We don't know what to think anymore. (Vent)

[dusty tundra]

We hate feeling like we're walking on egg shells anytime we interact with our mother. In a split second she could act like she loves us and then the next she'll act like we're such a burden. We hate that we got it from her too. Our mood can flip like a light-switch in an instant. We want to hate her so much, yet we can't, despite how much hurt she's caused us.

We want to hate our father as well, but we can't blame him for the way he acts. Sure, he's done things we can't agree with, but he's a lot better than our mother. Anytime one of them does something wrong, we don't know whose side to choose.

We hate feeling like we're multiple people sometimes. We hate not being taken seriously. We hate being taken advantage of. We feel like absolute shit and want everything to stop. Our split personalities are supposed to make us feel better, they're supposed to help us cope and protect us. Why do we feel so horrible? Why can't we stop crying? It hurts so much.

We don't want to be like her. We're acting like the person that raised us. We don't want to be her. We don't want to make other people feel hurt like how she made us hurt so many times.

We feel like we could snap at anyone at any moment. Why won't Anne help us think rationally? She's supposed to help us with our anger. It's not helping. We don't want to yell at people. Not again.

The overthinking is driving us insane. We feel so mentally exhausted.

We're always trying to comfort other people and we're always listening to other people rant and try to give them advice, but it's wearing us down so much.

There's so many thoughts and feelings we have that we can't figure out how to put into words. We feel broken. We're whining too much.

We apologize to anyone we've ever snapped at. Only we can hold ourselves responsible.

How could anyone ever love someone like us? We have so many mental issues. We'd only weigh them down. We'll never find anyone to love.

[alpine zinc]

It's okay... mental issues are caused and can be resolved by the people around you, find the right people to hang around, someone that'll help you instead of whatever happens. Kaovin, you're nice and funny, only two things someone needs to change someone else to become better, and what you need is the same energy, not from you, but from others. Y'all are strong, I hope to be able to help you through whatever you want me to help with.

[dusty tundra]

We appreciate it, Sen

[dusty tundra]

We might actually fucking snap if one more person decides to be an asshole. We're sick and tired of everyone's shit

We want to scream at the top of our lungs and punch something

[dusty tundra]

Getting caught up in friends' situations is exhausting.

How can we help someone that won't even take our advice? It feels pointless.

[dusty tundra]

Is it bad to not want to care anymore? We're tired of caring

[dusty tundra]

We shouldn't feel angry when talking to them

[dusty tundra]

It's kind of funny that we're the only ones cleaning up the house, yet our parents won't even do the bare fucking minimum of giving us the tools TO CLEAN

[dusty tundra]

We feel like we're going to snap any second. We've cried at least five times today. We ran out of medication that regulates our emotions because our parents always wait till last second to pay for things, so now they can't afford it

We want to end it so bad

Why can't the pain fucking stop??

We want to cut so badly