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alpine tusk
rare sapphire
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rare sapphire
Goose
median domeBOT
rare sapphire
lol
tropic ore
:
rare sapphire
0 3 8
tropic ore
9 1 4
rare sapphire
Goose
median domeBOT
rare sapphire
loll
tropic ore
.ddg
tropic ore
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rare sapphire
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rare sapphire
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tropic ore
5 4 0
small coral
goose
rare sapphire
lol
median domeBOT
rare sapphire
.ddg
small coral
goose
median domeBOT
tropic ore
nice
rare sapphire
Damn
fresh basalt
What are the rules?
small coral
.ddg help
median domeBOT
small coral
@fresh basalt
fresh basalt
thanks!
Ah, there's an image.
I disabled linked images so wasn't seeing the ducks.
.ddg
rare sapphire
.ddg
median domeBOT
alpine tusk
.ddg
alpine tusk
0 1 11
alpine tusk
goose
median domeBOT
alpine tusk
sigh
acoustic fern
Eid Mubarak to anyone celebrating Eid today :)
acoustic fern
I’ve never heard of the “saride” part before
acoustic fern
We are you from
I’m from London :)
clever hound
I’ve never heard of the “saride” part before
Said sa3ide in Morocco means happy
acoustic fern
Lovely!
acoustic fern
Yes arguing over who uses the bathroom in the morning before heading off to Eid prayer
clever hound
In Morocco go to congratulate the Eid we gather with family and neighbors and we tolerate
rare sapphire
.ddg
median domeBOT
median domeBOT
vocal oyster
I love spam
strange blade
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069
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1 6 8
goose
bruh
1 3 5
goose
lol
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goose
huh
2 3 9
goose
wow
median domeBOT
strange blade
ahh
vocal oyster
I love spam
sarcasm btw, I feel like this isn't the place for commands like that
lament cairn
grave cove
Dog
uneven pine
what kinda wild cat
Snep
lime cedar
It's cute 🥺!
sterile sapphire
vocal oyster
We've got <#607247579608121354>
so why did you do it too 🤨
tardy rain
Big peets
jaunty wraith
u+feff is the worst character
fringe rain
Yo Oshi No Ko is surprisingly better than I expected 
jaunty wraith
in the history of characters
jaunty wraith
cat
fringe rain
u+feff is the worst character
what did it do 
jaunty wraith
randomly get added in what I write
pseudo karma
fight club is an amazing film
fresh basalt
fight club is an amazing film
Yeah it's good but have you read the book?
The book will blow your mind.
pseudo karma
I haven't yet haha
cobalt remnant
Does anyone else's boss talk about them to other teams?
pseudo karma
Probably should've read that book first
fresh basalt
Eh, now you can compare the two.
cobalt remnant
I'm on the other side of the room to my boss, and he's talking about me in a zoom meeting
cobalt remnant
Make funny faces at him.
We're separated by several cubicles
fresh basalt
So that means he can't see you. Win.
cobalt remnant
The only reason I can hear him is because it's not a very large room
timid latch
are they saying good or bad things?
cobalt remnant
He's advertising my project to other teams.
cobalt remnant
He wants them to use my tool I made
tardy rain
Is it though?
cobalt remnant
I already barely do anything
tardy rain
As long as youre getting paid for this anything
fresh basalt
How many software developers live a Sisyphean existence?
green pelican
.bm h
strange blade
Yo Oshi No Ko is surprisingly better than I expected <:ducky_skull:1121451613224...
It's very sad though
(at least the first episode was)
the gap will never be filled in my heart
thick ore
How many software developers live a Sisyphean existence?
one must imagine sisyphus writing code
tardy rain
does he really deserve happiness?
strange blade
coincidence
fringe rain
It's very sad though
Sure
I had read the manga a while back, I was spectical to watch the anime because I didnt think it'd be interesting
But they do a really good job with the visuals and engagement
brazen ingot
ioi is happening in the city of Giza!
brazen ingot
any OST soundtracks recommendations
strange blade
any OST soundtracks recommendations
I only have anime recommendations
strange blade
Studio Ghibli: The Wind Rises
A journey (Dream of Flight)
brazen ingot
I listen to Ben Prunty's OST from Into The Breach recursively.
brazen ingot
Studio Ghibli: The Wind Rises
alright
timid latch
Just make your own with AI
timid latch
Idk
strange blade
I certainly don't have any.
Wait...
Recalculating................
Thinking..........
I- uhh... I am v-v-vewy talented.
timid latch
You have so many
strange blade
You have so many
I don't believe so...
I don't even know what I'm good at anymore.
timid latch
I don't even know what I'm good at anymore.
Playing music, school, math, programming
strange blade
Playing music, school, math, programming
I could probably dispute that tbh.
But I won't because of how happy I feel.
timid latch
*i had expected you to forget immediately*
I do actually listen when we talk
strange blade
But I won't because of how happy I feel.
it almost feels like being given the good girl drug
timid latch
But I won't because of how happy I feel.
You shouldn't no matter how you are feeling 😉
timid latch
idk how to show my gratitude
Your happiness is more than enough 😄
- it feeds me
*
... Wtf discord
test
- test *
Huh
strange blade
Your happiness is more than enough 😄
I feel like I'm high because of your niceness
harsh tundra
/me wonders if discord's "star now makes points" breaks /me as well
Oh, fuck it, you have to click the slash command now instead of just write it all
wonders if discord's "star now makes points" breaks /me as well
Ah, it doesn't break, so it's star+space probably?
timid latch
Ah, it doesn't break, so it's star+space probably?
