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lou is joseph joestar confirmed
smh
Bro I have to special order my pants
I went to collage!

OK WE GET IT YOU'RE FUCKING RIPPED
probably has a 2ft wide chest too and can bench 550
No I’m stick
built like johnny bravo
Ripped is a lot of work you know
you're my idol
I want to be built like a bear
theyre an incubator
you got that men liking hip build?
you got the caesar zeppeli build
flat?
That what
can we put you in the washer and dryer
what the
no no
I guess so if the guy was 104 pounds
i dont remember that scene
not the caesar of the salad
what jojo did you watch?
didn’t know people could die from playing the game peggle 
i could lift you up like a football and throw you oh my god
dangerous sport if you ask me

disgaea
disgaea
Don’t fuck with me I will uh
if both lou and yoda were thrown who would go farther
dont fuck with this senator
my 4'11 wife weighs more then you
how are you even alive
love handles
depends on if its star wars yoda or the lesbian one
lesbian one
real
stupdi trash fish small fry
lesbians are more aerodynamic
Work
yoda is lesbian?
no im bi ok
That’s how I’m alive
bi what?
i prefer women though
this changes your stats
Bi polar? Bionic?
Gotem
cyborg bi
im pansexual i actually love silverware
No no I know what you are
dont wooorryu abouuutt ittt
youre a bit-
my wife is 6’4 northern chinese supetr model
Awesome
ni hao
thank you thank you
where are you people finding these tall muscular women
Do you need to be carried around or why you asking
watashi wa valentine desu 
im asking for a friend
watashi was Fuck
someone needs to reach that top shelf
what
Missed the meme
And it ain't gonna be gurt
We had Five dollar footlongs
put it away
PUT IT AWAY
i wish i could run like this zombie
i would be called insane bolt
u can
what is it meant to be
butter my biscuit
i dont think i want to be buttered up
poop on me and rub it in
So much knowledge in this world
Dip me in honey and throw me to the lesbians
I’ll add that to my vernacular
no, youll die
we might need to put you on a list
Trying shard to not laugh
give me a frying pan and send me to fight those zombies
you're already on a list
dip me in blood throw me to sexy vampiere
hm
what do you call a fly with no wings yoda?
did you come back from war
watashy wa poop
watashi
me waking up to the satanic ritual at 3 in the morning
(i just had a really bad nosebleed)
rimj*b
a walk
free iron
what do u call a poo with poop
mods kick this dog pelease
Holes filled
NU
see a hole fill a hole
EVIL
dip me in eggwash and throw me in some breading
bad mutt
i feel the presence of the overseers
me in sweden visiting a local forest
(im looking for the creatures.)
what creatures
gnomes
Visit american Forest and get mauled by a cryptid
you can just find them in the back yard
TAKE IT BACK

they only maul you if your soul isn’t pure
This face
apple fritter
double glazed
the homelanders face in the gif
Yeah its, the finally sucked, but homelander was perfect
it was
hard to watch
but perfect
yes yujiro we get it you fucking love apple fritters
everything about him was perfect, onlu wish they played it out longer
I only watched the first season or 3, it’s been a few years
whats with baku and apples
:c
What’s apple fritter
apple fritter
Is it like
idk
Apple juice?
kinda want to finish The Boys because they have the dudes from supernatural now
pastry made with apple
But if it’s very sweet then ehh
it is known for its sweetness
I dont understand
apple fritter DOUBLE GLAZED
Yeah I probably wouldn’t like it
is this your new fixation
there is endless apple fritters pineapple
just accept the become one with them
what about pineapple fritters
APPLE FRITTER
what about blueberry fritters
NO
ONLY APPLES
APPLE FRITTERS ONLY
im super hungry now
i should go eat a rasberry fritter
I like making noise on the job because I imagine what it sounds like to hear “AAAAaaaaaa” and shit echoing out of an empty house
cant do that in an office job though :(
when you hear an anime girl moan coming from your 5'6 coworker in the middle of the day after you lost your house
i dont think a roar could ever come out of lou
they have a cat pfp
the most they can do is meow
just accept your fate lou

