This is the message that I tried to post: The thing is that whenever I talk to another woman and I perceive that we are bonding well I just get these insistent thoughts about how I should date and marry her because surely we are a match, right? It makes me feel very uncomfortable thinking that way as I feel like it would be too rude to ask that sort of thing to the woman no matter if I just met her or if I had known her for a bit so I end up not saying anything.
IDK what gets to me when it comes to women. They all just make me feel weird and strange, and yet I can't help but constantly think about them. Heck, this morning I found myself in tears over the idea of not being able to date women, and yet every time I try I end up feeling uncomfortable and out of place and unsure of where I want to take the relationship to. It gets so bad that I literally break off friendships just to not deal with the pain. So what am I supposed to do with all of this?
Meanwhile, I keep finding myself flirting with men. I don't even realize it until it is pointed out to me. Yet somehow I know that my feelings towards men are not the same as towards women. Women alone brings out so many strong emotions that it gets overwhelming, meanwhile men don't bring the same level of rush to me. They just are whatever to me.
I don't know why I am obsessing over these minor details right now. All I know is that women tends to make me feel things that I simply can't ignore no matter how hard I try. Like to the point that I end up comparing my feelings to men to my feelings towards other women and they are not even close.
#I don't know my attraction to other women
daring mauve
leaden iris
Ok this situation is kinda hard but maybe ur bi?
Bc u like men and women?
Wait but like do u have like genuine attraction towards women or nah?
All I’d say is take ur time it can be hard to figure out
It took me a long time to finally come out as gay
daring mauve
Wait but like do u have like genuine attraction towards women or nah?
I think I do? Like I can't stop thinking about women even if I want to. I thought that the reason why is because I happen to be a trans woman myself, but maybe there is more to it? All I know for certain is that I only feel this way towards women. Like the very thought about dating women just makes my heart beating faster and my breathing becomes harder. That is how bad it gets.