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I used to be so anxious I wasn't able to make phone calls without breaking down, I couldn't talk to any stranger for any reason, i.e. ordering food from drive thrus or at restaurant tables, or even just saying hi to cashiers or answering questions.
This may not work for everyone but for me at least what helped was moving out to my own place. I had to do things myself. I cried everytime and got a lot of strange looks because I'd just be crying while on the phone or getting groceries but eventually I figured it out. (I also got therapy afterwards and highly recommend.)
i had it with "doctors" which learned that stuff from books and not experience
I've had anxiety attacks, but not sure if I've ever had a full panic attack. The one time I did lose vision at the time I thought it was a blood sugar thing. But may have been dehydration + overworking, or something else, I never did figure out what cause me to lose vision and feel so bad
I used meds for 2 months only, first month was when I wasnt able to control myself like you do, so it was mandatory
second month just to feel safe a bit
but meanwhile I was already seeing a good therapist
so dropped after 2nd month
we went with CBT first, then ACT
did you ever feel derealization/depersonalization?
I got laid off shortly after getting on my anxiety meds, (boss was a dick), so once it was actually working, I was no longer in a place where I was getting anxiety so I'm not sure if it ever did anything
ended up stopping a few months later
Those of you who had panic attacks, have you ever experienced skipped heatbeats, or any arrythmia, like it is beating out of sync?
Doctors I talked to told me it's normal with intense panic and anxiety but it ain't fun
yes
but not * chronic as yours though
I still can't keep a job because of anxiety.
now I just sleep lots and take a few drags of my weed vape thing every now and then(before sleep, not before work)
as far as i can recall my heartbeat was my littlest concern then xD
lol i know how you feel xD
my heart was definately beating irregularly, super fast. But like I said not sure if it was an actual panic attack or something else
yeah I did, haven't in a while but I had it before
There was like a a whole week where nothing felt real
It's odd
it's like you are just watching through someone elses eyes
also what helps when it comes up is reduce oxygen intake by backbreathing air through a plastic bag (even breathing through a pullover or smth can help)
if it took around one week then you definitely went through some intense thing
normal people also experience it, but it lasts minutes
so that you don't hyperventilate(?)
yeah I get short episodes sometimes but this time it was a full week of that
this happens in these worst panic attacks but it goes like 2 beats normal, then a skip, normal, skip, normal... pause.. normal, then skip, etc...
And going super fast
And it only fuels the panic more which makes the rythm stay out of sync
I did some anxiety classes, and the only thing from there that helped at all for me was the breathign excercises. Focused breathing, 5s in thru nose, 5s out mouth, something like that. same goal without putting a plastic bag over your head
Oh yeah and my reflex is to hold my breath which just also makes the arythmia worse
only time I've noticed my heart actually beating out of sync was the time I got zapped on AC from hand to hand (so, possibly thru the heart)
i only noticed pain xD
the class was about teaching coping mechanisms, like the breathing excercise, some meditations, and some other stuff I've forgotten
Damn lol
But yeah whenever I mentioned it to a doctor they said it's expected 
oh
it happened to me once when i had no reason to expect it, i think it was some bad wiring -_-
i got zapped by a friend once as a joke, was painful af.. cant even guess 230V
no, made me panic quite a bit tho cause if you get zapped across the heart like I did, theres a chance for your heart to be put into a permanent heart arrythmia (forget the proper name), but basically theres nothing they can do and 1-2 days later you just drop dead
Apparently anxiety and panic are often the most common cause of irregular heart beat
alongside with headache, nausea, feeling of puke etc
yeah
if you have more than 4 at once
230V is RIP if you touch it wrong, because your muscles might contract and keep it grabbed -_-
you have "starting" of panic attack
we're lucky laura survived that then
it can happen at 120v as well, but more likely with higher voltage
yea i think anything >50V is a risk
when I was electrical apprentice and my jman was working near live power I was told to have a wooden broom on hand so I could thwack his arm off the wires
@sand oxide do you feel anxious when touching electrical outlet or such things?
because even imagining 230v made me hesitant a bit
i wouldnt even touch my computer i guess
I forget the numbers but I think its just a few millivolts that can kill you, but dry skin does insulate a bit so its less likely to get in to do damage
polices are using 30k-50kv appearently
well it's probably a combination from AC frequency, voltage and how much power the supply can output
600v makes a nice big spark when you cut live 3phase wiring with your cutters π
i got 400V from a small capacitor and that felt worse than 230V from the outlet
fricking flash capacitor from a camera, absolutely unexpected
It's honestly quite reassuring to read this lol
Even tho I had like 5 different cardiologist tell me the same thing lol
cariologist tend to be less bullshit compared to therapist in my experience
yeah whenever I mentioned it they were like "oh yeah those are normal in those situations"
lol
doesn't feel bloody normal in the middle of a panic attack lmao
and their power is limited
like the ampere it can output, idk if power is the correct term...
I've been zapped with that flashlight looking tasers
tasers are designed specifically to hurt and disable but not kill. Tho they can kill depending on the persons health conditions
I tazed myself willingly because my curiosity got the better of me lol
I've been zapped enough times as an electrician, I'd be curious to be tasered to see how it'd affect me
it could kill even a healthy person if the location of the shock is close to the heart, police usually avoids tazing near the heart afaik
yeah, go for the eyes
lmao
I was a menace in middle school, me and a friend took out those starters from lighters, the zappy ones
And we used them to annoying the crap out of our classmates lol
that is indeed true 

