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I will donate my lunas
am debating if i should be an organ doner
eventhough i have barely functioning organs
i mean, that's the plan
those are for kangaroos
its called a pouch


Wow rando is even looder than i expected


Have u reached esp aran
Still another 50 mins
As long as u start esp before reset

Yea u prolly need some after ur trip today
hot
hot
both seem kinda hot
you gotta go and get some experience
Just go out in the sun
A warm country maybe?
i can find it for you if you want
Sauna?
yeah, they have baths there sometimes
Texas is interesting
Being hot sounds nice
Luna is hot
i mean, i can help you find some too if you want inaba

the places you ppl live in are way more diverse than my area

well, maybe not rei



@brittle wind
@solar fjord 
yeah man
made it to half way point in part 4 of jojo
i seen some jojo talk before
i miss some of that asian food when i was in california
they only have basic food here

i miss koja
Come to me and eat some of my mom's homecookin
Then smuggle me to murica
is your part of the country EU or asia?
oh
Less time for av gen when you play all these games
Counter strike aint had any hype for ages tho kek
i am interested

counter side does have OP korean anime artists tho
Only sticks to al outta sunk cost time and all that fallacy
Last few times i heard of counter strike ppl were malding bout banners being speedrun

i dont like fps game
Fps games suck
I mean counter side smh
Well there was some english ver ppl were playin
But with what rando said guess there's gonna be another ver
i confus
Saem
Same
it was
i mean
google is telling me its already out?
how2findofficialannouncement
no, im EN
Reading isnt an skill known to gacha players
Had taken my craptop for a quick fixup and like my brother is friends with the shopkeep and told the guy i play apex
The guy was literally like "you play apex with this trash? What fps do you get, 20?"

i like how google redirected me to all the SEA links
I like how they speedrunning things

I heard from a fren, cs getting more popular these days
With anime and manhwa coming too
Ina so op
yeah lol is fun with people 
yeah i only play league with you smh

cute

and sometimes irl friends

i want u
irl friends are time consuming
oh my

i have cotton candy flavored soda
sounds sweet
you're sweet
nope
yes u are
sour or spicy?
sour is usually mixed with salts


i wanna go home

but maybe my friend is at school
ouch
youll get points when youre home
its finee
just sleep
opsi can wait

im about to sleep

class too boring

whats a good point to stop in this event
The end
So are most games, including shitty fps 
This mf friend of mine in murica keeps buying new tech like every week or smth
Just to get some more kills in apex kek
Rich ppl smh
apex smh
i do play fps games with my brother

but he always bullies me cuz im bad
Dw my frens bully me too but they understand its cuz im too poor to buy actual device with good specs
And iran inet garbo

I wish i was good like rando
can't your stupid tech friend pay someone to get you out of iran?

imagine having that much money and not helping a guy
My mom told me to marry fray's sister and get out but fray's sis turned out gei
Plans failed

