venting

[upbeat jolt]

Now my younger sister is dealing with the "become doktor pls"

watch me make her drop bio

[thick birch]

We should think what else we could have done, this allows us to break free into the vast world of possibilities and also helps us to make decisions more rationally in the future. This is what makes me a Murdock. In the family of boxers we do think rationally...

[olive wadi]

yeah theres truth to what u say , what i learned is if i rlly wanna do smth i will do it i wont not do it bec some adults think differently , wont make that same mistake in uni or ever

ofc take advice of adults and experienced ppl but always follow what u believe in

[thick birch]

Yep

[mild spire]

Ok so this is the first time I'm venting over here but i feel like I just wanna get it off my chest.

I feel disgraced and disgusted by people saying "RIP the Queen she was such a good human being" while ignoring the history of what she did to so many indigenous people around colonies. She ruled for about 70 years, went through World War 2 but yet that time period was not enough to send a single formal letter of apology to either India, Pakistan or Bangladesh or any other numerous colonies. 70 Years was not enough to acknowledge the human rights abuses and apartheid in South Africa sponsored by the British Army, again no letter of apology. 70 Years was not enough to return any stolen artifacts from the British Museum. And the people of the colonies have the gall to cry to her death. Because It feels disgraceful to kill, torture, maim, starve people of more than 5 major countries and then celebrate that they are democratic at the end of it and act like they are some "best friends". It feels like a stab in the back to me that our own people are giving "respect" to this symbol of colonization while ignoring the fact that she was the same person who continued the legacy of an atrocious and brutal royal family that has plagued the world from its riches. I'm happy she is dead, should stay dead and remain in hell

[lament cloud]

i agree haha

[mild spire]

🇮🇳 🇵🇰 🇧🇩 🇿🇦 🇦🇺 🇳🇿🇪🇬 🇿🇼 🇺🇬 🇨🇦 🇧🇸 🇭🇳 🇯🇲 🇦🇫 🇸🇬 🇲🇾

[lament cloud]

its very fair imo:
She was racist and homophobic, has been the cause multiple warcrimes, including the one in Yemen currently, she allegedly caused the assassination of Princess Diana, she protected her pedophile son Prince Andrew and paid people of so that he doesnt go to prison. While you cant fully blame her for British colonisation of countries coz that was before her time, but she still let it happen once she became queen

i dont like her

and i dont like the royal family

and i wish the monarchy comes to an end soon

_ _

but also you have to understand the reason behind people saying "RIP the Queen"

while she was not a good person, she was a huge historical figure, possibly one of the biggest ever

and her dying feels like the end of an era

and tbf Britain is basically a democracy rn, the PM is the person running the country, rather than the Queen

[lament cloud]

it mightve been different 100 years ago but now its 100% a democracy

[balmy bloom]

so slay i failed maths b, further pure maths and economics

my dad's gonna kill me

[upbeat jolt]

Her family continues to reign over several African countries, exploiting them of their natural resources and ruining the lives of hundred of millions of people

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6uuW4AP8M4M

@lament cloud @mild spire watch this

This is just one of the many former colonies that are still being exploited under the table

And the so called "governments" and "democracies" are just puppets to these colonial powers

the real RIP mourning should be done for Muammar Gaddafi

Who, if still alive, and if his plans weren't fucked by the west, would've turned the entire African continent into a fucking super power

The west likes to play the hero in every narrative and talk about human rights and all that fancy shit yet is the most corrupt and evil behind the scenes

No one cares about the millions of African children dying of malnutrition and god knows what, no one cares about the Palestinian people or anything. But Oh No! Poor Ukrainians!!

It's all just a giant fucking game of who's the biggest hypocrite

[grim void]

Agreed 200%

[olive wadi]

imma say this

not everyone cares and needs to care about every other countries history and issues and politics etc , but the queen was almost a century old and i dont see any wankers complaining about how bad of a person she was last decade or more that i been around the internet so u might as well be quiet now and let her just pass on , if some ppl wanna praise their queen let them its their right but pls dont cry rn saying how bad she was bec u look rlly dumb , and no im not a sympathizer bec im in no way related or affected by them , and secondly about ukraine , while i do agree like most ppl dont even mention or know about palestine yet they are going all out for ukraine , i get why most are ignorant bec palestine doesnt affect an average polish dude or some finnish or swedish person , but invasion of ukraine is basically threatening their borders so ofc they will be waaay more vocal and aware about ukraine and let them be like i used to think like yall but i have come to realization that not everyone needs to care about every problem in the world otherwise we have infinite number of those these days , vent out and all but pls dont hold resentment about ignorant ppl , only ppl who deserve that are true haters not ignorants.

Btw one more point , "no one cares about starving african children" is also false , ppl do cares and there are ton of instances of celebrities , people , companies , etc trying to help them but most go about it the wrong way and frankly its the countries in power that dont rlly want to or need to fix it , i hate how ppl spread so much negativity saying how we dont care we dont know we dont do this and that , like no ppl do care and there are ppl doing good work trying to help those in need but its just not done in a global massive scale but u still cant just say ahh no one cares life sucks nah fam look more optimistically , the world is already as dark and digusting as it is , lets try to spread some light

[grim void]

tbh I don't rlly give a fuck if she "sends an apology letter to India Pakistan" blah blah

like dud who cares

Just forget her

[lament cloud]

Same

[grim void]

but u can't say "her Majesty was a wonderful person"

like ok she passed on human life that's sad but yeah whatever

[olive wadi]

to brits or maybe colonies she probably was

im saying theres two sides of the coin

and no leader especially monarch will ever be a "good" person

its just that if they treat their ppl well

their ppl will sing their praises

[lament cloud]

That's fair

[grim void]

She might be a "good" person for UK as the way she ruled was beneficial to her own ppl

I don't rlly care ppl mourning her loss and stuff and it's not even annoying

[olive wadi]

like a greek dude isnt gonna say 'omg i love ataturk he was such a good man' but to a turk he is our father and savior

[grim void]

Ofc it was a human life

[grim void]

Yes exactly

[olive wadi]

ya i understand yalls point too and its very much true and valid , just tryna say those ppl who claim shes so wonderful and nice are ones who got good side of the stick

[grim void]

I'm gonna say Parth was bit extreme like after so many years who cares about an apology letter from the queen no one cares and why r u disgusted by RIP queen like ofc she was a rlly good queen FOR HER OWN PPL
But yeah she wasn't all that goody goody

[olive wadi]

parth is always extreme lmao but yeah no monarch will ever be great or "good person"

[upbeat jolt]

let me write

[upbeat jolt]

1.) Indeed, not everyone is required to care about other nations and / or their history, problems etc.
Yet, everyone is "forced" to care about it regardless of their views, and if you do not care about these problems then you are labelled as an individual who is against the cause or whatever it is.
Example:
a) You don't support LGBTQ+? You must be homophobic, transphobic!
b) You don't support Ukraine? Must be a Russian supporter!

So you see, no matter how hard someone tries to not play the game, you will be forced into some role regardless of what you really think.

Moreover, some of these problems that are blown out of proportion aren't even serious or important.
"Oh no poor Ukrainians! what will they do?!"
All of them are being given instant asylum status by any nation they choose in Europe, and are already settling into their new life in their new host countries. Happy ending!
But what about the Palestinians? the Syrians? Yeah no one cares, they're thrown around in news headlines over tiny instances.
"Oh no Palestinian throws a rock at IDF MASSIVE DAMAGE :OOO"

Also the Ukraine war doesn't threaten NATO countries which include Poland and soon, Finland & Sweden.

Celebrities and Governments don't give a flying fuck about these people, they only use them for clout and to further push their election campaign to get votes.

2. Well, America hasn't bombed another middle eastern country for no reason whatsoever in the past 1 month so they're a good country now right? A rapist hasn't raped anyone in a couple months now so maybe they're no longer rapists and all the lives they've ruined of innocent women are all okay !
   Praising someone that is a mass murderer is dumb, not vice versa

[upbeat jolt]

it's true, people that do care about these starving African kids are out there doing something without advertising every second of it on their social media platforms. As I mentioned before, most celebs, politicians, etc couldn't give a flying fuck and really don't do anything about it. They just say they're doing something and act like it until the hype dies down. (Example: Amber heard donating 6mil to charities until court proved that she didn't and it was all bs)

Those that do something about it, they are not known. You don't know them, i don't but they're changing lives without showing it off.

There should be a limit to how optimistic one should be and there should also be a limit on how pessimistic one should be because the world we live in falls onto neither side and is really just a chaotic mix of both negativity and positivity. My suggestion would be not to rely on news outlets too much, theyre all biased

Example: Both Johnny Depp and Amber Heard are shitheads but the media likes to potray one as a hero and the other as a villain

Example: Both the US and Russia are L nations with a disgusting history but the media likes to potray one as the supreme model nation to be and the other as a communist demon

[north karma]

I do not support lgbtq.

[upbeat jolt]

fucking homophobe

[north karma]

Cope

[upbeat jolt]

[wintry rampart]

With regards to news outlets being too biased, that's true. Hell, here in the Philippines, IDK what the hell is happening with 2 of the most known news broadcasting agencies, ABS-CBN and TV5 News. Yet, the country's prone to fake news cause everybody that above the Millennials, especially those in poverty who just uses social media to forget the fact that they couldn't afford their babies' milk and their own rice, as well as the unresilient die-hard Marcos supporters in their mid-40s who do not know how to move forward, wanting to "re-experience" an illusion called "Golden Age" like a drug, and demand cheap rice, about 70% less expensive, while slandering the opposition.

Only "reliable" news channel that the die-hard apologists watch on is a Pro-Marcos news channel called "SMNI" that is way too biased, to a point where they straight on slander bullshit about the opposition.

They're treating the Marcoses like Jesus

while the hero that should have won the elections, Leni Robredo is considered by them to be Satan

I do not understand why people always forget about the history and rely on what their news outlets tell them

[wintry rampart]

With celebrities, they rarely help others, unless they try to escape from the controversies that they put themselves in. After that, well, back to filming stuff, or living out their lives. They tell us to "donate to this certain charity", and we do. But they just slack off most of the time, and let their fans do the work, rarely appearing in impoverished countries to actually do their actual parts and help them. Companies... That's another story... they only say "Guys, save the trees, buy our plastic shit" only to ignore what they say and continue breaking the atmosphere. The many activists protesting in front of their factories. They simply tell them to fuck off and continue exploiting animals or release pollutants

Those who look negatively on world events... well, they prolly are just stressing themselves even further, because why do you blame society for not "helping the suffering", when the best thing that they could do is to actually help charities and the impoverished. Actions always speak louder than thoughts and words, and those negative people are probably unwilling to do the action that they want to address the exact words that they are thinking.

[glossy pewter]

So you choose to complain about her wrong doings after her passing 👀 nice the world is freaking amazing 😆

[mild compass]

There's nothing wrong

[glossy pewter]

It’s messed up

[mild compass]

It's just saying that people saying the queen was such a good human and all is not really true

[glossy pewter]

Why not vent when she was alive huh

👀👀

[mild compass]

People did?