Looks like it
main fern
@harsh tundra Why are using /me
timid latch
<@124812862567743488> Why are using /me
To see if the "bug" somehow affected it as well
main fern
❓ Why, what, who, etc.
strange blade
what?
timid latch
❓ Why, what, who, etc.
Why: because xe was interested in the mechanism of the bug
What: if /me also broke with a space at the start
Who: Nicky
lament cairn
Yes
main fern
Oh
main fern
Astolfo is a male??!!
who is Astolfo
lament cairn
who is Astolfo
Anime character.
lament cairn
I've been simping for a male?
Yeah
strange blade
who is Astolfo
lament cairn
My discord app is taking eons to upload images. If it's not DNS wtf could it be...
timid latch
I've been simping for a male?
lament cairn
I've been simping for a male?
from what I heard about him that fact is hidden in plain sight and is easy to miss
lament cairn
My discord app is taking eons to upload images. If it's not DNS wtf could it be....
Lemme guess... My pi-hole is blocking some discord tracking, breaking uploads
timid latch
I recently realized I am gender fluid so that was fun
lament cairn
Not even clearing app data works
timid latch
I mean there is a large spectrum and a bunch of stuff outside the spectrum as well
strange blade
huh
Is there something on the spectrum for: male who wants to put on a maid dress and cry in loneliness?
For totally cis reasons
/j
timid latch
Is there something on the spectrum for: male who wants to put on a maid dress an...
Demiboy maybe, gender fluid maybe, maybe just totally normal male that likes crossdressing, maybe just non binary, whatever feels right to you
strange blade
huh
soft violet
Cross-dressing and gender identity are distinct.
timid latch
Cross-dressing and gender identity are distinct.
Gender Identity often leads to "cross dressing" (it isn't really when you identify as that gender)
timid latch
I guess I act gay to my friends. But that's like a normal thing.
Depends
strange blade
...
The most accurate yet frustrating answer
My friends say that I'm attracted to both genders but pull neither.
timid latch
Are you "jokingly" acting gay (whatever that is) to cope
lament cairn
So many things on my phone are broken in little different annoying ways. Please, Discord. I just want to show people a snow leopard.
strange blade
Are you "jokingly" acting gay (whatever that is) to cope
Maybe?
I don't know what is coping and what isn't.
timid latch
Maybe?
It's fine, it can take a while to figure out
I am retroactively screaming at my past self
strange blade
I have the urge to hug and groom and lie on other people.
it could be the fact that i go to a boys only school
timid latch
Like 5 years ago I had a dream about dating a male friend, like how the hell did it take me 5 more years to realize I was gay
And I had some real r/egg_irl thoughts as well
would be nice to be a girl sometimes, anyway
timid latch
Like I didn't realize I was gender fluid until a few days ago
digital oracle
Like I didn't realize I was gender fluid until a few days ago
how do your irl friends feel about it, have you told them?
timid latch
how do your irl friends feel about it, have you told them?
I have mentioned it just casually, but we haven't really discussed it
I have the feeling they don't really understand, but are also nice enough to not say anything
digital oracle
mm I see
timid latch
Except one that likes to comment on me changing my pronouns on discord
Not in the "pronouns bad" kind of way, but more in a "you actually care about that" kind of way
digital oracle
ah, yeah, some are like that I guess
lament cairn
strange blade
strange blade
lament cairn
Discord, WHYYY
harsh tundra
<@124812862567743488> Why are using /me
Because in discord it just surrounds the text in *s to show "action" instead of what IRC used to have and it's parsed as normal markdown despite being a special action (it ends up being written in italics), so it was possible the newer markdown unordered list would also affect it
strange blade
digital oracle
"/me *" sure does better than the actual /me command
at least in IRC, your name prefixes the message
harsh tundra
Is there something on the spectrum for: male who wants to put on a maid dress an...
You could be just a femboy.
If you don't feel fully only male all the time*, then you would be somewhere in the nonbinary range, but men can also enjoy stereotypically feminine stuff.
*If you feel only partially male, or only some time, or you feel other stuff together with it, that would be in nonbinary range
strange blade
Everytime it's either uncanny kindness or complete non-existence.
strange blade
You could be just a femboy.
If you don't feel fully only male all the time*, th...
How about I don't feel.
I just know something is off.
timid latch
My sexuality took a while to figure out, because it's a interesting one
strange blade
Mother is playing 20 questions again :sob:
harsh tundra
at least in IRC, your name prefixes the message
Yes. And without the colon so it ends up being "Nicky thinks", not "thinks". At least discord could've used escaping so it ends up being the forums-style "roleplaying" like
*thinks*
timid latch
My sexuality took a while to figure out, because it's a interesting one
By the power of being gender fluid I am both gay and lesbian... But not straight/bi
strange blade
huh
timid latch
Poudrettian is a juvelic term for an individual who is both mlm (achillean) and wlw (sapphic). They identify as both a man and a woman, either fluidly or simultaneously, and are attracted to men and women. However, they are only attracted to men as a man and to women as a woman. They are not attracted to men as a woman (wlm) or to women as a man (mlw).
timid latch
What if I'm mlw and wlw?