It's almost 6am but I got an itch to play TF2 
tempting
I'm just playing factorio, and you guys distracted me so long I forgot what I was doing
i somehow thought you would dig the cyberpunk patch
Laura over here with popcorn casually lurking and reading about our mental issues lol
probably because you posed some cp rtx screenshots
I'm waiting for the dlc to come out and I'm 100% playing the whole game from scratch, it's awesome π
i force myself to play
yeah wanna get that and start a new game with it
i was like half way through with my 2nd character and it worked fine using an old save in 2.0
corpo
but now i feel like my save game got bugged somehow, got >500k pistol ammo and sometimes i cant save without quick travelling before -_-
I just wanna experience it from the start since it feels like it's different enought to do that and feel fresh
my first run was corpo, might do nomad or the street whateverthenameis
i think my first one was nomad and now i'm playing corpo, too
my first was streets, started a corpo but didnt play long with 2nd
and noticed the lack of female shoe options xD
all hail arasaka
like what the heck
god damn militech
they have a billion clothes and like 2 pairs of decent shoes for female protag
i'm disappointed arasaka and night city in general has no anime
yet strong japan culture
my corpo V dated judy
bff with panam
gah, just noticed in the notes it strongly suggests having an SSD.... gdmmnit
and that detective tried to date me but didnt continue quests to achieve it
Mine with both Judy and Panam, Judy was awesome, wish they did more with her
my V was a lady
My V was male
can you romance panam as female protag?
no
π¦
only detective and judy
ffs
no, and you just become bffs at the end and I had no idea...dissapointed π¦
lmao you made me curious now
should I do a female V 
apparently not
since I already did a male run
unless you want to romance judy as your NPC Girlfriend xD
female V is both more charismatic and more interesting
VA also awesome
Johnny is so goofy
sometimes
also noticed that today
staring at some wall after talking to you
i also picked a weird ending for my female protag, with that arkwhatever company
felt like a bad ending -_-
I mean I would be lying if I didn't wish there was an option for the male character with Judy π
but they wont bring you any lore like you have with panam on the dates
Fun fact but in competitive games I almost always play as a female character if I can... but because they almost always have smaller hitboxes lol
like pretty much always
in Rogue company that was the case, apex as well
like smaller enough that it makes quite a difference
that's the worst excuse i've ever got from a pervert
π
if you are a male
and in the quest where you dive to ocean
if you stare at wrong parts she complains
Interesting you know that

it's not an excuse 
you and me both lol
best usecase for An Uncensored and NFSW Language Model
why?
||/s||
ah right, you have to say that to not be flagged
interesting
can my ryzen 2600 and rx570 run it
yeah kind a side effect of fine tuning, it's gonna be better at one thing but since the whole probabilistic model/distribution is shifting it's gonna be worse at something else
not sure, irrc it ends up at 10GB vram usage sometimes for me
But GPT models are way too censored to the point of actually hurting the performance of the model too much
then it wont 
wait, gonna test it
you should be able to run 13b with Q2 if available
i have 4gb vram
oh yea, then it wont
quantization runs the model in int4/int8 instead of fp16 or fp32
if you are using llama.cpp you are more than likely running quantized
yeah
You'd think you'd save more than 20% from that much of a change
quantization makes your GPU and memory go brrr
usually not the whole model is quantized because it degrades performance of the model so only some parts are
yeah, I can bet attention layers are no quantized because those are the most "sensitive" parts of the model
yeah it's attention qkv projection tensors, attention normalization and post attention feed forward network weights that are in fp32
bascially everything related to attention
interestingly not all
Actually the qkv projection tensors aren't fp32 (I misread), interesting
It's the post attention normalization and post attention FF network normalization that's quantized
it's a interesting choice, feel like quantizing it instead of the attention projection would be more beneficial for the model output
32k token vocabulary
π₯²
I was going to π
I've spent so much time researching LLMs and everything about it that I know what that model looks like internally/how it's implemented just from that tensor dump π
||I need a life||
That's a lot of notifications just to get some emotes jesus
wait... I got 0 lol
Wtf

