venting

[solar marsh]

Imma study hard and get a high paying job

[placid folio]

yeah thts the motive

good girl

[solar marsh]

So i wont ever have to worry about running out of money

[placid folio]

thts wht im planning on aswell

[placid folio]

true

so wths ur ambiiton

pls dont mid the spelling mistakes

its just texting right

[solar marsh]

Business Management ig

I mean

[placid folio]

oh ths nice so commerce field

[solar marsh]

Anything business

[placid folio]

i see

[solar marsh]

Yeah

[placid folio]

well i get u
business runs in my blood

[solar marsh]

Im not sure of what i wanna do yet

[placid folio]

ive got a blood line of business men

[solar marsh]

Wow

[placid folio]

same here

i wanna insha allah become a doctor

id love engineering

[solar marsh]

Well i dont

[placid folio]

but my mums not too happy bout tht

[solar marsh]

I honestly wish i studied science now

[placid folio]

its alright ull be the first then

[solar marsh]

My parents dont care what i become

[placid folio]

why

[placid folio]

no im sure they do

[solar marsh]

Cux its got more fields

[placid folio]

they dont want to show you their expectations or it might stress oyu out or disturb ya

[placid folio]

true

and based on what u said i might aswell start a business

[solar marsh]

Nah, they've told me they dont care what i do as a job as long as i enjoy it

[placid folio]

just incase

insha allah

[placid folio]

masha allah thts amazing

u made it sond bad

b4

[solar marsh]

Ou sorry

[placid folio]

its ok

but why

[solar marsh]

Ive always had this idea

[placid folio]

its a good one

i did too

[solar marsh]

But ive been scared about it cuz idk i might fail at it

[placid folio]

but forgot bout tht

[placid folio]

u nver no until u try

and tbh

unless u try or risk smthng u never know ull fail or not

it usually works out

i wish green knew tht

[solar marsh]

Yeah well thats literally the definition of being an entrepreneur 😭

[placid folio]

he thinks it wont work wth

[placid folio]

lol

[solar marsh]

Who's green

[placid folio]

@glossy pewter

[solar marsh]

Oh

ouh himm

[placid folio]

uk him

[solar marsh]

Yeah

[placid folio]

the guy ifell in love with

then we finally became a thing

and 3 days ago we broke up

[solar marsh]

Ong contrats

[placid folio]

sadly

[solar marsh]

Oh

[placid folio]

wth

[solar marsh]

No i was saying congrats on becoming a thing-

[placid folio]

i still like him

[solar marsh]

But then

[placid folio]

well not anymore

[solar marsh]

U said u guys broke up-

[placid folio]

but thankyou anyways

[solar marsh]

Wrong timing hahah 😭

[placid folio]

yeah

[placid folio]

its alright

[solar marsh]

Thats sad

[placid folio]

it is

i would always be alright to be back 2gtehr with him

unless i get married tht is

but i dont wanna disturb him or make things awkaward

[solar marsh]

Insha Allah you'll recover from it

[placid folio]

tbh

[solar marsh]

Yeah i feel ya

Ugh why is waking up early so hard

[placid folio]

yeah
ive heard a lot of tht

[placid folio]

wanna talk about it

[solar marsh]

Nah.. id rather not have hallucinations again 😭

[placid folio]

wts the time there 9.18

[placid folio]

oh ok

im sorry

[solar marsh]

Its 8:49

Am

[solar marsh]

Issoka dont be sory

[placid folio]

oh mb
i calculated srilankas time

[solar marsh]

Hehe

[placid folio]

well why wake so early

to study or smthng

[solar marsh]

For fajr prayer duh

[placid folio]

oh well thts compulsory

[solar marsh]

I wanna pray it on time

[placid folio]

and i do too

[placid folio]

same

and i do btw

[solar marsh]

Waking up early is hard for me

[placid folio]

yeah ig get you
im a night owl

but waking me up is super easy

[solar marsh]

Dang

I cant wake up easily

[placid folio]

u dotn have to put any effort into waking me

[solar marsh]

I could sleep at 8 pm and id sleep till 8 am

[placid folio]

and another thing
no matter how deep my sleep is if anyone talking about me at home i automatically wake up

like how

[solar marsh]

Ah well, no one talks about me at home

[placid folio]

during vaca thts totally fine ig

[placid folio]

well they doin mine

[solar marsh]

Not for my mom

[placid folio]

im sure they do

[placid folio]

not for my dad here

[solar marsh]

Well they dont talk abt me for me to hear

I have 1 sibling

[placid folio]

ths nice

[solar marsh]

And shes only 7

[placid folio]

wow i have a 7yr old sis aswell

ive got 4 siblings

2 bros and 2 sis

im the oldest

[solar marsh]

So like theres only my mom who'd be giving her daily rant about me not waking up to help her make breakfast and she's the only one to do anything around the house

Im currently at work tbh

Slow dayy

[placid folio]

wow
if u read my vents uk howmy life is

[solar marsh]

Myst be fun

[placid folio]

oh what do u do

[solar marsh]

Yep

[placid folio]

well no

i mean i get to be boss

[solar marsh]

Work at a small shop

[placid folio]

wht shop

[solar marsh]

I wish i had more siblings tbh

[placid folio]

thts nice

[solar marsh]

Maybe then i wont feel so lonely

[placid folio]

i wish i could work

[solar marsh]

Its literally full of random things

[placid folio]

dw
if u ever feel lonely ill be there to talk with on discord i men

mean

[placid folio]

must be fun

[solar marsh]

From toys, to food to undergarments etc

Nah its quite boring

[placid folio]

oh thts good

[placid folio]

ok mb

[solar marsh]

