hey this will be my final post here as i will kill myself in the next 24h but i thought id tell people why, im 14 and recently turned bi and since then nothing has gone well. i have no one as my friend killed themself and now im dead inside. im just fulll of sadness and anger and hope that one day our society wont drive people to what im gonna do
#bye
digital shoal
fiery raven
hey this will be my final post here as i will kill myself in the next 24h but i...
Hey.. I know I'm one purrson.. but I can be a friend.
I know I don't know you, but I care.
civic plover
hey this will be my final post here as i will kill myself in the next 24h but i...
Dont commit suicide
digital shoal
Dont commit suicide
i will do it amd that wont change
civic plover
i will do it amd that wont change
Wait a week
fiery raven
I know I don't know you, but I care.
I know this world seems grim, and at times it very well can be. But there is always light, my friend.
I know the feeling of losing someone close and I know it sucks, but I know your friend would want you to keep on.
digital shoal
i wish it hadnt come to this but i have nothing to live for
civic plover
i wish it hadnt come to this but i have nothing to live for
Lemme tell you a short story
I had nothing to live for last weekend. Nothing. I didn't care, I was gonna kill myself. I didn't. I ended up talking to my ONLY friend which I had recently met, and... I stopped wanting to die for a little while. I realized that, well... You might feel like shit but.. you'll find things to live for. I was gonna commit suicide on this friday, but.. I just made a plan with my new and only friend on friday
digital shoal
ive hung myself twice in 2 weeks
this time ill just stab myself
maybe ill gut myself
itll hurt less than being alive
digital shoal
Firstly.... you cant gut yourself
ill try
digital shoal
ok
civic plover
Imma say this, fate almost certainly exists and wants you to live.
civic plover
Like... I flipped a coin to see if I'd jump off a building. Landed heads 8 times in a row. 0.39% chance.
digital shoal
im the only one left in my friend group
civic plover
So... I lived
civic plover
im the only one left in my friend group
Then what you need.... is to live to expand the group
Think of it this way, people LOVE the person that STARTS a friend group
digital shoal
Then what you need.... is to live to expand the group
everyone fucking died
i saw my friends die
every one
you know how crushing that is?
my fate is to die
im sorry
civic plover
Is it?
Is it your fate to die?
Gimme a GOOD reason why death.... is better than the around 50-60ish years you have to live after right now where you could make friends with?
There is no good reason for that.
Its not... worth it
harsh dragon
@digital shoal Please tell me you're still here I'd like to talk to you for a bit If I can
digital shoal
Gimme a GOOD reason why death.... is better than the around 50-60ish years you h...
i watched my friends die
harsh dragon
Gimme a GOOD reason why death.... is better than the around 50-60ish years you h...
People often choose a temporary escape that leads to worse things.
harsh dragon
i watched my friends die
I won't try to stop you but let me tell you I've tried before and It doesn't fix anything it just makes it worse.
digital shoal
I won't try to stop you but let me tell you I've tried before and It doesn't fix...
it will
i get some rest
harsh dragon
You mean a trip to the hospital and being treated like an idiot for years?
Probably not the best option bro
Trust me I'd know 😭
digital shoal
i already get that
harsh dragon
It isn't worth it I still feel alone and I still want to harm myself but it's been almost 2 years and I haven't done anything bad
Trust me it gets better over time
digital shoal
ive tried to hang myself before and i felt happy whn i did it
harsh dragon
ive tried to hang myself before and i felt happy whn i did it
How do you fail to hang yourself.
stable minnow
Potato, I would like to say something.
harsh dragon
I imagine just dangling there cannot be a pleasant experience
stable minnow
I tried to overdose today.
It’s not good.
I know things may seem impossible.
Even if your heart is set on it.
digital shoal
I imagine just dangling there cannot be a pleasant experience
it was
stable minnow
It’s not good.
harsh dragon
Ok well idk
digital shoal
How do you fail to hang yourself.
rope got cut by my sister
stable minnow
The fact she did that means people care.
If someone cares, then maybe talk to them first.
digital shoal
ig
digital shoal
ok
digital shoal
ok
digital shoal
yea
stable minnow
Text me when you’re done with it.
harsh dragon
It's 2 am it's probably best I don't discuss any of these themes right now but my friend tried to commit a couple of months ago trust me it's not worth it.
stable minnow
We’ve made a deal. You can go if you want.