How sad
my sister is dum
she doesnt know how to control her emotions nor give a logical reason behind them
maybe she just needs a bit of help
i mean
she started getting some at the early age of 10
which idk why a kid would need it that early
well, she turning 20 this year and idc
mine is getting it at 8, and even that's a bit late
basically, the moment you are forced to socialize, you have to get that support
because people are assholes
i mean
well, 20 is plenty young. still time to turn things around.
at that early of an age, a childs wants are usually physical, not as much emotional
you literally said she had trouble controlling her emotions
yes
inappropriate behavior, or just being different, gets you in trouble
the cause of a child's tantrums are usually a -> b reasonings
i feel like the reasons behind her behavior is a lot more obscure than that
like teenage emotional issues before the actualization of being a teenager
"i want to be like this so, that can happen and, will lead to this"
kids are like "i want this, gimmie"
they can be smarter than that
caught the little guy scheming a couple times
but his tiny brain < my big brain
still cute tho
never underestimate kids. they'll figure it out and blindside you.
but yeah, many of them don't think of the consequences.
I wish I had support when I was 8 lol
instead I threw tantrums after turning 5 and my mother's way of dealing with it was abusive
fast forward age 9, she took me to anger management, it did not help
I clung onto the car and refused to go
stopped having tantrums at age 12, then started fighting with my mom verbally
abuse stems from incompetence
speaking from experience
nowadays i can't be bothered to get mad
im getting help rn
i told the psych that it do be like that and it just the way life is
my friends say its my "teenage delinquet" yeras to fight with my mom
am basically fine for the most part
but we just didnt haver a good relationship
it's normal for kids to develop a sense of autonomy, and to defend it.
resistance is a given
yep, it wasnt me being a reckless teen
100%
it was me being fed up with my mother
i stopped with the "i am your parent. you have to do as i say" bullshit a while ago
that doesnt make sense
i'm more like a nice uncle
and if he won't play ball, he doesn't get to play with my cool shit.
"your loss, mate"
i need logical reasons to win my favor
that why im so against tradition and normalcy now
kids want cool stuff, so all you need is access to cool stuff.
then use it to gate-keep
but be nice about it
so you don't antagonize them
getting mad is stressful
we used to fight every single night, because he wouldn't sleep
for months
it's draining
now i'm like "sure, buddy. i'll wake you up early. if you end up being tired, your problem."
let him make his own mistakes if he won't listen.
i'm tired of preaching.
i like that better
yeah thats the autonomous route, they will learn
gotta learn consequences
you can only talk to an idiot that much.
as long as it's within non-lethal bounds, i'll let him explore.
i don't want him to go through the same shit i went through.
and i was super fucking authoritarian for the first couple years. it was a huge mistake.
big regret
i try to make up for it a lot.
anyway, your sister should get some support.
nothing wrong with it.
my son loves his therapy sessions.
so what?
i was only shocked to learned she needed it at a young age
havent seen or talked to family in the past 6 years, so it wouldnt really concern me now
gotta help myself before im in the position to support others
Waitin for u
one of my other online friends gets mad at me for that
for what?
whenever i do stuff, i try to do a shit ton of research before starting
instead of just doing it anyways and learn from there
overthinking things can lead to self-sabotage

My dad gave up on getting angy at me for stuff and trying to assert authority' way too much too
He still does it at some points but way less than before since he figured it simply wont work
Rn my parents admit that they didnt make the best choices they could on certain stuff and i know I've had certain wrong actions myself too
sad how everyone always needs to fuck things up first
but that's just how it is, i guess.
monkeh brain
i was never given the answers to why whenever conflict happened
Now my mom just uses me as an example when talking to ppl that "trying to send your kid to elite schools when they might not have the capacity for it can fuck shit up hard"
way to call you stoopid LMAO
Kek

I mean i know im stupud anyw
But their expectations back in school days and trying to get me in them "best schools" did result in a whole buncha shit
yeah, same
you know rich hot girls now?
I know rich hot fray
when i dropped out and had to go to a shittier school, things felt way more real
That's the only achievement in my life
we were actually being treated like people
im very sure that going to elite education didnt help you accomplish that
unless you mean learning english led you to that
but i met all my broken, fucked up friends in "elite school", so it's cool
gonna take drugs and do crime hang out again with them soonish
Pon

wife just told me they're going to give a mega discount on public transportation

can get a monthly ticket for the price of a weekly
tbh, the only time i believe i would need my own car is commute for work
some are trying to push for free transport for a bit in some states here
and all we got when my state flooded. was free public transport for only a week