Holy shit The phantom speaks
I don’t even remember him speaking
That’s gotta be his only line aside from “Kept you waiting…huh?” and “Tell me like you used to Kaz”
hey hey.. he's the main character of his game franchise isnt he?
what do you mean 2 lines across 3 games
He is a side character, with main character syndrome
There’s more than one snake, and there’s two big bosses
There’s the phantom and the man who sold the world
It’s really hard to explain
There’s Les infantes terribles, Solid Snake, Liquid Snake, and Solidus Snake
Which are all clones of Naked Snake (big boss)
Punished snake is phantom and is a ||medic on Big Boss old crew, gets brainwash to think he the boss||
I am big boss and you are too
thats a lot of reptiles
les enfants terribles*
Ah yes
🥖 🍷 🧄

lol
Big bawws
Spent 1 hour past my schedule time to yell at someone insurance
Fucking waste of time
What
Yeah I don’t understand
You’re helping them with their insurance? You’re dealing with their insurance company?
You work at an insurance company and you had to stay an hour past shift because of an angry client?
You're berating an insurance customer support employee? You're yelling at someone to try to get their insurance information?
No i work at an pharmacy
There fucking system thought we billed them for a script for an 90 days 90 days ago has been past long ago . So it been fucking 90 days
Why the fuck is it telling it to soon
insurance companies are soulless
I feel bad for call reps, but fuck everyone else there
Fr
@quiet siren do you think it tastes good
Dunno, don't drink really lol
this genre of picture is so fun
whatcha mean
It also pissed me off because they told me they can't reversed the claim since it been 90 days since it was billed. They have to get it reviewed. They told me it was bill on 02/04/26 which is correct they then said it was also billed on 02/07/26 for an "vacation supply" this pissed me off more because who on vacation for 6 months and two these asshole denied people vacation supply that are 3 days supply.
i just love food pictures at the desk in front of keyboards
also it looks like scp 173 is in the reflection of ur picture
the bottle
yes i know
i got called tung tung
its just my phone in the way
God damn I still fuming because of that. Insurance are complete scam and anyone who work in them are terrible people. I get you have to pay the bills but doing that is making sure others aren't able to pay there bills or even live how can they even look at themselves
I wonder if it taste like root beer
it tastes like sarsaparilla
a more earthy root beer
i hope i get a blue cap
anyway stasis rifle fragment location where?

