venting

[compact helm]

where i live also, people don’t usually have pet cats

the thing is we live in very cramped houses and don’t have enough space to take care of a cat

nor do we have enough time for one

it’s not that we don’t love animals but rather don’t have time for them

[pastel night]

Yes yes, it's been around 7 years now 😅 and I also used to think I could never relate to anyone in terms of this craze but you'll be amazed how many people like us are out there!! Just never quit okay ✨

[winter skiff]

Yeah people are busy in their lives not many people care about these tiny beautiful creatures

[compact helm]

still i don’t understand how they say loving them is a waste of time

[winter skiff]

Oooooh wowwwww 7 years. Keep it up girl. I will also never quittt and no one can stop me from it.

[pastel night]

Yessss 🔥🔥

[winter skiff]

Semmm like I also can't resist if I see a pet.

[lament glacier]

@winter skiff @pastel night poetry?

[pastel night]

You too??

[lament glacier]

yes mam

[pastel night]

Awww

Ayyyyy

Yayy

[tardy lantern]

I love cats dont like writing poetry bcuz I dont have the paitaince ..... mad respect for the ppl who do but its rlly coool if u write poetry in my opinion

I ask that when someone says they have a cat.. but in a good way their so lucky my parents are afraid of them so we wont be gettign one any time soon 😭

[winter skiff]

Thanks 🙂

[winter skiff]

My mom slundered in front of my love for cats and my father he always take my side that's why 😅

[tardy lantern]

ur so lucky m8

[minor shard]

https://youtu.be/omveFR-2hmg

We guys who can never rhyme things, we appreciate ur poems. They show us the meaning of life when we reach a point where we forget what life even is. Don't care what others think, because there are a lot more who appreciate the art

[winter skiff]

Never underestimate yourself. If you try you can do wonders. Thank you so much for the kind words. I am glad that you also read or listen to poetry.
Thank you

[minor shard]

I don't search for them and read them but have a friend who writes beautiful poems and I read other poems if I stumble upon them but yeah they speak to u.

[winter skiff]

I just watched this video. It's really motivating.

[winter skiff]

Awww wow.

Thank you @minor shard

[minor shard]

Don't mention it

[wintry rampart]

i can't understand why my mother discourages me to pursue extracurricular activities

she always gave a shit about my grades more

with the false belief of "if you get the highest honors, the companies will line up to get you"

i fell for it too quick

but now i've decided to avoid peer pressure and pursue my current extracurriculars without anyone interfering

whenever i inform her that i'm involved in student orgs, she just says okay

when i get good grades, she congratulates me

this barred me from applying from any extracurricular activity, whether it'd be internships, part time work at small events or even a virtual photography career

[wintry rampart]

now, i had no choice but to motivate myself, the dark way by getting envious

[pastel night]

Listen! It's hard to convince parents at times ik that and just one advice, don't really tell them about your ECs from now on, maybe once in a while but try not to, you just do your own thing okay and It'll help you to not get insane because at one point you are gonna get mad for having to live like this just do your own thing, whenever she asks about what you're doing just make it up sth study related and continue doing what makes you happy

[wintry rampart]

ayt

i'v'e been actually doing that for about years now

and she seems to not mind

[wintry rampart]

although my subconscious feels that i should disappoint her in revenge for all the deception that she has done to me by simply doing more orgwork than academics (ie, simply passing any subjects that i have than getting dean's list)

so that she can manually know how necessary it is for organizational experience to be a more significant factor for getting a well-paid, balanced job in the future than a bunch of numbers that separate the stupid from the intellectuals

[wintry rampart]

i was feeling this crap for 3 years

and it slowly is straining me and my mother's trust

as i keep blaming her for being unsupportive

i feel that she expects me to be a tough guy cause "men don't cry" everytime she sees me cry, so, i act arrogant and spiteful of the world to follow that

[unreal shadow]

How old are you

[wintry rampart]

21

[unreal shadow]

There you go

You’re too old for your mother to still be telling you what to do and what not to do

[wintry rampart]

so, i live by my rules now

no peer pressure as she'll prolly just ruin me even further

into the person that i will become

[unreal shadow]

You should listen to her, and consider what she recommends you do, also understand that everything she’s telling you is with good intentions

That’s really important to keep your relationships with her healthy

Being your mother obviously she’s gonna have good intentions

However

Her view might be quite different from yours

[wintry rampart]

that's something that i'm trying to understand deeply

[unreal shadow]

It must be she grew up in an entirely different era

[wintry rampart]

cause if i take her suggestions into consideration rather than mope about being tied down, then, i could have started doing shit right by now

[pastel night]

You can let it go, you don't have to be sorry for leaving and growing up. It's okay, you're allowed to feel the way you are feeling right now but just a few more days till your life is gonna sky rocket and everything's gonna be better

[unreal shadow]

That’s what you should do

[wintry rampart]

that's what i was thinking. stuck in the 90s corporate culture and applying it to the 2020s.

[unreal shadow]

She wants what’s best for you

At the end of the day

Just make sure to always keep that in mind

She says it with good intentions

So don’t be spiteful

And consider what she tells you what to do

[wintry rampart]

although i admitted to her that she barely supported me as i had to let my negative emotions consume me just to get motivated

via text

instead of being given "words of wisdom from the 90s that actually mean something in the 2020s"

[unreal shadow]

It’s ok, that’s in the past now, it’s tough but it is what it is

[wintry rampart]

for sure. i'll be even grateful that i was able to take the initiative at this age by now without her help

[unreal shadow]

But you’re grown up now so you should try to be more independent and start building a better relationship with her

[mild compass]

👀

[wintry rampart]

instead of moping by my mid 20s on how i never had any work experience at college

[wintry rampart]

that's true

so, i start by applying for volunteer work at conventions by the next convention

[unreal shadow]

Sure

But again, make sure to consider what she says, there still may be truth in it

Or heck it may be even entirely true

[wintry rampart]

i'll consider about 20-50% of her "wisdom"

[mild compass]

What is going on in here?