Gimme free teansport rinky
give a free shuba
Free transport to hell

okay ive decided

well
they're offering free transport right now
but only if you are from ukraine
for obvious reasons
would be cool if the rest of us got it too, but the discount is so big, i'll take it
they're fighting to decriminalize riding without a ticket. once that shit goes through, i'll never buy a ticket again lmao
"whatcha gonna do about it, bro? u mad, bro?"
cal a wild child 
Cal a menace
the real criminals are these companies. train tickets so expensive
i wouldn't mind paying
they get government substitutes and shit, and we're still paying out of our asses
decriminalized doesnt mean u get away with a free ticket
yeah. it means they take me out, talk some blah blah, and that's it
but when you enjoy being a nuisance, that's like a reward
that rush
you'd be fined, have to do community service, go to counseling
i have no income. good luck fining me.
not exactly how it works 
capitalist logic: if we can't have money, we'll just ask for more money.
my city is one of the most expensive for public transport 
because all we can think about is money.
i'll do community service alright.
hardly a punishment when you're helping people.
those tickets will still follow you if they dont do community service as compromise
shit, i'll do community service for free
hard drugs are decriminalized in my state, but that doesnt mean they get off easy when theyre caught in possession or under the influence
thats called volunteering, and almost everywhere offers it
but the idea of giving away your only free time when you're a slave to 40 hours a week or more doesnt sound very fun to most people
yeah, i can imagine
I dont even do volunteering
but 40 hrs a week of work and another 30 to homework and studying was horrific
I put my 2 weeks in on wednesday, im excited to find a job that respects im a student
i've been looking for stuff. haven't found anything i trust myself doing yet.
some of them want you to commit over a long period of time.
which i can't guarantee
lots of coorporate restaurants around me, friends want me to go to one because they will care about my life outside of work and pay me well and I have experience
but my friend told me gamestop is hiring
and shit I would love to get paid to just stand there
man
like im only looking for 20h a week, 2 days of standing in gamestop for 10hours?? sign me up
working in a restaurant with ND people would be cool
neurodivergent?
ah
yes it is cool
my friends, aka my coworkers
all are
we have a blast, but our management is horrific
so I put my 2 weeks in, theyre going to follow suit
when one nd leaves, its hard for the others to cope with our horrible management
so theyre falling off too 
my coworker is nd, im nd, my friend (who I gave her a job there) is nd
we're the triple trouble gang
I wish I understood that 
in my college class, I was asked to describe my ikigai
I didnt have an answer, I put it bluntly
i am more or less done with my life. it's just "looking after people until i die" now
so i'm kinda free to explore
"I only wake up in the morning to make my friends and family proud. I dont care to live, I have nothing to live for except being alive for the people that care about me"
not a career or money person
so he was a little disappointed and in shock
- I didnt really complete the assignment
- wtf did I just read
certainly more interesting than others
all nd is interesting
sometimes my wife keeps complaining. i tell her "at least we're not boring", and it lifts her up a bit
but people with personality disorders, thats like nd in their entire brain rather than a specific part like anxiety if that makes sense
i understand the words, but that's about it
true, living your life fun is much better
it all translates to "kinda weird stuff"
like
i don't have to get it
i just have to know about it
i often have to simulate things or find analogies to make sense of something.
i can't simulate activating only specific parts of my brain or something lmao
too technical, in a way
yeah just translates to you think of it differently and are at a disadvantage as a result

like ocd too
you must do specific thing, or else you cannot function
I have that too 
not sure i have that
only small bursts of weird quirks
like when we go out and pass a street light
you usually can tell if you do, because it really hinders you
i hate it when it goes in-between us
we both have to pass on the same side
or it freaks me out a little
like I do it at work, at home, in public, and if I cant do it then I cant think straight, im just thinking about the task I need to do
because it "separates us"
just nd things
irrational quirks
nah. i get impatient, or i focus on one thing a lot. but i don't think it's that bad.
well I googled what I was doing, which came up as ocd, but it makes sense 
the street light thing is so bad, i have to go back and around it to "fix" my brain
it's fucking stupid
mine is self soothing, bc if I cant do it I freak out, so I have to do it to function
but i'm very much in-tune with "my autism", so fuck it
if i ever have kids, i dont want to put a label on them
i know autistic ppl irl that can function normally
but there are other ppl that put out their conditions in the open to get a pass
I learned about dyslexia when I was in grade school because its something a lot of people have and my peers and the media around me wanted to spread awareness so people could learn to cope with it at a young age
i put my labels for other people, not for myself. apparently, people need that information.
I wish I put labels on myself sooner 
if necessary yeah
besides, the autism label is kinda broad, so it's not THAT useful anyway
I think its better to face what you have, and know you arent what you have, you are you but you have it, live your best life
but just dont want their whole being to be around it all the time
we're all aspies here, which makes us very differnt from non-aspies
well, it doesn't matter what you want. it will affect your life regardless 
it took me years to figure out I had a personality disorder
and I wish I knew sooner, I couldnt cope with it when I found out and things went south
this so much