Okay, @digital shoal to expand on the deal, you have to ask every single person you know.
fiery raven
I already say no.
stable minnow
People have tried, i thought’d it be better to make a impossible to lose deal.
stable minnow
That might be good.
cedar cobalt
.
stable minnow
But, their sister cut them down when they tried to hang themselves, and that means one person will say no.
At least.
We just have to wait it out.
digital shoal
hey
stable minnow
Done?
digital shoal
yea
stable minnow
Results?
digital shoal
50/50
stable minnow
Did anyone say don’t do it?
digital shoal
a few
stable minnow
Then our deal is put into effect.
digital shoal
everyone mostly said yes
stable minnow
Listen to me.
digital shoal
am i that bad
stable minnow
Maybe to them. But who cares about them?
digital shoal
me?
digital shoal
i need someone to care about
stable minnow
You can care about me if you want to.
digital shoal
i dont know u
digital shoal
ye
stable minnow
Care about her.
digital shoal
ok
stable minnow
You can be friends with your siblings y’know. So you can have her as a friend.
digital shoal
what hurts the least tho
digital shoal
would jumping off a building hurt more than sliting my throat
digital shoal
i wanna know
digital shoal
if you tell me i wont
stable minnow
Okay.
Jumping off a building would hurt for a moment before you die, but if you fall in the wrong way, it hurts more than anything.
digital shoal
im talking high enough to go splat
stable minnow
It only hurts for a moment if you go head first.
digital shoal
oki
digital shoal
ok
stable minnow
Y’know what, around what age are you?
Wait, i just remembered.
Okay, around what age is your sister?
stable minnow
Okay. Ask your sister word for word “Can i stay with you tonight? I’m having suicidal thoughts.”
I’m helping you.
digital shoal
shes asleep
stable minnow
Darn.
digital shoal
its like 1:20 am
stable minnow
Okay, can you promise to stay alive till morning, then ask her if she can stay with you because you’re having suicidal thoughts?
Or you could wake her up if you wanted to.
digital shoal
ok
digital shoal
ill wait
stable minnow
Okay. Please put check in texts every hour, okay?
I need acknowledgment @digital shoal .
stable minnow
It’s okay, you can lie down and rest.
Just don’t die.
Okay?
Just send a text when you’re awake.
I wish you life, @digital shoal
digital shoal
It’s okay, you can lie down and rest.
oki
stable minnow
Okay. Goodnight.
hardy oar
.
digital shoal
im just gonna end this post
stable minnow
Okay!
vast hare
maybe ill gut myself
Think about the mess
stable minnow
They’re happy now, don’t worry.
vast hare
Ok thank god
stable minnow
Yeah, i helped them through it.
vast hare
Thank you so muck, truly an amazing person
stable minnow
Thank you.
stable minnow
kinda wanna do it'
POTATO!
stable minnow
no one cares
I do.
digital shoal
might as well
stable minnow
Your sister does.
digital shoal
nor really
stable minnow
Really?
digital shoal
yeah
stable minnow
Then why did she cut you down?
digital shoal
i tried to break her bfs arm
stable minnow
Why???
digital shoal
i cant remember
digital shoal
but i feel like its time
stable minnow
No, it’s not!
digital shoal
brb#
digital shoal
getting a knife
stable minnow
NO
fiery raven
horizontal or vertical
Neither is prefurred.
stable minnow
I ALREADY WANT TO DIE, PLEASE DON’T DO THIS!
fiery raven
I like the idea of "no cut".
digital shoal
Neither is prefurred.
ig ill do both thn
neon chasm
Potato, what is the cause of this?
fiery raven
No!
stable minnow
ig ill do both thn
No!
neon chasm
we can help
stable minnow
Potato, what is the cause of this?
Horrible depression, already tried to end it once
fiery raven
Because we care about you, dude. You are a human, you are young and you should honestly live. I know it may seem dark, but there is light. Sometimes it takes awhile fur our eyes to adjust to see it.
