It sounds like your Aroace which means you feel little to no romantic or sexual towards people I have friends that are aroace and they still like being held and like head pats or people running fingers through their hair they are just awkward about more then that like hugs or stuff and they have to be in a certain mood also considering you have autism it could be a sensory thing, safe person thing or you just being overwhelmed which doesn't just happen to autistic people but is more likely to correlate with them. I hope that helped :]
#How do I know if I have romantic feelings
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You're more likely to be just Aromantic (little to no romantic feelings towards people) then I'm guessing also the first time is always going to be awkward no matter what
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Mb was just trying to explain 😅
Fair but yk it's hard to control how you feel and depending on who you meet later on that could change
Yeah of course
Maybe not rn but people change and mature :]
But if you don't want a relationship that's also completely fine and you're not alone
It's going to feel off for a little while and it's going to take time to adjust but that's because of the social standards and how highly people talk of relationships sometimes but relationships aren't for everyone and that's okay