i didn't learn about it until 30
I was 11 when I started realizing things werent okay, and they hadnt been okay since I was 8
but it took me till I was 16 to put a word to what my issue was, and I literally could not handle that I wasted so many years as a victim to it
and it fucking sucks when you know people think you're weird, and you start thinking you're weird, but you don't get any closure on that shit for decades.
so you keep blaming yourself and being confused and shit
it's horrible
I think it runs in my family, my mother definitely has some mental issue too but she doesnt know
her mental issue is why I have a mental issue
but shes 41 and she found out last month she has depression so im like
read up on it then
no shit mom..
yeah, some of it can be hereditary
Iwas raised by you with your depression and mental illness
why do you think I acted out ages 4-16?
on the bright side, it gives you a good reason to get your kid checked early
which might help
yeah cause my aunt has a personality disorder too
so im feeling convinced mine might run in the family
can't blame you
^
it kinda is
it's like a whole catalogue of features, and you have to tick at least x boxes to qualify, but your personal variant is defined by those boxes, which are different for everyone.
the point is its a spectrum, and spectrums are broad 
but its typically sorted into high functioning, medium functioning, and low functioning
nb4 i get labeled with something
but we still have social issues
got luckily unlucky 
idk if i'll ever need it
he understands a lot of complicated shit, but he does not understand human behavior
since ive been functioning "normally" this whole time
I mean, you really only need it to get closure on things you never really understood
I'd get labeled with sth but aint looked into it
whether be autism or some other shit

you teach him the rules, and he will understand those rules. he does not understand why it's okay to sometimes break said rules. because they're rules, and you're supposed to follow them.
kinda like that
since I was 11 I would frantically be searching online why do I feel like im not really there and I would get multiple results
it made me feel better but I was still ultimately confused why I was experiencing it
the only things i dont understand is social normalcy
which is when my enlightenment era happened
age 16
fun fact
I wish my mother had more of an idea that shes nd before she had kids
her life is miserable and I feel for her, shes 41 and barely getting closure on why things were so bad for her as they were
when you're a weirdo, you typically don't think you're a weirdo.
since being a weirdo is normal to you.
I had a diary when I was little
yeah
it's other people who contextualize you're weirdness.
inside our own family, we all think we're perfectly normal
I wrote in it "theres no way this is normal- everyone goes through this crippling feeling of paranoia and mental anguish?"
irl, i generally get along with ppl
I was already getting aware
and we all function well together
its just i have both normie friends and weeb friends and they cannot understand each other

yeah, it's like that
you can send me hens wearing ties, and i'll be like "this neat", but send it to a normie and they'll go "wtf?"
so when i like weeb stuff, my normie friends dont understand and my weeb friends dont understand my normie stuff
I didnt think I had ocd until I told my bf about what I do and he was deeply disturbed 
yeah
having friends that are into internet culture vs. friends that live in the real world is odd
idk what real ocd is, i just contextualize it as extreme perfectionism
yeah, that one too
i was like that when i was younger
many disorders fall under ocd, so instead of being like "oh yeah I have blablablamania" you say I have OCD
but its the same as being mad all the time
too much effort, for little to no gain
i see
i imagine kawa feels like i do when i see tiny holes, so...
it's probably bad
unsettling
real ocd is needing to do a certain task repetitively throughout the day or else it hinders your ability to function normally
i feel like that sometimes with AL
well you have tropophobia it sounds like
gotta do things in AL before i do other shit
very yes
don't google that word with pictures enabled
that just sounds like having a schedule
seriously
it's a fucking nightmare
the thing that triggered me for the very first time was a tropophobia edit of a human body part with lotus holes
the ocd I have is disturbing so I wont be specific
but basically if I cant do it, it drives me nuts and I will keep doing it even if im "satsified" (you never feel satsified)
really fucking horrible stuff