🤔

[unreal shadow]

No, consider 100% of it, think about it and then decide

Don’t immediately disregard it

It will help you every single way

Perhaps make you see something you aren’t seeing

And

[wintry rampart]

if i were to do that, i'll become her

[unreal shadow]

It will help improve your relationship with her

[silver wasp]

Idk

🤔

[unreal shadow]

Considering it doesn’t mean executing it

[wintry rampart]

she wants me to learn chinese for the sake of business, i tell her no, as i plan to go big in my country

[mild compass]

Ig someone having relationship problem right?

[mild compass]

Here comes our therapist

[unreal shadow]

Just think about her idea

[silver wasp]

Merai sar mei dard hora hai 😭😭

[mild compass]

That is because you are too kind for this world

How about being evil? 😈

[wintry rampart]

well, i guess that i gotta avoid taking shit too perosnally then

especially from her mouth

[silver wasp]

رأسييييييي

[silver wasp]

Nooo

Lmao

Im too unbothered 😭

[mild compass]

Yess 😭

[silver wasp]

Lets go to #chat-lounge

[mild compass]

Okay

[wintry rampart]

well, i have the free will to use that as a partial influence for the future though

[unreal shadow]

Im not sure what she says to you exactly but ig so

[wintry rampart]

although to me, sometimes, it may be useless

[unreal shadow]

That’s fine if you deem it useless after thinking about it

What’s not fine however

Is to completely disregard it

Without thinking about it

[wintry rampart]

it's just that i can't let go of the past

if i started 3 years earlier, then i would have been somewhere more different compared to being a couch potato on his damn laptop all the time

[unreal shadow]

Well ill tell you this then

Unless you start now

In another 3 years it will be “had I started 6 years earlier…”

[unreal shadow]

What other choice you have

[wintry rampart]

well, i started this year

[silver wasp]

Exactly what I said ahh

[unreal shadow]

Dwell on it forever? You have to move on after a certain point

[wintry rampart]

so hopefully, this won't lead to regret

after 3 more years

[unreal shadow]

It won’t

Try your best

[wintry rampart]

for sure, it won't. i'll try working even harder to finally have the chance to correct my past mistakes that i've been crying about here for about a year

if not the chance, a guaranteed way

[unreal shadow]

Good, happy to see that you’re trying, good luck

[wintry rampart]

cause all i need is just to seal the mistakes away as soon as possible

then my depression generated from 2 years of envy could go away

[unreal shadow]

Your depression will even start to wither away as you notice change

• if you don’t do it already physical activity is great

Lift weights or play a sport

[wintry rampart]

i'll consider going to the gym

and perform workout routines thst my former boxing coach recommended me to do

[wintry rampart]

well, thank you, @unreal shadow, and @pastel night.

[royal umbra]

My mums a loser

[unreal shadow]

Nws

[wintry rampart]

mine's worse

a hypocrite who tries to shape me into being someone she wants me to become

[royal umbra]

I feel u

Same vibes

[wintry rampart]

allthough i'm standing up against her by letting her be a partial influence to my decisions

as i knew that the fear of her rejection to my actions was irrational

[royal umbra]

I have a question

Are you allowed to say shut up to your mum

[wintry rampart]

that'd be rude

[royal umbra]

I kinda have tht privilege

And I'm Indian as well

So it kinda helps with my venting

[bronze coyote]

lol

[real junco]

your mum might give you a few slaps then

[grave swift]

fr and your dad might even take yor innocence

[unreal shadow]

what🤣

[grave swift]

am i lying tho

[unreal shadow]

wdym by that

[grave swift]

hint - my back hurts

[unreal shadow]

got it

im not too sure tbh

[real junco]

damn i understand your strategy

nice way to deal with creeps

[mild compass]

Hii fia

[pastel night]

Hope this message finds everyone well!
We all have our battles, we are all fighting our demons and it's really dark at times but I assure you that there is a way out and everything will turn out to be fine 💖 There is light at the end of the tunnel, sometimes the journey to get there is very long but THERE IS A WAY OUT!! Please do not lose hope in yourself 🫶 Never stop believing in yourself and never give up on your hopes and dreams ❤️

[mild compass]

Ohh yayyyyyyy

Ty @pastel night

This was much needed

Ur so niceee

Always

Keep it, its rare

[pastel night]

Awww thank you!! You too!! 🫶

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Zaiddd…khan#8596

[winter skiff]

Thanks dear ♥️
You are such a rare gem.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to rfia#0408

[near juniper]

Do ppl actually vent ?

R we allowed

Confused

[compact helm]

as homo sapiens we are most certainly allowed to ventilate

no seriously why would this exist if we weren’t allowed to vent lmao

[near juniper]

😭Sorry

[pastel night]

Yess you can talk about anything that's bothering you as long as it's not nsfw ig

[pastel night]

Exactly

[near juniper]

Nsfw

What is that

[frank mango]

My height is bothering me

[compact helm]

why are you apologizing 😭 you don’t need to apologize for asking a question

[frank mango]

Even though it's average in my country 💀💀

[pastel night]

Not safe for work like Nudity etc

[compact helm]

yep basically, 18+ stuff

[frank mango]

5"7

[compact helm]

that’s a fine height

[frank mango]

What height are you

[near juniper]

Wait male or female height

Ur avatar and ur name confuses me

[compact helm]

bro i don’t even reach 5’

[pastel night]

If anything bothers you about your height remember you're talking to a 4'11 person here

[frank mango]

Unicorn 🌈

[compact helm]

AY SAME

[near juniper]

😳

[compact helm]

🙌

[frank mango]

But u aint a boy

[pastel night]

🥺

[frank mango]

💀💀💀

[near juniper]

5’7 for a guy is good

[compact helm]

yes shush our duty is to soothe ventors (?)