i saw a piece near kelp forest edge by the floating islands
I checked around there
is there any fixed location?
at this point I'm checking around anywhere that the degasi survivors were
since I found more of the advanced stuff around those but it could have just been dumb luck
Yes and no
If you’re talking about sub 1 that is
They can be found just lying around but best place for tech is the downed lifepods
think i saw some piece near the aurora where the grumpy guy lives on the floor
the bugs are destroying my base 
Wait so what is the problem exactly? Is the problem a bill they arent paying the pharmacy? If so, why get frustrated? If no one is getting hurt and its just between two companies I dont see why there would be a reason to care
I'm frustrated because I can't bill them for the meds they need because it was already billed on 02/07/26 from our store. but that billed never happen and not on record and the pt stated that they never picked up an supply on 02/07/26 but they won't fix it for me which put the issue onto the pt he nows have to pay out of his pocket to get his medication
why's they?
I couldn't care less about my company or the insurance company. What I care about is that the pt is getting the care they need as cheap as possible. he pays the insurance to make sure his medication affordable just for them to fuck him over
because it 90 days since 02/07/26 was billed
mo
no
whos medicine is this for
a client?
Did the client get their medicine already and are. they having to pay for it?
for an 90 day supply so it doesn't fucking matter if he camed in on 05/07/26 because they can't rejected
they have to pay out of pocket to get his medication
I see the issue now
I called the client insurance company because It thing we call "ghost claim" which is an claim that never existed
will they get compensated once this is over?
they said it will take up to 4 days for this to be reviewed so they can reverse the claim since it been 90 days
but like you said, reversing the claim wont matter since the customer wont be getting money back
the call was because the patient is disable and they telling him they aren't gonna pay for it.
he didn't pay until I called them
Halp I was throwing corpse in to dumpster and drank the juice that froze my character in time
so I tried every I could to get the claim reversed and even asked them if he pay will he get compensated and they told me no
they basically told me to fuck off and the patients can go out without his meds because of there fuck up not because of our or the patient
that what piss me off, it doesn't matter how much it cost it because they could fixed it but there company laws make it so hard that it better to pay out of your own pocket
Not enough Luigis
it always delay, deny, and defend there main goal is just make it seems like it easier to just pay then actually get them to covered even if you pay hundreds of dollars to them
Idk if anyone’s ever noticed before but you ever think how 70s-90s zombie horror was very analogous and influenced by the irl AIDS epidemic (ie: anyone can get it, we don’t know what it is, little sympathy for suffering, usually patient 0 or first seen is someone lesser or down on their luck) while post covid zombie stuff focuses on isolation, unseen mystery and neglect of the outside till it’s right at your door
some people may think it not a big deal until they are the one in that situation where they have to choose to buy there meds or not eat. I would be this pissed even if they were well off. because each dollar they can save the more money can have as an emergency funds. it blatant thief and it pisses me off so much when it happen.
send me a dm if you can
they will help you there
be their hope
gurt being bitten is good in the game right :)
also irl
I'mma borger
why cant i join or make vc
you not a borger
it doesnt let me comment on the lfg posts
me too
BORGER
ahh u see
lets play tho
GIB ME BORGER
burger not done
I forgoet tomatos and lettuce
damn shame
I remember bacon though
and cheese
is your burger destroyed, dean
you can has cheeseborger
YOU CAN DO IT!
Also, I can show you how to unlock a unique buildable item in Subnautica. Floating eye in a green vat of goo that talks you you
I already got jack
REALLY? Kudos. Was originally for backers of the game only
Early access
I just barely made it far because i hate the reaper
Yeah same. To get him now you have to roll back your game version and redeem him
I remember when the ship looks different
Also samesies.
I’m building a sushi bar in part 2 if you wanna visit!
Eat sushi rolls and play bongo drums!
Gonna make a window that spells our B A R
I only eat the finest sushi an massive squid
Part 2 literally has sushi as craftable.
Tamaki to be precise
1 of each fishy + seaweed = 3 sushi rolls
soo we gonna be able to cause harm to them
forgot u were alive
hi dead
i forgot YOU were alive
👋👏! Top of the mornin to ya laddies! My name is Jack Septic Tank
my goals at the moment
I don't need yo piss
you want it though
nuh uh
how many reapers are in the mountain
how many do I have to kill to overcome my fear
I going in
is that a toilet brush
yeah but like really big
and it spins and hard
oh i fucking see one
hello old friend I hate I HATE YOU
I messed up
gassy 🥴
why
oh god they are evolving
yall be under da sea
yoda be under da weather
thats true
HAHAHAHAHAHA
Have you guys learned how to use the three seashells yet
yes
demolition man
its rather intuitive really
The plot of demolition man is a chud fantacy
lets try again
it one of the few movies ive watched in the past 6 years
are you not a movie person?
I haven’t even watched the movie it’s just a big meme
Why movie when you can game
i used to watch tv more
Interactive movie mmm
but when i read webnovels
Kojima
favorite webnovels?
hmmm
You’re not done yet
embed fail
and the legendary mechanic
they will all die for scaring me as a kid
marguerit would be so proud of me
ya back in the day duh
many Rebels will die
always keep some on hands
yoda recommend good yuri
idk
you can wait for them to starve
worse, diseased manhunters
if they're manhunters, isn't there this disease they carrying takes them die after a while or is it just making most of them rotten after death? been to long since I last played
We're here to talk to you about your car extended warranty
can they act as a defense?
like if another raider comes in

What happened?
... yes
Injury or an illness
drink
Ah
ill just keep the door closed then
Here’s to a speedy recovery
chipmunk face disease
Hopefully it closes up well
it swell quite a bit on left side
yoda is tupid now
and will probably start to bruise and swell more tomorrow
scary stuff
Mine left a little divot
Why is it called wisdom tooth if its so fucking stupid to not be able to grow properly
too many of them
your bruise will go over every colors of the rainbow
yes
i like when bruise coolourful
pretty cool
hmm
should i cotninue playing lego batman
I always thought it called wisdom tooth because back in the day medicine sucked and if you lived long enough to get them then you have become wise
Idk if true just my imagination at play
last time i let these fuckers in half my people got diseased
it call cause of when it appear i tihnk
appears when u become adult
google says 17-25
Adult
Yes yes I’m very wise
I’ve had the wisdom tooth
Now come and sit on the colored carpet, I will tell your fortune
so then you can die from wisdom teeth complications
I think by day 4-5 I was back to eating solids
Love island?
TV slop
nvm
gif of xal
i relaly like lego batman ui
TWO DOWN
did i steal this from u i forget
Gurt has memes?
i jave stolen from u
that just means you're uninteresting
This is breaking news
I got a headache
Thats not mine