Think it's trypophobia
traumatic
yes, this
ive seen it a bunch of times yeah
Living the good life i see
mine autocorrected to tropophobia and I googled it to make sure
said it was correct
lol
i just call it fear of holes
because nobody understands that other word
i have also massive fear of heights
okay yeah its trypophobia
but tropophobia is also a word
Yea i dont like it too
More like goin back home
i too have a fear of heights
but i climbed a large tower with my son last week. i was so brave haha
looks like its common enough mistake that googling tropophobia will result with the wrong fear
47m
but the feeling of possible death has made me get over it
That's one excellent scenery tbf
and when i tried to relax at the top, i noticed the tower was oscillating
Ya
which felt like it was about to fall over
god that reminds me when I was in the 8th floor of a hotel and an earthquake happened
the building was swaying and making creaking noises
my cousin was on the shitter when it happened 
and like i was in some kind of movie, another dad explained to his kids why we would absolutely not survive a fall, no matter what, and that nobody could save us. ever.
all of us panicked, trying to tell her to hurry up before the building collapses and we die 
so we went straight the fuck back down 
I feel bad for her, she was rushed on the toilet and im sure she was uncomfortable bc she didnt get to finish her business
that sounds horrible
exactly
I felt horrible
i am so immune to those
I love watching horror movies, theyre my favorite comedy movies
how2immune
people don't watch them with me anymore, because i always ruin the mood lmao
i have friends that get a kick out of me being scared
hey I have a group of friends where we watch horror movies that are just so fucking bad
you are free to watch it with us and laugh the entire movie loudly and annoyingly
during the scary parts, we'd poke him in the dark
we also watch just awful movies
idk about you but I'd rather shit my pants than have a roof collapse on me with a happy conscience
we specifically go on a hunt for the worst movies to exist and painfully sit through them
๐
that's the spirit
im not scared of the possibility of not living but the pants pooping still gets me every time
yeah but she had to wait outside with an itchy bum and then when we get the clearance to go back in she would have to go back to finish what wasnt
I just feel bad she had to be using the toilet
better than the people taking a shower right? 
lmao
back when i was still with my parents
one day
my sister came screaming out of the bathroom, completely naked, and wet
because she had seen a big-ass spider while showering
i laughed my ass off so hard
fight the earthquake with bubbles
so im deathly afraid of the dark right
I lived in texas for 3 months, during a storm I was showering
the power went out and so I was showering in the pitch black
I was screaming, slipping around the bathroom naked and wet
slipping dangerous
my dad came running in looking for a towel to cover me with before trying to get me into "safety" 
I was
traumatized
I always have morbid thoughts like that, wondering if the building designer set up the perfect way to get electrocuted in the shower or not 
dude the shower was still fucking running 
Traumatized by Darkness sounds like a cool song title
Last few cases of earthquakes we've had i woke up, heard my parents talking but they werent panicky or anything
Concluded it wasn't serious and just closed my eyes again

understandable though, I really enjoy the dark because less stress on occipitals 
omfg when I lived in cali my mom made fun of me for sleeping through literally every single earthquake
that's something to rub in her face 
I get hallucinations in the dark, little me never understood, therefore I have a lifetime trauma of darkness
Best quakes were those back in the middle of school
They'd just let us go for the day
And my classmates would blame it on me for sneezing too loud/hard

tfw not living in earthquake area. no cool stories to share.
yeah all I have are lonely hurricane stories 
those too
all we get is some minor flooding of an area that is expected to get flooded. whoohoo.
I have tornado and earthquake, thats it
first-world harbor city experience.
but my state is susceptible to a horrifically destructive volcano attack anytime
literally any moment, the volcano has been sleeping for way past due
actually kinda cool
i mean, what sounds cooler?
"we had to flee from a flood"
or
"we had to flee from an exploding volcano with lava and shit"
if it kills me I wish I could stick around to see the full amount of destruction it unleashed so I could really wager if it was as disastrous as they state it will be 
So like in Arabic they do this stuff where they add a few letters to a word for some mumbo jumbo which i dont even remember cuz i always slept in Arabic classes
Once the teacher was doin the mumbo to the word 'earthquake' and right then we got a quake
it did not like the mumbo
This one time was going to english class and like
Felt dizzy
Was like "guess im not feeling good still gonna go"
Went anyway
that wasn't you being dizzy
And after i got there they were like no class go home earthquake
it was your spider sense
Finland doesnt rly have anything scary like that
Coulda cut down on the taxi costs cuz it happened right near home too
When i got back near our alley found my aunt and cousin waiting for me and my mom was semi crying and my aunt hugged me n all that
Cuz quake = shit connection = they couldnt call me
But I remember not having electricity for 4 days due to really bad storms 
I was like bruh
Im just unhinged or whatever
Well i was mostly surprised at my aunt being all over there
that sounds kinda morbid lmao
I suck at getting feelings unless something actually happens
understandable
reminds me when my gma passed I didnt shed a single tear 
was wondering why everyone was crying when they could just wish upon a star for her back
gave my mom a dandelion told her to wish for her mom back 
it kinda didn't hit me
Kawa livin in da dreamworld
some things you just notice, and they might bubble somewhere inside of you
but no more than that
well I was 7
but my fantasy reality has not really changed
I was considered an unsusually happy baby and kid 
sounds nice
Back in schooldays my dad's grandma in my hometime passed away (i was already in the city we're in back then)
Not that i even knew her much but we'd go to her house every so often and play around etc
When dad told me she passed away i was like nothing
Then the next day in a class i randomly started crying
My teacher was like Nani
"sry cryin for my dad's gran"
"Bruh"
it was nice, but cptsd hit and I did a 180 and wasnt that happy kid everyone knew

