today was not fun now I’m badly depressed

[unreal axle]

As if my disabilities already made me feel nonhuman that did not help

[magic stag]

am so sorryy my dear🫂ignore those fucking assholes & dickheads that laugh at you, i absolutely hate to see you struggling🫂 like it not right to struggle & see someone laugh at you just bc you are struggling like people in the world today are fucking assholes & dickheads❗️

[unreal axle]

It sucks if they only knew my bladder damage was from falling off of a latter and severely breaking my back I spent three months in the hospital and then another two in physical therapy, and I should not be walking because the way my doctor put it is I almost shattered my back. I fell straight flat on my back. I can’t stand for long periods of time and I can’t walk a very far without having to take several breaks and I have permanent damage with my bladder and my back which will never heal, and I have chronic pain some days are worse than others I’ll be honest, my two biggest things that’s bothering me is dysphoria and my disabilities

[magic stag]

🫂

[unreal axle]

The scary part is I somehow did not hit my head and my doctor straight up said it would’ve been over if I did

I have a massive fear of heights and ladders now

[magic stag]

don’t do them, just lay down in bed & heal & recover🫂

[magic stag]

that is sad😞🫂

[unreal axle]

Don’t worry, I decorate for the holidays and my dad does all of the stuff that involves going up on the roof and stuff and he used to work on roofs so he knows what he’s doing

like I was saying in the regular chat, my dad‘s not a bad guy. He just has issues and he has meltdowns. He’s not violent or nothing but he gets these episodes where he just gets angry and starts screaming and he grew up in a time. Period. Where he refuses to believe there’s anything wrong with him that doesn’t make you weak or nothing we’re human beings. We’re all gonna have something wrong with us. We’re not perfect.

This parts gonna get dark, so just a fair warning

i’ve had two men take advantage of me one nephew and which he played mentally insane so he pretty much just got a slap on the wrist by the court system and my ex literally had a knife at my throat when he did it got caught, though when they were trying to arrest him, he locked his self in his house and you know because of that when they get louder start screaming

Anyways, sorry I just needed to clear some crap out of my head. I’ve just been kind of stressed out lately.

s#it, I’m freaking crying

It’s just not been a good year