im a teenager currently and im struggling with identity alot. i have a lot of inner turmoil about my queerness, whether if im bisexual or lesbian. i already know i have plentiful attraction to girls, because my first and biggest irl crush was on one, and well its already definite atp.
however im confused if i also like men or not, ive dated a few guys but they were all short term relationships where i didnt find any of them attractive and was only doing it just so i could experience a glimpse into what dating felt like (i mean i cried over one guy but i dont think i felt any connection with him it was just pure performative) i sometimes make up scenarios in my head of what i would look like in relationships with different male peers, or i would have admiration for my male peers tho idrk if that was an actual small crush or just an admiration. the only true male crushes i had were on two anime characters when i was in middle school, but i dont think that counts. i dunno very insane turmoil. someone help please