not that important

[patent bane]

I've been feeling horrid recently, like no one cares or gaf. My friends have been hitting me recently, acting wierd, flirty, or just not caring and pushing me away. And my parents have been abusing me for all my life and ive recently thought about s/icide and have (sadly) new c/t marks on my skin. I just feel like a worthless piece of shit, my family members being absolutely horrible, my grandma telling me bible shit, mom doesnt give a fuck, and keeps inviting abusive step dad over. And now im getting forced to do things I dont want to, and im unable to get out of bed and brush my teeth more recently, my appearance getting more disheveled day by day as I just rot in my bed, my room a mess. And im going to my cousins soon, and I dont see myself living past Thanksgiving break, now that all that horrible shit is going on with my life, and no one giving two fucks about it. I just dont know anymore. And also with me dealing with recent incident(s) I wont go into detail popping back in my life, ive just been feeling more and more useless. I recently discarded of my shard of glass (i used to c/t) but my pills still sitting on my bedside like a plan b if everything fails. I just need some reassurance right now, I dont know anything anymore. If anyone has some help/coping mechanisms, please let me know, im desperate at this point.

also please reply ping to one of these messages if you have a suggestion im very much open

[opaque wasp]

A coping mechanism would only alleviate your stress temporarily, though I could suggest hugging your plushies/playing chill games. For people to actually notice, you should engage more in socializing and getting rid of bad friends (and friends are way better than coping mechanisms). Imo, your family does sound horrible but perhaps in their view they're just teaching you (etc etc, still wrong though). Hope you'll get better and feel free to reach out!

[patent bane]

thank you sm 🙂 I recently got enough motivation to clean my room, I appreciate it smm

[opaque wasp]

That’s awesome! Glad I could help. :33

[celest sorrel]

Before my advice, a question. Why is this thread titled "Not that important"? You matter and are important, and issues as serious as this sounds are even more important to address and get help about ♥️. Now, my advice. If I were in this situation, I think I would just try to experiment with different changes in my life until I found something that's better than where I had previously been. After all, at rock bottom, there's nowhere to go but up.

[patent bane]

||update, ive been getting better and have gon a few days without c/tting myself :)) tysm for all the support Im so happy||