Breakup

[stiff violet]

I recently got broken up with. I was dating a really good friend of mine, we've been friends for 5 summers already and we started dating a while ago. He texted me, asking to come over, and we had a long talk. He said that he isn't ready for a long-term relationship yet, and we agreed to just be good friends. He said he'd let me know when he is, that maybe we could try again. Part of me thinks I did something wrong...maybe it was my transition from FTM or the fact I'm ND...I'm just not sure..I can't..I don't know how to cope with this. I know there's a slim chance that it's permanent, but I still feel stupid. I feel stupid, sad and angry that I let myself believe it would last...I don't know what to do, and the only thing I can do to cope is stay up ridiculous amounts of hours until I start hearing things..I've never had a healthy break up before, so it feels wrong, like I screwed it up because that's what I've been told my last 2 relationships. I don't know what to do.

[winged herald]

I know that feeling too well had my partner of 1 year break up with me in may and a dude I was trying to date blocked me after I showed him my face... It feels like we are the problem when really, we barely even make a dent in the problem that they are going through. I do not know if you two will ever get back together and as much as we can hope we also have to be prepared for anything sometimes. You did everything you could, you didn't fail. Just be you, it gets you farther than the alternative options. And even if you two don't get back together, you will find the one. It seems like you're a good person!

[stiff violet]

Thank you, it really means a lot. I'm hoping things will go nicely and I'll be able to get a relationship that won't make me feel like the problem anymore.

[winged herald]

Same here not going to lie. Relatable as waking up at 8:30 PM to go to an appointment.

[stiff violet]

Thank you. I really appreciate it..