lego batmannn
!hana
am eepy
see your tooth extraction has left you inept
!hana
The cooldown is pretty long
that's tough

that's hilarious
respect my power
I didn’t even see what happened
Sorry...
Gurt fast mod
I banned a plunder
he's just messing with you
Out with Leon in with Gurt
they're not a even a plumber you absolute seal clubber
not in my dgen
Reject the authority
Discordia should be anarchist goverment
Gurt (seal clubbr)
aloha or something
Them eyes are big af, probably not hard to do
Just pull out a huge light
nono
Cruel
You have to do emotional damage
I cast blinding 3
ok yoda
you freak
Seals dont understand gurtish
none of us do
idfk what are you talking about
Gurt is both Chopped and Cooking is what I take from this

Is there really autowalk
lou how old are you
22 Gurt
unc status 😭
middle aged if you will
My back don’t hurt yet this cannot be!
give it a month
quite dapper
helo
scarlets!
hi
GTA 6 is still on track for November 19 , 2026
the manhunters leave the map after a couple of days
awesome
I found a nice little trick, if you send out a caravan then it returns on the other side of the map, they are still aggroed to your base and you can shoot them from behind
Wouldn't be able to play it so who cares
I got a PS5 so I will play GTA 6 at launch.
it has to be delayed
for memes
it's just how things are supposed to happen
Nothing ever happens
exactly
come on rockstar
that dawg aint right lol 😭
you cant do this to us
looks like sims
lol
why long face
@lavish yacht yeah exactly
What are you doing
Pinging you and saying “yeah exactly”
You’ve never even played project zomboid
oh good when I'm crying i can drink it
makes me think of magic water
The fifth
hai chat
God bless chicken nuggets
And chicken tenders
Boneless chicken
Truly a marvel of evolution
im ready for pic perms
be nice
Not here, pic perms for general are recieved from lvl 10
im so ready for pic perms
wtf do you mean
what the heck
hey
wait
hold up one second
Lvl5 gives perms to #pz_b42_chat
ha! Come back once you grind the bosses till lvl10 
lying to poor plungie like that
I am no liar
Use the /rank command to check your rank.
For the top 100, you can use /leaderboard or go here:
https://lurkr.gg/levels/projectzomboid
i cant see my level
serious spiffo
guys im coughing like fuckiign crazy
i need water
guys
someone
someone get me water im 68 years old
with the death of the fifth reaper it will allow me to enter the depths and exit with ease
of course I will keep hunting them since there are still a few left in the region that I could exit out of
where's horsey goin'?
if i was a horse i'd be running away from barug
do be fair Barug does bite people
Bad Barug
oh I see it went to the animal sleeping spot in my burn pit
hmm
i only use it so i can target it with my flame bow
maybe i should set up 5 sleepin' spots near my base didn't know horseys would run to them from half way across the map

it made my day to see your message ornstien
thanks for being a pillar
goodnight guys
remember, eat succulent!
Whats the succulent
🙃
what is this from
spy kids
GET YOUR HANDS OFF MY PENIS
That is Kai. He is a dead assassin. His Shadow killed him 6,000 years ago and re-animated him to serve his shadow and the league of 40,000 planets.
He is dead. The dead do not poop
Roxy’s first B42.18 death
GREAT NEWS EVERYONE!!
May 26, 2026. GOOGLE IS GOING 100% AI
You cannot opt out if you use Google. Powered by Gemeni 3.5, everything you do is monitored, tracked, correlated, filed, and indexed.
So the AI can “Better predict what you want to see”.
Yay
I must ask
why the updates dave
Because I know things. Some of them are bad…. Very bad… like the FBI investigation into people who play Roblox
I'm yet to see how they make money out of AI
i understand people using their own local machine learning to do stuff that makes sense
Its data, it’s always the damn data
😭
Disney paid Facebook $200 million for the personal data of every child under age 18 on Facebook.
Your data is worth money
but i don't get the business model of companies running servers
they dont need to actually make money they just need to convince their shareholders that they are
Fortnite sold every players real ID to credit card companies and “friendly” mobile game makers like SuperCell.
So the company LITERALLY knows your phone number, your apple ID and other things to target you with ads for Clash Of Clans
are you nauseous or just queasy from his greed
the open source AI models are not that far behind what the big companies have, i don't get how it's sustainable for them to keep pumping money in
It’s also rabbit hole stuff.
April 21- Anthropic AI WON a lawsuit where the AI took a humans music, remade it, and reposted it.
They sued the human for copyright infringement And won
christ my entire youtube feed is full of invincible spoilers, i wanna watch it when it finished after like 7 seasons
Instagram has 3 BILLION accounts. 1.2 BILLION are wholly AI or bot accounts selling things to the other 1.8 billion humans
That’s a whole ass reason to not have instagram
i never really touch social media, I occasionally see things on X/Twitter if it's someone's announcing something, but I don't engage with it
real
An open source AI just dropped on GitHub.
It uses Wifi to see through walls like sonar/radar.
hackers (ahem) are already building “wi fi guns” we can aim at a house and see everything inside

