#avrora-general

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green epoch
brittle wind
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I will donate my lunas

somber halo
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am debating if i should be an organ doner

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eventhough i have barely functioning organs

brittle wind
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Donate all ur organ

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Every last one of em

somber halo
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i mean, that's the plan

brittle wind
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Donate the wallet organ to me

somber halo
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those are for kangaroos

brittle wind
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Dam

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Its for rinky

somber halo
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its called a pouch

brittle wind
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And this is called a punch

green epoch
brittle wind
warm bluff
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Wow rando is even looder than i expected

warm bluff
green epoch
wet torrent
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Have u reached esp aran

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Still another 50 mins

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As long as u start esp before reset

green epoch
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Just skip 1 day

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Wake up early, spend time with your family

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Grind when youre home LittCool

wet torrent
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Yea u prolly need some after ur trip today

green epoch
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Aran rest is also important

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I guess we gotta make you sleep AmeliaHehehe

somber halo
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hot

green epoch
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No

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Put the laptop on a table or smth

somber halo
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hot

green epoch
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Yeah ofc but dont get burnt, laptops can get rly hot

somber halo
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both seem kinda hot

green epoch
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Idk

somber halo
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you gotta go and get some experience

brittle wind
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Just go out in the sun

green epoch
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A warm country maybe?

somber halo
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i can find it for you if you want

green epoch
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Sauna?

somber halo
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yeah, they have baths there sometimes

green epoch
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Yeah so you should know how its like being hot

somber halo
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texas is a great state

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i bet there's a lot of places to choose from in your area

green epoch
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Texas is interesting

warm bluff
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Being hot sounds nice

brittle wind
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Luna is hot

somber halo
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i mean, i can help you find some too if you want inaba

brittle wind
somber halo
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the places you ppl live in are way more diverse than my area

green epoch
somber halo
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well, maybe not rei

brittle wind
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I wanted to say a rei thing but it'd be bad cuz its rl

green epoch
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What are you talking about Fray, youre being weird

warm bluff
brittle wind
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Well

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Its best you dont know the context

green epoch
warm bluff
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Restaurants

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Of course

green epoch
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Time to stop

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Good

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Im hungry

brittle wind
solar fjord
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@brittle windASnyanattackpunch

brittle wind
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@solar fjord FuHuaOraOra_luma

somber halo
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yeah man

solar fjord
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made it to half way point in part 4 of jojo CDCnaruhodo i seen some jojo talk before

somber halo
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i miss some of that asian food when i was in california

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they only have basic food here

green epoch
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Sad

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I wanna eat something tasty

warm bluff
somber halo
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i miss koja

green epoch
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Good

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Get some

brittle wind
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Come to me and eat some of my mom's homecookin
Then smuggle me to murica

somber halo
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is your part of the country EU or asia?

brittle wind
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Well all of iran is in asia

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Its his best selling point

green epoch
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Interesting

somber halo
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oh

green epoch
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Less time for av gen when you play all these games

brittle wind
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Counter strike aint had any hype for ages tho kek

somber halo
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i am interested

green epoch
brittle wind
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Nah

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He quits them all after 2 days

somber halo
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counter side does have OP korean anime artists tho

brittle wind
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Only sticks to al outta sunk cost time and all that fallacy

somber halo
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saem

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inaba should play nikke

brittle wind
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Last few times i heard of counter strike ppl were malding bout banners being speedrun

somber halo
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i dont like fps game

green epoch
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Fps games suck

brittle wind
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I mean counter side smh

brittle wind
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I have the fps of an animal in fps games

somber halo
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owait

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counter side is open to public?

brittle wind
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Well there was some english ver ppl were playin
But with what rando said guess there's gonna be another ver

somber halo
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i confus

brittle wind
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Saem

warm bluff
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Same

brittle wind
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I quit cuz they talked korean

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How dare my anime chars speak not Japanese

somber halo
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it was

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i mean

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google is telling me its already out?

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how2findofficialannouncement

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no, im EN

brittle wind
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Reading isnt an skill known to gacha players

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Had taken my craptop for a quick fixup and like my brother is friends with the shopkeep and told the guy i play apex
The guy was literally like "you play apex with this trash? What fps do you get, 20?"

somber halo
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i like how google redirected me to all the SEA links

wet torrent
brittle wind
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Imma speedrun ur life

wet torrent
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I heard from a fren, cs getting more popular these days

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With anime and manhwa coming too

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Ina so op

green epoch
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yeah i only play league with you smh

somber halo
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cute

warm bluff
green epoch
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and sometimes irl friends

somber halo
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aw

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oh my

green epoch
warm bluff
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i want u

green epoch
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irl friends are time consuming

somber halo
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oh my

stuck copper
somber halo
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i have cotton candy flavored soda

green epoch
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sounds sweet

somber halo
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you're sweet

green epoch
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nope

somber halo
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oh?

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are you by chance

green epoch
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yes u are

somber halo
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sour or spicy?

green epoch
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im salty

somber halo
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sour is usually mixed with salts

green epoch
green epoch
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whats that

solar fjord
green epoch
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i wanna go home

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but maybe my friend is at school

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ouch

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youll get points when youre home

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its finee

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just sleep

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opsi can wait

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im about to sleep

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class too boring

somber halo
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whats a good point to stop in this event

brittle wind
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The end

brittle wind
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This mf friend of mine in murica keeps buying new tech like every week or smth

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Just to get some more kills in apex kek

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Rich ppl smh

somber halo
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apex smh

brittle wind
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Prolly spent 10-15k+ just for that

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Buy me stuff

green epoch
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but he always bullies me cuz im bad

brittle wind
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Dw my frens bully me too but they understand its cuz im too poor to buy actual device with good specs

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And iran inet garbo

green epoch
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yeah just be good like Aran

brittle wind
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I wish i was good like rando

stuck copper
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can't your stupid tech friend pay someone to get you out of iran?

