In Golden Flame

[balmy obsidian]

Time is ours

[limber fossil]

(I really do hate that it’s j’ai and not je suis. So silly)

[thorn hinge]

I hate the british and yet the only brits I actually know I absolutely love?
Probably helps that they also hate the british

[clever pebble]

Don't that work like, on everywhere?

when you just make significant noise and pray for empathy and pattern recognition to work

[zinc topaz]

dans mes couilles or something

[limber fossil]

(How dare french not conform to my english-speaking standards of language structure)

[clever pebble]

Hell, it even works with crazy dave

[zinc topaz]

i for one despise noun then adjective structure

[clever pebble]

You don't need the subtitles to understand crazy dave

[zinc topaz]

the car red

[balmy obsidian]

I used to meme that I hate the perfide albion because haha france versus britain or something but genuinelly all the brits I've met are genuine sweethearts so fuck that actually I love the brits

[limber fossil]

The worst thing about living in British is the food

Oh my god it’s so bad

[clever pebble]

the cold?

the wet cold that soaks through your clothes

[limber fossil]

Eh, it’s whatever

Global warming means it’s honestly not been that cold

Even up north

And i come from desert country

[clever pebble]

I miss my lower latitude home...

[zinc topaz]

i want to get out of the desert so bad

[clever pebble]

still vaguely ocean adjacent, but much less antagonistic at winter

[zinc topaz]

since moving back here it's been genuinely depressing not having trees that arent palo verdes and not having grass or snow or rainy days that arent full blown storms

every day is brown and beige and just too hot to be comfortable

[lime widget]

thats fucked up

[zinc topaz]

hopefully around this time next year i'll be gearing up to move to colorado though :>

(manifesting)

[clever cloud]

(by any chance, can someone find my message count here?)

[balmy obsidian]

7150

[willow needle]

mostly referring to this video https://www.youtube.com/shorts/vnQYK4O7Ih4

[clever cloud]

wow, meow really is a problem :))

[balmy obsidian]

7151

[zinc topaz]

for context in 2022 i moved from here:

[noble ivy]

I know how you feel June...
I grew up in southern California so moving northern half, where there are actual seasons here, felt like I was returning to a natural habitat

[zinc topaz]

back to here:

[balmy obsidian]

I have never moved in my entire life I'm in the same appartment I've been living in for 27 years

[willow needle]

me when i want to move there bc theres a huge work opportunities for ornithology

but then i remember the food

[clever cloud]

actual hermit crab

[lime widget]

innit

or whatever

[balmy obsidian]

Cheap social housing in a capital city will do that to you

[clever cloud]

more of that actually

[clever cloud]

like..everywhere

[west phoenix]

I have moved like every year

I'm sick of it

[balmy obsidian]

Yeah, I wish also

[zinc topaz]

god that photo took forever to send

[willow needle]

holy shit is that breaking bad

[balmy obsidian]

It'sn ot breaking bad it lacks yellow<

[limber fossil]

Dating an orleanian/jamaican girlfriend who loves cooking was actually a strategic move on my part, not a romantic one

[willow needle]

my partner doesnt know how to cook

[balmy obsidian]

Some poeple marry for tax benefits
Some people date for food benefits

[west phoenix]

I've always been the partner that cooks

Its a heavy burden to bear

[willow needle]

SAME

[supple carbon]

Meow is the one who cooks

[balmy obsidian]

Nice, you can cook for me then

[west phoenix]

But i like baking for people :3

[zinc topaz]

also everyone fucking litters here!!! god damn it

[west phoenix]

Is this you asking me out

[zinc topaz]

littering is such an inexcusably stupid and lazy thing to do

[noble ivy]

Heavy is the chest that wears the tits or something like that

[west phoenix]

Well its okay I'm more bottom heavy

[zinc topaz]

be my ticket out of the us and you'll have food made for you every morning afternoon and night

[balmy obsidian]

Nah if I ask someone out it's a 10 lines long ramble with no punctuation nor capitalization about how i'm very sorry to inconvenience them

I've done it precisely once

[clever cloud]

you have rizz leo

[west phoenix]

This is why I don't ask people out

[clever cloud]

be more confident please

[balmy obsidian]

Fuck no

[west phoenix]

This is why I don't talk to people

[clever cloud]

17k messages

[balmy obsidian]

You're asking a cactus to eat a steak

19k actually

[zinc topaz]

i avoid being confident bc i dont want it to come off as cockiness and/or creepiness

[west phoenix]

And look, I'm being an inconvenience!

[balmy obsidian]

Yeah something like that

[zinc topaz]

so my asking someone out is "hi im sorry i know you probably dont want to be bothered rn but i think youre pretty and you dont have to do anything with it but heres my phone number have a good day bye"

[willow needle]

tbf i had like 9 romantic partners across my life and i didnt ask any of them out. so this strategy works actually.

[west phoenix]

Max, Primo's player has posted this multiple times calling out Serenity

[west phoenix]

Yeah 4 for me doing just that lmao

[clever cloud]

Serenity irl

[balmy obsidian]

I mean, Serenity makes it work

So do you, most likely

[west phoenix]

Yeah people ask me out and when i say yes i ruin their life

[zinc topaz]

im famously bitchless sorry to disappoint

[west phoenix]

Idk if thats "making it work"

[balmy obsidian]

Nah

I reject your opinion

[clever pebble]

huh

are we talking about entering a romantic relation?

[lime widget]

Borb

[willow needle]

borb

[minor orchid]

BORB

[clever pebble]

BORB

[noble ivy]

BORB??!?

[balmy obsidian]

somethin something maidenless

[clever pebble]

eh, I have never seethed, and has already coped

[west phoenix]

Ah! I didn't expect that

[zinc topaz]

i prefer varré's original dialogue

[clever pebble]

straight into uni with not a single relation and single digit frienz

[thorn hinge]

I may flirt around a lot here but in reality I've only told someone I had feelings for them twice ever.

[balmy obsidian]

I do not know Varrés' dialog as I have never played the elden ring game

[zinc topaz]

"you're maidenless, aren't you? ah. feel free to go off and die in a ditch somewhere."

[thorn hinge]

and to be honest the flirting is a much more recent development

[west phoenix]

I've always been a good flirt which is a shame because people should stay away from me

[zinc topaz]

i misquoted it slightly but

[balmy obsidian]

I like to do the flirting as a joke because it's funny to me but I prefer to do it with people I know are not into guys to begin with, just to be sure

[west phoenix]

There's no worse fate than to be maidenless 😔

[clever pebble]

I mean, I find human interaction to be demanding and requires me to uphold significant amount of effort to run a coverup on the lazy ass I am. So I never bothered and instead choosed to be the lazy ass that is within me, aside from doing coursework and hobbies

[thorn hinge]

I disagree with the later half specifically

[clever cloud]

Look, the one time i actually told someone how i felt (besides my wife) was because she absolutely typecasted me as the gay friend who's into manicures literal years before i realized i was trans

[limber fossil]

I may flirt around a lot here but in reality i may also flirt around a lot

[clever cloud]

"Uh.. i sorta wanted to go out with you..."
"Oh! well, sorry to say but i already have a boyfriend"

[zinc topaz]

ooh that reminds me im getting my nails done tomorrow :3

[limber fossil]

At the red flag party my red flag was “slut”

(Homewrecker was too long to fit into the card)

[tame tide]

Red flag party?

[limber fossil]

(I should also clarify that i have only ever intentionally homewrecked twice)

[thorn hinge]

TWICE

[west phoenix]

WHAT

I WOULDN'T ADMIT THAT

[limber fossil]

A party where everyone wears a little red card with their supposed red flag, usually humourous

[limber fossil]

Oh they were both transphobes

[clever cloud]

stunning

[limber fossil]

So i simply just

[balmy obsidian]

"You have a boyfriend? perfect, you'll get to introduce us then"

[limber fossil]

Yk

[balmy obsidian]

broke their knees?