[frank mango]

Yeah I recently turned 17 last month too

[near juniper]

I mean half these ppl are reaching 5’ so to them ur 6’

Platform converse will help ur height

[pastel night]

See I know guys are made fun of cuz of their height and it's bothering but it's okay there's nothing to be ashamed about it!!! As long as you're happy with it it's okay if others make you wanna grow more then it's not okay

[near juniper]

Do u want unhelpful but helpful advice

Stretch int

Stretxhing*

[frank mango]

What does that mean

[near juniper]

They are converse but blocked

[compact helm]

is there a practical problem about being 5’7”?

[frank mango]

Yeah I'm planning to

[near juniper]

So unisex shoes

[frank mango]

Ayo bro what 💀

[near juniper]

Or shoe insoles

Plus u have a year left to groe

Grow

Actually no guys grow after 18

Only females stop at 18 yet I stopped at 16😭

[compact helm]

i genuinely wonder whether the problem is being tall or being short?? 5’7” is abnormal even for a male in my country 😭

me too 😢

[frank mango]

Which country?

[compact helm]

maldives

[frank mango]

Vietnam..?

Wait did you know I'm bangladeshi..

[compact helm]

A

[frank mango]

Ami offended hoy ni chill

No the average bangladeshi height is liie 5'6" to 5'7"

No and I myself never wanna be 6 feet tall

Tomar height ki?

[near juniper]

I am taller by 1 inch🥹

[compact helm]

all those 5-footers out there smh 😒😒

[near juniper]

Can I vent about something

Basically

[compact helm]

please continue

[silver wasp]

Yes many do lol

[frank mango]

Bro that's average for a bengali woman

[silver wasp]

This is prob the only channel you'll find alot of seriousness and paragraphs within

[near juniper]

I'm from England and moved to Pakistan 3 years ago I'm going back for holidays but when I left I didn't tell any of my friends and I had a rough friendship at school and now I'm going back and I have major anxiety I will see them if I do what do indo

[compact helm]

chup 😭😭😭

[silver wasp]

Feel more than free to 😭 We're always here to helpppppp

[near juniper]

In person😭

How

[frank mango]

I recently outgrew my 5'6" sister who was considered to be tall for a woman so yeah

[compact helm]

i know one word of bangla and it is “chup” 😍😍

[frank mango]

5"4 is average

[nova field]

https://tenor.com/view/cant-sleep-pokemon-pikachu-sad-blue-gif-16024614

[compact helm]

maybe try and explain what happened in these 3 years and why you left if it’s not smth too private

[frank mango]

A very sweet bengali word to tell your lover is "toke ami marbo bekuber baccha"

[near juniper]

They know why I left I think but there is one girl who was the main reason who Everone is friends with🥲

[compact helm]

oooh i shall try it out one day
i do not know which day

[compact helm]

oh dear

that’s really tough

[frank mango]

July 2nd 2024 6:37 pm

[compact helm]

🤝 agreed

[near juniper]

And I live 5 min from the guy who sexually assaulted me and others and I heard the other girl was younger than me and yeah well awkward

[frank mango]

What the actual frick

[near juniper]

And having asian parents they said to tell the police to close the clase

Case

So they won't have tension

[compact helm]

i hope you’re just living in a fictional drama

[frank mango]

nice

[compact helm]

the HELL??

[near juniper]

I would hope a k drama

[compact helm]

most k-dramas end well so yes 👏

[near juniper]

Ah but the girl told the Muslim community in my area and they knew the guy and they said I was lying only up until 2 others girls said something

I broke down to a teacher plus I tried to run away once and the police made me have meeting with social services weekly

Soo I told them

[frank mango]

Is he an imam or religious?

[near juniper]

Religious and he would teach me Islam in our house

He knew my grandma and he taught me since 3 -11

And I didn't realise it was sexual assault till secondary school

He would tell me god would hit me if I told anyone

And I was a dumb child 🥲

[compact helm]

wtf i’m so sorry for you

both of you

sending virtual hugs 🫂

[frank mango]

Did he stop coming to your house?

[near juniper]

No I told my parents I had to study after school and extra curriculars he still taught my siblings

But the police interviewed my siblings they weren't harmed they found a notebook of his that had details etc

But they said that's not enough to charge so they said I could close the case if I want and so my parents said to do so

[compact helm]

oh i see

[near juniper]

Did I dull the mood💀

[compact helm]

not at all

well not dull

[near juniper]

Bright side I had a mini glow up in my opinion

[compact helm]

just hit me how fucking gross some people can be

no matter the sex that’s still harassment- but some people in society have an odd mindset and don’t accept that

it’s really shitty

[near juniper]

I mean become a millionaire and then pull up in front of him with a Lamborghini and squirt ink on his face 👌

[compact helm]

HAHAH

i love the ink part

[unreal shadow]

bruh

[compact helm]

good idea 😬

[near juniper]

You if u want should report it

[nova field]

Beware, you're being watched

[near juniper]

Like anonymously

[near juniper]

....

[near juniper]

So he would get temporary banned from teaching and then other teacher would sus him out

Like wouldn't let students get close to him

Bc that's the only impact I had telling someone

[compact helm]

was his assaulter a teacher?

