so, gender wise.. i dont really think i feel anything but the other day my friend said they viewed me as they/she and at first i wasnt a big fan of that, i mean i made a physical reaction to it, but either later that night or the next night when i was brushing my teeth i was looking in the mirror and i felt like i could actually see what they meant and maybe it isnt that accurate but i think i actually felt like they/she
#idk what i am. help
viscid vault
i think sometimes i see my gender how other people do/see my gender as the gender of the people im talking with
and sometimes i dont and just feel like nothing or something idrk how to explain it like my gender has always been the hard thing for me to figure out
like my whole life i just existed as a girl because thats what i was and i remember a couple times when i was younger id get upset when someone would refer to me as he, and then one time i tried she/he/they and didnt like it, then i tried it again about maybe a couple years later and liked it, but i liked she way less
ive always struggled to figure out what my emotions are and that definitely makes it super hard to figure out what my sexuality/gender is. i mean ive known im aroace for the past few years but sometimes i still question it and i STILL question my gender and i worry that what if i say this but get it wrong and just go back to being a girl
pronouns more often than not really just feel like words to me and idk how else to explain it, its kinda the reason i prefer no pronouns because i dont think i feel a connection to any pronouns, i mean sometimes i think i do but not all the time like trying to explain what i feel gender wise is so hard because i truly dont know what i feel. im afab, thats really all i know for certain in this context
idk if ANY of this makes sense
this kinda feels like its going more vent wise but i genuinely feel like i dont really know anything about myself. and sure im still a teenager so im in that "figuring myself out phase" but honestly everytime i think i figure out something it goes right back to "maybe thats not accurate... idk" like idk is my answer for so much shit including my gender and sexuality, "whats your gender?" idk "sexuality?" idk "do you know anything... ??" yeah, no clue. i honestly just exist and thats it
mellow gyro
Im in the same boat, but it sounds like maybe something along the lines of genderfluid might fit you. Just take your time, and try to find what defines you, and if nothing can, try to rejoice in your uniqueness. That's at least what I'm doing.
viscid vault
Im in the same boat, but it sounds like maybe something along the lines of gende...
yeah its just for me personally i hate not having an explanation for something i experience
mellow gyro
Fair enough
uneven axle
Well pronouns and different sexualities are all just labels
even if you do not fit the common definition it is more important to figure out your own preferences and to find out what you truly want to be.
viscid vault
even if you do not fit the common definition it is more important to figure out ...
yeah its just the thing is i DONT know what i want to be 😭
viscid vault
alr twinn
viscid vault
oh i hope so
viscid vault
well im gonna be 17 next month 😅
uneven axle
Even in a single year the whole world can flip upside down for you
viscid vault
oh ik and thats the scary part for me since i get paranoid easy.. 😭
uneven axle
Focus on your school first
cause once you have a degree in your hands you will be a lot closer to making your own dreams come true