neon chasm
See what it does to other people when you commit suicide? Maybe your pain goes away but other people still feel pain cause of it
So pls don’t do it
digital shoal
my pain isnt just from that
neon chasm
my pain isnt just from that
But it’s a factor
And it will be a big factor for other ppl if you do it
You promised me you won’t do it again
digital shoal
yeah well sometimes promices are broken
neon chasm
Pls
digital shoal
the warm blood would send a message
neon chasm
I promise you your situation will better
digital shoal
my parents would finaly listen
neon chasm
Can you open a window or smt like that to relax
neon chasm
my parents would finaly listen
We can help you so they’ll listen
But this can’t be an option
digital shoal
it can be
idle sigil
It's not an option
I know that this isn't what you want to hear, but doing it won't change anything. Your pain won't go away, it'll just transfer to other people (at least your parents, but I'm sure that there's more people)
digital shoal
you think i care about my parents
neon chasm
you think i care about my parents
Your sister will care
digital shoal
nooo
neon chasm
She cares about you
digital shoal
my family can rot
idle sigil
And you matter, to more people than just your family
neon chasm
First of all, can you pls put away your knife
digital shoal
And you matter, to more people than just your family
i dont matter
idle sigil
i dont matter
You do, at least to me
digital shoal
it is that simple
idle sigil
it is that simple
It's not
digital shoal
share my final moments
idle sigil
You won't do it
idle sigil
No, you won't
idle sigil
Last time someone killed themselves, I cried... a lot... way too much for someone I never even talked to
That will happen again if you do it
And I'll probably hurt myself if you do so
digital shoal
im sorry
idle sigil
Sorry for what?
digital shoal
but i want to do this
idle sigil
You do
digital shoal
like
idle sigil
You have me
neon chasm
And me
digital shoal
ig
neon chasm
And more tried to stop you before
digital shoal
and i still hurt them
neon chasm
You only hurt them if you hurt yourself
digital shoal
ig
idle sigil
We care about you
neon chasm
We really do
idle sigil
So much, that this even exists https://discord.com/channels/1077258761443483708/1389362747027751032 . You're wanted here
You were always wanted
digital shoal
why do people cae
idle sigil
why do people cae
Because you matter
idle sigil
i don even know them
I don't either. But every single human counts to me. No matter what, everybody matters, including you
You have a limited amount of time on earth, why not use it to do fun things with good people?
digital shoal
can you tell me about yourself
digital shoal
ok
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digital shoal
ok
idle sigil
Uhm
idle sigil
Heyyy guys:)
**Name:** ech0 (I don't wanna say my real name 😞)
**Age:** 16
*...
That literally wasn't me
digital shoal
?
neon chasm
It was a bot
idle sigil
The Bot Message
neon chasm
Echo didn’t do it himself
idle sigil
But it's the same message so who cares
digital shoal
ok
idle sigil
Heyyy guys:)
**Name:** ech0 (I don't wanna say my real name 😞)
**Age:** 16
*...
So yeah, that's me. Feel free to ask any question
idle sigil
why you no likke drugs
Because they only hurt people
I don't see a single positive thing about them
digital shoal
ehh
idle sigil
But many negative things
digital shoal
helped me
idle sigil
Depends. Did they directly help you or did they just make you not think about it?
Because if they just made you not think about it, there are wayyy better alternatives
If they helped you directly, how?
digital shoal
made me happy for a whilr
idle sigil
But there are better things to make you happy. Things that don't contain messing up your body
digital shoal
my body cant get much worse
stable minnow
my body cant get much worse
Yes it can. It can decompose.
idle sigil
Yeah, but it would've been better if you never took drugs
digital shoal
Yeah, but it would've been better if you never took drugs
ehh well
digital shoal
Yes it can. It can decompose.
ig
stable minnow
Yeah. So don’t let it.
digital shoal
still gonna do em
idle sigil
You could try slowly taking them off, maybe do them less. And then just switch it up with other things
digital shoal
like different ones
idle sigil
Wdym different ones? Different types, just switching them?
idle sigil
I meant switching them with things that don't harm your body
idle sigil
That's why I want you to switch them with something that still helps, but doesn't harm you directly
digital shoal
i like being high
idle sigil
Then start disliking it and start liking alternatives
digital shoal
Then start disliking it and start liking alternatives
ill try
idle sigil
ganna find mi lighter
As long as you keep the knife away, I'm fine with it
digital shoal
As long as you keep the knife away, I'm fine with it
mhm
om still probably gonna go it
just maybe like in a few days
digital shoal
As long as you keep the knife away, I'm fine with it
oki
lethal pike
Potato we all want what's best for you, I want you avoid sharp things for the next week okay, and find out if you can start to see someone, but please don't do it, it isn't worth it. It might seem so hard not to but help is out there you can work through this just like I am. I have faith in you I want you to be okay. I've learnt this myself but nothing comes from doing the deed okay all that ends up happening is the world loosing one of its most valued people. Potato, please don't do it. Take a break if where you live has a suicide hotline please call them now, then stay away from things that are sharp okay. You have to be willing to work through this and we all know you can do this. We all love you Potato and the world doesn't deserve to loose you. Okay.