Not many customers

[placid folio]

so thts how ur on discord rn

[solar marsh]

Ty 🙏😭

[solar marsh]

Yep

[placid folio]

but i wont be online all the time
tryign to limit my discord time
but whenever iam ill be at ur service as a friend

[solar marsh]

Im just doing this job to pass time

Cuz summer break

[placid folio]

i would too

[placid folio]

ik 3 freaking months

[solar marsh]

Thats very nice of u 😭🙏 i appreciate

[placid folio]

its alright

[solar marsh]

Nah we get like 37 days

But for me yes

[placid folio]

i honestly feel much better afetr talking to u

[placid folio]

oh like in srilanka

[solar marsh]

Cuz i finished IGCSC exams in june so i get more than 3 months of break till A level or university

[placid folio]

so dont be too thankful its helping me aswell

[placid folio]

me too

im gonna do as inshallah

AS

[solar marsh]

Same Insha Allah

What does AS really mean tho

I never understood it

[placid folio]

i dont really know
its like a level divided into 2

[solar marsh]

So then I'll be thankful

[placid folio]

to make things easier

[solar marsh]

Rlly?

We have just A level here

[placid folio]

ok ur being too nice❤️

[solar marsh]

In my country

No AS or A2

[placid folio]

oh well here it different
but srilanka does it like here tbh

we have as then al

[solar marsh]

Rlly

[placid folio]

yes

[solar marsh]

It sounds kinda complicated

I mean i dont fully understand what university is either tbh

[placid folio]

well

uni is where u go to learn

the field u chose

more detailed tbh

learn stuff relevant to ur ambition and not just general stuff like at school

[solar marsh]

Hmmm

[placid folio]

dude weve been texting for over 40 mins

[solar marsh]

Woah

[placid folio]

look at how fast time flew

[solar marsh]

Dang

[placid folio]

ikr

[solar marsh]

Its nice tbh

I got someone to talk to 🥹

[placid folio]

yeah really nice\

[placid folio]

well im here if u want to

[solar marsh]

Youve made a new friend

[placid folio]

u can dm me if u want when im offlone and ill respond whenver ive got the time to

[placid folio]

thankyou

[solar marsh]

Yos and im here for u too

[placid folio]

thanks

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to not_a_single_soul#0

[solar marsh]

Ive sent u a fr

[placid folio]

wow i literally wish it was green in ur place texting me like tht and not u
no offence but u get wht i mean

[placid folio]

oh ok

[solar marsh]

Mm yeah i get it

[placid folio]

accepted

[placid folio]

dont take it the wrong way

[solar marsh]

🥹

[placid folio]

i just said tht

[solar marsh]

Its fine dww

[placid folio]

ok

[solar marsh]

I totally understand how u feel

Cuz i think the same too sometimes

[placid folio]

u do

[placid folio]

well it isnt really healthy

so try to keep things real

thts what im trynna do

focus on my fam and studies

[solar marsh]

Yeah when someone was comforting me last year, i wished someone else who was very dear to me were saying what that someone was saying to me

[placid folio]

yeah true

i feel tht rn

[solar marsh]

Yep i need to focus on fam more tbh

[placid folio]

u should its very rewarding

mentally physicall and spiritually

[solar marsh]

Yeah my dad gave me a wholeass lecture about how i should respect family more

[placid folio]

wow mine too 4 days ago

[solar marsh]

And ive been thinking a lot about my actions ever since that

[placid folio]

wht actions

bad actions or smthng

[solar marsh]

I would say its bad... I have a very bad habit of talking back to my mom

[placid folio]

my dads lecture was directed ontomy bro tbh
my bro is quick tempered

[placid folio]

oh

[solar marsh]

I have a very short temper

[placid folio]

i stopped tht

a long time ago

[solar marsh]

Lucky

How'd u manage to do that?

[placid folio]

if u read the vent u prolly know how my temper is

[placid folio]

i told myself its not worth it

i mean has it evr helped me

no

[solar marsh]

Amazing amount of self control

[placid folio]

it just makes us both feel bad

[placid folio]

thankyou

[solar marsh]

Maybe i should think like that too

[placid folio]

thts how im trynna move on after the break up tbh

[solar marsh]

Yeah it rlly isnt work talking back to my mom

[placid folio]

it really helps ngl

[solar marsh]

Its just gonna cause more heartache for my mom

[placid folio]

ik it never is
u just sin

make her sad

[solar marsh]

Yeah

[placid folio]

or mad

and then feel bad urself

not worth it

[solar marsh]

True

[placid folio]

i do exactly everything to please her

like all the chores

im not telling u to do tht

but then im on her good side

[solar marsh]

No i really should do more chores

[placid folio]

i just do normal stuff

[solar marsh]

I need to wale up early

[placid folio]

like watch tv

or study/discord

[solar marsh]

I'm not rlly a TV person

[placid folio]

and she wont mind

or take breaks

[solar marsh]

Hmmm

[placid folio]

yt on tv imean\

[solar marsh]

My mom doesn't wanna do anything with me

But

[placid folio]

thts a start

[solar marsh]

She'll do stuff with my sister

[placid folio]

then start from someday and the key is regularity
not just once but often

[placid folio]

dude ur sietrs 7

thts why

[solar marsh]

Hmmm

[placid folio]

she didnt even live a decade

tbh

ik how u feel

[solar marsh]

But it kinda makes me feel invisible in my own family tho

[placid folio]

ive got a 7yr old sis aswell

[placid folio]

i do too

[solar marsh]