[limber fossil]

Showed their partners what better opportunities there were out there

[thorn hinge]

I am in awe, Ari

[balmy obsidian]

wrecked their homes?

[zinc topaz]

god damn

[west phoenix]

Based???

Idk man

[thorn hinge]

incredible, iconic, amazing

[limber fossil]

I also once made out with the daughter of someone who was homophobic to me

[balmy obsidian]

https://tenor.com/view/limbus-company-lobotomy-corporation-library-of-ruina-headless-ichthys-fish-gif-14369029080138669786

[clever cloud]

revenge flirt

[limber fossil]

Highkey recommend making out on top of a washing machine

[west phoenix]

I have done that

It is nice

[thorn hinge]

🥺

[limber fossil]

And then had to run out with my friends after getting caught by said homophobic mom

[balmy obsidian]

Ok but

Should the washing machine be on or off

What model

Will this be on the test

[clever cloud]

oh leo..

[west phoenix]

Are you dating models now Leo?

[limber fossil]

Look, all i’m saying is, don’t be a homophobic cheater and not expect karma to come knocking

[west phoenix]

Impressive

[balmy obsidian]

what models

[zinc topaz]

im praying that the last 6 months ive spent off tinder has given it time to refresh and i actually match with a human being this year

[west phoenix]

Well in this case it doesn't knock, it wrecks

[zinc topaz]

i miss physical contact sigh

[balmy obsidian]

i'm asking about the kind of washing machine

some open from the top some from the side

[west phoenix]

Yeah same

[limber fossil]

(The best part is that washing machine girl then started dating my friend, who asshole boyfriend had cheated on in the first place)

They’re still together last I heard

[balmy obsidian]

I get around that because you can't miss what you never had

[clever cloud]

every time im in this chat i get a violent urge to destructively snuggle some of yall

[west phoenix]

Don't touch me, whore

[balmy obsidian]

Good luck finding me bitch

[zinc topaz]

the last time i was active on tinder i accidentally matched with and hooked up with like 4 people who knew each other and didn't know that all of them knew me

[limber fossil]

Lmfao

[zinc topaz]

the through line was they were all trans furry djs and i only found out they knew each other bc one of them showed me a flyer for a rave they were djing at and i was like

oh my god i know everyone on this flyer

[limber fossil]

Yeah i’ve on multiple encounters made out with trans people who i didn’t know i knew pre-transitioning

It’s very silly

[balmy obsidian]

I'm noting down that all furry DJs know each other

[west phoenix]

I feel like a Victorian child in this conversation

[west phoenix]

Honestly probably true

[balmy obsidian]

It seems like a very specific subset

But then again everyone is a furry

Except me

[clever cloud]

nah, furry djs is a niiiiiiche

[limber fossil]

I’m not a furry i just think dragons and Minotaurs are cool okay

[tame tide]

There are 3 ways I feel during this chat:

• Damn, people are horny
• Damn, people are depressed
• Damn, people are actually talking about IGF

[west phoenix]

I'm the first 2

[noble ivy]

that's how I feel in every conversation

[balmy obsidian]

You can do all three at once by mentionning Howl is not real

[zinc topaz]

im always the first two too yeah

[thorn hinge]

I would 100% snuggle every single person in this chat

[tame tide]

Howl is not real

[balmy obsidian]

Again, good luck finding me bitch

[zinc topaz]

not yet she's not

[thorn hinge]

Andd several of you would get more than cuddles judging by the reactions

[west phoenix]

She's married Ada

But ok

[thorn hinge]

I'll start in france and keep snuggling till I get you

[clever cloud]

France, major city, affordable apt. This is doable...

[limber fossil]

You’d be surprised how little that stops some people

[west phoenix]

You

[tame tide]

I know Leo's IP

[west phoenix]

Just say you

[tame tide]

127.0.0.1

[thorn hinge]

so am I that's not nearly as big a barrier as some might think as long as everybody''s cool

[balmy obsidian]

I mean clearly it's doable

The problem is grabbing me while I'm not barricade in my room

[limber fossil]

Hey now, all my homewrecking was only limited to makeouts

[clever cloud]

Oh yeah, im off-limits but i like the plan of smooching everyone

[west phoenix]

[limber fossil]

It doesn’t count as cheating if it’s against transphobic boyfriends

It says so in the bible

[west phoenix]

I need to make my way out of this conversation

[noble ivy]

True!

also True

[thorn hinge]

I literally ENM you can't homewreck me (though you're welcome to try )

[balmy obsidian]

https://youtu.be/jC5OvnvV_yI?t=6

[tame tide]

Kevin ❤️

[limber fossil]

Unfortunately you aren’t a transphobic boyfriend

Oh nk wait

I got it mixed up

[balmy obsidian]

Professor

What is ENM

[thorn hinge]

ethical non-monogamy

[balmy obsidian]

Danke

[limber fossil]

Tbh i knew i had fully witnessed the lesbian experience when my girlfriend introduced me to her best friend, who was also her ex.
Who i had made out with before

[balmy obsidian]

Hilarious

[thorn hinge]

in other words polyamorous but with slightly different intent/connotations/community

[balmy obsidian]

The cooler polyamorous, got it

[limber fossil]

ENM, or “i could be poly but that’s just so much work” /lh

[tight pier]

hell yeah

🤝

[thorn hinge]

I see ENM as more of a broad umbrella term and poly as one flavor under it but ye

[balmy obsidian]

What's all this then

You got a license for cultural resets?

[thorn hinge]

We lean more to relationship anarchy (which does NOT mean anything goes, that's very different)

[clever cloud]

Actually I'd be interested in learning the nuances here. Do you have a write-up?

[balmy obsidian]

Pull out the thesis

[clever cloud]

yea hopefully

[limber fossil]

I read one that was really interesting

My favourite queer article i read recently was the “choosing to be lesbian” one

[thorn hinge]

yeah but I gotta go make lunch and wake my partner up so I'll try and write something but there's a whoellotta words online abotu the various flavors and influences there

[limber fossil]

Which was a super fun read

[balmy obsidian]

Are you in ❤️ or ♠️

Very important

[thorn hinge]

ooh, I'll have to look that up

[noble ivy]

killing you

[balmy obsidian]

Teehee

[limber fossil]

The wildest queer article i read recently was a thesis on puppygirls

[thorn hinge]

❤️ and♦️ right now I don't have much capacity for blackrom

[thorn hinge]

I READ THAT IT WAS GREAT

[clever cloud]

polyamorous as in "everyone is dating each other"?

[limber fossil]

It’s by malavika kannan

I think it’s called “lowkey, i chose to be a lesbian”

[thorn hinge]

and I laughted because like three of the artists I follow had their works in the thesis

[limber fossil]

As someone who’s not very “in” to western-focused online transfemme spaces it was certainly an eye opening read

[tight pier]

scientific article?

[zinc topaz]

i'm quite monogamous but also sex should be fun so as long as both people are on board involving other people's not explicitly off the table

[clever cloud]

oh man, i read that with an extremely serious academic eye. i was like "yes yes quite quite 🧐 "

[tight pier]

real

[noble ivy]

I think so?
that, or somehow I found a completely unrelated published research article on puppy girls
https://www.tandfonline.com/doi/full/10.1080/08164649.2025.2556256#d1e171

[limber fossil]

I gave up on trying to label myself a while back

[clever cloud]

it's cultural anthropology. you can take anything and view it as a genuine analysis of a particular cultural phenomena.