They have some quality emotes. I am potentially a fan.
One of those messages were for another server that also seems to have some nice emotes

well she asked me like 50 times to go out but I quite literally can't and I don't know when I will be able to (by "out" I mean out like friends), it's quite honestly depressing but it is what it is
I have some many servers just for emojis π
That is the first server I've joined for the emojis... I still don't know what asterism is
I now know what an asterism is
Rem is real? 
laughs in kids
Morning everyone, how goes the Monday
they tell everyone who doesnt want to have kids ends up having kids
is this true
because I totally dont want kids
Lounge is in high activity mode today
Busy procrastinating sleeping

fact: i have white new balance shoes
Thanks
a shame that lifes passing you by
Trust me I know, and I don't feel to great about it
Anxiety, at least chronic anxiety is involuntary reaction, like when you see a car and instinctively move out of the way, or when you see massive spider and you get that "feeling"
Anxiety is like that in a sense that you can't control it
The mechanism is exactly the same in those example of instincts and fear but with anxiety that mechanism isn't functioning correctly and it's overreactive and activates when it shouldn't
And you can't really do much about it
that was a funny accidental typo
That's a dad
I have two puppies, that counts i guess
I guess you are 37
, or when you see massive spider and you get that "feeling"
When you see a massive spider its normal you die
unless you are Australian
puppies are ok
i love doggos
i want to have 7 dogs like makima
denji doesnt count
You just aren't scared when you die
Australians keep them in their homes as a pet
oh god no
Since we're talking bout spiders, couple months back was having a cookout and this spider started having lunch with us right in front of me
Yeah anxiety is a bitch, after an eventβ’ i developed such a bad case of anxiety that it felt like my body was shutting down. Id try my best to not be aware of my heart rate because if i became aware of it for even a moment, id worry about it climbing and the more id worry, the more it would actually climb and it just spiralled from there until id have 200 bpm
Idk how to spoiler image on mobile 
Anxiety is a bitch, thankfully those days are past me now
I have arachnophobia >:{
wtf is this
I'm sorrrryyy 
jumping spiders aren't real spiders though, they're cutesy
yeah it's not fun, sounds like you went through a similar thing


I would burn that with fire
Similar to what?
I still can't believe that programmers that don't drink coffee exist. π
162
to what I'm dealing with (heart anxiety)
we have a few little guy jumpers that live on the back porch, i like watching them go zoom
@sand oxide ur not drinking coffee either?
Tea supremacy
tea all the way 
i will establish a new religion and call it coffee
You taking meds? They helped a LOT
hold the image lmao
the only caffeine i drink is shit like monsters, when i'm doing stupid junk like 14 hour drives
no strike them
14hr drive to where
and why
drink coffee
7 hour to site 7 hour back and f staying overnight
nothing prescribed, I did take some plant based thing which did help
I was supposed to be taking a breaks from it every week but didn't and it ended up actually causing me PVCs (anxiety meds can do that)
drink more then
(so yeah, couple hours of work of some sort in between two short drives
but i've only done that like twice in 5 years)




quick vazu, post the obi wan kenobi strike me down gif, it saved me once
testing if banning people who watch love live! works
All 4 of my brain cells crying
why you have one more than me
can i borrow one of yours to develop bp2cpp
I can't find it, I'm blind without my contacts 
it was too much for me
half jets, half brain cells
vazumonger's brain running in that impressive late-2000's quad-cell parallel processing
i see a pattern here