The 3 letter agencies have been doing that for years
whats the name of it
hey all
Yeah but now Joe can do it
dave I hate this thing
I had to buy an emergency smartphone and I hate it
how do people even put up with these things
Students here at the university of Washington have working models that can penetrate through 2x4 wood, insullation and MOST common homes across the entire city of Seattle.
Videos should be up on Youtube soon
using radio signals to pin point people is fun
I need at least 5 different accounds to use this thing
you have to put chicken wire in your walls
Me too. It’s a sign of worse my friend
can it penetrate concrete and rebar
one to get app updates, one to do another, I NEED A GOOGLE ACCOUNT TO USE THE INTERNET BROWSER
the fuck
thats not how the internet works
I ordered a flip phone it will be here next week
make your house a faraday cage
Printers require a subscription to use now.
Aluminum is super common. That KINDA works.
But if you have wi-fi? You can be spied on.
It uses YOUR router to see inside YOUR house
they meow at night
they do yeah
your printers print identifiable stuff on your paper using yellow ink, that's why the printer wont print with any colours missing.
sorry I only buy black and white printers
why you should never print the threats you send to people using printers
The crazy shit is that the MILITARY has a version that is so highly detailed they can pick out small 3D objects like a coffee mug.
Since wifi is a radio wave, it bounces off EVEYTHING.
The AI just translates the noise based on wavelenghts to determine shapes.
And in the end, after about 2 seconds, it has billions of points to form a coherent image of all objects inside the house
well wifi doesn't bounce off of people, thats why it's so easy to see
Oh, that there’s a beaut
meat bags absorb radio
I built my main bases above land
Maybe I was playing wrong
imagine when we get killer robots that track people down using radio signals
this is my base at the moment
you cant even hide under the bed
I'm gonna put more growbeds on the mushrooms
Any predators?
M16A4 goes crazy
Gosh I realize now it’s been so long since I played sub1 that I can experience it again
Everyone else in my squad left for some reason and the only other guy left just sat there on a crane and let me do all the fighting, I somehow managed to make a comeback solo basically after this clip lmao
it right beside the mountain region so after that after I went on my murder spree it 100% safe
it was already safe it just had a very low chance one of them could decide to move closer to me
there a gate below my base I don't know how to turn it on but I find out
kill human, take base
I photocopy my ass and send it to people
the perfect crime
How the rat looks at us
I finally working on beating this game
i cant wait until they make AI killing robots then someone hacks them

You can do it
I has borger
i need food
i like the huge chunks of tomato on pizzas
I like my tomatos like I like my women
Nachos
dried up in the sun
oh dean, how dried up do you want your tomot
i thought that was going in a different direction
what is a nacho
Huuuh
Which mushroom field? Cause the BIG mushroom tree has a cuddlefish pet in it for you!!!
hrmmm
You don’t know nachos?
im serious i dont know it
nachos almost count as food
i might know it but my language might not translate
why is there a funko pop dnacing there
gonna get Dave some liquid nachos
Idk it really likes the nachos
it's just a chip?
Nachos is basically queso and chips but can add meat and other things to make it better
tortilla chips with stuff on them
Queso and tomato go good together
Oh hmm
My casino trips with my old man ALWAYS ended with a pile of $12 nachos from Baja Fresh
These! Ate these once a week for like 10 years non stop
why are they always triangle shaped?
For dipping