[zinc topaz]

for that exact same reason i tend to date pan/bisexual people

[limber fossil]

Now i’m just “That Bitch™”

I’m here to punch fascists and kiss faggots

[zinc topaz]

its more like hey if we both think this person's hot why not

[tight pier]

fuck yeah. we're a hypnotist, so we've ended up getting sent & reading a couple bizzare articles

we will read this

[limber fossil]

It says so in the bible

[clever cloud]

i read the puppygirl article on a plane on my way to norway

[limber fossil]

Lmao

What were your thoughts on it

[tight pier]

this is fun. will read this later

[clever cloud]

Informative! lays out a very clear summary of why when where how of puppygirls and then where it fails or other shortcomings

[limber fossil]

I fully just forgot the entire article after I read it

[clever cloud]

lmao

[limber fossil]

My brain simply could not compute it ig

[clever cloud]

"help, i got puppy headspace'd by the puppy girl scientific article"

[zinc topaz]

LOL

[tight pier]

from skimming it, it seems like something helpful for someone who doesn't "get it"

[clever pebble]

I think I listened to...3 hour of The Disaster of Passion by now...

[zinc topaz]

i recently got puppy headspace'd by a video of a girl actually talking to an actual puppy

[clever pebble]

All I can feel...is
TOTSUGEKI

I forgot to switch tracks...

[noble ivy]

man... chat is WILD today

[zinc topaz]

i've had the castlevania sotn soundtrack on for 4 hours

[tight pier]

Right??

[clever cloud]

yea, its anthropology for "here's what you missed"

[zinc topaz]

i am going to finish this fucking costume today if it kills me

[limber fossil]

Sort of. If anything it made me curious to seek out more articles that explore the difference in trans experiences for POC trans people compared to white western raised trans people

[clever cloud]

a big part of the article i liked was pointing out the differences between puppy play and puppygirls as two distinct things

[zinc topaz]

i need to go buy more sharpies though insane how fast they dry out when you're drawing details onto fabric which you are totally supposed to do

[limber fossil]

Because, and i do believe the article itself mentions it, stuff like “puppy” play or whatever is definitely more commonly observable in younger, whiter spaces and peoples

And i feel like that applies to a lot of trans stereotypes in general

[noble ivy]

To any lurkers in this thread:
I assure you, an anthropological study of puppygirls is vital reading to In Golden Flame

[balmy obsidian]

waves hand in the general direction of howl

[thorn hinge]

You are
so fuckin cool

[limber fossil]

I know*!*

[clever cloud]

being trans in intimately tied to the cultures in which you live. and it's a shame that so much of online trans spaces are defined by white american experiences. This is slowly changing, but it's a product of the US dominating internet culture as a whole too

[tight pier]

we wonder if "older" trans folks (40-50+) were... "quirky" like how folks under the puppy-girl & general trans-therian umbrella are now, or if its something newer that exists because of the internet allowing a higher degree of freedom and self-expression

[noble ivy]

I think its just that the internet allows "quirky" people to be louder and far more visible than ever

[zinc topaz]

on this note: crazy how much culture morphs when people let it and dont try and beat people into boxes

[limber fossil]

As a retired professional debater, i assure all revolutionaries here that kicking a bigot in the shins is an accepted form of civilised discourse in the free marketplace of ideas.

[tight pier]

and it creates a "feedback loop" where its easier to find and easier to get into

[balmy obsidian]

In all honesty, to say something that will annihilate all victorian childs in the chat, moirails sounds nice and comfortable. I'd like that (I think).

[tight pier]

Our Saturday group is basically a ♦️ polycule at this point

[limber fossil]

And if you’re punching them in the face, go for the jaws. Reliable way to secure a knockout

(In minecraft)

Well, i’m gonna bounce. Alas, my new meds come in tomorrow so this is the last y’all shall see of unfiltered Ari

Adios Calliope

[balmy obsidian]

You're cool regardless

[thorn hinge]

I am 40. And I'm a trans therian plural lesbian mess who knows the hypno triggers for at least two of my friends. So.

[clever cloud]

what the fuck is going on

[tight pier]

Fuck yeah.

[clever cloud]

kinky freaky fucks have been around forever. the sanitation of human sexuality is relatively new

[noble ivy]

We've always been here

-# (was digging through the mem folder to find these stupid ass excerpts, but now I think the moments past...)

[tight pier]

Our question is moreso, "what did the trans community look like 20/30/40/50 years ago, and did folks' identities go as 'against the grain' as they do now, in 2025?"

or "what was the 1970s equivalent to the puppygirl/catgirl?"

[clever cloud]

you can read about this with stuff like Judith Butler's books or Gender Outlaw

there's data!

[tight pier]

wonderful, thank you

[balmy obsidian]

Imagining a cowboygirl with a colorful hat

[clever cloud]

the big through-line is that being trans was a clear, hard, removal from public society. So a lot of them were forced to become sex workers (not trafficking) just to exist

[tight pier]

we have so much shit we need to read, the backlog is too great

:P

[noble ivy]

a girl, a boy, and a cow all in one!!?!

[tight pier]

this we've heard about!

[clever cloud]

non-binary identities being "formally" recognize is a reeaaaallly new thing. like 1990s new

even though we've been here forever

[tight pier]

aye!

[zinc topaz]

ive been thinking about it more and i think i align with agender pretty well, somewhere in there

[west phoenix]

"stop fuckin' in the igf chat" - eleonor

[thorn hinge]

No

[balmy obsidian]

-# STOP FUCKING WITH THE MICROWAVE

[thorn hinge]

NO

[noble ivy]

NEVER

[shell bison]

...why do I always rejoin in wild times

[zinc topaz]

-# gordon get your dork ass down to the test chamber before i shove this sample up your ass

[balmy obsidian]

It's always wild times bunzi

[thorn hinge]

sure but it's been a particularly wild day lol

[shell bison]

Like damn I took today off because fuck work and I come back to this

[noble ivy]

bun... It's been WILD since dawn...

[zinc topaz]

ok guys one more side of the fabric i need to sew on

we're making good time

it's not even 1 yet

[clever cloud]

this is one of the most normal moments today

[shell bison]

Okay, what happened

[balmy obsidian]

Sex.

While everyone is calm and good, here's some music to go along with :) https://youtu.be/bcEoHjGdbbY?si=sOXI3vit34qEuz3G

[thorn hinge]

you cant do this to me leo

;_;

[balmy obsidian]

why not?

It's good music

[zinc topaz]

ok do i need to play this game

how long is it

[thorn hinge]

BECAUSE NOW I'M THINKING ABOUT ||PYE|| AND CRYING

[tight pier]

we've just been nonbinary for a while, haven't actually figured out what we are lol

[noble ivy]

-# oh waow this version uses every nook and cranny of my head phones

[thorn hinge]

YES

[noble ivy]

anywhere between 22 minutes and eternity

[balmy obsidian]

It's a puzzle exploration and mystery game that has a very cool premise but that you might not like

People who recommend it strongly recommend it

[thorn hinge]

round bout 15-20 hours depending on your luck and problem solving skills

[zinc topaz]

yeah i'm not a man but im not exactly not a man either? i dont think i'm a woman but i don't mind being called she

[balmy obsidian]

Personally, I just watched a friend play it because I lack the brain power

[shell bison]

scrolls up
Puppy girl discussion

I think I see where this is going

[tight pier]

we do not care, our gender doesnt matter, just call us what we want to be called

[zinc topaz]

at the end of the day gender is a silly game and i dont want to be part of it

[balmy obsidian]

I'm a guy but if calling me a puppygirl is funnier then do it

[thorn hinge]

TLDR; Play Outer Wilds, do not look anything up about it, the less you know the better, it's so fuckin good tho

[zinc topaz]

i was there too once leo

[zinc topaz]

[thorn hinge]

Outer Wilds changed who I am as a person and how I see the world

[noble ivy]

you also missed

the hrt talk
thick thighs saving lives
thick thighs ruining relationships
Meow trying to convince me that Ada wasn't real
etc,

[zinc topaz]

damn that good huh

[noble ivy]

yes

[thorn hinge]

yes

[noble ivy]

yes it is

[tight pier]

also someone asking us to fuck their wife

[balmy obsidian]

Personally I did not vibe with the ending of Outer Wilds but it was still very cool to watch play out

[thorn hinge]

top three games of my life and I've played a LOT of games

[safe glade]

One of the best games I've 95%ed but never beat (I have complaints about how the "endgame" works, but everything up to that is great)

[cobalt zealot]

Baby...