late monday or early tuesday
Titanfall? Titanfall 2 is dope
ok... today ma'm
You happy now π
I got work tomorrow, I need it π¦
Or later today I guess
for me "tomorrow" starts after I sleep and wake up, even if that's the same day π
Hmm, consider prescribed meds, they really really help (idk the specifics of what you go through but for me, it was a case of anxiety leading to stroke like symptoms. I was admitted in ER a couple times and had many many heart scans done. It was pure hell but two years of good meds completely cured me)
that's not a nap, that's a coma
when you woke up were your parents standing over you with balloons and get well soon cards and shit?
Yeah I should really get a therapist, been avoiding it for ages
Here I talked about my issues #lounge message
Whole ting is going in the tub mate
I ain't forgetting any of it
Ill read once i wake up properly
how do you wake up properly
i always fail
and ask dumb questions at cpp
Mostly by hitting my head into a wall a couple times
Does erens gif pfp player for anyone on mobile
i tried, like this: 
Yep
You think mine were any better in like 2016 π
Poor Olento probably still remembers me from back then lol
(hi @stiff crystal π
)
haruhi dancing?
eren typically wakes up from a nap to see his mom crying and turning off a heart monitor beside him then suddenly elated with joy for some reason
Yeah it won't play for me on.mobile and I can't find the setting for it
you got me 
this is an interesting plot
Alignment is a property of a memory address, expressed as the numeric address modulo a power of 2. For example, the address 0x0001103F modulo 4 is 3. That address is said to be aligned to 4n+3, where 4 indicates the chosen power of 2. The alignment of an address depends on the chosen power of 2. The same address modulo 8 is 7. An address is said to be aligned to X if its alignment is Xn+0.
ffs
how am i going to understand when I'm burntout
gotta take one of those 12.5 hours naps
There be numbers in your letters. That's like Inverted algebra
π i'll order the defibrillators on amazon, they should get here tomorrow to wake you up
cpus goes brr when objects are at specific alignment in memory
aligment of 4, it will be allocated on (imaginery) addresses 4, 8, 12.,16, etc...
oh wait you really did
today I found out that clipchamp has godforsakendamn 100GB+ on a goddamm local package folder
no, stay up and get vitamin D
@sand oxide i put it for download overnight, stupid machine decided to take a nap itself >:{
i again blame you
Everyone needs to see this
Punch the car
why is that unknown species doing that!? is that specimen dumb!?
I want that unknown carbon-based species squashed by a roller compactor!
is this indoctrination
Does your team gather in front of it every morning and chant it?
theres a tv at my workplace in the lunchroom that constantly plays work related news and stuff, I've been very tempted to put a sign on it that says "corporate propaganda"
do you work at my company?
dude I've been working in the desk right next to you for years π¬
sounds hard
ware it could be worse
What sort of hammer do I need to work metal?
of course it gets a lot more granular than that depending on what type of metal work you're doing
for you, I suggest the ban hammer π
I like how the engineer hammer looks like its made for whacking broken things till they are truly dead
its referred to as "percussive maintenance"
Precision tooling
My fave Napalm Death song.
that is unless im mistaken
definitely looks like the video im thinking of
Album "Handle With Care" (1989)
Lyrics/Letras:
The bio-sphere, the place we live
It seems like we don't give a damn
Other species flushed down the tubes
We need another race to rape
The way we live we will destroy
Every other living thing
'Til none are left except our race
And then we will destroy ourselves
Another oil spill
Atomic waste displ...
nucealr assault derp
goddamn my brain is so fried today
I woke up too early thanks to night terrors. Can't seem to get into gear
cries in anxiety
yeah ignore me. My head is literally up my arse right now
It's the Sepultura Arise video. Which ironically is my favourite of theirs too
that whole album is a banger
well if you are ever in need of outputting some stress, check out Arise. It's a thrash delight.
I used to be into that stuff a lot, not so much now but i can still listen too it
Yeah I don't listen to much thrash anymore but I was all about it back in the 90s. Now I'm much more varied
like the guitar and drums and stuff is often verry complex and good
never was much into the vocal stuff
it was the teenage angst
that and I played guitar so the techniques always interested me. But then I got reall into Frank Zappa so my idea of what was technically impressive changed.
this guy is brutal good
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hah I was trying to emulate darkthrone on mine, then I got over into more indie stuff
now I play classics. classic children songs π
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xDizNLFHCv0 this guy was beyond words. This is at the Buddy Rich tribute, who was likely the best drummer who ever slapped down, but I dunno. This guy impresses me
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yeah he's tighter than Unity's monetization policy
Im thinkin of swapping to Unity cuz they take less royalties than Epic π
you could prolly buy a half finished project on discount π
and let's be honest, your'e never making 1M
I'm moving to jquery because its all just animation right?