Now it's just a narrative is being pushed through the media

Big time

So you see things more

[glossy pewter]

But talking about bad things she did after her death is just wrong

[mild compass]

Actually in a sense yeah

[glossy pewter]

You don’t go to a funeral of a person and start talking about his wrong habits

[mild compass]

But well it does refute the narrative that she was good and great and all

[opal prism]

nah

[north karma]

This isnt the place for this talk ngl

[opal prism]

I agree with Greenfalcon

here

[mild compass]

yeah but this isn't any person lol

[lament cloud]

Why not

If they were a bad person you have every right to call them out

Just because Hitler's dead

Are we suddenly not allowed to say he was a terrible person

[hollow oyster]

What about hitler

Stalin

Walter White

I just realized im on venting channel

[lament cloud]

yeah thats true but Amber Heard is a significantly shittier person

and extremely demented 💀

[upbeat jolt]

because nobody was glorifying her on every social platform you open up

now she's dead

and everyone's worshipping her hagass

why not talk shit

[upbeat jolt]

nah

it isn't

that's like saying "don't talk shit about Joe, even tho he raped people, he's dead and talking shit about him is just wrong 😔 "

that some stage 3300 cope

[upbeat jolt]

you do if they are as evil and cruel as lizzy was

your values are pretty self contradictory my guy

[upbeat jolt]

true but both suck

[lament cloud]

Yeah

[upbeat jolt]

both of you are wrong

on so many diff levels

[olive wadi]

1- If u go to a funeral only to disrespect and crap on someone then i think ur mentally ill? funerals are meant to be for those who love them and want to bury them so they rest in peace etc if u hate em whats the point of going to the funeral
2- if u were quiet all this time and u only start mentioning shes a bad person after shes gone then frankly i fail to understand the point of that maybe u shoukd of spoken when it mattered and dont compare this to hitler bec we didnt live in hitlers time

I’m not saying she was great or awful or whatever im saying theres two sides of the coin and u gotta respect ppl who love her bec she was wonderful to them just not to others and thats most monarchs and most ppl ever

[north karma]

I love queen lizzie

[glossy pewter]

Yes exactly

[upbeat jolt]

1. not going to her funeral
2. what about peopel that were quiet all this time about her being an angel, why dont they shut the fuck up first then ill consider not talking shit bout how much of a lil hoe lizzie was, we didnt live in hitlers time but that shit was well documented and so comparison is valid, dismissing it is like saying ww2 and the holocaust never happened since "we didnt live in dat time fr"

[upbeat jolt]

you're gay

[olive wadi]

bro jamal i hope ur just joking there

my point was u shouldnt just ignore the other side of the coin which is ppl who did treat her and respect her like the queen that she was who are now sharing their opinions about how great she was to them , wym quiet all this time about her being an angel? what should they have done that they didnt already do when she was alive? was bank notes and many other deeds not enough or sumn , and also i never said dismiss ww2 era bec we didnt live in it so its invalid , no i said dont compare the queen of england to fucking hitler bec thats so stupid of a comparison and pls do not drag holocaust into this

[upbeat jolt]

its not really a stupid comparison, hiters deeds were public and everyone knew, the queens deed were and are still kept hidden and i'm sure she and her family has done more damage to more people than hitler ever did.
My point is, if people are worshipping how good she was to them, before and after she died then people who hate her deserve the same rights to talk shit about her, irrespective of whether she is alive or not. And the entire argument of "WHy ARe YOU talKing SHiT Now" is just stupid

The world isn't fair and that's just how it is

¯_(ツ)_/¯

I don't care about people who worship her nor do wish they didn't, 'you do you' but like don't tell the other side to stfu just because the hag is dead and we should 'respect' the dead

[lament cloud]

She's def bad and has caused a lot of, but def not Hitler level lol

Hitler is literally the worst human to have ever existed

Ever

[upbeat jolt]

because his deeds were public, the japanese commited almost the same level of atrocities as hitler in their empire yet no one bats an eye.

Also hitler's reign wasn't very long, in comparison the Queen and her family have lived and ruled over the british empire for hundreds of years and commited many crimes but since they weren't made public or even recorded. No one cares..

hitler is just branded as the "worst human" and yes he is a shitty person. He's no where near the Queen or her family

[lament cloud]

Hey if you're gonna say Queen AND her family, then yeah that's a diff story

[mossy delta]

I think I'm a bad person and i don't think I can do anything about that

I think I actually suck

Wow I realised that

[glossy pewter]

Don’t beat yourself up because I went through the same stage for a while and I started to change the way I looked at things and starting acting nicer to ppl and after a while it all just vanished

[valid sun]

My school pulled a classic and decided to screw our Student Council candidates (including me) over by starting and ending final voting today. Within 30-50 minutes of the forms going live. No campaigns, no spreading of what each candidate is planning on doing; no nothing. I just dont understand why our school does things so half assedly all the time. Sure, I understand that situations may have had risen last year and because of that, campaigns were removed this year, then how would students know who to vote and what for, besides just the names they are familiar with? Why would the school make it like this and not tell the candidates clearly in advance?! I'm not mad anymore; just disappointed. Teachers also have a part in it, you say? Well, how would teachers know/discuss our strengths and weaknesses? Regarding our approaches and any other related topics to be elected into the Council? Like seriously dude? Smh

For me, at least I've spoken to like what? 5/10 teachers that teach me

Idk what the other candidates did

But it just isnt fair

Not only to me (because I couldn't finish) and to others (that possibly hadn't even begun)

I love how unironically our Head of Secondary today was talking about how having leadership roles is just something good to have and not a have to have but then it's something you'd 100% need to show at least 1 or 2 of and including other extracurriculars on your personal profile for the majority of top universities.

Then when I indirectly asked if he knew anything about the university processes themselves, he admitted he didnt know much? Then why are you telling me it doesnt matter?

Without proof?

I'd like to believe that while yes, I wouldnt necessarily need a Student Council certificate/role to get into my universities of choice, it definitely boosts your chances.

One of the university websites state it clearly that academics is only 40-60% of the story; rest are your personal profile

While stuff I could do on my own (personal research/coding projects) and I am continuing would help remedy it a bit, it doesnt change the fact I dont have too many Leadership roles

And SC would've been a big booster

They're gonna announce the final members tomorrow morning at assembly

I hope I get in, but sigh, without having been able to show many people my ambitions and ideas, i wonder just how many votes could I possibly receive simply by not campaigning...

My chances are low

Why am even surprised at this point?

Getting in at anything is like winning a lottery ticket these days

Not that I've stopped trying

[elfin pine]

UGHH dont u guys hate it when you spent so much time trying to figure out one question then right after u submit the paper you suddenly realise the answer

[glossy pewter]

It happens to me almost every test

That’s why I usually triple or fourple ( I think that’s what it’s called🤷‍♂️) check my work so that I am sure sure I am correct

[elfin pine]

well its not even that i my answer was wrong,i had no answer at all

🥹

[glossy pewter]

Hmmm the I guess you should never give up

Just keep pushing towards the answer

[burnt grove]

think the word ur looking for is quadriple

[mild compass]

I’m 21, i have bio alevel and psych alevel exams this oct/November. I have a d grade in both sociology and GP. im regretting every decisions i have made so far. Don’t even know if i will get into a uni.

How can i unfreak my life

[drowsy pelican]

Hihi I am so sorry that you are going through this <3 Are you giving both AS and A2 in October/November?

And life is not a checklist or a race. You don't have to meet a certain set of criteria for your life to matter. You're not behind or failing just because you're taking your time or your life doesn't look like what might be considered successful

If you feel like you can't go to university next year, that's okay. You can use that time to work on other areas of your life :) A few years don’t even matter in the long run, do a lot of research about universities and I am sure you'll find a one where you'll get accepted. Plus you can try now and get grades higher than D in biology and psychology!

Moreover, your struggles are valid, not everyone has had the same opportunities. Your grades don't tell what you've gone through. Also, regret is human. No matter what we do we are going to regret it to some extent. You can try to make different decisions from now on <33

[mild compass]

Thank youu<33. Yes im giving both AS and A2 in October/November. I am trying to make different decisions from now onwards but just seeing my friends already doing their bachelors and some already one year away from graduating makes me so disappointed in myself. I have realized that there is no use in regretting but it is definitely hard not to. But thank you anyways for replying. I will try my best to get a grade higher than D in biology and psychology 💪🏼☺️

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Lavender#2895

[drowsy pelican]

You're welcomee! I am here if you ever want to talk or anything. Oh woah, how is your preparation for both of them? When did you start studying for them? And ahhh, I completely get how it feels when you see people who seem so far ahead and you're just there where you were a few year back. Honestly, it stinks haha and it is totally valid to feel that way. Life can be unfair, everyone has something they rather have had differently. But, it is what it is, and those things really don't measure how good you are doing or how happy you will be. I was supposed to give all of my exams in May/June this year but I got sick so I am going to give them next year in May/June. Honestly it helped me, even though it might not seem like it, cause I realised I really don't want to do engineering and now I am studying for law :)) I don't have a lot of time to study for it but I am sure if I work hard (which is ouch cause I love working on hobbies and procrastinating) I can get great grades. And wooo, you got this! I have this very good revision guide for psychology if you need it? 👀

[mild compass]

Yess of course. Any revesion guides is gonna be of great help. I have gathered quite a few myself too. Btw I just started studying a month back (i know its crazy). I am trying to finish two years worth of courses in just two months so i honestly need some luck and some strong dedication ahahah. I have the latter but idk about the luck but lets see how it goes fingers crossed

[mild compass]

And also its so great that you have changed your subjects after realizing that STEM wasn’t for you. For me this gap year has made me realize that i dont want to do arts too

[drowsy pelican]

Oh haha, I will send you the guide! Ooo which ones do you have? 👀 Dang, I started studying this month lolll. I am sure you'll do great, just try to make sure you know what information is useful and what isn't <3

[drowsy pelican]

:0 what do you want to do?

[mild compass]

Not really sure what I wanna do yet ahh but I know that it’s not art.

[mild compass]

I mostly have revision notes from znotes. Omg this monthh!? Study hardd and I’m sure you will do greatt🥳. I mostly practice past papers cuz I don’t think I have enough time to go through all the contents in the book. Best of luckk <33

[drowsy pelican]

Thank youu! Ah lololol that's valid, I can't do past papers unless I know how to answer most questions without looking at the marking scheme ⚰️ so I am trying to finish the syllabus first, I would say I am halfway done or a little less haha

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to whyoh#0203

[mossy delta]

can i ask a genuine question , lets say someone says lets break up right but they were always busy and unavailable and you feel nothing so like wht am i supposed to feel ?

am i supposed ot be upset that i got dumped

or nope ?

am i even supposed to feel anything

[cosmic ginkgo]

There's no one way that you have to feel

Don't force yourself to feel sad because people say you should

[olive wadi]

Nah not all my break ups ended in a “sad feeling”

as mushu says u dont have to feel anything

some relationships drag out for too long and feelings die out

[glossy pewter]

Why I don’t like these kinda stuff ||also cause girls don’t like me ||

[mild compass]

HEY, this is Adnan, let's start from the beginning , I used to have good number of friends before pandemic, then during the pandemic ,i got isolated from my friends, they socialize as they study in coaching and I don't because I need 1 to one interaction. One thing which I forgot to include that I was a good student before the pandemic, I used to get good grades but due to pandemic , I got detached from studies. I was lucky to get 3 A* due to online classes,but then I needed to give 6 subjects physically where I got 1 A*,4As and 1 B, this grade was below average in my school. my friends all got good grades in olevels, NOW I started my AS journey, to be honest it was rough journey,my class tests so far was poor from expected grades,I think I am falling apart.

