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sinful tree Apr 20, 2023, 8:12 PM

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Hey there mao ❤️ As I said before, I'm really sorry to hear you're having a difficult time.
Is there anyone at your school whom you trust that knows about the bullying? It might be easier to deal with if you spend a bit more time with them, or if you talk to them about it.

Being weird isn't a bad thing, it just means you're different, just like we all are. Try not to take it to heart - some people use bullying to make themselves feel better, but it doesn't actually help much in the long run since it ends up hurting the people around them, just like how you're hurting right now. You don't deserve to be treated badly, and I hope you keep that in mind moving forward.

Talking about your feelings isn't wrong, and wanting attention isn't wrong either. Attention is one of the things that helps us create a more meaningful relationship with the people around us. It's in our nature to want to be noticed, or to want to leave an impact on others. If someone you cared about was having trouble, wouldn't you want to try and help them out? You deserve that kindness just as much as anyone else.

Like you said, depression is tough to deal with. It does get better some times but worse at others, but I hope you can continue to find the courage and strength to fight against the bad thoughts, and remember that there are always going to be people there for you who truly want to help. You're already taking a very valuable step forward by talking about it here, and spending time thinking about it and trying to improve your situation. I hope better times come your way soon ❤️

next mountain Apr 21, 2023, 4:45 PM

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sinful tree Hey there mao ❤️ As I said before, I'm really sorry to hear you're having a diff...

anyone who doesn’t like me bullies me rlly

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and im scared of venting bc ive lost a lot of friends thru it

next mountain Apr 21, 2023, 5:16 PM

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sinful tree Hey there mao ❤️ As I said before, I'm really sorry to hear you're having a diff...

oh idk if anyone knows rlly

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im too scared to tell ppl

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aiusdjddhd i think i have undiagnosed anxiety

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idk

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never been to therapy

sinful tree Apr 22, 2023, 10:18 AM

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next mountain never been to therapy

Therapy could be very helpful if you're just looking to have someone to talk/vent to, if you feel like that's a good option for you I think it might be worth trying out.
I know what it's like to lose friends after opening up about your problems, but in my opinion the people who stay and try to understand you and help you are the ones worth keeping the most. It might also be worth telling your parents about it, if you feel comfortable doing that.

next mountain Apr 22, 2023, 10:21 AM

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i have told them bits and pieces

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plus ive been in a lot of drama recently so that adds to me being sad

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idk honestly

sinful tree Apr 22, 2023, 10:42 AM

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next mountain i have told them bits and pieces

Might be good to really sit down with them and let them know you've been having trouble at school lately. If you really want to try out therapy too, try to bring it up to them.
You can also feel free to write here about how things are going, but being able to open up to someone in person could come a long way, too.

Just keep in mind that your worries and feelings matter, and you're not alone ❤️

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There's always gonna be people out there who care and who want to help you

next mountain Apr 22, 2023, 10:46 AM

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im just scared

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ive lost trust in a lot of ppl

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plus im only 13 and ive been have those thoughts since i was 11 going on 12? so it’s hard sometimes bc i don’t know how to handle it correctly

sinful tree Apr 22, 2023, 10:56 AM

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Hey that's okay, you're right, you're only 13
You'll still get to meet a lot of new people in your life - a lot of new friends, too. You don't have to expect of yourself to do everything perfectly, you're still learning. I was really worried too when I was your age, I got bullied back in elementary school so my self-confidence was really bad. But little by little I found people who cared about me and who helped me feel more like myself. I'm sure the same will happen to you, too. You're scared because you care and because you value your friendships - that's the best type of friend to have.

Trusting people is really difficult, but I think it can be worth it. Some people will be mean, but others will make you feel happy and safe. I hope that you'll find the courage to trust others and let them help you. You don't have to do it right away, but try to consider it as an option, and talk to them once you're ready. Worth a try, right?

next mountain Apr 22, 2023, 12:09 PM

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sinful tree Hey that's okay, you're right, you're only 13 You'll still get to meet a lot of ...

ty<3

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ill try

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i had a friend who saved me from committing but we don’t talk anymore

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i trusted her the most

sinful tree Apr 22, 2023, 12:28 PM

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next mountain i had a friend who saved me from committing but we don’t talk anymore

It's never too late to reach out to them again, I think. Might be better to hold off on it until you feel a bit better though ❤️

next mountain Apr 22, 2023, 12:28 PM

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she blocked me😍‼️

sinful tree Apr 22, 2023, 12:30 PM

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oof LOL well then let's respect her boundaries in that case!

