You went to film school right? The shot composition, color grading, pacing, sound design, and the equipment you have access to are above the level of most youtubers. Most of us here are running on free tutorials and our iphones, so if anything I feel like you have a lot to teach us!
Your video is objectively high quality and im not qualified to comment on it, so the next trick is figuring out how to get people to check it out. Your content relies a lot on people caring about you, your life, and your thoughts on it. I think you're an interesting person at least, but I only found out after watching your video. So how do you get more people find out? Personally I think this challenge is going to be on how smartly you design your thumbnail & titles.
You can A/B 3 different title & thumbnails and I encourage you to take advantage of this every video so you can gather data on what works and what doesn't overtime, and I personally think at least 2 of them should be focused on vague ideas you mention in your videos. Something that sparks curiosity like "just start over."
Hope it works out for you!