[drowsy pelican]

Whatever you feel (or not feel) is valid. Feelings don't always have to make sense. There is no set criteria for how you should feel after a breakup. Everyone is different, and naturally every breakup is different. It's okay to not feel sad, empty, hurt after a breakup. Also, being with someone who isn't emotionally or literally there for you is hard. You don't really get a chance to bond, or sometimes even feel for them. Sending you hugs 🫂

[slate sky]

Man I am just scared for the next two - three months coming up. Venting to express how I feel. I have my exams starting in like 3 weeks. I have been just feeling really low and stressed.

For CS, we literally have like 2 lessons left and my teacher has barely even taught psuedocode to us. I am doing AS CS and I think psuedocode is usually about 50-60% of the paper 2 exam. As well as not teaching us psuedocode that well, we have not been able to practice flowchart questions that well too. I feel like I am just gonna either barely pass or fail CS.

For English, it was very rushed with the content at the end too. I feel like I am gonna fail that aswell. I still can’t write good essays that will get me a passing mark. I need to pass English to get into a Uni aswell.

For physics, we have been rushed with electricity and waves topic. I can’t answer most questions about waves in past papers.

For maths, we successfully covered the content but I don’t think I have enough time to practice past papers.

I did do well in my mocks but that’s because they were surprisingly a lot easier than past papers

[vivid pendant]

im still crying over my dumb a level grades

bye

[opal prism]

Wdym

What did you get ?

It’s not the end of the world btw you can still retake again

And try better next time

[glossy pewter]

What did you get 👀

[grim void]

no offense but asking someone what did u get after they say that is probably one of the dumbest shit ever

idiocy like this, its expected of katnix who exists to know everyones grades but not let anyone else know hers

but greenfalcon

[plush depot]

FAX

[olive wadi]

does anyone know what katnix got in mj

i usually dont care abt anyones but myselfs grades but im kinda curious to know what the person who asks everyone and their dog what they got in exams got herself

[opal prism]

Bruh I don’t ask literally everyone

I didn’t ask you what you got ?

[olive wadi]

Ya did

[opal prism]

Yes in January

But not for this session

[olive wadi]

did i say u ask for mj

u ask all the time evrryone what grades they get

[grim void]

"ur honour im not a murderer since i didnt kill u"

[grim void]

yup and no one ever asks her what she got because
1- we have some morals
2- we dont give shit

[opal prism]

Not all the time

Sometimes I ask

[opal prism]

Wdym have some morals lol

I don’t force people to say what they got

They choose to say what they got

They don’t have to you know

Yes and I know you don’t give a shit what I got so

[north karma]

Then say it

[opal prism]

Bruh I literally said that I don’t force people to say what they got

If they don’t want to say

They don’t have to

[north karma]

Yea but u cant ask them

And not say

[opal prism]

And not say what?

[north karma]

Then later tell them

“I never forced u to tell me ur grades”

[opal prism]

But I didn’t though

I just asked them

[north karma]

You imply it

[opal prism]

They didn’t have to say

[grim void]

fucking retard

istg

[opal prism]

I imply what?

[north karma]

Plus asking for someones grades

When they say its bad

In a venting channel

[opal prism]

Green falcon asked as well

[north karma]

Is the most braindead activity ive seen

Yes?

[opal prism]

Why aren’t you all up they ass for that

Why mine

[north karma]

@glossy pewter do i need to tell you you were being an idiot

Or do you get it

Zephron pointed him out as well for context

He didnt ignore him

[grim void]

Because this isnt the first time ive seen this idiocy from u

also i pointed him out

also

[opal prism]

Okay when was the other times for this idiocy

Yes I admit I was being a idiot for asking

[north karma]

Regardless of it being ur first time or the 100th time

[opal prism]

It didn’t really cross my mind at that time

[grim void]

@north karma if i ask u what grades u got and u got shit grades in a public server

[north karma]

The point is jus to make u accountable for the shit u said

[plush depot]

what did falcon do

[grim void]

if u dont respond we know u got shit grades

right?

[north karma]

Well

In most cases

[grim void]

we will assume that

[north karma]

Since yk me ig

[grim void]

also if its katnix

she will assume that

[opal prism]

Well sometimes people don’t want to say they grade even they did well

[opal prism]

What?

What will I assume exactly ?

[north karma]

I think this should be directed to the person u wrote the message to

[grim void]

why put someone in a spot where they're like "if I tell I got bad grades the whole fucking server will know"
what do I do

[opal prism]

Well both me and falcon asked someone what they got for there results and that was totally brain dead of us cause we shouldn’t have said that and I realize that too late tbh

[north karma]

And the rest of the convo could end

Any argument here wont really do much

[grim void]

Ok then u admit that's all bye

[opal prism]

@vivid pendant sorry for asking

I didn’t really realize

[plush depot]

oh myb i didnt see falcon

white mode wierd asf

[grim void]

by morals I meant ik that I shouldn't put someone already sad for their results in an uncomfortable spot by asking them results unless they themselves tell me

@north karma purge incoming when btw?

[north karma]

Eh

[opal prism]

😭

[north karma]

I hope they dont remove the apology atleast

[opal prism]

I just realized how brain dead that was

[north karma]

Em dont delete the important stuff p please ily

[plush depot]

xx

[slate sky]

Man u guys all are talking about grades here

[slate sky]

But no one replied to this 😭

[pastel lark]

ok so i know this is dumb but i feel so guilty when people spend money on me

almost like i'm stealing from them

like i know its logically not correct but my parents have been getting me stuff for uni and i feel like i'm literally making them bankrupt

[pastel lark]

if your school isn't interested in making sure you do well then forget them and make sure you do well on your own

like learn and revise the syllabus yourself (youtube, revision guides, past papers, a tutor if you are able to get one)

2-3 months is tight but if you really push yourself you'll be able to pull yourself up and get a good mark

you can 100% do this.

worst thing is if you rely on the school when it seems like they don't care if you do well or not

i was homeschooled for my igcses and a-levels so you can DM me if you want advice about teaching yourself subjects

[glossy pewter]

I was curious 💀

[grim void]

1- when ur old u dont rlly need heaps of money u just r happy seeing ur children be happy and well settled so dw it makes them happy spending money on u
2- u can always pay them back by spending time with them and giving them an easy old life when u get somewhere in life
3- if ur still unpleased u can think of it as an investment on u (which isnt technically correct as theyre ur parents)

does this make sense ?

[slate sky]

I actually had a typo

💀

I have two - three weeks

I am giving exams in Oct Nov

[glossy pewter]

Oh

[glossy pewter]

Actually nothing is impossible if you put your mind to it

If I am right the exams have days between them

[slate sky]

No

Not really

[glossy pewter]

Seriously

[slate sky]

I do not really have any gap between the exams too

The exam schedule is so bad

[glossy pewter]

Hmmm then I would just recommend studying a lot and burning your midnight oil

Just do tons and tons of past papers

Read through the syllabus quickly

And have flash cards which you can use right before the exam

I know it isn’t much but you can’t just give up so close to your exams @slate sky

Work hard

And it will never fail you

Never

[slate sky]

@glossy pewter this is my timetable for week 1

17 October Pure Maths

19 October Physics - structured

[olive wadi]

unrelated but i like ur pfp

[slate sky]

20 October CS - theory

[slate sky]

21 October - Literature (Drama and Poetry)

22 October - CS paper 2

[glossy pewter]

Hmm it is tight

[slate sky]

thanks I will dm u too

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to nehtisham#0381

[slate sky]

yeah and I have like no time to study for CS

[glossy pewter]

But if I am right there is about 20 days left

[slate sky]

man u know they have CS paper 2 on my birthday too

[glossy pewter]

Okay so I did cs on my own

And I did pseudocode in like two weeks before the exam

[slate sky]

damn how

what did u do?

[glossy pewter]

I just used the textbooks

And ton and tons of past papers

Like a lottt

Because cs has a shortage of questions

[slate sky]

damn

[glossy pewter]

The structure is the sameee

[slate sky]

like I wonder how to answer those questions

Does the textbook guide you well for psuedocode?

[glossy pewter]

||gonna be honest I memorized the ms for most||

[slate sky]

damn and u got an A

[pastel lark]

lol thanks

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Kyoshi#2711

[glossy pewter]

Not a lot but it was all I got

[glossy pewter]

Ikr 💀

[slate sky]

yeah did u get a PUM btw

[glossy pewter]

What’s that 👀

[slate sky]

Percentage uniform mark

[glossy pewter]

Oh yeah it wasn’t that bad tbh

I don’t remember the mark

[pastel lark]

yeah i guess i just kinda feel bad that I'm leaving them and going off to uni and they're going to have to do everything without me plus i'm costing them so much.

like i feel underserving

[slate sky]

was it over 90?

[grim void]

most u can do is make them feel like they didnt waste money on u

so just keep that in mind

[glossy pewter]

Nah 😂

Around there

[slate sky]

oh ok

[glossy pewter]

But yeah @slate sky just don’t give up

[slate sky]

anyways thanks for helping

[glossy pewter]

Work and work some more

[slate sky]

yeah I try to

[glossy pewter]

Need any help you know the / ask

[slate sky]

I have 1 - 2 weeks of study break coming up

[pastel lark]

bro u can do it!!!! true story: i was getting a D on A-level physics 3 weeks before the exam and somehow somehow I ended up an A and I am literally not smart at all

please don't give up!!!

[glossy pewter]

Oh that’s amazing

[slate sky]

yeah hopefully I can revise everything

[glossy pewter]

You can don’t doubt yourself

[slate sky]

because I have English literature too

[glossy pewter]

Well I didn’t do eng lit so I can’t say but the other subs it is very possible

Like maths if you figure it out

[slate sky]

and poetry takes up a lot of my time

[glossy pewter]

It is the same

[slate sky]

@glossy pewter tbh I am almost ready for maths

so thats good

[glossy pewter]

Good

[pastel lark]

for eng lit make sure that whatever points you make are backed up with quotes from the text

[glossy pewter]

Then move on to a subject you are almost done with as well

[pastel lark]

and don't be afraid to go off on a tangent if you can back it up

[slate sky]

damn yeah

Its just the time thats annoying

[pastel lark]

do you know what poems will come up in the exam? like is there a set number they've asked you to study?

[slate sky]

yeah there are 30 of them

anyone can come up

plus I have a big novel + Shakespeare play to revise

and there is unseen essay too

[glossy pewter]

Do you know most of them

[pastel lark]

ok so the best thing to do is just go thru with a highlighter and pick out some themes that come up

you don't need to memorise them or anything

and when you are answering the question make sure you mention those themes

[slate sky]

idk actually but don't even know the names of some poems

[glossy pewter]

I will let n help you in eng cause I never did it 😂

[slate sky]

will do that thanks

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to nehtisham#0381

[pastel lark]

for text again you don't need to know every twist and turn of the plot just the overall thing

they won't ask you to repeat the plot

[slate sky]

yeah I hope not

[pastel lark]

they want to know what you think of it and if you can back up what you say

so the themes thing again here

[slate sky]

@glossy pewter btw they choose an African novel for literature for us lol

[pastel lark]

also there were these really cringe rap videos that I found but they really helped me for shakespeare https://www.bbc.co.uk/programmes/articles/4w5xvV324jx463XyCyctnBs/shakespeare-in-shorts

[pastel lark]

what's the book about in general? like does it try to talk about freedoms, justice, etc?