Either way though there's always gonna be more people out there :]

next mountain Apr 22, 2023, 12:31 PM

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yeah bc of my age

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but i kiss her

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MISS

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sinful tree Apr 22, 2023, 12:31 PM

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And it's okay to miss people!! Especially past friends

next mountain Apr 22, 2023, 12:32 PM

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yeah she was so nice

sinful tree Apr 22, 2023, 12:33 PM

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Some friends aren't gonna be "forever" friends, but it's still nice to look back at the good times and be grateful for the good people we've known

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For me that kind of thing just makes me want to get to know even more people

next mountain Apr 22, 2023, 12:34 PM

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all friends i have end up leaving me some way or another

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that’s why always try to hold on friends and try my best in friendships

sinful tree Apr 22, 2023, 12:41 PM

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And that's a positive quality to have! But we can't control everything that happens, y'know? Sometimes people change, or interests change, and that's okay and a natural part of life. Try to worry less about how things will end up, and focus more instead on the good that is happening right now. There's always a chance for something bad to happen, but there's also just as much of a chance for something good and nice and fun to happen.

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My therapist gave me a very nice bit of advice for whenever I'm anxious about something. I used to worry a lot about the future, so she told me to take those worries and replace them with excitement. It's still a nervous feeling, but it stems from a more positive place instead, and it really does change your perspective.

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So instead of worrying about a friendship ending, try to be excited for the time you'll spend with your friends, and enjoy those times for whatever they'll be :]

next mountain Apr 22, 2023, 12:49 PM

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i just feel like a bad friend

sinful tree Apr 22, 2023, 12:51 PM

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Well hey, you've still got plenty of time to learn what being a friend means! It's something that takes more than a day to learn

next mountain Apr 22, 2023, 1:13 PM

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i just always feel

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idk

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it’s like im never happy

sinful tree Apr 22, 2023, 1:17 PM

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You've been having a hard time, no need to really force yourself to be happy right now. When your situation improves, your mood will too ❤️

next mountain Apr 22, 2023, 1:32 PM

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ive been like this for 18 months, and i don’t see any sign of improvement

next mountain Apr 23, 2023, 6:32 PM

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aowododidkdosis it’s been two days i feel the same way

sinful tree Apr 23, 2023, 6:34 PM

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Have you tried telling anyone about it?

next mountain Apr 23, 2023, 6:50 PM

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no….

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jaekejdsjddj i think im just trying to gain attention

next mountain Apr 25, 2023, 8:24 PM

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i do not want to be here anymore

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idk saying my thoughts here ig

sinful tree Apr 25, 2023, 8:25 PM

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It's okay to reach out to others for help

next mountain Apr 26, 2023, 7:00 AM

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idk

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i don’t trust ppl anymore

sinful tree Apr 26, 2023, 8:16 AM

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You don't have to do that right away, but the least you can do is try

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You opened up here, right?

next mountain Apr 26, 2023, 4:35 PM

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mhm

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it’s safe here ig

sinful tree Apr 26, 2023, 4:42 PM

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That's true, but you'll never know if there are more people out there who want to help you unless you reach out to them the same way you did here

It's okay to find that difficult, but between the choices of keeping things as they are, or trying to make them better - which do you want to choose?

next mountain Apr 26, 2023, 5:35 PM

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idrk tbh

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by reaching out so someone i feel like a burden

sinful tree Apr 26, 2023, 5:55 PM

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next mountain by reaching out so someone i feel like a burden

You're not a burden for wanting help

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It might feel uncomfortable to do so at first, but I'm sure you'll feel better once you do

next mountain Apr 26, 2023, 6:51 PM

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im just gonna delete this

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it feels wrong

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balls

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