[balmy obsidian]

Actually Imma delete that

[tight pier]

similar: we've been playing through rain world

[minor orchid]

baaaby

so smol

only 30 cm

[thorn hinge]

Also it has a DLC that basically adds a whole new 10 hours of game and another fantastic story to dig into and made me cry in a dozen new ways

[noble ivy]

vague outer wilds spoilers ||I'm so surprised you weren't absolutely sobbing at the ending like I did||

[cobalt zealot]

Outer Wilds was a fucking chore of a game and I genuinely played the last 3 hours purely out of spite to see the ending

[noble ivy]

That explains so much about why Cel and Eruca are so different

[zinc topaz]

hi hipá

[cobalt zealot]

I don't like this assessment

[thorn hinge]

only other games to get me crying like that are SIGNALIS and 1000xRESIST. All three of them have songs that can bring me to tears if I so much as think about them too much

[noble ivy]

[tight pier]

outer wilds does not seem like our type of game, our girlfriend loves it - we'll probably end up playing it when she makes us

[cobalt zealot]

Its smug aura mocks me

[shell bison]

HUH?
WHAT?

[noble ivy]

[shell bison]

And I thought our Friday session talks were wild

[noble ivy]

Don't worry about it Bunzi

[shell bison]

I sleep in one day and I miss the most down bad day in chat

[thorn hinge]

oh yeah bunzi missed out on us celebrating a 2 time homewrecker

[tight pier]

(it was all in good fun and they didnt realize they were referring to us)

[shell bison]

Pfffff

[balmy obsidian]

(outer wilds ending spoilers) ||It made me sad and I did not like it. The message is about the end, letting go, and why that's okay, but that doesn't mean I ahve to like it. I want there to be more. I want people to live and be happy. Some vague concept liek "the end of the universe" doesn't get to decide that everyone has to leave now. Bullshit.||

[tight pier]

you know what game means a lot to us? KOTOR 2

[balmy obsidian]

There are games that made me sad and made me like it and that's POKEMON MYSTERY DUNGEON BAYBEEEE BEST GAME OF ALL TIME

[safe glade]

The only video game song that will reliably make me cry is Austin Wintory's "Apotheosis" from Journey

[thorn hinge]

did you do the DLC? 👀 ||to be honest it might make things worse...||

[balmy obsidian]

I only caught glimpses of it through a friend who played it

[noble ivy]

context for the bun

[thorn hinge]

also on my all time list, maybe not top 3 but way the fuck up there

[limber fossil]

Hello i’m back i got a work ping and decided to see this chat again, so just gonna clarify.
It was intentional twice.

[tight pier]

:P

[shell bison]

[thorn hinge]

AHAHA amazing

[tight pier]

love that game's themes around trauma

[balmy obsidian]

The DLC as I'm given to understand is precisely about people like me, quote unquote

[thorn hinge]

unintentional doesn't count! That's on the other person!

[thorn hinge]

no comment

[limber fossil]

Yeah but it’s funny to say

[noble ivy]

-# pls play it

[balmy obsidian]

I mean you can comment

I'm not gonna play it

[noble ivy]

[shell bison]

I shall leave you all to your ahitposts. I'll make dinner in a couple of hours. We are having honey bun donuts for dessert Calliope

[balmy obsidian]

I eated all the honey

[cobalt zealot]

What the fuck what happened in here

Good fucking lord

[balmy obsidian]

Hungry

[thorn hinge]

Oh for anybody considering Outer Wilds, my suggestion is to play the base game first THEN buy the DLC, I think it's a better experience that way

[cobalt zealot]

Also people will tell you to look up nothing about thr game

[limber fossil]

Yeah i get that a lot

(Okay i’m running away again)

[shell bison]

I shall return to bunny gym gains. Leg day , followed by back and core and cardio

[cobalt zealot]

This is bullshit

Ignore them

If you're stuck, look it up

[tight pier]

Fuck yeah

[noble ivy]

No, If you're stuck then ask Me

[thorn hinge]

Also if anybody wants to try story heavy games about trauma and incredible scifi worldbuilding, 1000xRESIST is on sale rn for 33% off on steam, deepest discount yet.

[shell bison]

Gracias Athena c:

[balmy obsidian]

It has been 0 days since Ada has recomended 1000xRESIST

[noble ivy]

It has been 0 days since Juli cried over thinking about outer wilds

[thorn hinge]

Open offer to anybody here playing any of the games I rant about: If you get stuck, I will happily offer carefully measured and spoiler free hints and advice

[balmy obsidian]

Hey Ada.

Hey Juli.

[thorn hinge]

get them gains

Hey what

[noble ivy]

ye?

[balmy obsidian]

https://youtu.be/AurKIOVHXhY?si=DASZ-cN6CZ_qGGaK

[noble ivy]

https://tenor.com/view/crying-cat-sad-cat-me-when-i-dont-get-orod-tickets-gif-14719271510681695442

[zinc topaz]

i will check it out

[thorn hinge]

Okay that's just a really good one, makes me melancholy but happy

[zinc topaz]

i love games that make me cry

[shell bison]

My goal is to loose 20 pounds before the end of the year

[balmy obsidian]

It makes me emotional

[thorn hinge]

1000xRESIST made me cry about a dozen times. I had to stop after each chapter just to recover and process it

If you play that, you should DM me your thoughts as you play I will love you forever

[shell bison]

I think the last time I cried in a game was when Mordin does what he had to in me3

[balmy obsidian]

Oh there's a game I remember made me bawl my eyes out as well that was Valiant Hearts The Great War

[shell bison]

[balmy obsidian]

The ending specifically

[shell bison]

Oh yeah valiant hearts is so good

[noble ivy]

Speaking of crying
I tried to make a playlist for Eruca last night, but ending up bawling my eyes out listening to Porter Robinsons Nurture album for the billionth time

[balmy obsidian]

lmao

Saying lmao as I wipe off tears in my eyes

Music just makes me cries, it's terrible

It just keeps happening

[west phoenix]

not to sound too emo but man i've cried so much this last year and a half i don't have many tears left

[balmy obsidian]

You can have mine I have extra

[tight pier]

we finally learned how to cry this year which was nice

[zinc topaz]

its ok im about to sound more emo

ive wanted to cry for like a year but its like i forgot how to

[tight pier]

oh dear.

that's how we were, for about 8-9 years

[thorn hinge]

Same

for a long long time

[balmy obsidian]

pshht, I can make you cry easy

[thorn hinge]

sure, now

[balmy obsidian]

Damn, got me

[thorn hinge]

I had to overcome a lot of mental blocks and figure out a ton of gender stuff to get here

[tight pier]

we were pretty much completely deaf to all emotion for that length of time, only "extremes" would just barely get through

yeah

[thorn hinge]

Estrogen did help but that really isn't all of it, it's more about realizing my truth that helped me cast off a lot of things that killed my emotions (also sometimes there's just regular ass depression to deal with)

[zinc topaz]

i think i'm just too used to shutting off and autopiloting through stuff tbh

and i have to like relearn how to feel negative emotions healthily

[tight pier]

that's what stopped it too! it was basically overnight for us, after realizing various things about ourself

"overnight" is relative, it really took like 2 months

[balmy obsidian]

man that's a long ass night

[tight pier]

yeah...