Yeah thats true

[placid folio]

but then agian

its alright

i love my sis

and between u and me shes my fav sibling

[solar marsh]

Maybe that's my problem

I dont really like my sister

She was born a month after my previous sister died

[placid folio]

wth

dont ever say tht

[placid folio]

oh

im so sorry to hear tht

[solar marsh]

Its fine ig

[solar marsh]

And yeah i shouldn't be saying that

[placid folio]

when u grow up
ur friends or other elatives wont be by you

nomatter what they do or say

but ur siblings will always have ur back

[solar marsh]

In total i actually have 3 siblings but only one is alive rn

[placid folio]

dont

that aint good

[placid folio]

oh am so sorry

[solar marsh]

Thats literally what my dad told me 😭

[placid folio]

ive never faced that

[placid folio]

well thts true

my siblings no matter how annoying

will always have my back

[solar marsh]

Alhamdhulillah and hopefully you wont have to face it any time soon

[placid folio]

there is this
song for sibling

listen toit on yt

[solar marsh]

Thats a nice way of thinking

[placid folio]

the thumbnail is like an animated sister strangling the throat of her bro

[placid folio]

thankyou

[placid folio]

it the truth

even my love green
gave up on me

so ive got to face it

theyre always gonna be contant in my life

[solar marsh]

Ouch i feel bad for u tbh

[placid folio]

why

im just dealing with it rn dw

[solar marsh]

Tbh idk how to be around young people

Like people younger than 10

I find it very uncomfortable

Im not good with kids either

[placid folio]

i wanna beg him to think twicce and ge back
but i dont wanna be tht desperate
since he broke up
and not me
its not like i can not accept a break uo right

[solar marsh]

I cant bring myself to go "googoo gaagaa" and "you're such a cute baby, aww yess u aree"

[placid folio]

well im a loavble person sokids love me

[placid folio]

no i dont do tht

im a sarcastic person in real life

someone filled with dark jokes

[solar marsh]

Maybe kids find me to be too ugly to like me 😭

[placid folio]

but then again

[placid folio]

wth

im not that pretty tbh

im just avg

[solar marsh]

Maybe he will think twice

Just give it some time

[placid folio]

dont say tht to urself

dont disscourage urself

[solar marsh]

Idk man im not that likeable

I couldn't keep friends for more than 3 years

[placid folio]

idk
i should get my mind of him
maybe the vaca will help

[placid folio]

ok same

i moved countries

schools

[solar marsh]

Yeah Insha Allah it will help u

[placid folio]

so i get you

[placid folio]

yeah hopefully

[solar marsh]

Nono , thats not why i cant keep friends

[placid folio]

ok 5 more mins and ill leav e

[placid folio]

then

why]

[solar marsh]

I'm an awfully negative person, rlly dramatic and i get jealous very easily

Which is rlly bad ik

[placid folio]

ok we all have tht

but ths not the only qualities u have right

so dont let them dominate

[solar marsh]

My ex friends started going places and hanging out without me

[placid folio]

my besties literlaly text without me

[solar marsh]

Yeah i felt kinda left out

[placid folio]

but its alright

i felt left out ot

were a trio

and the last day of school

[solar marsh]

So i confronted them abt it and they didn't like it

[placid folio]

i got em both gifts

one of them was so happy

the other just said this
why r u giving me a gift
i was supposed to give the other bestie a gift not you

it broke me

like idc if she doesnt give me anything
but why tell me

and not just thank me

right

[placid folio]

oh ive gone through tht

[solar marsh]

Yeah thats just sounds

Horrible

[placid folio]

ik

but time heals these stuff

ik and believe

tht

obviously we cant erase memories

but we canlive past them

[solar marsh]

Well atleast you dont live right next to Ur besties

[placid folio]

and maybe make better memorie

[placid folio]

oh ok thts a bummer

[solar marsh]

I live right next to one of those ex friends

[placid folio]

but i live waling distance from one of the besties

iyeah i didnt let thts issue get to me

she still my bestie

not ex or nthng

yeah im left out of the texting

[solar marsh]

We are Ex friends now

[placid folio]

but thts alright

[solar marsh]

I left the friend grp

[placid folio]

oh

[placid folio]

i feel bad for u
but only u know how u felt

[solar marsh]

They dont make eye contact with me and they pretend i dont exist when they see me

Ig thats normal

[solar marsh]

Yeah i guess so

[placid folio]

ik how tht feels

like in 5th and 6th grade

i was one of 3 girls in my class

[solar marsh]

Dang

[placid folio]

and the 2girls sit to gether and talk and stuff

im alone

only friends i had then were guys

and my bro obviously

[solar marsh]

Thats still pretty great tbh

[placid folio]

wth it doesnt look greta

[solar marsh]

I dont have a single guy friend irl

[placid folio]

i mean a girl besti could hug you and share a lot more with

but my guy friends
i will never be there bestie

i dont want to

[placid folio]

i dont anymore

its not good

thta was before i hit puberty anyways

so it was fine

[solar marsh]

Yeah i used to have a lot of guy friend before i hit puberty too

[placid folio]

see u get me

but they a lot more fun tbh

ngl

[solar marsh]

Yeah

[placid folio]

anyways ive got to leave now
bye

[solar marsh]

We used to make things out of rubber bands

Fun times

[placid folio]

oh nice

[solar marsh]

Okay bye

[placid folio]

we used to play truth or dare

[solar marsh]

Guess we'll talk later

[placid folio]

yeah sure

[solar marsh]

Or some other time

[placid folio]

thankyou

[solar marsh]

Bye now

[placid folio]

they mean the same but ok

[placid folio]

ur afraid of losing ones u love or smthng arent u

[solar marsh]

Yeah

Iam

[low aurora]

Why is AH so hated when Mao Zedong was way worse?

