper practice.

Other subject combos such as Math, Physics and CS wouldn't take very long. Around 2 months-ish to effectively cover the syllabus, again assuming you're very consistent and focused (and disciplined lol), while you can use the rest of the time to do revision and past paper practice.

Just a side note/personal advice:

Just use a combination of these:

-Feynman technique (for concept related topics e.g. explaining internet protocols in Comp sci) to revise.

-Flashcards / anki (for memorization of formulas, facts, definitions e.g. formulas in physics, example solved problem for math etc.)

-Just A LOT of reading (quality>quantity) and writing (for English)

-Practice problems (for math or problems solving related stuff in CS like programming)

Don't wait to finish the syllabus and then do past papers, rather just do topicals and switch to full papers when the entire syllabus is covered. Also incorporate revision during the time you're finishing the syllabus (revise previously completed chapters for like 10-15 minutes a day)

||I'm assuming you're talking about A2 and not the entire AS+A2 syllabus, cause then my answer would be very different||

[placid folio]

yeah ill be optimistic

[placid folio]

why didn tyou

[atomic jungle]

im giving oct/nov exams right now for A2 and AS but i dont think they’re going that well so im trying to prepare for retakes next year just incase its anything lower than an A. this is the first time im giving these exams but i am on a gap year which means i have a lott of free time. my subjects are chem, physics, bio and psych btw

[mild compass]

Other exams going on, lack of time, tiredness, laziness, etc.

[upbeat jolt]

Ohh so you're planning a retake. In that case you'll be fine, and in fact that is a lot of time assuming you already know the syllabus and have experience with past papers (+ the experience w the actual exam).

An A*/A is strongly guaranteed in your case

Ofcourse if you're consistent and focused. Just don't slack off and you'll be doing good

Good luck

💪💯🔥

[atomic jungle]

alright thank you so much!!

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to chernoya#0

[mild compass]

Actually mostly asking for advice:
I want to learn Korean, Japanese and Chinese. I'm beginner level in Chinese and Japanese, took 2+ years of lessons in both, though I've forgotten most of my Chinese, I haven't done any Korean. Would it be bad/really hard/confusing for me to learn all 3 (or 2) of them on Duolingo at once? Should I just focus on one at a time?

[mild compass]

Better focus with one at a time and also I wouldn't recommend duolingo as the best way to learn a language

[mild compass]

What should I use instead? I'm really bad with using textbooks, flashcards and videos as a way to study a language as I get really lazy and zoom out, mindlessly flipping through them. I've used Duolingo the smallest amount for Japanese and I was somehow able to consentrate.

[mild compass]

Thank you.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to tawheed01#0

[mild compass]

Not sure for those languages but if there are better apps and courses you can use them because you get to know the language better. Also try to practice the language you are learning by talking to people who already know it and also other learners because it will help you not forget it

[mild compass]

Welcome

Duolingo only helps for consistency because of the streaks but you don't get to learn the language's basics

[upbeat jolt]

@mild compass Duolingo is only good as far as learning some random vocabulary but overall the app is hot garbage

Tbh the only way imo to learn a language (which I've done), is to just passively absorb stuff for like a month or couple weeks.

E.g. listening to how it sounds, through pimsleur, YouTube, podcasts, music etc.

Reading, even if you don't understand shit, just gloss over stuff. This is especially useful IF the language has a different script (e.g. in your case, Chinese, Korean and Japanese. Each of which have different scripts ☠️)

Speaking, just listen and shadow what native people say. The goal is to have good pronunciation (pimsleur helps)

[mild compass]

Ok, thanks.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to chernoya#0

[upbeat jolt]

For absolute beginners the "for dummies" series is actually really decent

Korean for dummies etc.

[mild compass]

Are those free online resources?

[upbeat jolt]

Zlibrary😭

[upbeat jolt]

Go to the zlibrary reddit, there's a megathread of the official links, don't fall for the scam sites.

