wet dirge
My best friend and I are minors and they were talking about a guy I cut off was being weird. I vaguely remember him doing similar stuff so I went through some old messages. They were horrific… I’m not sure how I could’ve forgot and not understand what he was doing.
He begged for a relationship with me, and I tried it for a bit but it was completely platonic and HE ended it. He sent me many || sexual || unpleasant texts about my body and made jokes about it too. He talked about me in ways I didn’t even want to talk about ever, and I just blew it off? I think I was scared of him || ending || or hurting himself, but he just kept pushing boundaries. I don’t know how I could even forget that, and it’s messing with me so much recently. He constantly vented to me when ever as well, even when I told him several times that I wasn‘t in a good place either and didn’t want to hear his issues. It got to the point where I and another friend once drove to his house to make sure he wasn’t going to hurt himself. I don’t know how I repressed it or forgot but I hate myself for it and my best friend might be in the same situation. I‘m scared that he‘ll do something to them or me. I physically know he can’t do anything to me since he doesn’t know here I live and we don’t see eachother, but I’m still so scared. I want to cry and scream and I don’t know what else. I briefly brought it up in therapy, but not much was said and don’t know how to bring something up that happened a while ago. I just need advice I guess…
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