[hazy dagger]

that's life man

u gotta cope

[low aurora]

Nah man that's just American propaganda

[hazy dagger]

(idk what u were talking about)

[low aurora]

Tianamen

[hazy dagger]

real

[low aurora]

Nvm nothing happened

[hazy dagger]

y u talking about that in venting tho lmao

let the delusionals vent

In peace

[unreal shadow]

When work gets hard hard to the point I become Karl Marx or something

Full on commie mode

😔😔😔

[oak smelt]

Gay best friend 👌🏻

[placid folio]

yeah i figured

[placid folio]

wth were different genders so not good

thts why

[placid folio]

did u mean me by "dilusional"

[oak smelt]

But u can hug them without worrying

About love

Friendship!!!

[placid folio]

wth
ths major haram

ok ill leave u with ur thoughts

but no

i was friends with them b4 not now anyways

[placid folio]

and if u do i advice u not to
its not good

[oak smelt]

i mean

i dont really see a problem and so is he

but i respect your religion

so i wont push that idea

[placid folio]

oh ok sorry mb

[placid folio]

thankyou

[placid folio]

i didnt know
but its alright for you ig

[oak smelt]

we're jsut emotional people lol

i want to hug someone when im happy

[placid folio]

yeah

u have chronic depression

[oak smelt]

it comes and goes

[placid folio]

oh thts nice

[oak smelt]

never really left but never really bother me

[placid folio]

i mean its fine if it doesnt bother u

[oak smelt]

hope it wont be in my way when it matters tho

[placid folio]

yeah

i feel u

my body gives up on me whenevr im too emotional

[oak smelt]

true

i just feel like collasping

[placid folio]

i lose weight

[oak smelt]

whenever shit get too much

[placid folio]

oh i dont

[oak smelt]

and i lose weight

[placid folio]

same

[oak smelt]

sheeesh

[placid folio]

my fam didnt notice

today my neighbour was like

whats wrong

what happened to u

and are u dieting

im like wth

she identified theres smthng wrong in my life and not my own fam

[oak smelt]

hey at least i can be like

• yo how did you get so thin
• depression ✨
• your skin look so clear
• tears ✨

[placid folio]

i thought u do aswell

[placid folio]

yeah ...lol

but no

im not a fan of this

but yeah atleast

ig

[oak smelt]

ye it will get better later on

i found out that i love my family more when im not with them 24/7

not that i depite them

[placid folio]

oh

[oak smelt]

but i want to experience things on my own

[placid folio]

ik i love them

didnt have to find tht out

[placid folio]

well then go for it
if its good for u

[oak smelt]

ye i live alone now

[placid folio]

oh

[oak smelt]

visits my parents on the weekend

[placid folio]

i dont think ill ever face tht

cuz me and my bro in the same grade

so even if we go for higher studies well be 2gthr

[oak smelt]

ye being alone is scary but the perks is hey you're alone now

• taylor swift

[placid folio]

was tht lyrics

[oak smelt]

being scared of the unknown is normal but the freedom to explore it is extraordinary

[placid folio]

true

very

[oak smelt]

no it was her speech at some uni

[placid folio]

oh

i write songs myself

[oak smelt]

ooo

[placid folio]

even wrote one for green

[oak smelt]

if u dont mind, can i see them lol

just got into musics recently

[placid folio]

sure
in dms

my friends would figure me out

otherwise

[oak smelt]

relatable

[placid folio]

oh thts nice ig

[oak smelt]

well its more like i started piano lessons

[placid folio]

i dont wanna get doxxed

[oak smelt]

but its a first step ig

[placid folio]

oh

i make songs

[oak smelt]

your secret is safe with me :>

[placid folio]

ill brb
ive got to do smthng

[placid folio]

thankyou

[hazy dagger]

no it's with an e

[placid folio]

i didnt get u
but ok

[torn yarrow]

the fact that they corrected you, but the opposite 💀

[solar marsh]

Delusional

Im getting shamed by my cousin cux i listen to a genre of music that she absolutely hates

I dont go around shaming her type of music but, she has the audacity to shame me for listening to a type of music that she doesn't like

So annoying

[placid folio]

so diff peep have diff likes and dislikes

[placid folio]

thts great and u dont have the rights to shame her

and neither does she tbh

just ignore her

she doesnt seem nice enough to accept u for yourself so just leave it

[solar marsh]

Yeah im just ignoring her

But shes my favourite cousin and i couldn't believe she shamed me

Shes so immature

[solar marsh]

I can see that now

[hazy dagger]

💀💀💀

we got some amazing brains on this server

[placid folio]

well ive gone thru tht from a fav cousin but now i literally dont care
we speak and do stuuf f togeteher when we meet ig
but dont really bother too much bout her assigning the favourite position anymore

[placid folio]

yeah

[torn yarrow]

😂

[wintry rampart]

can't believe that my mother's scolding me for simply being sick

it's not like that i'm superman and become immune to disease

jesus fucking christ

this is why i never tell her that i caught the colds

cause she'll emotionally abuse and berate me

for becoming a superspreader or something

[unreal shadow]

Dawg my mother got angry at me once cause i was drinking water

[wintry rampart]

damn

[unreal shadow]

I couldn’t help but just laugh

It’s allg though it was funny

[wintry rampart]

i guess she's being concerned, but her wording makes it seem like she's intimidating

thanks for trying to get me to realize that i wasn't being intimidated

[solar marsh]

Man

[past tide]

what genre

[solar marsh]

I dont feel like sharing cux i dont wanna get shamed again

[past tide]

yeah youre right, if it was a genre i didnt like i was going to side with your cousin

[solar marsh]

Thats just cruel.. atleast to me

[solar marsh]

Damn

[placid folio]

dude dont let pplget the ,most of u

dont be ashamed tht wht im sayig

[solar marsh]

Hhhh i guess so

Im too sensitive

[placid folio]

maybe

but dont let it get the best of you

[oak smelt]

Realizing im almost 25 and thats when the brain stops developing so this dumb bitch might be the final product

[inner rune]

wait

brothe

r

i thought u were like

20

or liek

21

YOUR 25????????????????????????????????????

