#bmf/vent, sorry.

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spiral epoch
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I know this is not gonna be the type of vent because i wanna actually make friends, its just complicated for me to do so i guess because everyone blocks me or either just doesn’t treat me in a healthy way. I often drain myself out and am genuinely just looking for fun and supportive friends that will text me and that play ROBLOXX(im from Europe[netherlands] ,just lyk because theres often a time difference and a distance) im just looking for active friends that i can vent to because i never had one and its all just spilling out, now that ive said that ill talk a bit about myself and my lore ig. So 2 years ago i went to a new school, and i lost all friends, i had 1 irl friend and maybe 2 or three online friends, until they unadded me and I realized all i really do is just rot. i became very depressed and started expressing myself in my style and in drawing or painting. Anything to just distract
myself from the reality, i started harming myself and starvating. (Im now clean) later that year my parents also announced they were gonna get therapy cause my mom wanted to divorce and my dad went ballistic, he would hurt her, my other siblings and mostly me. These situations only have grown worse, kids in my class bully me or tell me to kms. My depression has grown and i really feel like i just wanna give up. My parents have been successfully divorced now though even though my parents are a lot to deal with. Mostly my dad since he easily gets handsy and aggressive, he’s been havign his ups and downs and it honestly scares me so much sometimes, so yeah. I now also have some online friends that never text first or will Just ignore me, im not saying you have to be online or respond within seconds but i just want a friendship that i feel like would last and is reciprocated both ways. I wanted to come on here and share this not deeply detailed but hopefully detailed enough to sketch the struggles im in, this is really my last scream for active friends bcs im genuinely so drained.

unreal hedge
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i can be ur friend!❤️

spiral epoch
tulip sparrow
spiral epoch
night goblet
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I can be your friend too!