people deal with shit differently.
then I hit enlightenment at age 16 and im back to the happy kid everyone once knew 
can't stand it when they shit on you for daring to have emotions.
Emotions too complex
true
I didnt cry about my abuela either until later
I didnt really understand she was gone gone 
Hi ram
Wtf
Wat
Damn hi Rei
typing for a while 
๐
So what u typin

god thats so cute
No you
It just didn't touch me
were you young or age enough to understand?
my dad's dad passed when I was around 16, I never met him, but I felt horrible for my dad
I think I was 3 years old when my grandma died so
dont remember anything about that
grandpa had amnesia, the first time I saw him was in a care center so it was heartbreaking to see my dad visit a man that didnt know him
And they have been very nice to me
But idk
Well I just met my grandparents from mother side
so
i went to my dad's place
and he just randomly showed me a picture of my dead grandma's corpse
My grandparents from dad died before I was born, grandma, and when I was too young like 2-4, grandpa
I think it makes sense to not be so emotionally affected by a grandparent's passing unless they were directly involved in raising you or being your best friend
Cal: who tf starts a convo like that
Yeah
it's part of the intended experience, my dude
gotta roll them over like a train
It hit me like a train
your parents are just older kids
she was crying because she hadnt seen her parents in a couple months, and when she saw them she noticed all the wrinkles she never saw before when she lived with them everyday
it definitely hits like a train 
You don't realise it until you start thinking about it
right now im at the stage I sympathize for my parents bc theyre at the stage where they start having a crisis bc of their age
Im the crisis
you know those movies of old guys who used to hang out as friends going on one more tour, but now they're old?
I sympathize with them because they dealt with me and still do

Ahahha
Same raz same
when you watch them with your friends, you're like "haha, we'll be like this one day"
children are a lifetime commitment 
Literally said that earlier
God I appreciate my parents much more since I realised "damn I have been an awful child all this time"
and then you realize "oh, shit. that day has actually come. we're fucking old."