Bi or pan
strange blade
This is confusing.
timid latch
Or you mean your are genderfluid/multi gender?
harsh tundra
How about I don't feel.
You could be agender/genderless/some I-don't-care-about-gender label/etc
Tbh I was a "huge ally" for years before I realised I'm nonbinary myself, and I only realised I am because I had some period in life when my gender feeling was particularly strong - otherwise I also hovered around the "idk" and as the feeling returned back to normal levels, I'm in lower demigender range (like... 30% strength feeling of gender?)
strange blade
huh
I have the weird urge to be in a relationship with a feminist person as either masculine or feminine
So idk what that would be...
strange blade
Or you mean your are genderfluid/multi gender?
Maybe this then?
tis difficult
and i don't believe any of this is even true
timid latch
I have the weird urge to be in a relationship with a feminist person as either m...
Well that would make you one of the multi gender terms, and there is likely a term for then only being into feminine people
harsh tundra
I have the weird urge to be in a relationship with a feminist person as either m...
You mean you'd date *feminine (not "feminist") people even if you were masculine or feminine?
strange blade
and i don't believe any of this is even true
But also this
Phase?
I have impostor syndrome about having impostor syndrome, how about that.
timid latch
and i don't believe any of this is even true
I denied being genderfluid for a while before accepting it
strange blade
But I also think I'm faking myself faking myself.
if that makes sense at all.
Like one snap and that's it;
my problems aren't even significant.
But then I look back and I see: panic attack, sleep deprivation, breathing trouble.
And then I think I'm faking it.
And then I think I'm faking faking it.
idk
idk anymore
life tuff
And then I have confirmation bias about having confirmation bias.
etc
harsh tundra
and i don't believe any of this is even true
I denied being even slightly nonbinary for months after being seriously questioning (I was like... "anyone can present however they want, I'm not nonbinary despite the signs, I'm just gender nonconforming"). And gods know how long with my "huge ally but not nonbinary" phase.
The solution is to experiment with labels in safe environment. Or even just to yourself.
After that "I'm just gnc" period, I tried to call myself my agab and it felt bad but when I called myself nonbinary (or just some labels that were basically half my agab, like bigender) it was kind of nice...
Then I gradually experimented with labels online, changing pronouns in safe groups, etc
timid latch
Worst is honestly just having to update flags and pronouns everywhere
harsh tundra
If you don't plan on any medical transition (at least for now), then there's no hurt in experimenting with labels, pronouns, presentation.
After some time you'll realise you either are cis but just gnc, or you'll find some labels that feel better
strange blade
omg i started ranting again
timid latch
omg i started ranting again
it's fine (wouldn't even call this a rant, just a conversation)
harsh tundra
Like... At the beginning I was so in denial I thought I was gnc cis.
But as I became comfortable in my nonbinary identity, I reliased I don't mind presenting in a way my agab stereotypically presents. I was just so against it being related to gender, so when I became sure in my identity and disconnected gender and presentation, I could happily dress in whatever I wanted again. (This sometimes mean not wearing the stuff stereotypically my agab due to dysphoria, but most of the time I'm fine)
feral crown
You could be agender/genderless/some I-don't-care-about-gender label/etc
Tbh I w...
Oh kinda same, I've denied myself being gay for like 5+ years while literally being gay as hell, while being kinda an ally. Literally it was like, hell nah that's just "normal behavior" right. Yea I don't know how a person could manage to lie to themselves THIS BAD lol, but it happened.
strange blade
If you have nothing to say about my impostor's about my impostor's or whatever, it's fine... but I'd like some guidance.
timid latch
If you have nothing to say about my impostor's about my impostor's or whatever, ...
Well either way you would have impostor syndrome
strange blade
Uhm
But I don't think I have it.
But I believe it sometimes.
Or maybe I just say that I believe it.
I might not think that my achievements are flukes
idek
lmao
timid latch
I mean not having it would be the better option, maybe you had it before and have started to fight it
strange blade
Maybe.
I have impostor's syndrome for things that aren't supposed to be in that category
So I just don't believe I have it.
But that makes my outlook on my situation weird.
When asked by my friends to explain my situation, idek what to say.
harsh tundra
If you have nothing to say about my impostor's about my impostor's or whatever, ...
Cis people don't really have thought about being not cis.
And if you don't try, you'll just wonder "what if".
But labels are not for life - so as I said, you could just try finding labels that vibe with you and experiment, use them within some safe groups online (or if you have close enough safe group in real life) and see.
If you feel even slightly more comfortable with those labels than now, try further.
feral crown
Well I've read the conversation but, I sadly can't advice anything cause the only thing that was wrong with me was the fact that I just like guys. So I just was... Well this(video) , before I figured out everything.
In your case well, I don't know I'd say you just have mess around and find out. I also don't get this labeling on everything, just do what you feel is right and yea that's kinda it
timid latch
My first set of labels lasted for all of 2 months, let's see how long these last
strange blade
Usually I'm too embarrassed to fully reveal everything about my situation.
Because I don't believe in an existent situation at all.
So then I just seem very suspicious. At least in my eyes when I imagine myself in their shoes.
feral crown
My first set of labels lasted for all of 2 months, let's see how long these last
Oh yea, I was like I'm bisexual (to not say that I'm gay)
strange blade
And then I regret saying anything.
And when I do, they say I'm being negative to myself.