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imagine having that much money and not helping a guy

green epoch
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Yeah get married w him

brittle wind
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My mom told me to marry fray's sister and get out but fray's sis turned out gei

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Plans failed

green epoch
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How sad

somber halo
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my sister is dum

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she doesnt know how to control her emotions nor give a logical reason behind them

stuck copper
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maybe she just needs a bit of help

somber halo
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i mean

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she started getting some at the early age of 10

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which idk why a kid would need it that early

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well, she turning 20 this year and idc

stuck copper
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mine is getting it at 8, and even that's a bit late

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basically, the moment you are forced to socialize, you have to get that support

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because people are assholes

somber halo
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i mean

stuck copper
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well, 20 is plenty young. still time to turn things around.

somber halo
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at that early of an age, a childs wants are usually physical, not as much emotional

stuck copper
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you literally said she had trouble controlling her emotions

somber halo
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yes

stuck copper
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inappropriate behavior, or just being different, gets you in trouble

somber halo
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the cause of a child's tantrums are usually a -> b reasonings

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i feel like the reasons behind her behavior is a lot more obscure than that

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like teenage emotional issues before the actualization of being a teenager

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"i want to be like this so, that can happen and, will lead to this"

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kids are like "i want this, gimmie"

stuck copper
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they can be smarter than that

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caught the little guy scheming a couple times

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but his tiny brain < my big brain

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still cute tho

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never underestimate kids. they'll figure it out and blindside you.

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but yeah, many of them don't think of the consequences.

dense wing
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I wish I had support when I was 8 lol

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instead I threw tantrums after turning 5 and my mother's way of dealing with it was abusive

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fast forward age 9, she took me to anger management, it did not help
I clung onto the car and refused to go

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stopped having tantrums at age 12, then started fighting with my mom verbally

stuck copper
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abuse stems from incompetence

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speaking from experience

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nowadays i can't be bothered to get mad

somber halo
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im getting help rn

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i told the psych that it do be like that and it just the way life is

dense wing
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my friends say its my "teenage delinquet" yeras to fight with my mom

somber halo
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am basically fine for the most part

dense wing
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but we just didnt haver a good relationship

stuck copper
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it's normal for kids to develop a sense of autonomy, and to defend it.

somber halo
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resistance is a given

dense wing
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yep, it wasnt me being a reckless teen

stuck copper
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100%

dense wing
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it was me being fed up with my mother

stuck copper
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i stopped with the "i am your parent. you have to do as i say" bullshit a while ago

somber halo
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that doesnt make sense

stuck copper
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i'm more like a nice uncle

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and if he won't play ball, he doesn't get to play with my cool shit.

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"your loss, mate"

somber halo
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i need logical reasons to win my favor

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that why im so against tradition and normalcy now

stuck copper
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kids want cool stuff, so all you need is access to cool stuff.

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then use it to gate-keep

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but be nice about it

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so you don't antagonize them

somber halo
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too hard

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gotta get straight to the point

stuck copper
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getting mad is stressful

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we used to fight every single night, because he wouldn't sleep

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for months

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it's draining

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now i'm like "sure, buddy. i'll wake you up early. if you end up being tired, your problem."

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let him make his own mistakes if he won't listen.

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i'm tired of preaching.

somber halo
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i like that better

dense wing
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yeah thats the autonomous route, they will learn

somber halo
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gotta learn consequences

stuck copper
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you can only talk to an idiot that much.

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as long as it's within non-lethal bounds, i'll let him explore.

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i don't want him to go through the same shit i went through.

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and i was super fucking authoritarian for the first couple years. it was a huge mistake.

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big regret

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i try to make up for it a lot.

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anyway, your sister should get some support.

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nothing wrong with it.

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my son loves his therapy sessions.

somber halo
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i mean

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this was many years ago

stuck copper
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so what?

somber halo
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i was only shocked to learned she needed it at a young age

stuck copper
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people are different

somber halo
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havent seen or talked to family in the past 6 years, so it wouldnt really concern me now

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gotta help myself before im in the position to support others

stuck copper
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my sister and i are way different, for example

brittle wind
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Waitin for u

somber halo
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one of my other online friends gets mad at me for that

stuck copper
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for what?

somber halo
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whenever i do stuff, i try to do a shit ton of research before starting

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instead of just doing it anyways and learn from there

stuck copper
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overthinking things can lead to self-sabotage

somber halo
stuck copper
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emphasis on "can"

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nothing wrong with educating oneself

somber halo
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i mean sure, depends

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both ways have pros and cons

brittle wind
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My dad gave up on getting angy at me for stuff and trying to assert authority' way too much too
He still does it at some points but way less than before since he figured it simply wont work
Rn my parents admit that they didnt make the best choices they could on certain stuff and i know I've had certain wrong actions myself too

stuck copper
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but that's just how it is, i guess.

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monkeh brain

somber halo
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i was never given the answers to why whenever conflict happened

brittle wind
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Now my mom just uses me as an example when talking to ppl that "trying to send your kid to elite schools when they might not have the capacity for it can fuck shit up hard"

stuck copper
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way to call you stoopid LMAO

brittle wind
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Kek

stuck copper
brittle wind
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I mean i know im stupud anyw

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But their expectations back in school days and trying to get me in them "best schools" did result in a whole buncha shit

stuck copper
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yeah, same

somber halo
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you know rich hot girls now?

brittle wind
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I know rich hot fray

stuck copper
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when i dropped out and had to go to a shittier school, things felt way more real

brittle wind
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That's the only achievement in my life

stuck copper
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we were actually being treated like people

somber halo
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im very sure that going to elite education didnt help you accomplish that

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unless you mean learning english led you to that

stuck copper
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but i met all my broken, fucked up friends in "elite school", so it's cool

brittle wind
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It helped me by making me depressed enough to play gacha games

stuck copper
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gonna take drugs and do crime hang out again with them soonish

brittle wind
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War crime?