[mild compass]

Ok, thanks.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to chernoya#0

[upbeat jolt]

Also you can find the free version of those resources

Takes some googling

Also check r/languagelearning. There's a huge guide on learning a language from scratch. Which is way better than anything I can write @mild compass

[mild compass]

Ok, thank you so much :D

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to chernoya#0

[upbeat jolt]

Anytime

Good luck

[placid folio]

same sit going on
now prepping for bio
well just work your best
with enuf practise multiple subject learning becomes a piece of cake

[upbeat jolt]

multi tasking is impossible though, y'all study your subjects simultaneously?

[placid folio]

i meant learning many subjects
and meant multi-tasking as smthng else seperately it came out wrong lol
its phrased wrong mb mb

[upbeat jolt]

ah okay no worries

[wintry rampart]

is it really true that gen x and above parents try to teach their sons the fact that they need to show as much toxic masculinity as possible

as in, "men don't cry", "men are not pussies", "men do men things and not art"

"how will you get a girlfriend if you keep doing these artsy hobbies?"

"men don't feel joy, cause everyone around you will think you're crazy"

i have been learning the concept of it, and based from my past memories, it is as if my mother wants me to turn into a toxic male who is "strong" by the use of intimidation and aggression, even if it is unnecessary, becoming emotionless and homophobic and only doing manly things, that is, ignore art like photography and painting

as a result, i've already became aware of a bloodthirsty side of me that wants to assert dominance and fear as signs of toughness in her eyes

[lament cloud]

Nah that's more of a boomer thing

[wintry rampart]

my mom's 53 btw

[wintry rampart]

i see. but is it more common in asian families?

to encourage their gen z boys to show toxic masculinity?

[lament cloud]

Honestly, it's less about her age and more about the way she was raised and the kind of time she was bought up

That was the attitude of people then

I'm not making excuses for her, just explaining

[wintry rampart]

i understand. i mean, my mother was raised by a strict grandmother

[lament cloud]

You can choose not to follow her beliefs if you don't agree with it

You're your own person

[wintry rampart]

that's what i'm doing.

filtering out the advice that she gives me based on the long-term effects.

if it's positive, i'll put it about 50% in consideration, if negative, i'll ignore.

[lament cloud]

Yeah that's good

[languid musk]

yeah

[wintry rampart]

she didn't want me to join a student organization, thinking that it is a fraternity, i joined anyways and became an assistant vice president

without being even hazed

and she kinda felt proud

[languid musk]

what kinda stuff does she want from you?

[languid musk]

oh damn

[lament cloud]

It's not your job to change her mentality or beliefs, it's to focus on your own and take inspiration from whatever you feel like

[wintry rampart]

"no cosplaying", "play some sports, ie golf"

[lament cloud]

Golf 😭

[wintry rampart]

as if it will help me learn survival skills

i already sarcastically told her that i'll join the army

to satisfy he rtoxic masculinity demads

but i will never join the army

cause i'm mentally incapable

[lament cloud]

Yep

[wintry rampart]

well, i would never change her mind, and instead simply do it without hesitation

by that, i mean pursuing new hobbies

and learning to love myself

[lament cloud]

Focus on your life, try to become more independent over time, live healthier and then at that point you can do whatever the fuck you want without having to hear her criticism

[lament cloud]

Good

Proud of you for that

[wintry rampart]

i mean, she's struggling as a single parent, so i guess she was venting her frustrations out on me the most

so i guess that she didn't really mean to say these harsh words

[lament cloud]

Yeah that makes sense but she doesn't pay attention to how much that fucks your mental health up

See

When you're in a better place in your life

In the future

Then you can work on rebuilding a good relationship with your mother if you want

Right now, you focus on your own life

[wintry rampart]

and doing whatever i want, regardless of criticism

[lament cloud]

Yep

[wintry rampart]

were your parents like that?

promoting toxic masculine traits as a way to define how a man should act?

[lament cloud]

Nah not to your extent

My parents came with their own type of fucked up-ness

[wintry rampart]

liek what kind of fucked up?

