I wasn't really sure if I should make a new thread for this since it feels somewhat related to my previous thread https://discord.com/channels/195518118603390977/1346988068317564998, but I think it's a separate issue that ends up affecting that one. If this is the wrong decision, I apologize.
Anyways, one thing I've consistently had an issue with throughout my time playing fighting games (and really this applies to real life stressful situations too) is that I have a very hard time staying calm and focused under pressure. It's bad enough to the point that I feel like I'm mentally scrambling in matches just to even try to remember what I'm trying to do that I don't have the mental ability to keep track of what my opponent is trying to do. The only times I feel calm enough to make any sort of notes about my opponent are when I get knockdowns and oki.
These problems also lead me to tilt, because despite my best efforts I am pretty prone to getting angry or upset when I'm stressed. So on top of struggling to stay calm in matches, I'm also likely to tilt during sessions very quickly and having to either cut most sessions short or just play while tilted. I'm very much at a loss as to how to proceed and fix these problems.
I also want to say while I understand the sentiment, please do not recommend therapy as I am unable to access it for personal reasons.