[balmy obsidian]

I take it you live somewhere up north

Sorry

[thorn hinge]

yes. It's hard but it's so necessary

[thorn hinge]

I finally wrote this up btw

[balmy obsidian]

Food

[thorn hinge]

So Ethical Non-monogamy (ENM): Broad umbrella term for any sort of not-strictly mono relationship type. Includes polyamory, some things that might be sorta distinct from poly, but also a lot of things that clearly are not poly like swinging, "allowed cheat list", etc.

Polyamory is a specific type of ENM where 3+ people are in romantic relationships of varying shapes. However, the term carries with it some cultural baggage. There's a whole polyamory community and they have a set of standards and expectations and tropes and memes, so using the term implies you're a part of all of that too. There tends to be "amatonormative" influences in Poly circles, that is, there's an expectation that every relationship benefits from and should seek to follow the typical relationship arc of dating, getting closer, becoming married (in the common law sense not usually legally since that's rarely allowed), having kids, etc. Relationships are often cast in a hierarchy, with people having a "primary" partner, and replacing that primary is considered "bad" even if it seems to happen naturally.

Relationship Anarchy attempts to break from the poly community and provide a different framework for such by applying anarchist principles to relationships. Explicitly anti-amatonormative, anti-mononormative, and anti-hierarchical. Your relationships do exist in light of your other relationships, but you don't view one as more important than the others. You treat each separately, and work out your goals and desires and relative closeness. In relationship anarchy it's perfectly valid to have a relationship that is shallow and goes no further, as long as that's what you each want. You can have multiple partners that become deeply important, and your deep relationships might fade and dissolve, and that's normal and fine, as long as the people involved accept it.

you know... it occurs to me that I don't have an extremely high post count but if we were able to measure by character length instead of by post I might be topping the charts

[balmy obsidian]

I was going to say something

But, biting my tongue

[thorn hinge]

go on

SPEAK

[balmy obsidian]

Nope

[thorn hinge]

please? 🥺

[tight pier]

However, the term carries with it some cultural baggage. There's a whole polyamory community and they have a set of standards and expectations and tropes and memes, so using the term implies you're a part of all of that too.
This!

[balmy obsidian]

Suffer

[tight pier]

This is very real.

[thorn hinge]

coward

[tight pier]

It's also why we don't call ourself plural

[balmy obsidian]

I keep saying I am, that's nothing new

A coward, that is. Not plural.

[thorn hinge]

oh?

...actually, I think I get exactly what you mean

[tight pier]

do you?

[thorn hinge]

in a vague way

[clever cloud]

thanks for the write-up!!

[balmy obsidian]

Careful Ada, this will be on the test.

[tight pier]

Yeah?

[noble ivy]

I know she'll ace it anyways

[thorn hinge]

I mean, I don't know how it affects y'all specifically but I get the idea of the cultural context of the community of people that go by plural and the ways it might not apply to your collective experience.

[balmy obsidian]

Ada? Ace? But I thought she was a lesbiab.

[thorn hinge]

there are ace lesbians

I mean, I'm not one of them but

they do exist

[balmy obsidian]

Well

[noble ivy]

-# hold on... Athena did you down vote leo...

[balmy obsidian]

Yes

But

[tight pier]

aye

Edit: Thanks for the gold kind stranger!
Edit: Thanks for the gold kind stranger!

[balmy obsidian]

I was fairly sure you were specifically not Ace, hence

At this point I have run out of spaghetti

[tight pier]

do NOT give us discord gold

[balmy obsidian]

Too late

[noble ivy]

ah fuck

[balmy obsidian]

[thorn hinge]

I'm married to an ace tho so anything's possible

[balmy obsidian]

Throwing my table because clearly I do not understand what anything means

The world is complex and confusing

[thorn hinge]

And the more complex and confusing the combinations the more likely I am to be there

[zinc topaz]

pardon the dirty mirror selfie it's all i got but here's the cheap ass coat so far

[thorn hinge]

I love finding new fucked up exceptions to the norms

[balmy obsidian]

I just want to make jokes with friends

[zinc topaz]

i need to go buy more sharpies

[balmy obsidian]

It always ends with "That's not how it works you dumb stupid bigot"

[minor orchid]

https://tenor.com/view/marching-on-vlad-dracula-tepes-castlevania-getting-serious-on-the-way-gif-4977387351073589224

[balmy obsidian]

Weh

[thorn hinge]

SUSH

[balmy obsidian]

WEH I SAY

[thorn hinge]

we like you leo it's nothing like that

[balmy obsidian]

I know, I know

Who doesn't, really

[tight pier]

like half of the folk in our group operate on the rules of "if you're making a joke you can call me whatever is the funniest"

[balmy obsidian]

"If you think you don't like me, you're wrong, but you'll learn." I say jokingly

[noble ivy]

Don't worry June, You'll love leo eventually

Its only a matter of time

[balmy obsidian]

This I like

[zinc topaz]

he needs to put the neco arc pfp back 🙄 its not the same

[balmy obsidian]

Suffer.

[thorn hinge]

My partner is aromantic, asexual, and agender. And yet I call myself a lesbian. Oh and the other person I confessed feelings to is also NB so what the hell. Life is confusing and I seem to be on a mission to make it worse if at all possible.

[balmy obsidian]

I mean

Hits close to home, but

[noble ivy]

They sound like quite a catch

[tight pier]

we identify as we're both demisexual and lesbian

[thorn hinge]

correction: strike "seems to be", I am EXPLICTILY INTERESTED in making the world a stranger place

[noble ivy]

*gets short-cycle lanced

[zinc topaz]

gender is a silly game and i won't play it

[balmy obsidian]

I'll play gender like I play Uno

[thorn hinge]

Truly AAA quality

[balmy obsidian]

Give me all your +2s and +4s

[thorn hinge]

actually they're autistic too so AAAA

[balmy obsidian]

AAA and AAAA aren't really synonimous with quality, I'd say

More like that it costs a lot of fucking money

[tight pier]

screaming partner

[zinc topaz]

i figured it was shouting sounds

[balmy obsidian]

Or Battery partner

[tight pier]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[balmy obsidian]

The more As you add, the smaller they are

Juli for example would be an AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

[noble ivy]

Leo post tiny neco-arc

[thorn hinge]

adorable

[zinc topaz]

need me a 9 volt

[thorn hinge]

put me on your tongue and see if it sparks

[balmy obsidian]

Ho ho, my.

[zinc topaz]

https://tenor.com/view/neco-arc-gif-24168350

[thorn hinge]

who said that

[zinc topaz]

ada

[balmy obsidian]

You did

[zinc topaz]

holy shit

[balmy obsidian]

I know your age is quite advanced but dementia is a bit early.

[thorn hinge]

[noble ivy]

Dementia? I hardly know ya

[balmy obsidian]

Demons, ya.

[zinc topaz]

you guys are reminding me how long its been since someone actually spoke to me like that

[balmy obsidian]

This flirting stuff is easy you just have to talk about your desire to be a popsicle

[noble ivy]

-# I could say something, but it might be over sharing compared to june

[zinc topaz]

still doesnt make sense to me

[zinc topaz]

oversharing doesn't exist

[balmy obsidian]

I think it does

What if you say something you're not actually comfotable sharing

[zinc topaz]

well then that's something else

[noble ivy]

-# It's not too bad soi I'll say it

[zinc topaz]

the result of coercion perhaps

[noble ivy]

You say that but I'm well aware that nobody has ever spoken to me like that

[balmy obsidian]

Yeah? Me neither, get in line.