[slate sky]

@pastel lark u know this year, surprisingly the Shakespeare book that my school choose is half decent

[slate sky]

its about a deception

Basically how deception can be both good and bad

and limited rights of women and people in lower class

[pastel lark]

ok so make sure you mention that when you write. have like 2-3 quotes that help you illustrate your point (you can reuse the same ones over and over)

[pastel lark]

if you're feeling brave then you could try to argue the opposite of what they suggest in the question. like if the obvious answer is that something is bad, try to argue that it is good. it's a gamble but if you do it well it really impresses the examiners

[slate sky]

I tried doing that twice actually

One time is it didn't work

Another time, it did

[pastel lark]

honestly it's a gamble

only do it if you're really confident

[slate sky]

yeah u know I improved from a D/E to because to an A in mock because of that

[pastel lark]

nice!!!

[slate sky]

yeah I hope somehow I get an A

But u know my literature marks vary a lot ngl

[glossy pewter]

You will

[pastel lark]

you will honestly. don't sabotage yourself with doubt

[slate sky]

thanks for the motivation

I should go and study now

bye guys

[glossy pewter]

Bye man

Good luck

[pastel lark]

good luck!

[glossy pewter]

That hurt but yeah it was my mistake

[mossy delta]

thank you for your words , yeah i realized its okay to feel nothing , i dont owe him any emotion , ^-^ appreciate the advice

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Lavender#2895

[drowsy pelican]

Yessss you don't owe your ex that :)) also I think you might like the song- "it's ok if you forget me" by Astrid S. It's about sort of a similar experience <3

[ruby stone]

Fuck calculus

[hollow oyster]

Gladly

[glossy pewter]

Don’t exactly know what it is 👀

[grim void]

didnt u do some calculus in AS

[glossy pewter]

Well what is calculus

I don’t know what topics they were

[grim void]

integrals is a part of calculus

[glossy pewter]

Ohhh then it’s not that bad tbh

[grim void]

u did the ez shit

basic differentiation integration

[glossy pewter]

Ig 👀

[hollow oyster]

have you ever seen dy/dx

or a ∫

[olive wadi]

I think im mentally tired and fed up of doing things i dont rlly have interest in

my retakes start soon so i wont dwell on this much i will forget it by the morning cus im amazing at supressing feelings but uh i rlly do feel mentally exhausted from not having fun of what i do

i still study decently but im mot 100% , 70-80% at best bec i lack the motivation or drive to give the remaining 20% i just dont have interest in what im studying nor what i am gonna study in uni

truth is i wanna be a fucking gamer i wanna grind out games like csgo or valorant and be a top player and compete i love competing in games i have so much interest in it but i dont rlly have the balls to leave my progress mid way and just pursue a path that may or may not work out

idk what the fuck i will do with my life but on bright side im studying my way back to fix my grades , enter good uni and what not but also at the same time im rlly tired of just doing shit bec i have to , for once i wanna do something bec i fucking want to

i dont wanna pass away before at least taking a shot at what i think i wanna do

Idk where my current path leads me i just know its making@me a better person and student , i just hope one day i get the chance to chase what i rlly have passion for

before its too late

last thing i want in this life is to be someone who didnt even try to go after what he loved and live in regrets of that for a lifetime.

[hollow oyster]

I understand that feeling but honestly its only the beginning part of leaving the game that is the hardest, after a few days of playing less and less you might no longer have the drive to keep on going for hours daily

even 10 years later I am sure CSGO will stay alive, but the time for AL is short and will decide your future, sucks ik but what can ya do :/

[hollow oyster]

man for that I can just say look what it will do for you at the long run, most of my AL subs were boring and completely useless af but dammit its the only way to progress further

[hollow oyster]

gotta balance it out man, stuffing all that shit in yo head will cause you to just burnout, thats when gaming helps

I probably played krunker (minecraft CSGO) every week

[grim void]

true that mfing game never dies

[olive wadi]

i never got the chance to play that game for long periods of time or grind it cus im always stuck with responsibilities and studies so i dont think that passion is gonna easily just die off

[olive wadi]

yeah csgo will be alive but i cant be aiming to be an esports player at 29 years old whos just about to begin his career nah these are the foundation years u build it now , otherwise why even bother

[olive wadi]

Yeah sadly im not scadinavian and sadly this is how education system is so not much i can do other than follow it

[olive wadi]

its going good so far for me studies wise i dont feel the burn out bec i take breaks at right times to balance it out and i expose myself just enough to these games to stay motivated to grind studies so i can play more later but not get too attached or addicted

Overall this was just a small venting sesh for me , most of the time im doing well at least past few months i have been on the upwards trajectory consistently and sometimes it feels good to share some of these feelings and desires im not able to satisfy yet

thanks for ur advice brave , means a lot

[plush depot]

how about play csgo instead of sleeping

thats 5-8 hours

[plush depot]

like a true chad

[olive wadi]

if body didnt require sleep on god i’d do that without hesitation

i alrdy sacrifice enough of my sleep as it is to play

[drowsy pelican]

I am sorry you're feeling like this! Growing up is hard. Having to make decisions about future is hard. It feels like you have to have everything figured out and if you don't- you have to stay in a situation you are unhappy in.

Firstly, there might be a major/course that you'll be more interested in than what you're currently doing. You can take that instead of what you're currently taking. Maybe taking a major that has a lot of possibility in it will help. Major doesn't equal exact career <33

Secondly, if you think you'll be more secure and happier gaming you can make it your plan A. And if there is a possibility that it might not work out, make some plans so that you'll be able to go back to your plan B! Put your happiness and mental health first :) No one really knows what the future holds. It's guessing and planning, and leaving yourself open to opportunities and that isn't a bad thing. You have time to jump around from plan to plan until you find thr one you truly are happy with. It can be a scary for sure, but it's so much better than going with the flow and not being happy

[olive wadi]

Yeah you have no idea how much i went thru this year alone and what decisions i had to make , i dont regret it bec it was either grind my way back or give up so im happy to have chosen to fix my life but yeah it kinda sucks not doing something i enjoy for this long.

And yeah you are right about that , i have decided to pursue a major that interests me , maybe it wont be something i enjoy that much or am that good at but its definitely something i wont be complaining studying , it interests me at least and sounds fun. But yeah pretty much anything can happen at uni and onwards , its just this stupid obstacle of getting into uni thats so troublesome , but its something im slowly about to overcome soon i hope.

I am thinking of making it a priority when i enter uni , so i do my uni work and maintain a decent average but then in my remaining free time focus on getting better at the game i wanna play and maybe eventually it leads to something yk a career maybe but if it doesnt i'll still be in uni or by that point already got the uni degree so its a win win situation ig , i dont feel burnt out or hopeless or demotivated or anything im just a bit tired of being a lone wolf for so long. Going to library evreyday grinding solo , not having that many ppl to share my feelings with. Yeah i have a ton of friends and i go out a lot with my mates but im talking about someone close to me emotionally yk? most of those ppl moved out to other countries or we parted ways so i have been a lone wolf for a very long ass time which is unsual for me but i did it anyway and will continue doing it , i guess its just been a very long while since i have been genuinely happy. This doing what i love topic is a minor issue rn , i will deal with this later after retakes after i secure uni entrance.

thank you for your advice thou i will keep it in mind and its rlly good to hear some reassurance once a while , been a minute for sure haha , thanks lots :)

[stuck mango]

Can relate the last part
Although I've been happy a lotta times, I've never really got friends as good as the ones I had 7 years ago. I've been lonely ever since; have had friends but none as good as those ones man I wish life could rewind and there could be someway to get good friends now but ig that's just the way life is and ig ill be lonely for at least a couple of years tho I don't see myself getting as good friends anymore. Sucks but has been like this for a really long time and it'll just be like this forever

Honestly I think the kind of person I am no one would even want to be good friends with me leave alone relationships

But hey, you never know - maybe this loneliness might lead to something good later

I tried reconnecting with some of my old friends but it's been so long that it didn't quite work out well

[slate sky]

Man same

Have been loosing friends over the years rather making new ones

[mild compass]

Same boat here

Its just people move on

We have to keep on fighting for happiness but at what cost is the real question

[olive wadi]

I dont have problem making new friends or finding new bestfriends its just that i have been emotionally detached from myself and others for a while now since i put my head down and grinded my ass off for long time now so thats why i kinda felt mentally tired a bit

It does take lotta time to find ppl with same or similar mindset as u to befriend so dont rush it but be socially active i mean i go outside everyday , weekends i go to ielts class (mostly to socialize tbf) and weekdays i meet up with friends or try to make some if i meet ppl like theres tons of ways of making friends i mostly make mine online and meet irl

[stuck mango]

Ah nice nice

[hollow oyster]

@olive wadi how about you start getting higher ranked by bitches

[olive wadi]

its been rough

i went on like 3-4 dates this month

no one rlly caught my interest

[hollow oyster]

Try dudes

[olive wadi]

nah i have enough dudes acting like weirdos around me

[grim void]

@hollow oyster we all dead if naf is struggling with bitches

[olive wadi]

nah fam all u gotta do is socialize and befriend more ppl

something i will get to do soon more after retakes

Or alternatively u find 1 girl and do the adnan method

talk everyday for 6 months and once the algorithm is beaten u are good to go

[hollow oyster]

@grim void hes currently using only 1% of his socializing ability

[grim void]

and then there's u and me

[grim void]

how much days left for first exam

[olive wadi]

1.5 weeks , 10th October

so next next monday

[grim void]

bro wtf that's rlly close goodluck

[hollow oyster]

Yeah bro gl

[olive wadi]

yeah man but unlike previous times i make every day count , grindin till the last moment 🤙

[olive wadi]

ty bro

[grim void]

Hell yeahh

[drowsy pelican]

Rip but it is good to hear you think stuff is getting better and you made the right decision this year :) Also yeah, it is ouch not being able to give enough time to the stuff that you love. Omg ayyy! Studying what you are interested in >

Ow :( you think you haven't been genuinely happy because you feel lonely orrr? But aaa dang, feeling alone can definitely be bothering ⚰️ well you can try to get closer to your friends? Usually talking one on one helps me to get closer to people, you can maybe try that if it's possible

AND you got thiss! Good luck with university, finding genuine friends, plsu getting enough time for what you like doing :)) Here for you if you need to talk <3

[grim void]

bro if studying doesn't work out for u don't worry u can always become a therapist

u got the talent

[drowsy pelican]

LMAO being a therapist seems exhausting

Also thank you :))

[mossy delta]

im burnt out and the exams are starting

what do i do

[olive wadi]

Yeah im glad to have made this choice it will get me somewhere , giving up is so easy but grinding my way back is another satisfaction , i guess giving up isnt my thing. But ya hopefully i will get to enjoy what i do once i get into Uni its all i ask for tbh
No no im not lonely at all i have family snd friends around and i go out with em regularly its just that i have been so concentrated on my goals and grinding non stop i have been ignoring my emotions without meaning to , im an emotional guy so for me its a huge deal that i went full asian parent mode and ignored emotions just grinded my way , dw i socialize and plan to do more soon after exams , its just that i wanna find someone that i connect with on an emotional lvl yk?

