#Weird thoughts...

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umbral wyvern
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I'm not sure what to call these honestly. They might possibly be intrusive thoughts, and have been going on for a couple years now. They started 4 years ago. I think it's from where a best friend of mine suddenly turned toxic and ghosted me. She was my only friend at the time, and therefore it hurt a LOT when she stopped talking to me. At one point she joined the popular group and was extremely rude to me for a while. And now, I have extreme trust issues. I can consider myself somewhat popular as of today. I've got many friends, mostly from the school show and stuff. However I've been getting thoughts that are like "you're too close to this person. Distance yourself a bit" or "oooh I think that person secretly hates you" or "ooofff she was a bit too busy to text today due to rehearsals? Or did she actually just want an excuse to not talk to you?" It's been affecting my mental health a LOT as I feel I cannot trust many of the people I genuinely try to trust.

fickle grove
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Those happen a lot with me too, I'm no expert, but when you've been through such pain before, that's your sub-concious' way of trying to protect you from going through it again
Thing is, it wears you down so much because you feel like you can't trust anybody, and makes you walk on eggshells with people who likely won't ever throw you under the curb
Those aren't really intrusive thoughts, but more a sort of traumatic response

umbral wyvern
fickle grove
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I don't really know, not too good with advices
Recently I haven't been able to make any friends, but if you're really worried and wanna test their trust, ask them things, not literally "will you turn your back against me", but something to silence these voices
If people truly are your friends, they won't do what your "best friend" did, trust goes both ways, you don't owe that person anything

strange bear
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❤️ Praying for you

patent heron
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I literally have to mentally tell that voice to shut up and sit down because it's being ridiculous. It doesn't always help, but I have noticed a reduction in those type of pop up thoughts.

umbral wyvern
umbral wyvern