I don't think Im mentally okay

[vagrant remnant]

I've been crying for the past 28 minutes it's currently 11:28pm and I've realized how alone I am my clothes have changed my personality everything about he has changed I used to be just a happy and outgoing person and I used to wear bright colours and not care about makeup but now days all I wear is dark clothes, even my makeup is dark one of my friends have noticed as I started to wear more makeup and he started to call me emo bc of it and now that i think of it he's sorta right im the therapy friend within my friend group while i struggle with my own problems that my friends dint know about as i dont k ow how to open up no one sees how broken I actually am when I'm alone I also struggle being around people as people scare me a lot so I struggle to interact and say things to people until I get comfortable around them it takes a lot of me to actually vent to my friends bc I feel like they're going to judge me for it and think I'm being weak and being overdramatic about it and idk what to do I don't wang go be around anymore but then agsin i do bc I want to do paranormal investigations as it's my dream and i also want to meet Sam and Colby, Jake, Johnnie tx2 and the boys as they're my favorite people and they're my comfort people tx2's music is amazing so is Jake and Johnnie's, Sam and Colby and the boys are very funny and help me when i struggle as they're funny they will make laugh whenever I'm like this I just don't know what to do anymore tbh

[desert mountain]

I'm sorry you're feeling this way. You're not alone, even if it feels like it right now. It's okay to change, to struggle, and not always to be OK. Being the “therapy friend” while hurting yourself is so heavy you deserve support too.

Your dreams, are like paranormal investigating and meeting your comfort people, are worth holding onto. You're not weak or dramatic for feeling this way. Please reach out to someone. You matter more than you know.

[primal coral]

Firstly, you are not alone. And you will never be alone. You hsve any one of us with DMs open to vent to or talk to. We all listen, never judge and always offer advice when you need it.

Secondly, It's okay to change apperances and stuff like that. If your friends notices, then it's a sign that they care for your well-being. And if they have asked if you are okay?

Being the therapist of any friend group while dealing with your own problems is not needed. My advice to this is to try to open up to them, like they have to you and vented to you about their problems. If that doesn't work. You can always DM one of us here helping and vent to us about it.

Now if the friends judge, then it just means they don't have your best interest at heart, being weak and overdramatic isn't an issue. Sometimes even grown men cry in private. We all can't be tough big and strong. We are only like that when we need to be to protect ourselves or when we want to put up a defensive barrier.

Sam and Colby are some of the funniest people as well. It's good to let out a laugh when you are like this. But it would definitely be more enjoyable if you laughed with people even random people on the internet to this.

We are here for you when you need it. My DMs are always open for you to dump all your problems off and I'd do my best to offer you advice to suit.

[vagrant remnant]

TW⚠️

I just realized no one comes in my room hardly I could get away with ||killing myself|| the only thing stopping me is my fear of pain and wanting to meet my comfort people