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Like....

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Pin-

stuck copper
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no

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no pin

brittle wind
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Pon

stuck copper
somber halo
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i wonder with gas prices now

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if its cheaper to uber

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instead of using own car

stuck copper
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wife just told me they're going to give a mega discount on public transportation

brittle wind
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According to that reddit post i sent u
Uber is expensive

somber halo
stuck copper
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can get a monthly ticket for the price of a weekly

somber halo
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tbh, the only time i believe i would need my own car is commute for work

solar fjord
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some are trying to push for free transport for a bit in some states here

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and all we got when my state flooded. was free public transport for only a week

brittle wind
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Gimme free teansport rinky

solar fjord
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give a free shuba

brittle wind
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Free transport to hell

solar fjord
somber halo
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okay ive decided

brittle wind
somber halo
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im gonna go do that thing tomorrow

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or, today actually

stuck copper
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well

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they're offering free transport right now

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but only if you are from ukraine

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for obvious reasons

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would be cool if the rest of us got it too, but the discount is so big, i'll take it

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they're fighting to decriminalize riding without a ticket. once that shit goes through, i'll never buy a ticket again lmao

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"whatcha gonna do about it, bro? u mad, bro?"

solar fjord
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cal a wild child CDCExuStare

brittle wind
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Cal a menace

stuck copper
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the real criminals are these companies. train tickets so expensive

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i wouldn't mind paying

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they get government substitutes and shit, and we're still paying out of our asses

dense wing
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decriminalized doesnt mean u get away with a free ticket

stuck copper
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yeah. it means they take me out, talk some blah blah, and that's it

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but when you enjoy being a nuisance, that's like a reward

somber halo
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that rush

dense wing
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you'd be fined, have to do community service, go to counseling

brittle wind
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You'd get banned irl

stuck copper
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i have no income. good luck fining me.

dense wing
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not exactly how it works OMEGALUL

stuck copper
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capitalist logic: if we can't have money, we'll just ask for more money.

solar fjord
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my city is one of the most expensive for public transport peepeeHands

stuck copper
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because all we can think about is money.

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i'll do community service alright.

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hardly a punishment when you're helping people.

dense wing
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those tickets will still follow you if they dont do community service as compromise

stuck copper
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shit, i'll do community service for free

dense wing
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hard drugs are decriminalized in my state, but that doesnt mean they get off easy when theyre caught in possession or under the influence

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thats called volunteering, and almost everywhere offers it

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but the idea of giving away your only free time when you're a slave to 40 hours a week or more doesnt sound very fun to most people

stuck copper
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yeah, i can imagine

dense wing
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I dont even do volunteering NOOO but 40 hrs a week of work and another 30 to homework and studying was horrific

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I put my 2 weeks in on wednesday, im excited to find a job that respects im a student

stuck copper
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i've been looking for stuff. haven't found anything i trust myself doing yet.

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some of them want you to commit over a long period of time.

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which i can't guarantee

dense wing
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lots of coorporate restaurants around me, friends want me to go to one because they will care about my life outside of work and pay me well and I have experience

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but my friend told me gamestop is hiring EntyLUL and shit I would love to get paid to just stand there

stuck copper
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man

dense wing
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like im only looking for 20h a week, 2 days of standing in gamestop for 10hours?? sign me up

stuck copper
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working in a restaurant with ND people would be cool

dense wing
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neurodivergent?

stuck copper
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we had an ND kitchen in college

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yeah

dense wing
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ah

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yes it is cool

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my friends, aka my coworkers

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all are

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we have a blast, but our management is horrific

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so I put my 2 weeks in, theyre going to follow suit

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when one nd leaves, its hard for the others to cope with our horrible management

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so theyre falling off too psyduk

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my coworker is nd, im nd, my friend (who I gave her a job there) is nd
we're the triple trouble gang

stuck copper
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i just want to do something useful with my life

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and i have the time, so...

dense wing
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I wish I understood that BPTiredofThis

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in my college class, I was asked to describe my ikigai

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I didnt have an answer, I put it bluntly

stuck copper
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i am more or less done with my life. it's just "looking after people until i die" now

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so i'm kinda free to explore

dense wing
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"I only wake up in the morning to make my friends and family proud. I dont care to live, I have nothing to live for except being alive for the people that care about me"

stuck copper
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not a career or money person

dense wing
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EntyLUL so he was a little disappointed and in shock

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  1. I didnt really complete the assignment
  2. wtf did I just read
stuck copper
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lmao

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they wouldn't get it

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it's a special kind of mentality

dense wing
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nd things EntyLUL

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I have a personality disorder, so you can wager how interesting my life is

stuck copper
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certainly more interesting than others

dense wing
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Yeptune all nd is interesting

stuck copper
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sometimes my wife keeps complaining. i tell her "at least we're not boring", and it lifts her up a bit

dense wing
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but people with personality disorders, thats like nd in their entire brain rather than a specific part like anxiety if that makes sense

stuck copper
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i understand the words, but that's about it

dense wing
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XD2 true, living your life fun is much better

stuck copper
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it all translates to "kinda weird stuff"

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like

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i don't have to get it

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i just have to know about it

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i often have to simulate things or find analogies to make sense of something.