[thorn hinge]

I can talk to you like that if you like, Juli. Any time. I'll take you into the DM's and swap some sweet little words where nobody can hear us

[thorn hinge]

you've been insistent that you're cis so sorry, you're outta luck. but if that changes, let me know

[balmy obsidian]

Bigot

[thorn hinge]

proudly

[balmy obsidian]

Mods, destroy this woman

[noble ivy]

The loudest "woah hey" you'll ever hear in your life

[thorn hinge]

I'm quite happy to hear all the different ways I can make you yell

[noble ivy]

-# ada, just to let you know I'm a blushing blubbering mess right now and now I have no where to go with this bit.

[zinc topaz]

welcome to the club

[balmy obsidian]

Really that's all it takes? Damn

[noble ivy]

-# what? someone simply acknowledging my existence makes me blush. anymore than that and ||I refuse to give Ada ideas||

[steady adder]

https://tenor.com/view/why-what-in-the-hell-oh-god-pizza-house-on-fire-gif-15536410

[thorn hinge]

don't worry I have more than enough ideas for both of us

[balmy obsidian]

Sup Gray

[noble ivy]

that gif is me every time I blinked looking at this chat

[steady adder]

minecraft has gotten me by the guts again and managed to pry myself free and arrive to what this chat is again

[balmy obsidian]

you've come just in time to get flirted with by old women

https://tenor.com/view/i-saw-what-you-deleted-tecyn-cyn-murder-drones-murder-drones-tecyn-gif-315119836113119416

[noble ivy]

definitely saw that

[steady adder]

[zinc topaz]

i didn't :3

[balmy obsidian]

https://tenor.com/view/cute-sad-eyes-cat-please-gif-10348756772661804019

This gif

[thorn hinge]

I think we can work something out

[balmy obsidian]

dorodaze dot png

[thorn hinge]

This makes me happier than you know, by the way

[balmy obsidian]

"Still got it", she thought

[west phoenix]

hot

[west phoenix]

https://tenor.com/view/cat-curious-cat-sniffing-cat-investigating-cat-cute-cat-gif-7346632064287981595

[thorn hinge]

you... I don't think I need to even say anything else, lets be honest

[zinc topaz]

just you guys wait until i spend real money on a good laios touden cosplay it'll be over for all of you

[balmy obsidian]

Sorry I don't think that's gonna hit any more than the usual suspects

(which is, to be fair, 99% of the chat)

The 99% of usual suspects would be very excited

[noble ivy]

Juneiper, I saw that

[zinc topaz]

and the crowd goes wild

juniper is actually cute why has no one thought of that before

[thorn hinge]

I mean, I love dunmeshi so I'll be hype for it but you're probably not gonna get me unless it's Falin ||in chimera form||
Or transfem Liaos. Which. Lets face it Liaos and Falin would 100% be the "why the fuck do you look like me" meme is liaos ever got on E

[noble ivy]

you mean as a nickname? because Juniper's been a name since they named a tree that

[zinc topaz]

yes as a nickname lolol

[zinc topaz]

finally someone else with taste

[noble ivy]

Tried to find one with Falin but this is way funnier

[zinc topaz]

anyways i feel like this is me soft launching a cosplay onlyfans

[steady adder]

https://tenor.com/view/dungeon-meshi-delicious-in-dungeon-anime-studio-trigger-falin-touden-gif-7642917930137244916

[zinc topaz]

i mean if someone bought me the cosplay i'd do falin but im already gonna have to save up for laios 😭

that or you guys are getting $15 max 2 days max falin

i thought i'd enjoy sewing but this dracula costume is fucking killing me

[safe glade]

I'll probably have to do a Senshi at some point, but I have no expectations about whether it would thirst trap anyone in particular

[steady adder]

🥴
edit: dungeon meshi spoilers in the hidden image

[zinc topaz]

possibly spoiler tag?

[balmy obsidian]

There is an audience, but the audience here is mostly transbians so uhhhh

[safe glade]

My previous cosplays have, in the words of one friend, been attempts to become a mid-size SUV, so bare legs would be a substantial departure

[zinc topaz]

i think i'd make a good laios bc he's got sort of a similar build to me

it's refreshing to see anime men who arent either insanely shredded or weigh 12 pounds

[tight pier]

Bwuh?? Gay panic

[zinc topaz]

alright back to dracula

[balmy obsidian]

I am Dratula

[zinc topaz]

there is a $100 prize on the line at this party and if i'll be damned if im not the one to win it

the shirt is going to be the hardest part

genuinely dont know how im gonna do this

[regal comet]

today
I drew a bnnuy

I'm going to sleep now

[formal gale]

Bnuy

[zinc topaz]

note: the side of my right hand is grey from sharpie ink

[thorn hinge]

dats a good bnuuy

[thorn hinge]

Hey~

[tight pier]

GAH

[west phoenix]

ada chill

[shell bison]

bnuy scout c:

[thorn hinge]

I DONT KNOW HOW

[tight pier]

https://tenor.com/view/police-siren-siren-gif-14993722

gay panic

[west phoenix]

no i am kidding i just like bullying you

[tight pier]

very much enjoy the armor on top of a winter coat(?)

[regal comet]

Things get chilly at 3:40 am in the woods ok

[thorn hinge]

Oh. Oh!
Oh.

[tight pier]

oh dear what is happening anymore

[balmy obsidian]

Critical lesbian horny mass

[regal comet]

The gays are flirting
Common occurrence

Anyways, goodnight everypony!

[west phoenix]

you're one to talk you were horny maxing

[west phoenix]

ew but also goodnight

[shell bison]

girl probably packs al the heating pads just to keep warm

[zinc topaz]

ok 60%, last update for a while bc i have to go figure out the shirt but the cloak has the chain attached and the coat is finished so yay

[tight pier]

AWESOME outfit

[west phoenix]

slay bitch

[formal gale]

Fuck yeah

[clever cloud]

you have the cuntiest eyes, june

[noble ivy]

-# for a second, I thought you said "cutest eyes" but that works too I guess

[west phoenix]

eleonor would never give a normal compliment like that

[balmy obsidian]

Why not

She can be nice occasionally when the planets align on a full moon with a sacrifice or two

[thorn hinge]

You know, I mentioned that I really never used to flirt until recently but as I drove into the office I was thinking about it and...
IGF is somehow responsible

[balmy obsidian]

This is all the UK's fault

[thorn hinge]

I mean, vex is from there so

[balmy obsidian]

Yes this is why I said that Ada

Despite me being French I am not accusing the UK for no reason

[west phoenix]

igf broke my "no romance in ttrpgs" stance

igf is a romcom

[thorn hinge]

I had always been open to romance in rpgs but my friends rarely were... until IGF

but no, it was the knights

Well. Claryana first.

Calamity met her in a bar and something just clicked as I had her get Very flirty and after teh scene we were all kinda like "what the hell was that"

[west phoenix]

its very funny that eleonor not knowing how to flirt has become a character trait of calamity

[thorn hinge]

Then Elske later was 10x worse and 20x even more fun for me and I haven't stopped flirting since

[west phoenix]

she tried with serenity but she just hit her with >:|

[zinc topaz]

[zinc topaz]

both are good why not

ok i think i got the shirt figured out i just need a base black garment to sew (euuggHHHHH) the white part onto so i guess i'm off to walmart for a xxxl t shirt

good news tho: last step! and ive been more productive today than for the last month ive been "working on it"

[willow needle]

guh im so excited, i just finished doing the first 6 fights of my campaign, i just gotta figure out the npcs and the narration of session 0 to set them in

im so excited!

[cobalt zealot]

What if I called you cute

[cobalt zealot]

Glad to see I'm not the only one who enjoys toeing the line

[thorn hinge]

hmm, wanna join me and see what happens when we cross those lines?