[near juniper]

I think that's what he said

Ohhhhhh

Actually still

It would be on his uni stuff

And everything

[compact helm]

wait that’s a thing?

[near juniper]

Yeah

But the whole police thing oowkey scary

I had to sit in a massive room with loads of cameras and listening things

And they would tell you to he very precise and speak very clearly

I am going to clarify this was in the UK like I'm pretty sure asian countries are way more harsh on the harasser/assaulter

Blue woman I will send u bribe money🥹💕

[compact helm]

i’m not sure how the process is, all i know is the system is most likely corrupt

exactly 😔

[near juniper]

Actually another vent

[frank mango]

I feel like your situation is x100 times worse than mine absra

[near juniper]

I am 17 and still play roblox

[near juniper]

I'm thinking it is but oh well I try to think other ppl have worse

😭No 10 years old have the worst game

[frank mango]

Nah its fax

[near juniper]

There are like 21 year olds who plah

Play

[compact helm]

that’s completely fine

[near juniper]

No 😭💀

I play one game

And that's jailbreak

[frank mango]

I just had to deal with harassment for a year and it happened more frequently to my friends than me

[near juniper]

But for everyone if anything happened the side effects are the worst

Jessie doesn't go to school

He failed chem

[frank mango]

I'm in private now and yeah I don't wanna say

[near juniper]

He goes to that chicken shop forgot the name

[frank mango]

Bro actually tho chem is quite intimidating but you'll quickly realise that physics is much harder

[near juniper]

No wayyyy

Chem is harder

[frank mango]

Especially if you're in A levels

[near juniper]

I am in levels

As*

[frank mango]

A2 physocs hardest non-uni subject

[compact helm]

god physics is so much harder than chem for me

[near juniper]

Chem practical are jsut💀💀

[frank mango]

another vent for me

[compact helm]

especially organic chemistry i heard

[near juniper]

Ur 17 and in A2

I'm lacking 😭

Actually no

No

Wait yes

U said 1 month ago

[frank mango]

I am a math nerd and god forbid I tell anyone that I enjoy math irl or they gonna look at me like I'm a complete psycho

[near juniper]

I love maths

Just minus the math

[compact helm]

math is actually really fun once you understand the whole thing

[frank mango]

How did you judge me

💀

[proven robin]

i feel bad for all of u

[compact helm]

it’s ok we’re all dumb 🥹

criminal offensive side eye

[near juniper]

Bc Jessie doesn't pass any of his crystals

[frank mango]

No I'm still in O level but I'ma start studying for A levels next month

[near juniper]

🥲

[frank mango]

I'm giving my O levels

[near juniper]

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

[proven robin]

bro the sexual harrasment

[near juniper]

I am 17💀😭

Im not olddddd

Feb 7

[frank mango]

Well I had add maths as I gave my add maths exams already and tbh it's kinda easy

[near juniper]

Put it in ur calendars

2006

[frank mango]

Easier than general math 💀💀

[near juniper]

That is so true

[compact helm]

is 0580 general math bc that’s what i do

it’s easy for me

oh i see

[near juniper]

There is too much awkward silence

And maths

When u think u can rely on the venting ppl😭

I swear I talk to too much so I thought u guys wld too

Like nothing thp💀

I am good u

I think

I had

Idek what I ate

Actually fries

And chicken

I'm bulking 😩

Islamabad

U

That's in pakistan

😭...

No I meant?

Like it's not

I am actually good at countries

It's not

I can speed make countries

Tell me any letter and I can tell u

Countries starting with it

Spelling might be off tjo

Zimbaba

Zimbabwai

Zambia

Okay not Z

Any other convi

My auto correct hates me

I swear

Ah I like no guys 💀

Actually new vent

Want to know the real reason I'm in pakistan

Bc I had a boyfriend for a year and my dad found out

My dad wishes I will he his daughter in law lol

No

Its a joke

My dad loves Imran khan

Noooooooo

I mran khan daughter in law

No one else in the chat are they just watching

[compact helm]

you EXPOSED ME

[near juniper]

Same but rn he's failing

I have cameras in my house everywhere except the rooms

Bedroom

I hope so

....

Imagine someone fixing ur parents cctv

For reallllll

People

Convo

Pls

This chat room will die

Does anyone know a chat room for ppl my age 😭😭

Flower ik u watching

Flowers input is flatlining rn🥲

Leave me 🥲

[glossy pewter]

Nah someone will vent here once in a while

[near juniper]

I am still up💀

Ahh side-effects of insomnia

Actually anyone has any tips for insomnia

[glossy pewter]

First of all get off of your device

And naturally in a while you will fall asleep

[near juniper]

Yeah I didn't have a phone for 2 years still had has insomnia

And I did get off laid on my bed for 2 hours

Literally just came back bc I was bored trying to sleep

[glossy pewter]

Same got phone recently but any type of device keep away from it before sleeping

[glossy pewter]

I see

Try some exercise?

Like a quick workout

[near juniper]

No my phone got taken for 2 and half years 💀

[glossy pewter]

To tire you out

[glossy pewter]

Ouch

[near juniper]

I go to the gym daily 😭💀

Except Sundays

Sunday's are my cheat days

🥲

[glossy pewter]

So a night workout will be usual

Or basically normal

[near juniper]

I have cameras in my house so no😭

And every one is aseeo

Asleep

[glossy pewter]

They wont mind will they?

