i not deserve to be here all I do is whine and panic over the tiniest things and constantly think im being broken up with or left whenever stuff happens, just leaving for too long makes me cry what is wrong with me
#no
runic adder
royal frost
Would you like some help?
royal frost
i not deserve to be here all I do is whine and panic over the tiniest things and...
I can help if you would like.
royal frost
You are most likely having separation anxiety.
It’s completely fine.
It just means you love them a lot.
And most likely anxiety too.
Again, perfectly normal.
You belong here.
You deserve to be here.
royal frost
idk what wrong with me
You’re absolutely fine, nothing is wrong with you.
runic adder
mmm
runic adder
You belong here.
not if they leave me
royal frost
not if they leave me
Even if they do, they are not the reason that you belong here. The fact you even are alive means you are meant to be here.
runic adder
Even if they do, they are not the reason that you belong here. The fact you even...
that doesn't work in my head
royal frost
Keep thinking about it.
runic adder
Even if they do, they are not the reason that you belong here. The fact you even...
my first thought to this is I can fix that 😭
royal frost
Oh boy.
royal frost
No, just stay alive.
runic adder
No, just stay alive.
idk
royal frost
How would they feel about you dying?
runic adder
How would they feel about you dying?
I can't talk them in a relationship with that
so they'd never know
runic adder
I feel like I'm an imperfection to get rid of right this moment
this is scary
royal frost
Yeah.
runic adder
suicidal thoughts aren't even sad 😭
royal frost
Rightfully so.
runic adder
I don't wanna go back to mental hospital
royal frost
Okay, you hit me right in the heart with that one.
So, can you get access to a therapist?
runic adder
nah
royal frost
I can't talk them in a relationship with that
Expand on this. Tell me what you mean.
runic adder
just gonna cold heart lie to them till they think I'm fine anyway
runic adder
Expand on this. Tell me what you mean.
I can't keep*
usual reaction is "you're saying that so I stay"
royal frost
Uhh.
Like exactly that?
They say that you are only staying alive so they stay?
@runic adder ?
runic adder
what
like if I mention suicidal stuff I'm always told it's only to make someone stay
but it
idk
every time someone leaves my first thought is to give up
royal frost
Who says that?
royal frost
like if I mention suicidal stuff I'm always told it's only to make someone stay
Who says this to you?
runic adder
ex awhile ago and kinda my bf rn
royal frost
Mm.
I’m really sorry, I don’t know how to help you further. I think you should get a therapist, when you can. Good luck soldier.
runic adder
which my ex should've expected it
we met in a mental hospital tf did you think I'd do be happy
runic adder
I’m really sorry, I don’t know how to help you further. I think you should get a...
idk how
This usually what im told tho
im a minor, don't have money for it, and if I ask it's always for attention
runic adder
because that's for attention too!
royal frost
I would hope so.
Still, I can’t help but feel bad for you!
This is a awful experience!
And I don’t want people to die.
steady pagoda
i don't really know the situation in other countries, but here in turkey we have free therapy places and stuff
and they DO help even if theyre operated by the government
im not sure if it exists where you live but you could check it
is there absolutely no way you can access it @runic adder ?
oh..
runic adder
im fine guys I didn't do anything I fell asleep sorry 😭
I just cry a lot mostly I don't think I'm gonna do anything bad
steady pagoda
thank god
runic adder
relationships always send me to mental hospital idk what to do