And that the negative energy brings everybody down in general.
timid latch
Oh yea, I was like I'm bisexual (to not say that I'm gay)
I landed on demiboy and homoromantic first because I didn't wanna confront maybe being genderfluid, and now I am much more happy with genderfluid and poudrettian
feral crown
I've no idea on sexualities and it's labels somehow like. I don't know it's scary it's too many lmao
feral crown
I've tried to research but like
strange blade
this was why i left in the first place
timid latch
I landed on demiboy and homoromantic first because I didn't wanna confront maybe...
(tho I am never sure if I spell that correctly, always gotta double-check)
strange blade
Help 😭
timid latch
this and pydis
This is pydis
strange blade
😭
I can't function
I'm typing too fast for my wellbeing
I'm going to end up saying something that will offend every one and everything
feral crown
I don't think your mother is able to track down your account to here. Lmao
strange blade
She can.
Because all of the devices I use are hers.
I always make everything about myself.
I indeed bring the negativity to the table.
timid latch
I always make everything about myself.
We have all been sharing our experiences in this convo
strange blade
In the other server.
feral crown
I just can't English today wtf
high shadow
which server ?
strange blade
I just can't English today wtf
i cann never nelighs
timid latch
i cann never nelighs
Just disguise it in UwU
feral crown
Yea and two other languages im rememebing just mixing up
And it all turns into unbearable brain lag
feral crown
And it all turns into unbearable brain lag
I sometimes start talking in English with Russians(wonderful reactions btw), saying Ja to English speakers and well Germans I just listen with open mouth as they talk and never talk back, cause.. German scary
timid latch
I find English more natural than my mother tongue
strange blade
ahh
ahhhh
my fingers speed
if rent is too much and i can't emancipate
-tion
idk
feral crown
I find English more natural than my mother tongue
I need to get rid of the accent then maybe
strange blade
if i can't emancipation/emancipate, then what can i do
board at school maybe?
😭😭
feral crown
Also I have this weird thing when i speak my voice is like really gets higher to come off more friendly
feral crown
And everyone thinks I'm 18 years old boy
timid latch
if i can't emancipation/emancipate, then what can i do
.... Wait? I mean it is many years, but worst case you just wait until you are old enough to leave the normal way
feral crown
When I'm almost 23 already damnit
timid latch
When I'm almost 23 already damnit
Same thing
strange blade
.... Wait? I mean it is many years, but worst case you just wait until you are o...
maybe
but i'm already in so much trouble at 14
like, they have threatened to pull me out of my current school
which is like my dream hs
and they have threatened to move me to brisbane
feral crown
I even had a weird (witcher, cause like i don't age and I also was reading mysticism) nickname in college / uni , I just refused to age. I looked like a child doing integral math
strange blade
to go to a public school
threatened to call the police on the day of the incidnet
threatened to make life as boring and bad for me as possile
ahh
english
i'm actually panicking
panicing?
panicking was correct
timid latch
i'm actually panicking
Breath, focus on something else
strange blade
I'm blasting music into my ear
timid latch
Look at this funny gif
timid latch
strange blade
forget about life. but mother is in the living room
feral crown
Okay I need to go, call someone or I'm going to literally starve cause they don't want to pay me shit in Germany brb
timid latch
timid latch
My heart totally isn't running a marathon
good! /s
harsh tundra
Help 😭
My father was really controlling. I had to rely on him. I acted and survived the longest of my close family. He was the kind that gave people ultimatums and when they finally decided to take the "bad" outcome (after years of his manipulations working) he was surprised-pikachu-face it didn't work. I kept him low contact (no details about my life) while studying at uni just so I would have some money.
Become an actor and survive the family, while trying to be yourself and to find happiness outside.
When you finally find a way out, it may be hard but eventually you'll feel good about finally living your life.
Remember the saying "blood is thicker than water" was shortened to mean the opposite! It was originally "blood of the covenant is thicker than water of the womb" - chosen family is stronger.
strange blade
My acting isn't working anymore.
I'm trying my best just to sleep a full 8 hours a day.
But it ain't working
and the small apartment
acoustics
echoes
and stuff
so they can all hear me.
sullen pier
timid latch
cat
harsh tundra
like, they have threatened to pull me out of my current school
Mine did too. For... Changing the group in English (I ended up in highest because I had good language intuition but the class was too hard, I wanted to switch to middle group but I was threatened like that... I changed it and didn't say anything, it was a boarding school so parent-teacher meetings were quite rare so it wasn't until 1.5m later that my father learned of it... I didn't even think about telling any teachers about his threat as well, even when they complained about me changing the groups late, his manipulation tactics were so "normal" to me)
strange blade
I feel like my acting skills are good in the wrong places.
Like I'm good at acting depression and anxiety
It's easy for me to get my heart rate/beat up.
Just do a bit of light walking
And I'm already dead
sullen pier
sounds like a health problem
strange blade
No.
Can't be
....
can't.. be....
There's no way.
Just can't be.
Sure, I have pectus excavatum
But it's nothing.
harsh tundra
Like I'm good at acting depression and anxiety
I have bad an good news.
You may not be acting, it may be real. I was in denial about my depression as well for years, I normalised the stuff my father did that I thought I couldn't be depressed because I didn't have reasons to be depressed - but I actually did.