so all I have to do is turn on ads and release it
woo, finally launched my rocket in factorio
nice
π
So, at work the engine kept crashing for all of us. not fun. so, I made this after my day was over.
should probably switch to unity /s
did you make more?
Oh yeah isn't Netflix making games now? What engine did they use do you know?
UE
they were also looking for ui programmers
Oh really? Huh, i didn't think they'd go with ue, my bet was on godot
No idea about reduz but my logic was Netflix wouldn't have to pay a dime for it and that fits in with that company lmao
More than unreal?
indeed
Damn
best thing about UE is if you are something like netflix you can partner with Epic
get special treatment, support, training etc
That's true, they probably got a nice deal
With godot they'd be the same as all the rest of the peasants
recently I saw a sonic game made with godot
it wasnt working at all lol
poor sega
Oof
That recent game that came out, jump light odyssey. That is made with unity. And from what I've heard the dev team was regretting it, even before the pricing model change
That game got negative reviewed back to the stone age
Which was pretty sad cause i liked the concept of that game
Oh right yeah, i heard about that
i wonder how mihoyo managed to release genshin on unity
they didnt even have much money back at the day
No idea, genshin was pushing the mobile specs pretty hard when it was released, im actually impressed by what mihoyo pulled off
They really came out of nowhere (i mean honkai impact existed but it wasn't exactly a household name)
i hope runtime fee thingy makes them move to UE
Didn't unity basically fold and implement a revenue share model with extra steps?
I didn't follow the saga after a while
They did but they should feel on the edge after all
Also i heard they "clarified" that the "you can keep the old TOS if you keep the old version" clause was still in effect
Nah, i don't want that tbh. Unreal needs competition, even if it's as pathetic as unity
Monopolies are never good
Unity is not really a competitor
except the mobile & gacha area
which UE not even interested
but still its something you cant use UE for
Yeah im not talking about feature parity
Im just saying something that has comparable clout to ue
Cause if UE has nothing to fear, das not good
To make UE fear you need to provide something can clash with lumen and nanite, also something that threatens its tech debt
for example being able to develop Verse is extremely luxurous
it doesnt serve any market
tim wasting money on it out of nowhere
this means UE doesnt feel any competition at all
meanwhile Unity ditching every legacy of itself and trying to chase movie industry
Idk about that, epic has been keen on breaking into the mobile gaming market so right now they still have some motivation to reduce the overhead of nanite, lumen etc so that mobile processors can handle it
lol if they can make lumen run on mobile let them be monopoly at that point anyway 
Although i do see how ue keeps introducing more and more feature that just seems bizarre instead of fixing the really old problems
idk how familiar you are with lowlevel stuff of UE but it's insane how they can keep get away with bullshit
Not very familiar
Only know about the bullshit ive run into myself
Im still in the "blueprint shores, maybe a little fishing expedition in cpp gulf" phase
Unreals competition is in house engines.
We aren't unreals target market, we aren't generating it revenue. The big players are, so the big player engines are the competition. Unity is not as favoured in AAA
Ah right, that makes sense
there is a system back at the 2008 Sony made a talk about this with attitude
"this feature was so terrible we removed it, its ridicilous"
at 2023 UE keeps that system
What feature is that?
I wonder how long itll take for EA to ditch frostbite and go to ue
Movement
anything moves goes through insanely complex computations
not because its advanced its because Epic thought old system was too good to use
I would doubt them doing that tbh.
frostbite looks good though
It is pretty cool.
Apparently it's terrible to work with. A lot of ea games went down with technical performance because apparently nobody really understood that engine
Decima and idtech7 > anything
That's what i heard during the anthem stuff
yeah I saw a video on that
they said they tried to use the engine for things it wasn't designed for
it's not a general purpose engine, it's literally a scriptable battlefield template
based on the mod I mentioned its not anymore
right
I think the problem was that frostbite is hyperoptimised for fps and anything else gives it a heart attack
and its been a very long while since its not like that anymore afaik
they pushed generic engine for anything motto too hard
they have tons of cool stuff UE doesnt have too
like ECS and proper multithreading 
Glad to know anthem died for something then lmao
the mod i mentioned is kanibel, doesnt hang around much anymore here though
I remember seeing some EA devs here too
appearently EA devs are cool af unlike the EA itself
Im pretty sure the EA we all love to hate is a few dozen tiers above the level where their game devs play in lmao
My package was suppose to be delivered today. At 10:12am I got an email telling me my delivery date was changed to tomorrow 
this means war
I might see if I can just pick it up. That facility is only 15 minutes away.
Flag down every FedEx truck driving out and ask if they got your package