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i can't simulate activating only specific parts of my brain or something lmao

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too technical, in a way

dense wing
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yeah just translates to you think of it differently and are at a disadvantage as a result

stuck copper
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oh, that

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i totally get that one

dense wing
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like ocd too

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you must do specific thing, or else you cannot function

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I have that too PortDoll

stuck copper
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not sure i have that

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only small bursts of weird quirks

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like when we go out and pass a street light

dense wing
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you usually can tell if you do, because it really hinders you

stuck copper
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i hate it when it goes in-between us

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we both have to pass on the same side

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or it freaks me out a little

dense wing
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like I do it at work, at home, in public, and if I cant do it then I cant think straight, im just thinking about the task I need to do

stuck copper
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because it "separates us"

dense wing
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just nd things XD2 irrational quirks

stuck copper
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nah. i get impatient, or i focus on one thing a lot. but i don't think it's that bad.

dense wing
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well I googled what I was doing, which came up as ocd, but it makes sense EntyLUL

stuck copper
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the street light thing is so bad, i have to go back and around it to "fix" my brain

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it's fucking stupid

dense wing
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mine is self soothing, bc if I cant do it I freak out, so I have to do it to function

stuck copper
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but i'm very much in-tune with "my autism", so fuck it

dense wing
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LMAO YOU KNEW?

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why did it take him like 2 decades to figure it out EntyLUL

somber halo
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if i ever have kids, i dont want to put a label on them

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i know autistic ppl irl that can function normally

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but there are other ppl that put out their conditions in the open to get a pass

dense wing
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I learned about dyslexia when I was in grade school because its something a lot of people have and my peers and the media around me wanted to spread awareness so people could learn to cope with it at a young age

stuck copper
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i put my labels for other people, not for myself. apparently, people need that information.

dense wing
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I wish I put labels on myself sooner EntyLUL

somber halo
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if necessary yeah

stuck copper
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besides, the autism label is kinda broad, so it's not THAT useful anyway

dense wing
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I think its better to face what you have, and know you arent what you have, you are you but you have it, live your best life

somber halo
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but just dont want their whole being to be around it all the time

stuck copper
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we're all aspies here, which makes us very differnt from non-aspies

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well, it doesn't matter what you want. it will affect your life regardless EntyLUL

somber halo
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to this day

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i still dont know what autism is

dense wing
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it took me years to figure out I had a personality disorder PortDoll and I wish I knew sooner, I couldnt cope with it when I found out and things went south

dense wing
stuck copper
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i didn't learn about it until 30

dense wing
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I was 11 when I started realizing things werent okay, and they hadnt been okay since I was 8

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but it took me till I was 16 to put a word to what my issue was, and I literally could not handle that I wasted so many years as a victim to it

stuck copper
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and it fucking sucks when you know people think you're weird, and you start thinking you're weird, but you don't get any closure on that shit for decades.

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so you keep blaming yourself and being confused and shit

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it's horrible

dense wing
# stuck copper i didn't learn about it until 30

I think it runs in my family, my mother definitely has some mental issue too but she doesnt know
her mental issue is why I have a mental issue EntyLUL but shes 41 and she found out last month she has depression so im like

stuck copper
dense wing
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no shit mom..

stuck copper
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yeah, some of it can be hereditary

dense wing
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Iwas raised by you with your depression and mental illness EntyLUL why do you think I acted out ages 4-16?

stuck copper
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on the bright side, it gives you a good reason to get your kid checked early

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which might help

dense wing
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yeah cause my aunt has a personality disorder too neko_think so im feeling convinced mine might run in the family

somber halo
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ive read on it multiple times

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its too broad for me to grasp

stuck copper
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can't blame you

dense wing
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^

stuck copper
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it kinda is

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it's like a whole catalogue of features, and you have to tick at least x boxes to qualify, but your personal variant is defined by those boxes, which are different for everyone.

dense wing
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the point is its a spectrum, and spectrums are broad EntyLUL

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but its typically sorted into high functioning, medium functioning, and low functioning

stuck copper
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we're high-funcioning

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so we're kinda smart

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my son is way above average

somber halo
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nb4 i get labeled with something

stuck copper
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but we still have social issues

dense wing
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got luckily unlucky UniFlox

somber halo
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idk if i'll ever need it

stuck copper
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he understands a lot of complicated shit, but he does not understand human behavior

somber halo
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since ive been functioning "normally" this whole time

dense wing
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I mean, you really only need it to get closure on things you never really understood

brittle wind
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I'd get labeled with sth but aint looked into it

somber halo
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whether be autism or some other shit

brittle wind
stuck copper
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you teach him the rules, and he will understand those rules. he does not understand why it's okay to sometimes break said rules. because they're rules, and you're supposed to follow them.

#

kinda like that

dense wing
#

since I was 11 I would frantically be searching online why do I feel like im not really there and I would get multiple results EntyLUL it made me feel better but I was still ultimately confused why I was experiencing it

somber halo
#

the only things i dont understand is social normalcy

dense wing
#

which is when my enlightenment era happened blessex age 16

somber halo
#

even without all these things you guys tell me

#

i still think you all are normal ppl

stuck copper
#

fun fact

dense wing
#

I wish my mother had more of an idea that shes nd before she had kids PortDoll her life is miserable and I feel for her, shes 41 and barely getting closure on why things were so bad for her as they were

stuck copper
#

when you're a weirdo, you typically don't think you're a weirdo.

#

since being a weirdo is normal to you.

dense wing
#

I had a diary when I was little

somber halo
#

yeah

stuck copper
#

it's other people who contextualize you're weirdness.