There's a thing called c-ptsd, complex ptsd, it's basically ptsd not from single traumatic event but from built-up trauma. Like this. I have it.
strange blade
strange blade
I have bad an good news.
You may not be acting, it may be real. I was in denial ...
I've not had anything too traumatic other than this one night
But I think it was deserved.
Well, maybe not the beating up
getting the ruler as well
And I always cling to this one panic attack
but I feel like I shouldn't. Especially since others have had worse attacks.
Mine was just paralysis.
harsh tundra
like, they have threatened to pull me out of my current school
Manipulation including such threats for minor stuff is also abuse. Mental abuse is abuse. I was in denial about it as well
timid latch
others having it worse doesnt mean your experiences arent valid
strange blade
When I learn about something new, like impostor syndrome, I feel like I exaggerate that over the coming days,
harsh tundra
C-ptsd is exactly the built-up of such "small" things. Childhood trauma is shit because you normalise it and notice it only much later
strange blade
And that makes me question if anything is real.
But I feel like a spoilt brat.
Because I have a bunch of lego sets, a new-ish playstation, a laptop, an apple watch and a laptop.
I go to an esteemed school which is also expensive af.
Father told me that life could be a lot worse.
timid latch
money doesnt buy happiness
strange blade
And he's also been telling me that I should go on a trip to China.
To a poor village.
So that I can learn to be grateful.
Because apparently my father has been through my experiences.
And all I need is a concussion inducing hit to the head to learn.
Which could be going to a public school for a year.
Going to China for a year.
Going to Brisbane and leaving my current hs.
strange blade
Nothing different.
strange blade
Stay the fuck away from China my dude
Exactly what I say.
Because though I'm Chinese, I'm never going back.
But yet, I can't control the plane tickets
feral crown
Ah so your father is like, my life was shit so I have to make you suffer the same so you can stop bitching
strange blade
My father said that if I don't abandon my friends, I'm going on a trip to China next year.
feral crown
Ah yes the holy grail of boomers
feral crown
My father said that if I don't abandon my friends, I'm going on a trip to China ...
What the actual fuck
Are you in the US?
strange blade
NO
Australia.
Oop
s
capitalised
by accident.
I talked about emancipation with a friend on discord.
timid latch
capitalised
understandable, nobody wants to be in the us
strange blade
And parents now think that discord == dealing and abusing drugs
they think that discord is bad
and mother
mother thinks i have sleep issues because of discord
and when she asked if i had mental issues
i knew that she'd somehow blame discord
but i denied her before thinking anyway
because i just can't tell her
sullen pier
strange blade
My grammar and punctuation has gone down the drain.
timid latch
crying is good
feral crown
Does your mother knows that your father is literally forcing you to go to China or not?
And that you don't want it
strange blade
It's both of them scheming against me
of course she doesnt give a fuck
Ahh
I gotta eat
dinner
feral crown
I've no idea honestly how it functions in Australia but maybe there is some facilities that might help you deal with that
Cause well, give up your social connections or we are going to move you god knows where against your will is literally case of abuse
feral crown
I've no idea honestly how it functions in Australia but maybe there is some faci...
In Germany you could ask your teacher or school psychologist about that, and they might take some action, but I don't know really
It might end up really bad
sullen pier
feral crown
It's both of them scheming against me
And what's "wrong" with your friends so they want to do that?
In their eyes wrong obviously
feral crown
Honestly, I don't know why your parents even know about that.
@strange blade
My proposition is that you try to slowly disengage from this whole situation, de escalate to avoid issues, try to play along with your parents for now. (Just to evade all this china bs)
Try not to provoke them, so yea kinda try to be what they want you to be for now. I really just offer to stay in the closet for now, until you get some legal leverage on them, I think in most cases it's around 16 years when you can legally decide things in your life.
Idk the laws really. But don't budge on the inside obviously, you still need to figure out things. And I advice to do it alone on your own, privately. You would be restricted to just basically observing others and not trying things out physically though, but that's better than to be sent to fucking China imo. You're basically still a kid and well, rushing things is not great idea for sure, you cannot really make decisions especially something like transitioning, when you're uncertain.
I also think you should try to contact someone more professional, or generally try to reach for help to someone who you know isn't opinionated and won't tell your parents.
About your friends if they are sharing information with your parents actively, don't tell them anything.
The life sometimes is like a strategy and honestly, sometimes it makes sense to skip a turn.
tardy rain
Wdym still a kid, theyre on discord
tardy rain
Run away from home
feral crown
Wdym still a kid, theyre on discord
Anyone under 25 is still a kid mental wise
strange blade
That's what I'm planning.
strange blade
I feel like my maturity != kid.
tardy rain
Pack your things on a table cloth and tie it to a stick
limpid lynx
Anyone under 25 is still a kid mental wise
i mean the brain stops developing after early 20's so everyone is a kid at mind
limpid lynx
yeah definitely
limpid lynx
Not to mention 13-18 differences
fr
feral crown
So that's why I'm calling everyone a kid well basically some adults are still kids
strange blade
?
feral crown
And never develop beyond that
feral crown
Okay I have to go again, basically. What you need to do is to find someone who would be able to support you like an ACTUAL parent, or at least advisor.
It might be another adult from one of your friends, or a teacher etc.