[lament cloud]

Not something I wanna get into man

[wintry rampart]

i see

although one challenge that i'm currently facing is in letting go of the emotionless traits that i got

slash excess pride and anger

[lament cloud]

That'll come with time

If you keep doing things that make you happy

And put yourself in good positions

And progress in life steadily

You'll eventually become a happier person with good traits

[wintry rampart]

you're right. i've been enjoying the hobbies that i pursued lately

and finally learnt from skipping organizational opportunities

[upbeat jolt]

W

[wintry rampart]

ad perhaps, toxic masculinity's just a pointless stereotype that can do more harm than good

[upbeat jolt]

Ye

[wintry rampart]

even if my mother tries to encourage me to act "manly", there is no exact definition for that

[upbeat jolt]

At the end of the day it's your choice what kind of "man" you want to be

[upbeat jolt]

Exactly

There's no one size fits all

[wintry rampart]

i'll be a compassionate, confident man who pursues his hobbies and interests without hesitation

[upbeat jolt]

There are different men and each are masculine in their own ways

[upbeat jolt]

Real

Based

[wintry rampart]

some men are artists, while others do sports and show compassion

[upbeat jolt]

Yeah and some are just dicks😭

[wintry rampart]

i guess that boomer minds and gen z minds collide as a source of conflict between me and my mom the whole time

[wintry rampart]

cause they were raised incorrectly

[upbeat jolt]

Yeah that and the environment they grew up in

They evolved to adapt to their situation

Maybe bring a good person wasn't very good for their survival

It happens with kids from abusive backgrounds

[wintry rampart]

so they "man up" and end up doing more harm than good

which would end them in prison

[upbeat jolt]

Not really man up, more like they adopt traits that keep their heads afloat

Which can be aggression

And violence

[wintry rampart]

i see

[upbeat jolt]

Etc.

Same in prison

If you're a shy person, you're gonna get raped in prison

Hence you adopt harder traits

[wintry rampart]

damn

how does homophobia play out a role in masculine toxicity?

[upbeat jolt]

It's really human nature to adapt and overcome

[upbeat jolt]

I guess being tolerant of gay people is seen as being submissive.

And having no values or something

[lament cloud]

Some gay dudes are seen as feminine or whatever

[upbeat jolt]

Those dudes have never met a gay man in their life

😭😭

[lament cloud]

Fr

[wintry rampart]

i mean, as a cosplayer, i sometimes don makeup and facepaint and i got scolded for stealing makeup, and eventually leading into my mother thinking that i'm secretly a homosexual. this led me to spurt out homophobic slurs in front of her as both of us argues

[upbeat jolt]

Bro even actors use make up

😭😭

[wintry rampart]

exactly

[upbeat jolt]

It's just a tool , people overreacting fr

[wintry rampart]

although i plan to eventually tell her that being gay or bakla will be definite if same-sex relationships are present

rather than wearing feminine-looking outfits or wearing makeup

if she saw tom holland lip sync to rihanna's umbrella, idk how she'll react to it

[languid musk]

what

😭

[lament cloud]

LMAO

[upbeat jolt]

She should see that new movie Tom Holland is starrin in

[wintry rampart]

shiny

[languid musk]

ifeel like this emoji is more accurate

[wintry rampart]

and i'll tell her as we watch the movie that day, homosexuality is all about same-sex relationships

[upbeat jolt]

👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨

This is accurate

[languid musk]

💀

[wintry rampart]

and not dressing up like women

[languid musk]

fair

[upbeat jolt]

Real

But homosexuality is same sex relationships..

What's new

[wintry rampart]

exactly

[languid musk]

lmao

yeah

[upbeat jolt]

Yo sheikh Salim shady remember the chick I was telling you about

The Greek one that my mom disapproved of

[lament cloud]

I think he means to show his mum that being gay is less about being feminine and more about just wanting to date dudee

[lament cloud]

Yuhh

[wintry rampart]

exactly

[upbeat jolt]

My mom made me break up w her 💀

[lament cloud]

That's fucked man

[upbeat jolt]

It's been 2 months

Yeah

[languid musk]

whatt

😭

[upbeat jolt]

I keep stalking her insta

😭😭

[lament cloud]

Welp

[upbeat jolt]

Bro religion

Subhanallah

[languid musk]

religion

[upbeat jolt]

We were literally the same person but different genders

It was perfect

[wintry rampart]

imagine breaking up due to "religion"

[upbeat jolt]

Finally I was happy

[languid musk]

😔

[wintry rampart]

or parental demands

[upbeat jolt]

Both

It was both

[languid musk]

it makes sense but forcing someone to??