[balmy obsidian]

The horny level is critical
I'm going to bed

[noble ivy]

It's been critical for hours

[balmy obsidian]

It is critical critical

Like when you go above 100% crit chance and it crits twice

[west phoenix]

sorry its because i wasn't here

[zinc topaz]

have fun in there

[tight pier]

Oh dear-

[west phoenix]

banned

bye

[zinc topaz]

ok i need this 6 year old whose mom just pulled up way too close to my parking spot to either stay in his car or fuckin open the door and get out 😭

it took me like 2 minutes to get out of my car

[west phoenix]

white woman moment

[cobalt zealot]

Don't need to ask me twice!

[noble ivy]

-# can I have a readied action for when the mods bring the hyper-kinetic ban hammers?

[thorn hinge]

I'm just going to brace and tank it

[cobalt zealot]

Reaction: duck and cover

[west phoenix]

look i agree with everything said here i am just too scared to say anything

[west phoenix]

ok saggy martha

[noble ivy]

woah hey

[cobalt zealot]

Agree with what, exactly?

[zinc topaz]

alright time to make a group dm

[cobalt zealot]

Invite me~!

[zinc topaz]

ok this walmart seriously doesn't have plain black shirts what

[west phoenix]

all of the horny comments

[cobalt zealot]

You can't cross the line yourself? D'you need a little... Push?

[thorn hinge]

Maybe we can both give Meow a little help

[west phoenix]

y'all are picking a bad time i just started progesterone again and it always gets me real bad for the first few weeks

[noble ivy]

-# It feels like someone put Prog in Hell's Gate's water supply...

[balmy obsidian]

s'why I'm running away

[willow needle]

oof progesterone made you ill?

[west phoenix]

haha... sure

[thorn hinge]

yeah

ill

[willow needle]

huh?

[west phoenix]

don't worry about it kitten

[tight pier]

same

every time we look in this chat we go ////// and put our face in our hands

[balmy obsidian]

Not ill. Horny.

[west phoenix]

not my reaction but ok

[zinc topaz]

we're just riling her up now is that it

[noble ivy]

Good to know you're not sick, Leo

[west phoenix]

speak for yourself ||bottom||

[balmy obsidian]

No not me

To everyone 's surprise i am not eating the prog juice

[west phoenix]

you shouldn't until you're on hrt for a certain amount of time

[balmy obsidian]

Point still stands

[west phoenix]

well yeah because you just started hrt

[clever cloud]

covid

[tight pier]

oh dear

[balmy obsidian]

Un bloody likely

[lunar panther]

https://tenor.com/view/excited-so-gif-19635543

[west phoenix]

(suggestive)

[lunar panther]

how it feels looking at this thread

[cobalt zealot]

heyyyy same

(i am absurdly horny)

[west phoenix]

https://tenor.com/view/cat-blink-blinkingcat-cute-funny-gif-8859604814399687515

thats crazy but we didn't ask

[balmy obsidian]

What the hell is pawg

[west phoenix]

phat ass white girl hi

[willow needle]

OH THATS WHAT IT MEANT

[cobalt zealot]

also hi

[balmy obsidian]

Gotcha

[zinc topaz]

you guys are making me wonder if i should consider e now

[cobalt zealot]

I am a certified honourary latina

[balmy obsidian]

Heh

[zinc topaz]

does it fuck with you that much in that way

[noble ivy]

We've been doing that since you got here

[west phoenix]

me when i get you

[zinc topaz]

me when grey square

[cobalt zealot]

E tends to kill your sex drive but you just supplement with prog

[zinc topaz]

oh its a cat being fed a pills

i... see

[west phoenix]

yeah outside of like starting progesterone i'm rarely horny

its just the few weeks after

[willow needle]

the fact that the box says nothing makes me feel they are nothing-pills. made of nothing. you feel nothing. hi i want pills

[zinc topaz]

:ratnoted:

[tight pier]

think we read something like this

[noble ivy]

[west phoenix]

look the rest of the images were irrelevant memes

[willow needle]

lol why the thumbs up

[thorn hinge]

that said if you're actually trans and don' know it the depressive effects can be devestating to libedo in a lot of ways. Realizing and embodying your true self is liberating in a way that can change a lot of things and make you far more receptive to your sexuality in new and interesting ways.

[tight pier]

we agree with the nothing pills 👍

[balmy obsidian]

Hello yes i would like nothing pills. They have played us for absolute fools.

[clever cloud]

E changed my libido. it didn't really kill it, just redefined it

[zinc topaz]

interesting

[cobalt zealot]

E by itself suppressed my libido but, as a major caveat, I am on SSRIs and the two are very well known for not getting along

[west phoenix]

yeah like i normally just want to cuddle and bite

[willow needle]

revamped libido

[west phoenix]

maaaan fuck SSRIs

literally the worst

i'm also bipolar and those 2 do NOT agree

[zinc topaz]

i have a strange relationship with my libido i think 90% of the time i get actually-not-just-joking-horny its immediately washed away by a weird unexplainable guilt and then it goes away

[cobalt zealot]

Very much a vibe

[supple carbon]

daaaamn new libido mechanics

[zinc topaz]

i do enjoy cuddling and biting though yeah thats nice

[tight pier]

yeah they changed it from an hp-based system to a blood loss based system

[balmy obsidian]

Knife

[west phoenix]

i didn't agree to that!

[tight pier]

wait we didnt mean it like that

[balmy obsidian]

Two knives

[zinc topaz]

french guy: i'm going to bed
every night an hour later:

[balmy obsidian]

Yes

[willow needle]

this made me think of the "myth of consensual sex", but to the right it says "weird unexplainable guilt" saying the 'i dont!"' lol

[west phoenix]

french 'guy'

[balmy obsidian]

I am in bed though checkmate

[zinc topaz]

THATS HOW IT FEELS

[cobalt zealot]

june i am ngl i really think you should just give e a try for 3 months

if it's not working, stop

[thorn hinge]

Blood loss? oh ||it's about time we get to the good stuff||

[tight pier]

oh dear-

[zinc topaz]

... :))

[tight pier]

uho jh

[zinc topaz]

may..be

[west phoenix]

i'm far too vanilla for this

[noble ivy]

-# my vanilla ass is not built for this

[balmy obsidian]

Vanilla is the second best flavor anyway

[thorn hinge]

I love vanilla

[balmy obsidian]

...

Third

Third best

[tight pier]

our face is in our hands

how did we get here

[zinc topaz]

its vanilla flavored? SORRY

ok i need to get out of this walmart parking lot

[noble ivy]

Something something 2 cups vanilla extract

[thorn hinge]

TWO CUPS

[balmy obsidian]

Actually no fuck this i'm not ranking them

[west phoenix]

french vanilla

[balmy obsidian]

Vanilla chocolate and caramel can all sit at number 1

[lunar panther]

three gallons vanilla extract

[west phoenix]

i am vanilla in many ways

white woman /derogatory

[thorn hinge]

Hey, again, vanilla is great

[noble ivy]

Vanilla and caramel is so goddamn good

[cobalt zealot]

i can change that flavour pretty quick

[lunar panther]

vanilla is the best ice cream flavor. I'll fight over this

[noble ivy]

https://tenor.com/view/spray-bottle-cat-spray-bottle-spray-bottle-meme-loop-gif-25594440

[west phoenix]

https://tenor.com/view/cat-gif-16258174987336597266

what the fuck does that mean

[cobalt zealot]

you can spritz me all you like

[tight pier]

we wish we had this kind of power, but at the same time, holy fuck

[willow needle]

i just had a vanilla yogurt actually

[cobalt zealot]

you can't fucking stop me

[thorn hinge]

it's classic and serves as a solid base for doing nearly anything with. you can mix in just a touch of other things to keep it exciting while having that familiar basis to work with.