If your parents are abusing you literally, physically mentally etc, you could also contact the police
But again, I'm not you
You should decide
strange blade
Why do you think I'm asking around on this server?
feral crown
And that's a good thing but again
Dont listen to anyone
Just, yea well. Be reasonable
Good luck, I really have to go
timid latch
mom I am famous
strange blade
This is yours?
timid latch
yes, first reddit post I ever made
timid latch
this was for a comic I posted in r/LGBallT
timid latch
hahaha, the reminder was to draw the comic
strange blade
wow
timid latch
I said it was a hard one to guess
timid latch
most of them are really cryptic
the 🦆 I think was to remember to bring ducktape somewhere
timid latch
draw a santa hat on somebodies pfp
timid latch
I might not have felt like doing it
strange blade
lol
timid latch
idk why but the !remind feature here is somehow the most convinient thing I got for reminders
but also I dont want to just spell out my life on a large public server, so cryptic clues it is
hell just "the thing" might be enough for most of them
strange blade
lol
timid latch
I feel like I am gonna passout any minute now, I just got really sleepy out of nowhere
strange blade
I feel like I am gonna passout any minute now, I just got really sleepy out of n...
Find a bed.
Ohh no.
Am I too late?
timid latch
Find a bed.
I am in the middle of class
strange blade
Oops. Sorry 😅
timid latch
I didnt sleep enough tonight and it just hit me like a wall all of a sudden
at the same time I am really restless and really just want to walk around a bit
strange blade
I think I relate
timid latch
I will try just shuffling some cards and see if that helps keep my hands occupied
anybody want some lenormand readings?
strange blade
anybody want some lenormand readings?
timid latch
<a:shyyNodders:930782670961643540>
Coffin - Stork - Tree
Something will come to an end for you and it will start a transition and you will grow as a person
jaunty wraith
I want a reading too
timid latch
My teenagehood
thats my interpretation of it
if you want to try your hand at it your self those cards mean:
Coffin - Ending, Dying, Funeral, Loss, Grief, Mourning, Sadness
Stork - Change, Transition, Movement, Recurrence, New Cycle, Yearning
Tree - growth, grounded, past connection, personal growth, spirituality, health
timid latch
I want a reading too
got a question in mind?
strange blade
generic bs
timid latch
~~generic bs~~
I mean yes, the art in it is connecting it together into something that makes sense in the context 😉
jaunty wraith
got a question in mind?
hmmmm, I'll stick with the immediate future ig
jaunty wraith
cause i sure feel like one sometimes
here: 🃏
strange blade
timid latch
hmmmm, I'll stick with the immediate future ig
Bear - Sun - Fox
You will be successful in a leadership position, but be worried it might just be a fluke
strange blade
💀 that sounds like me
Except I already do that?
So I guess my stage has passed already
jaunty wraith
Bear - Sun - Fox
You will be successful in a leadership position, but be worrie...
does that mean I should be worried, or I will be worried
strange blade
Both
timid latch
does that mean I *should* be worried, or I *will* be worried
the fox could be caution or Suspicion, and it targets the sun which is happiness and success, (you read lenormand in pairs).
so I would interpret it as a sign of impostor syndrome, but it might also be that you will be worried it is too good to last
if anybody wants the full list of cards and meanings: https://labyrinthos.co/blogs/lenormand-cards
you basically go with size 2 window over the cards reading "subject, adjective"
so first you interpret "bear + sun", then "sun + fox"
and there are a few different styles, you can interpret each pair individually, or string it together into one narrative
jaunty wraith
the bear also means "short temper" apparently :P
timid latch
the bear also means "short temper" apparently :P
true, but harder to pair that up with the sun imo, hence I went with the leadership interpretation.
if you instead got "bear + whip" for example then that might point to a short temper causing a argument
jaunty wraith
I see
strange blade
impostor syndrome
i have to get this actually professionally checked out
but like
i have impostor's about my impostor's .
jaunty wraith
strange blade
and i can't just go in
for a fake health thingiemabob
ahh
i'm back at the spam phase
please don't ban me 😭
timid latch
strange blade
i feel like i'm just high on stress
timid latch
/s ofc
strange blade
...
I need to calm down.
And grow up and buy myself melatonin.
Because I know for a fact that my mind has been way too active today.
livid gyro
hi
strange blade
and my sleep is shaking in fear because my thoughts are pulling triggers next to my circadian rhythm's ears.
livid gyro
guys who can help me
timid latch
guys who can help me
depends on with what, if you need a question about the future answered I am doing some lenormand readings atm
livid gyro
depends on with what, if you need a question about the future answered I am doin...
no can we talk in dm?
timid latch
no can we talk in dm?
most likely no, what do you need help with
livid gyro
most likely no, what do you need help with
i forgot my gmail password
timid latch
and you want help with that how
timid latch
how would we be able to help, best we can do is point you towards the password recovery options
livid gyro
how would we be able to help, best we can do is point you towards the password r...
ye pls
i need help
hearty vigil
i forgot my gmail password
if your gmail doesnt have a phone number or a recovery gmail and ur logging in from a different browser / pc then there's pretty much nothing you can do
jaunty wraith
or more, potentially
timid latch
https://support.google.com/mail/answer/41078
I think that is for when you are already logged in
ah no I see further down it has password reset
timid latch
I wonder why they have two pages for this
so that one lists all options for changing a password, both when you have lost it and when you are logged in.