[oak smelt]

Im 18

[inner rune]

thank

good

ness

i mean

thank lahore

[oak smelt]

But like 7 years still sound

Close

As hell

I blinked once and now im out of highschool

[placid folio]

wait youre almost 25

[placid folio]

oh nvm sorry

[spice geyser]

I hate my life 😿💔

[mild compass]

Why musashi?

[unreal shadow]

Same

[placid folio]

why

[placid folio]

u too
im so sorry

bout tht

[rough holly]

why? ( but same)

[mild compass]

Life is an experience.

You search for happiness where you can get it even now. But its kept in a way that "only after I get this. I will get happy". Anxiety sadness are all labelled as bad for us. But they are all part of you. Welcome it. When you say no to it that makes you suffer.

Talk to people.

[spice geyser]

Thanks jensen

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to jensen4692#0

[mild compass]

Belcome

[mild compass]

How the world is!

[frank mango]

I made a mistake and solved it

But in THE SAME DAY

Made the same mistake again and can't resolve it

Fuck me

I feel like a dissappointment

And it's all because of carelessness

I'm literally just a burden to my family at this point

I'm careless and never think before I leap

[low aurora]

Amogus

[frank mango]

Venting 100

[daring moth]

I cant eat😔

[oak smelt]

Eat 👍

Jk

But why tho

[wintry rampart]

i honestly don't know how to break free from a people-pleasing personality

i know that my mother's years of emotional abuse, under the guise of "teaching me a life lesson" is a contributory factor

to such development

[oak smelt]

Anxiety stems from too much freedom

Oke thing that helped me with my people pleasing tendencies was

“Let them”

Everytime u sit there and think to yourself what if they do x y z

let them

[wintry rampart]

i know that the reason why me and my group got a lot of critique for an economics paper was due to letting them do the parts that they chose to do

i just feel the accountability that i have as a "de facto leader" or smth

i didn't blame them

[oak smelt]

Thats what im trying to say, theres no responbilities

[wintry rampart]

i could not blame them

nor myself

[oak smelt]

Ur putting all these expecations on what a perfect friend should be

Instead of asking yourself what are u giving up

[wintry rampart]

self-care

i've lost my sense of self-care just sacrificing everything for that paper

[wintry rampart]

i must get these expectations out of my head

[glossy pewter]

Being a people pleaser is an endless cycle of self hatred which isnt healthy at all and to break free from such a curse is to keep in mind that
“Everyone is living their own lives and always mind their own business” so you should do the same and try living your own life and try pleasing yourself

[glossy pewter]

This must have been harsh and extremely hurtful but if it continues to linger in your heart forever it wont do much good for you so try forgetting and forgiving your mom yes thats really hard to forgive someone who has hurt you but if you do forgive and move on am sure you will feel way better

[wintry rampart]

me and her are reconciling, going as far as working together to help my brother thrive as an individual

[wintry rampart]

well, i get that everyone has their lives to live and the only shit i do to please myself was to take photos of cars in assetto corsa

outside of stu(dying)

[solar marsh]

Uhhh

Uhhh

Uhhhhhh

Uhhhhuhhhhhh

Uhhhhhhhhhhh

uhhhhhhHHHHHhhhh

UhhhHhhhhHhhhhHhhhhHhhHHHHhhhh

[deep sluice]

[glossy pewter]

Ik you like taking car pics 😂 i have been in this server long enough to know you love doing that tbh and am sure over time you will find other stuff that make you happy just like taking photos

[frank mango]

Shove a plate in your arse then

[wintry rampart]

i'm sure that taking photos of cars is one of the many other things that are pleasing to me

although i'll admit, i may have generalized my stress response from an economics paper to my entire life

[oak smelt]

Ohh

Sorry i completely misunderstood your situation

Im guessing u got randomized into a group

My way around bad teamates is to clearly assign what each person do and contribute to the porject

Project

If their part got criticized its their fault and its easier to identify what went wrong and how to improve

But if u have the chance to pick your own group then try to look for the nerd people ig. This sound heartless but some friends are just meant to be goofing around with us not working

Doesnt mean u guys arent close just your work ethics differ from eachother

Dont gotta guilt trip yourself into picking your best friends only for u to do all the work

[oak smelt]

Ahem got reminded of this so imma vent it out before i spiral again

So back in 8th grade there was this kid in class who would usually get bullied for being fat and ances all that shit

One time i got paired with him to do a group project and found out he was not that bad just bad hygiene 💀

The bullying kept getting worse tho and one day he got beat up and was moved to the ER

I found out and next day i tried to beat those bullies

also ended up in the ER

He saw that and was blaming himself for a while

I was honestly too hurt to keep up so i told him to please leave me alone

|| he got on the roof of the hospital and jumped down that day||

I was moved to a psychatrist for constant mental health check up for a few months later

I mean i thought i was over it but ig it came back now even tho its been 5 years 💀

[lament cloud]