#

inside our own family, we all think we're perfectly normal

dense wing
#

I wrote in it "theres no way this is normal- everyone goes through this crippling feeling of paranoia and mental anguish?"

somber halo
#

irl, i generally get along with ppl

dense wing
#

EntyLUL I was already getting aware

stuck copper
#

and we all function well together

somber halo
#

its just i have both normie friends and weeb friends and they cannot understand each other

dense wing
stuck copper
#

yeah, it's like that

#

you can send me hens wearing ties, and i'll be like "this neat", but send it to a normie and they'll go "wtf?"

somber halo
#

so when i like weeb stuff, my normie friends dont understand and my weeb friends dont understand my normie stuff

dense wing
#

I didnt think I had ocd until I told my bf about what I do and he was deeply disturbed OMEGALUL

dense wing
#

having friends that are into internet culture vs. friends that live in the real world is odd

somber halo
#

idk what real ocd is, i just contextualize it as extreme perfectionism

dense wing
#

thats what most people think LeanderXD

#

ocd is a blanket term

stuck copper
#

i imagine it more like

#

being an extreme pedant about certain things

somber halo
#

i was like that when i was younger

dense wing
#

many disorders fall under ocd, so instead of being like "oh yeah I have blablablamania" you say I have OCD

somber halo
#

but its the same as being mad all the time

#

too much effort, for little to no gain

#

i see

stuck copper
#

i imagine kawa feels like i do when i see tiny holes, so...

#

it's probably bad

#

unsettling

dense wing
#

real ocd is needing to do a certain task repetitively throughout the day or else it hinders your ability to function normally

stuck copper
#

does it make you itchy?

#

like something's crawling under your skin?

somber halo
#

i feel like that sometimes with AL

dense wing
#

EntyLUL well you have tropophobia it sounds like

somber halo
#

gotta do things in AL before i do other shit

stuck copper
#

don't google that word with pictures enabled

dense wing
#

that just sounds like having a schedule

stuck copper
#

seriously

#

it's a fucking nightmare

#

the thing that triggered me for the very first time was a tropophobia edit of a human body part with lotus holes

dense wing
#

the ocd I have is disturbing so I wont be specific EntyLUL but basically if I cant do it, it drives me nuts and I will keep doing it even if im "satsified" (you never feel satsified)

stuck copper
#

really fucking horrible stuff

dense wing
wet torrent
#

Think it's trypophobia

dense wing
#

traumatic

stuck copper
somber halo
#

ive seen it a bunch of times yeah

brittle wind
stuck copper
#

i always forget what it's called like

#

but tropo sounded close enough

wet torrent
dense wing
#

mine autocorrected to tropophobia and I googled it to make sure EntyLUL said it was correct

somber halo
#

lol

stuck copper
#

i just call it fear of holes

#

because nobody understands that other word

#

i have also massive fear of heights

dense wing
#

okay yeah its trypophobia XD2 but tropophobia is also a word

wet torrent
#

Yea i dont like it too

brittle wind
somber halo
#

i too have a fear of heights

stuck copper
#

but i climbed a large tower with my son last week. i was so brave haha

dense wing
#

looks like its common enough mistake that googling tropophobia will result with the wrong fear

stuck copper
#

47m

somber halo
#

but the feeling of possible death has made me get over it

stuck copper
#

and only a railing

wet torrent
stuck copper
#

and when i tried to relax at the top, i noticed the tower was oscillating

brittle wind
#

Ya

stuck copper
#

which felt like it was about to fall over

dense wing
#

god that reminds me when I was in the 8th floor of a hotel and an earthquake happened PortDoll the building was swaying and making creaking noises

#

my cousin was on the shitter when it happened YorkBruh

stuck copper
#

and like i was in some kind of movie, another dad explained to his kids why we would absolutely not survive a fall, no matter what, and that nobody could save us. ever.

dense wing
#

all of us panicked, trying to tell her to hurry up before the building collapses and we die NOOO

stuck copper
#

so we went straight the fuck back down EntyLUL

dense wing
#

I feel bad for her, she was rushed on the toilet and im sure she was uncomfortable bc she didnt get to finish her business

stuck copper
#

that sounds horrible

dense wing
#

exactly psyduk I felt horrible

somber halo
#

im scared of things that are supposed to be scary

#

like horror movies and monsters

stuck copper
#

nah

#

horror movies are funny

dense wing
#

party shio

#

omg yeah

stuck copper
#

i am so immune to those

dense wing
#

I love watching horror movies, theyre my favorite comedy movies

somber halo
#

how2immune

stuck copper
#

people don't watch them with me anymore, because i always ruin the mood lmao

somber halo
#

i have friends that get a kick out of me being scared

stuck copper
#

haha

#

we had one of those too

dense wing
#

hey I have a group of friends where we watch horror movies that are just so fucking bad EntyLUL you are free to watch it with us and laugh the entire movie loudly and annoyingly

stuck copper
#

during the scary parts, we'd poke him in the dark

dense wing
#

we also watch just awful movies

stuck copper
#

so he'd jump up and scream like a lil bitch lmao

#

funny shit

hazy elk
#

idk about you but I'd rather shit my pants than have a roof collapse on me with a happy conscience

dense wing
#

we specifically go on a hunt for the worst movies to exist and painfully sit through them

hazy elk
#

๐Ÿ˜”

somber halo
#

im not scared of the possibility of not living but the pants pooping still gets me every time

dense wing
#

better than the people taking a shower right? EntyLUL

stuck copper
#

lmao

#

back when i was still with my parents

#

one day

#

my sister came screaming out of the bathroom, completely naked, and wet

dense wing
#

hey ive done that before

stuck copper
#

because she had seen a big-ass spider while showering

hazy elk
#

shower's even cooler, you just defend yourself with a shampoo bottle

stuck copper
#

i laughed my ass off so hard

dense wing
#

fight the earthquake with bubbles

#

so im deathly afraid of the dark right

#

I lived in texas for 3 months, during a storm I was showering

stuck copper
#

she was so fast, i couldn't see anything, even if i wanted to

dense wing
#

the power went out and so I was showering in the pitch black

#

I was screaming, slipping around the bathroom naked and wet

stuck copper
#

slipping dangerous

dense wing
#

my dad came running in looking for a towel to cover me with before trying to get me into "safety" Sad2k