[glossy pewter]

Be silent

[near juniper]

They probably will

[glossy pewter]

Sadge

What about music (i dont listen but)

[near juniper]

Do you want to vent I'm bored

[near juniper]

Tried and failed

[glossy pewter]

I vent here a lot

[near juniper]

I even drink chamomile tea

[glossy pewter]

Trust me alotttt

[glossy pewter]

Eshhh

[near juniper]

I've tried loads of tips

[glossy pewter]

Then wanna talk about stuff?

[near juniper]

Even started drinking water

I used to go months without water

💀

[near juniper]

Sure

[glossy pewter]

Not possible but

Imma believe you

[near juniper]

It is if u live of coke

Like I still eat😭

And drink juice

But water and milk

Wow I wasted my time checking ur profile 🙂

[glossy pewter]

Why

[near juniper]

I don't like milk

[glossy pewter]

Always happens

[glossy pewter]

Water?

Why hate water?

[near juniper]

I don't hate it

But Its to plain

I'm like a coke addict

[glossy pewter]

Wait coke as in ?

The drink right

[near juniper]

Noooo

The drink

Yes

😭

[glossy pewter]

Phew good good

I went too far

[near juniper]

But I stopped recently to only 2 glasses a day

So progress

[glossy pewter]

Woah what bro thats a lot

[near juniper]

I used to drink 4💀

[glossy pewter]

I dont drink coke hate it

[near juniper]

......

..

[glossy pewter]

Bruh you are an addict

[near juniper]

.

[glossy pewter]

Come on i like fanta passion 👀

And mountain dew

[near juniper]

Ah ig its my therapy lol

[glossy pewter]

But only once in a while i drink

[near juniper]

I will never taste or drink mountain drew

[glossy pewter]

i get it

[glossy pewter]

Bruhh its tastes amazing

Try it

[near juniper]

It looks weird

I don't wanna be drinking someones dew

Like

No

[glossy pewter]

What

Wait

Mountain dew is a drink

From pepsico i think

So your enemy 👀

Cokes enemy

Tbh i love pepsi over coke in terms of flavour

[near juniper]

I like pepsi

But coke kills ur throat

It's more carbonated

So I like it

[glossy pewter]

Ikr

[glossy pewter]

But pepsi has more like that flavour

On the tongue you know what i mean

[near juniper]

No w

N

No

[glossy pewter]

Come on be honest

[near juniper]

No wait

Yes

But I like the fizz

[glossy pewter]

Coke doesnt taste as good as pepsi man

[near juniper]

Of coke

I'm a female 🥲but okay

[glossy pewter]

I see you like that feeling as you chug it down your throat

[near juniper]

Actually can I identify as coke/pepsi

[glossy pewter]

Okay changes my perspective 😂

[glossy pewter]

I like pepsi 👀

[near juniper]

Huhhhhh

[near juniper]

Rn I am coke🙃

[glossy pewter]

Nah no like i was thinking of a guy like a guy who likes coke

[glossy pewter]

when ya change to pepsi say so

[near juniper]

And if a female like coke😶

[glossy pewter]

Wait female arent supposed to like coke ?

[near juniper]

Wait what

[glossy pewter]

It was a question

Sorry no question mark

Forgot it

Pls dont cancel me

[near juniper]

If the Pepsi lid fits

[glossy pewter]

Anyways you asleep now haha 👀

[near juniper]

No I thought my mum was coming

It was my cat

[glossy pewter]

Scaredy cat 👀

[glossy pewter]

Ohhhhh have pics 👀👀

Is it cute

I love cats 🔥

[near juniper]

I don't need my phone taken away for another year

Bro my profile pic

Is my cat

[glossy pewter]

Omg it looks sooo freaking cute

Like so fluffy

[near juniper]

I'm so confused

[glossy pewter]

Just wanna cuddle it

[near juniper]

U use the word like too much for a guy😭

[glossy pewter]

Why your cat looks nice man

[near juniper]

But u make assumptions about female

Which are u😭

[glossy pewter]

Hmmmm true

[glossy pewter]

I am a guy

[near juniper]

She's a doll face persian

[near juniper]

Wrong u are Pepsi

[glossy pewter]

Awwwww i have street cats though

[near juniper]

....

[glossy pewter]

Hmmmm i dont mind hehe

[glossy pewter]

Well not street cats

They live with us

[near juniper]

I can't go to sleep now lol

[glossy pewter]

We adopted them

[near juniper]

Ohhhh

[near juniper]

I will wake up to late

[glossy pewter]

I was trying to tire you out with small talk

[near juniper]

Yes u are very tiring

[glossy pewter]

Me too i also gotta sleep but its sooo early

[glossy pewter]

My plan is working haha

[near juniper]

What time

Is ur time

[glossy pewter]

Its 1 am right now

[near juniper]

Bro

Don't even

Like shush

It's 3 am here

[glossy pewter]

India?

Pakistan?

[near juniper]

Pakistan

[glossy pewter]

Not Bangladesh too far

[glossy pewter]

Haha i guessed it right

[near juniper]

Actually

The coke factory

[glossy pewter]

Is next to you

Phone got taken didnt it

[near juniper]

No

[glossy pewter]

Phew was scared

[near juniper]

I was tryna find something

Hmk

I think she is actually coming

Want

Wait

[glossy pewter]

Alright 👀

[near juniper]

Nvm

Rain

How old are u ur mental capacity must be 6 If u like mountain dew😭

[glossy pewter]

Bruh you are too paranoid

[glossy pewter]

Ouchhhhhhh

I am 17 ok done with my school

[near juniper]

Already

Done with school

Wth

[glossy pewter]

I finished recently 👀

[near juniper]

I am still on as😭

[glossy pewter]

Eshhh what subs did ya take

Young ppl

Haha

[near juniper]