I actually had a packet that was supposed to be delivered to work but it arrived 5 minutes before I came in to open up the office
I saw the van drive past while I was walking from the metro station and I flagged it down to ask if they had my package, which they actually did and gave to me
whaaaaaa
The devs at EA Iβve spoken to see cool. Itβs the upper management that can go fuck itself
That's probably true of everywhere tbh.
Devs are generally nice people.
It's the management that make or break a workplace like that!
Pretty much
Unfortunately it is not possible to pick up your package before its scheduled delivery day.
it's 15 minutes away and I'm supposed to wait a whole 24+ hours.
Fucking traffic, my normal 30 min commute took 65 min today
Fucking dumb people crashing their car in the middle of the road
Learn to drive
there's been talks of making it mandatory to go to HQ once a month for some reason
that takes 2 hours at least
if they actually follow up with that I'm looking for a new job man
the majority of my team is in my regional office anyway, so there's literally no point
Might as well bike over there
it would only be a 5 hour and a half bike ride
100k?
101km by bike
95 by car
but it's always congested traffic up the wazoo
I would be excited lol, once a month epic bike trip
pro tip: never go to Antwerp
I'm not gonna wake up a 3 am though
I'll refer you to HR though
Isn't it flat as a pancake? You can probably do it in under 3 hours
I don't ride 30km an hour
~6 hours of biking for a meeting? gross.
25 maybe on a good pace
there's not even any meeting to go to
4 hours of driving for a meeting is gross too
???
like I said, most of my direct team is actually in my office
luckily my team manager said he wouldn't care
that's gross x3
but if they ever start enforcing it, jesus
You could totally do 30+ at your age
not the team manager not caring part, the "just because" part
and somehow my colleagues don't understand that I would quit over that
I just have a city bike
and I'm fat
don't overestimate me
i don't blame you tho. I'd hate to have to make a ~4 hour round trip "just because"
I used to commute to work, but like 8km per day. Once i stopped doing that I got fat
It's probably a lot better there where no drivers try to run you off the road
I'd like to go to work by bike tbh
it's just not feasible in my current job
luckily I can work from home 3/5 days already
I'd just like to goto work. I'm in limbo right now
On the upside, I have 3 rpg games to grind through so it's not like I'm wasting my time π
so are you living in the airbnb thing now?
I should do another Blender piece though. I've done one for 3 weeks
not yet. The landlord hasn't sent the goons round to kick us out yet
I've got a few pieces of work in Blender to do. Not sure which one I will do first tho. I've got a boombox, an aurora, a fibre optic lamp, an environmental scene of a loch and a scene from the Pink Floyd The Wall movie I wanted to recreate
it's all kinda moot tho. I want to be doing unreal engine stuff for money
30km to work is doable with an ebike
prolly wouldnt do much more than that altho with good weather i might from time to time
actually public transport is not that great here so if i would miss my bus or some shit an ebike would be faster for 25km
bus just stops a lot and takes a bit of a detour
bike is way cheaper and nicer when the weather is good
If i go too the city its like 15km biking next too the canal
Don't we all π₯²
i know some ppl doin unreal youtube streams and making some allright money
and they dont even have 10.000k views for each vid... they do make constant vids tho
or used too, havent spoken in a while
I think UE is as popular as ever
I was trying to buy an ebike
I thought they would be like treadmills where people buy them, and ever never use them and are posting them on facebook marketplace for like pretty cheap
ahh i bought mine new nothing too expensive tho, under 1000 euro
But used isn't cheaper at all! They're like "Rode daily for 4 years, $100 off MSRP"
Do you know a store that sells Tern bikes and ships to EU?
prolly used it for more than 5000km
dunno what that is... and havent been in the market for a new1... it still works fine after a whole bunch of years
This is begging for a your mum joke.
yea, thats prolly not a good deal π
I think I have new messages
just forward em to Marc
who's marc?
I got banned on a subreddit because I told a guy who asked if he can have kids on his salary to have kids regardless of his salary
reddit is filled with losers smh
@fathom wadi Dieter has some jobs for ya π
oh that marc
well having kids is a bad idea if you can't afford to raise them
idk if you should be banned for that though lol
his question was kinda r**'d though
He said he goes to a restaurant every week and vacations twice a year and wanted to maintain that lifestyle
I was like dude that will be the least of your priorities after you have kids
well to each their own
vacationing with a newborn sounds like an absolute nightmare
luckily they don't stay babies forever
man there are lots vids of both parents really fucd on fentanyl passing out on the train while they have their kid with em
sounds like philly
yea some place in america prolly
drug addicts shouldn't have kids
other countries prolly worse but there less internet and cameras
a lot of people shouldn't have kids
true
@timber viper 35 kills lol
not much of a thing in Europe yet
Amsterdam had a lot of heroin junkies, but got cleaned up pretty good
i bet at least half of those was you ks'ing