And thank u lots!! i’ be giving it my best shot and it means a lot that someone like u is here to chat with me hehe i appreciate you and im always here too if u need me , being reliable is what i do :)

[drowsy pelican]

Ahh woops! Suppressing emotions is so awful akdjsjd, sorry you had to do that, it sucks. Journaling might help with not suppressing emotions even when they are hard to deal with and realising how you can move to a better headspace <3 I hope you can give more thought and time to your emotions and needs!! Annnd good luck with finding someone you can connect with on an emotional level. people like that can be hard to find, but they are so worth it :) Sending you hugs

[drowsy pelican]

THANK YOU

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Kyoshi#2711

[olive wadi]

Yeah ur right i’ll look into this more after exams so like next month haha its just been a while since i paid attention to this yk but tysmm i will do my best! and thank uuu im hoping to find someone like that sooner than later but meh no rush if it means i get to find a rlly good person , and ur right they are worth the wait

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Lavender#2895

[olive wadi]

sending hugs back

[olive wadi]

ur most welcomee

[drowsy pelican]

Aaaa dang exams, good luck! Hope you do great :) Ooh yeah, it makes sense that you want to find them soon-ish haha, it's a want that sticks ⚰️ gl gl gl, hopefully everything turns out amazing for youu

[drowsy pelican]

Lmao ouch, ty

[glossy pewter]

Islets of langerhans 💀

[olive wadi]

thankkk uuu lotsss

[olive wadi]

ouch? 🥺

[olive wadi]

bro thats giving me some ptsd 💀💀

that fucking name i couldnt memorize at all

[slate sky]

take a break for a couple of days

first

then study

if u are doing Oct/Nov I think exams for most people start 2 weeks later

[drowsy pelican]

You're welcomee :))

[drowsy pelican]

Skajaj that hug emote looks painful 👀

[olive wadi]

i have always been a tight hugger 😔

[drowsy pelican]

Hahaha, you don't say

[olive wadi]

[severe valley]

im so fucking pissed rn
i just ended a friendship with 2 of my friends and one of them has an audacity to say L bozo ratio pussy stuff like that
to be friends with one he fucked up friendship with the other
bro didnt even try to find a solution to make both parties happy

[mossy delta]

lolll i havent studied in 6 day i wanna die heck

i dont have motivation burnt out

[drowsy pelican]

Aw noo :(( Burnouts are the worst! I was just in that, still trying to get out of it haha, butttt giving time to your needs is super helpful (at least for me)
This might seem like doing "unproductive" stuff at first, things such as socialising, self-care, getting enough rest, etc. BUT proactive anticipation of needs isn't the same as being lazy. If you give your needs time you're able to be more productive since you cut out on time you waste doing absolutely nothing because you can't focus. Also, sometimes motivation doesn't come, and it's sort of useless to wait for it :/ Sometimes you have to work without the motivation and just hope for it to come while you're working. It sucks, but it happens. You got this :)

Aaaa plus maybe doing a little every day will help? Good luck, you will do greattt <3

[mild compass]

If you aren't already doing it then do pick up Psychology imo @drowsy pelican

[mild compass]

Honestly, there's this quote I think a lot of people know about already but

'Inspiration exists, but it has to find you working.'
— Pablo Picasso

So you have to kind of just slowly get in it

And eventually there's this drive that builds up

And you go with it

[drowsy pelican]

I AM but I don't think I will take it in university haha

also omg a level psychology is so much useless information 😔

[drowsy pelican]

yess! consistency worfs so much better than motivation

works

[mild compass]

well I think we humans come pre installed with a lot of useless information too depending on where we're from but I think you'd be a good psychologist regardless

[mild compass]

yeah and over time you get better so I ditched the motivation thing and instead went for consistency

Because otherwise I would be sitting at a dead end for some time

And it'd not help at all

Better to study 6 hours in 6 days than to study 6 hours at the last day

[drowsy pelican]

hahaha bet, and thank youu! I just uh can't handle too much abnormal psychology ⚰️ and and and I suck at advice about certain things so

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to shareq01#9633

[drowsy pelican]

but studying behavioural and social psychology >>

[drowsy pelican]

woooo that's great :))

[plush depot]

true

[mossy delta]

Thank you so much for your words

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Lavender#2895

[mild compass]

Ohh

[mild compass]

that's one of the mind boggling things (quite literally)

[mild compass]

it helps me quite a bit you know like just get on with it dont wait for stuff to hit you like a train or you're just left wounded last moment

[mossy delta]

urgghh my life gets worse each passing moment

im done with people

everything just sucks

[drowsy pelican]

Aw yeah! I get that haha, I don't ever want to go through the last minute studying again skdkdjdj

[drowsy pelican]

Dang that seems rough! Here for you if you need someone to listen or talk with <3

[mossy delta]

Im so overwhelmed! i feel like im cursed like first i get dumped then my ex starts posting bad things about me online then my mum is sick , then i get demoted as a prefect because of my ex , then im sturggling to study , then i down in the dumps and my exams are in 2 days time

im just

drowning in it

[drowsy pelican]

Aw :( I am sorryy about all of that, that sounds awful. Hopefully your mother will be okay soon! If you are comfortable telling, why did you get demoted because of your ex? Is it because of the bad things they are posting online?

You should reach out to someone, don't keep it all to yourself. Discuss this with your friends, tell a trusted adult what's going on—if people know what you're going through they will help. A good support system always helps <3 Also, try to confront your ex about the posts after discussing what might be the best way to do it with anyone you trust. Going through a situation like this can be overwhelming but remember those bad posts aren't indicative of you, but the person who is posting them. It's hard. It might seem like the world is against you, but it will be okay

Anddd taking care of your mental health is important, I know it's hard but try not to stress too much over exams. Grades don't determine your self-worth, you're a human not a letter grade. Yes, they can be important but they are not more important than your mental health. Good mental health makes it easier to deal with school :) Maybe just try doing the bare minimum of studying every day? And not being able to study right now doesn't mean you didn't study at all the complete year, you're going to do great in your exams, you got this :) Everything will get better, struggling right now doesn't mean struggling forever <3

[olive wadi]

Ik this is venting but a @drowsy pelican appreciation post wouldn't hurt , thank you Lavender for putting time and effort trying to help ppl here by giving advice or just listening , myself included , not many ppl do this so i like to appreciate those few who do , thanks ❤️

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Lavender#2895

[stuck mango]

Well said

[mossy delta]

He had been posting about me bunking school to study and its a serious offence at our school , i took my own study leave without permission and he posted pictures of me at the library reading and was saying " she's preganant thats why shes bunking " " shes ----" like he was speculating my leave , im still trying to appeal for my return as a prefect cause im so devasted . i talked to him yesterday and he said ' im upset things ended between us i want revenge because im hurt" which is very funny consifering he dumped me

hes so confused he wants me to beg and get back to him by ruining my life and reputation ?

i dont get it

[olive wadi]

thats one seriously fucked up sucker who cant make up his mind on his own actions

dont even try to understand such ppl , my psycho ex used to threaten me of killing herself if i didnt go back to her , i rlly hate such ppl

[slate sky]

damn

tbh all of this pretty sad

[olive wadi]

im sorry u have to experience this sort of a mess especially in ur age , its gonna be rough getting out of this but nothing u cant handle

[slate sky]

I think maybe the best thing here would be simply to ignore him

[olive wadi]

sometimes life throws some real bad shit at us , but strong ppl always pull out and u are one of those , if u werent u would of given up alrdy

thats my 2 cents

[drowsy pelican]

That's so messed up ⚰️ People can be so cruel :( He being hurt isn't an excuse to hurt others, he stinks. What you're going through is awful, but you're not the things he post about you, nor you are the opinions of others. What he is doing says more about him than it says about you, and anyone who is a decent human will understand. And it's not going to feel like that right now, but it will all be okay. You're strong enough to get through this <3

[drowsy pelican]

AAAA THAT'S SO NICE

Thank you so muchhh <3

[silver loom]

Isn't there anyone you can report him to? I mean this is serious, if you can get some help from a trusted adult, maybe your parents or a teacher or some head in school then you should try, if you have those images use them as evidence. Taking pictures of someone without them knowing is basically spying, then posting them without your permission? Surely there's someone who'll understand your side of things if you can get them to listen.
This is just a little advice, you don't have to take it but I think it would be good if you could tell someone about what's really going on

[olive wadi]

U are so welcome!

[slate solar]

i gave my chem practical paper today and it was literally the worst paper i have ever sat for in my entire life. i feel v down bout it bc i feel like studying is the only thing i’m good at and i’m scared that if i dont get straight A* for A levels i don’t even know how to show my face to people anymore.
ik this may seem unimportant and maybe i’m overthinking and reacting but idk i can’t shake this feeling for the whole day now.
perhaps, is there a chance to get A* for chem if my other papers r good? TT

thank u in advance<3

[grim void]

I remember my math m1 went rlly bad since I just straight up left few questions due to tight time. Then I couldn't focus on other papers since I was like man fuck this I fked up m1 what's the point I don't wanna study So first I would suggest forget u get an A or B or C just dont let this exam effect ur prep for other exams. And yes my m1 was actually bad like I think my grade was not an A BUT I covered for it with my P1 where I got an A SO don't worry u can still get an A if u do good in p1 p2. ALSO remember weightage of the p3 is not that high compared to other too. Sure u might be bad in practical work but u can certainly cover for it with ur theory in p1 p2
Secondly yes most of the time if u get few questions wrong in ur cie u overthink ALOT. I told my friends I messed up bio p1 just because when I was standing with a group of 2-3 ppl they all got 3 mcqs right which I had done wrong.
It's like ur brain thinks others did so well and doesn't focus on the fact that u didn't do so bad. Anyways few weeks after paper I realised I didn't fk it up and it was actually just me going crazy.

so just forget it and focus on other papers p3 isn't that important compared to p1 p2 and immediately after the paper ur brain often goes crazy so think about ur p3 after like 2-3 weeks and goodluck for ur next papers

[mossy delta]

I think ill try that , i shouldnt let him distract me from my exams

[mossy delta]

Thank you for your words , lettting it all out made me feel better , i apperciate you!

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Lavender#2895

[mossy delta]

Yes you are right , highschool drama is temporary

[slate solar]

i’ve seen u explain stuffs and help other people and u always put effort and sincerity into it. ur an amazing human being! what u said really makes me feel better thank u so much

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to zephron#7239

[grim void]

Appreciate it alot man 😄
Goodluck for ur future exams

[drowsy pelican]

awww :) I am gladdd!