Oh shit

I'm so sorry you had to go through that

[placid folio]

i get you

moving countries and changing schools
losing a lot of loved ones(and i dont mean green here but him too)
it broke me

i was shattered

and literally took anti depressants

thts why sometimes i just cant take the trolling on discord

i only had anxiety
thts wht i was diagnosed with

and now coping and rembering the stuff i kept closed just affect me a lot

like even when me and green broke up
but good news
ive successfully moved on
i found out hes relieved i stopped bothering him
so tbh im just hurt
and dont think wed ever get thoether

but thts not the thng

[placid folio]

what i wanted to say was @oak smelt i feel u
i went thru the same sit
i got sent to principal
slapped and kicked and literally fought with 3 guys for bullying my oversized bestie
my parents still dont know

so yeah

bad times are a part of life

and some people easily move on while others like me for example take time
but then again the perks of this
is tht
i get really good memory
sometimes photographic memory
and yeah it disrupts my concentration but
again

like greenfalcon and valentino and standard deviation male told me
this is all experience
i will get over it
i will oneday be able to get over all the dreadful things ive gone thru
its a part of life

and sometimes nomatter what waealth or luxury or peeps ive got around me
i cant tell them
it hurts even more
fortunately ive got this
to vent out
it really helps

ok im done for now

oh and tht oversized bestie she moved countries and we never spoke after

[placid folio]

ik

thankyou

green was never my only prob and boys never my priority

[glossy pewter]

Omg am so sorry you had to go through that it must have hurt you a lot man just dont blame yourself for what happened

[placid folio]

i exist too
but now i stopped caring so its ok
it helps to stop caring

[oak smelt]

ty for the kind words guys

[placid folio]

any time

[cold quiver]

how do i deal with jealously i always get jealous somehow when my friends become more popular than me its just so annoying and idk how to deal with it

[wintry rampart]

well, yes, but actually, one of my groupmates has only had one groupmate and whomever got left out was grouped as the last group

[spice geyser]

Too much of the word group in that sentence

[spice geyser]

Ig with maturity it should fix

[placid folio]

just tell yourself that everyone gets their time to shine
life is like a cycle and everyone gets a turn
dont waste time gettiong jealous at their victories now
use tht as fuel to encourage you to make you more victorious
and sometimes your friends would never be jealous but happy for you
which couldreally change this

[fleet steppe]

Trust me i have been there, its fine totally . You will have your day too

[obtuse vector]

ugh wth was i even saying

[solar marsh]

Gurl you got PTSD or smth?

[cunning geode]

everyone else sat them online bruh what the fuck id that its not fair the dumbest fucking ppl in my grade got like 8a*s they dont know shit

bcs during that time my school was like siwtching from online to offline

i xant fo this shit bro fuck this

im so smart bro i pronise my grades dont show that though

i work so mf hard

im confident ih my ability to get 3A*s

bro and im applying for med too fuckthis i know i cant mf blame anyone but ughh

i wirked my ass off for as levels

and they arent even gonna be used

ive asked

unis

ive emailed them prhey said they use gcse only

bro fuck rhsi

i want to kms

everyone expecting me to get into med abtoad but its litterally fucking impossible so many people have been feeding into my delusions

i have the work experience i have the personal statement im sitting the ucat next month i know i can do it now but my gcses are the only thing holding me back

bro my as grades sre litterally preiccted 4As

[safe kernel]

what did you get for your gcses

My igcses got cancelled last year due to covid so we had school assessed grades. They were going to use our mock grades that we had a few months before igces but since everyone did bad in mocks, they decided to keep another mock exam in the month of boards. Then the mock exams were going to be checked by the teachers and sent to Cambridge in the form of a portfolio.

[cunning geode]

they didnt do that for me

my portfolio was like 80-90

my maths portfolio was literally 100

i got full mark

and i got an A 💀

my biology i got 80 portfolio

and i got a B

like it doesnt make any sense bro

[cunning geode]

i did portfolio but they didnt give us a chance to change our portfolio

so everyone who sat online movks got 90-100

ppl who sat offline got worse

i got 2A* 3A 3B 💀💀💀

not a single med school is gonna accept me with those grades

any major will not accept me with those grades

its not fair bro i deserve to get better grades but my parents didnt let me resit because it was too expensive

im literally smarter than the kids in my school who got 7-8 A*s

literally doesnt even make sense

[oak smelt]

Bro ur stressing too hard

Mostly british uni want tripple A*

The rest make use with A B B

Or even B B C

U can even apply for health science in uni and transfer your cedit over to med

[cunning geode]

they shortlist for interview based on gcse and ucat only

💀💀💀

im so done

one of my seniors got like 5a* and 2700 ucat and got rejected from all 5

bro if i get rejected from all im going to kill myself this is not a joke i am being for real

i need this so bad

[safe kernel]

Aren't those good gcse grades

Also I've heard gcses don't really matter it's more about your a level grades

[safe kernel]

What does that mean

Honestly I don't know how gcses work. I gave my igcses

[safe kernel]

What do you mean by change your portfolio

Only the school makes your portfolio. They can't show it to you lol

A portfolio of exam mocks taken by the student is made by the teachers

And sent to Cambridge

[unreal shadow]

what the fuck lol

first of all

dont compare yourself

with anyone

second of all idk if you believe in god, but if you do then know that god will always ensure that your work doesn't go to waste

and you will be rewarded for it sooner or later

just be patient

apart from that

your igcse grades are good lol

all of that aside

dont unis more weight on A level grades lol

or im sure it varies at least

like some put more weight/consider A level grades more strongly than IGCSE grades

if not even completely disregard IGCSE even

and all of that aside once again

the only option you have now

is do well in A levels

and get a great score in the UCAT or wtv

[cunning geode]

no they do weigh on a levels its just that my gcses are not good enough to even get me an interview or get shortlisted

the acerage applicant has like 10a*s or something crazy like that esp since its internationalnugh i wanna retake my igcses so bad ill get so good i promise 😭