not sure if funny or sad
I have been best friends with my best friend since we were 11, when I look back at our photos, its seriously insane!
I always self identified as a lil shit so i try to help my parents with stuff as much as i can to make up for it a bit
at the time I would have never imagined being this old !
By awful I mean I have been very spoiled since kid due to how I was raised
And felt entitled to things
I feel like I regret fighting with my mom when I feel she isnt treating me fair, but if I dont then I will never be able to stand up for myself
its weird
I am the first in my fam to got uni and one of the new in my extended fam
middle class?
im kind of in the same boat
at least a few years ago yes
Yes
money wise 
i have nothing to regret in terms of childhood
Yes if not lower lol
yeah I used to be same boat
like not lower, but also not exactly middle
I'm not spoiled in the "my dad showers me in money" sense but im still quite spoiled cuz they've always tried for me to like have the best possible life kinda way
Yeah exactly
im also the first in family to go to college
Congrats!
bruh
lets gooo we're both making our fams proud
i had to play my gamegear with a homemade charger, built by my dad
me too and its weird, its nothing I would say to their faces
Well that's nice
which he put in a little plastic box that would kill me when opened
I know lol
i opened it anyway
I still show my appreciation when I can
I am so grateful for my parents and family
but I would never say thank you to their face, its indirect
"dad! check it out! i'm still alive haha!"
Idk if it's the same for you
Cal: im fucking invincible
kids being kids
But having Asian parents, they will never be thankful to you to your face
On contrary
parent: "don't put a fork in the outlet"
kid: "but why? there must be a reason. i have to find out"
But with the age they got much more lax
my friend was recently an eye witness to someone shooting a gun in a rivalry, and I told her
"hey I would never say this to your face but I was telling my boyfriend im glad it said your name as an eyewitness and not your name as in deceased and they got your name from your IDs in your bag"
I actually did that when I was a kid
My mom still tells her friends how fucking stupid I was
And how God somehow spared my life all these years
hey no one ever told me to not microwave silverware and I microwaved a bowl with a fork in it 
my son got shocked by the tv antenna plug and threw a huge tantrum
There have been few occasions where I should have died
people dogged on me like ITS COMMON SENSE??
no its not?!
its common sense if your family tells you
no one, absolutely no one told me not to
being the amazing parent i am, i went with the good ol "haha stoopid! that'll teach ya!"
Ahaha
once it started sparking I freaked out and called my mom "HEY WHY WAS THE FORK SPARKING IM SCARED!!"
electricity dangerous
God recently my parents stared talking about marriage
One thing i regret doin as a kid is sayin sth dumb which i dont rember to my cousin who's mom had just divorced
She still kinda holds it against me even tho it was ages ago
I go like bruh that was when i was like 6 and she's like nope
Well its more like we have a normal relationship and i try being as kind and supportive of her as i can now then she suddenly randomly bring it up

one thing I regret is I had a nightmare regarding my mom and I thought it really happened
Lop
so I blamed her for it until I was like 14 and realized it was just an nightmare
thats like 8 years after it happened
I blame my mom for showing the original exorcist when I was kid

God I do love horrors nowadays
But I was like 4-5 maybe
And I remember I was terrified to death
I had an elaborate dream that my cousin once forced me to go to her all girls school
Still feels real
Well
Was more like preschool
my parents forced me to go to my room while my fam watched chainsaw massacre and I was really salty about it so I sat on the stairs and watched the movie in the reflection of the mirror
They have to tell me it was just a dream everytime i randomly bring it up for the mems
safe to say I was like WTF JUST HAPPENED

haha!
kids smart
im really spiteful
so I felt super salty, found a way to watch it
I did that with dr who on bbc
When my dad would ground me
i'm so rotten, i had to remind myself that the bbc was a news thing
Childhood nightmares include brother locking me in the house and setting it on fire
because that sentence made no sense to me at first
Kek
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Other one being in the kitchen and i was half normal and half skeleton
And could hear my parents talkin bout throwing me in the trashcan just outside the house
This was not a nightmare to me

this is a topic i'm not very fond of
Sorry we'll skip over it
my parents told me they'd put me in an orphanage, and i did the same with my kid ๐คฆ
big shame
It happens
as a parent
just let me defend this shit by saying
sometimes we're in over our heads
shit like this is just us being desperate
lifetime, 24/7 raising a whole human!
Yeah you understand what your parents told you once you become one
For me its like i just wanna go in the trashcan myself but my parents are the only thing keeping me intact
it's still wrong, but y'know...
Anyway
Yeah it is

But w/e
im proud trash, when I was a teenage girl oh lawd
I mean I always get told: you don't understand now even if you're older you will understand when you get in our position
where there are humans, there will be lewds drama
no lewds 
You're a human
Did I stutter
2d girls

Where there is a will there is a way
can delete without guilt
this is not true 
Smh let ppl enjoy their lewds in peace
My Reality can be whatever I want Kawa

and in my reality I am correct 
rei fighting for his lewd rights
Lewd ryghts
Reilities
multi-rei
Or just be like luna
Giga lewd but try acting like the purest thing in existence
RCU
I live in the kawect reality (correct) 
thank you I am proud
i live in the wrong reality

The (correct) makes me not mucho proud
I love puns but I wish I had the talent of making puns for everything with no thought 

speaking of wrong
how do those people do it!
@brittle wind dm
Cal sliding in my dms






