[upbeat jolt]

Parental demands and Religion

[languid musk]

thats fucked up

[wintry rampart]

i see

[upbeat jolt]

Cus the chick had tattoos and stuff so my mom said she looks like a hooker

Hooker*

[languid musk]

[wintry rampart]

whut

[upbeat jolt]

Can't wait to tell her "that's my type yo"

[languid musk]

lmao

[upbeat jolt]

Only Eminem can mend my broken heart

[lament cloud]

Stuff like this makes me happy for leaving religion

although it's not like I'm getting women anyway 😭😭

[upbeat jolt]

LMAO

[languid musk]

😭

[upbeat jolt]

😭

[wintry rampart]

ay yo mom, she's my type

[upbeat jolt]

"your type is literal dog water"

[lament cloud]

❤️❤️

[wintry rampart]

shit

[upbeat jolt]

You know sometimes I wish my momma was a little liberal

[lament cloud]

Ay yo I have a brilliant idea

What if

Me and Jamal

Make out

in front of Kelpo's mum

[wintry rampart]

HAHAHAHAHHAA

[upbeat jolt]

I agree

Then in front of my mom

[wintry rampart]

as i try convincing her the exact definition of homosexality

while jamal tries to convince his mom why religion isn't a valid reason to break up

[upbeat jolt]

This should work, cus then my mom will weigh the choice of her son being gay or straight

Ezzzz

[lament cloud]

I'll even dress up like a hooker

[upbeat jolt]

Get a tattoo as well

[wintry rampart]

HAHAHAHAHAHA

[upbeat jolt]

[wintry rampart]

maybe look a bit high too

[lament cloud]

Bet

[upbeat jolt]

I tried convincing her but bro brought up grandchildren

"they'll be non-muslim"

[wintry rampart]

what the fuck

[upbeat jolt]

Like relax bro 😭

[wintry rampart]

she's overthinking

[upbeat jolt]

Yuh she's thinking into the future

[wintry rampart]

it's too early to predict what will come in 20 years

[upbeat jolt]

Like 20 years down the line

[wintry rampart]

predicting the future will lead to a lot of pessimism

[upbeat jolt]

Shit ww3 could render me dead

In 5 years

[wintry rampart]

and yet it never happens

[upbeat jolt]

Talk ab kids 😭😭

Makes me realize why I didn't tell her ab my first rs

Cus she would've ended that one too

It ended anyway

But still

Why do I have pic perms in venting @lament cloud

[lament cloud]

Who knows

[upbeat jolt]

I ain't complaining

[wintry rampart]

i guess romantic relationships with the opposite sex are better off as secret cause god knows what expectations can they make up to ruin the hard work that you committed

[upbeat jolt]

That's real talk

Kelpo spitting facts

But it's kinda hard cus I live w my mom

[wintry rampart]

me too

[lament cloud]

Me too

😭

[upbeat jolt]

During my first one I was living w my uncle and he's an atheist so he didn't give any fucks

[upbeat jolt]

[lament cloud]

Based uncle

[upbeat jolt]

Adults living w parents

[wintry rampart]

i'd be that type of parent

[upbeat jolt]

What have we become

[upbeat jolt]

W fucking based

Adopt me

Wait I'm an adult

😭

[lament cloud]

What has the world come to

That 20 year olds can't afford to move out

[wintry rampart]

i don't give a fuck about your girl, as long as you treat each other with empathy and respect and i guess no domestic abuse

[upbeat jolt]

Same but 18

[upbeat jolt]

Domestic abuse lmao

😭

My first rs was wild, she was religious as fuck

Slapped me when i told her I didn't believe in God

Crazy times

(I'd still go back)

[languid musk]

💀

[wintry rampart]

bruh

[chilly solar]

welcome to the gym broski

[slate sky]

I think in many places, even 30 year old live with their parents 💀

[upbeat jolt]

💯 💪