Huh

[glossy pewter]

I am older for sure

[near juniper]

I am 17

💀

[glossy pewter]

Uhhhh okay what month

We need to settle this

[near juniper]

Feb

[silver wasp]

Rip

😭

[glossy pewter]

2006 👀

So i am older haha

2005

[glossy pewter]

Why 👀 i am older here

[near juniper]

How do u know 2006

[silver wasp]

Oh nevermind 😭

[near juniper]

How are u 17 then

When the math ain't mathin

[glossy pewter]

I am 2005 september

Still 17 till sep

[near juniper]

Ohhhjh

[glossy pewter]

You are 17 now and your birthday is feb

So you just turned 17

[near juniper]

Yes remember this

Say happy birthday to me in Feb 🥲

[silver wasp]

Its over

😭

[glossy pewter]

Next year

[near juniper]

Yes put it in ur calender

[near juniper]

Don't understand potato

[glossy pewter]

For sure 🔥

[glossy pewter]

Btw what subs you take?

[near juniper]

Subs

[glossy pewter]

Subjects

[near juniper]

Bio chem physics

[glossy pewter]

Nice combo

Did you do exams now

[near juniper]

Yes I have 2 left

I failed my bio even tho my bio is better than physics

Ur asleep now

Loser

Pepsi dudes are losers 🙂

[glossy pewter]

Noooo

I was doing something

Sending notes for someone

[frank mango]

Bro I kinda wanna take philosophy A levels but I prolly shouldnt take 5 subkects

[glossy pewter]

Why not?

[frank mango]

4 subjects is already alot

[glossy pewter]

What subjects you already have

[frank mango]

Physics Chem Maths Further Maths

[glossy pewter]

True

[glossy pewter]

This combo is enough imo

For many unis and everything basically

[frank mango]

Ikr

I would suffer but could get into any engineering/physics course

[cosmic ginkgo]

Do a Phil module at uni instead if you want

[glossy pewter]

But taking five isnt a small thing btw trust me i took five

[frank mango]

I wanna take physics and philosophy in Uni

[cosmic ginkgo]

First year modules won't have any pre reqs

[cosmic ginkgo]

Don't do it

I know people who do and please dont

[frank mango]

Yeah I mean physics is just too much as one subject already 💀

[frank mango]

How are their lives?

[cosmic ginkgo]

That and you don't get enough of either subject

[glossy pewter]

Me who is doing physics

[cosmic ginkgo]

So employability very little

You have to sacrifice physics stuff for Phil modules so you end up losing out on the "non essential" things like programming

[near juniper]

I left for 3 minutes 😭

[cosmic ginkgo]

Physics is fine

[near juniper]

If u do topical monthly then no

[cosmic ginkgo]

Also physicists aren't good at social skills so expecting them to communicate effectively to another department for your modules is not gonna happen

[frank mango]

A Philosophy class in my mind is s like a debate + lit class

[glossy pewter]

Nah i did physics syllabus in one week

Not bad tbh

[cosmic ginkgo]

Not always

Also we have a 4th year (masters level) module called physics and philosophy

That's also an option for non Phys Phil students

[near juniper]

Aren't u the one crying about physics 😭

[cosmic ginkgo]

Cuz by then you actually know some physics

[glossy pewter]

Nah im gonna study it in uni gonna cry later

[frank mango]

Yeahh

[near juniper]

I am defo dropping physics in uni either physics or chem

[frank mango]

I think I'm gonna do that if I can

[cosmic ginkgo]

Not every place has it obvs but I'd still suggest doing it on the side not as a main course

[glossy pewter]

You are in igcse right

[frank mango]

Both are hard asf but idk what you'll do for employment with chem

[glossy pewter]

Ikr physics at least has a few career prospects

[near juniper]

Medicine or as backup perfumist

[glossy pewter]

Perfumist 👀

[frank mango]

Well I am giving my O levels there are two exams remaining and I'm done with O levels after june 7th

[near juniper]

Yes

[glossy pewter]

Oh good luck then bro

But imo

Your choices for physics

In uni

Is enough

4 is mor than enough

[near juniper]

I'm done with exams on 8th and then have a 11 hour flight on the 10th

Haven't even started packing

[glossy pewter]

But if you wanna torture yourself like me take 5 subs

[frank mango]

I know bro

[near juniper]

Just washed my makeup that's it

[cosmic ginkgo]

BRO WHAT

[glossy pewter]

Yeah i did 5 subjects so i can speak

It wasnt the easiest

[cosmic ginkgo]

Chemists make a lot of money

[frank mango]

Why did you do that to yourself

[glossy pewter]

👀eh

[near juniper]

Alevels or igcse

[cosmic ginkgo]

Jesus Christ do y'all know how big the pharma industry is

[glossy pewter]

Alevels done

[near juniper]

I'm young 😭🥹

[frank mango]

If I'm not hired as a physicist I could be an engineer I think

[unreal shadow]

tech made anything other than it seem like little money lmao

[glossy pewter]

Okay yeah

[unreal shadow]

ngl

[frank mango]

Physics majors do get hired as engineers

[cosmic ginkgo]

Physicist jobs are few and far between

[glossy pewter]

Idk about that

[unreal shadow]

swe maybe

[glossy pewter]

Unfortunately i am going in this path

[cosmic ginkgo]

Most go into engineering, data science, finance

[near juniper]

Yes slowly merge and become a bot for millions

[glossy pewter]

Should i rethink

[frank mango]

I know

[glossy pewter]

👀👀

[unreal shadow]

but like civil engineer or sm shit

[frank mango]

No its fun.