#

I was
traumatized

hazy elk
#

I always have morbid thoughts like that, wondering if the building designer set up the perfect way to get electrocuted in the shower or not Harold_lum

dense wing
#

dude the shower was still fucking running OMEGALUL

stuck copper
#

Traumatized by Darkness sounds like a cool song title

brittle wind
#

Last few cases of earthquakes we've had i woke up, heard my parents talking but they werent panicky or anything
Concluded it wasn't serious and just closed my eyes again

hazy elk
#

understandable though, I really enjoy the dark because less stress on occipitals Thinkeyes

dense wing
#

omfg when I lived in cali my mom made fun of me for sleeping through literally every single earthquake

hazy elk
#

that's something to rub in her face PepePoint

dense wing
#

I get hallucinations in the dark, little me never understood, therefore I have a lifetime trauma of darkness

brittle wind
#

Best quakes were those back in the middle of school
They'd just let us go for the day

#

And my classmates would blame it on me for sneezing too loud/hard

dense wing
stuck copper
#

tfw not living in earthquake area. no cool stories to share.

hazy elk
#

yeah all I have are lonely hurricane stories SadgeW

stuck copper
#

those too

#

all we get is some minor flooding of an area that is expected to get flooded. whoohoo.

dense wing
#

I have tornado and earthquake, thats it

stuck copper
#

first-world harbor city experience.

dense wing
#

but my state is susceptible to a horrifically destructive volcano attack anytime 3c literally any moment, the volcano has been sleeping for way past due

stuck copper
#

i mean, what sounds cooler?

#

"we had to flee from a flood"

#

or

#

"we had to flee from an exploding volcano with lava and shit"

dense wing
#

if it kills me I wish I could stick around to see the full amount of destruction it unleashed so I could really wager if it was as disastrous as they state it will be XD2

brittle wind
#

So like in Arabic they do this stuff where they add a few letters to a word for some mumbo jumbo which i dont even remember cuz i always slept in Arabic classes
Once the teacher was doin the mumbo to the word 'earthquake' and right then we got a quake

dense wing
#

it did not like the mumbo

brittle wind
#

I woke up and was askin the guy sitting near me why he was shaking my chair

dense wing
brittle wind
#

This one time was going to english class and like

#

Felt dizzy

#

Was like "guess im not feeling good still gonna go"

#

Went anyway

stuck copper
#

that wasn't you being dizzy

brittle wind
#

And after i got there they were like no class go home earthquake

stuck copper
#

it was your spider sense

brittle wind
#

Dam

#

Nah the feeling dizzy was actually just the quake but i didnt realize

green epoch
#

Finland doesnt rly have anything scary like that

brittle wind
#

Coulda cut down on the taxi costs cuz it happened right near home too

#

When i got back near our alley found my aunt and cousin waiting for me and my mom was semi crying and my aunt hugged me n all that

#

Cuz quake = shit connection = they couldnt call me

green epoch
#

But I remember not having electricity for 4 days due to really bad storms owoDisgust2

brittle wind
#

I was like bruh

green epoch
#

Scary

stuck copper
#

"bruh. it's just an earthquake."

#

"parents so annoying, i swear."

brittle wind
#

Im just unhinged or whatever

#

Well i was mostly surprised at my aunt being all over there

stuck copper
brittle wind
#

I suck at getting feelings unless something actually happens

green epoch
#

InaNod understandable

dense wing
#

reminds me when my gma passed I didnt shed a single tear kekwait

#

was wondering why everyone was crying when they could just wish upon a star for her back

#

gave my mom a dandelion told her to wish for her mom back psyduk

stuck copper
#

it kinda didn't hit me

brittle wind
#

Kawa livin in da dreamworld

stuck copper
#

some things you just notice, and they might bubble somewhere inside of you

#

but no more than that

dense wing
#

well I was 7 XD2 but my fantasy reality has not really changed

stuck copper
#

my grandma was sick and old

#

so it was kinda expected?

dense wing
#

I was considered an unsusually happy baby and kid ChampyXD

stuck copper
#

sounds nice

brittle wind
#

Back in schooldays my dad's grandma in my hometime passed away (i was already in the city we're in back then)
Not that i even knew her much but we'd go to her house every so often and play around etc
When dad told me she passed away i was like nothing
Then the next day in a class i randomly started crying
My teacher was like Nani

#

"sry cryin for my dad's gran"

#

"Bruh"

dense wing
#

it was nice, but cptsd hit and I did a 180 and wasnt that happy kid everyone knew

brittle wind
stuck copper
#

people deal with shit differently.

dense wing
#

then I hit enlightenment at age 16 and im back to the happy kid everyone once knew XD2

stuck copper
#

can't stand it when they shit on you for daring to have emotions.

brittle wind
#

Emotions too complex

dense wing
#

true

#

I didnt cry about my abuela either until later

#

I didnt really understand she was gone gone PortDoll

brittle wind
#

Hi ram

crystal sphinx
#

Wtf

brittle wind
#

Wat

crystal sphinx
#

That was Hella quick

#

I was just typing

brittle wind
#

Well

#

I saw that typing

#

Hi ram is 6 taps

crystal sphinx
#

Damn hi Rei

dense wing
#

typing for a while EntyLUL

green epoch
brittle wind
#

So what u typin

crystal sphinx
#

No it's download more ram

#

Anyway

green epoch
dense wing
crystal sphinx
#

When my grandparents passed away I didn't shed a year

#

I am not sure why

green epoch
crystal sphinx
#

It just didn't touch me

dense wing
#

were you young or age enough to understand?

crystal sphinx
#

But I felt bad about my parents losing theirs

#

Ye

#

Like 16?

dense wing
#

my dad's dad passed when I was around 16, I never met him, but I felt horrible for my dad

green epoch
#

I think I was 3 years old when my grandma died so AmagiSick dont remember anything about that

crystal sphinx
#

I met my grandparents for a short amount of time

#

Give or take 1 yr total

dense wing
#

grandpa had amnesia, the first time I saw him was in a care center so it was heartbreaking to see my dad visit a man that didnt know him

crystal sphinx
#

And they have been very nice to me

#

But idk

#

Well I just met my grandparents from mother side

stuck copper
#

so

#

i went to my dad's place

#

and he just randomly showed me a picture of my dead grandma's corpse

crystal sphinx
#

My grandparents from dad died before I was born, grandma, and when I was too young like 2-4, grandpa

stuck copper
#

like wtf?