have you ever put an entire chip in you mouth then bit down and the point stabbed you in the roof of your mouth?
Cause function.
When SCOOPS were invented? Suburban moms lost their MINDS. Nacho parties broke out across america.
It was sour cream armsgheddon
Bah
There is?
Overpriced when regular chips do the same thing but better
The one near the back of the ship near the mountain region that full of reapers
Yeah you know the super HUGE mushroom tree out near the meteor impact site?
I drive past the that massive mushroom
It like right beside my base
I need my 5 son
Why are you explode
Kay you can go INSIDE it. Easy to get lost. It’s hollow.
An alien teleporter is near a trench at it’s base. Along with one of the cuttlefish eggs.
I already got some from an time capsule I will be called octo mom
I must make my school of fish larger
I never left the planet in my last playthrough. I’m staying with my babies
spontaneous combustion
No reason to leave unless you’re achievement hunting
SUPER SECRET:
put a golden peeper inside containment. Put an infected fish in with it.
Wait about 5 minutes.
scan the infected fish
Oh I know they cure temporary cure them
I made an research lab and was messing with the virus
Yes Henry I love this idea
Base building in part 2 is already more fun tho.
I’m trying to get people to visit my world and play bongo drums with me inside my sushi bar
Cool the game actually thought about it
I can't wait to jump in to sub below zero since the base building looks so much better than 1 and the ice is where I belong
There’s a mod for that.
Functional clothes lines has also been updated for B42 MP 😉
I already play the sub 2 and god the base building is peaked and the lighting my god it beautiful
Below zero is 10/10 pretty and cool graphics. Story is meh at a 6/10.
exploration is a meh at 7/10.
it’s waaaaaay too linear. Hence so many people poop on it.
I love the lore tho. A character from part 1 is alive and well in it.
I heard the story was changed midway through
It was meant to be SMALL DLC. The exec ordered it to become a full game
So i'm curious if I would like the story since i'm unaware of what it was originally from
Spoilers:
I had my fun
Idk how far sleepy has gotten
I made it to the lost river
I don’t remember if that’s before or after finding this area
does anybody know why my graham crackers tastes like fruit hard candy
I dipped my toes in the lava place to find nickel
That way before that
I think i'm getting near the end
I'm surprised this server doesn't have any stickers.
Wow I just noticed that
Lost river is the green deep river with the skull
Hopefully they can add spiffo with his Dawgs out
Yum
The furthest i habe went and study the lore was to the tree with the ghost rays
im so ready for pic perms
That’s technically “end game” zone, so you are far in. Well done
I love when my brain lets off a flash bang inside my head
i love those
Poke brain with q tip. Stop flash bangs
Anything pasted that i'm not familiar with except the sea emperor is the cure but I would know that since an data tablet is found was talking about her having the resistance
Oh also the sea dragon
they should make plushies of the other spiffo's characters 
But he was in the game before even being shoved into the lava field
They made FOUR so far.
But they only sell around 5,000 ish each.
Not sure many people other than guys like me would pay for a Paw Pal set
Alright it almost 1am I got work in the morning and I don't wanna be this cat in the morning
If Spiffo's existed somewhere in Kentucky, I'm sure many people will travel there to try and steal the Plushies. 
The sea dragon also looks goofy TBH. The animations are lacking and his face looks like he’s always smiling.
Sea dragon momma tho. I love her. I give her head pats

My baby boy is soooo cutr
my partner is having baby fever i may be a victim soon
I have cats. Don’t need kids
i have a cat too
Being a parent was just not in my RNG in life. So no kids for me
It’s a mix of both..
I’ve never been married. Never dated anyone who even considered Mary’s as an option.
Same with parenting. Anybody I’ve ever been romantic with has never wanted children or they already had children who grew up already and moved out.
well
i havent had the issue of them not wanting any other then a handful of times
mostly because i bring it up early on
its smart to make your expectations known
so you can both talk about eachothers
And generally in America only about 20% of women never have a child. For whatever reasons may be.
and if you dont agree usually it means u arent meant to be
Oh yeah, I’m not disagreeing with you. At an earlier part of my life I really wanted to be a father and I really wanted to have children, but the people I was involved with did not.