titanfall 2
Hmm wait
play the second one. it's insane good
I may have gotten banned for saying something funny to a person who was inquiring about where to get their 5th booster dose
that battle royale game was in titanfall universe or something but i never really got into it
apex legends
if that's the case then it was worth it π€£
yea that

its a great game but I'm terrible at battle royale games so I suck at it π
I wish Titanfall 2 got more traction when it came out π¦
well im pretty decent at most shooters, prolly too agressive for BR tho
It still holds up extremely well despite being 7 years old
Titanfall 2 was one of the few games I got truly immersed into. Without spoilers, when your mechanical friend has his moment, I was winded and the end of the game just made me wish they had a third one lined up asap
speaking of games I get utterly immersed into ... back to CP2077. Expansion is out in a few hours and I got catching up to do π
I liked the rat game that was free on Epic, plaque or something
yea the kid was a bit annoyin... the game was good tho
if you have to protect the kid... as least make him a lil likeable
nah just the 1st so far
yea might play the other some other time
hmm the upcoming free game doesnt seem like my kinda thing
this looks good tho
is that fortnite?
soulstice... its the next free game on epic
i got drops from eve online fanfest
wtf is unreal source
we're rebranding?

Info incoming.
announcement in a bit
π
Sounds sourcy.
what the new server icon supposed to be π
We might be source now, but I'm still a slacker 
2d twin stick shooter tank
This discord immediately takes over all SEO for "source engine"
We gonna use Hammer from today on
you're so evil
UE and Unity are dead
I rather lifetime sentence
lesson 1, everything is a hammer
Right? And Hammer++ is a thing too
there is an ongoing coup attempt
:question: do you know what unrealsource is?
:8ball: Ask again later.
looks like mods are forcing pfists hand
this is a source engine 2 discord now! π₯³
That's not wrong.
too bad you wont be able to β manny
i dont want to see you or communicate with you anymore
is this the next chapter the pfist was hyping us over 3 weeks ago
guys laura is sus af
Fortnite chapter 2
so does this mean we're not allowed to slack all day anymore?
fortSlacker chapter 2
I can't just be productive
imagine being productive
I don't remember what the old server icon was. my memory is going to shit
i cant focus on the task at hand π i need this group to waste my time
red circle with u in
it was a white u with red background
but like pretty
my description is better
Me either. Even with Dieter's description I can't remember it.
why was I in the server icon
can't even collapse the friggin header π
that looks so weird to me
Why new icon
why new server name
code vein had a huge U logo on startup and you didnt notice it too
They HWAT
well apparently my memory is failing because that just looks odd lol.
What if they take this URL
Sorry
rofl
Not wrong
So from now on no more slacking is allowed on this server
speaking about slacking, @broken sigil XD
slacks
we are alwasys slacking
oh shi* I forgot again π
someone had to do it
Ew
Disappointed in the lack of skull
as this its also as dirty
also, ya'all better get seated and put on the safety belts. There might be an At-Everyone hitting the deck soon.
Look I don't make the gifs, I just serve whatever I find
Looks a bit like a floppy disk.
That one is Bob Dobbs, which is relevant to the Slack discussion
floppy disk chapter 2
I thought it looked like some game icon, maybe Destiny but that's not it
pc 2 when?
look slike a vjeyjey to me
Luos have now VFX god
it looked like a "modern" stick controller to me
it needed to be instant
now we're panicing
I sit in fear when blue man smiles
whats up aura
just mention c# and he'll be back to his upset neutral state
c#
wait it really had the unreal logo on startup?
Waddup fellow slackers wait what happened
@broken sigil c# c# c# managed code
We're sourcerers now
I've always been one!
prepared for what tho
this made me laugh out so hard when I saw that episode.
for the people raging due to the at-everyone.
had me crying π
It's so subtly over the top
Oh, it's a larger announcement incoming.
Pfist is giving everyone a car XD
It's probably a Yugo
won't sleep cause of sourcerer anxiety
i think he's nurveus
a lil rc car? our director got everyone a lil rc car for christmas. pretty cool
i cant ever write that word right
Nervous
i tried writing the dutch word but it got overwritten by the english one in my head
nervous, nervous, nervous.
what's going on ???
nerveus
why are we Unreal Source ??
we're all getting nerveus
where's slackers went to ??
slacking is no more
time to actually be productive
WHAT????????
I say we rename ourselves to The Unity of Unreal Source

ooh cool
Does it have blackjack and hookers?
What a terrible name for a server, who would call a server that!
no, just umg and kismet
is this where pfist announces he's actually Tim and he's planning on ascending all original UE discord slackers before Unity ruined themselves into the next dimension?

Also I dont use unreal for a few weeks, and everything has changed now I am scared
Oh yerch, eww, yerch, just give me the kismet
its so exclusive, not even Ponkki is invited.
New icon who dis? π
I HAVE ONE QUESTION
So many questions
Looks like a square egg
Don't ask to ask a question
I can't be the only one who thought the icon was something...questionable.
WHY ?
:question: do questions have any meaning?
:8ball: Better not tell you now.
I don't like change
It makes me gassy
:question: will Pfist ping everyone soon?
:8ball: It is decidedly so.
just scroll up lol
Maybe he'll make Unreal engine free for all of us.
we are now us?
:question: will i be the new admin of this server?
:8ball: Most likely.
:question: Are we Unity now?
:8ball: Most likely.
I'll be honest, it is kinda weird that it was still called Unreal Slackers 7 years after we migrated away from Slack
TO THE MODS : IT'S NOT TOO LATE TO REVERSE IT
:question: will The Creator show up?
:8ball: Concentrate and ask again.
I didnt even know that was the origin of the name.
what does source even mean?
Get runtime'd
Highlander movie
New icon looks rather close to the Halo Monitor design, just sayin. xD
We source engine now