limber tendon
We'll be here to support you and listen /gen
digital shoal
Potato we all want what's best for you, I want you avoid sharp things for the ne...
i dont have anyone irl
no one
im alone
and seriously depressed
neon chasm
i dont have anyone irl
Then text people here. My DM’s are open for you if you need someone to talk to
white valley
lethal pike
and seriously depressed
except you do. we're right here. Could you tell us which country you live in so we can sus out a way to get you help?
digital shoal
except you do. we're right here. Could you tell us which country you live in so ...
england
digital shoal
except you do. we're right here. Could you tell us which country you live in so ...
i dont know
i think i should just not bother
limber tendon
It's okay. You're not a bother to us. We may sometimes struggle with the right words, but we're here
digital shoal
It's okay. You're not a bother to us. We may sometimes struggle with the right w...
i am a bother though
limber tendon
We all make mistakes. Every single one of us. We're humans and that makes us flawed. That doesn't make you a monster. It make you human.
And no, you're not a bother.
If you were, I wouldn't even put in the effort to text here or to respond. Quite frankly, I don't know you. But every life is worth living. Yours too.
digital shoal
If you were, I wouldn't even put in the effort to text here or to respond. Quite...
doubt mine is
limber tendon
That's valid. But I don't doubt it.
I believe it is worth it.
Do you maybe wanna tell why you're so convinced it is not worth living?
There's no need for that, if you don't want to
digital shoal
my friend died cos i couldnt help hi,
i ran 20 min to get to his house
just to see a bloodied corpse
limber tendon
I'm so fucking sorry to hear that. I can't even imagine how much that must've hurt
Do you think it's your fault he died?
limber tendon
What could you have done? It hurts, but the hurt us also proof that you cared and that you've tried.
stable minnow
Yeah!
limber tendon
No matter what, one of you would've gotten hurt. If you died, your friend would've been in your place now. And that would not be better.
Why do you think you're responsible for his death?
digital shoal
i wasnt there
limber tendon
Did you know what was going on?
limber tendon
But you couldn't have been faster. You ran. You tried. And that's what matters.
If you would've been a terrible friend, you would've stayed. But you didn't. Sometimes we humans make mistakes. Sometimes we're too late. I hate that you had to witness this. But again. Could you have been faster? Or earlier? Ask yourself this and answer it with the knowledge you had back then. Not the knowledge you have now.
And I bet. This would never happen to you ever again.
digital shoal
i want to bleed
stable minnow
i want to bleed
Can you wait?
digital shoal
to join her
stable minnow
to join her
Maybe not…
limber tendon
I think it would make her happier if you would live.
stable minnow
Yeah, to not meet the same fate as her.
digital shoal
i miss her
limber tendon
If I would die, I'd want those I left behind to have a happy life. I wouldn't expect it. A try is enough.
stable minnow
i miss her
That’s absolutely normal.
digital shoal
she was like my older sis
stable minnow
she was like my older sis
That must’ve hurt, right?
limber tendon
i miss her
Maybe you can try writing to her? I don't know in what you believe. But there's a slight chance your words might reach her.
limber tendon
she was like my older sis
I'm so sorry to hear that. Would you like to have a hug? Wanna tell me what kind of person she was?
But only if that's not too painful.
stable minnow
I'm so sorry to hear that. Would you like to have a hug? Wanna tell me what kind...
I’m sorry, you’ve got this under control, I’ll go away.
limber tendon
Sometimes letting it out can help a lot.
digital shoal
Maybe you can try writing to her? I don't know in what you believe. But there's ...
i should meet her
limber tendon
I’m sorry, you’ve got this under control, I’ll go away.
