I'm sorry to hear that you feel that way
I think it's natural to compare yourself with others but just remember that you have plenty of good in you too.
It really sucks when your crush doesn't feel the same way about you, but that doesn't say anything about you as a person! Sometimes feelings are just like that and there isn't much to do other than to accept them.
And yeah, that includes accepting the bad feelings too. I think it's natural to be jealous of others but try to remember why you're close friends to begin with! It's okay to be upset because of the situation, but I'm sure your friend wouldn't want to hurt you on purpose, so try not to be mad at her because of it, or maybe talk to her about it sometime!
Either way, I'm completely positive that you'll be someone's #1 soon, just give it a bit of time ❤️
