#Midnight feels

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full ermine
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Dear future Wife,

I don't know who you are, I don't know who you'll be. I don't know what you'll look like or what you've seen. All i know from the start is that your beautiful. The start to my smile and the sparkle in my eye. I know that when i finally get to see you, ill never have to see someone else for the rest of my life. I know that through every high and low, we would be going through it together. Your my best friend and my worst enemy. I know you will make me cry with every tear imaginable and you'll make me so high because your a drug id never be able to handle. I know that in the end we can look each other in the eyes and rest knowing we've loved more then anyone could ever imagine. I know ill be happy from it being just us and not against the world but with the world, Because our children are our world. Knowing that we can look back on our lives and know it was worth living from the children we made. Every pain, every heartache, every laugh, and every kiss. People say marriage has too many problems, but i want all of them. I want every flaw from me and you to be right there on the table cause i know that together we fix them. But if i ever miss that chance to meet you because i wasn't ready then i cant wait for the next time. Cause we'll meet again, don't know where, don't know when. But i know we will meet again some sunny day.

vestal frost
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Deep

wanton horizon
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Bro said it all i felt that's one, hope she understand that her prince charming is on the way <33

karmic seal
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But like, she's not gonna be your worst enemy ❤

You'll settle for the love you think you deserve. So, remember that you don't deserve to have an enemy ❤

fierce thorn
karmic seal
fierce thorn
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Idk, seems very loose and improvisatory.
Therefore, it seemed like a prose.

idle grotto
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this is true love to me.

fierce thorn
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@full ermine You go man! Not many people understand what love means. You're already ahead of 50% of todays society. You said it all. I hope that you find everlasting love. The kind that never fails, nor fades. The kind that gives you that emotional high that never runs out. Anyone deserves that kind of love in one way or the other. Keep searching! Or dont, she will find you!blobcheer

idle grotto
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and maybe when you say "you're my best friend and worst enemy", the way that I see it, "worst enemy" doesn't necessarily mean that you're going to war with her or that you're fighting with her all the time, but maybe "worst enemy" means someone you'll always surrender to.

fierce thorn
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Rly?

pine kettle
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hello, I am your wife (I come from the future)
I am absolutely hideous, you actually did end up seeing someone else, and you keyed my car

fierce thorn
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How is the future like

pine kettle
# fierce thorn How is the future like

the president is dead and the feds won't admit it, corporations have the right to vote on behalf of congress (who couldn't make it to work because their wallets are weighing them down), elon musk is homeless in the streets of miami, last week's winning powerball numbers were 21 9 18 2 14 7, the average price of a home in the us is $1,900,000, and there are no trees left, but noone seems to care because they're all wearing AR contact lenses that make it look like the world is still full of nature. also people with bad opinions have been made invisible and if you try to take out the lens or forget to pay your monthly subscription to iView you go into a coma

fierce thorn
# pine kettle the president is dead and the feds won't admit it, corporations have the right t...

I feel air from another planet.
The faces that once turned to me in friendship
Pale in the darkness before me.

And trees and paths I loved grow wan
So that I hardly know them, and your light,
Beloved shadow – summoner of my torment –

Is now extinguished quite in deeper burning flames,
In order, after the frenzy of warring confusion,
To appear in holy awe and yearning.

I dissolve into tones, circling, weaving,
In groundless thanks and nameless praise,
Surrendering without a wish to the mighty breathing.

A tempestuous wind overwhelms me
In sacred rapture where the fervent cries
Of praying women in the dust implore:

Then I behold how misty clouds disperse
In the sun-suffused clear skies
That only embrace on the farthest mountain retreats.

The ground shudders white and soft as whey . .
I climb across vast chasms,
I feel myself floating above the furthest cloud

In a sea of crystal radiance –
I am but a spark of holy fire,
I am but a thundering echo of the holy voice.

full ermine
# idle grotto and maybe when you say "you're my best friend and worst enemy", the way that I s...