#

who does that?

dense wing
#

I think it makes sense to not be so emotionally affected by a grandparent's passing unless they were directly involved in raising you or being your best friend

brittle wind
#

Cal: who tf starts a convo like that

crystal sphinx
#

Yeah

stuck copper
dense wing
#

the nd experience

stuck copper
#

gotta roll them over like a train

crystal sphinx
#

I recently realised and by recently few years ago

#

That

brittle wind
crystal sphinx
#

While your parents see you grow up and mature

#

You see the same in them

dense wing
#

yeah I remember

#

I watch a video from a chinese vtuber

crystal sphinx
#

It hit me like a train

stuck copper
#

your parents are just older kids

dense wing
#

she was crying because she hadnt seen her parents in a couple months, and when she saw them she noticed all the wrinkles she never saw before when she lived with them everyday

crystal sphinx
#

Yeah exactly

#

It felt weird

dense wing
#

it definitely hits like a train SerenitySob

crystal sphinx
#

You don't realise it until you start thinking about it

dense wing
#

right now im at the stage I sympathize for my parents bc theyre at the stage where they start having a crisis bc of their age

brittle wind
#

Im the crisis

stuck copper
#

you know those movies of old guys who used to hang out as friends going on one more tour, but now they're old?

crystal sphinx
#

I sympathize with them because they dealt with me and still do

brittle wind
crystal sphinx
#

Ahahha

brittle wind
#

Same raz same

stuck copper
#

when you watch them with your friends, you're like "haha, we'll be like this one day"

dense wing
#

children are a lifetime commitment KleeHug_Milkman

brittle wind
#

Literally said that earlier

crystal sphinx
#

God I appreciate my parents much more since I realised "damn I have been an awful child all this time"

stuck copper
#

and then you realize "oh, shit. that day has actually come. we're fucking old."

dense wing
stuck copper
#

not sure if funny or sad

dense wing
#

I have been best friends with my best friend since we were 11, when I look back at our photos, its seriously insane!

brittle wind
#

I always self identified as a lil shit so i try to help my parents with stuff as much as i can to make up for it a bit

dense wing
#

at the time I would have never imagined being this old !

brittle wind
#

While continuing to be the same lil shit

crystal sphinx
#

By awful I mean I have been very spoiled since kid due to how I was raised

#

And felt entitled to things

stuck copper
#

perks of growing up poor: can't be spoiled

crystal sphinx
#

I mean my parents are not poor nor rich

#

We literally avg

#

If not below

dense wing
#

I feel like I regret fighting with my mom when I feel she isnt treating me fair, but if I dont then I will never be able to stand up for myself
its weird

crystal sphinx
#

I am the first in my fam to got uni and one of the new in my extended fam

dense wing
#

middle class?

crystal sphinx
#

Middle class? Wdym

#

As in social status?

dense wing
#

im kind of in the same boat XD2 at least a few years ago yes

crystal sphinx
#

Yes

dense wing
#

money wise psyduk

stuck copper
#

i have nothing to regret in terms of childhood

crystal sphinx
#

Yes if not lower lol

stuck copper
#

since i never did anything wrong

#

my parents did

dense wing
#

yeah I used to be same boat XD2 like not lower, but also not exactly middle

brittle wind
#

I'm not spoiled in the "my dad showers me in money" sense but im still quite spoiled cuz they've always tried for me to like have the best possible life kinda way

crystal sphinx
#

Yeah exactly

dense wing
#

im also the first in family to go to college

crystal sphinx
#

Congrats!

stuck copper
#

bruh

dense wing
#

WDance lets gooo we're both making our fams proud

crystal sphinx
#

I really appreciate the hard-work my parents did and still do for me

#

Yeh

stuck copper
#

i had to play my gamegear with a homemade charger, built by my dad

dense wing
#

me too and its weird, its nothing I would say to their faces

crystal sphinx
#

Well that's nice

stuck copper
#

which he put in a little plastic box that would kill me when opened

crystal sphinx
#

I know lol

stuck copper
#

i opened it anyway

crystal sphinx
#

I still show my appreciation when I can

dense wing
#

I am so grateful for my parents and family blessex but I would never say thank you to their face, its indirect

stuck copper
#

"dad! check it out! i'm still alive haha!"

crystal sphinx
#

Idk if it's the same for you

brittle wind
#

Cal: im fucking invincible

stuck copper
#

kids being kids

crystal sphinx
#

But having Asian parents, they will never be thankful to you to your face

#

On contrary

stuck copper
#

parent: "don't put a fork in the outlet"
kid: "but why? there must be a reason. i have to find out"

crystal sphinx
#

But with the age they got much more lax

dense wing
#

my friend was recently an eye witness to someone shooting a gun in a rivalry, and I told her
"hey I would never say this to your face but I was telling my boyfriend im glad it said your name as an eyewitness and not your name as in deceased and they got your name from your IDs in your bag"

crystal sphinx
#

My mom still tells her friends how fucking stupid I was

#

And how God somehow spared my life all these years

dense wing
#

hey no one ever told me to not microwave silverware and I microwaved a bowl with a fork in it YorkBruh

stuck copper
#

my son got shocked by the tv antenna plug and threw a huge tantrum

crystal sphinx
#

There have been few occasions where I should have died

dense wing
#

people dogged on me like ITS COMMON SENSE??

#

no its not?!