[unreal shadow]

unlikely

[near juniper]

Yes start making coke cola

[cosmic ginkgo]

Not necessarily, you can do something you enjoy and still make a career out of it and also you might change your mind later and that's perfectly okay and you'll be able to make it work

[glossy pewter]

Thanks hope it goes fine for both of us

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Aishwarya#7376

[cosmic ginkgo]

But you can do things like materials engineering

Also why are we in venting

[near juniper]

HOW DO U GET +1 rep

I swear bots hate me

[frank mango]

Physics majors cant go into civil?

[glossy pewter]

Idk i was having small talk with someone to make them sleep

[unreal shadow]

idk too much about materials engineering tbh

[cosmic ginkgo]

Even if you could, why would you

[near juniper]

Someone 🥲

[glossy pewter]

If someone says “thanks” you get rep

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to abasra726#5554

[frank mango]

@glossy pewter what subjects?

[unreal shadow]

from what i saw they go into like

swe

[near juniper]

Yessssssssssss

[cosmic ginkgo]

You do interesting physics to end up in civil engineering or all things??

[unreal shadow]

data science

finance

[near juniper]

💕🥹

[glossy pewter]

Physics chemistry biology maths and computer science

[unreal shadow]

quants

if smart as shit

[near juniper]

No wait

Wrong

[glossy pewter]

I took computer science as fallback

[glossy pewter]

Ikrrr

[near juniper]

Ur way too smart

[cosmic ginkgo]

Experimental particle physicists are just better data scientists than corporate really

So there's a lot of overlap

[frank mango]

Well my father is a civil engineer and he taught me some civil engineering concepts and tbh it is fascinating but kind of boring and easy unlike physics

[cosmic ginkgo]

Exactly my point

[frank mango]

Please consult a psychiatrist

[near juniper]

Guys pls give me bot reps😭😭😭🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹

🥹

[frank mango]

Why would anyone do that to themselves

Fuck computer science

[glossy pewter]

Help ppl in subject channels and they thank you simple

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to abasra726#5554

[unreal shadow]

real

[frank mango]

Taking computer science in O levels was a mistake 💀

[glossy pewter]

It was good i did syllabus in like one day hahahaha

[unreal shadow]

bruh💀

[frank mango]

It is probably hell in A levels

[glossy pewter]

It is

But the only subject you can do yourself

[frank mango]

That is a complete and utter lie

[cosmic ginkgo]

You will have to use programming for physics yk that right? Not algorithms or anything but still

[near juniper]

I prefer a level over level

[glossy pewter]

Wallahi brother

[frank mango]

Yeah ik

[glossy pewter]

My decisions hahaha are helping me lets go

[unreal shadow]

bruh does igcse cs even dsa

or just very very basic

[frank mango]

Bro the computer science syllabus is fucking gargantuan

Huge

[glossy pewter]

No its small

I did in one day trust

Me but i am not like

Uhhhhh most ppl

[frank mango]

I think ur brain id too if you say that

[near juniper]

Yeah u like mountain dew

[frank mango]

Thats a sign of intelligence mate

[near juniper]

No🥲

Just make ur crystals😩

[glossy pewter]

Haha

[frank mango]

I once made l sodium ethanoate crystals in my home does that count

[near juniper]

No wonder Walter failed u at chem

[frank mango]

Yeah bro no chemistry teacher would want a student who does chem at home

[near juniper]

Yeah when ur making them in the wrong flask duh😳

[glossy pewter]

Still awake

Bruh its 4

[near juniper]

Yeah I'm 🥲

I will take a shower at 6 so I have energy for the day

[glossy pewter]

Bruh

[near juniper]

Normally a glass of coke

But I'm growing

I also stopped drinking it bc it stunts ur growth apparently

And my younger siblings are the same height as me

[cosmic ginkgo]

The health and safety officer will have a fit if they find out kmao

I swear it's like they're all in a cult

[frank mango]

IFKR

Also my roles are pretty questionable

[chilly solar]

He wasn't applying himself / jerking off in class , it was my only option

[bitter fern]

tf

[wintry rampart]

what's it like to let go of the past?

i've also considered trying actual writing therapy instead of writing here on discord, so, hopefully, it would work

[unreal shadow]

Painful ig

[pastel night]

It's a mixture of different emotions all at once sometimes making us go insane, triggering our anxiety and flaring up our anger and resentment but it's all worth it at the end and it's a relief, it's a true relief.

[pastel night]

Try connecting to nature as well, it helped me a lot, the morning air is very calming

[mild compass]

So easy

Switch ur brain off whenever u think of the past

Like find a distraction

[wintry rampart]

distractions kinda worked for me, although it takes a lotta time

[mild compass]

Yes they really do

Ur mental peace should be ur first priority

Everything else comes second

Follow ur hobbies

Even if it’s sleeping like mine lol

[unreal shadow]

Js deal w it

It is what it is

Hurts but no biggie allg

[pastel night]

I get it! But man pls like zaid said you should try to do all those things which you know will give you mental peace

[mild compass]

Yesss! U can talk to us here

Instead of thinking of the past

Btw, whats ur problem? If ur willing to share

[wintry rampart]

okay. for the past week, i happened to have a panic attack after growing envious of a friend who was able to be so successful, being part of the higher-ups at one of my unis orgs, and being involved in the entertainment convention secene in my country just in her 2nd-3rd year

and you have me, a nobody who started 3 years late in a journey that could possibly give me the consequencs of avoiding extracurriculars for three years

contrary to her, i was emotionally abused by my mother who manipulated me into thinking that academics are far more valuable than extracurricular or organisational involvement in my college years

thus, i blindly fell for that belief

and this was when my hatred against my own mother took control of me after all these years of emotional abuse

on the day of the panic attack, when i got home, i immediately called my therapist and broke down in the most heartbreaking way possible

rambling at my therapist how my mother deceived me into not giving a shit about organisational experience

and prolly wanting me to be stuck on the bottom feeders' grounds in the corporate world

for about 10 years

and calling myself a failure till i die

[unreal shadow]