[glossy pewter]

So

Yesterday night my friend passed away

It feels like a dream

Ah

So will probably be outta discord for a few days

See ya guys till then

[hollow oyster]

Man I'm so sorry to hear that

[hollow oyster]

I understand how you feel :/

[hollow oyster]

Take your time man, good luck

[daring moth]

Yes take ur time , and hope you feel better soon

[grim void]

Bro rlly sorry to hear that my best wishes to u and his family

[slate sky]

I am so sorry to hear that. Take your time and best wishes to you and his family. See you when u come back.

[unreal shadow]

im so sorry to hear that, hope you and his family feel better soon🙏🙏

[plush depot]

rip

my deepest condolences to their family

[mild compass]

My condolences 💐

[valid sun]

My condolences...

[upbeat jolt]

My condolences

[pastel lark]

I don't know you that well, but my sincere condolences.

I hope one day you will be able to remember your friend and smile instead of feeling sad 💐

[cold quiver]

can ii vebt to someone in private

[lament cloud]

Check #984259446047899649

[mossy delta]

im having an anxiety attack my issue has gotten worse]

[daring moth]

Hey what's up???

[rose heath]

how are you feeling right now?

[mossy delta]

im a bit calm

but

i now know not to trust people ever again

[mild compass]

Can i please vent to somebody in dm

It’s personal

[stuck mango]

Sure

[lament cloud]

Heyy, in the future if you ever need to vent, you are more than welcome to check out #984259446047899649

[olive wadi]

thats just the start

[raw forum]

so I never believed in academic validation until it started happening to me, I just do not know how to get rid of it, and the fact that I have zero confidence is not helping. It became so bad that I feel like I am not good at anything and I just keep on overworking myself, I got a D (maths) and I felt like I was going crazy

[acoustic ore]

@raw forum same thing happened with me and I ended up dropping maths all together I tried so hard but the constant failure was driving me to depression

[raw forum]

@acoustic ore I get it, it is good that I will not be needing maths after March and June since I am on my IGCSE. But the thing about being good at everything but not being sure what is that that would suit me is driving me crazy because I do not want to end up choosing wrong As and A Levels.

[acoustic ore]

@raw forum I finished my IGCSE last year and I had the same concern, especially since I didn't know what I wanted to do in the future. I ended up taking some time to find something that interests me and it was psychology. I knew I had to make a decision about my AS subjects before the year was over or else it wouldn't have worked out. It's a lot pressure

@raw forum do you have an idea of what you want to be ?

[raw forum]

I do not. But I am interested in psychology as well, sociology, history and literature

[raw forum]

but I like I do not know what would my future job be since these subjects are not valued as they used to be

[acoustic ore]

I'm also considering sociology

@raw forum but if that's what you're interested in, then why not go for it ? After all you're the one who will be doing the job, not someone else

[olive wadi]

Idk what yall will be studying in the future but Maths is in general such a core subject i think u lose way too much by dropping it and its not an impossible to learn subject with enough grinding u can always get a decent grade

Ur life ur choices but from my experience , i was told to drop maths by my math teacher however back then a senior told me to keep maths bec it will be always useful so i did and she was right its my most useful subject , its widely accepted by most/all universities

Upto u guys but imo u will not regret picking maths as an A Levels subject

[slate sky]

I agree but English is as important as maths ngl

[slate sky]

With these subjects, u can maybe think about being a lawyer

All of these are good subjects for that

And most of these subjects give you relevant skills to argue / debate / convince your ideas, which is not only an excellent skill needed to become a lawyer but also in life in general

However, some sort of knowledge about maths is essential too

Tbh I think that being good at just one of maths or English/literacy subjects does not always get you a good job or opportunities

[acoustic ore]

I really tried keeping AS math but it was too much for me. Just not cut out for it. My grade in igcse is good enough for what I wanna study

[raw forum]

I was thinking about international relations as I grew to like it

[raw forum]

I understand, like maths is beautiful once you start getting into it but I just can't seem to like it

[acoustic ore]

@raw forum try your best and see how it goes

[raw forum]

I will try, I just want to get B or A on IGCSE. I hope I''ll succeed

[acoustic ore]

@raw forum do a lot of past papers. They will help you

[raw forum]

I will, tnx

[acoustic ore]

All the best of luck 👍

[kindred sage]

hey so this is my first time on here. and i dont really hv anyone to go to rn so uhm ig imma just vent here. so im currently sitting for my igs and i've been homeschooled since mid last year. and it's not been easy, staying at home and trying to study and yk not having friends to talk to like i used to in school. and home feels like living hell for me. i dont get along with my mum. my dad only cares bout my grades and ntg else. and i just got out of a toxic relationship with my ex. and he still keeps bugging me to take him back. and bcoz of my ex, i lost a guy who i genuinely started to like after my breakup with my ex. and i miss that new guy alot but he's moved on and im still stuck in this dark dark hole and sometimes i wished my life never existed so i wouldnt have to go thru all this. just so much darkness and pain and stress and anxiety. it's just all too much sometimes.

[acoustic ore]

Hey! You're really overwhelmed right now so just take a minute to slow down and just take a breather. Honestly i get what you're going through minus the toxic ex part. I feel like my mom only cares about my grades too and sometimes I avoid going home because she's around. The situation with your ex and the new guy, try your best to start anew and just try your best to get through your igcse. And you can try making friends in your neighbourhood

[drowsy pelican]

That sounds very difficult :/ Here if you ever need someone <3 Being homeschooled is hard. I don't know exactly how you feel, but I have been self-studying since I started A level and it's definitely harder than going to school. Maybe you can try going out and making friends in parks, malls, clubs, etc? You can also try befriending people online and then meeting them in real life.

Aw noo :(( It's hard not getting along with people you live with, especially your parents. Here if you want to talk more about that <3 About your dad, sometimes parents don't realise how much pressure they are putting on their kids. Maybe talking about this with your dad will help. If it doesn't you’re not responsible for what other people put on you. You are not defined by one thing nor should you be forced to be. You are magnitudes of your experiences, intentions, and values. You don’t need to be defined by what other people want

Also ouch toxic relationships, I am glad you're out of it now <3 I hope you can ignore your ex and remove him from your life completely. And maybe you can try talking with the new guy again, you guys can talk out whatever went wrong. If nothing, it will at least give you closure so you can stop overthinking about all of that :) And I am sorry that you wish your life didn't exist. But eventually you find reasons, external and internal, to be happy. Just be nice to yourself, life is long and complicated and it’s okay to feel overwhelmed. It’s okay to feel stuck. But it will pass <3 ALSO I love your pfp, so cuteeee

AH hihi I usually don't like venting but maybe it will make me feel better. I don't want to talk with my family about this cause they are already going through a lot. And I am taking a break from my friends for a while and I find it hard to talk about stuff that is bothering me with people I know jsdsjsj. So here goes, this year has been so hard :((( I feel like I get out of one stressful situation just to fall into another one. I really hope stuff gets better. I know everything passes. However I can't help thinking that what if a certain bad thing passes but something worse happens :/ I am really grateful that everything has turned out fine and stuff got better, but aaaaa I feel reaaally overwhelmed. I want to be completely stress-free for a little while. And that seems impossible right now

Around 10 days ago, my younger sister got dengue. It stinks. I love her so much, she is literally my favourite human ever. I do everything with her, I hate that she isn't feeling well. I hate that I can't make it better for her. I hate that I am so useless. And I don't know much about how dengue works, but aren't people supposed to get better in two weeks? Plus, my mother also got dengue and it's her second time getting it. I have heard it's worse when it happens the second time. Anddd it was really bad when it happened the last time, I am so scared :( And today it turns out my elder sister also has dengue. Suuuucks. So I am the only one, except my father, who is dengue free and I feel guilty for some reason. I have my first exam on 20th October. I haven't been able to study for the last week cause of the whole dengue thing. It's really stressful, and I feel so selfish thinking about my exams when my family is sick. I feel so lost

[soft cape]

Hihi! I understand what ur going thru... With the studies and all its hard... It's like ur mind is almost exploding and this heavy weight on your shoulder.....u want to take a break but u know u can't.... I totally get it. But it's OK to take rest and break for a while, don't be hard on yourself, that will just worsen your stress. And I am very sorry about your sister and your mom but please DO NOT feel that u r useless. U are doing everything in your power to help them, to make them happy and continue doing it even if the thing ur doing is just small. It makes them happy even if it's the smallest of things. Like I said, take a break, spend some time with ur family talk with them about what ur feeling too, they r ur best friends. And for your studies.....plan, set goals to achieve and don't rush. Do not be hard on yourself!

[wheat musk]

I'm so sorry to hear that. Hope your family gets better soon 🙂 My dad and I recently had dengue too and we had to get hospitalised. And yes I had dengue 3 weeks ago they will take one week and then one week after that to fully recover, but after that they'll be back to normal. Same thing happened to us, and like I had exams the week of recovery but I still went and I was tired that week but the next week, I felt much better. So trust me, your mom and sisters will feel better, and now I'm completely back to normal, so dw about your mom. She may be sick now, but it's dengue, it happens and she WILL get better. It is scary though. Mine was the first time but my bp came down pretty low and i fainted and yeah, it's scary, but the person taking care of the patients - it's also hard for them. And I'm pretty sure your mom and sisters appreciate any help you give them. Just make sure they rest and please be safe! Make sure you or your dad don't get dengue. And as for your exam, don't stress yourself out too much. Study as much as you can, but don't overwork yourself. I've been on the patient side but I did notice that my mom was super stressed out about taking care of us even after that. (She still is) for studies take it one step at a time and everything will be better soon.

And also for dengue, I'm speaking from experience of how you can help them:
Make sure they rest. The first few days i wa slike oh im fine im completely fine and then after that i was extremely tired and all. So let them rest. And if they have a fever and headaches and all, it's completely normal and what I remember the doctor saying is that the first 3 days are meh the 4-7 days are when the patient gets sick but after that they come back to normal pretty quick I remember him telling us that. If they feel sicker, do consult a doctor. MAKE SURE THEY DRINK LOTS OF FLUIDS.