[safe kernel]

Wth

I didn't even know I could take 10 subjects when I was in igcse lmao

I only took 8 igcse subjects

And 5 a levels

[deep sluice]

FIVE

Mashallah brother

[placid folio]

idk tbh

[oak smelt]

IKR

4 got me wanting to sign up to the local asylum already

let alone 3 A2

[solar marsh]

👁️👄👁️ i guess I'm failing in life then because tHERE IS NO WAY I'll get even a single A*

I'd be so effing happy even if i get 1 A*

[oak smelt]

dw getting A for ESL is ez

[jovial igloo]

I did bad for AS. My results are coming out on the 10th and I'm freaking out. I'm going to do great for business, have mediocre marks for english literature and fail both computer science papers. I feel like a failure, pursuing A2 seems pointless. Can somebody tell me if there's still hope or have I dug myself a hole?

[olive wadi]

i was in a much much worse place than you and pulled myself back up , so its very very possible , what i'd advice is to just calm down and wait for ur results , if its as bad as you guessed then you sit down and grind it out for oct/nov and retake it there easy as that , if you are too stressed to wait for results i suggest starting to study for comp sci from now since u assume ur gonna fail that one , this way u will be too busy to stress over it and worst case u would of done some revision :) theres always hope my friend , you just gotta sit and think how to fix things

[mild compass]

i dont think so

in my country u send ur expected grades instead of actual A2 grades

and u get accepted

before giving ur finals

so imo igcse is more important here

[lament cloud]

No

In that case AS grades would be relevant

As well as predicted A2 scores

[slate sky]

Tbh the only IGCSE grade that’s important is the grade u scored in IGCSE maths (since most university courses with any math in them build onto IGCSE maths concepts) and IGCSE English/Native language of the country Uni is in or the the language Uni teaches in

For everything else, it’s all based on how well u scored in your AS

If u did AS maths, they will disregard your IGCSE maths grade and look at how well u performed at AS maths

[mild compass]

lol

nope\

we give AS and A2 together

in A2's year

[slate sky]

Oh ok that’s interesting

Idts many schools do that and it’s usually private candidates that do this

[mild compass]

our school got good comms

with many unis

so the expected grade we send are considered authentic

ofc sending mid terms and finals results

[solar marsh]

Someone pls come find me and kill me

I'll send you my address and pay you all the money i have just to kill me

🥹

[solar marsh]

Ah

I have no form of internet banking

I can only give the money in person

[real junco]

and why do you want this

[solar marsh]

Duh

Cuz i wanna de

Die

[late thorn]

im assuming she is terrified of the results

[real junco]

yes why do you want to die 😐

[deep sluice]

Ill join in if u share money

[glossy pewter]

Wait a week am sure your parents will do that deed for free

[deep sluice]

Im on my way then

[solar marsh]

😂 lmfao

[solar marsh]

Hmmm nah, I'd rather get killed by strangers than by my own parents

Nah you have to come to my address to kill me.. I'll send my address

[solar marsh]

Aight

[mild compass]

anyone know how cambridge works? - registeration

it would be a big help if someone knows the answer to this
i wrote AS math ( paper1 and mechanics) but i kinda messed it up so im trying to rewrite AS components at the same time when im writing A2 papers, which is this nov.

im not carrying forward any AS math marks, simply demolishing and writing a whole component at one sitting, is that considered as a resit? or can i simply type option code BY (12,32,42,52) to the exam registeration.

Im a homeschooler, so it would really be appreciated if someone could help with this.

[warm oxide]

Yes u can apply again but u need to do both As papers again

[solar marsh]

I actually want to die now

Im not even being sarcastic anymore

I dont think some discord bot can help me-

Its useless

[fleet igloo]

oh i agree

some people give rlly terrible advice

at least theyre trying ill give them that

[placid folio]

block koko thts wht i did

[solar marsh]

May as well do that

[cunning geode]

yess its considered a retake

if u sat as this june and are taking full a level this november its considered a retake

[mild compass]

i didnt sat in june, i sat in last year nov

[wintry rampart]

welp, one egghead politician in my country says that "killing invaders and dying for the country" is more patriotic than helping each other

given that my country has beef with china, idk what will happen

but fuel the 31 million gullible vermin to become sinophobic

while turning the current generation into a puppet army

how the hell can i migrate to somewhere more peaceful like europe or japan?

[halcyon hollow]

I have uni brother ain’t that free anymore lmao

[restive bridge]

unfortunate 🙏 but congratulations on starting uni bro how is it

[unreal warren]

nicee how is it

u alone or with parents

[halcyon hollow]

it was great, but already starting to become stressful

[halcyon hollow]

it was good

[halcyon hollow]

with my parents

[restive bridge]

:O good luck man

[unreal warren]

lucky

[unreal warren]

nervous?