It's okay. I'm very happy to see that you care /gen
digital shoal
I'm so sorry to hear that. Would you like to have a hug? Wanna tell me what kind...
ccaring
nice
she kept me going
limber tendon
i should meet her
You have plenty of time to meet her after you had a long life. After you get to make some experiences to share with her. If you can't live for you, do you think you can live for her until you found something else worth living for...?
limber tendon
she kept me going
She sounds like an amazing person
digital shoal
i lost pretty much everything
idle sigil
You won't
Please
Not a single person here wants to see you dead. Just stay with us, please
limber tendon
You do. Even the smallest and most "insignificant" human has an impact. Everyone matters.
digital shoal
idont
limber tendon
Every human includes you /gen
digital shoal
?
limber tendon
Means you matter
digital shoal
Every human includes you /gen
wht is /gen
limber tendon
It's a tone tag and means "genuine"
digital shoal
ohh oki
limber tendon
Mhm ^^
limber tendon
That doesn't solve the problem. It would be a death either way
digital shoal
she would be alve tho
crystal depot
Do you think she would be happy that you are dead?
You can’t take the blame for her death.
digital shoal
i can
crystal depot
Why would you?
digital shoal
it is my fault
crystal depot
How?
crystal depot
That’s guilt.
And its understandable
Grief makes you feel all kinds of things and losing someone isn’t easy.
digital shoal
i deserve death]
crystal depot
You didn’t tell her to die. She was in pain. That’s all it was. Instead of wanting to die why not make her story mean something by spreading awareness to stop pain.
If she were alive and you weren’t she would also be suffering. I don’t think she intended for you to follow her.
digital shoal
i shouldve been there
crystal depot
You know you can’t always be there. And this will be a hard grieving process. You’re allowed to feel sad and angry.
Dying would only make the cycle worse. People care about you, even if you think you’re alone. Someone cares. Every presence makes an impact.
digital shoal
i wanna cut stab die
crystal depot
You should speak to a professional.
digital shoal
ill just waste their time
crystal depot
Sounds like an excuse, more than an actual reason.
limber tendon
I so agree with Riven. Professional help sounds like a good idea.
crystal depot
No one can stop you from your own choices.
digital shoal
you know why
limber tendon
No, we don't.
lethal pike
gkkd night
No potato, we want you here. Please i want you to go to someone offline that you trust, and ask for help. Okay? Please potato, we want you here.
stable minnow
No one can stop you from your own choices.
Okay, I get this is your way of trying to help, but dear god. This sounds encouraging.
crystal depot
Okay, I get this is your way of trying to help, but dear god. This sounds encour...
It’s not encouraging, but I am being realistic. Im sitting behind a phone screen starting at the digital signature of a stranger online. I know nothing but that doesn’t make me sacrifice my empathy. I advise against suicide but what more can I do realistically? I can plea and beg and spam but that doesn’t make a difference if they made up their minds now does it?
stable minnow
It’s not encouraging, but I am being realistic. Im sitting behind a phone screen...
Well maybe try, because I can’t speak for anyone else, but I care about Potato, and I son’t want to see them die. So if you think you can’t do anything, don’t say that!
crystal depot
Did you stop them this time?
stable minnow
I vowed never to hate people. You make that hard.
crystal depot
I mean no harm with my words
crystal depot
Okay.
crystal depot
In honesty, I did what I could without sacrificing myself in the process.
I understand their grief. And I understand your empathy.
stable minnow
Well, it caused more grief!
They could be dead!
I tried to help!
But they gave up!
Because no one tried while I was away!
crystal depot
That doesn’t mean death.
stable minnow
I wasn’t fast enough!
They said they would gut themselves the first time!
They had a knife!
It’s pretty reasonable to say them might be dead!
crystal depot
Sorry you feel that way.
limber tendon
I understand your feelings but ffs. Don't fight in this post about it, when it's about neither of you.
crystal depot
I understand your feelings but ffs. Don't fight in this post about it, when it's...
Valid
idle sigil
gkkd night
Please... where are you?
limber tendon
He's alive.
neon chasm
He's alive.
How do you know?
limber tendon
Talking in dms
limber tendon
Was asked to inform people here
limber tendon
No problem
digital shoal
hey
idle sigil
Hii
digital shoal
@stable minnow hey
stable minnow
Oh, hello!
idle sigil
The most important thing is that you're okay
idle sigil
got a big hole in me
wdym??
stable minnow
Oh, hey potato! Why do you ask?
digital shoal
cos you seemed distraught earlier
stable minnow
cos you seemed distraught earlier
Well, yeah. I really care about you.
digital shoal
srry
stable minnow
It’s okay!
crystal depot
That’s good ^^
crystal depot
Well now its time to let it heal.
digital shoal
Well now its time to let it heal.
yea
now that i think about it
it probably wasnt a great idea