Why are you envious of your friend in the first place💀

You should be happy

Considering it’s your friend

[wintry rampart]

here's the scoop on how my mother guilt tripped me:

• she compares me with others

on how they can do this but i can't do the latter

this goes on for years, and how i ended up being envious in the first place

[unreal shadow]

Ah

[wintry rampart]

ever since 3 years

[unreal shadow]

Fair enough then ig

[wintry rampart]

she says that she's "teaching me", i call it emotional abuse

i can't run away as i'd prolly end up homeless or broke

so, i decided to stay with her and endure everything instead

[mild compass]

Heyy wait wait wait!

[wintry rampart]

with that friend, eventually, i grew closer to her, even helping her in her involvement at that big entertainment con

by informing her of a potential criminal that can use the grounds to harass attendees

and she forwarded it.

however, the resentment is still there

albeit less severe

thank god i didn't do a sudoku attempt

i knew that i had a choice, to be blind and obey, or to do things my way, taking her words in partial consideration

i chose the first as i do not want to make her angry even further

although now, i'm ready to do the second option

and start now rather than mope about it after graduating

and yes, i got 2-3 more years left in college

so i feel that there's not enough time to play catch-up

[mild compass]

I think getting jealous or being envious is part of a human nature. We somehow somewhere in life get jealous of one another but that doesn’t necessarily license us to think about it 24/7. You just need to think on the bright side. If ur friend outsmarted u, that’s because she was good at it or it was meant to happen. Similarly, you will have the potential to outsmart her in other ways because you will be good at those things. God has made everyone with a unique potential. It’s just you need to fund urs and master it. I am sure you will be good at other things, better than ur friend. Try exploring that area of your personality

[wintry rampart]

but not to the extent where you get a panic attack, and a depressive episode

although this envy has lasted upon for 3 years

[mild compass]

Yeah Ik it must have been difficult for you

But like you don’t want to be that rude mean person right?

[wintry rampart]

with the first being from some of these influencers.

she was presented the biggest opportunity in my country, to commentate part of the southeast asian games 4 years ago. when i heard of it, while following her, i knew that i was a nobody and began pinning the blame on my own mother for raising me to be a failure

[wintry rampart]

yup.

[mild compass]

Simple as that

Make ur self positive about things

There are so many other opportunities waiting for u

Ok so i will tell u my example

Maybe it will help u

[wintry rampart]

thus, i resorted into becoming greedy quite lately

as i thought that not caring about the world would lead me to the "perfect opportunity", if that exists

now, i'll decide on joining whatever events interest me, as a member of its production team

no matter the consequences

my therapist had a hard time trying to get me out of my hatred to my mother, so, now, i got no choice but to undergo art, specificaly, writing therapy

that's fate

to me, fate never liked me, so, i had to join student orgs myself

and do all the hard work

and now, i'll apply for an officership role in that org as i was part of their officer training program since last year

[mild compass]

Fate likes everyone

[wintry rampart]

maybe it could be the external influences

outside of it

[mild compass]

Its just that we are not ready at some point

[torn yarrow]

i thought it was "fate likes no one"

[mild compass]

Y are u guys so disappointed v

With life

[torn yarrow]

not disappointed

[mild compass]

Like we are all teenagers and there is so much left for us

[torn yarrow]

just not particularly enthralled byit

[mild compass]

To discover

[torn yarrow]

indeed.

[mild compass]

Have you talked to your mother about this?

[wintry rampart]

it would always result to an argument that i can't escape

often on a loop

instead, i stayed silent

[mild compass]

Ohh no

Thats sad

[gloomy tartan]

hello

im new here

[torn yarrow]

HOI

[mild compass]

You can shout at us

And we won’t say anything

[wintry rampart]

thus i avoid arguing with her

[gloomy tartan]

why would i do that

[mild compass]

Not u

[gloomy tartan]

ok

[wintry rampart]

hell, i even told her that i will apply as a student org officer without her help

[gloomy tartan]

wher are you guys from

[mild compass]

U don’t need to bottle up ur emotions

[wintry rampart]

cause she never gave positive acknowledgement for simply being accepted

[mild compass]

Go to #chat-lounge

[gloomy tartan]

join @mild compass

join study rromoom

[mild compass]

Nope

Why lol?

[wintry rampart]

join #chat-lounge ,mate.

there are a lotta more people conversing

this chat's for serious level stuff, lime mental breakdowns

[mild compass]

Yeah and they will tell u where they are from

[wintry rampart]

or pent up bitterness

[wintry rampart]

the only emotions that i bottled up are anger and frustration

not sadness

[mild compass]

That are far more dangerous

[wintry rampart]

maybe resentment too

[mild compass]

U don’t necessarily have to do it

If ur mom compares u, don’t listen to her for ur own sake

[wintry rampart]

i try to block myself from this criticism

but it fails

i can't afford to make a second personality to bear all the brunt fot me

so i had no choice but to listen so that she won't resort to physical abuse

[rugged moss]

i think im turning into one

[bronze coyote]

to wut

[bronze coyote]

bro just saying

if you cant use her words to make your own strength, after she passes away the world's gonna make fun of you. idk how ur feeling but in my case, ppl say shit that i cant do, i use that as an energy, and prove them that i can do it

they throw a bomb at you