[wheat musk]

And please don't think you're useless you're doing amazing taking care of patients is tough

You're doing the best you can and that's what matters

[wheat musk]

every time you help them, no matter how big or small it is, you're helping them and I'm sure they apprectiate it. It all counts

[wheat musk]

They can have fluids such as coconut water, juice and just water but just make sure they're hydrated. Annnd, FRUITS. Papaya is the best because apparently it helps with the platelet count because in dengue the platelet count decreases

[drowsy pelican]

Thank youu! And don't worry haha, I take a healthy amount of breaks when studying. Plus I am sure exams will go well, I just feel selfish thinking about them when my family isn't well. But thankkk you! I will try to talk about it with them once stuff gets better :)

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Shivani#1172

[drowsy pelican]

Ouch I am sorry you had to go through that! It sounds painful, especially with the exams going on. I am glad that you're okay now though :) AND THANK YOU SO MUCH <3 I get really anxious and I haven't been able to sleep for days. I suck in stressful situations, I worry too much ⚰️ But that really helped! I am hopeful everything will be okay! It is just- I don't know, this year has been a constant cycle of something serious going wrong. But, hey anxiety lies, stuff probably won't get bad again after this. Thank you so much, we are consulting a doctor! And he says it's normal, people do get better and then worse again in dengue. Recovery isn't a straight path. It's just that my younger sister already had anemia and her health isn't that good. But she is getting better :) I appreciate you a lotttt, you're amazing. Thankk youuu

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to anya#5917

[drowsy pelican]

Aww <3 I appreciate that

[drowsy pelican]

Yesss they are taking fluids, especially juice. My younger sister was vomiting a lot after eating/drinking so she isn't that hydrated but the others are hydrated. I know I am being repetitive but aaa I appreciate you so much <3

[wheat musk]

No worries! And omg same the cycle something going wrong the last few months have been crazy first my mom got covid and then my brother got covid then my dad and i got dengue and now my dog is sick too its crazyyy

[wheat musk]

And all the events followed each other

[wheat musk]

Yes they'll be back to normal in no time and ur sister will be fine just don't let her exert herself

[drowsy pelican]

Aw I am sorry about that! I hope your dog gets well <4 Also, hopefully no more stressful situations for you

[wheat musk]

Ahh, she'll get better and np at all

[drowsy pelican]

AJAJQJU YEAH, IT STINKS WHEN THST HAPPENS

Our minds need a break ⚰️

[drowsy pelican]

Thank youuu! I am trying haha <3

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to anya#5917

[wheat musk]

ikr and school isnt helping at all they just keep dumping hw like how am i supposed to go to hte vet hospital for like 4 hours a day twice a week ( my dog was rly sick but they finally figured out whats wrong and now he got medicines yesterday) and finish so much hw

[drowsy pelican]

Dang, school can be so hard. Especially the no breaks part! And I am glad they figured what's wrong with your dog, not knowing is scary

[wheat musk]

yep tyy hes getting better

[drowsy pelican]

Wooo! Good luck with school

[wheat musk]

Well wish your family a speedy recovery and you don't stress yourself out 🙂

[wheat musk]

ty

[drowsy pelican]

Thabk youu! I will try 👀

[lament cloud]

yep pretty much

[acoustic ore]

Oh damn okay

[upbeat jolt]

Yes

[acoustic ore]

I didn't know

[upbeat jolt]

Now you do

[kindred sage]

thanks so much for this. and bout talking with that new guy well i just found out that he's got a new gf already so uhm yeah that's gone for good. and bout mixing around with ppl, im an introvert. i have social anxiety so making friends isnt the easiest. and i live in a country where im part of the minority so in my neighbourhood there arent many ppl i can relate to and some ppl are racist towards my race so i'd rather not mix around with them. hopefully once i get in college after my igs i can make new friends

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Lavender#2895

[kindred sage]

try not to overwork yourself too much like ik how stressful it can be to not be able to study and deal with the whole dengue situation at home. hope everyone gets better soon🤍 take care

[mossy delta]

im literally p*ssing my self for history tommrow

ahhh

paper 1 is really frightining

[drowsy pelican]

Aaaa good luckkk! You got this <3

[drowsy pelican]

Aw thank you so muchh :)

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to thnshrthyln_#8986

[drowsy pelican]

Ahh I hope you can find someone who is better for you <33 Also, I understand! Social anxiety is such a struggle :( For most people talking with people online is a little easier than in person, you can try that, even if it seems like a tiny thing, you will make progres with social anxiety! Also, I get that online friends aren't the same as the ones you can meet in real life. It can be hard when the person you want to talk to isn't physically there, but having someone to talk with helps <3 I hope you can find really good friends once you start college. Sending you hugs!

And I want you to remember that your worth isn't determined by circumstances. You're still worth a lot and lovable even when you don't have anyone to tell you so! I am sure you're a great person to get to know, and while you're looking for people you can befriend, you can get to know yourself better on your own. That will be an awesome experience <33

[mossy delta]

Thank youu!

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Lavender#2895

[kindred sage]

Tysm

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Lavender#2895

[plush depot]

get some balls

stress balls

[acoustic ore]

I'd probably break windows with them

[mild compass]

AHHH FUCK

I HATE IT WHEN HAYZ GETS UNMUTED

WHY IS HE UNMUTED

he should BE MUTED FOR ALL ETERNITY

he SPEAK TOO MUCH AHHHHH

😡😡😡😡😡

[unreal shadow]

i feel you

[north karma]

Damn if u say the n word ill say it with u

[opal prism]

Stfu hayz

[north karma]

Oh shit this was in venting LOL

AHAHAH

Sorry mods

[steady hatch]

this paragraph is gonna be all over the place because there is so much i want to say all at once, ive been trying not to burden anyone with my bs and i just need to let some stuff out, i genuinely dont know what to do with myself and my life, i cant do anything right, i have so many assignments due and i cant solve anything ive spent over an hour trying to focus and solve a single exercise and ive only solved 2 by now, ive lost all hope for my future i dont want to do anything anymore, i CANT do anything anymore because im genuinely stupid i cant study properly without getting distracted or having mental breakdowns in between, ive lost my appetite, i force myself to eat, i force myself to shower so i dont smell, i force myself to do schoolwork so i dont get in trouble, i cant ask for anyone's help because im ashamed of my existence, and the problem is nothing bad is happening in my life rn to make me feel this way, everything's fine and i think im just overreacting about it, and im just so confused and frustrated about everything, i feel like im not real anymore, i feel like the most fake person ever, i change my personality so i fit in with the people im with to the point where thats all i do and i dont even recognize myself anymore, idk what i like and what i dont, idek how to communicate with people anymore i just awkwardly laugh and smile at everything not knowing what to say, these days ive been getting so many compliments about how nice and helpful i am towards everyone but i just immediately think that they're lying and how terrible of a person i actually truly am, sometimes i just stare at people and wonder how they put words so quickly together in their minds to say them outloud so easily, everythings frustrating, even talking to my friends seems like a chore to me now, ive been clean for over a year now and ive been having urges to relapse so bad its getting unbearable, idk what's wrong with me anymore but ill just have to deal with ig

[pastel lark]

hey, I just want to say that YOU ARE NOT A BURDEN TO ANYONE!!!!! Just because your brain tells you something doesn't make it true and in this case, it isn't true at all

sometimes life gets really overwhelming - you feel like you have a million different things you have to do and giving your all to everything means you get burnt out.

it's easy to say and much harder to do but focus on the thing, the step right in front of you.

It's like how at night, you can drive a whole car journey even though all you can see is the space in front of you that your headlights illuminate

It's ok to feel stressed and its ok to feel low - you aren't overreacting or being a burden

that being said, it's hard to deal with all these feelings on your own

if you don't feel like you can talk to your friends or your parents, then see if there are counselors at school or trusted teachers that you could talk to

it goes without saying that you can vent here anytime and we're all here for you

Right now, it might feel like nothing will ever go well in your life but trust me THINGS GET BETTER!!!! Again, just because your brain is telling you that you're worthless doesn't make it true!!!

[steady hatch]

idk i genuinely feel like a burden because all my friends r tired of me always telling them about how i feel and at school i cant trust any of the teachers and i already feel ashamed cuz im not even that academically smart and it's just embarrassing honestly

and thank you for comforting me i feel better :))

[pastel lark]

don't feel ashamed!! and you don't need to be 'academically smart' - there were studies showing that the 'smart' kids at school often struggle in real life bc they don't know how to motivate themselves and keep on going

I'm not sure where you live but there might be helplines that you can call where someone will offer you advice and it's completely anonymous

[steady hatch]

there isnt

im only a month through school and im already burnt out wow

[pastel lark]

perhaps it's worth taking time off school for self care? or at least cutting down on work for a bit while you recover. I know it seems lazy to reduce the amount of work you are doing but being burnt out doesn't go away by itself and if you keep on pushing yourself it will only get worse

[steady hatch]

i cant take time off school and i have to finish my work or it would create issues at school and at home

nothing's working out for me these days every little thing pisses me off and makes me want to bang my head on a wall

[pastel lark]

if the work itself is getting too much it's better to let someone know instead of suffering in silence

[steady hatch]

all my classmates r overloaded

[pastel lark]

i know that it feels bad to do so but its what you need to do

[steady hatch]

with assignments

and all that

[pastel lark]

you aren't your classmates! if you are finding it hard, do what works for you - it won't always be the same as what works for them

[steady hatch]

it's not only me and if we all did complain they're just gonna give us the excuse that "it's year10 u guys r supposed to put alot of effort so u can achieve an A*"

[steady hatch]

nobody will do anything even if i complained

[pastel lark]

also try finding a study technique that works for you - i personally struggled a lot with concentration and it was really impacting my work but i found that listening to background noise while studying helps

[steady hatch]

what kind of background noise

[pastel lark]

like white noise or nature noises

music tends to make me distracted

[steady hatch]

ill try listening to white noise

[daring moth]

Every single thing u said, every and each word , i could relate with it..like no difference...same..so yes just know that u are not alone feeling like this, at times almost all ppl feel like this , maybe not be facing the exact scenario,but all ppl have their ups and downs ..i know u prolly feel that if no ups in ur life and then have tendency to ask urself of y u exist, yes been there and I sometimes still do..it sometimes gets so overwhelming that everything at point feels toxic, like even ur own close frnds.....i would say i have been there and i knoe how it feelss this exact feeling...but know theres always some ppl there for you , ppl who will care for u no matter what even if u fail to recognize them , (thats what happened with me), even when u feel like they are just there doesn’t care about you..but they do ..and about feeling shit...well its only upto you...just stop caring what anyone else might thinking or saying, and that never hope for someone to be good to you even after u good to them...some ppl are just there who would just wouldn’t appreciate what you do..just be u..and about studies..well same heree! I still havent started grinding properly..wasting my time even tho i know I really shouldnt cuz I remember all the stress, anxiety, i went during my prev board exams just because I procrastinated the whole yr and only started studying just before tge exms..well thankfully my exams went all ryt but only i know what i went thru..it felt like even breathing was a tough work...so yh DO NOT PROCRASTINATE pllssss...like i know its hard not to knoe but yh just find yourself a way out of procrastination and study...you dont rlly have actually study 24/7 to get good grades..just be consistent, like consistency is actually the key to success, so just try to focus on what needs to be done , this includes not only studies but also u, do take care of urself both physical and mental health , and Hopefully u will get theree!!

[pastel lark]

find something that motivates you to study - even little things like cute pens and pencils or your favourite drink that you'll have while you study

romanticising my life really helped me with motivation

and you will get there I promise!! nothing ever lasts forever and this won't either

[daring moth]

That’s actually cute😁😁

[pastel lark]

you can do this. you reaching out and asking for help shows how brave you are for not suffering in silence

[daring moth]

Yeah did buy a pretty cute dairy to make write a to do list

[daring moth]

Yes exactly!

[steady hatch]

im so glad im not the only one who feels this way

[steady hatch]

i dont really know who to ask for help

[daring moth]

Yep me too!! But now i am trying to fix up things so i get better and hopefully u can do too

[pastel lark]

same! i went thru a time when I had chronic depression when I was doing a-levels and my sister was very ill

but it will pass and you'll be a stronger person for it

[steady hatch]

oh i hope ur sister is okay now

[pastel lark]

she's much better thanks!

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to zaraisdying#1656

[daring moth]

Glad to hear that actually!

[steady hatch]

thank you both for helping me

[pastel lark]

even if it's just venting here - it's still better than keeping all these feelings to yourself

[pastel lark]

np - i'm glad that you found it helpful!!!