Look I am just waiting for the at-everyone now
same
ugh, i have to learn all the entities again now?
are we supposed to be pinged already?
the unity source fee will be placed
@broken sigil hurry it up will you?
New icon be like...
reminded me of the turrets from portal a little bit
Is the icon like an upside down match?
Not really though
pfist is proof-reading the proof read announcement again XD
<@&213101288538374145> should get banned for this
@lofty lark yes it had
oh do mean good games like counter-strike and that dota card game? /s
Do you have proof to back this up
Let them cook. I haven't been this active here in ages.
CHANGE!?!
Like texture maps?
How dare they make changes!
Oh sorry, that's baking. xD
Someone tell pfist to run the announcement in a bot that reads the text outloud for errors.
They made a change and I don't know what to doooooo
Charging 0.01 cents per message on the discord.
Lol
hmmm no doesnt really ring a bell. do you mean minecraft? that has portals
NOOOOO 
Never making announcements in proper eu time smh
sry but my messages are non-transactional. change isn't guaranteed to go through.
unsure if I used the right term there or not at this point
Nothing beats my typical lurking in silence while I work.
What was the ping for?
Calling my local congressman and representative right now about this insanity of making the icon not be like it used to be
i thought it was an anime π€
ffs do the announcement i want to play bg3
What if P-fist is writing the announcement in 30 different languages to announce the discord has become it's own country succeeding from the world structure?
That's like five and a half dollars for my lifetime output on this server
why we are called unreal source now

guys the mods just said panic, it's time to be worried and freak out now
oh no the stay calm protocol isn't working!
Hey guys, just curious, do any of you have any ideas on how to monetize a discord server?
invite me
I saw the new symbol and was like "wtf is happening"
What's that from?
Animation looks cool
from the gif list
best anime ever, comedy wise XD
sell feet pics. heard those were profitable
Ok at 5 pm est, lets all mass ping pfist to peer pressure him into releasing the announcement.
Invite pls
What an interesting coincidence Luos needed testing on the some strike changes a few days ago hmmmm
Yea I had to open it to see what it was and went "that wasn't like this yesterday π "
Unreal Slackers Slackers
This discord server has derailed
happy accident
what do you mean it was always like this
OH GOD THE SERVER NAME CHANGED
i want in
Lounge never been this active
dangerous link

We bout to kick everyone who don't use unreal engine from a source build, thanks for hanging around guys
i think its magical index but im not sure
unreal slackers bought by apple
do i want to click this? lmao
How to make a channel explode with activity 101: Change the Server icon
Now Laura is all "don't do anything." I'm an indie dev Laura that's what I already do π now I'm all in my emotions
do you? π
Good. I am in full support of this change.
Is this becoming an official UE server?
Mr tim has murdered pfist
i clicked it... it seems to expensive for whats there
Get Tim on the phone!
You assume pfist wasn't Tim all along...!
not enough skin
good point
Just 1 part of the unreal pbody.
i thought pfist was icefrog
pfist sweeney
Someone call Serellan
So when are we updating back to Unreal Slackers smh
pfist should just write "the" in the announcement and ban anyone who asks questions about it for a week.
Now I don't have an excuse to slack

They're going to make Unreal Slackers p2w!
He should just put a weight on his keyboard and have it type endlessly
you're welcome
oh no.. its actually the pushes the slack from the server, INTO YOU, all that remains is source.
@proud jay here it is
what is this lol
He was not prepared
"slackers now renamed to "ye"
no, that's cyborgmatt
Void?
People named Matt are the best.
"The server formerly known as Unreal Slackers"
X
off-topic, but is cyborgmatt still a thing in Dota2?
We've teamed up with Epic Games to bring you another Community Q&A!
Does source change have anything to do with this?
Or did you guys start deciding to support Source Engine?
"Unreal Source" 
HERE IT IS
Ping hype
PANIC
what other gifs do I have bookmarked
YEEEEEEE we got pinged!!!!!!!!!!!
PING
he is operations director of Team Secret
woooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bring on the memes. That comes with every new logo change, right?

FINALLY valves source engine
okok, but what is the actual logo representing ? a save disk ?
i fucking love the source engine
I called it!

They're adding a battlepass!
Hah, I always felt he would have gotten chasen off in some fit of drama, but maybe I'm thinking of lddota
Does this mean we can talk about Valve's Source engine here now π
for all change I get bad taste this year
What flavour is Unreal Sauce?
Rip unreal slackers is now a subscription service
best day of my life i dont have to use this lame engine anymore and can use a Real Mans Engine
Inspired by unity


