#empathy vent ig

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plucky flame
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I feel like I struggle with empathy.

What I feel is more sympathy than anything else.

I LAUGHED ONE TIME BC MY GRANDMA WAS CRYING OVER NOT BEING ABLE TO BE CALLED GREAT GRANDMA ON HER NEW HUSBAND’S SIDE OF THE FAMILY. Like full on LAUGHED. She got pissed at me and then I felt slightly bad but still.

I also don’t really feel “bad” for ppl in lower situations than I am. Like I feel sympathy for people like that, but never empathy.

Also putting myself in other peoples shoes feels more like a step by step task and imagination rather than something natural to me

I also struggle with tone problems? On text I RELY on tone indicators and in irl I often say things that by a majority concern ppl but to me are normal and I end up causing my own reputation to fall over smthing I think is funny which is actually DEEPLY concerning and would get me sent to the councilors office.

just wtf is wrong with me

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and fyi it wasn’t just small crying it was full on SOBBING and saying she was an outsider and I LAUGHED

paper widget
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I understand all of that

plucky flame
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At least I’m not alone on this

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lol

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Well there’s two paths you can take

plucky flame
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that makes me feel better tbh

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Atleast from what I’ve seen

plucky flame
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I just don’t wanna end up being a bad person

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You either start caring about learning how to do emotions right

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Or you become an absolute monster just for shits and giggles

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Either or

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It’s much easier to be evil since

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well

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From what I’ve read it seems you don’t understand them

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So my question here is

plucky flame
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?

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What is your purpose for existing ?

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Bad internet sucks

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😭

plucky flame
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What is ur purpose for existing

plucky flame
paper widget
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Hm

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What goes through your head when you see someone sad

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Or depressed or suicidal or

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Anything else like that. In physical distress

plucky flame
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I feel more sympathetic.

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and I am also not the best at comforting people in that mind space

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Hm

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I understand that

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plucky flame
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I don’t know tbh

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Yeah me neither

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Do you sometimes think people make no sense

plucky flame
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Absolutely

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When they are sad

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What about suicide

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What are your thoughts on that

plucky flame
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I understand why a person would

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Would you

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Let’s say you are at the lowest point in your life

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What do you do

plucky flame
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I think I would try to play it off as fine. Don’t show any of the cardinal signs of depression the best I can and just disappear quietly ig

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Are you being truthful right now

plucky flame
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I don’t know

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Hm

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Interesting

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We are alike in some ways, different in others

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What’s your view on death

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Yk what nvm

plucky flame
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I’m not scared of it. It happens regardless. I mean we’ll all die eventually right?

paper widget
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The best way to analyze someone is to just

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Listen to them

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So talk talk about anything at all

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Life problems etc etc

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Just start typing

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Oh and how old r u

plucky flame
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14

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Hm interesting

plucky flame
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Anyways my so called older brother (im an only child) recently passed away. The best guess we have is murder bc it’s being investigated as such. Kinda pissed that he left me, but also i just started feeling numb after a while.

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Hm your probably not

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I can’t say for sure with this little knowledge

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But your probably just dealing with the symptoms of grief

plucky flame
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I hope so

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Do you think you are a monster

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Or everyone else is a monster

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How would you rank yourself from 1-10

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10 being the worst

plucky flame
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Probably like a 4 or 5. Maybe 6. A lot of that is just guilt from various things though.

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What things

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What have you done

plucky flame
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A lot of it is just silly things. Although I did make a list of who out of all my classmates would I cannibalize in the apocalypse for various reasons. I have also occasionally thought abt hurting my cat and i do feel guilty for those thoughts too. Also just like saying the wrong things, crying when I shouldn’t have and how I should’ve been stronger and stuff like that. Also ig survivors guilt comes into play too bc my grandpa tried to kill my grandma and if I had told her years back that I thought he was cheating (he absolutely was) maybe she would’ve left him sooner and how I should’ve been there and not my younger cousins and friends