[halcyon hollow]

Thanks

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to thegeagle#0

[halcyon hollow]

Yeah, a lot

Don’t know what to expect lmao

[unreal warren]

https://www.instagram.com/reels/CvhDsf1o9XJ/

[unreal warren]

ic

hope mine goes well

[halcyon hollow]

good luck bro

[halcyon hollow]

🤣

[unreal shadow]

nothing better than sending an email and then them replying without even reading it

like what's the fucking point omfg

[glossy pewter]

Nothing better than spending 1 hour to craft the most official email i have ever written using superb vocabulary and not receive a reply for over a month

But ik they read it

[cunning geode]

this is gonna make me sound so mf annoying but i got 3As in bio chem phys AS none of them are 90+ pum like tbh im disappointed in myself bcs i was so confident in 90 pum esp for bio or physics but i just thought it was me being irrational and setting too high goals for myself which happens alot !! so when i showed my parents my grades i was expecting like congrats or like for them to be proud of me or some shit but they didnt lol 😂😂😂😂they told me to retake until i get 90 pum 😂😂😂😂 like ik i am disappointed in myself but i just want someone to like tell me that they r proud of me for working hard and getting those grades ugh theyre all so close to 90 too (88 for all of them) like i get its my fault for not studying harder but still i just want 2 feel like my hard work actually paid off and wasnt for nothing

[turbid garden]

You’re pretty amazing for what you got honestly

I think the bar was quite high for As this year compared to other years

So honestly I think you did pretty great

High expectations are good but not at the expence of shattering your self-confidence honestly

Girl you did great!

[severe bear]

man i can relate, my parents reaction was pretty much the same bbut they told some more stuff

but 3 A ?

that's really good

its not easy to get

be happy

dont be demotivated

hopefully after A2 all of themm will be 90+ pum

[unreal shadow]

Not to be rude but wtf do they want then

You got the highest grade possible lol

So congratulations, fair play

Now try your best in A2

PUM really isn’t a big deal

It really doesn’t matter

[slate sky]

Man I am so stressed over mocks and then oct nov exams coming up. After trying so hard, I only improved by 4% 😭 in my resit for AS maths and am extremely worried about missing my conditional offer

[placid folio]

guys remebr i said i was making a cv
applied for a job
didnt even want the job at first but liked it
the employer was the one who begged to apply for the job
so finally agreed
and was actually looking forward to the job
but now its 2months and the employer has said nothing bout it
like fr
the employer made my hopes really high

[placid folio]

did you ever take a break and try
cuz usually i stress out and get over worked up
like last min papers i did during ig didnt go too well
so i took a nap following advice from z notes tbh
and yeah i checked again and i was good

dont let this small increase in % scare you
cuz atleast you increased
just work harder
consitently
but nver over work

[slate sky]

Thanks I will try that

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to student ig#0206

[slate sky]

Tbh I have study breaks before and they usually made me regret the time I spent on breaks

Cause I thought that that time could have been better spent elsewhere

[placid folio]

sure anytime

[placid folio]

i tend to reward myself with breaks

after an allocated time spent on studying well
not wasting time and studying i mean

[solar marsh]

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[fleet igloo]

same

[solar marsh]

Real

[spice geyser]

Hate my life

[severe bear]

Why what's wrong

[spice geyser]

long journey of dissapointments

why do we have to live that long

to experience what

[severe bear]

Dw brother things will get better In Sha Allah
Be strong and be patient 💪

[spice geyser]

do things ever get better

[severe bear]

Yes

They do

Wait for it

Work for it

Pray for it

[placid folio]

i went through the history of my messages on discord
and the june and early july were wow
its stupid but i kinda miss that
asdfghjkl;.l,mnbvcfdertyuiol,mnbvcfdertyui
and like even went through texts where i was mentioned b4
and they r so sad
im not meaning where i was trolled and well joked
im meaning where i was liked and stuff..
eeesh imma stop
the nostalgia

[placid folio]

my sis woke up
and said she saw my results in her dream 4A* A B
and my mum kept saying astagfirullah astagfirullah
im scared man now im scared
i hope i did better than my siters dream

[kindred stone]

isnt that good?

what the hell

[solar marsh]

Bro I'd be so happy even if i got 1 A*

[spice geyser]

inshallah u will get straight A*S

[solar marsh]

I have a cousin who is 13 and talks to me like she a grownass adult and thinks she can boss me around

She had the audacity to call me an immature adult meanwhile, she doesn't even know what immature means.. like i didn't even say anything bad to her..
She said some stuff about an art class and i said "i dont get it" to something she said (i don't exactly remember what she said) and she said "Aww shes becoming an immature adult"... I just looked at her confused af

I felt kinda offended cuz shes younger than me and saying shit like that

Sure, i agree that i can be immature at times but being called immature by someone who is much less immature compared to me and someone i cared about and whose feelings i respect and all, just hurt and felt offensive

Yk what i should just brush this off and move on cux kids are mean and thats basically the most mature thing to do here

Ugh im starting to really find her annoying tho.. like, she wont leave me alone

[fleet steppe]

are you a guy or a girl

alright your about me cleared it out

what i would do in your place is

humble the cousin up

say random things which your cousin cant process

she will stop disrespecting you

[spice geyser]

one slap

[spice geyser]

what kinda mind games you playing xDD

[fleet steppe]

😂

game of life

[solar marsh]

Im a girl

[fleet steppe]

yeah i confirmed

[solar marsh]

Bro i wish! Her older brother is gonna come after my throat even though he's younger than me

[fleet steppe]

dont worry about it because she is a cousin

oh

do you have siblings

[solar marsh]

I have a sister

[fleet steppe]

team up

[spice geyser]

then just ignore her yk we all were immature annoying little cousins like her but we matured

[solar marsh]

My sis is below the age of 10

[fleet steppe]

Age was never the case

jokes aside

just ignore

you know how 13 year olds these days behave

[solar marsh]

Your prolly right.. imma ignore her and hopefully she matures like fine cheese and dont become rotten