I believe that you can never have something without the opposite. Or else it isn't fully healthy, her being my worst enemy represents me surrendering but also fully understanding that me and her will fight. Will make each other cry and become a fury of rage against each other. But just because me and her will fight doesn't mean it's not healthy. Because without the lows how could something be highlighted as a high? How could each word of forgiveness spoken from our mouths be worth something if there was nothing there to make it worth? Each low and success is a memory with her. And id never want to forget them, if I ever do then that would mean I forgot her. And everything she means to me. I'd want nothing but to be perfect for her. But no one is perfect in the end.

idle grotto
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@full ermine that's really really beautiful. i love that.

fierce thorn
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HEYY what about my TOTALLY ORIGINAL POEM that I definitely DIDNT PLAGIARIZE from Stefan George???

fervent nimbus
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Corey you are very poetic

quasi flare
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Bro that was deep

fierce thorn
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I love this. I think poetry is a very creative and beautiful way to communicate. You're one of the few people I've met who are so talented with words (not including myself). The way you capture these feelings and images is just breathtaking. Your ability to paint such a picture with your words alone is like no other, because there's no one else like you.

thick mist
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and a Long-lasting and good lifetime.

fervent nimbus
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I didnt know something could be so deep and real

fierce thorn
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Wait what?!
New installment?

full ermine
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Feeling trapped, lost in the crack
I slipped through, waiting for someone to save me. Knowing i can save myself yet I wait. I wait for me to live up to the expectations. Everything feels stale. I wish id find someone to make it feel better. Distract myself with games. And feel content but not fulfilled.

Dear Future Wife,

Oh darling how beautiful you look. How each nerve in me shook. How you could shine, if i could find you, id feel fine. The moon looks beautiful tonight doesnt it? Even if you couldnt look to the sky youd find the moon in your reflection. How i want to say my vows. Long for til death do us part. And when we part. So would death be at my door. The way id feel safe by you. The warmness of you in my arms. How itd feel to be in yours. Finally finding out what it means to kiss. Sing a song with you whilst we slow dance away in the night. Oh you take so good care of me. Id want to give you the world. Im trying to give you the world. Ill make it to that job. I can provide. I can have the body youd want. I can be loved by you. I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can I can even though I cant. Stuck in the pit youll find me hoping to see you and thatd be enough to pull me out of the crevace. Dear Future wife, please meet me in my dreams. One glance of you could make me feel like theres a goal at the end of the tunnel. The only thing i yearn for is a life with you. Cause sweetheart I love you. So much. Goodnight. Sweet dreams.

fervent nimbus
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That is a really good poem and I'm not trying to be like, "erm actually 🤓☝️" but.. wouldn't it be "you take such good care of me" and not "you take so good care of me"?

full ermine
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Midnight feels 2.5

Dear Future Wife,

Its been almost a full year since i last wrote something in here apparently. And im not gonna write this like a poem. maybe more like a journal entry. But after awhile of being ok with just being alone. I was ok with just gaming and trying to find friends. BUt then i met a gal who was close to my standards for someone id fall in love with. Of course it was over online just my luck. During gaming i had to get a taste of what being in love feels like. At first it was a funny minecraft marriage for roleplay lore purposes but then i remembered what loving a girl feels like. I wanted it more and more and so even without knowing anything about her i pursued more to feel more of this. to taste it a little longer. But she didnt like me back. and i knew it. i knew it the whole time i just skipped over every reason of her being uninterested to just want to love a girl again. A girl kisser with no girl to kiss. I ended the "lore roleplay marriage" to hopefully get myself to let go knowing i was heading down this path again but all i did after was slowly pursue her while trying to keep my distance as far as i could. But the moment i knew i messed up. was when it was revealed that i made her uncomfortable by still using pet names alluding to the past relationship. Deep down i probably did want it to become something more so i could love again. but I need to learn to let go. No matter how much i just want to love a girl. kiss her. talk about her morning. listen to her tell me her dreams. admire a girls beauty because she loves me. I know that i cant. I cant because im not even in the position to be a good candidate for a partner. No job, Not fit, Hit with a autoimmune condition. Maybe the only reason id want to glow up is to get my chances up so that i can just love a girl again.

Im addicted. I relapsed. I got a taste of loving someone because i wanted to be their company. because i wanted their company. Maybe one day this will make sense to me and I can get past it again. Maybe all my past mistakes will catch up to me and the only thing ill be recognized by is the weird things ive done and the side of me that just wanted to wake up to his wife and kiss her morning. Maybe i wont find her and ill die prematurely and all of these feelings will die with me.

Maybe she fit my standards close enough that i wasnt disgusted by her that much to actually feel attracted to someone again.

Im still waiting darling. I have my proposal to you planned out since highschool. Ill wait as long as it takes. Ill be on one knee for you. You can be the one i dont have to be non chalant and closed for. You can be the one who i can just be myself and be cringe and clingy and always want to be with you. Because why do i have to act like i dont care when all i want to do is care.

Ill let go. I wont be delusional. I wont be making people uncomfortable. Im saving myself for you. Ill be with you soon darling.

vestal frost
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awwww these are so sweeett and cyte