Mine lists more stuff related to account recovery
strange blade
I'm getting banned from apologising 😭
hearty vigil
by the way @timid latch check this out if you've got 2 minutes 😎
timid latch
I'm getting banned from apologising 😭
only Canadians are allowed to do that
livid gyro
if your gmail doesnt have a phone number or a recovery gmail and ur logging in f...
i want recover my gmail for tiktok account
my tiktok acc got ban but now unbanned and tiktok want verify in gmail
timid latch
by the way <@366331361583169537> check this out if you've got 2 minutes 😎
nice!
strange blade
oh
timid latch
I dont have a vid of mine running, but let me dig up a example snippet
strange blade
i'm getting beaten up for apologising 😅
jaunty wraith
where?
timid latch
royal lakeBOT
compiler_tests/normal/while_loops.viv lines 1 to 9
expose main() u8 {
let mut x: u8 = 0;
while x < 10 {
x += 1;
}
assert x == 10;
return 0;
}```isnt the bot suppose to remove the embed 
strange blade
Full of friends.
And it hurts
and I want to apologise 😭
And they think I'm doing it to spite them 😭
ahhhhhhh
hearty vigil
`compiler_tests/normal/while_loops.viv` lines 1 to 9
```viv
expose main() u8 {
...
looks like some particular language that starts with a letter R and ends with a letter t!
timid latch
looks like some particular language that starts with a letter R and ends with a ...
I might be taking some heavy inspiration from it
but I have my own ideas sprinkled in
I dont have that many "real" snippets to show, just unit tests
hearty vigil
Well my language is also heavily inspired by one specific language, i think its not hard to guess by which 💀
royal lakeBOT
compiler_tests/normal/functions.viv lines 26 to 31
def fib(n: 0..10) u8 {
if n > 1 {
return fib(n - 1) + fib(n - 2) -> 0..255;
}
return n;
}```Rt!
hearty vigil
`compiler_tests/normal/functions.viv` lines 26 to 31
```viv
def fib(n: 0..10) u8...
n: 0..10 n can only be in range from 0 to 10?
timid latch
`n: 0..10` `n` can only be in range from 0 to 10?
yes
range based integer types baby!
they have caused me many many headaches
hearty vigil
-> 0..255 what does this do though
timid latch
cast it to the range by limiting anything below or above
because a u8 + u8 might overflow a u8
hearty vigil
isnt it already limited by n
hearty vigil
ah so without -> compiler will give an error?
timid latch
exactly
and u8 + u8 is totally fine, it will automatically cast them to bigger ints, but the issue comes with the return type mismatch.
hearty vigil
nice!
but man i was so shocked that my goofy implementation of this worked flawlessly from the first attempt 😭
the only thing left to check is recursion, but for that i have to parse the if instruction
timid latch
the only thing left to check is recursion, but for that i have to parse the `if`...
recursion is fun, I had to rewrite my entire function resolver and codegen for that
in an interpreter tho it will be much much easier
young shoal
cast it to the range by limiting anything below or above
does doing 3 > x turn x into a ..3?
timid latch
does doing `3 > x` turn `x` into a `..3`?
royal lakeBOT
compiler_tests/normal/type_narrowing.viv lines 15 to 23
if x < 5 {
assert_type x = 0..4;
}
if x > 5 {
assert_type x = 6..10;
}
if x <= 5 {
assert_type x = 0..5;
}```yeah, i think its going to work
timid latch
and it handles the else cases as well,
https://github.com/vivax3794/from_scratch/blob/master/compiler_tests/normal/type_narrowing.viv#L54-L60
royal lakeBOT
compiler_tests/normal/type_narrowing.viv lines 54 to 60
if x < 2 {
assert_type x = 0..1;
} else if x > 6 {
assert_type x = 7..10;
} else {
assert_type x = 2..6;
}```logic programming moment
jaunty wraith
neato
timid latch
I am still worried about having to do generics
graceful basin
Viv implements an SMT solver:
jaunty wraith
Saha Minky Toop
timid latch
Saha Minky Toop
This isn't staff lounge smh
strange blade
Saha Minky Toop
wot
i feel like i got an aneurysm reading that
I'm also panicking rn
I'm over analysing
and I'm fantasizing having friends come over 💀
timid latch
I might just go the templates route and not do generic logic and instead just run the normal type checker logic when the calls are made, which ofc is kind of bad for knowing about errors early... But 😛
timid latch
I might just go the templates route and not do generic logic and instead just ru...
Tho I could like have support for type asserts above/below a function, like "if I call you with these arguments you should return this type". Which would make it a bit better
strange blade
idk if fantasizing having friends come over and play board games is normal.
This feels like an anime fantasy
timid latch
Maybe I should do like type inference for the return type in generic methods so you don't have to basically restate all your logic in the return type xD
strange blade
Like some kinda harem thing 💀
timid latch
idk if fantasizing having friends come over and play board games is normal.
That's totally normal
Board games are fun
strange blade
But it's like fantasizing doing loveydoveys with a crush for me.
hearty vigil
@timid latch would u like to see the thing when i'll finish recursion?
timid latch
But it's like fantasizing doing loveydoveys with a crush for me.
Wanting to hang out with friends is a normal thing
timid latch
When you are socially starving, yes
strange blade
ahh
Socially starving
kewl
That's a pretty cool phrase.
