Hey. Kind of needing help with a specific scenario and wondering if there's anyone in the broader FGC who can help scope it. To put it simply, I feel like I'm starting to just dislike the experience of fighting games, but I don't want to. I want this to be something I enjoy more, and I'll explain kind of where this is all coming from.
I've been in and out of competitive fighting games for the better part of the past four years, but in this past year, I was diagnosed with a chronic medical condition that, biologically, reduces my ability to make quick decisions, react quickly to stimuli, and bounce back into equilibrium from really difficult situations. All of these have kind of coalesced into making fighting games really, really hard to play without other people around, but said condition also makes it tremendously difficult to get out, and where I'm at doesn't have a lot of public events.
I’m trying really hard to enjoy the learning process in fighting games, but so many of my matches revolve around things that it feels like I’m physically incapable of doing anymore. I'm not inclined to believe I can out-train a brain issue, either. More significantly, the decline in performance and losing to things i know I should be reacting to or should be countering makes me immensely sad when I play. I feel as though I get too emotional, I can’t get into this online community, and I can’t do much other than try to find empaths who want to help me learn and develop, but that’s not really a thing in the FGC from what I gather.
Where should a guy like me start in trying to reapproach these games in a way that isn't harmful? Are there any likeminded folks or coaches with experience with players with conditions or disabilities that they could potentially share? What would be the best way to get involved in the online community here, as well? Playing by myself, for myself, sucks so much, and definitely kills a lot of the motivation to continue.