#

its common sense if your family tells you OMEGALUL no one, absolutely no one told me not to

stuck copper
#

being the amazing parent i am, i went with the good ol "haha stoopid! that'll teach ya!"

crystal sphinx
#

Ahaha

dense wing
#

once it started sparking I freaked out and called my mom "HEY WHY WAS THE FORK SPARKING IM SCARED!!"

stuck copper
#

electricity dangerous

crystal sphinx
#

God recently my parents stared talking about marriage

brittle wind
#

One thing i regret doin as a kid is sayin sth dumb which i dont rember to my cousin who's mom had just divorced
She still kinda holds it against me even tho it was ages ago
I go like bruh that was when i was like 6 and she's like nope
Well its more like we have a normal relationship and i try being as kind and supportive of her as i can now then she suddenly randomly bring it up

crystal sphinx
brittle wind
#

Ancient history

dense wing
#

one thing I regret is I had a nightmare regarding my mom and I thought it really happened

dense wing
#

so I blamed her for it until I was like 14 and realized it was just an nightmare

#

thats like 8 years after it happened

crystal sphinx
#

I blame my mom for showing the original exorcist when I was kid

dense wing
crystal sphinx
#

God I do love horrors nowadays

#

But I was like 4-5 maybe

#

And I remember I was terrified to death

brittle wind
#

I had an elaborate dream that my cousin once forced me to go to her all girls school

#

Still feels real

#

Well

#

Was more like preschool

dense wing
#

my parents forced me to go to my room while my fam watched chainsaw massacre and I was really salty about it so I sat on the stairs and watched the movie in the reflection of the mirror

brittle wind
#

They have to tell me it was just a dream everytime i randomly bring it up for the mems

dense wing
#

safe to say I was like WTF JUST HAPPENED

brittle wind
crystal sphinx
#

Ahahaha

#

Damn going out of your way to watch it

dense wing
#

im really spiteful OMEGALUL so I felt super salty, found a way to watch it

brittle wind
#

I did that with dr who on bbc
When my dad would ground me

stuck copper
#

i'm so rotten, i had to remind myself that the bbc was a news thing

brittle wind
#

Childhood nightmares include brother locking me in the house and setting it on fire

stuck copper
#

because that sentence made no sense to me at first

brittle wind
#

Kek

stuck copper
#

๐Ÿคฆ

crystal sphinx
#

I tired to show my parents the MCU

#

Didn't work

brittle wind
#

Other one being in the kitchen and i was half normal and half skeleton

#

And could hear my parents talkin bout throwing me in the trashcan just outside the house

crystal sphinx
brittle wind
crystal sphinx
#

Literally real life

#

And telling it to my face

stuck copper
#

this is a topic i'm not very fond of

crystal sphinx
#

I've been kicked out from my house 2-3 times as well

#

But I deserved it

crystal sphinx
stuck copper
#

my parents told me they'd put me in an orphanage, and i did the same with my kid ๐Ÿคฆ

#

big shame

crystal sphinx
#

It happens

dense wing
#

hey my mom said that to me too

#

nd things

stuck copper
#

as a parent

#

just let me defend this shit by saying

#

sometimes we're in over our heads

dense wing
#

its easy to get mad

#

being a parent is no easy task!

stuck copper
#

shit like this is just us being desperate

dense wing
#

lifetime, 24/7 raising a whole human!

crystal sphinx
#

Yeah you understand what your parents told you once you become one

brittle wind
stuck copper
#

it's still wrong, but y'know...

brittle wind
#

Anyway

crystal sphinx
#

Yeah it is

dense wing
crystal sphinx
#

But w/e

stuck copper
#

i just hope i didn't damage him too much

#

let's move on

brittle wind
#

Avrogen
Gacha weebing with a side dish of real life traumas

dense wing
#

im proud trash, when I was a teenage girl oh lawd

crystal sphinx
#

I mean I always get told: you don't understand now even if you're older you will understand when you get in our position

dense wing
#

wait im still a teenage girl

stuck copper
#

where there are humans, there will be lewds drama

crystal sphinx
#

Only 2d lewds no humans needed

dense wing
#

no lewds blessex

crystal sphinx
#

Humans are not worth my time

#

You're wrong kawa Blessex

stuck copper
#

humans

#

alive

brittle wind
#

You're a human

stuck copper
#

smelly

#

needy

crystal sphinx
stuck copper
#

2d girls

brittle wind
stuck copper
#

not real

#

dont ask questions

crystal sphinx
#

Where there is a will there is a way

stuck copper
#

can delete without guilt

crystal sphinx
#

If you believe it in it it's real

#

Something

#

Poetic

#

Something

dense wing
brittle wind
#

Smh let ppl enjoy their lewds in peace

crystal sphinx
brittle wind
#

Only bonk em when they brek the rools and send em here

crystal sphinx
dense wing
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and in my reality I am correct UniHappy

stuck copper
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rei fighting for his lewd rights

brittle wind
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Lewd ryghts

crystal sphinx
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We live in two different realities

brittle wind
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Reilities

crystal sphinx
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One Rei is enough

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Maybe too much already

stuck copper
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multi-rei

brittle wind
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Or just be like luna
Giga lewd but try acting like the purest thing in existence

crystal sphinx
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RCU

dense wing
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I live in the kawect reality (correct) rainbowroach

crystal sphinx
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Lol nice one

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I give you that

dense wing
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EntyLUL thank you I am proud

crystal sphinx
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Yeah me too

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That made me giggle

stuck copper
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i live in the wrong reality

crystal sphinx
brittle wind
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The (correct) makes me not mucho proud

dense wing
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I love puns but I wish I had the talent of making puns for everything with no thought EntyLUL

brittle wind
stuck copper
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speaking of wrong

dense wing
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how do those people do it!

stuck copper
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@brittle wind dm

brittle wind
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Cal sliding in my dms