I'm going to go offline now (uni essays tomorrow lol) but please DM me if you ever want to talk and I'll do my best to respond

[steady hatch]

goodluck with ur essays

[steady hatch]

thank you :))

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to nehtisham#0381

[daring moth]

Yessss exactly!! And it turns out i am again doing the same mistake i did in prev and i was feeling rlly bad about it ..but yh then I realized theres no point of this..this will only waste time and instead should change my ownself..and that u cant all ur bad habits in one go or just in one day..also once u stop u might do it again..it happens dw...just keep on trying!

[daring moth]

Yeah best of luckk!

[cosmic ginkgo]

Idk how our department is gonna deal with one of our lecturers passing away a few days ago

He teaches 2 modules I'm doing now so I have his videos to watch to cover the material..

He even studied here so a lot of the older lecturers taught him and then worked with him

And he was only 32 but he was so active in fighting for diversity for students

Didnt expect to see a day when I see the most stoic faced lecturer I know crying publicly

[mild compass]

Bro

My condolences

🥀

[pastel lark]

sincere condolences to all the staff and students in your department 💐

[slate sky]

My condolences. Hopefully everything will be better soon.

[wheat musk]

Hi! How are you and your family doing? Hope you're all better now 🙂

[mild compass]

:( sorry

[drowsy pelican]

aww thank youu!! that is superrr nice <33 my younger sister is still feeling unwell ⚰️ she gets chills and is almost always dizzy, plus her platelet count is lower than normal butttt she is getting better :) and my elder sister and my mom are so much better! what about youu? how is your dog? I hope school isn't too stressful

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to anya#5917

[wheat musk]

Ooohh well I wish her a speedy recovery. So glad to hear that about your elder sister and mom! I'm good, thanks! My dog is doing much better he's still dizzy and tired but he's much better like last week he wasn't moving at all and wasn't responding but now he's actually running around even though we're telling him not to so he's acting like himself slowly. School will always be too much but it's not too stressful now.

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to Lavender#2895

[drowsy pelican]

thank you so much! poor dog :( but yayy he is getting better! and aaa yes, school is always too much, goooood luck with it <33

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to anya#5917

[slate sky]

Man am so scared for this week. Lots happening. Have my first AS exam in a few hours.

[olive wadi]

good luck bro

ur gonna ace it

[slate sky]

Yeah I have P1 in like 3 hours 💀

[olive wadi]

i have S1 in like 10 hrs

[slate sky]

Damn

Good luck

[olive wadi]

thanks bro

[slate sky]

thanks

[cosmic ginkgo]

Thank you❤️

[green venture]

Gave +1 rep to nehtisham#0381

[daring moth]

[slate sky]

Man I am just feeling so sad rn. I had the worst maths exam of my life today.

[mossy delta]

Im panicking very badly for today

[hexed zenith]

i am very scared for chem😭

[mild compass]

SHIT GUYS MY MATH EXAM WAS SO GOOD WTF SO EASY SCAMBRIDGE WHY SO EASY GIVE ME CHALLENGE NEXT TIME BOZO XDDD 💪😏😏😏😏💯💯🙏🇳🇴🇳🇴🇳🇴🇪🇺🇪🇺🇪🇺

[daring moth]

I ok now

[daring moth]

Its alryt..just grind for the other component, so that u do better there!!

[daring moth]

Same i was too..but now everythings alryt..hope u are feeling ok too!

[slate sky]

Yeah if I have enough time to do so

[daring moth]

Yes best of luckkk!

[slate sky]

Thanks

[real junco]

I think I did pretty bad in my m1 exam

but it didn’t even change my grade

p1 has a higher weightage but I think it’ll be fine if you do good on the other papers

[wintry rampart]

man... i can't believe that i've broke my comfort zone...

from making no friends at college, to pretty much making several...

plus a pending application for leadership training at a student org.

[glossy pewter]

Nice man

[glossy pewter]

Congrats

[wintry rampart]

what's next in line?

[real junco]

sacrifice your life for pakistan

[glossy pewter]

For Lahore

[mossy delta]

feeling better nw

[slate sky]

I had my p1 today

[daring moth]

Good to hear!

[misty silo]

I had my business p1 yesterday

Anyone I can discuss it with?

[hollow oyster]

I hate Mondays

[real junco]

I hate Thursdays

and Mondays

[green venture]

Sniped!

np

Message by Duckster#2487

[turbid galleon]

I hate chemistry

Used to love the subject

[mild compass]

I hate bio

😡

[kind locust]

I hate maths, and i used to love it too🫠

[hollow oyster]

Man i feel so overworked yet I feel like I'm not doing enough

[lament cloud]

Same dude

[cosmic ginkgo]

ik the feeling man, dont be too harsh on yourself, it is only first year and you've got time

you are good enough, that's why you are at the uni

[hollow oyster]

Ig, I should stop studying with my OL AL mindset of "oh if I dont do my best I'm gonna end up selling naan"

Thanks

[cosmic ginkgo]

yeah, uni is a different life, there are so many things you can do and there isn't a one way to success

get involved in societies! honestly the best people i've met when you get to bond over shared interests

it can be just socials or ones where you get to do stuff - i do physics outreach for example, i know there are robotics ones where they get to work on projects - these are things that you'll really enjoy but will also be able to put on your cv

[hollow oyster]

I am, i joined the game dev club and did a game jam with a team, and will be doing one next semester too

[cosmic ginkgo]

ayy thats cool!

[hollow oyster]

Probably gonna participate in a hackathon next year

[cosmic ginkgo]

sounds like fun!

just go for the free pizza

[hollow oyster]

Yeah, one of the best experiences in uni so far

[hollow oyster]

Yeah the free pizza was 😋

[cosmic ginkgo]

eheh

[mild compass]

selling naan is not a bad business

naan is delicious

and in demand

[cosmic ginkgo]

follow the free food

[mild compass]

imo

[cosmic ginkgo]

there are baking societies

[mild compass]

you should in fact, look into setting up a naan business

after A levels

[cosmic ginkgo]

i went to a baking soc social because they had free baked stuff

[mild compass]

Mushu why don't you start a naan shop

in the UK

indian/paki food is craved no?

bruh

yall think leavin some1 on read is cool and quirky but really you look like a fkin twink

[cosmic ginkgo]

too many already

[cosmic ginkgo]

you realise we have lives and im making lunch

[upbeat jolt]

you always leave me on read bruh how am i supposed to know you making lunch

[upbeat jolt]

damn

[cosmic ginkgo]

you dont need to know - just maybe think that people have their own shit to do beyond your message

[upbeat jolt]

I have a feeling mushu got hella triggered because im spitting facts

facts machine jamal does it again 💯

[cosmic ginkgo]

brave can i have mod perms for a few mins

[upbeat jolt]

i take that back

she EXPLODING WITH RAGE

[cosmic ginkgo]

im really just hangry

[hollow oyster]

I cant give you mod, but I can give intern

wait

ah shit, you cant do shit with it

[olive wadi]

wai wai back back up hol up , theres FREE FOOD IN UNI? Hold my beer , its time we apply for uni.

[cosmic ginkgo]

😂😂if you know enough friends who are involved in organising events then yes

They know it's the best way to attract students so most events that want students to turn up will advertise food / snacks

[olive wadi]

👀

i been to many campuses but never “socialized” in a uni cus im not a uni student yet

but i’ll find such ppl , free food all the way 👀

[cosmic ginkgo]

Usually anyone fits in honestlu

[olive wadi]

i mean if dinosaurs can fit why not rite

jk jk love u mushy

[cosmic ginkgo]

Precisely

[cosmic ginkgo]

😂😂it's okay

[olive wadi]

❤️

[slate sky]

I don’t think anyone can really give you mod perms expect Eminem or Z

[olive wadi]

ye

[plush depot]

what if i send my feet pics

[hollow oyster]

Cant kick another mod either, Ive tried

[slate sky]

We do not have the ability to give the mod role sadly as it locked for us

[cosmic ginkgo]

With who👀

[hollow oyster]

you know who

[grim void]

ww2 started in 1939? iykyk

[mossy delta]

Im dreading todays exam

[turbid galleon]

Anyone got exam tomorrow?

[kind locust]

Me, maths😪

[turbid galleon]

Good luck! I hve chemistry tomorrow

Not excited

[kind locust]

Goodluck to you too!!

[kind locust]

Cmon who’s excited for exams😂

[wintry rampart]

oh well... i've fallen for a girl so damn quickly 2 weeks ago and now i'm deeply regretting it

to get the story told, i was strolling with some friends at my uni's org week and began talking to this girl i saw promoting her org

and i fell for her

while i try to reassure myself that i'm trying to make friends, i feel that i'm starting to go obsessed

me and her talked at least 5-20 minutes a week

and all of a sudden, i get ghosted for 4 days

plus a lot of dudes are simping her for sure

idk what to do

as much as i wanted to follow her up on messenger, i resisted, as it was too risky to constantly dm her

idk if letting go and being patient will be the right thing to do...

cause all i seek is to know what's right from wrong

and to do what's right rather than go full impulsive and becoming a creep

[mild compass]

bro talks 5-20 mins a week

20 seconds a day

Max

[whole creek]

honestly i was in a similar situation a while ago where i fell for someone whos not into dating. conversation became really one sided and late replies from both of us etc. eventually i got it off my mind and stopped talking to her first. its really hard to do but its the right thing to do.

[mild compass]

Ong

Let me read what welpo sayin

[whole creek]

knowing your worth is far better than chasing someone who isnt worth it

[whole creek]

ifkr i really hope they mistyped 😭

[mild compass]

Fr bro

@wintry rampart @wintry rampart my guy

What is this Haram sorcery I am reading

[whole creek]

doesnt always work imho

the friendzone is a very real thing

if you get to them close real fast it ends up becoming a friendship

[mild compass]

FOCUS ON YOURSELF, DO 50 PUSHUPS

[whole creek]

yeah ifkr

[mild compass]

GRIND THAT SIDE HUSTLE

GET STRAIGHT A*

[whole creek]

i am focusing on as levels need to A this

[mild compass]

also don't get into relationships, they all end in less than a year

Esp in uni

[whole creek]

well yeah fair enough but its always better to make your intentions clear rather than become friends with an ulterior motive of romance

[wintry rampart]

Relationships, are nothing but pain and misery.

[mild compass]

You're just gonna waste time

On a hoe

[whole creek]

eh disagree

[mild compass]

Fr

[whole creek]

i got the most work done when i was dating someone

[mild compass]

Bro you have a league of legends pfp what would you know

[wintry rampart]

i'll take that in mind.

[whole creek]

we used to get on calls have fun and work our asses off

[mild compass]

Listen boys

Children

I am your father

I have experience

Ask naf too

Your mother knows too

[whole creek]

how old are you

[wintry rampart]

i know...

[wintry rampart]

21

[whole creek]

bruh i should

stop talking

im

17

😭

[mild compass]

@olive wadi tell em relationships are kinda pointless in uni since it's a big waste of time and you're better off at the gym or doing some productive w your time than fk around w a chick that you'll leave or she'll leave eventually

[mild compass]

17

[wintry rampart]

productivity seems to be a better choice than emotional damage...