[noble ivy]

Been holding that spray bottle all day to quick draw

[cobalt zealot]

i have never met a trans girl i couldn't get into at least four kinks

[balmy obsidian]

Does hells gate have vanilla

[west phoenix]

man

i gotta get outta here

[thorn hinge]

Not real vanilla

[west phoenix]

y'all aren't even out of pocket

you're way out of the pocket

[cobalt zealot]

i'm outta the fuckin' bag girl

[balmy obsidian]

I'm doing fine i'm normal

[zinc topaz]

apparently, I taste like Froot Loops

[willow needle]

i think they print most of the food?

[tight pier]

this chat will be sucked into the singularity

[zinc topaz]

MY SKIN

[tight pier]

all of this has happened before

[west phoenix]

i'm laughing my ass off this is the worst it's ever been here

[noble ivy]

The Wuh bag…

[cobalt zealot]

what about it?

[thorn hinge]

We've talked about this, years ago now I think, but they'd have to make do with artificial vanilla

Though with fancy space futures that's probably pretty good

[balmy obsidian]

You can't print food, with big quotes

[thorn hinge]

Vanilla beans are one of the hardest to grow plants on earth

[willow needle]

"you wouldnt print food" meme moment

[thorn hinge]

It's an orchid and fussy for an orchid

[noble ivy]

We gotta heist whatever gmo’ed vanilla strain that ID bought

[supple carbon]

printing food because it's in character

[tight pier]

we wish we had y'all's confidence

steele has a patch on his plaza specifically for himself to have perfect vanilla ice cream

[thorn hinge]

but 90% of the flavor of vanilla is in vanillin, which is really REALLY easy to synthesize. We do it already.

[cobalt zealot]

Unironically it's not confidence it's the endorphin high, caffeine, and a lack of giving a shit

[thorn hinge]

I'm just addicted to the wonderful reactions I get from my flirting

[tight pier]

gahh

[cobalt zealot]

They're so good
Love it when a girl turns into a puddle with a little bit of teasing

[zinc topaz]

🙋

[thorn hinge]

YES

[west phoenix]

yeah its not confidence its called being unhinged

[willow needle]

imagine flirting

[thorn hinge]

this right here, it's incredible

[west phoenix]

i love flirting but man not here lmao

[balmy obsidian]

Catnod

[cobalt zealot]

you're jealous you don't have my astounding rizz

[west phoenix]

i, unfortunately, do

it's not rizz fruit, you're just being openly horny in public

[cobalt zealot]

and it's working

[balmy obsidian]

It's working like me on a friday at 16:49

[thorn hinge]

and to be honest if it makes people uncomfortable I'm fine dialing it back but so far I haven't actually been asked to stop
And I'll probably take it easy for a while after today anyway

(but if anybody misses it my DMs are open )

[west phoenix]

https://tenor.com/view/devious-evil-cat-devious-evil-cat-gif-13662346222156832155

[balmy obsidian]

I mean

[west phoenix]

i need to cook dinner, behave all of you or i'll make you

[balmy obsidian]

I was being honest when i said too horny for me i'm going to bed 30 minutes ago

[tight pier]

https://tenor.com/view/hetalia-prussia-gilbert-beilschmidt-gif-10039567021892167905

[zinc topaz]

my God, the IGF polycule jokes are getting too real

[balmy obsidian]

I just poke back in because i happen to like talking to people here

[west phoenix]

calliope definitely has a greater polycule

and i bet its toxic AF

[balmy obsidian]

Staight up cyanide boat

[thorn hinge]

Sorry. Honestly.

[balmy obsidian]

It's fine

[noble ivy]

Calliope forms the first human only legion-mind

[thorn hinge]

that's a very platonic 💚 btw

[balmy obsidian]

I'm aware

[normal root]

The greater Hells Gate Polycule

[thorn hinge]

oh I'm sure there's some NHPs in there

[cobalt zealot]

well shit, i thought you stuck around because you were joking

[west phoenix]

honestly i fear the tame stuff i say may be too horny for leo

[cobalt zealot]

just say it to me in DMs

[balmy obsidian]

My own tolerance for how horny it gets varies wildly anyway

[zinc topaz]

do you guys pick heart emojis based on what color you like or do they have a generally agreed upon meaning

i usually use 💛

[west phoenix]

fruit i can't you're too much of a freak

[tight pier]

think everyone just unconsciously decides on a heart emoji

we only ever use green heart 💚

[west phoenix]

i just like blue

[zinc topaz]

for no reason other than i like that one

[noble ivy]

I just like the purple one 💜

[balmy obsidian]

Blue is the best color

[cobalt zealot]

it's just your fav colour darlin

[west phoenix]

purple heart (i survived the igf chat during horny hours)

[balmy obsidian]

But i don't use hearts because i'm a heartless monster

[tight pier]

we used to use purple heart until our self-identity got knocked loose and we swapped to green

[willow needle]

tbh i prefer to use heart emotes where a character is hugging the heart like

[cobalt zealot]

[thorn hinge]

There's a joke / meme / idea that every trans girl uses a specific heart emoji and while it doesn't always tell you anything about them it's a cute sign when you recognize it

[balmy obsidian]

That's a thing?

[tight pier]

everyone rep your hearts here

[zinc topaz]

🤍 and 🫶 are actually usually my go tos

bc i do that one irl a ton

[thorn hinge]

kind of. I've seen it enough but I don't think it's super true? And also I know at least two girls who put time in to chose a heart based on having seen the meme so it's a bit self-fulfilling in some ways

[willow needle]

the one i do a lot is a heart with fingers but i dont think there is an emote about it sob sob

[zinc topaz]

is hearthands on the chart

[zinc topaz]

🫰

[willow needle]

OMG IT DOES???

[thorn hinge]

same, kinda.

[clever cloud]

jen used to call mine "piss heart 💛 "

[balmy obsidian]

Jarate

[safe glade]

🎵 blues lick 🎵
"Gimme a woman in Furnace City, and a man on Hell's Gate, please,
Gimme a woman in Furnace City, and a man on Hell's Gate, please,
I go all around Calliope, gotta have someone to squeeze"
🎵 blues lick drowned out by intrusive dubstep wubs (because Calliope) 🎵

[tight pier]

This might be nu-retro-stasiscore

[balmy obsidian]

Alright, actual sleep now, promise

[noble ivy]

https://tenor.com/view/a-mimir-cat-reversed-gif-16747359482824525043

[balmy obsidian]

You may résume the horny, i won't bother no one

[tight pier]

Ehhh

[cobalt zealot]

-# am i really that offputting

[zinc topaz]

-# i think she meant freak like

https://tenor.com/view/gato-cat-rigby-gato-coqueto-rico-gif-4061476440942373994

[tight pier]

https://tenor.com/view/freddie-freaker-1-900-490-freak-1-900-490-gif-1553561594019743736

[noble ivy]

Calliope after dark (where we pass the fuck out and get a good nights sleep)

[willow needle]

i shall go to sleep too
-# after i listen to my fav playlist~

[zinc topaz]

anyways im just a very open and transparent individual and don't think sex and flirting and nudity and etc deserve to be as taboo as people make them 🤷 alas, sorry léo dear

[tight pier]

speaking of playlists what are we all listening to

[thorn hinge]

I'm gonna log off as well, I gotta go home from work

Might be on later though

And I promise to back off on the unhinged flirting (in public)

[tight pier]

Hah

[zinc topaz]

many of my friends have seen me without clothes on and you learn it's just one of those things that's only weird if you let it be

[cobalt zealot]

-# my dms are still open

[thorn hinge]

So are mine :3

[zinc topaz]

but. my current directive is having clothes on and sewing this stupid shirt

-# i think mine are... could be wrong

[cobalt zealot]

[west phoenix]

not at all, just a time and a place

[zinc topaz]

update: this sucks

but the rest of it looks good so like maybe all together it'll look like i put any amount of effort into the shirt at all