I feel like I'm devolving into caveman times
limpid lynx
I feel like I'm devolving into caveman times
those were good times
limpid lynx
they lived in the forest and went fishing everyday now people pay a lot to do that for a day
timid latch
i feel like i got an aneurysm reading that
It's a In-joke among staff that broke containment
(yes I did reply to that old of a message, my brain is async, it jumps between different thoughts and now that one was done processing)
limpid lynx
dude are you alright
limpid lynx
sounds like you need some warm cheesy pasta and walk in the park
strange blade
eww
limpid lynx
bruh
strange blade
I have anxiety
limpid lynx
from????
strange blade
From swans slapping me in the face
severe wadi
LMAO
limpid lynx
From swans slapping me in the face
they only slap naughty people
strange blade
Not when swans just start teleporting around the park
limpid lynx
Not when swans just start teleporting around the park
go see a doctor
timid latch
they only slap naughty people
Then those birds have some fucked up views of what's naughty
limpid lynx
Then those birds have some fucked up views of what's naughty
its their perspective
if i were the doctor you went to i would diagnose you with schizophrenia
@strange blade
timid latch
if i were the doctor you went to i would diagnose you with schizophrenia
Uhhhhh
strange blade
Do you feel like if you stand up too fast after sitting down for a while you just lose consciousness?
Or is that just me?
limpid lynx
Do you feel like if you stand up too fast after sitting down for a while you jus...
dude
you are anaemic
strange blade
I feel like my muscles lose strength.
limpid lynx
iron deficiency
timid latch
Do you feel like if you stand up too fast after sitting down for a while you jus...
Happens to me sometimes
strange blade
And then I fall for like 5 seconds.
timid latch
Fainted at the doctor's office of all places from standing up
limpid lynx
this isnt a joke
strange blade
lol
limpid lynx
guys you need to take care of yourselves
strange blade
I almost fainted after going to an intense gym session
timid latch
guys you need to take care of yourselves
I am trying
strange blade
Because i think it was cycling and running and rowing reps
And I felt too tired
and just couldn't look straight
timid latch
It took 6 MONTHS for "rapid mental health" to get me an appointment
limpid lynx
I am trying
my teacher says if you dont take care of your body, you are digging your own grave
and she's right
limpid lynx
It took 6 MONTHS for "rapid mental health" to get me an appointment
yikes
limpid lynx
teacher has common sense
it isnt very common nowadays
strange blade
Sometimes, when we have our chapel sessions, where it's like an assembly, we have to sit for an hour
And once I almost fell back on my seat (or I did) during the national anthem.
limpid lynx
and you probably dont drink any water
strange blade
and you probably dont drink any water
No, I have one of those big ass yetis
limpid lynx
sounds like dehydration and iron defficieny
strange blade
Australia is too dry for no water.
limpid lynx
No, I have one of those big ass yetis
you need to drink, not just have water
strange blade
you need to drink, not just have water
bruh
limpid lynx
yeah
strange blade
Ohh, didn't know you live in my walls now.
limpid lynx
i need water = i drink
strange blade
I know if I drink water or not.
Clearly I drink more than enough water if i need like 5 refills a day
and it's like 1.5 litres
limpid lynx
I know if I drink water or not.
you need to get some iron supplements
strange blade
heavy af to bring to school tho
limpid lynx
then youre doing good on water
strange blade
I am trying
I'll be here if you need. You've helped me get through quite a lot of bad days.
timid latch
*I'll be here if you need. You've helped me get through quite a lot of bad days....
Thanks, it's better now that the ball is finally rolling
strange blade
We have lettuce and cabbage
limpid lynx
It's not really in our diet.
no wonder you have iron deficiency
strange blade
And like, bok choy lol
limpid lynx
you need some form of iron intake
strange blade
Thanks Mr WikiHow.
limpid lynx
do you study biology at school?
strange blade
I might get diagnosed by a professional instead.
limpid lynx
Thanks Mr WikiHow.
im literally preparing to be a doctor bruh
limpid lynx
I might get diagnosed by a professional instead.
you should
im no professional
yet
strange blade
Well gl
limpid lynx
thanks
strange blade
I heard medicine is difficult
hearty vigil
Thanks Mr WikiHow.
💀
limpid lynx
I'm very sorry.
nah we good
strange blade
Any statement sounds like an insult.
timid latch
Also getting the ball rolling on a ADHD diagnosis, hopefully will get some meds
young shoal
🗿
limpid lynx
Also getting the ball rolling on a ADHD diagnosis, hopefully will get some meds
what if you dont have adhd
hearty vigil
Any statement sounds like an insult.
what about this statement:
assert False
then no meds
strange blade
what about this statement:
```py
assert False
```
??
timid latch
what if you dont have adhd
I mean I might not, but at least I will have it confirmed by a specialist
limpid lynx
better for your liver and kidneys tho
limpid lynx
I mean I might not, but at least I will have it confirmed by a specialist
yes thats always good
limpid lynx
I don't program Python, I swear.
what are you doing here
limpid lynx
idk what that joke is supposed to mean.
even i didnt get it
strange blade
I've got friends here.
hearty vigil
idk what that joke is supposed to mean.
well thats a statement in python....
limpid lynx
idk so much python
hearty vigil
(super funny) (😂)
timid latch
Already had the consultation with the Educational psychology service, which have sent a memo to my primary care doctor, which I will then have to have an appointment with and convince I got ADHD then he can get me a specialist who can actually give the diagnosis